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Dogma Headcanon

When he was a cadet on Kamino, he was not the same reg-loving guy. He broke the rules, snuck food, classic cadet behavior.

*Obviously, Tup was his batchmate. They were the closest in their group.

ANYways, in a training sim gone wrong due to their team going off protocol, his entire batch besides he and Tup got killed. Tup suffered a head wound, which while didn’t cause significant damage then, is what got the ball rolling in his chip decaying. Dogma, on the other hand, only had minor damage.

After this, Dogma followed the regs more closely, but it still wasn’t to the full extent as we saw during the show. He stopped sneaking food, and he broke the rules less, but he was still a fun guy.

One day, Dogma accidentally overheard the Kaminoans talking about the chips. He ran away back to his bunk room, but not before being noticed by the Kaminoans.

Dogma was escorted to the lab, where the Kaminoans demanded to know what he had heard. Dogma, knowing better than to lie to a Kaminoan, told them. After gaining this information, they *reconditioned Dogma, but only of the information that they didn’t want him to know. Once the process was over, they threatened harm to his person if he ever told anyone what had just happened.

After this incident, Dogma became more reserved, and only talked to Tup. This is also when he became a target of bullying, which also contributed to his love for regs as they were the only thing (besides Tup) that never hurt him.

A few days before being shipped out to their battalions, the Kaminoans pulled Dogma to the side. As a final effort to scare Dogma into behaving, they threatened to harm Tup and himself if he ever disobeyed commands. After hours of threats and a deep cut curved around his eye (which Dogma eventually got his memorable tattoo to cover) Dogma promised to never speak of what had just happened.

His first battalion was serving with the 501st, and not even a year into his deployment the Umbara arc happened.

*Reconditioning. In this little au, I imagine reconditioning to be somewhat different than what is normally seen in Star Wars fics. The Kaminoans can select what clones can and cannot remember, and to what extent. Reconditioning is very painful and traumatic, and only works when the clone is awake. The more specific an event removal is, the more pain it causes. In Dogma’s case, they knew that removing his entire encounter with overhearing the Kaminoans would be useless, and cause eventual suspicion, so they just took out the part where Dogma heard what they were discussing.

+Something to note: the more a clone is reconditioned, the less stable their chip becomes. That’s why more clones are decommissioned than reconditioned, as the Kaminoans didn’t want their plans to be revealed. In Dogma’s case, after he was reconditioned, his chip stability decreased. During Umbara, Krell noticed something weird with Dogma, and when he did some force shit and found a link to manipulate Dogma using his chip (not that Krell new that’s what it was) he used this newfound knowledge for his own gain. He now had a clone that would listen to his command, and he could destruct the clones’ trust in one another. Throughout this all, Dogma was unaware of his or Krell’s actions, and only came to when Rex was hesitating to shoot Krell. After he shot Krell, his memories came rolling in, about what he did and what Krell did to him and everything else he witnessed during the Umbara arc.

If anyone wants to write something about this go ahead! Just put the fic and where I can find it in the comments so I can read it :)

the first thing you saw when you woke up was what seemed to be the infirmary, what happened..?

your head pounded still, so you didn’t move around too much. You were clearly laid down in of tge beds- you saw that were hooked up to some IV in your arm. carefully you sat up, against the wall behind you. what was this IV..? you couldn’t remember anything, besides passing out that is.

you heard the door open and close, but your eyes were closed as even the mere light from outside didn’t help your headache. you then felt somebody sit on the bed before speaking up.

“the hell were you thinking; pushing your body like that woman?” oh. it was Zoro.

“why would you care?” you groaned, opening your eyes to look at him. he seemed tense, there was eye bags under his eyes, yet he looked moodier than usual.

he glanced at you as he sighed, burying his face in one of his hands as he spoke. “because you’re my crewmate, idiot. you pushed it too far and your body practically gave up, you were out for two days straight.” he explained, you sat there quietly taking in this information.

“thought you’d be happy.” you scoffed, not caring to look at his bewildered expression that sat on his face as you spoke.

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The air was crisp, cold, lifeless.

Lifeless like the body of Satoru Gojo your husband, love of your life, is just lying in the battlefield. People dragging him away to get his body to use it. Like a fucking weapon.

Seeing a few tears roll down his face as his cursed energy kept him alive for a spilt second. Just watching the life die out of him, wrecks you to your very core.

You didn't even notice the warm drips of water roll down your face, as yours and his students fight Sukuna in the distance.

You might get Megumi back, your basically son but you'll never get over the fact that you won't get your sweet 'Toru back.

What shook you to your knees was seeing a candy rapper on the ground. His favourite.

He must've eaten them before the battle. He loved his sweets. And oh god he loved you.

Hearing screams, you wanna help but you can't because you're frozen, Stuck to the ground as you see his blood stains on the wet dirt.

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Should I do a full one to this? Such a cute fluff 😋 (sorry y'all)

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I'm deforestation

quiz: are you a marsh, swamp, bog, or fen?

Now the poll is over so let's take a look at each angsty ship.

Murther:

Now, everything i know about Murther is from memes and texts posts and headcannons. So I might not know much about the show but I have pretty good idea about the ship.

The angst come from the secrets and the entanglement due to destiny. Being two half of the same coin that never really got to be one

And obviously the ending. Aurther died soon after finding out the truth i think. So we also never got them to be together being truthful. Essentially, it ended right when it was gonna get good. They were good for each other. They loved each other with such softness and inevitability.

But now one of them is dead. Leaving  the other to live on alone which is one the worst outcomes out there. It's angsty but not toxic. They should have been together but alas.

Johnlock:

My idea of ship comes from BBC Sherlock. Like Murther, Sherlock and John are actually good for each other. AND they get a happy ending. As angsty as it gets. There is a positive ending. They got together. They healed each other. They were what each of them wanted.

The angst comes from sacrifice (Sherlock) and denial (John) They are the most important people in each other's life.

Their ship can be summarized in this phrase.

"I will go to hell for you, I will come with you."

However, their angst also comes from codependency. They are good for each other but they also fall apart without each other. They need each other. Their presence don't just make them better, their absence also destroy each other. It's the need! The amount of need is proportional to the amount of angst you get.

Destiel: speaking of need. This ship is defined by need. They are the best version of each other when they are together and worst version of each other when they are apart. They hate their own self but find salvation in loving each other and caring for people.

They understand each other. Dean would fight anything and everything to protect Cas but Cas won't let him and will stay in purgatory away from dean to keep Dean safe.

They are each other's strengths. They are also each other's weakness and those around them know it.

Cas will defy his purpose, his existence, his faith in God, already has, for Dean. And Dean, becomes a monster when you take Cas out of the equation. But he'd still pray, he'd still beg, he'd fight through everything to get his angel back and they even has 'i need you' stand it for I love you and I just jejdmsjnsndbbsbbebsh

Hannigram:

now we are leaving the angsty romance waters and entering the self destructive toxic love waters.

This ship is blatant. They know there is love under that obsession and vulnerability. But they are just too fucked up. Their I love you Is 'I see you'

Hannibal and Will. They both go through life feeling alone. Singular creatures. Then they come across each other and they are no longer alone. They clash they destroy each other in their love and obsession for each other. And at the end. Will brings out the selflessness out of Hannibal and Hannibal brings out the animal in Will.

Their whole story is poetic and they aren't letting each other go. Hannibal is so fucking scared of vulnerability that comes with love. He tests Will. Hoping that will won't see him. That Will will only see what he projects, like everyone else. But damn he is bared. And Will tries to deny himself over and over again but he is hopeless. Hannibal tries to eat him and Will tries to get him killed. It's their stuff and at the end. Will accepts the monster inside and kills them. And finally Hannibal gets honest and let's Will destroy him.

Finally we have Kalmoash:

Their story hasn't come to an end. AND I am not sure how Moash's arc will end. But the obsessive destruction is there. They are too, two sides of the same coin. Kaladin took a path that Moash could not.

Kaladin had people he could rely upon. Moash was encouraged into destruction. Now the choice was his but that doesn't negate that at their breaking point Kaladin had friends and people who cared in the past that gave him the strength and positive outlook to make the right choice while Mosh lost the only family he had and his whole life, lived with distain. Then at his weakest moment had odium.

And Moash loves Kaladin while kaladin is our local Aro Ace fly Boi. And he calls moash his closest. (Used to.) And as angry as Moash was, He still says to kaladin that if you say no I will stop. Its the  momentum and series of wrong choices that separates them.

And even after giving everything up. Moash still has one thread that ties him to his humanity. (I know how that feels and maybe that's why Moash is the only character that I feel any kinship to.)

Their conflict comes from the fact that they are bound by their own thinking.

Moash in his skewed way, helping the man he loves. Odium wants Kaladin. Moash knows that. He also knows that Kaladin would rather be dead. The servitude of odium is no life so he wants to kill kaladin to save him a worse fate. But he also knows that no one can kill kaladin. So he baits Kaladin to kill himself. (Peak toxicity).

In his mind he is saving Kaladin and Kaladin i thinks hate only cause he can't accept the other things that he feels.

Now so far Kaladin hasn't tried to save Moash. But now maybe he will try and reach out. I doubt it but damn I want moash to get better. Become a radiant or even a bondsmith. Better yet.A SKYBREAKER.

Their relationship is essentially. "You betrayed me I have to hate you or I will love you" "I hate you I will save you by killing you." They have such strong passion for each other and it will destroy them.

But I am hopeful that sunshine Boi Renarin can save them.

Let the war begin

The last stretch.

Let the war begin

Kalmoah is at the bottom. And loosing. The funny thing is. It's the most toxic relationship in fiction. Hannigram and destiel got nothing on kalmoash in terms of toxicity. Maybe it will Win a toxicity poll. This goes to show how few people know about it. Will explore it in the next post.

Let the war begin

Let the war begin

Poor guy

Overwhelmed (Vinny x Garmadon) Part 34

(I suggest you check out parts 1-33 if you haven't already, and also sorry for not posting a lot I've been...busy)

(This chapter might have slight gore I woke up feeling angsty today)

"Y'know you're a really smart guy...but how the fuck do you wear these clothes?!" Enji laughed out before snapping his fingers and his clothes changing from the white shirt, blue jacket and dark green cargo pants into a dark red shirt, a black jacket with red lines across the bottom, black jeans and black boots. "That's way more comfortable~!" Enji said as he stretched. Vinny backed away more causing Enji to sigh and smirk.

"Are you that scared of me~? I feel so offended, I'm your friend~" Enji spoke out dramatically before crouching down to Vinnys' line of eye. "I introduced myself...your turn~" he added as he grabbed the cameramans' cheeks harshly causing him to jerk away. Enji stared at him as if he wanted an answer, "You clearly know who I am..." Vinny said as he looked away, this made Enji chuckle, "You're right...I do, I know more about you that you know of yourself~" the black haired menace spoke, causing Vinny to give him an annoyed look.

"Y'know....if it were up to me~.....I would have killed you already...." Enji hissed out his voice becoming more distorted and him grabbing Vinny by his collar. "But it isn't and frankly you are quite useful!" he added his voice returning back to normal. "Then why isn't up to you...what are you? A dog on a leash for someone?" Vinny hissed causing Enji to punch him in his face. "Fuck! Ouch!" the cameraman hissed as he used his hands to cover where he was punched.

"You're getting quite an attitude and I don't like that...but if you're that curious about who I am voluntarily working with...it's the cape guy you saw last time!" He responded to Vinny who backed down and went back to being quiet. Enji put on a black cape and let out a sigh, "I can't have you telling anyone about me..." He said before grabbing Vinny and throwing him to the floor. "I should put you in your place...."He added his voice slowly becoming more aggravated and violent. Vinny flinched and tried to leave but the door was locked.

Enji smirked before mist filled the room and he turned into an exact copy of Garmadon. "W-what the fuck...?" Vinny whimpered out before stepping away. "Something wrong?" Garmadon Enji said in Garmadons' voice. Vinny tensed, "Y-you're not real...a-and you're not him..." The cameraman whimpered out as he panicked more trying to open the bathroom door. "Are you scared of me...is it because I'm a monster..?" Enji said in disguise before grabbing Vinnys' chin.

"N-no no no no no....s-stop this...stop it!" Vinny panicked out before dropping to his knees. Garmadon/Enji smirked before transforming back, "You're caring so much now....but you clearly don't care about how he feels when you keep secrets~" Enji teased as he dusted himself off, "I-I thought you don't want me t-tell anyone..." Vinny whimpered out.

"You're right....I...I want our little secret to eat you up! To make you feel guilty about not telling anyone and to watch it slowly destroy you and all of the relationships you have with everyone!" Enji said with a sadistic smile on his face, causing Vinny to hide his face, "Awww....don't cry~ Especially when you're hiding your face" The sadistic figure laughed out before lifting up Vinnys' chin.

A blade appeared in Enjis' hand and he made Vinny look directly at him before grabbing the cameramans' hand before slowly digging the blade into it, a bone chilling horrifying scream escaped Vinnys' mouth and he tried to pull his hand away but Enjis' grip was too strong, "S-stop i-it!" Vinny cried out trying to pull away but that made the blade move more. He looked away and winced and screamed in pain. Enji grabbed his cheeks and made him look back at him his eyes now were blue again and he had the same sadistic smile.

"Oh this is so fun~! Don't you think~?!" Enji giggled out before taking he blade out and stabbing him again. "P-please! S-stop!" Vinny cried out letting out a choked sob. "I think we're doing it somewhere a bit too obvious~" He added before taking the blade out and then stabbing his foot causing another pained scream and for him to jerk away. "Don't move~" Enji chuckled out before pushing the blade in further, Vinnys' hands were covered in blood and he was holding his stab hand close, while crying out and screaming in pain for him to stop.

"Oh wow...I bet if I didn't make this room sound proof the whole monastery could have heard you~ And you're so dramatic~!" Enji laughed out before taking out the blade, "You're the one that stabbed me first~" He added trying to make it seem like this was Vinnys' fault. Vinny curled up in a ball as Enji continued to torment him.

(Told you I woke up feeling angsty gonna try and work on another part rn)

Regulus knew James would fight for him no matter what. That he would put himself in harm's way for Regulus, Death Eaters, and Dark Lord be damned. The only way he could think of to protect James was to absolutely make him hate him. Regulus put the performance of a lifetime, insulting Jame's best friends, saying horrible things about muggleborns and halfbloods and being a true imitation of his mother. James could only just whisper "please don't do this," but when Regulus cruelly insulted Remu's lycanthropy, he just couldn't do it anymore. James found comfort in Lily's arms, knowing that she too was heartbroken by Mary. Regulus had to watch the man he loved being in a relationship with the girl he told him not to worry about thinking that if James moved on so quickly, their relationship probably didn't mean anything to him. James had to go through the rest of his life thinking that Regulus hated him and trying very hard to hate him back but absolutely failing, because when he closed his eyes at night all he could think about was dark black curls and stars

Was thinking about, Cure for the Common Universe last night...

Almost cried.

Would recommend.