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My thoughts on why Ash let Eiji borrow his gun even though they just met:

So I was wondering for awhile on why Ash lent Eiji his gun and the most likely reason that I could come up with is because Eiji asked for permission, and Ash was touched by Eiji's politeness and sincerity that's why he lets him borrow his gun.

But why though? For someone who would go as far as blowing someone's finger off, he trusted Eiji with his gun too easily and quickly

I'll tell you why, it's cause Eiji asked for permission, for consent. The fact that Ash trusted a stranger with his gun shows that no one ever asked first before touching his gun. Just a simple "Can I hold your gun?" was all it took and all that Ash needed to let someone touch his gun.

So, consent, right? Ash wants someone that asks for consent first, right? He shot a drunk guy's fingers off because he tried to touch his gun, right? RIGHT?

Riddle me this, what's an act that is done without the consent of the victim and that Ash has experienced throughout his life?

THAT'S RIGHT!

Abuse, r*pe, and manipulation!

And do you know that gun has another meaning other than a weapon used to shoot people? 

THAT'S MOTHERFUCKING RIGHT BITCHES

A 🍌 or biceps, a body part

So Ash wanted someone to ask for consent before touching his gun,

Ash wanted to have a say on whether he wanted his gun held or not, cause it's his own fucking gun. You hear me? his OWN MOTHERFUCKING GUN

ASH KEEPS TWO KINDS OF PEOPLE CLOSE TO HIM, PEOPLE WHO DARE NOT TOUCH HIS GUN (HIS GANG FRIENDS), AND PEOPLE WHO ASKS FOR CONSENT BEFORE TOUCHING HIS GUN (EIJI)

So that's my theory on why Ash let Eiji hold his gun and why I need therapy

My thoughts on why Ash didn’t get help after he was stabbed (TW: mentions of unaliving self, seggsual abuse)

I think Ash had wanted to die for a very long time, although there’s no indication that Ash has self-harmed(I only watched the anime) whenever his loved ones is put in danger, he doesn’t hesitate to sacrifice himself, and I think one of the reasons for that(besides him caring deeply for them) is he is suicidal, cuz ever since he was a child, he was sexually abused and taken advantage of by sick perverted men. 

Spending time with Eiji did give him comfort and but his whole life he was abused, manipulated and raped, over and over, I’m no therapist but I’m pretty sure Ash isn’t mentally stable after going through all of that, and I think it takes more than a caring, loving and selfless person to heal Ash’s wounds. (I’m not saying Eiji didn’t change Ash’s life, Ash loved Eiji for sure) Eiji did give him hope in living so I think that’s why Ash rushed to the airport when he saw the ticket, in that moment, he did want to spend his life with Eiji. 

Sadly, he was stabbed, and I think that triggered Ash’s suicidal thoughts, cuz come on, that stab wound was treatable. Ash survived a gunshot wound before, stab wound is no big deal for him. My theory is while he was running, he was imagining the life he could have with Eiji in Japan, but *STAB*   

He was brought back to reality, and he was reminded of the countless people he’s killed and that died for him. He’s being chased by police, gangs, criminals, and Lao is only one of them, What if those people would chase him even when he’s in Japan with Eiji? Will they easily give up just because he’s travelled to another country? What if his friends he’ll leave behind get hurt and held hostage by the gangs, then demand Ash to return? Will he be able to move on and start a brand new life with Eiji in Japan happily? 

Bleeding, he finally decided to give in to his suicidal thoughts. He chose to not get help and bleed to death. 

ok here’s why I think suicidal thoughts is what drove him to do that. First of all, he could’ve gotten some help and STAY, Eiji wasn’t forcing him to live with him, Ash could’ve be like, “Yeah, I can’t live with you, but you can come visit me from time to time, ok? love you” that way he protects his gang friends, and Eiji is in a safe country so no need to worry for him. 

Ash was an insecure, suicidal, traumatized poor boy.

So yeah, this is my theory, and I don’t blame anyone for the outcome of the story no matter how sad it is, because they all had their reasons. 

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Not this scene 😭 The perspective is breathtaking and the framing is everything, it’s a beautiful work of art that perfectly encapsulates this moment and I might just have to go cry for a bit

My final for art class allowed to us to make literally anything so I made banana fish fanart 🤞

🥲 my poor heart, this is such beautiful art though

him and hym

Thank you, I wholeheartedly agree with this. Like you’ve said, Ash’s death to me speaks more to the tragedy of the abuse he suffered so young. It’s not about whether he deserved to die, it’s about whether he was able to live under the circumstances. And it’s unfair and horrible, but when you become as entwined in that kind of life as Ash was, there sometimes isn’t a way out.

Does that mean Ash deserved to die? Of course not. He deserved to heal, he deserved to be happy, he deserved the world after what he went through, especially when his heart remained pure in spite of everything. But as the OP put it, the abuse he suffered forced him into a life of crime, and that life of crime was not so easy to escape.

I still wish it would have ended differently, because I love Ash. The amount of pain he suffered in his short eighteen years of life is unfathomably horrific, and more than anything I wanted to see him happy. But I will not say that Yoshida’s decision to end the story that way was bad, or that it means she believes Ash deserved death. Ash’s death is not narratively insignificant in any way. Do I hate that it ends that way? Yes, with every fiber of my being, but the fact that I hate it so much, the fact that I shed so many tears over this fictional character, exposes the tragedy inherent in Ash’s story. The prolonged abuse that forced him towards gangs and the mafia is also what prevented him from leaving it behind. In that I find a powerful message about the resounding echoes of this kind of repeated, sickening violence.

When Ash dies, we are forced to confront the horrors of his life. Sure, it can be argued that all of Banana Fish forces us to do that, but when we receive the shock of his death, we immediately start creating a chain of events in our head to figure out how he ended up at that point. And through that process, we internalize the ways in which the violence done to him stretched beyond any single moment to touch every aspect of his life. That creates an endless, soul-rending stream of grief because we are left with a deep sense of injustice—he only ended up dying because his life was so irreversibly shaped by his trauma, and no one deserves that. No one deserves to have the ability to choose the course of their own life taken away, but that is the tragedy of Banana Fish. Ash lost that ability so young, and that is a very painful reality to face.

If anything, I would say the only one believing Ash deserved to die for the blood on his hands was Ash himself. I won’t go into detail about this because honestly, I’m not sure whether that was truly what was going through Ash’s head when he made the decision to go to the library. What we do know is that he did struggle with a lot of self-loathing. He often saw himself as a monster because of the people he had killed, the things he had done to survive, and so he could never see himself as Eiji did, or as we did through Yoshida’s story. The people who hurt Ash did so to the point that he believed he wasn’t worthy of healing, that he believed he was only hurting others by being around them, and that is once again an effect of that consistent abuse.

That is what saddens me the most about Ash’s death, that he might have believed he didn’t deserve better, when he did. But we all saw it—we all knew, from the very beginning, that Ash was a kind soul whose life was cruelly domineered by his abusers, and he did deserve to live and heal.

What people seem to constantly misunderstand about what Akimi Yoshida said regarding how Ash couldn't have just gotten away scot-free from his life of crime is that it ISN'T Yoshida saying Ash "deserved" to die. Yoshida frames Ash as a hero from beginning to end. He's shown to be a genuinely good and kind person, that goodness remarked upon again and again by multiple characters, and his death is seen as a tragedy. That should be enough to convince people that Yoshida didn't hate Ash or think he deserved to die. The fact she frames him in such a positive light shows she understands that Ash is a good person that was forced into doing terrible things for his own survival and the survival of others. So this insistence that she thought he deserved to die because she said in some fan-translated interview that he couldn't just walk away from his life of crime, or that there's a price to be paid for murder, is ridiculous. It relies on nothing but assumption about the character of the author.

It's also a problem in fandom, in general, where interviews with authors, in which they're often giving on the spot and half-baked answers to random questions without any prepreation, are given greater credence in interpreting the author's intent than the actual, published work itself. How about letting the work stand on its own and interpret it as is? I've seen so much hate lobbed at Yoshida for supposedly hating Ash or thinking he deserved to die, when the actual story itself does nothing but portray Ash as deeply sympathetic and tragic. Again, no one could read "Banana Fish" with any level of reading comprehension and come away with anything but the impression that Ash is the hero and a good person who's life and death was deeply unfair and unjust. That fact alone should override any answer Yoshida gave in any interview, especially when it's obvious how much Yoshida hates giving interviews and very obviously, intentionally gives half-assed answers that she doesn't put much thought into. It's clear from the work itself that Yoshida has a great love for Ash as a person and as a character. She based his design off of River Phoenix, her favorite actor, she shares her birthday with him, and again, the way she frames Ash and his actions is as that of a hero, from beginning to end. I don't know, maybe it's because she sees Ash as a hero herself?

Ash dying only demonstrates the point further about how child abuse ruined Ash's life. He was led into a life of crime because of the abuse he suffered, and the fact it was that life of crime that led to his eventual death, with it basically being a gang dispute that got him in the end, only further drives home the point of how devastating and ruinous child abuse is. Ash wasn't a criminal because he was a bad person, he was a criminal because the abuse he suffered drove him to become one, and then, eventually, that life of crime he'd been forced to lead came back on him in the form of Lao stabbing him, which is what I think Yoshida actually means when she says Ash couldn't just walk away from the life of crime he'd lived. That inability to walk away further demonstrates the tragedy of the abuse Ash suffered, because it shows how it forced him into doing things which eventually came back to haunt him, things which he couldn't "escape". Lao stabbing Ash was in consequence to his being a gang leader, and his being a gang leader was a result of the abuse he suffered. The two things are interconnected with one another. It's not about Ash deserving to die because of the lives he'd taken, it's about how the life Ash was forced to live as a result of his abuse eventually led to his death. That's where the whole notion of "you live by the sword, you die by the sword" comes from. It's not necessarily a moral condemnation of the person committing acts of violence, but an acknowledgement that violence begets violence. That violence is cyclical. But the fact of Ash's death as a result of his life of crime only further demonstrates the true devastation wrought by the abuse of children, and that's the ultimate point of "Banana Fish's" ending. It's meant to force us to face, through the tragedy of Ash's death, the tragedy of his life in turn.

Day 4 of crying over banana fish, when usually making me cry would be like moving mountains. I cried myself to sleep the past 3 nights after finishing the anime, this is seriously a different kind of pain. I don’t think any story will ever hurt me as much as this. It really tugs at every fiber of your being until all you’re left with is an inconsolable ache in your heart. I don’t regret anything though. Ash and Eiji will forever be in my thoughts, and their story will forever exist in my soul.

a comic about fix-it fanfics

do you think ash used to be religious and wished for a god to save him as a child. do you think realising nobody was coming to his rescue was his first experience with crushing loneliness. do you think that loneliness crawled into his skin and used his rotting body to start the fire of hatred. hatred for the monsters around him. hatred for a non-existent god and false promises. hatred for himself. do you think he wished so desperately for eiji to be saved that he was willing to put that hatred aside. that he was willing to accept the problem lay within him, that god did exist and he, aslan jade callenreese, was just unworthy of that god's benevolence, so it would be okay if he traded his life for eiji's.

I don't even know what my type is but imma do it anyway-

I would really appreciate ya'lls comments/thoughts because I'm confused myself..

Y know I'm actually thinking of writing my fanmade BF endings, stories and aus in here. I still can't create my account in Ao3 so I think I wanna dump em all here in my dead tumblr. English ain't my first language so don't mind my stupid grammar~

go listen to my gay playlist

live and suffer? i’m still on love and peace please slow down trigaze- anyhow, banana fish for the community.

stupid show about bananas and fishes ruined my life.

12/25/24 I was hankering for snow on christmas but it never came😩 so something cute and snowy for the winter season ❄⛄

before eiji there was shorter and i sTAND BY THAT FACT I WILL DIE ON THIS HILL

made me think of them.

no, i will never shut up about this.

got some snow today, so they did too.

give him a fucking BREAK your honor

Instantly got teary eyed at the sa-yo-na-RA

the banana fish ending didn’t happen by the way they’re happy and in japan i’m ash lynx i say so chat

hello! hi! banana fish stuff!! woo!! bruno mars lady gaga song got me real hard!!

Ash & Eiji my beloved 💘

I am gonna be so for real with you guys right now. I watched Banana fish when the anime came out. Every single week I was there watching another episode.

But around episode 14 I stopped because I was scared. I could feel were the story was going and so I just stopped.

Now I have decided to re-watch it and also finish the show. Wish me luck.

Banana fish will be the death of me

‘Oh yeah I’m currently at halcon right now- come say hi at table B3-4 if you happen to be there- I have lots of goodies this time around :)

prob gonna do some banana fish Agere art later so if ya'll wanna send me some personal headcanons I'll add it to a post! my DMs and asks are open!

feel free to use DNI banner with credit!

asheiji agere headcanons TW: CSA, sa mention, impure regression, bed wetting, diapers, d1no mention, mvrder,

Ash is a trauma regressor and regresses from 0-3 so very small

Eiji is his primary CG and a great one at that

Ash didn't get a non-sexualized childhood so this is his chance to try

Eiji has a perfect gift of calming Ash down and getting him regressed

Ash has to wear diapers since he wets the bed a lot and it makes him feel smaller

Eiji has the little one sleep next to him when he has nightmares and comforts him

Ash loves cheese itz and grape juice as snacks

Eiji is such a great caregiver he helps Ash with all his infant needs

Ash gets nightmares about Dino hurting him again eiji kisses all the hurt away

Eiji has an easier time waking ash up but he still gets fussy

Ash calls Eiji more fem cg names like "mommy, mama, mama bear"

Eiji will put ash on his hip and not let anyone touch him not even ash's gang can't touch him

Ash likes more infant/baby nicknames like "bug, bugaboo, baby, baby boy,, puppy (not a pet regressor), honey, little one"

Ash regresses sometimes after fights and sometimes mvrder and FREAKS OUT eiji cant even calm him down its that bad

Eiji's specialty is forehead kisses and hand kisses

Eiji isn't a strict CG but has rules like no bad words, no talking bad about self, and behaving well. the basics

Ash is a very sleepy regressor and will nap on Eiji's shoulders, chest really anywhere he will sleep

i loved making this since i love BF and they deserved only happiness a cool fun fact about meee is I share a b-day with Ash Lynx and my secondary name is Aslan like his real name

When a character’s death is so traumatic you just sit there like

I've seen some great Banana Fish content. So I just like to throw in some thoughts about this great/sad anime:

1) Cain was great. I feel like he didn't get a lot of credit. Love his character design. He came through when needed and cared about his gang.

2) Shorter was my favorite. 😔😭

3) When Ash screamed Eiji's name, I wasn't ready...nah, this whole scene had me about to act up! Yut-Lung, you bastard! But, seriously, I was invested in their potential future. 😭😭😭😭

4) On a happier note, this right here:

This made/makes me happy. It's just nice. 😢😣😔😊

What canon manga ending

Here's week 03 of Inktober!

With this all my inktober updates over here are up to date hehe! (if you want to see them daily as I make them I recommend going to my Insta, I upload them daily on my story!)

This week's line up ended up being;

°Day 15 - Ichi - Ichi the witch

°Day 16 - Ash - banana fish

°Day 17 - Alma - Gokurakugai

°Day 18 - Saitama - One punch man

°Day 19 - Kaneki - Tokyo Ghoul

°Day 20 - Piccolo - DBZ

°Day 21 - Rin - Blue exorcist