18th Jan - Blog Posts

oh jeez. here’s comes the highlight of the day n the biggest/crazy part. okay well it’s not really crazy but feels like TO ME.

THE GAA PIECE!!!!! REMMEBER HOW I WANTED TO WORK ON IT!!!!! I FINALLY DID!!!!!’ WHOOOOP WHOOOOPP. how fitting it is that I do it, one day before the d-day ahaha ♥️

—I had like general idea of focusing on the guy with him bending like to get some kind of present and bending poses are like. the bane of my existence ngl. so I had to find refs and ha……..as I knew that refs didn’t exist. like I mean I couldn’t find it. where hell is my “bending slightly” ref pose?! none that’s where. so I just had to start it without it.

—so. the pose. 😐 I tried many attempts (it was two/three) and while while it looks kinda bending over. it felt too much or just — was off. but THEN…. OMG… I don’t even know where it came from (wait I think it was from general idea of robo/bean method I saw on proko vid) I just used two circles that are overalapping and made sure that one was more bending over and that fixed it???! I GOT IT IT???????? im freaking awesome that’s what. ahahah

—yeah yeah as you can see from my notes the pose wasn’t perfect felt off and stuff but anyways. yeah intially I had the idea of him actually bending to receive the present and it would be maybeee ambiguous who it is or maybe it’s the son. and like had floating ideas of sibs being there. but when I got to drawing the going to recieve the present, I was like hmmm. maybe it’s best that he’s already received it and has it in hand kind of scene? and I decided to just go with the son being in foreground (large) who is the one whl gave it.

—here is (above) my rough first sketch of the idea where I redraw the pose (using heh new method to do bending pose….!!! <333) and this time he’s like holding the present or whatever and did scribble of the son in then foreground. I couldn’t be bothered for actual trying to draw in son in foreground like that. like no.

—after that I went over to drawing over and doing the clothes and more finalised sketch and I was really liking it!!! it was coming along VERY nicely. but well. yeah there was a lot to do and focus as I did the notes there. but that was for future me….. sigh I think I knew on some level that this wasn’t just gonna work out. but well it doesn’t hurt to try you know.

—I came back after a bit, procrastinating really cuz I did NOT wanna draw this guy in foreground…! I knew how it’s gonna be like. but yeah I did get around to doing it. practice n shit first. well it’s not really practice lol.

—it was just trying to get an overall feel for how things should be placed/be like and it was just blocks that I was working with to help figure stuff out and yeah I don’t think I knew what I was doing but thought I gist of it (yeah. No. I didn’t 😔)

—yeah and then I drew pose for the son so I can get a feel for how the pose would be like and lololol it did feel… for the gesture… so stiff… I think it might have to do with how there’s no diff angles. I guess. and hey… you know what. looking at this now. it’s not actually bad…….? I think maybe there should be a more an overlap but not bad and I do think lol gaa is looking super awkward with his posing. looking at the sketch of the pose I can see it might have to do with how weirdly out the pelvis is…? when it feels like he’s not really bending over in this one hmmm. but anyways im happy to know that I can still came back to this one.

—anyways I did do a draw over the son pose and my GOSH was it hard to even try to find 💀💀💀💀 ref… I don’t know how to draw the stupid back of his or his clothes. and well. I guess that he would be wearing more casual clothes anyways but well. whatever.

—yeah after doing this I realised. yeah no sadly this is Was not going to work out 💀💀💀💀💀 (but like I said looking at this now from the future it’s the not bad??? I think may haps be too much distance between them butttt??? Also yeah the son’s pose looks weirdly stiff but yeah.)

—I was initially going to for a similar thing (going to reach for presents/holding presents) but well. I did try to doodle something after that but I was like. maybe I need to step back and think properly and stuff……

and so came the second idea….!!!!!!

you know for this one im not even gonna say anything. it was one hell of a trip to madness though. that I will say. my gosh. I freakin hate you angel boy…..

I don’t even want to say anything. but funny how I was like oh I wanna see if I remember how to still draw him. tried to draw him. goes “hehehe I still remember” decides to check the trace and compare and ah: here’s where the madness starts. at at point I realize there’s no point to this. who the fck cares, also looking at the series, I don’t think he’s drawn the same constantly but kinda changed but I think it’s the sense of colouring and similarity that carries over. whatever. I just give up.

Even when I tried to draw another character it didn’t go well. im just. throwing in flag. but I. Guess I do want to at least study his hair in a bit. man just looking at this makes me want to punch something. I cannot.

back to poses…<3

back to poses…<3

30sec poses + hands. Mainly hands. :/

—I had to go upstairs for something and so I got opportunity to grab pen n paper…!!! I just started with random pose from imaginary… and I was gonna do just poses from ref but remembered the whole 30s pose thingy and did it and OF COURSS it immediately 💀 started with a super hard pose….! man I felt like this session of 30s was infinitely harder than 16th… I was just quickly scribbling it in. ah right I remember. of course it was harder because of the set up. my stupid glasses that kept falling down (I really need to get it properly fitted) and how I placed my iPad so I had to keep looking up. yeah that didn’t help/do any favours lol.

—also portions got skewed that lol all the poses looked like younger than I was hitting for. but oh well.

—I def didn’t want do another timed session… and did debate on a longer timed session but I didn’t want to… so I thought to just focus on a pose of the day for posemanic.. and randomly picked this one. holding chest out, proud pose. and I tried it: the angle it was on alright was one that covered the other hand and yeah from first v, I could see that I didn’t bring out the chest as much as it could been….! also cries I have no idea what the f I was doing with the legs??? like I felt completely lost??? (I realised later that’s cuz I was doing the whole sectioning of the legs into two parts and working from there. im not familiar with legs at all to try and just do it lolll. (Yeah I really do need to brush up on my leg knowledge and stuff. I mean I know some muscles and stuff but not really bones that much except some and gist…not like im getting to know the arm/feet and I should change that…..One Dsy…. I just don’t have that much of motivation to work on legs like that… lololol)

—I should def get back to that poss later on to properly study . helpful it was on digital then, since I feel like the limitations of traditional were not helpful in that regard.

—but even so about limitations of digital… oh no… im feeling sleepy (not surprised) but it’s a btch while trying to write this up. and i hoped to be done within the day. ahhhhh. Wait there’s like few hours left of the day. I can make it. Anyways so where was I: yes limitations of tradition yes there is but like. Also. Strong points and did like going back to pen and just drawing which is good… my new rip off Apple Pencil has no pressure sensitivity :/ so writing with some that does is so so soiooo nice skiskkkjj. Lmao I was sleeping here but im normal again now. anyways as I was saying… it feels so nice to pen stuff!!! but also kind of annoying! I should do more traditional stuff!!!!

—working on that chest stick out pose reminded me of the skkr/karin wip.. so I went to draw it just to get a feel for it since I honestly don’t like how I did it before I want the shirt to be BIG and FOCUS and yeah this one didn’t go well. like I said about pen + traditional, I accidentally made the arms too close in and not further as it’s picking it up so I was like ehhh alright and had to deal with it lol.

—hands!!!! and more hands!!!! okay today really is the Hand day. I was focusing on like figuring out how had works and draw it and imaging the way it bends and it was I think at first working for me I think I was all getting it. feeling like I was getting closer and well… later on I do draw more hands on digital. and these do some look better but also my GOSH

—my fingers… :’ also i just think at one point i just got be like. i had enough of hands. I tried to do a bit of figuring out to make sure I remember the length of fingers or whatever anyways hand is so complicated n hard because of the fingers and how everything moves and they all do stuff relative to each other and it’s just so annoying. and it doesn’t help I can’t roughly draw it in as it freakin looks like it makes no sense that way so i have to think of each pose of finger before I put it down and yeah hand was just getting to be super annoying and I couldn’t anymore

—but here I did draw a nice hand in that upper part. it was supposed to be initially more stretched out like the ref but well. no space so I just made it uknow more curled up.

—this one I redraw one of the poses I did for the 30 sec quick poses that I thought came out well and I think that it was nice to draw. I thought the arm didn’t come out as well and considering how I was supposed to be better at arms now even a lil bit. (ha…….) I had to try and redraw it to look more nicer and happy…!!! because hey. it looks like it is more nicer..

—and ah before I forget to mention. I did this lil thing. I was honestly. Bored and i didn’t know what to fill more the page but wanted to continue to just do that. so I kinda did boxes or whatever? and it turned into a more bringing in character into environment. and well. it was well. you know what it was. but I redrew it again, remembering to add a lil more perspective to the box thingy (making it feel like it’s going towards somewhere (a vanish point)) and it def did add depth! thank you that one video! I do want to draw more characters in environment. it’s a weak point of mine and one the things that.. I just like ?? to do. it’s just so cool (idk if that’s the word) when you able to ground a character to an environment like it’s just. SO COOL.

WORKING TO CRACK ON THOSE ARMS…!!!!!

Doing some observing since im just sitting around… and I realised it was hard to do observing in like and thought I might as well do screenshots and draw over even on phone but problem is that while I think it might be helping me…? With trying to figure stuff… it’s not really penetrating my mind… so maybe I really need to draw smth even on pencil n paper but I don’t really want to. So I think I should do more deep mental drawing. Like taking a moment to construct the stuff in my mind like im actually drawing there… with each stroke and see how it goes… 6.39

—6.40 one thing I just realised as I was doing this is heh… wait… the torso/pec muscle are literally connected to top part of the hand… wow… it really puts a lot of this into perspective. like when I was drawing hands and trying to understand how it freaking is when drawing it just like. next to torso. it’s hard to guage how close anyways. I feel like I knew (well yeah I knew cuz lmao I wouldn’t have came to this if I didn’t) this but it’s not knowledge I keep in mind and forgot to… so that’s important… to realise. It makes the arms feel less floaty and more connected. same with remembering how arms are slanted and not perfectly in align…. 6.42

I THINK IVE GOTTEN???? ARMS????? AHHHHHH (was watching el or whatever name’s video and I was repeating it for another reason I wanted to see what brush he was using and then I think how he does part of arm got inbrained in my skull… kinda funny how I never watched it all for what I wanted (the BR muscle) )

MAN DO I WANT TO REALLY DRAW ARMS SHIT NOW… BUT I CANT BE BOTEHRED TO GO UPSTRAIS TO GET PAPER/PEN OR IPAD…. this is why I should have paper n pen downstairs to be able to draw in… I will keep this in mind for later. AHHHHHHHH ID BE SO FREAKING HAPPY IF I ACTUALLY GET IT :’ also lmao the slighting bending over ref was supposed to be for ⏳ bday art… I really want to draw him… every time I lmaooooo see that red drawing I did I want to so badly draw him…… and considering his bday is tmmr…!!!!! I WILL GET TO DRAWING HIM!!!!!!! 7.23

One thing I will say today is fck arms like seriously… :’ they are the bane of today. I WILL CRACK ON THEM CUZ OH MY GOD —-

—like wtf :/ from yesterday okay so i wanted to focus on arms… and i think from videos i kind of watched what helped was the shoulders… i think i forget them…. And one thing i have trouble with the bend or whatever….??? I feel like I didn’t have this much trouble but whatever……………….

but lol instead of doing arm stuff I went into pose studies….? The first one I wanted to change the ref n make it more dynamic etc and wtf is the torso tbh… but happy with it… also looking at it now lol the arm portions suck. yeah another part that is :/ to me…

—anyways for the second one…. It was fun…. Trying to create stuff from the ref I saw… using it a base for pose idea but I wanted to add more personality and shit…. Anyways I think the arms was kind of fine….? Here….? But hard to draw tooo sIGH. anyways after that I just went ham in doing just arm studies. I had ENOUGH. and I wasn’t really doing it in a constructive or effective way tbh… just whatever… I figured maybe I drew arms for enough times I would get it………no that didn’t happen…… :’

so I went to do the bones and hey….?! maybe these might actually help…?! I see that from the bones… it shows how the shape of the arms be it is… with the wide point of the front… like wow… and and so I tried a pose in bones where it’s like bending arm above and I feel like I was getting it…? (especially helps to see the confusing mess that’s hard to draw of traps n deltoids bunching over when the arm twists up….) I drew over it and well. Yeah. Lololll not the method but does help in seeing stuff

—and I thinkkkkkk after this one I watched a video….???? Just to refresh some parts I might have finished and at this point I still didn’t have no fcking clue to how to approach stuff and did literally whatever. and see how it goes…and SIGH I don’t think some of it is bad but I give up honestly. I had enough.arms fck u. it’s so difficult with bending shit and I just don’t get it:/

—but taking a break….from this…. I realise that I HAVE A PAIR OF ARMS??? And I can do more obersvation and tracing; since the problem is portions and the bumps of arms and shit and bending in diff posss that get to me. So then: I should do more observational now and just observe and use my arms too like right now: how my arm is bending when im holding my phone. just thinking and being aware of stuff like that: my upper arm resting against my torso… bending upward in that kind of angle… and just being aware of that and visualing helps a lot…!!!! and it’s a good exercise because it’s quite literally my arm and I can just feel it out even I don’t see it. and one things I do even if im not art’ing physically and especially did a lot during the early times of this serious art journey is trying to imagine and construct the pose in my mind and how I would draw it in my mind. since my visuallinh is really good, I can draw stuff in my mind and think deeply and I think that observating other arts I can see and just photos and also feeling out how my arms work when i do stuff is how I should go about this for now. when all feel like it’s failing, falling back on observation is really helpful..!!!!!