Autism Spectrum - Blog Posts

I think the autism spectrum should look like a spider web that way everyone has their own little individual spot on it

I don't like the line because I see it and think it's the autismometer

I know the finale has left us feeling things (and I one day might share my thoughts on them, but honestly staying off of most social media platforms around this time has been really good for my mental), so let's go back to an episode many of us loved: The Crossing. Here's an excellent analysis of the episode looking at it through the 'Tech is autistic' lens.

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Solve Autism? Fuck you, there is nothing wrong with being autistic! Sure, I may not like being autistic all the time, but it is what makes me...well, ME. So yeah, Mr. Musk, go sit on a cactus, step on Legos, and sneeze so hard you shit your pants.

Oh so he’s doing eugenics now

I can actually relate to most of this list, though I don’t call myself semiverbal (this is not to say that others who relate to this aren’t allowed to call themselves semiverbal) (if that makes sense) (I’m just not sure if I can consider myself semiverbal)

(I’m not sure where I fall on the verbal? scale?)

what semiverbal looks like for me:

going entire days without talking except for a few words and not noticing

going entire days saying maybe one word answers

communicating primarily through text and typing the majority of the time if i can get away with it

forgetting how to physically speak sometimes. i will know what words to say but mouth won't be able to do it

words getting mashed up and slurred together for no reason

communicating in scripts and preplanned words

if no script prepared, it's extremely difficult to come up with coherent words on the spot

constantly saying the wrong words and nothing like what i meant to say

always having to have somebody else go with places in case of needing to speak, so they can talk for me

blanking out on words and just not responding to people, sometimes walking away because too much pressure to speak

having to have someone else make phone calls for me, anything that involves a phone call i can't do

keeping like 3-4 aac methods on me at all times but still being scared to use them because that means communicating, why not just point at stuff instead

echolalia

stealthy echolalia

I'll get called a fat fucking bastard for saying this anywhere but in mentally ill/Neurodivergent spaces, but water. Water is so goddamn tasty when it's right. A glass of iced tap water (when it's safe) is fantastic.

Bottled water is entirely different. Purified with minerals tastes like electrified plastic and static. Spring water tastes like literal heaven. It tastes how water in ads looks.

I just told my partner of over a year that I've been looking into both an autism and an ADHD diagnosis.

It did not go too well.

Nothing has changed. My 165-195 range of raads-r scores didn't suddenly make me a different person just because he knows now. I think we're still together but I want to scream.