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Today I learned something new about myself.

I have always been the smart kid and appearently it is not always a good thing for adulthood. Being used to getting things done easily becomes sabotating when life gets more complicated as an adult. I was praised as a kid for being smart but it also means not putting much effort.

I'm still sharp and capable, I still learn fast but I have no motivation. There is this constant isolation sense inside of me. And the pressure... The expectations are always high from me, I can't tolerate to fail and that's why I avoid many situations that challenges me. I feel socially behind.

The way I feel makes more sense now with this information. I should focus on understanding myself better and after that I should figure out how to undo this shit.