shi/hir, 17. autistic and mentally/neurologically disordered traumaendo system. previously known as riotmarrow. do not send dono asks. do not post us to fakedisordercringe or systemscringe. zios, radqueers, and darkshippers do not interact, we don't like you.
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okay so since uhh. my request for someone to make a flag got declined and i kinda for the most part chilled out, i decided to make my own flag.
if anyone wants to redesign it pleaaaase go ahead. i had no ideas for the flag aside from the persecutor flag by epikulupu. the inside is also inverted from said flag, to either symbolize the specific part that is different, or the rest of the system that is different — you decide.
who won?! who's next?! you decide! (reference)
but yeah um. say hello to my shittily made flag.
(anyone is free to make a flag for this, as well as post it on pluralpedia!)
a new order just arrived : fadhbpart !
so, like. ok. i, nec, have a fragment in my (ringed) subsystem that is. not my favorite to say the least. shi is a type of part that i don't really like or vibe with personally, but i had to make a role for lust because absolutely no other terms can possibly fit. and now that i've redone our profile, i figured that i'd post this for the public to see.
heads up, this term includes rad//queer and dark//ship mentions. we aren't rad//queer and never will be! and please for the love of everything holy do not send hatemail because that is a guaranteed block. abide by your own dni's please.
a persecutor who acts in "problematic" ways according to the rest of the [system], or engages in such behavior as a way to vent for the [system], rid oneself or the [system] of urges, or for other related reasons. a fadhbpart does not act in accordance to the rest or majority of the [system]'s views.
— ( fadhb, pronounced "fibe," roughly translates to "problem" in irish gaelic. )
( terms in brackets are obviously able to be changed for whatever a plural calls oneself. )
examples of a fadhbpart can include :
a headmate who is rad//queer or uses related terms to describe oneself, in a system that is majority anti rad//queer
a headmate who uses or ships dark//ships for whatever reason, whilst in a system that is majority antiship or anti dark//ship
a headmate who has or holds an addiction (and acts on said addiction) that the others do not have.
.. and more. this is for whatever you deem to be not in accordance with the rest of your headmates.
btw happy miku day and happy birthday to my beloved boyfriend. sorry i feel like shit on your bday. love you dearly if it wasn't obvious enough mwah
☾ ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ ⏾ Rolling girl
date idea: u tell me exactly how u feel about me in specific detail until my brain calms down and stops thinking u hate me
DEAR ALL SCAMMERS WHO POSE AS OLD RAGGEDY ASS SUGAR DADDIES GO KILL YOURSELVES I DON'T WANT A FUCKING MESSAGE OR A SINGLE FUCKING COMMENT FROM YOU GO FUCKING KILL YOUR WORTHLESS SELVES I'M A GODDAMN CHILD AND I'M TAKEN. GO FUCKING ROT IN THE JAIL CELL YOU DESERVE TO BE IN
anyways hi guys this DIRECTLY contradicts my fucking banner (positivity? haha not tonight!) but i want to not just crawl out of my skin. i want to rip it off! tear my organs to shreds! i want to KILL someone! i want to MAUL someone! tear someone to shreds! i want to rip my own body apart because the way i experience rage is so unique and i hate it! i hate it so fucking much and nobody UNDERSTANDS me. and nobody cares about me either! and god forbid my friends actually like. idk talk to me unless they need something. at least that's how it feels sometimes. I'M usually the one to reach out. do they hate me? am i too annoying and insane for all of them? probably! because fuck me i guess! might as well kill myself!
i'm not actually a suicide risk btw. this is hypothetical and overreacting.
When the dissociative identity disorder starts dissociating my identity
🌺 and 🌑. :3
HI MY BOYWIFE HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOYWIFE I LOVE YOU DEARLY. anyways the questions...
🌺 "if you're a primarily queer system, are there any cishets? and if you're a primarily cishet system are there any queer headmates?"
a: yeah we're mostly queer. you would know that wouldn't you. anyways tavish (demoman tf2 fictive) is the only cishet in here and he's barely fucking here anyways.
🌑 "what's the most obscure source anyone has? (ocs do not count)"
a: if we're not counting parts who are no longer here, i'd say ūnit01, who is a partial kintroject (robot/androids), aesthetive (based on cyber y2k + mechagirl aesthetics), and has the appearance of niche internet influencer yūnmago. if we ARE counting parts who are no longer here, i'd have to say EITHER vince (introject of vince from voodoo vince) (2003, original xbox title action-platformer) or bunny (the song "hey bunny" by baby bugs, and generally an introject of 2020 alternative styles, especially n3kobit3/nekobite)
(boywife i can't @ you to let you know i answered but i did)
💌 and 💐 for the plural ask game? :3c
HELL YEAH BRO 🔥🔥 sorry guys that is an OOMFIE!
ask game answer under da cutttt
💌 "are there distinctions between headmates' handwriting? if so, who had the worst handwriting? and who has the best?"
a: there's not really much, if any of a distinction between us. though, i seem to always be just a little bit sloppier sometimes.
💐 "are there any headmates that can do something in real life that the rest can't?"
a: well we can all sing in this body because of us being a choir kid so that's out of the question.. honestly i have no clue. although i am the only one with a bad sense of smell. they're all decent or just better than me. fuck them and their noses
( @confettisketty to let you know i've answered! )
Me when a person seems really cool and I wanna befriend them but they have harmless groups in their DNI (like endos, contradicting labels, harmless paraphilias etc)
nobody sends asks because i literally JUST turned it on BUUUUUUT... now they're open! ask away, minions!
Have an ask game we came up with while waiting around at the hospital today!!!
Remember to practice reblog karma!!*
*reblog karma does not apply to us/the original post, but you're free to send us asks anyways; and if you do, send them to @thecorpsefactory
❤️ — How many hosts do you currently have, and how many have you had in total?
🧡 — Do any of your hosts (current or previous) have sub/side/hemi/etc-system(s)?
💛 — Do people in your system retire from their roles/'jobs' often/do you have a high turnover rate?
💚 — Do you have an inner world? If so how many? And can you (or any headmate) control any of them?
💙 — If there are certain plural terms that your system doesn't like what are they? And why?
💜 — Do you have any age or age-identity that has more people aligning with it than others? (i.e. more 16 year olds than anything, more agesliders, etc)
🤎 — Is your system collectively any form of otherkin or therian? If so how did you figure out you were that collectively? And do any individual headmates not identify with it?
🖤 — Is there any type of role or headmate you wish you had more of? (i.e. more protectors, more traumaholders, more endogenic headmates, more walk-ins, etc)
🤍 — Do you have any system visitors? (i.e. someone who doesn't live in your system but stops by sometimes— doesn't have to be able to front)
💌 — Are there distinctions between headmates' handwriting? If so who has the worst handwriting? And who has the best?
💐 — Are there any headmates who can do something IRL that the rest can't? (i.e. sing, use chopsticks, dance, do math, etc)
🌹 — Any headmates have over 20 different names?
🥀 — If you have an inner world are there any places from real life that are there? Or any places inspired by real life?
🌺 — If you're a primarily queer system, are there any cishets? And if you're a primarily cishet system are there any queer headmates?
🌷 — Are there any multisourced headmates with over 15 different sources?
🌸 — Is there anyone taller than 60ft/18.2m?
🌻 — If you use emojis (or other symbols) to indicate headmates, have there ever been fights over who gets what?
🌼 — If you could describe your system in words that have nothing to do with plurality or spirituality, how would you?
🌑 — What's the most obscure source anyone has? (OCs do not count)
🌒 — Do you have anyone who wants nothing to do with their source, and doesn't identity with it, but still uses with their name and/or appearance from their source?
🌓 — Do any headmates have allergies that carry over to the body when fronting? If so do they act like normal allergies or are they more 'mild'?
🌔 — Are there any headmates who struggle with modern technology? If so why?
🌕 — Can anyone speak any languages in headspace that they can't speak bodily?
🍎 — If you experience amnesia barriers, are there any headmates who have inconsistent barriers? (i.e. sometimes sharing memories fine, other times being unable to, only being able to share with a select few, etc)
🍏 — What is the highest amount of headmates you've ever had at any given moment? And what is the lowest amount you've had at any given moment?
🍋 — If you have an inner world, has it always been there? Or did you have to work to create it?
🍍 — If you're religious, do any of your headmates practice a religion different from your collective one?
🍉 — If you have an inner world, do you have inner variants of social media or other forms of digital contact? (i.e. phones, laptops, etc)
🫐 — If you're publicly a system, who was the first person(s) you told? And why? What was their reaction?
🍒 — Do you have any headmates that originate from a system other than your own, but now reside within yours?
[ PLAIN TEXT ] We Are A Diagnosed Traumagenic DID System We Are Pro Endogenic And You Will Not Change Our Mind If You Harass Us You Give Us Consent To Harass You Back
(i put some long ass tags oh my GOD)
that was snippy lol but you have honest to god got to get over the propaganda spoonfed to you about heroin and meth in particular. no they are not magic evil killers that instantly take over your brain like an invasive fungus no there is no such thing as any drug or medical intervention that is 100% risk free. you already know heroin and meth users they are members of your communities and social circles and societies not bogeymen from a childrens book. this kneejerk treatment of heroin and meth like they're uniquely addictive and dangerous and too awful to even be spoken is racialised & classed & it kills people. get over itttt
sometimes plurality is
"oh yeah im alone in fron- hey. who is that. who said that"
not many know this but you can actually headcanon neurodivergencies other than adhd and autism. yes, even the Big Scary disorders like DID, schizophrenia or narcissism. no, not only for villains. yes, for the main characters, the important characters, the characters that you love. yeah!!!
no neurodivergent infighting here
You know what feels fucking amazing?
Telling a mental health professional we're a system and getting believed, with zero fakeclaiming, zero doubt, just curiosity as to how we operate as a collective.
100/10
question 85: how open are you about being plural? why is that?
i'm ALSO sick of OLD FUCKING SCAMMING ASS MEN TELLING ME TO MESSAGE THEM. i'm loyal to my adorable malewife, not some loser posing as a sugar daddy so he can get access to my credit card information. i don't even HAVE a credit card! i don't even USE a bank!
reminds me of that one part we had years ago before our system randomly fused out of nowhere and reset again that was literally just like. stemmed from eating a pretzel? their name was literally pretzel. and they fucking loved pretzels. mostly the stick ones actually
cringe system culture is..
why tf do we have a headmate bc of eating a candy cane?!
~🌑🍄 sys
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@confettisketty oh hey it's you (gonna call you a SLUR.)
..me too actually.
needed this for a request - definition from here! i just went with tech-y colors.
flag id: a flag with 5 vertical stripes. in order, they are dark blue-grey, yellow-green, silver-white, blue, and dark grey. in the center of the flag is a large white circle with a black outline. end id.
dni transcript here
so so very tired. i can't take being tired anymore... so tired of being disabled because being disabled makes me tired. i am exhausted and i wish someone else could front to get the load off of me.
i will absolutely grab one of the random nameless, bodyless fragments that are probably in my system and morph it into someone who can help me. but like i've done that before, i've created parts. they haven't fronted after their creation and it fucking sucks
please i just want someone equipped to help me with this to front. why can't i push through this constant neverending lethargy and exhaustion. i can probably almost fall asleep standing up right now, and yet i have to help mom clean up the room we share with her (because our bum ass housemates have; a, taken my room and the living room and b; don't help with anything and pretend everything is fine because they give us money for rent sometimes.)
@confettisketty pspspspspsps i think you like this guy ??????
more creatures commandos 🕺
absolutely earth-shattering news for young razputin
kill it with fire. the eyes look too realistic and yet it has that blocky body. jack black should not be steve. #notmysteve
why do the chickens look like that
✦ Abro Between Bi + Bi Lesbian + Lesbian
[PT: Abro between Bi + Bi Lesbian + Lesbian. END PT]
Being abrosexual between Bi, Lesbian, and both Bi and Lesbian
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voting grits because it is the only thing on this list i don't really like, my bad chat. the texture is, yes, made to be gritty, but good lord my autistic ass hates it. no hate to the grits fans
and don't call me out for being a yank... ermm... i've lived in the bible belt for a little over a decade 😭😭🤓
mike, she’s going to be a standee when i open my shop ‼️