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đ k - kids by current joys
đ o - odd reasons by donovan melero
đ i - itâs you by ateez
I canât recommend much music, but hey itâs something
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missionâ spell your real name / name you use on tumblr with songs you like >< ready, set, go !
m â my love, mine all mine (mitski)
i â i love you, iâm sorry (gracie abrams)
c â coraline (lyn lapid)
k â killshot (magdalena bay)
i â i know you (faye webster)
e â either way (ive)
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(you guys donât gonna do this if you donât want to)
i found this cute personality quiz while i was scrolling thru twt and i thought itâd be fun to do here hehe :3
how did they know i cry super easily TT skjwhw
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YOU READY TO GET FUCKING SUED
BRO DANN GROW A BACKBONE I SWEAR YOU KEEP PISSING ME OFF
Popular, Boy
â14: The first confession.
Pairing: Nerd!Hongjoong x Popular!Reader
Genre: +18, smut, slow burn, angst, drama, dark romance, love triangle.
wc: 8,7k
Summary: While some battles are fought with fists, others are waged behind closed doors, where power, reputation, and control mean everything.
And when innocence is placed at the center of the storm, the lines between family and enemy blur.
Warnings: Cursing, physical violence, power dynamics, fluff.
an: We are almost at the end of the series!! I hope you enjoy the last chapters coming soonâĄ
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â13 â15: The first checkmate. Coming soon.
The waiting room smells like antiseptic and paperwork, a sterile combination that makes your stomach churn.
You tap your nails against your thigh, gaze locked on the reception desk as if willing the nurse to call your name faster.
Hongjoong sits beside you, his hand resting lightly on your knee, a silent anchor. He doesnât speak, doesnât tell you to calm down, but his presence alone is enough to keep you grounded.
Itâs been a week. A long, exhausting week of waiting. And now, itâs finally time. A nurse steps out from behind the desk, a folder in her hands.
âMiss Clarke?â
You stand immediately, legs tense, heart hammering. He follows suit, his hand finding yours, lacing his fingers through yours without hesitation.
The nurse hands you the folder with a professional smile, oblivious to the weight of what sheâs just given you.
âHere are the results. Let us know if you need anything else.â
You nod stiffly, clutching the envelope as if it might slip through your fingers and disappear. Neither of you says a word as you leave the hospital.
Not even when you slide into Hongjoongâs car.
Not even when you place the envelope on your lap, staring at your name printed neatly on the front.
The tension is suffocating.
He glances at you before reaching over, his fingers brushing against your wrist.
âPretty,â He murmurs, soft but firm. âDo you want me to open it?â
You inhale sharply, then shake your head âNo.â
With careful movements, you break the seal and pull out the papers. Your eyes skim the wordsâtest subject, percentage, confirmationâuntil you find it.
99.9% probability of paternity.
Your fingers tighten around the edges of the document, your breath catching.
There it is.
Proof.
The proof you needed to finally rip Mikeâs perfect image to shreds.
Hongjoong watches you carefully, his free hand still resting over yours âItâs real,â He says, like he already knows. Like he never had a doubt.
You nod, throat tight âItâs real.â
For a few moments, you let yourself sit in the weight of it.
Then, you exhale and fold the papers neatly, sliding them back into the envelope âLetâs go.â
⎠â
Your room is dimly lit. You and Hongjoong sit on your bed, the envelope between you, a silent promise of whatâs coming.
You tap the envelope once before speaking âMike has a business trip in two days.â
Hongjoong leans back against the headboard, arms crossed âThatâs when youâre telling them?â
âThatâs when Iâll have the best chance,â You confirm. âIf heâs here, heâll find a way to twist everything. Heâll manipulate them, make himself the victim. I need them to see the truth without his interference.â
He nods, understanding âAnd you need me there.â
You look at him then, taking in the steady certainty in his eyes âI want you there,â You admit. âAs a witness. As⌠as support.â
His gaze softens, and he reaches for your hand, squeezing it gently âIâll be there, pretty.â
The words settle something deep inside you, a quiet reassurance that you wonât have to face this alone.
You lean into him, resting your head against his shoulder, letting the storm outside mirror the one building inside your home.
In two days, everything would change.
And for the first time, you were ready for it.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
Dann hesitates outside Mikeâs study, her hands clammy as she wrings them together. She shouldnât be here.
She doesnât want to be here.
But she doesnât have a choice. With a deep breath, she knocks. A sharp âCome inâ Follows almost immediately.
Dann swallows and steps inside. The room is dimly lit, the air thick with the scent of whiskey and his signature cologne. He sits at his desk, fingers steepled, his gaze sharp as it lands on her.
She feels like prey.
âWell?â His voice is clipped, impatient. âWhat is it?â
Dann shifts uncomfortably, her nails digging into the skin of her palm âI⌠I overheard something.â
Mike raises an eyebrow, waiting.
âItâs about YN.â
That gets his attention. Mikeâs entire body stiffens, his sharp gaze snapping toward Dann.
âWhat about her?â His voice is low, laced with something dangerous.
Dann forces herself to keep her composure, though the weight of his stare makes her stomach churn.
âShe⌠she was on the phone with Hongjoong a couple of days ago,â She begins hesitantly. âI didnât hear much, but I caught a name.â
He doesnât react right away. He just watches. Waiting.
Dann swallows hard âHannah.â
The sound of glass shattering against the wall makes her flinch violently.
Her breath catches as she watches whiskey drip down the bookshelf, the remnants of the crystal glass scattered across the polished wood floor.
Mike rises abruptly, his chair scraping against the ground, the muscles in his jaw flexing as his hands curl into fists. His entire body trembles with barely contained rage.
âWhat did you just say?â His voice is dangerously low.
Dann forces the words out, her pulse hammering âIâI heard her say they should go with Hannah. And then she left with Hongjoong. I donât know where they went, butââ
His palm slams down onto the desk with a force that rattles the papers on top of it. Dann jumps, her entire body locking up.
âYouâre sure?â His voice is tight, seething.
She nods frantically âYes. She said it clearly.â
Mikeâs breathing turns ragged, his chest rising and falling too fast. The room is heavy with his fury, suffocating.
That bitch.
He told Hannah to disappear. He made sure of it. There was no way you could have been in contact with her.
UnlessâŚ
His stomach twists with something unfamiliarâsomething dangerously close to dread.
What if Hannah never left?
What ifâ
His fingers dig into the desk as he exhales sharply, forcing himself to think. His thoughts are spiraling, unraveling, but one thing is certain.
He needs answers. Now.
Slowly, he turns to Dann, his expression unreadable, voice cold and deliberate.
âDonât mention this to anyone.â
Dann nods quickly, stepping back toward the door. She doesnât need to be told twice. But before she can escape, his voice slices through the air again.
âSheâs here, isnât she?â His tone is eerily calm, but the way his chest rises and falls betrays his barely leashed fury.
Dann hesitates, a chill running down her spine. She already knows where this is going. And once again⌠itâs her fault.
âI⌠I donât know,â She whispers.
But heâs already moving.
Without another word, Mike practically bolts from the room, his footsteps heavy with purpose.
Dann stands frozen for a second, her pulse roaring in her ears.
Then, without thinking, she rushes after him.
If she can stop him from hurting you again⌠maybe, just maybe, she can lessen the guilt threatening to drown her.
⎠â
The moment the bedroom door slams open, you barely have time to react before Mike storms inside.
Hongjoong stiffens beside you, his entire body going rigid as he instinctively moves closer. Dann lingers by the doorway, frozen in place.
But the older one doesn't look at them. He doesnât even acknowledge their presence. His furious gaze is locked solely on you.
âWhat the fuck are you playing at?â His voice is low, dangerously quietâbut you know better than to mistake it for restraint.
You raise an eyebrow, keeping your expression indifferent even as your heart pounds.
âYouâre going to have to be more specific, Mike. I play a lot of things.â
His jaw ticks. His hands curl into fists at his sides.
âIâm not in the mood for your stupid games,â He spits. âYou were with her.â
You blink, feigning confusion âWith who?â
His hand moves so fast you barely see it.
The force of the slap sends your head snapping to the side, your cheek stinging instantly. The taste of blood blooms on your tongue.
Hongjoong moves before you can even react. He shoves Mike back, hard enough that he stumbles a step.
âAre you out of your fucking mind?!â His voice is sharp, furious, his breathing ragged with anger.
But Mike barely even looks at him. Instead, he straightens, smoothing out the front of his shirt like he isnât the least bit fazed.
Then, he steps forward again, crowding you, towering over you like a storm ready to break. You lift your chin defiantly, refusing to cower.
âWhere is she?â His voice is a low growl. âWhere the fuck is Hannah?â
You tilt your head, licking the cut on your lip before giving him the most infuriatingly nonchalant smile you can muster.
âI donât know what youâre talking about.â
His eyes darken âDonât fucking lie to me, YN.â
âLie to you?â You scoff. âPlease. If thereâs anyone whoâs an expert in lying, itâs you.â
Another step forward. Another inch of space stolen.
Hongjoong moves again, stepping between you and Mike this time, his stance firm, protective.
âBack. The fuck. Off.â His voice is steady, but his hands are clenched into fists, his entire body wound tight like a spring ready to snap.
Mike glares at him, as if just now registering his existence.
âAnd what the hell are you going to do about it, nerd?â
Hongjoong doesnât flinch âTry me and find out.â
Thereâs a heavy pause. The air crackles with tension.
And then⌠Mike smirks.
Itâs slow, cold, calculated.
âCute,â He mutters, voice dripping with condescension. âSheâs really got you wrapped around her little finger, huh?â
Hongjoong doesnât respond, doesnât rise to the bait. But you see itâthe way his fingers twitch at his sides, the way his jaw tightens.
And then, thereâs Dann.
Standing by the doorway, silent, watching.
She does nothing, says nothing.
Just like before.
And something inside you snaps. You inhale sharply, the pain in your cheek already numbing beneath the flood of anger boiling in your veins.
âI donât have time for your theatrics, Michael,â You say, your voice eerily calm. âSo unless you have anything useful to say, get the fuck out of my room.â
Mike tilts his head, his smirk widening âYouâre awfully confident for someone who still flinches when I raise my hand.â
You donât flinch this time. Instead, you step around Hongjoong, closing the distance between you and him in a deliberate, defiant move.
âYou should be careful,â You whisper, eyes locking onto his. âBecause one day, youâre going to raise your hand at the wrong person.â
Mike doesnât reply, he just looks at you. And in that moment, something shifts.
A flicker of uncertainty, maybe even a sliver of doubt, crosses his expressionâso brief you might have imagined it.
Then, just as quickly, itâs gone.
He scoffs, rolling his shoulders before stepping back âThis isnât over,â He mutters.
You smile, sickly sweet âOh, I know.â
With that, he turns sharply on his heel and strides out of the room, the door slamming behind him.
Silence.
Hongjoong exhales, running a hand through his hair, trying to calm himself down.
Dann?
Still standing there.
Still watching.
She looks like sheâs just seen a ghostâpale, eyes wide, shoulders drawn tight. Guilt hangs off her like a second skin, but you donât give a fuck.
You exhale sharply, turning toward her with slow, deliberate movements.
âWhy are you still here?â Your voice is flat, emotionless.
Dann swallows hard, her hands trembling as she grips the strap of her bag like itâs the only thing keeping her upright.
âYN, Iââ
Your patience snaps âGet the fuck out.â Dann flinches, shame flashing across her face. âDid I fucking stutter?â You step forward, eyes burning into hers. âOr do you need me to spell it out for you?â
She doesnât move, doesnât speak. Just stands there, frozen in place, like she wants to say somethingâneeds toâbut she canât.
Your fingers curl into fists âYou stood there and did nothing. Again.â You shake your head, disgust curling in your stomach. âYou are a fucking coward.â
Dannâs eyes glisten for a fraction of a second, but you donât care.
You donât fucking care.
She chose this.
She chose to side with Mike.
And now, sheâs realizing itârealizing that no matter how much guilt is eating her alive, it doesnât change the fact that she let him hurt you.
Again.
Hongjoong, still fuming, finally speaks âYou heard her,â He says, voice low and cold. âGet out.â
Dannâs lips part slightly, but no words come out. Then, after a painfully long moment she nods. Her gaze drops to the floor as she turns on shaky legs and stumbles toward the door.
She hesitates when she reaches the threshold, gripping the handle so tight her knuckles turn white.
âI never meant for it to be like this,â She whispers, voice barely above a breath.
You donât respond. She lingers for just another secondâjust long enough for you to see the full weight of her regret in her expression.
Then, she steps out, and the door clicks shut behind her.
Silence.
Finally, you exhale, your body collapsing on the bed.
Hongjoongâs already by your side, his hand gently cupping your face. He doesnât say anything at first, just watching you with concern in his eyes.
You can feel the heat of his gaze, but it doesnât comfort youâit only makes you more aware of the hurt still burning inside.
âAre you okay?â He murmurs softly, gently lifting your chin to inspect the cut on your lip.
His fingers are warm, his touch careful, and you bite down a wince when he brushes his thumb over your skin.
âIâm fine,â You mutter, your voice still hoarse from the shouting and the silence that follows.
He doesnât respond to that. Instead, he exhales sharply, shaking his head before standing up.
âStay here,â He says firmly.
You watch as he disappears into your private bathroom, the sound of cabinets opening and closing filling the quiet room. Moments later, he returns with a small first-aid kit in his hands.
He kneels in front of you, placing the kit on the bed as he pulls out antiseptic and some cotton.
âThis is going to sting,â He warns, soaking the cotton pad with the antiseptic before pressing it gently against your split lip.
You flinch, a sharp hiss escaping your lips âNo shit, Sherlock.â
He huffs out a small laugh, shaking his head but continuing his task with steady hands.
âYou and your damn mouth,â He mutters, his tone affectionate despite his frustration.
You roll your eyes, but the warmth in his voice soothes something inside you. He finishes dabbing at the wound, then carefully applies a bit of ointment with his fingertip, his touch unbearably soft.
When heâs done, he pulls back slightly, his eyes scanning your face as if making sure there arenât any more hidden injuries. His fingers brush your jaw, lingering for a moment.
âYNâŚâ His voice is quiet, serious.
You exhale, knowing what heâs going to say, knowing he wants you to be honest about whatâs going on.
âIâm not going to let him get away with this, Hongjoong,â You say before he can speak, your voice firm despite the dull ache in your lip.
âIâve been thinking about it, and if my parents try to cover for him, if they try to ignore the truth and protect him, Iâll sue him.â
His eyes widen slightly, but he doesnât look shocked. Just⌠resolute. Like heâs been waiting for you to say this.
âIâll sue him for physical violence,â You continue, your voice steady now. âFor everything heâs done to me. And for abandoning his child. If my parents refuse to see the truth, then Iâll expose it all.â Your gaze hardens. âI wonât let him pretend like this never happened. Iâll go after him for everything.â
Hongjoong lets out a slow breath, then places his hand on yours, squeezing it gently.
âIâm with you, pretty. Whatever you need.â His words are quiet, but they hit you harder than you expected.
You smile, a little softer now, though the fire in your chest doesnât fade.
âThanks. I canât do this alone. I need you, Joong. I need someone who actually cares.â
He leans in closer, brushing his lips against your forehead âIâm not going anywhere, pretty. You donât have to worry about that.â
His words are like a balm to the raw, exposed parts of you that still burn from the events of the past week.
You lean into him, feeling a sense of calm wash over you, but the battle is far from over.
And youâll fight it until the very end.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The sound of luggage wheels rolling across the marble floor echoes faintly from the main hall. The staff murmurs in hushed voices as they move about, ensuring everything is ready for Mikeâs departure.
You remain in your room, not bothering to come downstairs to see him off. You have no reason to.
But of course, that doesnât mean heâll leave without seeing you first.
A sharp knock rattles your bedroom door. You donât move, keeping your gaze fixed on your vanity mirror as you swipe the last bit of lip gloss across your lips.
The door swings open anyway.
âStill sleeping in?â His voice drips with condescension as he steps inside, hands tucked into his suit pockets. âWhat a waste of a morning.â
You meet his gaze in the mirror, your expression blank âDid I invite you in?â
Mike chuckles, slow and deliberate as he leans against your doorframe âOh, donât be like that, dear sister.â His tone is almost mocking. âIâm leaving for a few days. Thought Iâd be nice and say goodbye.â
You finally turn in your chair, crossing your legs as you tilt your head.
âYou? Nice?â A smirk plays on your lips. âThatâs new.â
His expression darkens, but he keeps his composure âJust making sure you donât get any⌠stupid ideas while Iâm gone.â
Your smirk doesnât fade âStupid ideas?â You rest your chin on your palm. âLike what? Going out with Hongjoong? Or maybeâoh, I donât knowâbreathing without your permission?â
His jaw tightens, but he doesnât take the bait. Instead, he pushes off the doorframe and takes a step closer.
âYou think youâre untouchable just because Mom and Dad tolerate your little tantrums. But donât forget, YN,â He leans down slightly, lowering his voice, âI always know what youâre up to.â
You hold his gaze, unfazed. If heâs trying to intimidate you, heâs wasting his time.
âOh, please.â You scoff, standing up to face him properly. âIf you really knew everything, youâd be a lot more pissed off right now.â
For a fraction of a second, something flickers in his eyesâuncertainty.
You smile sweetly, brushing past him toward your closet as if heâs nothing more than an annoying fly buzzing around your space.
âHave fun on your little trip, big brother.â You throw the words over your shoulder, voice dripping with fake politeness. âTry not to ruin anyoneâs life while youâre gone.â
Mikeâs silence lingers a second too long before he finally exhales sharply.
âWeâll see, little sister.â
And with that, he turns on his heel and leaves.
The moment the door clicks shut, you release the breath you didnât realize you were holding.
He knows nothing.
But soon? He will.
And you canât wait to watch his world burn.
⎠â
âHeâll be gone for four days, so the dinner has to be tomorrow night,â You tell Hannah over the phone, pacing your room.
âAre you sure this is going to work?â Doubt laces her voice. âYour parents always side with him⌠I donât think this time will be any different.â
You let out a heavy sigh, rubbing your temples.
âIâm not gonna lie⌠I donât expect some big revelation, but maybe, just maybe, itâll be enough to make them see him for who he really is.â Your eyes drift to the stack of photos on your desk. âI already printed some pictures of Lily and me together. She looks adorable.â
Hannah chuckles âOf course she does, sheâs my daughter.â
You scoff âThank God she got your genes and not Mikeâs.â
She laughs âAlright, little lady. Good luck tomorrow night. Donât forget to update me after.â
âDonât worry, I will. Bye, Hannah.â
Ending the call, you immediately dial Hongjoong. He picks up after a few rings.
âHey, pretty.â
âHey, nerd.â
âWhatâs up?â
âTomorrow night, Iâm telling my parents about Lily.â
A beat of silence. Then, âOkay. What time should I be there?â
âSeven.â
âGot it. Iâll be there.â
With that settled, you head downstairs, finding your parents in the lounge. Your mother is sipping wine, your father reading something on his tablet.
âI was thinking,â You begin smoothly, âWe should have a formal family dinner tomorrow. Something nice⌠and Hongjoong should join us.â
Your mother lights up instantly âOh, I love that idea! Iâll have the chefs prepare something special.â
Your father hums in agreement, setting his tablet down âActually, that works well. We have something important to discuss with you tomorrow night.â
Your heart skips a beat, but you keep your expression neutral.
âOh? Thatâs funny. I have something important to tell you too.â
Your mother claps her hands together, completely unaware of the storm brewing beneath your words.
âPerfect! Tomorrow will be a lovely evening.â
If only she knew.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The next evening, the mansion is buzzing with activity. The dining room is set to perfectionâpolished silverware, crystal glasses, and candles flickering over the lavish spread of food.
The scent of gourmet dishes drifts through the air as house staff move efficiently, making sure everything is flawless for the âperfectâ family dinner.
Your mother walks past, admiring the setup with a pleased hum âThis is wonderful,â She says, her red lips curving into a satisfied smile. âI want everything to be just right.â
You take a slow sip of wine, standing near the grand windows as you watch the evening sky darken. They have no idea whatâs coming.
âExcited for dinner, sweetheart?â Your mother asks, adjusting one of the centerpiece arrangements.
You smile, but it doesnât reach your eyes âOh, very.â
As if on cue, the main doors creak open. You glance over your shoulder just as Hongjoong steps inside, guided by a staff member.
He looks effortlessly goodâblack slacks, a fitted button-up, sleeves rolled just enough to show his forearms. His eyes find yours instantly, and a subtle smirk tugs at his lips.
âHey, pretty.â
âHey, nerd.â
Your mother claps her hands together, beaming âHongjoong! Iâm so happy you could join us.â
He nods politely âThank you for having me, Catherine.â
She waves off the formality âOh, come now, youâre practically family.â
If only she knew how ironic that statement really was.
Before anyone can say more, the deep voice of your father cuts in âShall we sit?â
You share a quick glance with Hongjoong before following them to the table. The air feels thick with anticipation, a silent countdown ticking in your head.
Soon, your parents will know the truth about their golden son.
Soon, their perfect image of Mike will shatter.
And soon⌠everything will change.
â
The atmosphere at the table is warmâtoo warm. Beneath the golden glow of the chandelier, tension lingers like a quiet storm waiting to break.
The clinking of silverware and the occasional murmur of conversation fill the space, but the food on your plate might as well be dust.
Your mother is in an unusually cheerful mood, delighted by Hongjoongâs presence, while your father sips his wine, listening to the flow of conversation with a composed expression. It almost feels⌠normal.
But you know better.
And then, your father clears his throat, setting his glass down with deliberate care.
âSo, darling,â He begins, his sharp gaze settling on you. âYour mother and I have something to discuss with you.â
You exchange a glance with Hongjoong, who subtly reaches under the table, his hand resting on your thighâa quiet reassurance.
âIs that so?â You say smoothly, lifting your own glass to your lips. âWhat is it?â
Your mother beams, leaning in slightly âItâs about Mike.â
Of course it is.
Your father nods, his voice steady, authoritative âWeâve made a decision regarding his future. Heâs being named the next CEO of Clarke Enterprises.â
Your fingers tighten slightly around your glass, but you keep your expression impassive.
âHeâs been preparing for this role his entire life,â Your mother continues with pride. âThis will secure not just his success, but the future of our entire family.â
You place your glass down carefully, tilting your head âYouâre telling me that Mike is taking over the company?â
Your father nods with satisfaction âItâs whatâs best for the Clarke legacy.â
Legacy. Always the fucking legacy.
Hongjoongâs grip on your thigh tightens, sensing the storm brewing inside you. But he doesnât stop you.
You inhale slowly, your lips curling into something that almost resembles a smile.
âWell,â You say, voice deceptively light, âSince weâre discussing important family matters, I have something to share as well.â
Your mother raises an intrigued eyebrow âOh?â
Your father watches you carefully, his patience thin but present. You sit up straighter, meeting their gazes dead-on.
âItâs about Mike,â You begin, pausing just long enough for anticipation to settle. âAnd his actual legacy.â
Your mother frowns slightly âWhat do you mean?â
Your smile sharpens âHe already has a daughter.â
Silence.
Your mother blinks. Your fatherâs wine glass stills mid-air.
âWhat⌠did you just say?â Your father asks, his voice eerily calm.
You lean forward slightly, elbows resting on the table as you deliver the next blow.
âFour years ago, Mike had an affair with one of our housemaids. Her name was HannahâIâm sure you remember her.â
Your motherâs expression freezes, her posture stiffening. Your fatherâs jaw tightens, but you donât stop.
âWhen she got pregnant, your perfect son threatened her,â You continue, voice unwavering. âHe told her to get rid of the baby. He forced me to lie and frame her for stealing so she would be fired. He abandoned her. Abandoned his own child.â
Reaching into your bag, you pull out the neatly stacked documents and slide them across the table. Your nails tap against the top page.
âHere.â Your voice is sweet, almost mocking. âA DNA test. Pictures. Bank transactions of the money I have been sending her every month since he left her to fend for herself.â
Your motherâs face drains of color. Your fatherâs grip on his fork tightens so hard you hear the faint creak of metal.
You tilt your head slightly, watching their reactions with quiet satisfaction âAnd this is the man you want to give the entire empire to?â
Your motherâs lips part slightly, her manicured fingers reaching hesitantly for the photos. The first image is of Lily aloneâher bright, round eyes, her tiny, perfect features. Then another, with you beside her, smiling softly as she clings to your arm.
Your father slowly sets his utensils down, his gaze dark âYouâre lying.â
You lean back, crossing your arms âThe proof is right in front of you.â
Your mother shakes her head, almost desperate now âNo⌠no, this isâthis is a mistake.â
Your father exhales sharply, rubbing his temple âMike would neverââ
âOh, but he did,â You cut him off smoothly. âAnd you can either accept that, or continue pretending heâs some flawless heir.â
The silence stretches, thick and suffocating. And thenâ
âThis⌠cannot get out.â
Your blood runs cold.
You stare at your father, waiting for him to correct himself. To say something that doesnât make you want to burn this entire house down.
Your mother finally meets your gaze, her expression unreadable âDo you have any idea what this could do to our family? To his future?â
A hollow laugh escapes you âOh, so thatâs what you care about?â
Your father sighs, as if this is just some inconvenience âMike is going to take over the company. If this scandal comes out, it will ruin everything.â
You feel like youâve been slapped. Hongjoong tenses beside you, his jaw locked, his hand gripping your thigh in restraint.
Your mother softens her voice, like sheâs trying to reason with you âYN, sweetie⌠we cannot let this get out. Itâs not just about Mikeâitâs about all of us.â
You inhale sharply, schooling your expression. You knew this would happen. You knew. And yet, their blatant dismissal still stings more than it should.
You exhale slowly.
âFine,â You murmur, collecting the documents back into your bag. âI understand.â
Your mother lets out a breath of relief âGoodââ
âBut let me make one thing very clear,â You cut her off, standing up. âIf you try to cover this upâif you refuse to acknowledge that little girl as his daughterâI will make sure everyone finds out.â
Your fatherâs eyes darken âYou wouldnât dare.â
You meet his stare, unflinching âTry me.â
And they know you mean it. They know.
The air is suffocating. Your mother swallows, glancing between you and your father, tension crackling in the room.
And then, your father speaks, his voice cold.
âGo to your room, YN.â You raise an eyebrow in defiance. âNow.â His voice is sharp, commanding.
Hongjoong rises to his feet immediately, his stance protective, standing just a few steps behind you. But you donât move at first, locking eyes with your father, refusing to back down.
The silence hangs heavy in the air for a moment, before, without another word, you grab Hongjoongâs hand. Together, you leave the dining room, the weight of the situation settling around you.
Once you step into the hallway, Hongjoong gives your hand a gentle squeeze, his voice quiet.
âYNâŚâ
You shake your head, cutting him off âNot now.â
You make your way to your bedroom, and once inside, you immediately release his hand.
You walk straight to your vanity, placing the folder with the DNA test results and photos down onto the surface with precise movements, the sound of the paper rustling loud in the otherwise quiet room.
Your fingers grip the edges of the folder, your nails digging into the expensive paper as your mind races. The frustration is building up inside you, but you force yourself to breathe through it.
Hongjoong watches you carefully, the door clicking shut behind him. He stays silent for a moment, giving you space to process. He knows you need it.
Finally, he speaks softly, his voice filled with concern âAre you okay?â
You exhale sharply, turning to face him âI told you theyâd cover it up,â You murmur, your voice quiet and bitter.
He steps closer, his eyes searching your face for any hint of vulnerability âYeah... but you were still hoping, werenât you?â
Your lips press into a thin line. Damn him for knowing you so well. You look away, arms crossed, leaning against the vanity as frustration bubbles up in you.
âI just wanted them to see him for what he really is,â You admit quietly, your voice trembling just slightly. âTo finally see that heâs not perfect.â
Hongjoong moves between your legs, his hands resting gently on your thighs.
âTheyâre too deep in their delusions, pretty. You canât change them overnight.â
You exhale sharply, the weight of the situation pressing down on you.
âThen Iâll make them see it,â You say, a fierce determination in your voice.
His hands tighten slightly on your waist, his gaze narrowing as he looks at you.
âHow?â
âIâll bring Lily tomorrow.â You shrug, as if the plan is simple, innocent.
He frowns, his brow furrowing âWaitâwhat? I don't think Hannah will agree to that.â
You look at him, a mischievous smile tugging at the corner of your lips.
âMaybe not, but this might pressure them into acknowledging her. They know she exists now, and thereâs no reason to hide her anymore. Iâll tell them I want to spend time with her, show her the house. It's innocent.â
Hongjoong scoffs, a teasing glint in his eyes âPretty, you and âinnocentâ donât belong in the same sentence.â
You grin, giving him a wink âOkay, maybe not. But still, itâs a good plan. Theyâll have to deal with it when sheâs right there in front of them.â
He exhales, running a hand through his hair, the lines of concern still etched on his face.
âAnd what if they freak out?â
âThey wonât. They might struggle with it, but they wonât just throw her out. Sheâs their granddaughter, whether they like it or not.â
He studies you for a moment, a smile tugging at his lips. He shakes his head with a soft laugh.
âYouâre scary when you plot, you know that?â
You smile slyly, cupping his cheek âI know. So... are you in?â
He sighs dramatically, though thereâs no hiding the affection in his eyes.
âLike I have a choice.â
You laugh, leaning in to kiss him lightly âNope. You donât.â
With that, Hongjoong presses his lips to yours in a deep kiss, sealing the deal for the next move.
And just like that, the plan is set.
⎠â
The hallway outside the dining room is dimly lit, the hushed murmur of voices bleeding through the heavy oak doors.
Dann stands just beyond the threshold, fingers curling around the strap of her bag. She hadnât meant to stop. Hadnât meant to listen.
But your voiceâsharp, angryâhad frozen her in place.
âYouâre telling me that Mike is taking over the company?â
âItâs whatâs best for the Clarke legacy.â
Dannâs breath catches. Her fingers twitch.
âWell, since weâre discussing important family matters, I have something to share as well.â
Dannâs throat tightens. Sheâs heard this kind of bitterness from you before, but never like this.
Never so raw.
âItâs about Mike, and his actual legacy.â
His actual legacy? What are you talking about?
She knows you have every reason to be upset. But Mike had warned herâhad threatened her. And yet, something in her gut twists. She shouldnât be here. She shouldnât be listening to this.
She turns to leave, forcing herself to step away, but thenâ
âDann!â
She flinches at the sound of her motherâs voice echoing from down the hall.
Shit.
Scrambling, she ducks into a side corridor before hurrying toward the kitchen. Her pulse pounds in her ears, your words still looping in her mind.
You were furious about Mike becoming CEO.
Dann hesitates, fingers hovering over her phone. For a brief moment, she considers doing nothing. She considers keeping this to herself.
But then she remembers Mikeâs cold voice in her ear. Her stomach clenches as she finally types out the message.
Dann: YNâs pissed about you becoming CEO. Sheâs planning something.
She stares at the text, her finger hovering over the send button. A part of her screams Donât do this. But another part knowsâŚ
If she doesnât, sheâll be the next one to suffer.
Her thumb presses down.
Sent.
Her heart pounds as she locks her phone, shoving it into her pocket.
And as she heads toward the kitchen, trying to steady her breath, one thought keeps echoing in her mind.
How much longer can I keep doing this?
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The gentle hum of the car engine fades as Hongjoong parks in front of the grand estate. You glance over your shoulder at Lily, whoâs kicking her legs excitedly in her car seat, her wide eyes shining with curiosity.
âAlright, princess. Ready to see where I live?â
It took some convincing to get Hannah on board with bringing Lily along today, but after much persuasion, she finally agreedâthough not without a threat.
If anything were to happen to her daughter, she told you, sheâd make you wish you never stepped foot near her.
Lily gasps dramatically, clapping her hands âLike a castle?â
Hongjoong snorts âClose enough.â
You smirk, unbuckling her seatbelt before lifting her into your arms âExactly like a castle. With grumpy old kings and queens inside.â
Hongjoong chuckles but gives you a look âPretty.â
You just wink at him before turning toward the front doors. As you step inside, the staff immediately notices your little guest.
A few maids exchange surprised glances, but none dare to say anything. Then, your motherâs voice floats from the dining hall.
âYN? Darling, is that you?â
Showtime.
You adjust Lily on your hip and strut into the hall, Hongjoong right beside you. Your mother and father are already seated at the table, sipping tea like they own the world.
But the second they see her, your motherâs teacup stops midair. Your father straightens.
âMother, Father,â You say with a polite smile, shifting Lily in your arms, âI wanted to introduce you to someone properly.â
Lily, bless her little heart, waves excitedly âHi, Iâm Lily!â
Your mother blinks âOh⌠oh my.â
Your fatherâs jaw tightens, but he stays silent. Hongjoong shoves his hands into his pockets, watching carefully.
âSince you know about her now, I figured thereâs no need to keep her hidden,â You continue smoothly, placing Lily down so she can run toward the grand windows. âSheâs family, after all.â
The air in the room is suffocating.
Your mother glances at your father âWell, Iââ She stops when Lily gasps.
âThis place is so big!â The little girl spins in excitement, her curls bouncing. âI wanna see all of it!â
Your motherâs lips part, struggling, fighting every instinct she has. She glances at your father again, who is rubbing his temple.
Hongjoong nudges you slightly, whispering, âYour dad looks like heâs about to explode.â
You grin âI know.â
Your mother clears her throat, standing up âLily, dear, would you like something to drink?â
Lily beams âDo you have chocolate milk?â
Your mother hesitates, then nods slowly âYes⌠of course.â
You exchange a glance with Hongjoong.
Oh, this is too good.
Meanwhile, your father finally speaks, his voice even âAnd how long do you plan to keep her here, YN?â
You feign innocence âJust for a few hours. She should get to know where her family comes from.â
Your father sighs, rubbing his temple again. He looks like he wants to objectâbut what can he say? Get that child out of my house? Even he knows that would make him look bad.
And thatâs when you realizeâyour parents are nervous. They donât want to acknowledge her. They donât want to accept her.
But ignoring her is impossible.
And the best part?
Mike still has no idea.
Your father exhales sharply, sitting up straighter. His voice drops into something colder, firmer.
âDarling, listen carefully.â His gaze is heavy, commanding. âYour brother will be back tomorrow.â He leans forward, resting his elbows on the table. âHe can not see this girl here.â
You let out a dry laugh âWhy not? it's his daughter.â
Your mother nods, forcing a smile âYes, sweetheart. But it's illegitimate.â
Your fatherâs expression hardens âThat means you will not, under any circumstances, mention the girlâs existence.â
A heavy silence fills the room.
Lily, still holding her glass of chocolate milk, glances up at her grandmother with wide, innocent eyes. Then, in the softest voice, she speaks.
âDaddy donât want to meet me?â Her small voice cracks slightly as she pouts, her lip trembling.
She sets the glass down and looks at them, her eyes filling with tears as she struggles to understand why the adults are acting this way. The sadness in her expression is enough to make your heart ache.
The room grows painfully quiet. You see the subtle shift in your parentsâ expressions as they look at the little girl, her innocence making it harder for them to keep up their cold act.
Lily sniffles, wiping her nose with her sleeve, and then in the sweetest, most trusting voice, she adds,
âMommy told me that daddy loves me and when he is done with work, he will meet me.â
She says it as if itâs the most natural thing in the worldâher childlike belief in her fatherâs love and promise, pure and untainted by the complicated mess of adult affairs.
You feel your throat tighten as you watch Lily, and even your parents are visibly affected.
Your motherâs hand shakes slightly as she reaches for Lily, pulling her onto her lap. Her expression softens, the guilt creeping in despite her best efforts to remain unaffected.
Your father glances at your mother, his face softening just a fraction. He lets out a small sigh, clearly conflicted, but doesnât say a word. Instead, he picks up his glass, taking a long sip, as if the weight of the situation is too much to bear.
Lilyâs innocent words seem to hit them harder than any argument could. And you realizeâthis is the beginning of something.
They canât ignore her forever.
You lean forward, your voice still calm but filled with a subtle bite âYou see, sheâs not going anywhere. Sheâs part of the family now, whether you like it or not.â
Lily, oblivious to the tension, smiles softly and rests her head on her grandmotherâs shoulder. Your mother brushes a strand of hair out of her face, and for a moment, you almost see the warmth return to her eyes.
âLetâs not pretend that we canât move forward from this,â You add, watching them both. âSheâs a part of me, and if you canât see that, then youâre not seeing the full picture.â
Your father finally speaks, his voice quieter now, almost reluctant âWeâll see how things go.â His words are far from a promise, but itâs a crack in the facade.
A small step toward accepting the truth.
Hongjoong gently nudges your arm, his quiet support standing strong behind you.
And then, for a brief, fleeting moment, you think they might actually listen.
⎠â
The afternoon stretches lazily as you, Hongjoong, and Lily spend time in the vast garden outside. The sun hangs low in the sky, casting a golden hue over the manicured lawns.
Birds chirp in the distance, and the sound of laughter and lighthearted chatter fills the air as you chase after Lily, who runs ahead, giggling uncontrollably.
Hongjoong stays close, holding Lilyâs hand as she spins in circles, occasionally darting away to pick flowers or make up little games.
The innocence of the moment is enough to make your heart swell, and Hongjoongâs quiet smiles as he watches you with Lily are more than enough to reassure you that, despite the turmoil, this is where she belongs.
From the large windows of the dining room, your parents observe the scene in silence.
The head of the family's stern gaze never falters, his arms crossed over his chest, watching as you play with the child he doesn't want to acknowledge.
His mouth is set in a firm line, and itâs clear he hasnât warmed to the idea of Mikeâs hidden life.
âI still donât like this,â He mutters under his breath. âItâs not just about her being his daughter. Itâs about the familyâs reputation. Michael has always been the heir. This⌠this doesnât fit the image.â
His wife, standing beside him, watches you through the glass. Her eyes soften as she takes in the sight of her daughter and granddaughter together.
For a moment, she allows herself to feel something, something unspoken. Joy, maybe, or hopeâan inkling that, perhaps, this child could be a part of their family, even if itâs only in the most private corners.
âI know youâre worried, but⌠sheâs so sweet.â Her voice trembles slightly, her tone tender as she continues to watch. âI canât deny it. Sheâs so innocent, and she deserves a chance. Sheâs part of Mikeâs blood, after all.â
He narrows his eyes, his jaw tightening. He cannot bring himself to fully accept what is happening, nor can he allow his daughter to be wrapped up in the emotional complexity of it all.
Heâs a man of principle, of tradition, and this is not how things should be. His position, his legacyâeverything heâs worked forâdepends on his son, upholding the family name.
âMike canât just do what he wants,â He grumbles, still staring out at the garden. âHeâs the heir. Weâve worked our entire lives to protect this familyâs name, and thisâthis child complicates things. She could ruin everything.â
The woman hesitates âBut⌠sheâs still part of our family, Richard. You can see it in her face. Sheâs⌠sheâs so much like Mike. She deserves a place in this family.â
âBut she canât just be âpart of the familyâ because we feel sorry for her.â His voice grows firm again. âFamilyâs future depends on him. He is our heir. If this news gets out⌠it could destroy everything. We need to be careful.â
Catherine sighs softly, the weight of the decision pressing on her. She knows what he says is true. Mikeâs position in the family, the businessâeverything depends on how they handle this situation.
She canât just throw it all away for a child born from a mistake. But deep down, she feels a pang of sympathy for the little girl, and a part of her canât help but want to open her heart.
âI just wish Mike would have been honest with us from the beginning,â She says softly, looking back out at the garden where you, Hongjoong, and Lily continue to play. âThis could have been different⌠maybe we could have made it work.â
Her husband grunts, not bothering to respond. The thoughts swirling in his head are far more complex than he lets on. Heâs still angry, still resolute in his belief that the family must maintain its perfect image.
But as he watches you laugh with the child, something shifts.
Just a little.
Catherine places a gentle hand on his arm, her voice barely above a whisper.
âDonât forget⌠we have to think about whatâs best for the family. For all of us.â
He doesnât respond immediately, but his gaze softens for a moment as he watches his daughter interact with Lily.
The love, the connectionâitâs undeniable.
Itâs not just about legacy anymore; itâs about family. And maybe, just maybe, he can find it in himself to accept this little girl.
⎠â
The sun is beginning to dip below the horizon, casting a warm glow over the garden as the evening winds start to cool.
Lilyâs little hands are clinging to your leg as you stand in the doorway, ready to leave.
Sheâs grown comfortable in the short time sheâs spent here, her big eyes filled with innocence and wonder as she looks up at your parents.
âLily, weâre going to head out now,â You say softly, crouching down to her level as you adjust her little jacket.
The weight of the eveningâs tension still hangs in the air, but moments like this make it all seem worth it. Her eyes flicker to her grandparents, and then she looks back at you with that wide-eyed curiosity.
Your mother stands nearby, a little hesitant, but a soft smile curves on her lips as she watches the little girl.
âGoodbye, Lilyâ She says, her voice surprisingly gentle as she kneels in front of her. âCome here and give Grandma a hug.â
Lily blinks up at her and hesitates for just a second before her tiny arms stretch out.
âBye, Grandma,â She says sweetly, throwing her arms around your motherâs neck in a warm embrace.
Your motherâs eyes soften even more, her heart swelling with tenderness âGoodbye, my dear. Come see us again soon, okay?â She says softly, her voice catching slightly.
âOkay!â Lily chirps, pulling back and giving her a big smile, her tiny hands clutching the edges of her jacket.
You feel your heart tug as you watch the two of them, the love in your motherâs eyes undeniable. You canât stop the small smile tugging at your lips as you see how easy it is for Lily to wrap your mother around her finger.
Turning to your father, Lily trots over to him, her little legs moving quickly as she approaches him hesitantly.
âGoodbye, Grandpa,â She says shyly, her voice almost a whisper.
Your fatherâs stern expression softens for just a moment as he bends down to her level, offering a hand to her.
âGoodbye, little one,â He replies, his voice rough but kind as he gently pats her head. âTake care of yourself.â
Lily gives him a sweet smile, her innocence shining through. She gives him a quick hug, standing on tiptoe to wrap her tiny arms around his neck.
âIâll miss you!â She says brightly before letting go.
Your heart aches slightly watching the interaction, a little flutter in your chest, as a sense of something new begins to blossom within you.
Itâs strange, yet beautiful to see how Lilyâs innocence is slowly making its way into their hearts, no matter how reluctant they may have been before.
Hongjoong stands off to the side, watching the scene unfold with a quiet smile. His presence is a steady comfort, and his eyes meet yours as he watches you.
You glance back at him, giving him a soft smile of appreciation for being there, supporting you in all of this.
Lily looks up at you and stretches her arms out wide, grinning âCome on, Auntie YN, letâs go home!â
You laugh softly, picking her up and resting her against your hip âAlright, sweetie, letâs go,â you say with a final wave to your parents. âBye.â
With one last look to your parents, you turn to Hongjoong and nod for him to follow, holding Lily close.
Your mother and father wave back, their faces filled with that strange, bittersweet mixture of emotions as they watch you leave.
The door closes gently behind you, and as you step outside, the cool evening air wraps around you, the weight of the moment still lingering in your heart.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
Four years ago.
The hallway outside Mikeâs room is dimly lit, the distant hum of the household settling for the night.
You were on your way to your own room when you heard itâthe sharp edge of his voice, low but venomous.
âI donât give a damn what you think, Hannah.â
You pause. Hannah, the maid?
You inch closer, pressing yourself against the cold wall near the doorframe. You canât see them, but you can hear everything.
âYou donât get to tell me what to do,â He continues, his tone eerily calm âYouâre going to take care of this. Get rid of it.â
A sharp inhale. Then Hannahâs voice, trembling but still defiant.
âMike, this is your child. You canât justââ
A loud thud cuts her off, like a hand slamming against the desk. You flinch.
âNo, Hannah,â Mike hisses, his voice now sharp as a knife. âI told you to handle it. I donât care how. But you will not ruin my future over this. Do you understand me?â
Silence. Thick. Suffocating.
Then, softer, but no less cruel, âIf you donât, Iâll make your life a living hell. And Iâll make sure that bastard never sees the light of day.â
Your stomach twists. Your chest tightens. You donât know whatâs happening, but your instincts tell you itâs something terrible.
Hannah sniffles âMike, pleaseâŚâ
He sighs, exasperated, like heâs dealing with an inconvenience rather than a human being.
âYou have until tomorrow to figure it out.â
A second later, footsteps approach. You panic, stepping away from the door just as it swings open.
Mike stops short when he sees you standing there. His eyes narrow, calculating.
âWhat are you doing here?â
Your mouth opens, but no words come out. You glance past him, catching a glimpse of Hannah inside the roomâeyes red, shoulders shaking, her hand protectively placed over her stomach.
He steps forward, blocking your view, his voice lowering dangerously âForget whatever you think you heard.â
You shake your head slightly, confusion and unease knotting inside you.
âWhatââ
He doesnât let you finish âActually,â He murmurs, a slow smirk curling on his lips, âYouâre going to help me.â
Your brows furrow âUh?â
Mike tilts his head âYouâre going to tell Mother and Father that Hannah stole from you.â
Your breath catches âShe what?â
âYouâll say you saw her sneaking out of your room with your jewelry,â He continues smoothly, as if itâs the most natural thing in the world âTheyâll believe you.â
âMike, noâŚâ You whisper, horrified.
He leans in slightly, his presence suffocating âYou will.â
You shake your head, stepping back âI wonât do that to her.â
His smirk vanishes in an instant. His hand shoots out, gripping your arm so tightly you wince.
âYes, you will,â He says darkly. âBecause if you donât, Iâll make sure you regret it.â
You donât sleep that night.
The next morning, Hannah is dragged out of the estate in tears.
And you watch, sick to your stomach, as your parents believe every word you say.
â
The school gates are buzzing with students leaving for the day, laughter and chatter filling the air. You step outside, slipping your phone into your bag when a soft voice stops you.
"Miss YN."
You blink, turning toward the sound.
And freeze, it's been months since the last time you saw her.
Hannah stands a few feet away, her hands nervously clasped in front of her. But thatâs not what sends your heart plummeting to your stomach.
Itâs the undeniable swell of her belly beneath her coat.
Your mind goes blank.
She shifts uncomfortably under your stare, glancing around as if making sure no one is watching.
âCan we talk?â
You donât respond immediately, still trying to process what youâre seeing. Then, your fingers tighten around the strap of your bag, and you nod stiffly.
You lead her toward a quieter area near the entrance, away from the curious eyes of your classmates. The moment you stop walking, you cut straight to the point.
âYouâre pregnant.â Your voice is eerily calm.
Hannah exhales, her shoulders sagging slightly âYes.â
Your stomach churns âIs itââ
âI know Mike is in Germany now,â She interrupts before you can finish the question. âThatâs why I came to see you.â She looks up, her expression conflicted. âIâm pregnant, Miss YN. Mike is the father.â
Your heart pounds violently against your ribs.
Hannah swallows hard, her voice quieter now, almost fragile âHe doesnât want anything to do with me. Or the baby.â
It feels like the ground beneath you is cracking, splitting open, revealing something dark and ugly you were never meant to see.
âThatâs why he forced me to lie?â
The words slip past your lips before you can stop them. Your voice is barely above a whisper, but Hannah hears it.
Her brows furrow âWhat?â
Your chest tightens painfully âThatâs why he made me say you stole from me?â You repeat, a bitter laugh escaping you. âBecause he didnât want to handle his mistake?â
Hannahâs lips part slightly. She looks shaken, her hands trembling.
âMiss YN⌠you didââ
âI didnât want to,â You cut in, your throat tightening. âBut he gave me no choice.â
A heavy silence stretches between you. Then Hannah speaks, her voice barely above a whisper.
âI never got rid of her.â
Your breath catches.
âWhat?â
Hannah exhales shakily, one hand instinctively pressing against her belly, as if shielding the life growing inside her.
âI couldnât do it,â she whispers. Her eyes meet yoursâraw, pleading, desperate. âIâm keeping her.â
The world tilts beneath your feet.
Oh, god.
Your throat tightens, your heart hammering against your ribs.
âDonât worry,â You manage, though your voice barely holds steady. âIâll help you.â
But the second the words leave your lips, reality crashes down like a tidal wave.
Youâre only seventeen.
How the hell are you supposed to ask your parents for extra money without raising suspicion? How are you going to keep this a secret from them?
And most importantlyâŚ
What will Mike do if he finds out?
A shiver runs down your spine.
He will kill you.
If he ever finds out, he will fucking kill you.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
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wow, a chapter where readerâs life isnât going horrible. This is going great, but we still gotta kill mike that man is public enemy #1 I donât care how he can blow up in space or die to a snail touching and iâll be happy.
amazing chapter, excited to see what comes next <3
Popular, Boy
â12: The first warning.
Pairing: Nerd!Hongjoong x Popular!Reader
Genre: +18, smut, angst, slow burn, drama, dark academic, love triangle.
wc: 10k
Summary: Stepping back to your world and reclaiming your place with confidence and Hongjoong by your side, feeling that everything is better.
But some loyalties are bound by fear rather than choice.
Warnings: Cursing, manipulation, power dynamics, fluff.
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â11 â13: The first bliss. Coming soon
The sharp click of your heels echoes through the quiet hallway as you make your way toward your fatherâs office. The Clarke mansion is always pristine, always silent in places where it shouldnât be.
Itâs suffocating.
You pause outside the heavy wooden door, exhaling before knocking twice.
âCome in.â
You push the door open, stepping inside. Your father is at his desk, flipping through documents, while your mother sits on one of the velvet chairs across from him, sipping tea as if she has no real business here.
Both of them glance up at you, but itâs your mother who smiles first.
âWell, this is a surprise. To what do we owe the pleasure, darling?â
Your father doesnât say anything. He just watches, waiting. You clear your throat, keeping your tone even.
âI need a favor.â
Your motherâs eyes gleam with interest âA favor? Thatâs rare.â She sets her teacup down gently. âWhat is it?â
You donât hesitate âItâs about Hongjoong.â
At that, your father raises a brow, finally giving you his full attention. Your mother, on the other hand, practically lights up.
âOh, Hongjoong! I was beginning to think you werenât talking to him anymore afterââ She pauses, tilting her head, eyes sharp. âAfter that day.â
You knew this was coming. Of course sheâd ask.Your fingers tighten slightly at your sides, but your voice remains composed.
âIt was a misunderstanding. Everythingâs fine between us now.â
Your mother hums in approval, looking far too pleased. âI knew you wouldnât throw away something special over a little argument.â
Your father clears his throat, his tone clipped âIf this is about that boy, get to the point.â
You nod âItâs not about him, exactly. Itâs about his father.â
Both your parents exchange a glance.
You continue, âHis father lost his job recently, and their family is struggling. I wanted to know if you could offer him something here. A driver, securityâanything.â
Your mother leans back slightly, considering. âHis father lost his job?â A small frown tugs at her lips, but it isnât one of disapprovalâitâs concern. âThatâs terrible.â
Your father leans forward, resting his elbows on the desk. âWhat does he do?â
âHe was a chauffeur,â You answer. âFor a private company, but they let him go.â
Your father exhales, glancing down at the papers on his desk as if debating whether this conversation is worth his time.
âA driver, huh?â
Your mother places a hand on his arm, smiling âWell, we do need another personal driver, donât we?â
Your father gives her a pointed look, but you know him. He isnât against the ideaâheâs just pretending to be.
âIt wouldnât be a bad thing,â The woman continues, smoothing out a nonexistent wrinkle on her dress. âThe boy is respectful, intelligent. If heâs anything like his son, Iâm sure his father would be a good addition.â
Your father exhales through his nose before looking at you âYou really want this?â
âYes.â
A long pause. Thenâ
âFine.â
Your mother claps her hands together lightly âWonderful.â She turns back to you, a knowing smile on her lips. âTell Hongjoong his father can start next week.â
Relief washes over you, but you keep your expression composed. You lean against the edge of your fatherâs desk, tilting your head just slightly, letting your voice soften into that sweet, spoiled tone you know they canât resist.
âThank you, Daddy,â You say, drawing out the last word just enough to sound affectionate, not excessive.
Your father exhales, shaking his head as if heâs already regretting agreeing to this. But you donât miss the way the tension in his shoulders loosens. He likes it when you act like his perfect little girlâlike you adore him.
Your mother watches the interaction with amusement, sipping her tea. âYou shouldâve just started with that, sweetheart. You know your father canât say no to you when you ask nicely.â
Your father gives her a flat look âThatâs not true.â
âOh, please.â She waves a delicate hand in the air. âYouâve been wrapped around her little finger since she could talk.â
You flash a smug little smile, but before you can say anything, your motherâs expression brightens.
âOh! That reminds me.â She sets her teacup down and turns to you expectantly. âYou should invite Hongjoong over for dinner one day.â
Your father grunts âWhat?â
Your mother raises an eyebrow âWhat, what? I like him. Heâs polite, intelligent, and much better company than some of your other friends.â She pauses, pressing a manicured finger to her lips in thought. âAnd heâs quite handsome, isnât he?â
You scoff, rolling your eyes âOkay, calm down.â
She chuckles âIâm just saying, I want to see him again. And this time, without all the party noise.â
Your father mutters under his breath, flipping a page in his documents âI still donât like the idea of my daughter wasting time with some scholarship kid.â
You pout dramatically, leaning toward him âBut, Daddy,â You drawl, âI like him.â
He sighs, rubbing his temple âI swear, you only do this to torture me.â
You smile sweetly âThatâs not true! I only do it when I want something.â
Your mother laughs, shaking her head âSo? Will you invite him?â
You shrug, pushing off the desk âIâll think about it.â
But you both know youâll do it.
As you turn to leave, your mother calls after you, âAnd tell him I said hello!â
You wave a hand without looking back, already dreading Hongjoongâs reaction when you tell him.
Because if he agrees to dinner, you just know your mother is going to love embarrassing you.
⎠â
Hongjoong opens the door, eyebrows raising slightly when he sees you standing on his porch, dressed effortlessly chic like you donât belong in this neighborhood.
Itâs not the first time youâve been here, but itâs rare enough that the sight of you standing outside his house still feels surreal.
"Pretty?" He leans against the doorframe, arms crossed, a hint of amusement playing at his lips. "Did I forget we had a date or something?"
You roll your eyes, stepping past him like you own the place "Please, nerd. If we had a date, youâd be waiting for me."
He huffs a laugh, closing the door behind you "So, whatâs up?"
You spin on your heel, hands clasped in front of you like youâre about to drop the biggest news of the century.
"Well, I just came back from a very interesting conversation with my parents." He tenses slightly at the mention of them, but he doesnât interrupt. "And guess what?" You tilt your head, smiling. "Your dad just got a job."
Hongjoong blinks "What?"
Before you can answer, his motherâs voice comes from the kitchen "Joong, whoâs at theâ" She pauses as she steps into the living room, eyes widening when she sees you. "Oh! YN, dear!"
You smile "Hi, Mrs. Kim."
His father enters the room next, looking surprised but polite "Itâs nice to see you again, YN."
"You too, Mr. Kim," You reply warmly. "Actually, I came to tell you something." You glance at Hongjoong, then back to his father. "My dad just hired you as a personal driver."
A beat of silence. Then the woman clasps her hands together, eyes shining. "Oh, thatâs wonderful news!" She turns to her husband, already fussing. "You see? Everything is working out. I told you things would get better."
The man, though visibly relieved, remains composed "This⌠this is really unexpected," He says carefully, looking at you. "Your father doesnât know me, so why would heâ"
"It was my idea," You cut in. "I told them about your situation, and they agreed."
Hongjoongâs parents exchange a glance, something unspoken passing between them. Gratitude. Maybe even a little disbelief.
Hongjoong stays quiet beside you, his eyes unreadable.
His mother sighs, then smiles at you warmly "YN, that was really kind of you."
You shrug, like itâs nothing, like you donât actually care as much as you do "Itâs the least I could do."
Mrs. Kim beams "Well, in that case, you must stay for dinner."
"Oh, Iâ"
"No buts," She says, already ushering you toward the dining table. "Itâs our way of saying thank you."
You glance at Hongjoong, who just smirks, as if to say you brought this on yourself.
Fine. Youâll stay.
⎠â
Dinner is surprisingly⌠nice. Warm. Unlike the silent, performative meals at the Clarke mansion, this table is filled with actual conversation.
Hongjoongâs father asks about school, his mother tells stories from work, and Hongjoongâwell, he mostly watches you.
And under the table, his hand finds your thigh. You stiffen slightly at the unexpected touch, but when you glance at him, heâs focused on his plate like nothingâs happening.
His fingers, however, trace slow, lazy patterns against your skin, just under the hem of your skirt.
You shift slightly, your breath catching, but you donât move his hand. His thumb presses lightly, and your nails dig into your fork.
Mrs. Kim suddenly laughs at something her husband says, then turns to you with a knowing look.
"YN, dear," She starts, voice full of somethingâsomething playful, something amused. "How long have you and my son been together?"
You nearly choke on your drink, Hongjoong finally looks up, biting back a smile.
"Excuse me?" You ask, feigning innocence.
His father smirks, shaking his head "You two think we donât notice?" He nods toward his son. "Youâve been staring at her all night."
Hongjoong shrugs, far too casual "Can you blame me?"
You shoot him a look.
His mother giggles "And heâs been holding your hand under the table for the last ten minutes."
Oh.
You didnât even realize. Somewhere between his teasing and the conversation, his hand had slipped into yours, fingers lazily intertwined.
Again, Hongjoong just smirks.
You clear your throat, quickly pulling your hand away "Anyway," You say, trying to steer the conversation anywhere else.
But his mother just hums, giving you both a knowing smile "Ah, young love."
Hongjoong leans in slightly, voice low enough for only you to hear "We could make it official, you know."
You gasp, eyes widening as you slap his arm lightly. "Hongjoong!"
His parents laugh at the interaction, clearly entertained, while Hongjoong just grins, absolutely unbothered.
âOh, donât act so surprised, pretty,â He teases, rubbing his arm dramatically like you actually hurt him.
You roll your eyes, ignoring the warmth creeping up your neck. Idiot.
After dinner, Mrs. Kim insists on making tea, despite Hongjoongâs grumbles that âYN probably only drinks champagne, Mom.â You roll your eyes but accept the tea anyway, sitting at the kitchen counter as his parents clear the table.
Hongjoong stands beside you, arms crossed, leaning slightly against the counter. Heâs relaxed, comfortable in his home, but his eyes flicker toward you every few seconds.
You tap your nails against your mug âYour mom likes me.â
He snorts âUnderstatement. Sheâs already planning our wedding.â
You scoff, taking a sip of tea âIâd be a great addition to your family, letâs be honest.â
He tilts his head, considering âYou do have expensive taste. My mom would love the gifts youâd bring her.â
You nudge him with your elbow âOh, shut up.â
He grins, but before he can say something else, his mother calls from the living room. âJoong, come help your father with something!â
Hongjoong exhales through his nose, standing up straight âBe right back.â He pauses before heading off, leaning down just slightly so only you can hear. âDonât miss me too much, pretty.â
You roll your eyes, but he catches the way your lips twitch.
Once heâs gone, youâre left in the quiet of the kitchen, staring down at your tea. Itâs strange being here. The warmth, the easeânothing like the cold, calculated world you come from.
And you hate how much you like it.
A few minutes later, youâre checking your phone when you feel itâgentle fingers trailing down your back. You shiver, looking up just as Hongjoong settles behind you, his presence warm, solid.
âTheyâre in the living room,â He murmurs. âWe have a few minutes alone.â
You raise an eyebrow âAnd?â
âAndâŚâ He steps closer, his hand resting lightly against your hip. âI want to be with you without my mom watching like sheâs this close to planning our honeymoon.â
You smirk, but before you can retort, he dips down, pressing a soft, lingering kiss to the side of your neck.
Your breath catches. His lips ghost over your skin, slow, deliberate. His hands find your waist, fingers tightening ever so slightly.
Youâre still sitting on the stool, and heâs standing between your legs, close enough that you can feel his warmth against you.
âJoongââ
âShhh,â He murmurs, placing another kiss just beneath your jaw. âI just like being near you.â
Your heart stutters. For all the teasing, all the flirting, this moment is different. Itâs soft. Unrushed. His fingers brush over the fabric of your skirt, trailing lazily along your thigh like heâs memorizing the feel of you.
You donât stop him. Instead, you tilt your head slightly, giving him more access.
He hums in approval, lips brushing your pulse before finally pulling back just enough to look at you. His eyes are dark, but thereâs something else in themâsomething real.
His thumb traces circles against your hip âYou should come over more.â
You exhale a quiet laugh âYour mom would love that.â
âShe would,â He agrees, smirking. âAnd maybe I would too.â
Your fingers find the collar of his sweater, tugging him closer until your lips are almost touching.
âYeah?â
âYeah.â
And then he kisses you.
Itâs slow, deliberate, nothing rushed or messy. Just the warmth of his lips, the way his fingers tighten against you, the quiet hum that vibrates against your mouth.
Heâs holding back, you can tell. And maybe you like that.
Maybe you like all of it.
But before things can go any further, the sound of someone clearing their throat shatters the moment.
You both freeze.
Slowly, you turn your headâonly to see Mrs. Kim standing in the doorway, arms crossed, one eyebrow raised.
Hongjoong immediately steps back, rubbing the back of his neck.
âUh...â
She sighs, shaking her head âAt least take her out on a proper date first, Kim Hongjoongl.â
You burst out laughing, while Hongjoong groans, burying his face in his hands.
⎠â
After that awkward situation in the kitchen, you and Hongjoong make your way to his room, excusing yourselves with a vague, âWe have things to do.â His parents exchange a glance but donât argue. If anything, they look downright amused.
His room is cleaner than you expected. Bookshelves filled with everything from fantasy novels to thick textbooks line the walls, and his desk is cluttered but organized.
As he digs through his drawers for fresh clothes, you skim over his bookshelf, fingers brushing over the spines until one catches your eye.
You plop onto his bed, flipping through the pages, completely lost in the book.
Then, the bathroom door clicks open.
You glance upâand immediately freeze.
Hongjoong stands in the doorway, fresh from the shower, steam still curling around him. His damp hair clings slightly to his forehead, droplets of water trailing down the sharp planes of his chest.
And the only thing heâs wearing? A towel.
Low on his hips.
Your throat runs dry.
He doesnât notice at firstâheâs too busy running a hand through his hair, sighing like heâs still processing everything that happened tonight. But then he looks at you, noticing your wide eyes, the way your fingers have frozen over the page.
His lips curve âOh?â He leans against the doorframe, crossing his arms. âSomething wrong, pretty?â
You snap the book shut. Hard.
âWhy are you standing there like that?â You demand, clearing your throat, pretending that nothing about this is affecting you.
Hongjoong shrugs âItâs my room. Didnât know I needed to be fully dressed to exist in it.â
You glare at him âYouâre doing this on purpose.â
He tilts his head, looking far too pleased with himself âDoing what on purpose?â
Your jaw clenches. Fine. Two can play this game.
You set the book aside and stretch, tilting your head slightly, letting your gaze slowly trail down his torso.
Hongjoongâs smirk falters just a little. Then, as if completely unfazed, you lean back against his pillows, propping yourself up on your elbows.
âYou know,â You say, feigning nonchalance, âFor a nerd, youâre in surprisingly good shape.â
He blinks. Thenâhe laughs, shaking his head âOh, thatâs rich coming from you.â
You raise an eyebrow âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
âIt means,â He steps closer, eyes darkening slightly, âThat you are the biggest tease Iâve ever met.â
Heâs right in front of you now, way too close, the scent of his shampoo still fresh. You can see the water droplets clinging to his collarbone, sliding down his skin, disappearing beneath the towel.
Your stomach flutters âI donât know what youâre talking about,â You say, voice way too even.
Hongjoong hums, unconvinced. And then his fingers graze your knee. You jolt slightly, but before you can react, he slides his hand up, slow, teasing. Over your thigh, pushing your skirt up just barely, his fingertips ghosting over sensitive skin.
Your breath hitches.
He leans in, voice low, taunting âTell me, prettyâŚâ His lips hover near your ear. âIf I am doing this on purpose⌠is it working?â
Your pulse pounds.
God, you hate him. But you also donât.
And maybe thatâs the real problem.
Before you can make the very reckless decision to grab him by the towel and end his teasing yourself, Hongjoong grinsâthe cockiest grin youâve ever seenâand pulls away completely, stepping back toward his dresser like nothing just happened.
âI should get dressed,â He muses, voice far too casual. âWe have places to be, remember?â
You stare at him. Heâs so lucky you like him.
You exhale sharply, crossing your arms as he rummages through his drawer âYou are the most annoying person I know.â
He tosses a shirt over his head, grinning âAnd yet, here you are.â
You throw a pillow at him.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
Fifteen minutes later, you arrive at the cafĂŠ, the glow from the streetlights casting long shadows through the clear glass windows. Your steps slow as your eyes land on her.
Jina.
Sheâs behind the counter, casually wiping a glass, completely unaware of whatâs coming.
Your lips press into a thin line, irritation bubbling to the surface.
Hongjoong notices immediately, chuckling under his breath as he reaches out, fingers tilting your chin so your eyes meet his instead.
"Stop frowning, pretty. Youâll get wrinkles."
You scoff âJoong, that slut tried to mess with me and you. Donât expect me to act all nice and sweet around her.â
His lips twitch with amusement, but instead of scolding you, he leans down and presses a slow, deliberate kiss to your lips.
"Itâs okay, pretty. But please donât punch her, or Iâll never bring you to a cafĂŠ again."
You roll your eyes âWhatever.â
Hongjoong sighs but laces his fingers through yours, leading you toward the entrance. The bell above the door jingles softly as you step inside, the warm scent of coffee and vanilla lingering in the air.
The second Jina hears the sound, she turns, already slipping into her customer-service smile.
"Welcome toâ"
Her voice dies in her throat the moment she sees you.
You, standing next to him.
You, holding his hand like nothing had happened between you two.
A flicker of somethingâshock, uneaseâcrosses her face before she quickly schools her expression.
Still, you catch it.
The hesitation.
The way she stiffens ever so slightly under your gaze.
She swallows, clearing her throat "Welcome to CafĂŠ Aurora. How can I help you?"
Hongjoong doesnât respond. Neither do you. Instead, he reaches into his pocket and pulls out a neatly folded envelope, placing it on the counter.
"Itâs my resignation. Thank Mr. Choi on my behalf."
Jina flinches slightly at the soft thud of the envelope hitting the polished wood.
"What?" Her voice comes out quieter than she intends.
He doesnât repeat himself. He simply watches her, expression unreadable. A heavy silence settles between the three of you, thick with tension.
Then, he speaks againâhis tone even, but firm.
"Before we go, I want to ask you something, Jina." She tenses. "Where do you know Park Seonghwa from?"
For the first time, true panic flashes across her face.
Her breath catches. Her fingers tighten around the rag sheâs holding, knuckles turning white.
You donât miss the way her eyes flick toward youâjust for a secondâbefore she quickly looks away, pretending to focus on something across the room.
Like sheâs debating whether or not to lie.
Like sheâs wondering if you remember.
Your own brows furrow slightly. Why would sheâAnd then it hits you.
The familiarity in her gaze. The way she seems to know you, not just Hongjoong.
You narrow your eyes âWhy do I feel like Iâve seen you before?â
Jinaâs jaw tightens, lips pressing into a firm line.
Hongjoong shifts slightly beside you, glancing between the two of you âWait. You know her?â
You blink, memories stirring in the back of your mind, hazy but persistent. You have seen her before.
Not here.
Not as Hongjoongâs coworker.
But years ago.
At Seonghwaâs house.
Your stomach drops, realization crashes into you like a tidal wave. Jina wasnât just some random girl working at this cafĂŠ.
She worked for Seonghwaâs family.
She had been there. During the years you âdatedâ Hwa, when you spent countless afternoons at his house. And yet, back then, you never really noticed her.
She was just another staff member, someone in the background, someone who blended into the luxury of the Park estate.
But the way Jina looks at you nowâLike she remembers everything.
Like she knows exactly who you are.
Your throat tightens, and Hongjoong notices the change in your expression immediately.
âYN?â
Jina exhales slowly, fingers still gripping the rag in her hands. Thenâfinallyâshe speaks. "So, you really donât remember, huh?"
You meet her gaze, heart pounding âRemember what?â
Jina lets out a quiet, humorless laugh, shaking her head âFigures.â She leans forward slightly, lowering her voice. âYou used to be in his house all the time, but you never even looked at me, did you?â
Your fingers curl into fists âWhat the hell are you talking about?â
Jina tilts her head, eyes glinting âYou really donât know, do you?â
Hongjoong stiffens beside you âKnow what?â
She pauses, studying you both.
"Are you sure Seonghwa wanted something serious with you back then?"
A sharp, hollow ache settles in your chest, the weight of Jinaâs words pressing into you like a slow, creeping poison.
âWhat the hell is that supposed to mean?â Your voice is sharp, but thereâs something beneath itâsomething raw.
Jina smirks, tapping her fingers against the counter, eyes flickering between you and Hongjoong.
âI mean exactly what I said. Are you sure Seonghwa ever really saw you as his?â
Hongjoong shifts beside you, his presence grounding you, but your pulse is hammering against your ribs.
âYouâre lying.â
Jina raises a brow, clearly amused âAm I?â
Your jaw clenches. You want to ignore this. You want to roll your eyes, turn around, and walk out like none of this matters. Like he doesnât matter. Like your past with Hwa was just thatâpast.
But something inside you twists.
You had liked himâreally liked him. Back then, you had convinced yourself that the games you played with him meant something, that the tension, the lingering glances, the way he acted like you were the only girl in the room was real.
But if Jinaâs words were trueâif he had never really meant it, if you were just one of manyâthen what the hell had all of it been for?
Your stomach churns. Hongjoong, silent until now, finally steps in, his voice firm, protective.
âYN, we donât have to listen to this.â
But you canât move. You canât breathe. Because the memories are flashingâthe nights you waited for Seonghwa to call, the excuses he made, the moments that never quite added up.
Jina watches you, her smirk deepening âThere it is.â
You snap your gaze back to hers, eyes burning âWhat do you want? Huh? Whatâs your goal here?â
Jina leans back, feigning innocence âI donât want anything. I just think you deserve to know what kind of man Seonghwa really is.â
It shouldnât hurt. Not anymore.
You have Hongjoong.
Hongjoong, who would never play with your feelings like that. Hongjoong, who looks at you like youâre the only girl in the world.
And suddenly, thatâs enough.
The pain dulls.
You exhale, letting go of the sharp, bitter sting in your chest. You turn to him, and when your eyes meet, the warmth there is undeniable.
You have everything you need.
Seonghwa is just a name from your past. A mistake.
You look back at Jina, but this time, your lips curveânot into a smirk, not into anger, but into indifference.
âYou know what, Jina?â You say smoothly, voice steady. âI donât care.â
Jina blinks, her smirk faltering for the first time.
You step closer, tilting your head âYou really thought this would break me?â A soft chuckle leaves your lips. âThatâs pathetic.â
And with that, you turn to Hongjoong, grabbing his hand as you lace your fingers through his. His grip tightens, reassuring.
Without another word, you pull him toward the exit, leaving Jina behind.
Because for the first time, you realizeâyouâve already won.
⎠â
The low hum of the car engine fills the silence between you and Hongjoong as he drives through the dimly lit streets.
The city blurs past, neon lights reflecting against the windshield, but your mind is somewhere elseâstuck in the past.
Hongjoong doesnât say anything at first, but you can feel his eyes flicking toward you every few seconds, his fingers tightening around the steering wheel.
He can sense itâthe shift in your mood, the way your shoulders are tense, the distant look in your eyes.
âYouâre quiet,â He finally says, voice softer than usual.
You donât answer right away. Instead, you sigh, shifting slightly in your seat.
âIâm just⌠thinking.â
Hongjoong hums in acknowledgment, giving you space to find the words. You exhale sharply, pressing your forehead against the window for a moment before turning to him.
âDid I ever tell you that I really liked Seonghwa?â
Hongjoongâs fingers twitch around the wheel, but he keeps his expression neutral.
âNo, but I assumed it for the way you two used to act.â He says carefully.
A bitter chuckle leaves your lips âWell, I did. Or at least, I thought I did.â You shake your head, scoffing at yourself. âI was so sure that what we had was real. That if I played hard to get long enough, heâd actually make a move.â
He doesnât interrupt, just listens.
Your fingers tighten into your lap âAnd now, to find out that he was screwing around with Jina the entire timeâŚâ You trail off, clenching your jaw. âI was an idiot.â
Hongjoong exhales, reaching over to take your hand in his. His thumb strokes slow, soothing circles against your skin.
âYou werenât an idiot,â He murmurs. âYou just believed in someone who didnât deserve it.â
Your chest tightens. You glance down at your joined hands, the warmth of his touch spreading through you, grounding you.
He continues, his voice gentle but firm âSeoghwa never deserved you. And if he had even half a brain, he wouldâve known that.â
You look at him then, your lips parting slightly. Thereâs no jealousy in his voice. No smugness. Just certainty. Like heâs always known your worthâeven when you didnât.
For the first time since leaving the cafĂŠ, the ache in your chest softens.
You squeeze his hand âThank you, Joongie.â You say quietly.
Hongjoong offers you a small smile before focusing back on the road.
âAre you going to confront him?â He asks.
You nod, your gaze sharpening âOh, absolutely. He owes me an apology, and heâs going to give it.â
He chuckles âRemind me never to piss you off.â
You smirk, feeling lighter than before âOh, you already did. Youâre just lucky I forgave you.â
By the time you pull into the long driveway of your mansion, the tension between you and Hongjoong has shifted into something else entirely.
Something heavier.
The moment the car stops, silence settles between youâthick, charged.
Hongjoong shifts in his seat, eyes flickering to yours, dark and hungry âYouâre staring,â He murmurs.
Your lips curl into a slow smirk âSo are you.â
He swallows hard. You know what heâs thinking. You feel itâthe weight of weeks spent apart, of lingering touches that never went far enough, of all the things left unsaid.
And now, alone in the dim glow of the car, it finally snaps.
You reach for him first, fingers curling into the fabric of his hoodie as you pull him in. Your lips crash against his, and the moment they do, he groansâlow, needy, like heâs been starving for this.
Hongjoong kisses you like heâs making up for lost timeâdesperate, reckless, his hands sliding up your waist, gripping you tighter than he should.
You donât care, you want itâwant him.
A soft moan escapes you when his fingers slip beneath your dress, skimming along your thighs, his touch scorching against your skin.
âFuck,â He breathes against your lips, his forehead pressing against yours, his breath ragged. âWe shouldâgo inside.â
You smirk, trailing your fingers down his chest, feeling his heartbeat hammer beneath your palm.
âYou sure you can wait that long?â
His jaw clenches, his hands tightening around you, and before you know it, heâs pulling you into his lap, his seat pushed back just enough.
The moment you straddle him, he loses it.
His hands roam greedily, his lips devour yours, his breath hitching every time you grind against him.
But thenâ
The sudden flash of headlights approaching the driveway snaps you both back to reality.
You jolt, your eyes widening âShit.â
Hongjoong curses, gripping your waist as you scramble off him, both of you breathless, flushed, aching. You adjust your skirt, and Hongjoong runs a hand through his hair, exhaling sharply.
âYouâre a menace,â He mutters, voice hoarse.
You grin, fixing your lipstick in the rearview mirror âAnd you love it.â
He huffs a laugh, shaking his head âYeah. I do.â
The moment you step out of the car, smoothing your dress and pretending you werenât just grinding on your nerdy boy, you hear the hum of an approaching engine.
Hongjoong, still catching his breath, freezes beside you. His hair is a mess, his hoodie slightly disheveledâhe looks guilty as hell. You turn your head just in time to see the sleek black car pulling into the driveway.
Your parentsâ car, your heart drops.
He exhales sharply âYouâve got to be fucking kidding me.â
You barely have time to compose yourself before the car door swings open and your mother steps out first, graceful as ever. Your father follows, adjusting his cufflinks, both completely unaware of what they just interrupted.
Yet.
âSweetie!â Your motherâs voice is warm, delighted. âWhat a surprise to see you home early.â
Hongjoong tenses beside you, hands stuffed into his pockets, looking like a kid caught sneaking out past curfew.
You, on the other hand, recover instantly, flipping your hair over your shoulder and flashing a perfectly practiced smile.
âHi.â You greet smoothly, stepping forward like nothing is out of the ordinary. âDidnât expect you two back so soon. How was dinner?â
Your father eyes Hongjoong for a second longer than necessary before answering.
âProductive,â He says, his tone measured. âWe met with investorsâsecured another deal.â
âOh, how lovely.â You nod, your voice syrupy sweet, desperately hoping they wonât notice the faint smudge of lipstick on Hongjoongâs jaw.
But your motherâs sharp gaze flickers between the two of you, taking in every detail. The way Hongjoong wonât meet her eyes, the slight flush on his face, the way your dress looks just a little more wrinkled than before.
Thenârealization dawns.
Her lips twitch âOh, honey,â She hums, amused. âWe didnât⌠interrupt anything, did we?â
Hongjoong chokes. Actually chokes.
You blink, keeping your expression perfectly neutral âOf course not,â You lie effortlessly.
Your mother tilts her head, clearly not believing a single word.
Your father sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose. âDarling, be discreet,â He mutters. âIf you must do⌠thisââhe waves a vague hand between you and HongjoongââAt least have the decency to do it inside the house.â
Hongjoong turns bright red. his glasses covering the way his eyes shut with embarrassment.
You grin, looping your arm through his âOf course, Daddy. Weâll be very discreet.â
Your father groans. Your mother, meanwhile, just smirks, shaking her head.
âHongjoong, dear,â She says smoothly, âWhy donât you come inside for a drink before you go?â
Hongjoong, still recovering, nods stiffly âUh. Yeah. Sure.â
You pat his chest, whispering, âRelax, nerd. My mom likes you.â
He mutters under his breath âThatâs not the one Iâm worried about.â
And with that, you lead him insideâyour parents following close behind, and your mother still very much amused.
The warmth of the mansion greets you as you step inside, but the atmosphere is anything but comfortable for Hongjoong.
Your mother glides in effortlessly, a small knowing smile still lingering on her lips, while your father sighs heavily, already loosening his tie like he doesnât want to deal with this tonight.
Hongjoong, on the other hand?
He looks like heâd rather be anywhere else.
You squeeze his hand reassuringly as the four of you step into the lounge, where the dim glow of the chandelier casts soft shadows across the room.
Your mother gestures toward the leather sofas âSit, sit,â She says, her voice almost teasing.
He hesitates. You donât.
Dragging him along with you, you plop down elegantly on one of the couches, crossing your legs, exuding nothing but confidence. Hongjoong, stiff as a board, lowers himself beside youâlooking very out of place.
Your father pours himself a drink, running a tired hand through his hair before turning to him.
âWhiskey?â He asks.
Hongjoong blinks âUhâno, sir. Iâm good.â
Your mother hums, sitting gracefully across from you both âYou donât have to be so formal, Hongjoong. We already know you and YN are⌠close.â
He shifts uncomfortably âRight.â
You smirk, tapping your fingers against your knee âYou donât have to traumatize him, Mom.â
Your mother chuckles, tilting her head âI think itâs adorable. Youâre the first boy YN has ever brought home in a serious way.â
Hongjoong freezes.
Your father scoffs âSerious?â He sips his drink, unimpressed. âThis is the same girl who threw a designer shoe at my head when I suggested she attend a dinner instead of going out with friends.â
Your mother ignores him âHongjoong, sweetheart, how is your family?â
He blinks, snapping out of his existential crisis âOhâuh, good. My dad had his first day today. Thank you again for the opportunity, Mr. Clarke.â
Your father nods, dismissive âHe did well.â
Your mother, however, smiles warmly âIt was YNâs idea.â
Mike turns to you. âI know,â he says softly. âI still donât know how to thank you.â
You shrug, feigning nonchalance. âYou donât have to.â
But your mother? She notices everythingâthe way Hongjoong looks at you, the way your fingers twitch like youâre stopping yourself from reaching for his hand, the way he makes you soft.
Her smile deepens âWell,â She hums, placing her glass down. âSince weâre all so comfortable, why donât you join us for dinner sometime soon, Hongjoong?â
He stiffens, you grin. Your father sighs, already regretting everything.
Hongjoong clears his throat âThatâs⌠really generous, Mrs. Clarke.â
âOh, please,â She waves him off. âCall me Catherine.â
Hongjoong visibly swallows âThatâs⌠really generous, Catherine.â
Your father nearly chokes on his drink, you snicker under your breath.
Your mother just beams âPerfect. Iâll set something up soon.â
He nods, and just when he thinks the interrogation is over your motherâs eyes flicker between the two of you, her smirk returning.
âSo,â She leans forward slightly, voice dangerously amused. âWhere exactly were you two before we arrived?â
Hongjoong stops breathing.
Your father sighs into his whiskey âJesus Christ, Catherine.â
You, completely unbothered, just smirk âNowhere interesting.â
Your mother laughs, sipping her wine.
Hongjoong? Heâs never been more stressed in his life.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The school hallways are alive with chatter as you step through the entrance, the silence parting for you like the sea parting for royalty.
Itâs been three weeks since you last walked these halls. Three long weeks, spent hiding in the shadows of your own house, nursing wounds both physical and emotional.
But today, you're back.
Your heels click against the floor with each confident step, and you feel the eyes of the students on youâsome of them staring in awe, some in jealousy, and others in pure admiration.
Whispers ripple through the crowd as you walk past them, and you canât help but smirk. You know what theyâre saying.
The Queen Bee has returned.
You walk with your head held high, shoulders squared, and a smile that borders on smug. Your friends are all there, surrounding you like the loyal subjects they are. Mindy and Wooyoung are by your side, smiling at the attention you're getting, the flashes of admiration in their eyes mirroring your own.
But even as you drink in the attention, thereâs something in the air that you canât ignore. The familiar pressure of someoneâs gazeâthe feeling of eyes on you from across the room.
You know who it is before you even see him.
Seonghwa.
You turn your head, catching sight of him standing near his locker, a faint smile playing on his lips as he watches you approach. He straightens as you get closer, the friendly expression in his eyes barely masking the sharpness beneath.
"Sweetheart," He says, his voice smooth, warm, and filled with an almost brotherly concern. "Where have you been? Haven't seen you around for a while. Everything okay?"
You smile, perfectly poised, the kind of smile that looks warm but never quite reaches your eyes.
âSeonghwa,â You greet, stopping just short of where he stands. âHow sweet of you to notice.â
He chuckles, leaning against his locker with the kind of casual arrogance that once made your stomach flutter.
Now? It makes you sick.
âOf course I noticed,â He says smoothly, eyes flickering over your face, your stanceâalways analyzing, always calculating. âThree weeks is a long time to go without seeing you.â
Mindy and Wooyoung exchange glances behind you, but they say nothing. They know better than to interrupt.
You tilt your head, feigning curiosity âDid you miss me?â
Hwa smirks, and there it isâthat infuriating, cocky confidence, the belief that youâll always fall into his hands, just like you used to.
âI think the better question is,â He steps closer, voice lowering, âDid you miss me?â
You laugh, the sound light and dismissive, like the very thought is entertaining.
âHwa,â You purr, tapping a manicured nail against your chin, âIâve had⌠so much to think about these past few weeks.â Your gaze drags over him, slow, assessingâletting him think he still has a chance. âYou wouldnât believe the things Iâve learned.â
His smirk falters for half a second, but you see it.
You see everything.
You step closer, close enough that only he can hear you when you murmur, âYou and I have so much to catch up on.â
Seonghwa studies you, trying to gauge if youâre being playful or if thereâs something more dangerous beneath your words.
You donât let him figure it out.
Instead, you brush past him, letting your perfume linger in the air between you, a lingering reminder that you are no longer the fool who once loved him blindly.
Mindy falls into step beside you, waiting until youâre out of earshot before whispering, âThat was fucking terrifying.â
Wooyoung just whistles âDamn, babydoll. Heâs gonna suffer.â
You smile.
He has no idea.
⎠â
The cafeteria is alive with energy, students laughing, chatting, living in their own little worlds. But at your table? The air is thick, heavy with tension, the kind that turns heads and makes people pay attention.
You sit at your usual spot, sipping your drink as Mindy and Wooyoung throw teasing comments back and forth.
Across from you, San and Mingi lounge comfortably, more entertained than anything as Seonghwa takes his seat, acting as if he owns the space.
And he might have before.
Before he started working against you. Before he thought he could outplay you. Before you learned the truth.
Seonghwa leans forward, flashing you a smirk, his presence demanding your attention "So, babyâ"
âHey, pretty.â
The entire table shifts, your smirk grows before you even turn to look. Because you already know who that voice belongs to.
Hongjoong.
He slides into the seat beside you like heâs been doing it for years, like this is exactly where he belongs. And thenâhe does it. He leans in, presses a soft kiss to the corner of your lips, his hand resting against your thigh like itâs his right.
Seonghwa goes still.
Mindy bites her lip to keep from grinning. Wooyoung? Heâs barely containing a laugh.
San and Mingi glance at each other, picking up on something dangerous.
But Seonghwa?
Heâs frozen, staring at you and Hongjoong like the world just tilted off its axis.
âYouâve gotta be kidding me.â His voice is low, tight with something uglier than frustration.
You tilt your head, eyes dancing with amusement âSomething wrong?â
Hwaâs jaw clenches âI thoughtâŚâ He stops himself, recalculating, but the damage is already done. You see it in his eyes.
He thought he still had a chance.
And now? He doesnât.
Hongjoong doesnât even glance at him. He just shrugs, completely at ease âI think he thought we werenât on good terms, pretty.â
Seonghwaâs eyes snap to him, burning with fury.
You smirk.
âOh, Hwa,â Mindy sighs dramatically, flipping her hair over her shoulder. âYou shouldâve kept up with the gossip.â
Seonghwa stares at you, as if waiting for some kind of explanation, some confirmation that this is all a joke.
But you donât give him one. Instead, you lean into Hongjoongâs touch, fingers grazing over his wrist in an intimate, deliberate move.
The weight of his glare is suffocating, burning into you and Hongjoong, but neither of you react. You just smile, the picture of ease, while Hongjoongâcalm, collected, unbotheredâtakes a sip of his drink like this is just another normal day.
San and Mingi exchange a look, sensing the storm brewing, but Wooyoung and Mindy? Theyâre thriving in the chaos.
Seonghwa finally speaks, his voice tight, controlled, but just barely.
âSo, what? You two justâgot back together?â His fingers drum against the table, a nervous tick he canât quite suppress.
You lean back, feigning surprise âWhy wouldnât we?â
His eyes darken, his lips part like heâs about to argue, but he stops himself. Heâs realizing things, piecing together all the lies he swallowed as truth.
Mindy hums, propping her chin on her hand âDid you really think they broke up, Hwa?â
Seonghwa doesnât look at her. He looks at you and you hold his gaze, refusing to be the first to break. He hated that about youâhow you never wavered, never bent to his will.
His tongue clicks, irritation flashing across his face âItâs just funny, thatâs all.â His smirk returns, but itâs weaker now, forced. âConsidering the rumors.â
You feign innocence âRumors?â
He leans in, dropping his voice so only you can hear âThat this nerd was using you.â
Hongjoong tenses beside you.
You grin, slow and deliberate âOh, that.â
Hwaâs smirk twitches. You place a hand on Hongjoongâs thigh, casual, effortlessâa claim.
âIf that were true,â You murmur, âDo you really think Iâd still be with him?â
Seonghwa hates the way Hongjoong doesnât even have to say anything. Hates the way youâre looking at him like heâs the one whoâs pathetic.
His jaw tightens, and for a brief second, you can see itâthe fury, the frustration, the realization that he played himself.
And thenâhe laughs. Shakes his head, leaning back, drumming his fingers on the table again, pretending this doesnât bother him.
âGuess not,â He mutters, eyes flicking toward Wooyoung and Mindy. âGuess someoneâs been feeding me bullshit.â
Mindy gasps dramatically, placing a hand on her chest âOh no, Hwa. Were you misled?â
Wooyoung grins, wrapping an arm around her âDamn, man. Thatâs rough.â
Hwaâs eyes narrow. He knows.
He knows they set him up.
And when he looks at you one last time, you donât have to say it out loud.
You played the game better.
And he lost.
For the first time, he has no control.
For the first time, you won.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The final bell rings, signaling the end of another school day. Students spill into the hallways, laughter and chatter filling the air as everyone heads off to do whatever rich, privileged, private-school kids do after class.
You glance at Hongjoong as you walk beside him, nudging his arm lightly.
âSo, whatâs the plan, nerd? Are you free?â
He exhales, rubbing the back of his neck âActually⌠Yunho, Jongho, and Yeosang need me for something in the library.â
âYouâre ditching me to do nerd things?â
He chuckles, shoving his hands in his pockets âNot ditching. I did say you could come.â
You stop walking, turning to him with a slow, dramatic smirk âYou want me to do nerd stuff⌠with your nerd friends⌠nerd?â
Hongjoong grins âBasically.â
You scoff, crossing your arms âI should say no on principle.â
âBut you wonât,â He counters easily, smug.
You narrow your eyes at him, then sigh in exaggerated defeat âFine. Iâll grace you all with my presence. But if I get bored, Iâm leaving.â
Hongjoong nudges your waist playfully âYou wonât.â
You roll your eyes but let him lead the way.
The library is quiet, dimly lit by the late afternoon sun filtering through the tall, arched windows. Shelves of books stretch high, the scent of old paper and wood polish lingering in the air.
At a far table, three familiar faces sit, already setting up their thingsâYunho, Jongho, and Yeosang. You and Hongjoong approach, and Yunho looks up first, his face brightening in surprise.
âOh, hey, man. You actually brought her?â
Jongho smirks âI thought sheâd be too busy shopping or making people cry.â
Hongjoong shrugs âShe wanted to come.â
You snort, sliding into a chair âLetâs not lie to ourselves, Kim.â
Yeosang laughs, shaking his head before glancing toward the bookshelves âWe should probably get started. Dannâs already here.â
âWaitâDannâs here?â The moment Hongjoong says it, you stiffen too.
You turn your head slowlyâtoo slowlyâuntil your gaze locks onto her.
Dann.
She stands a few feet away, a book clutched tightly in her hands, her entire body tense.
Your presence here? She wasnât expecting it.
You and Hongjoong sit down at the table, but there's an undeniable awkwardness that hangs in the air. Dannâs presence is almost suffocatingâyou can feel her gaze on you, but you pretend you don't notice.
Instead, you lean in toward Hongjoong, your hand finding its way to his thigh under the table.
His fingers graze your wrist as you smile at him, brushing your lips against his ear âReady to work, nerd?â You murmur, your breath warm against his skin.
He smiles back, that familiar look of adoration in his eyes âAlways, but firstââ
He leans in and kisses you, slow and teasing, the kind of kiss that makes you feel like the world just stops for a moment.
You pull away just slightly, eyes meeting his âYou really need to stop distracting me,â You tease.
Hongjoong grins, not one bit sorry âI canât help it when you're so distracting.â
The others at the table shift uncomfortably, and you feel the heat of their awkward glances. Yunho, trying to break the tension, clears his throat loudly.
âSo, Queen Bee, you gonna help us with this or what?â
You blink âHow quaint.â
âYeah, we're gonna need someone with that attitude to get through this,â Jongho jokes, nudging your shoulder playfully. âAnd since Joongâs clearly already distractedââ
You roll your eyes but donât resist âFine, fine. What are we doing?â
From the corner of your eye, you catch Dann standing slightly apart from the group, fidgeting with the book in her hands. Sheâs trying to act like sheâs not watching, but you feel itâher stare, the weight of her presence, the discomfort written all over her face.
Hongjoong, oblivious to everything but you, leans in slightly âWeâre creating study guides for other students. Wanna help?â
You scoff, crossing your arms âStudy guides? I didnât know school nerds were running that kind of operation.â
Jongho laughs, tilting his head at you âReally? I didnât know you even knew about the study guides. I thought you just paid nerds to take your exams for you.â
Your jaw drops slightly in mock offense, but in reality, you find the comment hilarious.
âExcuse you,â You huff, flipping your hair dramatically. âI am more than a pretty face, you nerd.â You snatch a textbook from the stack in front of you. âNow, give me those fucking books.â
Hongjoong grins at you, shaking his head âSee? Sheâs a fast learner.â
âI was always smart,â You correct, flipping open the book and pretending to scan the page.
âThatâs up for debate,â Jongho quips.
âYou better watch it,â You warn, smirking.
Yunho chuckles, nudging Dann, who still stands awkwardly on the sidelines âCome on, donât just stand there. Youâre supposed to be the real nerd here.â
Dann startles slightly, caught off guard âH-Huh?â
Yeosang shoots her a knowing look, his voice light but careful âDonât act like you havenât done this a million times before. Youâre always the one fixing our answers.â
Jongho nods in agreement âYeah, sit down, Dann.â
Dann hesitates, but the warmth in their voices, the familiarity, makes her shift awkwardly. âIâyeah.â
âYou in?â Yeosang asks.
Her heart clenches. Because thatâs the problem, isnât it? She was never really in. Not the way you are.
Not the way she wanted to be.
But despite the sting, she forces a smile, nodding âYeah. Iâm in.â
She pretends it doesnât hurt when she sees Hongjoongâs hand absently squeeze your thigh under the table.
She pretends that being included still means something.
Even if itâs too late.
ââ
As the study session progresses, the library fills with the quiet hum of flipping pages, hushed discussions, and the occasional laughter from your table.
You're flipping through one of the books, trying to make sense of the notes when Hongjoong leans closer, his lips brushing the shell of your ear.
âYou sure youâre not just pretending to read?â He murmurs.
You scoff, shoving his face away lightly âShut up, nerd.â
Jongho snorts âThatâs literally what we saidâshe just sits here to look smart.â
You glare at him, tossing a pencil in his direction âI will end you.â
Yeosang smirks, tapping his pen against his notebook âI mean, to be fair, YN, we are impressed. Usually, youâd be terrorizing the halls, not⌠doing actual schoolwork.â
Yunho grins âAnd she hasnât threatened to quit yet. Growth.â
âYet,â You emphasize, pointing your pen at him. âDon't get ahead of yourselves.â
Hongjoong chuckles, sliding an arm over the back of your chair, his fingers lightly grazing your shoulder.
âNah, sheâs too competitive to quit now. Sheâs gotta prove us all wrong.â
You huff but donât deny it. Meanwhile, Dann barely hears the conversation.
She keeps her head down, scribbling mindlessly in the margins of her notebook, pretending to be focused. But in reality, sheâs distractedâby the way Hongjoong leans into you, how effortlessly you fall into place among his friends.
She should be used to this feeling by now, but it still stings.
Yunho nudges her again, voice lighthearted âDann, you good? You havenât called me an idiot yet, and I know Iâve messed up at least three times.â
Dann blinks, forcing a weak chuckle âOhâuh, yeah. Sorry. What were you saying?â
Yeosang tilts his head, studying her a little too carefully, but doesnât press.
âWas just asking if I should format this section like the last one or break it into smaller parts,â Yunho says, handing her a sheet of notes.
She takes it with trembling fingers, trying to focus. But thenâ
Soft laughter.
She glances up just in time to see Hongjoong kissing your cheek, his hand resting way too comfortably on your lap.
Her stomach twists.
She did this.
She made a deal with Seonghwa. She fed Mike information. She helped spread rumors about you.
And for what?
To watch Hongjoong fall for someone else anyway? To watch you win again?
Her grip on the pen tightens. But⌠itâs not jealousy that eats at her this time.
Itâs guilt.
Because if she had just stayed out of it, if she hadnât let her petty resentment and heartbreak drive her, maybeâjust maybeâyou wouldnât have gotten hurt.
Maybe Mike wouldnât have gone that far.
Maybe Hongjoong wouldnât hate her if he knew.
But now, itâs too late.
She canât undo what sheâs done.
And soon, sheâll have no choice but to face it.
⎠â
The library session lasts longer than expected. By the time you all wrap up, the school halls are mostly empty, bathed in the dim glow of the evening lights.
Hongjoong stretches beside you, cracking his neck "Alright, nerd squad, mission accomplished."
Jongho groans, rubbing his eyes "Barely. I swear, if one more person asks me to explain quadratic equations, I'm quitting school."
Yeosang chuckles, stuffing his papers into his bag "You'll survive. Probably."
"Yeah, yeah," Jongho mutters. Then he smirks. "Still can't believe YN actually helped."
"I told you," Hongjoong says proudly, pulling you close with an arm around your waist. "She's not just a pretty face."
"Obviously," You say, flipping your hair.
Yunho stretches, groaning "Thatâs enough brainpower for today."
Hongjoong grins "You sure? Thought nerd stuff was your hobby."
Linda scoffs, leaning into his side "Yeah, yeah, this was cute and all, but next time, Iâm making you all do my homework instead."
Hongjoong chuckles, tucking a loose strand of hair behind your ear. His fingers linger on your cheek for just a second longer than necessary, and the small gesture makes your heart flutter.
Across the table, Dann watches.
Everyone is grabbing their things, chatting casually about the day as they prepare to leave.
And thenâ
"You already know Hongjoong is using you, right?"
The words hang in the air, cutting through the lighthearted atmosphere like a blade.
Hongjoong freezes.
You do too.
Slowly, you turn your head, eyes locking onto Dann.
She looks like she immediately regrets it.
Yunho lets out a low whistle "Damn."
Yeosang glances between the three of you, eyebrows raised.
Jongho exhales sharply, his grip tightening around the strap of his backpack "What the hell did you just say?"
Dannâs mouth parts, but no words come out.
"Iâ"
"You know what?" Your voice is eerily calm, dangerously calm. "Let me make sure I heard you right." You tilt your head. "You think Joong is using me?"
Dannâs heart pounds, she didnât mean to say it.
It just slipped.
She was so lost in her own thoughts, so lost in the pain of seeing you two together that the words just fell out.
But now itâs too late.
Hongjoong scoffs, running a hand down his face "Thatâs actually insane."
"You know whatâs more insane?" You fold your arms. "The fact that you even thought that, Dann."
"Iâ" She tries again, her voice wavering. "I didnât mean⌠It was justâ"
"Just what?" Your voice is sharper now. "Something you just casually thought? Or did someone put that idea in your head?" Dannâs stomach drops. You let out a bitter chuckle. "Unbelievable."
Yunho and Jongho exchange glances, watching the scene unfold in tense silence.
Yeosang clears his throat "Uh, maybe we shouldâ"
"No." Hongjoong shakes his head. "I wanna hear this." His voice lowers, but itâs sharpâcutting. "You really think that little of me?"
Dann panics.
"I didnâtâ I mean, I donât know!" She blurts out, shaking her head. "I just.. I heardâ" She stops herself.
But itâs already too late.
Your expression doesnât change, but the slightest flicker in your gaze tells Hongjoong everything. You know exactly whatâs happening.
But you canât let on, so you do what you do best.
You smirk "You heard what?" You ask smoothly, tilting your head. "Come on, Dann. Donât get shy on me now."
Dann feels trapped. Every fiber in her being is screaming at her to fix this.
To lie.
To say anything to make it go away.
But she canât.
She can only stand there, feeling the weight of her own betrayal crushing down on her.
Hongjoong exhales sharply, shaking his head "I really thought we were cool, Dann."
That makes it worse.
He doesnât sound angry.
He sounds disappointed.
Dann swallows hard, staring at the floor "I⌠I should go."
Nobody stops her.
Not even Yunho, Jongho, or Yeosang.
She grabs her things and rushes out, leaving behind the suffocating tension she created.
The second sheâs gone, Jongho exhales, shaking his head "What the fuck was that?"
"That was crazy."
Hongjoong is still staring at the door Dann disappeared through.
You touch his arm, voice soft "You okay?"
He looks down at you, searching your face for a moment before sighing "Yeah," He mutters. "Iâm justâ I donât know. I was really hoping that she wasn't involved with Park and Mike."
You squeeze his hand, your voice steady "Well, she is."
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The dining room is bathed in warm, golden light, the soft clinking of silverware against fine china the only sound filling the space.
The Clarke family dinners are always a performanceâelegance, poise, and surface-level pleasantries hiding the rot underneath.
You push your food around your plate, only half-listening as your mother hums approvingly, sipping her wine.
âWell,â She says, a pleased smile on her lips. âI must say, Hongjoongâs father has been a wonderful addition to the household staff.â
Your fork pauses midair.
Mikeâs does too.
Your father nods in agreement, setting his glass down âPunctual, respectful, efficientâeverything we could ask for. Heâs handling the job well.â
You relax slightly, about to take a bite when Mike speaks.
âIâm sorry, but what?â
The room stiffens. You glance up just in time to catch his expression shiftâfrom confusion to realization to rage.
Your mother, ever the graceful hostess, waves a hand delicately âOh, we didnât mention it, did we?â She chuckles lightly, as if it were a minor oversight. âYN came to us with the idea. Hongjoongâs father was out of work, so we hired him.â
Mikeâs jaw tightens, his grip on his knife turns white-knuckled. You feel the tension roll off him in waves.
Your fatherâoblivious or simply uninterested in Mikeâs growing furyâadds, âAnd truthfully, it was a great decision. The man is trustworthy. If he keeps it up, he might even stay with us long-term.â
Mikeâs fork clatters against his plate. Your mother flinches.
âI see,â He says, voice icy. His gaze cuts straight through you. âAnd no one thought to tell me?â
âDidnât seem necessary,â Your father replies simply.
Mikeâs anger shifts, redirecting itself entirely onto you âOf course,â He mutters. âIt was your idea.â
You meet his gaze, keeping your posture calm, collected, untouchable âYes,â You say, taking a sip of your wine. âIt was.â
He laughs, but thereâs no humor in it âUnbelievable.â
Your mother sighs, setting down her fork âMike, donât start.â
âDonât start?â Mike echoes, leaning back in his chair. âSo, let me get this straightâyou let her bring some random lower-class worker into our home, let him drive us around like some pet project, and Iâm just supposed to accept it?â
âHeâs not random,â You say, voice sharp. âHeâs Hongjoongâs father.â
âOh, right.â He scoffs, shaking his head. âHongjoong.â His gaze darkens. âThe same guy whoâs using you?â
You hold a smile, he still believes it.
Mike leans forward, elbows resting on the table, his eyes glinting with something cruel. âWhat, did he guilt you into this? Make you feel bad for his pathetic little family?â
You set your wine glass down a little too hard.
Your mother tenses. âMikeââ
But you cut her off âYou donât know a damn thing about him.â Your voice is cold, final.
He smirks âOh, but I do.â He tilts his head, eyes flickering with mock sympathy. âYou just donât want to hear it.â
âI donât want to hear it,â You agree, voice like steel. âBecause itâs bullshit.â
Mikeâs smirk drops.
Your father sighs âEnough.â
But Mike isnât finished âYou can dress him up however you want, YN,â he sneers. âBut at the end of the day? Heâs just a pathetic loser clinging to your last name.â
Your hands curl into fists.
âAnd you,â He continues, voice lowering, âAre a complete idiot for falling for it.â
The air is thick with silence.
Your mother exhales, rubbing her temples âMike, weâre eating.â
Your father levels him with a stare âYour attitude is getting out of hand.â
He laughs, pushing his plate away âYeah? Well, so is hers.â He stands, chair scraping against the floor. âYou can let yourself get used like a fucking idiot if you want,â He says, voice dripping with disgust. âJust donât expect me to sit here and watch.â
He storms off, leaving the room in tense silence. Your parents exchange a tired look. You take another sip of wine, heartbeat hammering in your chest.
From the hallway, someone is listening.
Dann.
And her guilt grows.
⎠â
The Clarke mansion is quiet, the weight of dinnerâs tension still lingering in the air. The staff moves about their business in silence, avoiding eye contact, as if sensing that something dark is simmering beneath the surface.
Dann, however, isnât moving.
Sheâs frozen just outside the dining room, her mind replaying everything she just overheard. The way Mike spat his words at you, the venom in his voice, the sheer hatred he had for herâall because she had helped someone he despised.
Because you had made a choice that wasnât about him.
Dann swallows hard, guilt gnawing at her insides like a slow poison. She should feel relieved that you had fought backâthat for once, someone had shut Mike down. But all she feels is fear.
Because if he could talk to his own sister like that, what was stopping him from turning on her?
The thought chills her. She should leave. She should go to her room and pretend none of this is her problem. But before she can move a hand grabs her wrist.
She whirls around, heart slamming against her ribs, only to come face to face with him.
Mike.
The air leaves her lungs. His grip isnât tightânot yetâbut itâs firm enough to send pure terror coursing through her veins.
âYou,â He murmurs, his voice dangerously low. His eyes are sharp, scanning her face like sheâs something rotten beneath his shoe.
Dann tries to pull away, but his fingers tighten, his hold turning bruising.
âM-Mike,â She stammers, forcing a nervous laugh. âWhatâsâwhatâs wrong?â
His lips curl into a cold smirk âYou tell me.â
Dann swallows, willing herself to stay calm âI donâtââ
âDid you know?â His voice cuts through the air like a blade.
Dann stiffens âKnow⌠what?â
Mike leans in, his breath hot against her skin. âAbout Hongjoongâs father working for my family.â
âIââ
His grip tightens âDonât fucking lie to me, Dann.â
âI didnât know!â She blurts out, panic creeping into her voice. âI swear, IâI had no ideaââ
His jaw ticks. Heâs not buying it âYouâve been avoiding me,â He murmurs, his tone almost thoughtful. âEver since that night.â
Dann goes rigid.
That night.
The night he put his hands on you.
The night she realized just how much of a monster he truly was.
âI havenâtââ
His fingers suddenly clamp around her arm, and he pulls her forward, dragging her through the hallway. Dann yelps, stumbling after him, fear clawing at her throat.
âWhere are weâ?â
âSomewhere private,â He cuts her off smoothly.
Her stomach twists. The deeper into the house they go, the quieter it becomes. The staff is gone. Thereâs no one to see them. No one to stop him.
No one to help her.
Mike finally shoves open a door that leads to the back garden, a secluded area far from the main house. The night air is cold, but the way he looks at her sends a different kind of chill through her bones.
Dann stumbles back, chest heaving, trying to create space. âMike, Iââ
âYou think I donât see it?â He says, voice eerily calm. âYou think I donât know youâre hiding something from me?â
Dann shakes her head, heart pounding âI swear I didnât know about it. I would have told you!â
And it was true, she didn't know about Hongjoongâs father working for your family. But Mike just stares at her. Studying her.
Then he laughs.
A low, quiet chuckle that makes her skin crawl.
âLook at you,â He murmurs. âFucking shaking.â
Dann flinches.
Mike steps closer, towering over her âI donât like when people keep secrets from me, Dann,â He murmurs, voice like poison.
Dannâs chest tightens.
This is it.
This is the moment.
She can keep playing his game. Keep letting him control her. Keep living in fear.
Or she can do what she should have done weeks ago.
Her fingers curl into fists. She lifts her head, her cheek still burning, and looks him dead in the eyes.
âYouâre a fucking coward.â
Mike freezes.
Dannâs pulse roars in her ears. Her own words shock her. But once theyâre out, she canât stop.
âYou think youâre so powerful,â She breathes, voice shaking but growing stronger. âYou think everyone should be afraid of you. But deep down, youâre just pathetic.â
Mikeâs jaw clenches. Dann forces herself to smile. Itâs small, shaky, but itâs there.
And for the first time in weeks, she feels powerful. Because she can see it.
For just a fraction of a second, his smirk drops and before she can reactâ
His hand swings.
The impact is sharp, brutal. Dannâs head snaps to the side, a gasp catches in her throat. The sting spreads across her cheek like fire, her vision blurring from the sheer shock.
Her body locks up.
She canât breathe.
She canât move.
Dannâs heart is pounding so loudly it drowns out the quiet.
Mikeâs handprint burns on her cheek, the sting radiating through her skull, but the real pain isnât physical.
Itâs the terror.
The realization that she pushed him too far. The garden is empty, secludedâthe perfect place for a nightmare. And Mike?
He looks like heâs enjoying it.
His lips curve into a slow smirk as he watches her struggle to catch her breath, her fingers trembling at her sides.
âYouâre a fucking coward.â
The words still hang in the air, and Dann knows sheâs signed her own death sentence.
Mikeâs expression darkens. His posture stiffens. And then he laughs.
Low. Amused. Cruel.
âDo you even know who youâre talking to?â His voice is quiet, almost mocking.
Dann stays silent. She knows better than to answer. But he doesnât need her to. He steps forward, closing the space between them, and she flinches instinctively.
His smirk widens âCute. You think youâre brave now, donât you?â
Dann swallows hard âIââ
âShut up,â He cuts her off. The amusement vanishes, replaced with something far colder.
His gaze sweeps over her, calculating, dissectingâlike heâs deciding exactly how to break her.
âI bet you think you have nothing to lose,â He murmurs. âThat you can just walk away from this and be fine.â
Dannâs breathing falters.
That tone. That deadly calm.
Itâs worse than when heâs yelling. Because when Mike speaks like thisâhe means it.
âI could ruin your mother in a second,â He continues, voice smooth, effortless. âShe works for my family. She needs this job. And you?â His head tilts slightly. âYou need her to keep it. To pay for your fatherâs hospital bills.â
Dannâs stomach twists violently.
He knows.
He knows.
âHow did youâ?â Her voice catches.
Mike chuckles âYou think I donât do my research?â His expression turns mocking. âYour poor, pitiful father, lying there in a hospital bed, while your mother slaves away to keep him alive. And you? You run around playing spy for me, all because you wanted some nerd to look your way.â
Dann feels sick. Her fingers curl into fists at her sides, nails digging into her palms.
âLeave them out of this,â She whispers.
âOh? Now you care?â Mike exhales sharply, like heâs bored. âI mean, your motherâs getting old, isnât she? I doubt sheâd find another job if something were to⌠happen to her position.â
Dannâs lungs seize. And then, the final nail in the coffin.
âOh, and your father?â Mike clicks his tongue. âA vegetable in a hospital bed, wasting away.â His tone is almost mocking. âHow long has it been? Three years?â
Dannâs entire body locks up. Because heâs right.
Three years.
Three years of her mother breaking her back to keep him alive. Three years of Dann doing everything she could to ease the burden.
Three years of hoping. That maybe, one day, her father would wake up.
Mikeâs voice cuts through the fog of her fear âI could make that bed disappear, you know.â
Dann stares at him, eyes wide.
âI mean, think about it.â He shrugs. âWhatâs the point of keeping someone around who isnât even awake? The doctors must be tired of keeping him alive. And your mother? Imagine how relieved sheâd be if she didnât have to worry about hospital bills anymore.â
Dannâs breathing turns shallow. Her fingers dig into her skin so hard they might leave bruises. Mike leans back, watching her come undone.
Then he smiles âAnd as for you?â He leans in slightly, voice dropping to a whisper. âI can make sure you donât even finish school.â
Dannâs heart drops, his smirk is gone now, his eyes cold and merciless.
âYou think my family doesnât have connections in the education system?â He scoffs. âAll it takes is one phone call. One simple request. And suddenly, your scholarship? Gone. Your grades? Suspiciously altered. Your teachers? Unwilling to recommend you for any other school.â
Dann freezes, because heâs not bluffing. This isnât an empty threat.
This is real.
Her entire futureâher motherâs futureâher fatherâs lifeâall hanging by a single thread. And Mike?
Heâs holding the scissors.
âYou donât want that, do you? So, tell me, Dann.â His voice softens, but the cruelty behind it only makes it worse. âAre you still on my side?â
Dannâs lips part, but no words come out.
She should scream. She should fight back.
She should run.
But insteadâShe nods.
Because she has no choice.
Because sheâs afraid.
Because her fatherâs life is hanging in the balance.
And because sheâs not ready to lose everything.
Mikeâs smirk returns âGood girl.â
And just like thatâitâs over. He pats her cheek mockingly before stepping back.
âYou know what to do.â His voice is smooth, assured, like heâs never once considered the possibility of her betraying him.
Because why would he?
Sheâs trapped.
Dann watches as he walks away, leaving her frozen in the garden, hands trembling, chest tight.
Her father, her mother, her entire life.
Mike owns all of it.
Tears blur her vision as she wraps her arms around herself, body wracked with silent shame.
She wants to do the right thing.
But survival?
It comes first
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
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Popular, Boy
â11: The first truth.
Pairing: Nerd!Hongjoong x Popular!Reader
Genre: +18, smut, slow burn, angst, drama, love triangle.
wc: 7,5k
Summary: Apologies are given, but not in the way they should be. Old wounds linger, new alliances form, and the first steps towards something bigger are set in motion.
But as the tension rise, one thing becomes clear... this game is only just beginning.
Warnings: Cursing, power dynamics, manipulation, slight physical violence.
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â10 â12: The first warning. Coming soon.
The staff stands in a rigid line in the grand hall of the Clarke mansion, their hands clasped in front of them, their gazes lowered but attentive.
The tension in the air is palpable, thick and unspoken. The echoes of last nightâs violence still linger in the minds of every person standing there.
Dannâs mother shifts uncomfortably beside her daughter, her fingers tightening around the hem of her apron.
Dann, for once, isnât fidgeting, isnât sneaking glances at her phone or zoning out. Sheâs watching, truly watching, in a way she never has before.
Mike stands before them, dressed sharply as ever, exuding the effortless charm and authority that has always made people trust him despite the cruelty that lurks beneath.
His parents flank himâhis fatherâs expression serious, his motherâs carefully curated into something that resembles concern.
âFirst of all,â Mike begins, his voice smooth, practiced, âI want to personally apologize for what you all witnessed days ago.â He pauses, his eyes scanning the crowd as if searching for sincerity within himself.
âMy behavior was⌠unacceptable. I let my emotions get the best of me, and I regret that it happened in front of all of you.â
His mother nods approvingly beside him. His father remains impassive.
âIt was a private family matter,â He continues, âAnd I assure you, YN and I have already spoken. She has forgiven me, and we are moving forward as a family.â
Dannâs stomach twists.
Liar. He hasnât spoken to you. No one has.
âShe understands, as I hope you all do, that moments of anger donât define us,â Mike adds, his lips pressing into something that resembles a remorseful smile. âIâm not proud of how I acted, but I promise it will never happen again.â
Thereâs silence. Heavy. Expectant.
The staff doesnât react, but they donât need toâthis isnât about them believing Mike. This is about them accepting what they are being told to believe.
His father steps forward now, clearing his throat âWe deeply appreciate all the work you do for this household. Your loyalty does not go unnoticed, and we want to express our gratitude for your discretion regarding the incident.â
A butler steps in, carrying a sleek tray, and within seconds, small black boxes are placed into the hands of each staff member.
Dann stares at the one in her motherâs hands.
Itâs sickening. The Clarke familyâs cycle of silence and bribery in its purest form.
Her mother hesitates, looking around nervously before murmuring, âSir, this isnât necessaryâŚâ
Your mother offers a practiced smile âOf course it is. You all work so hard, and we insist.â
Dannâs mother swallows, clutching the box tightly. Around them, the other staff members murmur quiet thanks, some with forced smiles, others merely nodding, understanding there is no choice in this.
Dann glances up at Mike, who catches her staring. He smirks just slightly, eyes gleaming with something dangerous, something knowing.
And for the first time, the weight of what sheâs been a part of settles like a stone in her stomach. She lowers her gaze before anyone sees the regret forming there.
Because itâs too late for regrets now.
⎠â
Youâre quieter than usual, but it isnât something peaceful. Itâs the kind of silence that lingers after something terrible has happened, the kind that no one dares to break.
You sit on your soft bed, your body aching, the faint pressure of Mikeâs hands still lingering on your throat. The dim lighting casts long shadows, and the scent of expensive perfume does little to soothe the heaviness in the air.
Your parents stand before you, poised as ever, their expressions carefully composedâconcern etched into their faces just enough to seem believable, but not enough to be real.
Your father speaks first, his voice low and measured âDarling, what happened⌠was unfortunate.â
Unfortunate.
Thatâs the word they use when something inconvenient happens. When an investment fails, when a business deal doesnât go through, when their son nearly strangles their daughter in front of an entire household.
Your mother sighs, sitting beside you, reaching out to grab your hand âYou know how Mike gets. He has always struggled with controlling his emotions.â
Your lips curl bitterly âSo that makes it okay?â
Your father narrows his eyes slightly, but his tone remains calm âNo one is saying that. But you must understand, people like us donât air our dirty laundry for the world to see. This is a family matter, and it must remain that way.â
You scoff, shifting in your bed despite the pain that flares up in your ribs âSo you want me to pretend it didnât happen? To protect him?â
âWe are protecting you, sweetie.â
You let out a short, humorless laugh âRight. Because you care so much.â
Your mother sighs again, as if you are the one being difficult âSweetheart, the world is cruel. You know that. Do you really want people gossiping about this? Do you want to ruin Mikeâs future over a misunderstanding?â
Your fingers tighten around the fabric of the blankets âMisunderstanding?â Your voice is sharp, disbelief laced in every syllable. âHe punched me. He choked me. In front of everyone. What exactly was misunderstood?â
Your fatherâs expression darkens, the mask of concern slipping just a fraction.
âLower your voice.â
You bite your tongue, swallowing down the fury bubbling inside you. Your mother smooths your hair back, her tone soothing yet distant.
âSweetie, we know youâre upset. But we also know that youâre strong. This family needs you to be composed, to move forward. And Mike⌠he regrets his actions.â
Your body goes rigid at the blatant lie. Mike never regrets anything.
Your father clears his throat, as if the conversation is now settled âWe thought you might like this.â
A sleek black box is placed in your lap, the brand embossed in gold. Expensive. Extravagant.
Meaningless.
You don't even need to open it to know what it is.
Another gift.
Another bandage for wounds they refuse to acknowledge. you lift your gaze, meeting their expectant eyes. They wait for gratitude, for acceptance.
So you do. You smile, itâs slow, and void of warmth.
âThank you,â You say, voice as smooth as silk, fingers brushing over the box as if you actually care.
They relax, satisfied. And in that moment, you make a silent vow.
You wonât forget. You wonât forgive.
And you sure as hell wonât let this go.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
During the week, Wooyoung hadnât a real plan when he walked into the cafĂŠ, just the vague idea of seeing if the girl from the picture was really there.
The bell jingles softly as he steps inside, and he takes a casual glance around, pretending to look at the menu.
And then he sees them.
Little Hongjoong and that girl.
Hongjoong is sitting at one of the corner tables, wearing a simple work apron, speaking to the girl from the photo. She laughs at something he says before walking away to take another order.
Wooyoung narrows his eyes and strides over to Hongjoongâs table, plopping into the chair across from him.
âThe fuck are you doing here?â Woo asks bluntly.
Hongjoong startled, then sighs when he realizes who it is âWoo? What are youââ
âNo, no, donât âWooâ me,â He cuts him off, crossing his arms âWhy are you here? And why the fuck is there a picture of you hugging that girl going around?â
Hongjoong rubs the back of his neck, looking exhausted âI work here, and what do you mean a picture of me is going around?â
Wooyoung blinks â...Excuse me?â
âI work here,â He repeats, voice quieter âI didnât want anyone to know.â
Woo stares at him, then lets out a short, disbelieving laugh âAre you kidding me? Youâve been acting weird as hell, blowing YN off, and it turns out youâve just beenâwhat? Making lattes?â
Hongjoong exhales âMy dad lost his job. I needed to help out. I didnât tell YN because⌠I didnât want her to think less of me.â
Wooyoung runs a hand down his face âLittle HongjoongâŚ. Seriously?â
He avoids his gaze.
Shaking his head, Wooyoung pulls out his phone âYeah, well, Iâm telling her.â
Hongjoongâs eyes widens âWooyoung, donâtââ
âToo late.â Wooyoung hits send a quick message to you, then smirks âShe deserves to know the truth. And you need to stop being a dumbass.â
He groans, slumping in his seat âI hate you.â
Wooyoung just grins âYou will love me after this, Joong.â
⎠â
The soft glow of the screen illuminates your face as you lay in bed, your thumb hovering over the keyboard.
It has been a long, exhausting weekâone filled with endless frustration, whispered conspiracies between Mindy and Wooyoung, and the dull ache of bruises that still hadnât fully faded.
And then there, there is the message you were waiting for.
Brat Woo: Babydoll.
Brat Woo: False alarm, little Hongjoong is clean, and that slut works in that cafe, Hongjoong does too.
Bratty Woo: You should talk to him.
You have been fuming, pacing, and second-guessing yourself over and over.
But now, with Wooâs confirmation that the girl in the picture is nothing more than a coworker and that Hongjoong has been working in secret, your anger has simmered down to something elseâsomething more dangerous.
Doubt.
Had you misjudged him? Had you let your paranoia and pain push you into believing the worst?
But then again, why had he kept all of this from you? Why hadnât he shown up to your date? Why was he so distant after everything you had been through?
Taking a deep breath, you type Hongjoong a quick message.
YNâĄ: We need to talk.
The message is sent instantly, and you don't have to wait long for Hongjoong to arrive at your home.
⎠â
Hongjoong stands at the front gates of your house, his heart hammering in his chest. The towering mansion, which once felt like an unattainable dream, now looms over him with an unfamiliar, suffocating presence.
The moment the gates open, he strides inside, his breath heavy with anticipation.
A maid opens the door, offering him a polite smile "Welcome, Miss YN is waiting for you in her room."
He barely nods before hurrying past her, his pulse quickening with every step. Itâs been a weekâa week without seeing you, without hearing your voice.
A week of torment, uncertainty, and the gnawing ache of missing you.
When he reaches your door, he hesitates for just a second before knocking "YN⌠itâs me, Hongjoong."
A beat of silence. Then, a quiet but firm, âCome in.â
He pushes the door open, and there you are.
Sitting at the edge of the bed, arms crossed, your gaze unreadable. But his eyes immediately drop to the bruisesâfaint marks on your throat, a cut on your lower lip, a fading bruise on your cheek.
His stomach twists.
"What happened to you, pretty?"
His voice is sharp with concern as he steps forward, instinctively reaching for you, but you tilt your chin up defiantly, stopping him in his tracks.
"Explain yourself first," You say coolly, eyes locking onto his "Depending on your answers, Iâll decide if I even want to keep listening to you."
He clenches his jaw, hands curling into fists at his sides "YNâ"
"No," You cut him off "You ignored me for weeks. You left me sitting alone at that restaurant like a fool. You ghosted me after we fucked. And thenâŚ" You pull out your phone, swipe through it, and hold up the screen in his face "Seonghwa sent me this."
Hongjoong frowns at the imageâa picture of him and Jina at the cafĂŠ, her arms wrapped around him in what looks like an intimate moment. His brows furrow.
The fuck? Is this the picture Wooyoung mentioned?
"Waitâwhat? When was this taken?"
You scoff, lowering your phone "So you donât even know."
"No, I donâtââ
âSeonghwa sent it to me the same day as our date. Funny, huh?â Your bitter laugh stings more than a slap "You ditched me for this slut? Really, Kim?"
Hongjoong exhales slowly, his mind racing to piece things together. And then it clicks.
That night. The last-minute call. The way time slipped through his fingers.
âPretty, itâs not what you think.â
You arch a brow in mock amusement âNo?â
âNo,â He says firmly, stepping closer, his voice steady despite the storm inside him âLet me explain from the beginning.â
He sits beside you, carefully, as if afraid youâll push him away.
âThat night, when we⌠When we slept together, I went home and found out my dad lost his job. Without his income, my family will struggle. So I did what I had to doâI found a part-time job at a cafĂŠ. Thatâs why I kept telling you I was busy after school.â
You stare at him, your expression unreadable. Then, you scoff, shaking your head.
âWhat a fucking joke.â His stomach sinks âSo, youâre telling me that stupid rumor was false?â
âCompletely.â
"And why didn't you tell me?" You snap, hitting his arm "I could have helped, and tell my parents to give your father a job or something! None of this drama would have happened!"
Hongjoong lets you hit him, knowing he deserves it "I know, but I didnât want to burden you. You already had enough going on with Mike."
âYouâre an idiot, Hongjoong! I thought the worst!â Another smack lands on his arm, and he barely flinches.
"I didnât show up to our date because Jina called me at the last minute. She said it was something urgent, and it wouldnât take long. But when I finally checked the time, I realized you were already gone.â He swallows hard âI meant to explain. But I was a cowardâI didnât know how.â
You study him, your gaze softening just a fraction âAnd the picture?â
He exhales sharply, running a hand through his hair âI donât know. But I swear, thereâs nothing between me and Jina. Sheâs just my coworker.â
Silence stretches between you, thick and suffocating. Then, Hongjoong reaches for your hand hesitantly, voice softening.
"Pretty, please believe me. I never wanted this to happen."
You let out a slow exhale, your shoulders slumping "Fine. But I still have a lot of questions."
Hongjoong nods, relief washing over him. Then, his gaze darkens as he looks at your bruises again. He gently cups your cheek, his thumb ghosting over the cut on your lip.
"Now⌠tell me what happened to you."
You hesitate. Then, in a quiet voice, you tell him.
âMike.â
He stiffens, his grip tightening ever so slightly âMike? Why?â
You swallow, looking away "Itâs not the first time. Heâs always had a problem controlling his anger. Whenever we argued, or I did something he didnât like, he used to slap me. But this time⌠it was different. Since he came back, heâs been making my life hell, and I donât know why."
Hongjoong inhales sharply, his hands clenching into fists "Why didnât you tell me?" His voice is tight, laced with something darkârage, guilt, protectiveness.
"Because he scares me," You whisper. This is the first time you admit being scared of Mike.
You look⌠small, fragile.
Broken.
Hongjoong doesnât think. He just moves. He pulls you into his arms, holding you close, pressing his chin to the top of your head.
âIâm so sorry, pretty,â He murmurs, his heart aching at the quiet, shuddering breaths against his chest.
You stay like that for a long moment, wrapped in silence, until you speak again.
"Heâs been acting weird. Like, he knows things that are private among my friends.â
âWhat do you mean?â
You pull back slightly âI don't know why, but he suddenly knew about you and our relationship, also the night I went to the club, someone sent Mike a video of me smoking.â
Hongjoong frowns âSomeone recorded you?â
You nod âBut only my close friends were there. Wooyoung and Mindy would never do something like that. That leaves Seonghwa, San, Mingi, and Samantha.â
He exhales sharply âSeonghwa. It has to be him.â
âBut we made a truce. Weâve been friends since we were kids.â
Hongjoong shakes his head âI donât trust him, pretty.â
You hesitate, thinking âBut even if he recorded it⌠how did Mike get it? They know each other because of our families, but theyâre not close.â
Silence. Until one name suddenly clicks into place.
ââŚDann.â
Hongjoong frowns âWhy her?â
You straighten, your mind racing âMindy told me that Seonghwa talked with her at the party, something that is really rare. Also Dann gave you the wrong address, and maybeâmaybe she even started the rumor about us at school.â
The realization settles between you like a ticking bomb.
âWe need to find out the truth.â
You nod, determination hardening your features âWe do. Also, I can ask my dad If he has a job for your dad, I don't want you to work in that cafeteria with that bitch.â
Hongjoong chuckles âFine, thank you, pretty.â
And with that, your heart feels more at ease knowing the truth, knowing that he is with you.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
It had been two weeks since the day Mike had left bruises on your skin, and the sick feeling of helplessness in your gut.
Itâs been two weeks since you went to school, refusing to let everyone see you in that state.
As always, your parents refused to acknowledge the real issue.
You sit in your room, staring at the velvet box fanned out on your desk. Itâs always the same cycle.
You would get hurt, and your parents would throw money at the problem, expecting you to accept it with gratitude.
Maybe you would have, once upon a time. But not anymore. Not after everything.
You arenât going to let them buy your silence this time. If they think a luxurious car would make you forget that their golden son had left marks on your skin, they are dead wrong.
If anything, this is the perfect opportunity.
Youâre going to take their gift, but instead of numbing yourself in paradise, you would use it to take the first step in exposing Mike for what he really is.
Bringing him down from his pedestal isât going to be easy. Your parents are blind to his flaws, and the rest of the world worships him. But you have something they donât.
You have the truth, and you have Hanhah.
Your fingers brush against your phone as you pull up a text conversation. It 's one of many. Over these four years, you had kept in touch with Hannah, sending her money every month to help with the baby.
A baby that Mike had abandoned, a baby who would be turning four soon.
You scroll through the latest messages, lingering on a photo Hannah had sent a few days ago. A little girl with big, round eyes and wisps of dark hair smiled up at the camera, completely oblivious to the world she had been born into.
The sight of her made your chest tighten.
You can feel it in your bonesâthis is the way to finally shatter Mikeâs perfect image. Your parents canât ignore this. They wouldnât be able to excuse him once they knew the truth.
But you need to be smart. If you are going to do this, you canât do it alone.
Thatâs where Hongjoong, Mindy, and Wooyoung came in.
You grab your phone and fire off a quick message to the group chat you have with them.
YNâĄ: Meet me at the cafe tonight. No excuses.
You know they would come. They always do. And once they are here, you would tell them everything.
And about Seonghwa and Dannâbecause you have a feeling that whatever is going on with Mike, those two arenât far behind.
By the time it is over, you would make sure Mikeâs untouchable image is nothing but dust.
⎠â
âYou want to tell your parents about Hannah?â Mindy finally says, her brows furrowed âAre you sure about this, babe?â
âI have to,â You respond, voice steady âI canât let him keep getting away with everything.â
Wooyoung lets out a low whistle âAnd how exactly are you planning to do that? I mean, your parents are obsessed with Mike. Even if you show them proof, they might cover it up.â
You exhale sharply, already expecting this âThatâs why I need more than just the truthâI need to make it so public they canât ignore it.â
Mindy tilts her head âWhen are you planning to tell them?â
âIf Seonghwa and Dann are involved in this, I need to deal with them first⌠Then with Mike.â
âYou really think theyâre working with Mike?â Wooyoung asks.
âIt makes too much sense. Mike knew things he had no way of knowing. The video of me smoking, the rumors about Joong, the fake address Dann gave him⌠someone was feeding him information.â
Mindy taps a manicured finger against her knee âSo whatâs the plan?â
You lean forward âFirst, Iâll talk to Hannah. Maybe ask her for a DNA test or something that will make my parents believe me.â You meet Hongjoongâs gaze âYou will come with me.â
âMe? I don't even know who she is.â
âYou don't need to know her, I just need some support.â
He hesitates for a moment before nodding âOkay.â
You then turn to Wooyoung and Mindy âAs for you two⌠I need you to say something false about me and Joong, make sure Seonghwa listens. Only like that can we know if Hwa and Dann are working with Mike.â
Woo grins, cracking his knuckles âYou want dirt? Iâll get you dirt, babydoll.â
Mindy smirks âOh, this is going to be fun.â
You lean back, exhaling. The plan is in motion. Now, all they have to do is execute it perfectly.
The night air is crisp as you step out of the cafĂŠ, your mind already racing with what needs to be done next. The plan is fragileâit has to be executed perfectly, or everything could backfire.
Hongjoong walks beside you, hands shoved into his jacket pockets, his gaze flickering toward you every few seconds.
âAre you sure you want me there?â He asks. âI mean⌠Hannah might not even want to see me.â
You inhale deeply, steadying yourself âShe wonât care about you, Joong. Sheâll care about what I have to say.â
He doesnât argue, but you can tell heâs uneasy. Maybe itâs because he still doesnât know everything.
âWeâre meeting her tomorrow,â You continue. âShe doesnât know why yet, but she agreed.â
He nods, but you can feel the tension radiating off of him. He wants to ask more. Maybe about this woman, maybe about what you have in mind.
But you donât give him the chance. Because right now, thereâs something more pressing.
Wooyoung and Mindy walk a few steps ahead, already whispering between themselves, likely crafting the perfect lie to spread.
They need to bait Seonghwa. It has to be something goodâsomething that hurts.
âSo what should we say?â Mindy asks, glancing back at you. âSomething mild or something explosive?â
âExplosive,â You say without hesitation. âSomething that makes me look weak. Hwa will eat it up.â
Wooyoung grins âHow about we say that you and little Hongjoong broke up?â
Hongjoong tenses beside you. You glance at him but donât react âNot enough⌠We need something that will make Hwa really want Mike to know.â
Mindy taps her chin, pretending to think. âHow about thisâHongjoong is using you to get popularity and status, you know about it but youâre still with him, done.â
Hongjoong exhales sharply through his nose âThatâs messed up.â
âThatâs perfect,â You correct.
Mindy shrugs âIf weâre going to do this, we might as well make it believable.â
âJust make sure Seonghwa hears it, and if you can, make sure to see if he interacts with Dann.â You remind them. âIf it gets back to Mike too quickly, he and Dann will be suspicious.â
Wooyoung throws an arm around Mindyâs shoulders âOh, donât worry, babydoll. By the time weâre done, Seonghwa will be begging Dann to tell Mike.â
The four of you reach the parking lot, where your cars are waiting. For a moment, you let the night sink in, let the weight of what youâre about to do settle on your shoulders.
This is it.
The first move.
Tomorrow, you will see Hannah.
Tomorrow, everything will change.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The drive to Hannahâs apartment is quiet.
Hongjoong grips the steering wheel, eyes flickering toward you every so often, but he doesnât speak.
You know he has questionsâa lot of themâbut you arenât ready to answer.
Not yet.
The known streets fade the further you go, the streets narrowing, the polished luxury of your world giving way to something simpler, something real.
The buildings are smaller, older, stacked closely together. Thereâs no security at the entrance, no valet, no extravagance. Just a plain apartment complex with rusted railings and dimly lit hallways.
Hongjoong pulls into a spot and cuts the engine. He exhales, rubbing a hand over your thigh.
âAre you sure about this?â
You donât hesitate âYes.â
He studies you for a moment, like heâs trying to see past the walls youâve built. Then, with a slow nod, he pushes open his door.
Holding hands, you two walk towards the little building. The stairs creak beneath your heels as you ascend to the third floor. Apartment 3B.
You donât knock right away. Your fingers hover over the door for a second too long.
He notices âPretty?â
Before you can second-guess yourself, you knock. A few moments later, the door swings open.
Hannah stands there, barefoot, dressed in simple lounge clothes. No makeup, no carefully styled hair, just Hana.
She blinks in surprise when she sees Hongjoong beside you, but her expression quickly hardens.
âYou brought company,â She says flatly.
You exhale âCan we come in?â
Hannah hesitates. Then, without a word, she steps aside.
The apartment is small but warm. Lived in. A couch with a few toys scattered around, a tiny dining table with an open laptop, the faint scent of baby powder and vanilla lingering in the air.
And thenâ
âAuntie!â
A small blur of motion comes rushing toward you. Tiny arms wrap around your legs, a little giggle filling the space.
Hongjoong freezes beside you.
You crouch down, smoothing a hand over the little girlâs soft, dark curls âHi, baby.â
She beams at you, big round eyes shining with pure joy âDid you bring me a present?â
Your chest tightens âIâll bring one next time, I promise.â
She giggles again, then turns her attention to Hongjoong, tilting her head curiously.
âWhoâs that?â
Joong is pale, not believing what he is seeing.
You stand, brushing imaginary dust from your clothes âThis is my friend, Hongjoong.â
The little girl stares at him for a moment, âDo you like cookies?â
He blinks âUh⌠yeah?â
The little girl grins âThen you can stay.â
And with that, she toddles off toward the couch, already forgetting about him.
Hanhah watches the whole exchange with guarded eyes âYou didnât tell him, did you?â She finally says.
Hongjoong shifts beside you, eyes darting between the two of you âTell me what?â
You inhale sharply, turning to face him fully. âJoong⌠this is Hanhahâs daughter.â
His brows furrow âOkayâŚ?â
You swallow, your voice steady but heavy âSheâs Mikeâs daughter.â
The words drop like a bomb in the small apartment.
Hongjoongâs entire body goes stiff. His eyes widen, darting back to the little girl, who is now occupied with a stuffed bear on the couch. Slowly, like heâs trying to piece together a puzzle that shouldnât exist, he turns back to you.
âYN,â He says carefully, voice lower now, âWhat the hell are you talking about?â
You clench your jaw âExactly what I said.â
Hannah crosses her arms, looking at him like sheâs daring him to say something stupid.
âYou didnât think Mike was actually perfect, did you?â
Hongjoong swallows hard, his Adamâs apple bobbing âHeâhe has a kid?â
âWith me,â Hanhah confirms. âAnd he threatened to ruin my life if I ever told anyone.â
He shakes his head, running a hand through his hair âJesus Christ, pretty.â
You shift closer to him, lowering your voice âNow do you see why I need to do this?â
Joong exhales sharply, glancing at the little girl again. His expression shifts, something unreadable flickering across his face. And then, he nods.
âIâm in,â He says. âWhatever you need, Iâm in.â
For the first time that night, you breathe a little easier.
Because this is just the beginning.
⎠â
The air feels heavy with unspoken words as you and Hongjoong sit at the small, worn-out table across from Hannah.
The little girl, still distracted by her stuffed bear, giggles every now and then, blissfully unaware of the storm brewing in the room.
Hongjoong, still processing, doesnât look at you, but he holds your hand in his. His eyes are fixed on the little girl, his mind likely racing with questions.
"Youâre telling me Mike doesnât know sheâs alive?" He asks, his voice barely above a whisper, the disbelief in it palpable.
Hannahâs gaze darkens "No. He thinks I had an abortion. Thatâs what he told me to do. He threatened me, said if I didnât⌠heâd ruin my life. He was so sure of it. He made me believe it was the only option." Her voice cracks slightly, but she steadies herself.
âBut I couldnât do it. I couldnât end her life just because Mike didnât want the world to know about her."
The words land like a punch, and Hongjoong recoils slightly, the reality of the situation sinking in.
"Thatâs why youâve beenâ" He gestures vaguely toward her daughter, still oblivious to the weight of their conversation. "Youâve been keeping her a secret all these years?"
She nods, her face hardening as she looks down at her daughter "Iâve had to. For her safety. For my sanity. I couldn't risk Mike finding out she was alive. Not after everything he said." She pauses, her fingers brushing over the babyâs small hand. âIâve kept in contact with YN, because⌠because someone had to know the truth.â
You feel a pang of guilt in your chest, the weight of what youâve been hiding from everyoneâthe truth that no one, especially Mike, could ever learn.
Youâve helped her for years, sending money for the baby, but the lies have built walls between you and your family.
It was always supposed to stay secret. But now, you need to bring it all into the light. And you need to do it carefully.
You turn to Hongjoong, your voice low âMike doesnât know sheâs alive. And he canât. He will never find out, not from me. And Iâve never let anyone get close to her⌠until now.â
His eyes flicker with understanding, the pieces finally coming together "So... weâre not just exposing Mikeâs secrets, weâre exposing his lies too."
You nod, the weight of the plan growing heavier âExactly.â
Hannah sits in silence for a moment, as if weighing something in her mind.
âI know this is going to be dangerous for all of us. Iâve lived in fear of Mike finding out. But I canât hide anymore. This girl deserves to know the truth.â
You exhale, your heart racing âI wonât let him keep his image. Not anymore.â
âOkay,â Hongjoong says finally, his voice steady. âBut you know this is going to take more than just telling your parents, right? We need evidence. Something undeniable.â
You nod again âThatâs why we need a DNA test. Hannah, youâre going to have to agree to it. Itâs the only way we can prove it. If we can show them she is his, thereâs no way theyâll be able to cover it up.â
She hesitates, you see the fear flash across her face âIf I do this... will it be enough? Will your parents believe it?â
âI hope so,â You say firmly. âAnd once they knowâonce we have that proofâtheyâll have no choice but to acknowledge him for who he really is. No more pretending.â
Hongjoong watches you for a beat, his eyes softening just slightly âWeâll do this together. But we have to be careful. One wrong move and itâs over.â
Hannah stands up, wiping her palms on her pants, clearly anxious but resolved.
âOkay. Iâll do it. For her. For her future.â
The little girl looks up at the three of you, her big, innocent eyes wide.
âAre we gonna tell Daddy soon?â
Your breath catches in your throat. The innocence in her voice makes everything feel so much heavier.
âWeâll tell him when the time is right,â You say, forcing a smile. âWhen heâs ready to hear it.â
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
While you and Hongjoon talk with Hannah, Mindy and Wooyoung sit casually in the school cafeteria, their voices just loud enough to be overheard.
Woo, always the playful one, dramatically leans in closer to Mindy, whispering just loud enough for nearby ears to catch pieces of their conversation.
âYou heard about Hongjoong, right?â Wooyoung says, shaking his head with exaggerated concern. âBabydollâs been buying him stuff. Like, a lot of stuff.â
Mindy gasps, playing along âNo way. So the rumors are true? Heâs just using her?â
Woo sighs, rubbing his temples âI donât want to believe it, but even YNâs starting to realize it. She told me sheâs thinking about ending things. Sheâs just waiting for the right moment.â
Seonghwa, sitting at a nearby table with other students, doesnât react outwardly, but Mindy catches the way his fingers still over his phone.
She knows heâs listening. Mindy lowers her voice just a bit, making it seem like she doesnât want to be overheard.
âThatâs not all. Hongjoongâs been acting super secretive. I heard heâs meeting up with someone outside of school. A girl.â
Wooyoung raises an eyebrow âA girl? Who?â
Mindy shrugs, keeping it vague âI donât know yet, but Iâm sure itâs not YN.â
A beat of silence. Then Seonghwa stands, casually stretching before walking offâphone in hand.
Mindy and Wooyoung exchange a look. Hook, line, and sinker.
If Seonghwa really is working with Dann, it wonât be long before this âinformationâ reaches Mike.
⎠â
Dann moves through the crowded hallway, her arms wrapped tightly around her books as she heads toward the library.
Sheâs been keeping her head down lately, avoiding unnecessary conversationsâespecially with Mike and Seonghwa.
After what happened to you, after seeing Mikeâs violence firsthand, something in her feels wrong.
Maybe this has gone too far.
But Seonghwa doesnât give her a choice.
âDann.â
His voice cuts through the noise, smooth and controlled, but she knows him well enough to hear the edge beneath it. She stops mid-step, squeezing her eyes shut for a brief second before turning around.
Seonghwa leans casually against the lockers, arms crossed, looking her up and down with that usual amused smirk. But thereâs something else in his expressionâsomething sharp.
âWe need to talk.â
Dann swallows âI have class.â
âIt can wait.â He pushes off the lockers and steps closer, lowering his voice. âI heard something youâre gonna love.â
She forces herself to look bored âI doubt that.â
Hwa chuckles, shaking his head âYou really should be more curious, Dann. You and I both know Mike would want to hear this.â
Her stomach twists âI donâtââ
âThe nerd is using YN.â
Dann freezes. Seonghwa watches her carefully, letting the words settle in before continuing.
âWooyoung and Mindy said it. Apparently, Hongjoongâs only with her for popularity. And get thisâshe knows it. Sheâs staying with him anyway.â
Dann shifts uncomfortably, gripping her books tighter âSo what? Thatâs their problem, not ours.â
Hwaâs smirk fades slightly âAre you forgetting who youâre working with? Mike needs to know this.â
Dann glances around, her pulse quickening âMaybe⌠maybe we shouldnât get involved in this one.â
His eyes narrow, and just like that, his amusement vanishes. He steps closer, his voice dropping to a whisper.
âWhatâs wrong with you lately?â
âNothing,â She lies, shifting her weight.
âYouâre acting differently.â
âI just thinkââ She hesitates, wetting her lips. âI think Mike has enough reasons to hate her already. He doesnât need this one either.â
Seonghwa scoffs, shaking his head âOf course he does. Whatâs better than proving sheâs pathetic? That sheâs weak?â He tilts his head, watching her carefully. âUnless you donât want to be useful to him anymore?â
Dann clenches her jaw. She feels cornered, the guilt pressing down on her chest.
YN doesnât deserve this.
But Seonghwa is watching her like a predator, waiting for any sign of weakness. If she refuses, heâll start asking questionsâquestions that might lead back to her hesitations, her guilt. If Mike finds out sheâs doubting himâŚ
She exhales shakily, looking down at her shoes âFine,â she mutters. âIâll tell him.â
His smirk returns instantly âGood girl.â
She doesnât move right away. Every fiber of her being screams at her to walk away, to stop this before it goes any further.
But she doesnât.
Instead, she pulls out her phone, her fingers trembling as she types a message to him.
Dann: We need to talk. Itâs about YN and Hongjoong.
As she presses send, she feels sick.
She doesnât notice the two figures watching from down the hall.
Wooyoung leans lazily against the lockers, arms crossed, his grin widening. âBabydoll was right.â
Mindy hums, inspecting her nails. âHonestly, I knew it since the day I saw her talking with Hwa at the party.â
Woo chuckles. âWell, he did what we needed him to do.â
Mindy smirks, flicking her gaze toward Dann âNow lets see if Dann tells Mike.â
Because once Mike hears this, things will really start falling apart.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The evening air is cool against your skin as you push open the balcony doors of your bedroom, stepping outside with a quiet sigh.
The city lights stretch far into the distance, twinkling against the dark sky.
Everything feels too muchâHannah, the baby, the truth youâre about to reveal. Itâs all starting to feel real.
But then, thereâs him.
Hongjoong stands a few feet away, leaning against the railing, his gaze distant. Heâs been quiet since you got home, like heâs still trying to piece everything together.
You step beside him, resting your arms on the railing "Youâre thinking too much," You murmur.
He huffs out a small laugh, shaking his head "Can you blame me?"
You tilt your head, watching him "Whatâs on your mind?"
He exhales, running a hand through his hair. "Hannah, the baby, Mike. You." He glances at you then, something unreadable in his expression. "This is a lot, pretty. I just⌠I donât want you to go through this alone."
You blink at him, caught off guard.
Heâs serious.
"You really mean that?" You ask softly.
Hongjoong turns fully toward you, his brows drawing together. "Of course I do. Iâ" He hesitates, like the words are caught in his throat. Then, with a deep breath, he presses on. "I care about you, YN. More than you think."
Your heart does something strangeâtightens, twists, then swells. You donât know what to say. No one has ever said that to you, not like this.
Not like they meant it.
So, instead of words, you step closer, your hands reaching out on instinct.
He doesnât move as you slip your arms around his waist, pressing your forehead against his shoulder.
Heâs warm, steady, safe.
For a second, heâs frozen. Then, slowly, his arms come around you too, holding you just as tightly.
"You donât have to do anything for me," You whisper. "Just⌠stay with me."
Hongjoong rests his chin on top of your head, his voice quiet but firm.
"Iâm not going anywhere."
And for the first time in a long time, you believe it.
⎠â
Your room is dimly lit, the golden glow from your bedside lamp casting soft shadows on the walls.
The silence is peaceful, interrupted only by the faint sound of pages flipping as Hongjoong sits on your bed, pretending to read a book but really just stealing glances at you.
Youâre laying next to him, your head resting in his lap while you scroll over your social media.
He is about to say something when a sharp knock.
No. Not a knock. A demand interrupts him.
You freeze, and Hongjoongâs muscles tense. Then the door swings open without waiting for permission.
Mike steps inside, composed as ever, but thereâs something in his eyesâsomething sharp, something dangerous.
You meet his gaze, already standing from your comfortable position.
"What the hell are youâ"
"Youâre pathetic," He cuts you off smoothly "And predictable." His gaze flickers to Hongjoong, and he lets out a small, humorless chuckle "I should have known heâd be here."
"What do you want, Mike?"
"You really are desperate, arenât you?" His voice is low, full of quiet venom "So desperate for someone to want you that youâre letting this nerd use you. And whatâs worse?" He tilts his head, lips curving into something cruel "You fucking know it."
You smile when you hear that. It was them.
"And where did you get that brilliant theory? Park Seonghwa?" A pause "Or Dann?"
Something flickers in Mikeâs eyes. Park Seonghwa? What does Seonghwa have to do with this?
You scoff "Of course. You must be proudâcontrolling people like puppets, just like you always do."
Mike steps closer "And youâre any different?" His voice lowers "You lie to yourself every day, pretending youâre not just as pathetic as the rest of them. But deep down, you know the truth."
"You want to talk about truth?" Your heart pounds as you take a step forward, voice daring, reckless "What about Hannah then?"
The moment the name Hannah leaves your lips, the air in the room shifts. Mike stiffens, his entire body going rigid. The usual arrogance in his expression waversâjust for a second, but itâs there.
A crack. A weakness.
You see it, Hongjoong sees it.
And then, Mike moves.
The slap comes fast, too fast.
The sound of it rings through the room, a sickening crack as his palm connects with your cheek, whipping your head to the side.
The sting is instant, burning hot, your skin already throbbing. You gasp, stumbling back, your vision blurring for a split second.
But before you can process the painâbefore you can even reactâHongjoong is already moving.
"What the fuck is wrong with you?!" The anger in his voice is like nothing youâve ever heard before.
Hongjoong shoves Mike back, his entire body coiled with fury. The sharp contrast between his usual calm demeanor and the pure rage in his eyes is enough to make even Mike falter.
"You donât get to do that," Hongjoong seethes, standing between you and your brother, fists clenched so tightly his knuckles are white. "Not to her. Not to anyone."
Mikeâs lips curl, his composure snapping back into place, but thereâs an unmistakable flicker of irritationâmaybe even surpriseâat Hongjoongâs audacity.
"And what exactly do you think youâre doing?" Mike taunts, brushing off the shove like it was nothing. "You think you can protect her?" He scoffs. "You think she needs you?"
Hongjoong doesnât flinch "She doesnât need me," He admits, voice steady. "But Iâm still here. And I wonât fucking stand by while you hurt her."
Thereâs something raw, undeniable in his words. You blink, still dazed from the slap, your hand hovering near your stinging cheek. Hongjoong turns slightly, eyes softening when they land on you.
"Are you okay, pretty?" His voice is lower now, gentle.
Something inside you twists.
Mike clicks his tongue in disgust "Pathetic," He mutters.
Hongjoongâs jaw clenches "Get the fuck out."
For the first time, Mike hesitates.
Hongjoongâs not just some quiet, desperate nerd anymore. Heâs furious. Unshakable. And for once, Mike doesnât have complete control over the situation.
"Youâre making a mistake, nerd." Mike finally says, his voice cold, but thereâs something else there tooâannoyance, maybe even unease.
"Get. Out," Hongjoong repeats, this time his voice lower, quieterâbut somehow deadlier.
Mike holds his gaze for a long moment before scoffing and turning toward the door. But before he leaves, he glances at you one last time.
"You think youâre playing some clever game, but you have no idea what youâre doing," He murmurs. "Youâll regret this, YN."
With that, he walks out, slamming the door behind him. The room is suffocatingly silent in the aftermath.
Hongjoong exhales sharply, running a hand through his hair as he turns back to you. His fingers twitch, like he wants to reach for you but isnât sure if he should.
"Prettyâ"
"Iâm fine," You cut him off, voice tight.
But youâre not fine.
Youâre shaking. Your cheek burns. Your heart is racing. And then, without thinking, you step forward and wrap your arms around Hongjoong.
He melts immediately into the embrace, his arms coming around you protectively.
"Iâve got you," He murmurs into your hair. "Iâm right here."
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
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Pairing: heir!Song Mingi x heir!Reader AU: non-idol | arranged marriage | enemies to lovers Genre: angst, humor, fluff in future chapters Rating: NC-17 Summary: After a life-altering car accident, Mingi is given one final shot at redemptionâreborn as a fuzzy little puppy. To earn a second chance at life, he must complete three tasks or risk being doomed to the afterlife forever. Word Count: 5.5K Warnings: fluff, mentions of infidelity
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âYouâll need extensive physical therapy,â Dr. Jang said, flipping through his chart the day Mingi was to be discharged.Â
âWalking will be difficult at first. Youâll experience weakness, dizziness, and possibly some coordination issues.â
Mrs. Song let out a sharp breath, bringing a hand up to her mouth as if to stifle a gasp. Beside her, Mr. Song reached over and placed a firm, reassuring hand on her arm. They had known this was coming, yet hearing it aloud made it all the more real.
âWeâll have to make arrangements,â his mother replied. âOh, if heâs going to struggle, we can have the physical therapist come to the house.â
âThereâs no need,â Mingi rasped, glancing over at you. âY/N can help me.â
The entire room fell silent.
Dr. Jang stopped mid-page, his eyes flickering up over his glasses. The nurse who had been taking discharge notes blinked so fast it was almost comical. Even Mr. Song, ever composed, arched an eyebrow in surprise.
âW-What? Me?â you stammered, pointing to yourself as if there had been some mistake.
âIf you donât mind, Iâd like your help,â Mingi repeated, his voice steadier now, as if the decision had already been made in his mind. There was something almost⌠gentle in the way he looked at you.
You stared at him in disbelief. Mingi, the man who never wanted anything to do with you, was asking for your help?Â
âMingi, are you sure?â
Mrs. Song was still staring at him like he had grown a second head. âBut you alwaysââ She hesitated, searching for the right words.Â
âYouâve never liked beingâŚhelped. You always insist on doing things yourself.â
Mingi exhaled, leaning back against the pillows, his fingers twitching slightly against the blanket. âI know,â he admitted. His voice was quiet, almost contemplative.Â
âBut things are different now.â
And for some reason, the way he said it made it feel like he wasnât just talking about his injury.
You pulled up to the entrance, cutting the engine before stepping out to grab Mingiâs crutches from the backseat. By now, the visits were becoming routine, but each time, it still struck you as surreal.
You turned to him, holding out the crutches. âDo you need anything else? I can grab a wheelchair if you want.â
Mingi shook his head. âNo thanks, Iâve got it.â
Then, to your complete and utter bewilderment, he smiledâsmall, unguarded, but warm in a way youâd never quite seen before. The sight of it sent a strange flutter through your chest, something unfamiliar yet not entirely unwelcome.
Before you could process it, his hand brushed against your arm, a brief touch that sent a gentle warmth trailing in its wake. His fingers lingered just long enough to make you wonder if it was intentional before he gave your arm a light squeezeâas if he were telling you heâd see you soon.
It was fleeting, gone too soon, but the feeling remained, leaving you gripping the car door handle as if it were the only thing keeping you steady.
Mingi had never smiled at you before.Â
The whole drive home, you were lost in thought, your hands gripping the steering wheel a little tighter than necessary. Confused didnât even begin to cover it. Lately, everything about Mingi had been confusing.
At first, you thought you were imagining it. But then it became impossible to ignore.
It wasnât just the way he looked at you nowâlike he was seeing you for the first time, rather than through you. It was how he acted. How he hovered.Â
He followed you around the penthouse like a puppy. If you turned around too quickly, he was there, standing just a few feet away. If you rounded a corner, you nearly crashed into him. It was like he was always waiting for something.Â
Waiting for you.
You could almost see itâthe imaginary puppy ears perking up, the wagging tail swishing behind him, hoping youâd notice that he was there.Â
And as if that werenât strange enough, heâd also becomeâŚtalkative. Well, in his own way. Mingi had started initiating conversations with you through animal facts, seemingly random tidbits of knowledge heâd been holding in until they just slipped out.Â
âDid you know that vampire bats share their food with other vampire bats?â
âWhat?â You blinked at him, holding your fork mid bite.Â
âThey, umâŚthey regurgitate blood for bats that didnât eat.â His voice was quiet and uncertain, like he wasnât sure if this was something youâd want to hear but hoped you might find it interesting.
You blinked at him, trying to decide if this was some kind of weird joke. But there was no teasing in his expressionâjust an earnest kind of hopefulness, like he wanted you to acknowledge his effort.
Like he wanted you to know he was trying.
âOhâŚâ You let out a small laugh, tilting your head at him. âAre you telling me I donât eat enough?â
Mingiâs ears tinged pink as he gave a small, sheepish nod.Â
âKind ofâŚâ he admitted, shifting awkwardly.Â
âI noticed that sometimes you skip meals when youâre busy or stressed.â His voice dropped slightly, almost as if he was embarrassed to say it aloud.Â
âItâs not good for you.â
Another instance, you were humming to yourself as you sorted through the laundry, tossing a few shirts into the washing machine. The penthouse was quiet, save for the whir of the dryer running in the background. You reached for the basket whenâ
âDid you know that wombats poop in cubes?â
You yelped, throwing your laundry into the air as you spun around. Mingi stood just a few feet away, wide-eyed, his hands hovering awkwardly in front of him like he wasnât sure whether to help or apologize.
âMingi!â you gasped, pressing a hand to your chest. âYou scared me!â
âSorry, I didnât mean to,â he mumbled, shifting on his feet. âThe sugar cubes you put in your tea reminded me of wombat poop for some reason.â
You shook your head as you stepped into the lift back to the penthouse. You werenât sure how you felt about your husbandâs newfound attitude. It wasnât that you were ungratefulâMingi had finally woken up, and that should have been enough.Â
The moment you kicked off your shoes in the foyer, Mrs. Ha, the chef, scurried over, her eyes darting between you and the hallway like she was still in the habit of speaking cautiously. Â
âOh, Ms. Y/N!â she whispered urgently, clutching her apron. âHow was he?â
You let out a sharp exhale, still trying to make sense of it yourself. âWeird,â you hissed, picking up your pace to match hers as you both hurried toward the kitchen.
âHe smiled at me. Andââ You hesitated for a second before lowering your voice. âHe squeezed my arm.â
Mrs. Ha gasped so dramatically you thought she might faint. âNo.â She shook her head as if refusing to believe it.
âI know,â you muttered, half-joking, but not really. âHe used to pretend I didn't exist. Now heâsâŚâ You trailed off, struggling to find the right word.
Warm? Inviting? Considerate?
It felt strange to say out loud, but stranger still that it might actually be true.
Mrs. Ha grabbed your wrist as if trying to steady herself, or maybe you. âMs. Y/N,â she said gravely, âdo you think he hit his head too hard?â
You swallowed, the thought lingering in your mind longer than it should. Mingiâs accident had been severe. Heâd been unconscious for months and it was a miracle he woke up at all.Â
And yet, this wasnât just waking up. This was different. The Mingi you knew had been cold, distant, cruel even. He never touched you unless absolutely necessary, never smiled at you unless it was laced with sarcasm or condescension. But today?
Today, heâd looked at you like he actually saw you.
Could head trauma really alter someoneâs personality that drastically? Had the accident shaken something loose inside him?
âCan you believe he asked me about plants?â Yohan scoffed, handing you a cup of tea as you stepped into the kitchen.
âMingi and plants.â He shook his head in disbelief, leaning against the counter. âI canât believe heâs actually considering keeping something alive besides himself.â
You snorted, though the humor was short-lived. The shift in Mingiâs behavior was too drastic, too unnatural. You took a sip of your tea, the warmth doing little to ease the uncertainty. This new Mingi was too good to be true, and you were just waiting for the other shoe to drop. Mingiâs kindness, his warmthâit didnât make sense. Not when he had spent so long resenting you.
âThis morning, he casually mentioned that zebras canât sleep alone,â you murmured, tapping your fingers against the cup.Â
âWell he said heâs looking forward to dinner!â Mrs. Ha interjected.Â
âThree months ago, he barely spoke to anyone, including Y/N and now heâs making conversation?â Yohan shook his head, placing a hand on his hip.Â
âThis is suspicious.â
No one wanted to say it out loud, but you all felt the same way. Mingiâs recovery wasnât just physical. He was changing, bit by bit. And for the first time in a long while, it wasnât for the worse.
â
âYour grip strength is starting to improve, as well as the mobility on your left side. Soon, you wonât need the crutches anymore,â Dr. Lim noted encouragingly.
Mingi exhaled sharply, rolling his shoulders as he steadied himself. The session had been brutal, as they always were, but hearing that he was making progress gave him a small sense of victory.
âThatâs it for today. Weâll see you next week.â The physical therapist gave him a nod of approval before turning away, already moving on to his next patient.
Mingi nodded, gripping his crutches tightly as he made his way toward the exit. Every movement still felt like an uphill battle. He had spent the last two months relearning how to move, how to function without feeling like his own body was working against him. The physical therapy sessions were grueling, pushing him to his limits, but he refused to back down.
The accident had nearly killed him. Three broken ribs, a fractured femur, and nerve damage. Though it wasnât extensive, it was enough to remind him that no matter how much he pushed, there were still limits.Â
And he hated that.
He hated the way his body trembled when he overexerted himself, the way his right arm sometimes felt too weak to grip things properly. He hated that he still struggled to get up without support, that simple tasks took twice the effort they used to.Â
But he didnât hate the way you anticipated his struggles before he could voice them. The way you reached for his arm before he could stumble, or placed things in a way that made it easier for him to access. And he didnât hate how easily you entertained his ramblings, even when they were about the most mundane things.
For an hour and a half each week, he hated being away from you.
Because no matter how frustrating the setbacks were, no matter how exhausting the battle of recovery became, seeing you at the end of each session reminded him of his purpose and his promise to Hongjoong and Wooyoung.Â
The thought of going home had him biting back a grin as he adjusted his crutches and made his way out of the rehabilitation center. He was already looking forward to sliding into the passenger seat beside you, exaggerating the difficulty of his new balance exercises and guessing what Mrs. Ha had whipped up today.
The anticipation carried him forward until it came to a screeching halt.
The moment he stepped into the rotunda, his fingers instinctively tightened around the crutches, his body going rigid. The hospital lobby was a blur of white coats and murmured conversations, but all he could focus on was the figure standing in front of him.
Ahri.
Her arms were crossed, her manicured nails tapping impatiently against her sleeve. She looked annoyed with her lips pressed into a thin line as her sharp gaze raked over him.Â
The sight of her made something curdle in his stomachâsomething sharp, bitter, and unwelcome.
âWhat are you doing here?â Mingi asked flatly.
Ahri scoffed, stepping closer. âAre you seriously asking me that? Youâve been avoiding me ever since you woke up.â
âMaybe that should tell you something,â he muttered, but he already knew Ahri wouldnât take the hint.
Ahri rolled her eyes. âOh, come on, Mingi. Donât act like this. We need to talk.â
âNo,â he said simply, his grip tightening around the crutches until his knuckles turned white.Â
âWe really donât.â
âYouâre being dramatic. I was worried about youââ
âDonât,â he cut in, his voice low, firm.Â
Ahriâs mouth opened, then closed. For the first time, she looked uncertain, like she hadnât expected him to be this direct. Her expression faltered for a split second, But then, just as quickly, she recovered, her lips curling into a sneer.
âSo thatâs how it is?â she scoffed. âYou wake up and suddenly forget about us? Is it because you want to play house with her?â
Mingiâs jaw tensed but his silence spoke volumes.
âWhatâs wrong with that?â he replied quietly.Â
That made her pause. Just for a second. But then she shook her head, scoffing again like she couldnât believe what she was hearing.Â
âOh, give me a break,â she snapped. âYou spent so long telling me how miserable you were, how you were trapped with her.â She let out a bitter laugh.Â
âBut now what? You wake up from a coma and suddenly, sheâs the one you want? You told me you wished youâd never married her, that you never loved her.âÂ
She took a step closer, her voice dropping to something softer, something almost pleading as if she could still reach him.Â
âMingi, you told me I was the only thing that made you happy.â
And maybe, once, he had believed that.
Maybe, once, he had convinced himself that Ahri was the answer, the escape he craved, the proof that he was still alive, still capable of feeling something. But standing here now, after dying and coming back, after losing everything and being given a second chance, he saw it for what it truly was.
A mistake. A desperate attempt to outrun his own self-destruction.
But youâyou had always been real. And this time, he wasnât going to run.
This time, he was going to love you the way he should have all along.
âYou werenât,â he said steadily. âYou never were.â
Ahriâs face twisted, something wounded flickering across her features before it morphed into anger.Â
âBullshit! If that were true, then why did you keep coming back to me?â
"You were there when it was easy, Ahri. When it was fun. But when I was lying in that hospital bed, barely clinging to life, you were nowhere to be found."
Ahriâs lips parted, but no words came out.
âAnd you know what? I donât blame you,â Mingi said, tilting his head.Â
âBecause we were never real, were we? We were just two selfish people feeding off each otherâs worst impulses.â He exhaled sharply, as if the weight of it all was finally lifting off his chest.Â
âI donât owe you anything.â
People turned, pausing in their tracks, stealing glances at the commotion, but Mingi could care less. Instead, he stepped past her without another glance, heading toward the one person who matteredâ
You.
"You think you can just walk away from me?" Ahri's voice rose, sharp and unhinged.Â
Mingi didnât flinch. He didnât react at all.Â
And that set her off.Â
"Do you really think sheâll love you after everything you put her through?!"
Her lips curled, a smirk. "You think a self-respecting woman like Choi Y/N would want you?" She let out a breathless, almost manic laugh, her eyes glinting with something unhinged.Â
"Especially when you fucked me on your wedding night!"
A murmur rippled through the gathering crowd. Gasps. A sharp intake of breath. Someone muttering under their breath. But Ahri was past caring. Her hands trembled at her sides, whether from rage or something deeper, something uglier, even she wasnât sure.
âYou threw her away like she was nothing. And now, you think you can just have her?â
Ahri let out a broken laugh, something desperate and wild.Â
"Sheâs stronger than you ever gave her credit for." Ahriâs voice turned quiet, almost pitying.
âShe doesnât need you."
Mingiâs breath hitched, and for the first time since this entire confrontation began, doubt slithered in, coiling tight around his chest.
Because what if Ahri was right?
What if you never forgave him? What if everything he had done, all the cruel words, all the neglect, had built a wall so high between you that heâd never be able to climb over it?
He remembered the way you had looked at him when he was just a clumsy, oversized puppy, tail wagging, tongue lolling, no words to defend himselfâonly his actions. And still, still, you had cared for him. Fed him. Sheltered him. Loved him, even when you hadnât known it was him.
Mingi clenched his jaw. He could fix this.
Because if he had been capable of love then, stripped of his pride and his excuses, then he was capable of love now. And he would prove it to you. No matter what it took.
He would not lose you.
"Ms. Jeong," a voice said smoothly, "I suggest you leave before you embarrass yourself any further."
Mingi tensed. He didnât need to turn to know what heâd seeâthat infuriatingly calm expression, always so composed, so sure with his stupid face and stupid hair.
Seonghwa.
The hospital director's voice was calm, but the authority behind it was unmistakable. He stepped into Ahriâs path, yet the weight of his presence alone was enough to send a chill through the air.
Ahri whirled on him. "Stay out of this, Park Seonghwa!" she snapped. "This has nothing to do with you!"
Seonghwa raised an eyebrow. "Youâre causing a disturbance in my hospital. That makes it my problem."
Her chest rose and fell with sharp, angry breaths, but Seonghwa remained unfazed.
"Youâre humiliating yourself. If you donât leave, Iâll have security escort you out."
Ahriâs lips parted, her eyes darting between Seonghwa and Mingi, as if searching for an openingâone last attempt to regain control of the situation. But Mingi had already turned his back, walking toward the exit. Toward you.
And youâyou had just barely managed to keep your knees from buckling.
You had been standing just around the corner, heart in your throat, ears ringing with every word that had left Mingiâs mouth.
"Do you really think sheâll love you after everything you put her through?!"
You didnât have an answer for that. Not yet.
But Mingi, your husband, the same man who once treated your marriage like a prison sentenceâwas choosing you.
Your phone chimed, interrupting your conversation with Yohan and Mrs. Ha.
Pick up Mingi.
âHas it already been an hour and a half?â Yohan sighed, leaning back in his chair.
Mrs. Ha chuckled as she wiped her hands on her apron, already turning back to the half-prepped vegetables on the counter.Â
âTime flies when youâre talking shit, I guess,â you murmured, more to yourself than anyone.
Conversations like these had once been a source of relief, a safe space where you, Yohan, and Mrs. Ha could freely air out your frustrations about Mingi and his insufferable attitude. It had been cathartic, a necessary way to bond over shared grievances, particularly in the way he ignored Yohanâs presence, dismissed Mrs. Haâs kindness, and, worst of all, the way he had treated you.
The usual satisfaction of venting was absent, replaced instead by something heavier.Â
Guilt.
You werenât sure why.
Maybe it was the way his eyes lingered now, softer, searching, as if trying to memorize every flicker of emotion that crossed your face. Like he was looking for somethingâhoping for something.
Or maybe it was the way he hesitated before speaking, as if he wanted to be understood but didnât know how. As if he was afraid that one wrong step would send him tumbling right back into the version of himself you had every reason to despise.
And thatâs what made your chest ache.
You sighed, grabbing your keys from the counter and with a quick farewell to Yohan and Mrs. Ha, you made your way down to the garage. The drive to the hospital was quiet, the high rises casting fleeting shadows as you navigated the city streets.
Your mind wandered. Mingi was still a mess of contradictionsâstill the person who had hurt you more than anyone else ever had. And yet, in the past two months, something had shifted. Heâd been different.
You werenât sure what that meant for you, if it meant anything at all.
Pulling into the hospital lot, you glanced at the time. You were early. With minutes to spare, you found yourself hesitating, fingers tapping against the steering wheel. You could just wait here, let Mingi find his way out like always.Â
But today, something in you wavered.
Maybe, just this once, youâd meet him halfway.
Sighing, you turned off the engine and walked into the hospital. The automatic doors parted soundlessly as you entered, the sterile scent of antiseptic and faint traces of coffee from the cafĂŠ wrapping around you.Â
You weaved through the familiar hallways toward the rehabilitation center, past patients in wheelchairs and staff exchanging clipped instructions.
And thenâ
"You think you can just walk away from me?"
You stopped.
Ahri.
Her voice carried through the clinic, too loud, too reckless for a public space, but she didnât seem to care.
A few steps ahead, just past a row of columns, Mingi stoodâpartially obscured, his broad shoulders stiff with tension. Ahri stood in front of him, heaving with anger, her expression twisted into something between fury and despair.
Your instincts told you to walk away before you were pulled into something you werenât meant to witness. But your feet wouldnât move. Instead, you ducked behind the corner, pressing yourself against the wall, your heartbeat hammering in your ears.
"Do you really think sheâll love you after everything you put her through?!"
You sucked in a breath. That stopped Mingi and Ahri knew it. You peeked out just enough to catch the smirk curling at the edges of her lips and the cruel glint in her eyes.
"You think a self-respecting woman like Choi Y/N would want you? You fucked me on your wedding night!"
The words slammed into you, knocking the air from your lungs. You had known what you were getting into when your parents arranged your marriage to Mingi. You had no illusions about love or loyalty, not when his heart had already belonged to someone else. You had told yourself his affair with Ahri didnât matter, that you werenât some naive child clinging to false hope.
But hearing the words now, so bluntly and irrevocably, felt different. It was like an old wound you thought had scarred over, threatening to tear open all over again.
A murmur of voices rippled through the onlookersâgasps, hushed whispers, stolen glances exchanged in uneasy silence. Mingi remained frozen, his jaw clenched so tight it looked painful, his fists curling and uncurling around his crutches.
Your fingers curled into your sleeves, nails pressing crescent marks into your skin. The way Mingi stood there, facing Ahriâs wrath without backing down, without crumbling the way you might have expected, made your chest tighten.
For the first time in your marriage, Mingi was choosing you.
The realization sent a flutter through you, foreign and unwelcome and you had to keep your knees from buckling beneath you.Â
This wasnât forgiveness.
But it was something.
Swallowing hard, you spun on your heel and hurried back to your car. By the time you reached the door, your hands fumbled slightly, a little shaky as you slid inside and shut yourself away from the world. Â
You squeezed your eyes shut, willing the strange, fluttery feeling in your chest to go away. But it lingered, stubborn and insistent, curling around the edges of your thoughts. Ahriâs words still echoed in your mind, but even louderâmore impossible to ignoreâwas the quiet whisper of, What if?
What if Mingi really was choosing you?
Not out of obligation. Not because there was no one else left. But because he wanted to.
A breathy laugh escaped you, more out of disbelief than amusement.Â
âWhat do you think, Maro?â
The name slipped out before you could stop it, but it felt natural, like Maro was still here, curled up beside you, tail wagging, waiting for you to spill your heart out.Â
You swallowed, gripping the steering wheel as if it could ground you.Â
âItâs stupid, right?â Your voice was tentative as you leaned your head against the headrest.Â
âIt doesnât change anything. Just because heââ You stopped, shook your head, trying to chase away the warmth threatening to creep in.
âIt doesnât mean I should believe in something thatâs never been real.â
You could imagine Maro pressing his head into your palm like he understood everything you couldnât say. Like he was telling you that you didnât have to figure it all out alone.
âGod, I donât even know what's happening anymore.â
A sudden, sharp knock against the window jolted you upright. Your heart lurched into your throat as you turned, only to find Mingi standing just outside, giving you a small wave. Your face burned. Huffing, you fumbled for the lock with clumsy fingers before scrambling out of the car.Â
âI got it,â Mingi said with a chuckle, adjusting his grip on his crutches. His voice was light, but his gaze lingered on you, studying you with an expression softer than you were used to.
âYou okay?â
You forced a small smile, brushing imaginary dust off your sleeves in an attempt to steady yourself. âYeah, just tired.â
Mingi didnât look convinced. He lingered for a second longer, his eyes searching yours as if debating whether to press further. But he didnât. Instead, he exhaled through his nose, nodded, and slid into the passenger seat.
The drive home passed in a blur. The streetlights stretched long across the pavement, casting soft, flickering patterns against the windshield, but you were lost in the whirlwind of thoughts brewing in your mind.
Did he really love you?
â
"Y/NâŚcan you call my phone? I canât seem to find it."
Mingi had been more flustered than usual latelyânot that he wanted to admit. The accident had left him disoriented, but it was unlike him to be clumsy. But lately, he kept doing things that frustrated him to no end like pushing against a pull door and standing there and now, misplacing his phone for the third time this week.Â
He was also never one to ask for helpâespecially from you.
Before the accident, he had gone out of his way to keep his distance. He had made it clear he wanted nothing from you, and you had gotten the message. Eventually, you stopped offering. And for a while, thatâs what he thought he wanted.
Now, he couldnât stand the thought of it.
If you were in the kitchen, he was suddenly rummaging through the cabinets for a snack he didnât actually want. If you were on the couch, he was sitting on the opposite end, scrolling through his phone but not really paying attention to it.Â
And if you got up to leave the room? WellâŚso did he.
Because he wasnât afraid of being clingy. Not with you. Not when the thought of you leaving, of not having you here, was far scarier than anything else.
You nodded, pressing the call button as Mingi shuffled past you, disappearing into his room. Your gaze lingered on the doorway long after he was gone.
For the duration of your marriage, you had never once stepped foot inside this room. The door had always remained shut, a silent boundary he had drawn long before he ever knew you. A reminder that no matter what legal document bound you together, there would always be parts of him you would never reach.
But as you took a step forward, following the faint sound of his phone vibrating somewhere in the great beyond, you couldnât help but wonder if heâd let you glimpse into the parts of himself he had kept locked away. Â
You stood hesitantly by the threshold watching your husband rifling through his laundry, digging through pockets, and muttering to himself under his breath. The Mingi you had married wouldâve cursed under his breath, thrown something, or blamed someone else for his misplaced phone.Â
But this version of him? He simply kept looking, patient and persistent.
His room was dimly lit with the faint scent of paint and cologne filling the space. Canvases leaned against the walls, some vibrant and abstract, others more detailed and unfinished sketches scattered across his desk. Â
Your gaze landed on a small canvas resting on the edge of his desk. The soft eyes and the cheeky glint, the little nose, and that signature smile. It wasnât finished, but there was no mistaking it.
Maro.
âThere it is,â Mingi muttered, plucking his phone from the ground next to his bed.
As he swiped the screen to end the call, his gaze flickered toward you, then followed yours to the canvas on his desk. He watched you carefully, half-expecting sadness, maybe even confusion. But instead there was something unexpectedly tender.Â
And then you looked at him, and Mingi felt it.
Why did you have to look at him like that? Like he had done something right for once. Like you saw him in a way that made his heart squeeze. His ears burned. He cleared his throat, rubbing the back of his neck.
âI⌠picked up painting,â he admitted. âMy physical therapist said itâd help with motor skills and strengthening my hands and fingers.âÂ
He swallowed. âI hope you donât mind that I painted Maro. I⌠I wasnât sure if I got the eyes right,â he admitted, almost shyly.Â
You stepped closer, drawn in by the familiar shape on the canvas. âIt looks just like him,â you murmured, reaching out to trace the dried brushstrokes with your fingertips. The texture of the paint, the careful detailâMingi had poured himself into this.
Mingi let out a sigh of relief but then, as if realizing something, tensed again a second later. âIâuh, it was supposed to be a surprise,â he blurted out, his eyes widening slightly, as if heâd just realized his mistake.
You blinked up at him. âA surprise?â
âFor you,â he admitted, shifting awkwardly. His fingers toyed with the hem of his shirt like he wasnât sure what to do with his hands.Â
âI wanted to give it to you when I felt like it was perfect. But, um⌠I guess I kind of ruined that, huh?â He let out a nervous laugh, scratching the back of his head.
âYou painted this for me?â
He peeked at you through his lashes, leaving something softer and more vulnerable in its place as he gave you a small nod.
âI just⌠I know how much you lovedâlove Maro, and I thought maybe⌠youâd want something to keep. Something I made for you.â
Something only for you.
Your breath caught in your throat.
Oh. Your heart squeezed at the sincerity in his voice and the way heâd poured so much of himself into a piece just for you was overwhelming.Â
âOh, MingiâŚâ you breathed.
Emotion swelled in your chest, thick and impossible to name. You wanted to say something, anything, but all you could do was stare at himâthe quiet hope in his eyes, the way he watched you like he wasnât sure what youâd do next.
âI love it,â you said, and you meant it. Not just the painting, but the thought behind it. It was just a painting. But it wasnât. It was a piece of himâhis effort, his sincerity, his quiet way of saying what he couldnât put into words.
âThank you.â
The words felt small, insufficient for the weight of what he had given you. But then he smiledâa slow, relieved, utterly radiant smile that knocked the breath from your lungs.
And suddenly, the moment stretchedâtoo long, too precarious.
Your eyes flickered around the room, a sharp awareness settling over you. Mingiâs room. When did he get so close? When did you even come in here?
âI shouldâŚâ You cleared your throat, glancing toward the door. âI should let you get back to painting.â
Before he could say anything, you turned, slipping out of the room, closing the door gently behind you. For a moment, you leaned against it, trying to steady the sudden pounding in your chest. But before you could make sense of anythingâ
The door creaked open.
âWait.â
You turned, as Mingi poked his head out. There was a hint of bashfulness in the way his fingers gripped the doorframe, but his eyes held no hesitation.
ââŚYou can leave it open.â
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AYO FUCK MIKE, FUCK JINA, FUCK SEONGHWA, FUCK DANN, FUCK HONGJOONG, FUCK EVERYBODY, WE LOVE READER!
Iâve said this before, but dudeâŚwe have to kill Mike iâm so serious I need this man gone. Also I knew there was something up with Jina from the last chapter with the comment she made about reader.
I just need happiness for reader cause iâm losing it every time I see a new chapter posted. Iâm very much enjoying it as I say after every chapter. Keep up the amazing work! <3
ps. Itâs mostly likely because I donât read everything and jump straight into the story, but why did I just notice it says love triangle in genre.
Popular, Boy
â10: The first wound.
Pairing: Nerd!Hongjoong x Popular!Reader
Genre: +18, smut, slow burn, drama, angst, love triangle.
wc: 8,2k
Summary: A night that was meant to go one way takes a devastating turn. Tension rise, lines are crossed, and for the first time...
Doubt begins to surface in unexpected places.
Warnings: Verbal abuse, physical violence, cursing, angst.... a lot of angst.
an: Request are open! Feel free to request whatever you like (I just don't accept mĂm requests)
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â09 â11: The first truth. Coming soon
It had been days since Hongjoong and you had spoken. Your fight at the club still lingered in the air like an unshakable fog, thick with tension and unresolved emotions.
At school, you acted as though the other didnât exist, carefully avoiding eye contact, ignoring each otherâs presence, and pretending like your worlds hadnât once been intertwined.
Your friends noticed, but no one dared to bring it upânot when you were burying yourself in distractions, and not when Hongjoong looked like he had the weight of the world on his shoulders.
But today, Hongjoong decided to end it.
During his shift at the cafĂŠ, his boss, Mr. Choi patted him on the back, a rare smile breaking his usually stern face.
âYouâve been working hard, kid. Take tomorrow off. Get some rest.â
Hongjoong blinks in surprise. He had expected to push through another exhausting shift, but this?
This is an opportunity, a chance to set things right.
As soon as he gets to the back room, he pulls out his phone and hesitates for a second. His fingers hover over your name before he finally taps on it.
JoongieâĄ: Hey..
He stares at the screen, wondering if you would ignore him. The three little dots appear almost instantly, then vanish, then appear again.
YNâĄ: What?
Hongjoong exhales. Short, cold, distant. He deserves that.
JoongieâĄ: I donât like this. Us, being like this.
JoongieâĄ: Iâll explain everything. I swear.
JoongieâĄ: Let me make it up to you.
Another long pause. He can practically hear you scoffing at the message, debating whether you should even give him the time of day.
Then, finally you answer.
YNâĄ: Fine.
His heart lurches forward.
JoongieâĄ: Tomorrow. 7 PM. Iâll send you the address.
He searches for the perfect spot, something that isn't too extravagant but still special. A small, charming restaurant near the cityâs main street catches his attention.
It was warm, cozy, and has the kind of atmosphere that feels... personal.
Perfect for what he needs to say.
Jina, behind him, narrows her eyes to get a look of what he is doing. She can see the contact name 'YNâĄ,' and then he sends a link.
Is he going on a date with that girl?
Without doing a sound, she gets back to her task.
JoongieâĄ: Sent.
JoongieâĄ: See you there, pretty.
No response, but you had read the message. Hongjoong put his phone down, exhaling deeply.
Tomorrow, he will fix things. He has to.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
You stand in front of the mirror, carefully applying the finishing touches to your makeup over your bruised cheek. Your hands are steady, but inside, your heart is racing with anticipation.
Tonight, Hongjoong is finally going to explain everything. You had spent days drowning in frustration, confusion, and anger, but now, there is a chance to clear the air.
Tonight, everything will be fixed.
Tonight, Hongjoong would explain himself.
Tonight, he would tell you why he had been acting so distant, why he had been avoiding you after school, why he had refused to spend time with you.
He would make it up to you like he promised.
You adjust the delicate straps of your black dress, making sure everything is perfect. Your hair cascades over your shoulders in soft waves, and your lips are painted a deep shade of redâcovering perfectly your broken lipâmasking your vulnerability.
You take a step back, examining yourself with a critical eye. Stunning as always.
Hongjoong would see you and remember exactly why he had fought so hard to be with you.
Your phone buzzes on the vanity table. You grab it instantly, hoping it is Hongjoong confirming he is already there, waiting for you. But it is just a reminder from your driver.
With a sigh, you slip your phone into your designer purse and grab your coat. As you walk down the grand staircase of your home, you catch sight of Mike lounging in the living room, flipping through a magazine.
"Going somewhere?" He asks without looking up.
"Not that it's any of your business."
Mike smirks but doesn't push further. He simply leans back and watches as you disappear through the front door.
The car ride to the restaurant was quiet, giving you too much time to think.
Was Hongjoong nervous? Was that why he hadn't said much after sending you the address? You shook your head. No, tonight was about fixing things.
You wouldnât let doubt ruin it.
The restaurant Hongjoong had chosen is small but elegant, tucked away near the cityâs main street. Fairy lights hang across the windows, giving the place a warm, intimate glow. Itâs a charming spot, perfect for a conversation that had been long overdue.
You walk in, heels clicking against the polished floor as you approach the host.
"Reservation under Kim Hongjoong." You say smoothly.
The host checks his list and nods "Ah, yes. Right this way, miss."
You follow him to a cozy table by the window, the perfect spot to watch the cityâs nightlife unfold. You sit down, crossing your legs gracefully, and check your phone. No new messages.
You exhale, telling yourself that he would be here any second. You smooth out your napkin and glance at the entrance.
Your fingers tap against the polished wood, eyes flicking to the entrance every few seconds. Any moment now.
The waiter approaches âWould you like to order something while you wait?â
âIâll wait,â You reply, forcing a polite smile âHeâll be here soon.â
The minutes drag on. The candle in the middle of the table flickers, barely illuminating the growing void in your chest.
7:15 PM.
You check your phone. No messages.
7:35 PM.
Your throat feels tight. You type a quick text.
YNâĄ: Are you on your way?
Sent. No response.
7:50 PM.
Your nails dig into your palm. You try not to look at the couples around you, laughing, talking, and enjoying their meals together. You try not to feel humiliated.
8:15 PM.
He 's not coming.
You blink, pushing back the sting behind your eyes. No. This isnât happening, Hongjoong wouldnâtâhe wouldnât do this to you. Not after everything. Not after all the things he told you, the way he held you, the way heâ
Your phone buzzes.
Finally.
You grab it instantly, hope swelling in your chestâuntil you see the sender.
Seonghwa.
You hesitate, then open the message. It 's a photo.
Your eyes open in surprise.
Itâs Hongjoong.
Hongjoong in a different restaurant. Hugging a girl.
The image isnât blurry. It isnât vague.
They look comfortable, like he belongs there. Like this is his life, and you aren't in it.
Your chest caves in. The restaurant around you fades into nothing but muffle sounds and blurry lights.
Your phone slips from your fingers into the table, your vision blurry. A sharp inhale burns through your throat, but it doesn't bring any relief.
He⌠he really didnât come.
He left you waiting, and he was with someone else.
You stand abruptly, chair scraping against the floor. You donât care if people look. You donât care about anything.
You grab your purse, leaving behind the perfectly set table, the unlit candle, the untouched hope you had carried with you.
The ride home was silent.
You walk through the front door in a daze, your heels clicking against the marble floor. No one is around. Good.
You climb the stairs to your bedroom, locking the door behind you. The moment you turn around, the weight of it all comes crashing down.
You clench your fists, willing yourself to breathe, to not care, to be the unbothered YN everyone expects you to be.
But you canât.
Your knees give out.
And for the first time in years, you cry.
Not silent tears. Not a quiet sniffle.
You sob.
Your body curls in on itself, shaking, as raw, broken cries escape your lips. Your hands clutch at your dress, nails digging into the fabric as if holding into somethingâanythingâwould stop you from unraveling completely.
But there is nothing left to hold onto.
Hongjoong had taken everything.
The walls you had built. The pride you had carried. The belief that you could never be broken.
And yet, here you are.
Crying alone in the dark.
Like a fool.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
Hongjoog is just about to leave his house, dressed in his best clothes, nervous yet excited. He has finally got a day off, and this is his chance to make things right with you.
He checks his phone again, seeing your last message confirming their date, and a small smile tugs at his lips. After everything, he is determined to fix this.
Then, his phone buzzes.
Jina: Kim, I need your help. It's urgent. I'm at the cafĂŠ. Please, just for a second.
Hongjoong frowns. Jina rarely texts him outside of work, and the urgency in her message makes him hesitate. He glances at the timeâhe has enough to swing by quickly, help her out, and still make it to the restaurant on time.
Hongjoong: Whatâs wrong?
Jina: Just come. Please. I really need you.
Sighing, he pockets his phone and hurries toward the cafĂŠ, telling himself it wouldnât take long.
When he arrives at the cafe, Jina is waiting outside, leaning against the wall, arms crossed, an unreadable smirk on her lips.
âI thought something bad happened,â Hongjoong says, a little breathless.
Jina puts on a fake worried face âIt did! Well, kind of. I locked myself out of the counter, and I left something really important inside. Youâre the only one I know who might figure out how to open it without causing a scene.â
Hongjoong exhales sharply, checking the time. He still has time.
âAlright.â
She leads him inside, making sure to keep her pace slow, stalling as much as possible. When they reach the storage room, she hands him a thin wire.
âI saw you mess with one of these before. Think you can do it?â
He takes the wire, focusing as he tries to get the lock open. His brows furrowed as he works, unaware that Jina has discreetly pulled out her phone, sending a quick text.
Jina: Heâs here. Keep watch.
Outside, a tall man leans casually against a lamppost near the cafĂŠ, watching through the window, waiting for the right moment.
Hongjoong is still working on the lock when Jina suddenly steps closer, pretending to peer over his shoulder. She tilts her head, letting her hair brush against him, positioning herself just right.
And then, right when she sees the man lift his phone, she leans in even more, her lips dangerously close to Hongjoongâs cheek.
âAlmost there,â The man mutters, oblivious to how it looks from the outside.
The lock finally gives in, and Hongjoong straightens up, triumphant.
âThere, itâs open.â
Jina beam âYouâre a lifesaver!â She says, throwing her arms around him in an exaggerated hug.
And just like that, flashâThe man captures the perfect shot. From the angle he took it, it looked exactly like they were sharing an intimate moment.
Hongjoong checks the time again and feels his stomach drop. He had stayed way longer than he meant to.
âShit, I have to go,â He says, pulling away from Jinaâs hold.
Jina pouts, but inwardly she is smirking âLeaving already? Come on, stay for a drink. Itâs not like youâre in a rush.â
âI am in a rush,â He snaps, already heading for the door.
Jina watches him go, waiting until he is far enough before pulling out her phone and sending a message.
Jina: Done. Heâs on his way, but I made sure heâs late.
The reply is instant.
Bastard Park: Perfect. Time to deliver the final blow.
With a satisfied smirk, he sends the picture to you.
And just like that, the trap is complete.
⎠â
As soon as Hongjoong steps out of the cafĂŠ, he pulls out his phone to check the timeâand his heart plummets.
It was way past the time he was supposed to meet you.
âShit,â He mutters under his breath, breaking into a sprint toward the restaurant.
His mind races, a thousand apologies already forming in his head. Maybe you are still there, waiting. Maybe he can explain. Maybe youâd understand.
But when he arrives, the small restaurant is nearly empty. The table he had reserved was cleared, no sign of you anywhere.
Hongjoongâs chest tightens. He runs a hand through his hair, breath still uneven as he turns in all directions, hopingâprayingâthat you are just running late too.
He pulls out his phone to call you, but there is no answer. He tries again.
Straight to voicemail.
He knows he needs to find you, to explain. But deep down, something tells him that the damage is already done.
And this time, he doesnât know if he can fix it.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
You barely sleep, your body is exhausted, but your mind is restless. You hadnât felt this empty in years, the heaviness of betrayal dragging you into a deep, silent pit.
The house is quiet as you sit down for breakfast, your eyes barely lifting from your plate. Your mother sits across from you, picking at her food.
âSweetie,â Your mother calls softly, breaking the silence âHave you heard from Hongjoong?â
Your chest tightens at the mention of his name, the flash of the photo still burning in your mind. You donât want to talk about himânot today.
Not after everything that happened last night.
âPlease donât.â You mutter under your breath, pushing your plate aside, and voice cracking from the strain of holding back the flood of emotions.
Your mother raises an eyebrow, confused âWhat do you mean?â
You snap, your patience finally unraveling âDonât ask me about him, I don't want to talk about him.â
Your voice comes out sharp, harder than you meant, but it was too late to take the words back.
Your motherâs face stiffs, hurt flashing in her eyes âSweetie, what's going on? Something happened between you orââ
âI donât want to hear his fucking name, again!â You spit, not caring if you are crossing a line.
The silence in the room grows thick and heavy. Mike, who had been leaning against the kitchen door frame, watching the scene unfold, finally speaks up, his voice cold and sharp, a sign of his anger brewing beneath the surface.
âWatch your mouth, YN,â He growls âYou think you can talk to our mother like that?â
Your eyes flick to your brother. There it is. The fury in his gaze is palpable, and you know what is coming.
He always had a short temper, and whenever things didnât go his way, he couldnât control his rage.
And every person in this family knows it.
"Mind your own fucking business, Mike."
âThatâs it,â Mike snarls, his hand gripping your arm with force making you gasp in pain âYou think you can speak to me like that in front of our mother? Youâre just as worthless as I always knew.â
âMike, stop!â Your mother shouts, but itâs too late.
Mike drags you by the arm, the grip tight and punishing, as he pulls you toward the stairs. You struggle against him, your heels slipping on the marble floor, but Mikeâs anger is a force that canât be ignored.
Your parentsâ voices ring out from behind, frantic and desperate.
âMike, let her go! This is insane!â
But he doesnât listen. He doesnât care. The only thing that matters is the fury building inside him, and he isnât about to stop.
Due to the screaming scandal, the employees and even Dann left their duties to see what is happening to the Clarke family.
âMike! What are you doing?â Your mother shouts, but Mike doesn't respond.
He is beyond words now, his anger blinding him, consuming him.
Your vision blurs with anger and pain, you want to scream, to lash out, but you canât. You canât do anything except let him drag you up the stairs, your feet barely touching the steps.
Dann stands in the hallway, frozen, her wide eyes lock on the scene. She can hear her heart thumping in her chest, but she canât bring herself to move, to intervene.
What is he doing? Whatâs happening?
Before everyone can react, your scream resonates in the immense house.
âLet go of me!â You scream, trying to break free, but his hand is like a vice around your arm. Itâs raw, desperate.
Dannâs stomach lurch as the scream echoes in her ears. The sound of footsteps grows louder, and desperate shouts. Her breath hitches, she isn't the type to get involved, but this time she moves instinctively, stepping behind Clarke's family and some other maids.
âMike, stop! What are you doing?!â
Itâs your motherâs voice. Desperate.
With one swift motion, Mike shoves you into your room and slams the door, locking it behind him, the sound of it echoing through the house.
Dannâs gaze flicks towards the other maids, all of them looking as stunned as her, eyes wide with fear unsure if they should help or stay away from this.
Your parentsâ frantic knocks fill the air.
âMike, open this door right now!â Your father screams.
âCalm down, and stop this!â Your mother cries out.
But Mike is past caring. The door remains shut.
Inside, the room feels suffocating. Mikeâs eyes are wild, his hands trembling with rage as he advances on you.
You back away, trying to create distance, but he is too fast.
His fist connects with your face in a brutal slap, sending you stumbling back into the wall. The sharp pain blooms on your cheek, but itâs nothing compared to the twisted fury that burns in his eyes.
âWhy do you always act like you're better than everyone?â Mike hisses, his voice low and venomous âYou think you can get away with everything? I hate you. I hate everything about you.â
You try to steady yourself, the tears threatening to spill, but you refuse to let him see you break.
You wipe your mouth, your body shaking with suppressed anger âWhat the fuck is wrong with you? Why are you doing this?!â
Mikeâs eyes flares with rage âI donât need a fucking reason!â He screams back, his foot crashing into your leg, sending you collapsing into the floor âYouâre nothing but a spoiled, ungrateful little bitch.â
Your heart pounds in your chest, your breath coming in ragged gasps. You try to scramble away from him, but heâs relentless, towering over you, his rage completely uncheck.
âYouâre sick! Stop this shit, Mike!â
The words only seem to make him angrier. He leans down, grabbing you by the hair and yanking your head back.
âIâm the one in control here,â He snarls âAnd youâre nothing.â
âŠ
Outside the room, the sound from insideâyelling, screams, and the harsh, guttural thudding of fistsâis unmistakable and your parents continue to knock, their voices becoming more desperate by the second.
âPlease help me open the door!â
The head of the family screams to the staff around when the noise intensifies as Mike shouts again, this time inaudible, followed by the sickening sound of something crashing. Dann freezes, her feet rooted to the floor.
âMike, please!â Your mother cries, her voice trembling âYou need to stop! This isnât the way! Pleaseâ!â
Dannâs breath hitches in her throat as she sees your mother, looking frantic, her face pale with fear.
Your father is right behind her, both of them calling Mikeâs name, their voices pleading, but itâs clear he isnât listening.
âMike open the fucking door!â He shouts again, his voice no longer calm but desperate.
He bangs his fist against the wood, as if trying to break it open, but it doesnât work. The door doesnât budge.
Everyone can hear your muffled screams from inside. They are weak, strain, each one like a stab to the chest.
Dann is shocked, she hadnât heard you like this beforeânot ever. You were usually strong, always the one who stood tall, the queen bee who ruled every room she entered.
To hear you reduced to this? It 's too much.
âLet me in!â Your mother pleads, the desperation in her voice rising.
But Mike remains silent behind the door. Then, a sickening crash. The sound of something heavy hitting the floor.
Dannâs hands tremble as she grabs the edge of the railing, her thoughts spinning. She wants to run, to leave, to shut her eyes and pretend she didnât hear the violence unfolding in your room.
She wants to be anywhere but here.
But there is something else in her chestâsomething that feels like guilt. A pang of regret so sharp it made her chest ache.
She had helped Mike. She had been a part of his anger, his manipulation. She had stood by and allowed him to act like this, but now, seeing you suffer...
For the first time, Dann wonders if sheâd made a terrible mistake. She knew that Mike was rigorous, but this? This is beyond anything she had expected.
âPlease, Mike. Open the door! Youâre hurting her! Donât you see what youâre doing?â
Dann could hear the desperation in their voice. Your fatherâwho always seemed so in control, so unwaveringâis breaking down.
But still, Mike doesnât respond.
âŠ
A bitter smirk curls on your lips. Even as pain burns through your body, you refuse to look away.
"Youâre in control? Why didn't you say the same to Hannah?"
The air in the room shatters.
Everything stops.
Mikeâs breath stills. His grip on your hair freezes.
Then, without warningâ
His hands snap around your throat.
The force slams your head against the floor. White bursts across your vision, pain shooting through your skull. His fingers dig into your skin, cutting off your air in an instant.
Your body jerks, instincts taking over as your hands claw at his wrists, but he doesnât budge.
"Donâtâ" His voice is raw, feral. "âsay her fucking name!"
Your lungs burn, chest heaves, but nothing comes in.
You canât breathe.
A choked, gurgling sound escapes your lips.
For the first timeâtrue, undiluted fear slams into you.
This time, heâs really going to kill you.
âŠ
The muffled sounds of struggle are alarming enough. But the silence that followsâthe eerie, heavy pauseâmakes Dannâs stomach drop.
She lingers in the hallway with the other maids, hushed whispers mixing with the tense air. The entire house staff is frozen, eyes darting toward the closed door..
Then she hears itâ
A sharp thud. A desperate, choking gasp. And the suffocating, terrifying silence.
Just as she is about to move and help, one big man that she never saw before, shoves her aside, frantically searching for something, anything, to break the door down.
âGet back!â He shouts, and then with a final, desperate push, he manages to get the door open.
The sight that greeted them inside is nothing short of horrific.
Mike is on top of you, his hands wrapped around your throat. Your body jerks violently, fingers clawing at his arms, legs kicking weakly against the floor trying to fight back, but his strength is above yours.
Everyone's face turned a terrifying shade of red.
"Oh my god..." Dann breathes, horror flooding her veins.
This is not what she signed up for. She wanted to hurt you, to knock you down from your pedestal, to humiliate you. But this?
This is fucking murder.
Your eyes are wide, body twitching, struggling to hold on.
And Dannâs stomach twists violently at the sight.
"Mike, stop!" Your mother screams.
He doesnât flinch. His grip doesnât loosen. His body doesnât move. Itâs like heâs completely gone.
You let out a strangled, rasping noise. Your movements are slowing.
Dannâs heart slams against her ribs. Heâs really going to kill you. But she can't move⌠she can't do anything.
Desperate, your father and some male staff lunges forward and grabs at Mikeâs arms, trying to yank him away.
"Youâre going to kill her!" Your mother sobs, panic clawing at her throat.
Nothing.
Mike doesnât even acknowledge her. His expression is blankâtwistedâlike he isnât even there anymore.
Suddenly, your body stops jerking.
Panic shoots through everyone in the room.
And Dann doesnât thinkâshe just acts.
With everything she has, she runs to where the scene is happening and sinks her nails into Mikeâs wrist and bites down on his arm, hard.
Mike roars in pain. His grip finally snaps open, and your body heaves as air rushes back into your lungs.
You collapse onto the floor, coughing violently, gasping for breath.
"Sweetie! Get out of my way, Mike!â Your mother says, her voice icy as she moves to check on you.
But Mike doesnât move. He just stands there, watching them all like they are beneath him.
âMy babyâŚâ She cries, pulling you to her lap.
Mike stumbles back, chest heaving. His dazed expression flickers between confusion and rage, pupils blown wide.
"What the fuck is wrong with you?!" Your father shrieks, voice shaking "You almost killed her!"
Mike barely even looks at him "She deserved it."
The words hit Dann like a slap.
She stumbles back, unable to speak. Her thoughts racing, but none of them make sense.
She had never seen Mike like this before. She had never seen him hurt anyone like this before. The boy who had always been toughâyesâbut this? This is something else.
âYou crossed the line, Mike!!â This time your mother shouts.
âI didnât do anything wrong.â He mutters, voice low and trembling.
Dannâs legs give way, and she sinks to the floor, tears spilling down her face.
She had helped him. She had believed in him.
But now, in the midst of all this chaos, she realizes that she has been wrong. She has been an accomplice in something that she can't even begin to justify.
Dann canât help but feel the full weight of what she has doneâthe guilt, the shame, and the realization that she has let the worst happen under her watch.
A tall man rushes in, followed by security, followed by more maids whispering in hushed, horrified tones.
The room erupts into chaos.
Dann reaches out, hands trembling as she tries to touch you, to help you.
But you, still coughing, still shaking, slap her hand away.
"Donât touch me." You rasp, voice hoarse.
Even in your state you seek to be closer to your mother, and so you do, you get closer until her arms are tightly around you. You turn slightly, looking straight at Mike.
Your expression is unreadable, your lips are swollen, skin bruised, but your eyesâ
Your eyes are filled with something deadly.
And then you do something that makes Dannâs blood freeze.
You smile.
Itâs slow, brokenâfull of bitter, quiet rage.
"Now that was dramatic," Your rasp voice is laced with mockery "All because of a name?"
Mikeâs face twists. For a second, he looks like he might attack again. But security grabs him, forcing him back.
Your mother turns to the guards, voice sharp with panic "Get him out of here!"
Mike thrashes for a moment, then suddenly stills. His expression remains unreadable, but his eyes stay locked on you.
And for the first time since the night beganâ
Dann sees fear in them.
You have won.
Not by fighting back. Not by screaming.
But by surviving.
And as you sit there in your mother's arms, breathless, broken, smilingâDann realizes something terrifying.
Itâs not the first time this has happened.
Your way of acting is not in accordance with what has just happened. It's almost like you're used to it by now.
And she is sure that you aren't going to let this go. Youâre going to destroy him.
And Dann?
Dann just picked the losing side.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The mansion is eerily quiet after the chaos. The tension lingers like an unshakable presence, seeping into every corner of the house.
You sit on your massive bed, your mother beside you, dabbing a cold cloth against your bruised throat. The older womanâs hands tremble slightly, her usual composure cracked by todayâs events.
Your father stands near the window, arms crossed, his face unreadable as he stares outside.
In the kitchen, the maids whisper in hushed voices, and their faces pale as they recount what had just transpired.
Dann sits frozen with her mother at her side, both overwhelmed by what theyâve learned.
"This isn't the first time," One of the older maids murmurs "Mister Mike has always had... temper issues. But he used to just slap Miss YN when they argued. Never like this. Never... this violent."
Dannâs breath catches in her throat. Slaps? Before he left for Germany? Her stomach churns. She was aware of Mike being intense, but she never considered that he might have actually hurt you before today.
Another maid, older and wise beyond her years, sighs, shaking her head.
"I remember the last time it happened. Miss YN didn't cry. She never does. She just took it, and when he was gone, she smiled like nothing had happened. But this time... this time was different. He went too far."
âOur little girl itâs been through a lot because of her brother.â
Dannâs mother tightens her grip on Dannâs arm, impressed by the information. Never in all her years of working for the upper class had she witnessed such a scene
Therefore, Dann keeps thinking about your reactionâabout the way you smiled. A slow, broken, bitter smile that sent chills down her spine.
You weren't just going to let this go.
⎠â
Inside your room, you finally move. You reach for your phone with shaky fingers and open a group chat that only has two contactsâWooyoung and Mindy.
YNâĄ: It 's happening again.
A few seconds later, they respond.
Babe Min: That motherfucker!
Brat Woo: Weâre on our way, babydoll.
You smile, click out of the chat, and call one of the maids who usually attends the front door.
"Do not let anyone in except Wooyoung and Mindy. No one. Understand?"
"Yes, Miss YN."
You sigh, exhausted. Your phone keeps buzzingâdozens of missed calls and messages from Hongjoong since yesterday night.
JoongieâĄ: YN, please answer me.
JoongieâĄ: Let me explain everything to you.
JoongieâĄ: Please, pretty. Iâm so sorry.
You stare at the screen before shutting your phone off entirely. You aren't in the mood to talk to him.
Not now. Not today.
You lean back against the pillows, your fingers grazing the bruises on your neck.
You close your eyes.
Mike had made a mistake today, and you aren't going to let this go.
⎠â
When Mindy and Wooyoung arrived, they didn't need anyone to guide them through your house. They had been here a thousand times beforeâthrough grand parties, sleepovers, and nights of shared secrets.
But today, the air feels different. Heavy. The grandeur of the mansion, usually welcoming in its cold luxury, seems suffocating.
The maids barely acknowledge them as they walk in, a clear sign of the chaos that had unfolded just hours ago. Wooyoung gives a small nod to one of the familiar staff members, but she only bows slightly before hurrying away.
Neither him nor Mindy speak as they ascend the wide marble staircase. They know where to find you.
Your room is at the end of the hall, the massive double doors usually standing slightly ajar when you are in a good mood.
Today, they are shut tight. Wooyoung and Mindy exchange a look before Mindy knocks lightly.
No answer.
Woo sighs, twisting the handle and pushing the door open.
The dim lighting cast soft shadows across the space, the only source of real illumination being the faint glow from the lamp by the bed. You are lying there, curled on your side, back to the door.
You aren't asleep. They can tell by the way your shoulders tensed slightly at the sound of them entering.
Mindy walks over first, sitting on the edge of the bed. Wooyoung follows, standing at the foot, arms crossed.
âBabe,â Mindy says softly.
For a moment, it seemed like you wouldnât answer. Then, your voice came, quiet but steady.
âIt happened again.â
Mindy and Wooyoung share a glance. They know exactly what you meant.
Wooyoung clenches his jaw âTell us everything.â
You inhale deeply before rolling onto your back, staring at the ceiling. They look in horror at the bruises that cover your neck and the slight wounds on your face.
This went beyond what it usually was.
âSince he returned.â You start, voice eerily calm âHe has done nothing but make horrible comments and make my life almost impossible.â
Woo exhales sharply. He had always known about Mikeâs temper, but hearing you say it so plainlyâso matter-of-factlyâmakes his stomach churn.
Mindy, quiet and attentive, reaches for your hand âWhen was the first one?â
You let out a dry chuckle âA month ago at his party, after his grandiose speech I went out to the courtyard to smoke a little.â
Mindy nods, her grip tightening âThat night?â
âHe caught me, and slapped me across the face like I was some misbehaving child,â You say bitterly âHe said I was embarrassing him and our family.â
Wooyoung swears under his breath, pacing slightly.
âThen the next time, someone sent him a video of me smoking weed at the club a couple of days ago. I dont know who the fuck sent him that, we were the only ones in the vip room. Anyways; he cornered me when I arrived, and called me a cheap whore, and when I talked backââ You gesture vaguely at your cheek âAnother fucking slap.â
Mindyâs jaw tightened âI didn't believe your story of falling on the stairs at all, I already suspected that Mike had done something. Why didn't you just tell me that my suspicions were correct, YN?â
You shrug âNot like you could have stopped him.â
Wooyoung runs a hand through his hair, frustrated âBut todayâtoday was different, wasnât it? He's slapped you before, but this is being a fucking asshole.â
Silence stretches between them, thick with unspoken words. Then, you sit up slightly, your tone shifting.
âAnd as if that wasnât enough, Hongjoong has been acting differently, too.â
Mindy frowns, nodding âWe have noticed, what's wrong with him?â
You scoff âSince I gave him a chance and since we fucked.â You scoff âThe stupid rumor at school became true.â
Wooyoung raises a brow, but says nothing.
âHeâs been weird. Distant sometimes. Sweet other times. I donât know what to make of it,â You admit, frustration creeping into your voice âAnd then yesterday, he invited me on a date to explain everything, but never showed up.â
Mindyâs brows furrow âDid he say why?â
âNo⌠But Seonghwa sent me something.â
You reach for your phone on the nightstand, unlock it, and hand it to them. On the screen is a pictureâa blurry yet unmistakable image of Hongjoong in a cafĂŠ, hugging a girl.
Wooyoung stiffs immediately, his eyes narrowing âThat place⌠thatâs a cafĂŠ Hwa likes to go to.â
âYou recognize it?â
Wooyoung nods slowly, his mind working âAnd that girl⌠she looks familiar.â
Mindy leans in, squinting âWhere do you know her from?â
Wooyoung exhales, rubbing his temple âI donât know. I know that she works in that cafe, I've seen her elsewhere, but I canât remember where.â
You groan in frustration, flopping back onto the bed âGreat.â
Mindy places a hand on your arm. âBabe⌠Do you think Seonghwa is messing with you? Itâs strange that he sent you that photo.â
âMaybe. But I donât trust Hongjoong either.â
Woo crosses his arms âSo what now?â
You turn your head to look at both of them âNow?â A slow, bitter smirk spreads across your face âNow, I play my own game. Woo, I need you to go to that place and find out who that slut is. Also, try to remember where you've seen her.â
âGot it, babydoll.â He nods with a sly smile.
âBabe, try to find who sent that video to Mike and have Seonghwa in your sight⌠I don't know why, but since you said he talked with Dann at the party, it concerned me.â
âSure thing, babe.â
âThanks, guys. For everything.â You say sincerely as you open your arms.
They smile as they lean in, carefully embarrassing you in a hug.
âNo worries, babydoll. We will help you with that fucking brother you have.â
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
Hongjoong stands outside the grand gates of Clarkeâs estate, his hands clenches into fists. The cold iron bars seem more impenetrable than ever, as if they are physically barring him from your life.
He has been trying to reach you all week, but every call went to voicemail. Every text remained unanswered.
He exhales sharply and walks up to the main entrance, where one of the maids, an older woman with a neutral expression, steps forward to greet him.
âHi, Can I see YN?â He asks politely, although he already knows what answer he will receive.
The maid hesitates before giving a slight bow âIâm sorry, but Miss YN has ordered that no visitors be allowed.â
His jaw tightens âI just need five minutes, I really need to talk to her.â
The maidâs face remains unreadable, she has seen him almost every day this week and he is still firm on seeing you.
âIâm afraid I canât allow that.â
Frustration surges through him âCan you at least give her a message? Tell her Iââ
âShe will not receive messages either.â
Hongjoong runs a hand through his hair, exhaling sharply. He had expected you to be upset, but not to shut him out completely.
He wasnât giving up. Digging into his pocket, he pulls out a small, carefully wrapped box.
âFine,â He mutters âAt least, can you give her this, please?â
The maid hesitates before nodding, taking the gift from him. Without another word, she turns and disappears into the house.
Hongjoong stands there for a moment longer, hopingâprayingâthat you would change your mind and come to see him. But the doors remain closed.
With a frustrated sigh, he turns and walks away.
He is not going to give up.
⎠â
When you receive the package, you sit on the edge of your bed, staring at it in silence.
A gift.
Just like every time your parents had done something wrong, and instead of real apologies, they showered you with expensive gifts to make up for it.
Your fingers tremble slightly as you unwrap it, revealing a delicate silver necklace with a small charmâa butterfly.
It 's beautiful and thoughtful, but it isnât what you need.
Tears prick your eyes as you set the necklace down beside you, your stomach twisting with a familiar pain.
You close your eyes, swallowing down the lump in your throat.
You arenât going to let yourself be bought by him.
Not Hongjoong.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
Dann grips the strap of her bag tightly as she stands in the empty hall of the big house, her heart hammering.
Mike leans against the grand piano, his usual mask of cold confidence in place, fingers lazily tapping against the polished wood.
âI was wondering when youâd stop avoiding me,â He says casually, though thereâs a sharpness underneath.
Dann swallows âI wasnâtââ
He tilts his head, cutting her off âYou were.â His eyes narrow âAnd I donât like being ignored.â
Dann clenches her fists âWhat do you want?â
Mikeâs lips curve into something that might look like a smile to someone who didnât know better.
âWhat do you think I want? I want you to stop acting like you suddenly grew a conscience.â
Dannâs throat tightens âYN didnât deserve that. Youââ
âI what?â His voice turns ice-cold, and he pushes off the piano, stepping toward her âAre you going to tell me what a monster I am, Dann? How unfair I was to my dear little sister?â His voice drips with mockery.
Dann takes a step back. Mike watches her with something like amusement, but it doesnât reach his eyes.
âLetâs not forget our arrangement.â Dann stiffens âIn case you need reminding,â He continues smoothly, âMy parents gave your mother a job, and I'm the reason your scholarship even exists. And just as easily as I gave you all of thatâŚâ His voice lowers, full of quiet threat âI can take it all away.â
Dannâs breath catches âYou wouldnât.â
Mike raises an eyebrow âWouldnât I? You see what happened to YN. right?â
Silence stretches between them, suffocating. Dann feels like sheâs being held under water, forced to swallow the reality of her situation.
ââŚWhat do you want me to do?â She finally asks, her voice barely above a whisper.
He smiles again âThatâs more like it. Start finding more info about YN, I don't care what, but give me something to make her break completely.â Dann feels sick, she meets Mikeâs expectant gaze âFind out what you can, and make sure you tell me first.â
Dann exhales shakily, she has no choice.
At school, she feels lost, she feel like throwing up everytime she thinks of Mike and his threats. How did you handle him all these years?
Her stomach churns.
She should have expected this. She did expect this. Mike was never going to let her walk away. But after what he did to you⌠after what she helped him doâŚ
Her hands shake. She tells herself she didnât really have a choice. That it wasnât her who locked you in that room, who let that horrible scene unfold.
But wasnât it?
Wasnât she the one who fed Mike information in the first place? The one who stood by while you screamed on the other side of that door?
A lump forms in her throat, and she presses her back against the cold metal lockers, squeezing her eyes shut.
You didnât deserve that.
You, whoâdespite everythingâhave a reason to act like you do.
And now, Mike wanted her to do it all over again.
A soft laugh escapes her, bitter and humorless. She thought this deal with Seonghwa was her using him, that she was playing the game instead of being a pawn.
But the truth isâŚ
She was never going to win against people like them.
But here she is, throwing you to the wolves.
Again.
But if she doesnât her mother loses her job. Her scholarship is gone. Everything she fought forâeverything she sacrificedâwasted.
A deep, shuddering breath. Dann closes her eyes.
Iâm sorry, YN.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
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me typing out in every chapter that I hate any character that is just trying to ruin reader and hongjoongâs relationship isnât enoughâŚI need a weapon of massive destruction because what the fuck?!?
Iâm not figuratively losing my mind. I am literally losing my mind. The more I read the worst it just gets like I need them to just talk and stop saying things to make things worse when you got three different people jumping to ruin your life.
I need reader and hongjoong to talk and make up, not just kiss or avoid cause I canât. I already know that something else is gonna happen next chapter.
I enjoyed the chapter despite me losing my mind while reading it, keep up the amazing work! <3
Popular, Boy
â09: The first heartbreak.
Pairing: Nerd!Hongjoong x Popular!Reader
Genre: +18, smut, angst, slow burn, drama, dark academic, love triangle.
wc: 10k
Summary: Jealousy lingers, tension rises, and the distance grows. Words are left usnsaid, excuses pile up, emotions spiral pit of control, and one thing becomes clear...
Some things, once broken, can never be the same.
Warnings: Cursing, angst, insecurities, verbal fights, violence, Hongjoong being possessive, Seonghwa being an asshole, and Mike being Mike.
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â08 â10: The first wound. Coming soon.
Itâs been a week.
A week of Hongjoong treating you just the same. He still kisses you good morning when he sees you, still takes your hand in his like it belongs there, still calls you pretty in that soft, teasing tone that makes your stomach flutter.
And yetâ
Every time you ask him to hang out after school, he gives you the same answer.
"I can't, I'm busy."
"Not today, maybe later."
"I'll make it up to you, pretty. I promise."
Itâs starting to feel strange.
At first, you brushed it off. Hongjoong wasnât the type to reject you. Heâd always been eager to be around you, eager to do anything you wanted. But now, itâs been a whole week since youâve spent any time alone after school.
And not just youâother people have noticed it too.
"Okay, whatâs up with Hongjoong, babe?" Mindy asks as you walk down the hallway between classes.
You raise an eyebrow "What do you mean?"
Samantha gives you a look "Heâs been all over you during school, but the second you ask him to do something after, he bails. Thatâs weird."
You tense, because thatâs exactly what youâve been thinking. But hearing someone else say it?
It makes your stomach twist.
"You donât thinkâŚ" Wooyoung hesitates beside you, lowering his voice "You donât think the rumor is true, do you?"
You stop walking, slowly turn to face them.
"Thatâs ridiculous."
Sam shrugs "I mean⌠is it?"
Woo lifts his hands in surrender "Weâre just saying, babydollâif he really likes you, why does he keep avoiding you outside of school?"
Your grip on your bag tightens. Because you've been asking yourself the same thing.
If Hongjoong really just wanted to sleep with you and leave, then why does he still act like this?
Why does he still kiss you so sweetly?
Why does he still hold your hand like it means something?
Why does he still look at you like youâre the only thing that matters? And then avoid you the moment the bell rings?
You hate that this stupid rumor is getting to you. You hate that youâre even considering it.
But doubt has already settled into your chest like a cold, unwelcome weight. And you have a feeling itâs not going away anytime soon.
During lunch, you sit alone at your usual table, waiting for your friends and Hongjoong to join you after you skipped class.
The cafeteria is buzzing with noise when you feel someone slide into the seat beside you.
"You okay, sweetheart?"
You donât need to look to know who it is.
Seonghwa.
You exhale sharply, eyes still glued to your untouched lunch.
"I'm fine."
"Well, you donât look fine."
You finally turn your head to him. Heâs giving you that soft, concerned expressionâthe one that used to mean something before you learned how easily he could lie through his teeth.
"Iâm just tired, Hwa." You mutter.
Seonghwa hums, resting his chin on his palm "Is it because of Hongjoong?"
You tense "I donât know what youâre talking about."
He chuckles, low and knowing "Come on, Clarke. People are talking. Heâs all over you in school, but the moment you ask for his time, he disappears? Thatâs not normal."
You swallow the lump in your throat "Heâs just busy."
Hwa tilts his head, studying you "And you believe that?"
A sharp breath escapes you "You know what, Park? Youâre annoying as fuck."
He smirks "Maybe. But Iâm also right."
You glare at him.
"You know," He continues, picking at a fry from your tray "For a second, I thought maybe that nerd really liked you. But now? I donât know, doll. It kind of seems like he got what he wanted and dipped."
Your blood turns cold.
He leans in, voice just above a whisper "And if thatâs the case⌠I hate to say it, baby, but you got played."
You shove your tray forward, standing so abruptly your chair screeches against the floor.
"Go fuck yourself, Seonghwa."
You donât wait for his response before storming off.
But his words stick to you like poison.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The dining room is silent, except for the quiet clinking of silverware against porcelain plates. The long table is set perfectly, as alwaysâwhite candles flickering, an expensive floral centerpiece in the middle, the warm glow of the chandelier above casting soft shadows across the polished wood.
You aren't really hungry.
Your mind is elsewhere, your appetite dulled by the same thought thatâs been gnawing at you all day.
Hongjoong is avoiding you.
âIf he really likes you, why does he keep avoiding you outside of school?â
âI hate to say it, babe, but you got played.â
Wooyoungâs and Seonghwaâs words echo in your mind like a curse, sinking into every doubt you tried to suppress.
"Sweetie," Your motherâs voice snaps you out of your thoughts. You look up, blinking, to find your mother watching you carefully over her wine glass "Howâs Hongjoong?" She asks casually before taking a sip.
"He 's fine."
Your mother hums "He hasnât come over in a while. I assumed you two were spending all your time together."
You force a smile "Heâs just been busy."
At the other end of the table, Mike lets out a quiet chuckle.
Your entire body tenses, you don't have to look at him to feel the amusement radiating off of him.
"Busy?" Mike repeats, voice dripping with mockery "Thatâs an interesting choice of words."
"Whatâs that supposed to mean?"
Mike leans back in his chair, spinning his wine glass between his fingers lazily.
"I donât know. Just seems odd, doesnât it?" He glances at their mother âHongjoongâs been practically obsessed with you, and now, after finally getting what he wanted, heâs suddenly too busy?"
Your grip on her fork tightens.
Why the fuck is everyone saying the same?
Assuming that Hongjoong will leave you after getting what he wanted⌠but what did he get?
Your attention, designer clothes, your heart, sex?
What?
"Mike," Your father warns, but thereâs no real weight to it. Heâs curious, too.
Mike smirks, tilting his head as he looks at you "It makes me wonderâwas it really about you, or just about what you could give him?"
Your chest tightens. You hate that his words hit a nerve because you agreed to help Hongjoong become popular.
You told him youâd make him into someone that people would admire, someone who belonged at the top.
But nowâthings were different.
Hongjoong wasnât just someone you were molding anymore. You were starting something real.
At least⌠you thought you were.
Mike watches you carefully, his smirk widening like he can see the doubt creeping into you.
"Donât look so upset, YN. Itâs nothing personal." He takes a slow sip of wine, then adds, "Itâs just how people like him work."
You set the fork down with more force than necessary.
"People like him?"
He shrugs "Poor, desperate, climbers."
Your blood boils at the way he says it "Joong isnât like that." You snap.
Mike raises an eyebrow, clearly entertained by your reaction.
"No?" He gestures toward you "Then why hasnât he made time for you?"
You don't answer because you don't know. You want to believe that Hongjoong is just busy. That thereâs an explanation for all of this.
But with Mikeâs voice slithering into your head, twisting your insecurities like a knife, you feel something dangerous take root inside youâŚ
Doubt.
⎠â
The night air is crisp when you step onto the balcony outside your room. The estateâs vast garden stretches below, bathed in moonlight, but you barely notice.
Your mind is somewhere else.
Mikeâs words still linger, pressing against your chest like a weight you canât shake off.
You pull out your phone. Your thumb hovers over Hongjoongâs chat.
You want to ask. Where have you been? Why donât you want to see me after school? But the words wonât come.
Instead, you type something simpler.
YNâĄ: Hey, are you awake?
It takes a minute before he replies.
JoongieâĄ: Yeah. Whatâs up, pretty?
You exhale. He answers your texts just as quickly as always. So why does it feel like something is wrong?
YNâĄ: I just wanted to talk with you.
A second later, your phone vibrates with an incoming call.
You hesitateâjust for a momentâbefore answering.
âHi, pretty.â Hongjoongâs voice is warm, soft. The way it always is when he talks to you.
You lean against the balcony railing, closing your eyes.
âHi.â
âWhy are you up so late?â
âI could ask you the same thing.â
He chuckles âTouchĂŠ.â
Thereâs a small pause, filled only by the sound of his breathing. Normally, youâd find it comforting. Tonight, it just makes the space between you feel bigger.
âYou sure youâre okay?â He asks.
You could ask. You should ask. But something stops you.
Because if he liesâif he feeds you some excuseâyouâre not sure you can handle it.
So instead, you say, âYeah. Just couldnât sleep.â
Hongjoong hums not convinced âWant me to tell you a bedtime story?â
You roll your eyes, but a small smile tugs at your lips âWhat are you, my personal audiobook now?â
âHey, Iâd make a great one,â He teases âYou could fall asleep to the sound of my voice every night.â
Your smile falters. He says things like this so easily. Like nothingâs wrong.
Like heâs not avoiding you.
You grip the phone tighter âJoong.â
âYes, pretty?â
You open your mouth. ThenâA distant voice echoes through the speaker. A girlâs voice.
âKim, can you help me?!â
Your heart stops, fingers tighten around the phone as you process what you just heard.
He isnât home.
He isnât alone.
Your mind spins. Itâs lateâwhy is there a girl with him this late? Where is he?
Hongjoongâs voice comes back, a little hurried âUhâyeah, give me a sec! YN?â He says, like heâs waiting for you to say something.
But you force yourself to sound normal âYou should go.â
Thereâs a pause âAre you sure?â
You swallow past the lump in your throat âYeah. Goodnight, Hongjoong.â
ââŚGoodnight, pretty.â
You hang up before you can second-guess it.
Your phone drops to your side, knuckles white as you grip it.
For the first time since the rumor started, you feel something snap inside you.
And this time⌠you don't know if you can ignore it.
⎠â
Hongjoong puts his phone beside him, exhaling as he leans against the counter. His conversation with you lingers in his mind, the edge in your voice making his stomach twist. He hates lying to you.
But what other choice does he have?
As he grabs a clean glass, Jina, his coworker, walks up to the counter, wiping down a tray. Her long brown hair is tied back in a loose ponytail, her uniform slightly adjusted to fit her style.
She glances over at him, eyes flicking to his phone resting on the counter.
For a brief moment, she pauses. Then, she leans in a little closer, noticing the wallpaper on his phoneâan image of a gorgeous girl. This girl looks effortlessly perfect, radiating confidence and beauty, the kind of girl who seems out of place in Hongjoong's world.
Hongjoongâs worn-out, baggy clothes, glasses and his simple, grounded life don't compare to the polished, glamorous figure staring back from his screen.
Jina raises an eyebrow, has she seen that girl before or is she mistaking her for someone else?
She shrugs, a knowing smirk tugging at her lips "Who's that?" She asks casually, her voice light, but there's a hint of curiosity.
Hongjoong tenses slightly, not expecting her to notice and not wanting to share his private life.
âShe 's YN.â
Jina tilts her head slightly, the smirk on her lips not fading.
"YN, huh?" She repeats, swirling the rag in her hands before tossing it onto the tray "Didnât take you for the type to go for a girl like that."
Hongjoong frowns, glancing at her "Like what?"
She shrugs, turning to grab a fresh glass from the shelf, her movements slow, deliberate.
"You knowâŚ" Her voice is laced with something unreadable, something almost amused. "The kind of girl who looks like she belongs in a magazine. All dolled up, walking like the world owes her something. The kind of girl whoâ" She pauses, tapping her nails against the glass before giving him a quick, sideways glance "âdoesnât usually go for guys like you."
His jaw clenches. He shouldnât let it get to him, but the way she says it, like itâs a fact written in stone, makes his chest tighten.
"You donât know her."
Jina hums, as if considering that, before flashing him a small, knowing smile
"Maybe. But I know her type."
Hongjoong doesnât answer. He doesnât trust himself too. Because deep down, buried under everything, isnât that the same doubt thatâs been creeping into his own thoughts?
That you are too good, too untouchable, too far from his reality?
Hongjoong frowns, not liking her tone âSheâs not like that.â
Jina laughs under her breath, shaking her head âCome on, Kim. Girls like her donât go for guys like you unless theyâre bored.â
His grip on the glass tightens, a flicker of irritation sparking in his chest.
âAgain, you donât know her.â
âMaybe not,â Jina says again, feigning innocence as she picks up another tray, wiping it down slowly âBut I do know how girls like that work. They play with people, keep them around as long as itâs entertaining, then drop them the second they get tired. Itâs all just a game to them.â
Hongjoong exhales sharply, shaking his head âYN isnât like that,â He insists, but thereâs a tightness in his throat, a sliver of doubt trying to creep in.
Jina shrugs, unbothered âIs your girlfriend or why are you defending her so much?â She asks, a teasing lilt in her voice.
Hongjoong hesitates before answering "Not exactly," He admits, trying to keep it vague. "We're... something."
She snorts softly, setting the tray down with a thud "Something? Sounds complicated."
He shrugs, pretending not to care "It's not."
Jina steps a little closer, leaning her hip against the counter beside him.
"Let me guess," She says, crossing her arms and eyeing him carefully "She likes the idea of you, but not the reality of you. You know, the type that wants the thrill of the ânerd having a crush over a pretty girlâ fantasy but would never actually stick around once the excitement fades."
Hongjoong's frown deepens, his grip tightening slightly on the glass.
"That's not true, Jina." He says, his voice firm, but there's a subtle crack in his confidence.
Jina chuckles softly, looking back at the wallpaper one more time.
"I don't know," She says, tapping her finger against the counter "But from the looks of it, seems like the kind of girl who wouldnât stick around for long. And guys like you, working here every day, still stuck in the same routine while sheâs off in her perfect little world... Doesn't exactly scream 'serious relationship,' does it?"
His jaw tightens, the sting of her words settling deep inside him.
"It's not like that."
"Mmm." She hums again, unconvinced "Whatever you say, Kim. But if I were you, I'd be careful. Girls like YN? They love the idea of being with someone differentâuntil they donât. And when theyâre done playing? They move on like you never existed."
Hongjoong swallows hard, trying to push down the creeping doubt. He doesn't believe that about you. He knows you care about him. But the nagging thought, planted by Jina's words, continues to worm its way into his mind.
Noticing his silence, Jina gives him one last look, her eyes flicking back to his phone screen.
"Well," She adds with a knowing smile "It looks like she's the kind of girl who's way out of your league. The relationship between a girl like her and a guy like youâit's almost a joke."
Hongjoong feels a flush of heat rise to his cheeks, but he quickly forces a chuckle, pretending her words don't affect him.
"You don't even know her." He mutters, trying to deflect.
Jina just shrugs with a smirk "I don't need to know her. I can tell for the way she looks." She tosses the cloth she was holding onto the counter and stretches, clearly pleased with herself.
"Anyway, you should let me know if you ever get tired of being her little experiment."
But thereâs something knowing in her eyes, something unreadable in her smirk as she steps away, leaving Hongjoong alone with his thoughts.
And for the first time in a long time, he feels unsettled.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The school hallways buzz with energy, students laughing, gossiping, moving in clusters between classes. Hongjoong walks through the crowd, hands shoved into his pockets, his backpack hanging off one shoulder.
Heâs exhaustedâhis body still adjusting to the extra hours at work, the sleepless nights, the weight of hiding it all from you.
But then, he sees you. And his exhaustion is momentarily forgotten.
Youâre leaning against your locker, laughing, your head tilted slightly back. The kind of laugh that makes your eyes shine, the kind that used to be reserved for only him. But itâs not him making you laugh.
It 's Park Seonghwa.
Heâs standing closeâtoo close. One hand resting on the locker beside your head, his body angled toward you with that effortless confidence, like he knows he belongs there.
He says something, and you roll your eyes, but thereâs a smirk on your lips, the kind that invites more teasing.
Hongjoong watches as Seonghwa reaches out, fingers brushing a loose strand of hair behind your ear. The touch lingers, casual yet intimate.
Familiar.
His stomach tightens. Jinaâs voice echoes in his mind: âThe kind of girl who doesnât usually go for guys like you.â
He clenches his fists.
This isnât new. This is how things were beforeâbefore he became anything more than the nerd who followed you around like a lost puppy. Before he touched you, kissed you, had you beneath him, whispering his name like he was your whole world.
But looking at you now, he wonders if anything really changed.
Seonghwa grins, tilting his head as he murmurs something in your ear, his lips dangerously close to your skin. You swat his arm, laughing again, but you donât push him away.
Hongjoong swallows hard, his throat dry.
Maybe Jina is right.
Maybe you are too good for him.
Maybe youâre just playing with himâlike Seonghwa, like everyone else in your world does.
He forces himself to look away, to keep walking, to pretend he doesnât care. But the doubt, the insecurity, the awful, twisting feeling in his chestâit stays.
He should walk away.
He should ignore the way Seonghwa leans into you, the way his hand casually lingers on your waist like it belongs there, the way you smirk at whatever teasing remark he just made.
But he canât.
Because itâs you.
And youâre his now.
So instead of walking away, Hongjoong turns on his heel and heads straight for you.
Hwa notices him first. His smirk widens, eyes gleaming with something almost amused. He doesnât move, doesnât put any distance between you and him.
If anything, he shifts, just slightlyâmaking sure Hongjoong sees exactly how close he is to you.
Hongjoongâs clenches his jaw âHey, pretty.â His voice is casual, but thereâs a possessive edge beneath it.
He slips his arm around your waist, pulling you into his side. Itâs a bold moveâone he wouldnât have dared to make beforeâbut now?
Now, he needs to make sure Park Seonnghwa knows.
Your eyes widen in surprise, but you donât pull away. Instead, a slow smile tugs at your lips as you glance up at him.
âHey, Joong.â
Hongjoong presses a quick kiss to your temple, locking eyes with Seonghwa as he does it.
Hwa raises an eyebrow, clearly entertained âWell, well. Someoneâs feeling brave today.â
You sigh, placing a hand on Hongjoongâs chest before this turns into something annoying.
âStop it, Hwa.â
âWhat? Iâm just saying.â Seonghwa tilts his head, pretending to examine Hongjoong âDidnât know you had it in you, nerd. Guess I underestimated you.â
Hongjoong keeps his expression blank, but his grip on you tightens.
âGuess you did.â
For a moment, the tension lingersâSeonghwaâs smirk unwavering, Hongjoong standing his ground, you caught between the two of them.
And then Seonghwa just laughs. He claps Hongjoongâs shoulder like theyâre best friends.
âRelax, man. Iâm just messing with you.â He glances at you, his grin turning softer, more genuine âSheâs all yours⌠for now.â
Hongjoong stiffens at the last part, but before he can say anything, Seonghwa winks at you and strolls away, hands in his pockets like he owns the damn hallway.
You sigh âYouâre so easy to tease, babe.â
He ignores that âYou let him touch you too much.â
You smirk âAre you jealous, Joongie?â
He scoffs, pulling you closer âI donât like when other guys act like that with you.â
Your heart skips a beat.
Fuck.
Before you can respond, a movement catches Hongjoongâs eye. Across the hallway, standing by the lockers, Dann watches.
She looks away quickly, but not before he catches the sadness flickering across her face. Sheâs not smirking, not plotting, not whispering to anyone. Just standing there, staring at him like sheâs watching something slip away.
Hongjoong swallows hard, guilt stirring in his chest.
But then you pull him back to you, your fingers playing with the collar of his blazer like itâs the most natural thing in the world, and just like thatâhe forgets all about Dann.
He watches as you tilt your head up, a teasing smile playing on your lips.
âAre you jealous, Joongie?â
He should deny it. Act unbothered. Pretend Seonghwaâs hands on you didnât make his blood boil.
But he doesnât.
Instead, he tightens his grip on your waist and leans in so his lips are just a breath away from yours.
âYouâre mine, pretty.â He murmurs.
And thenâhe kisses you.
Itâs not rushed or desperate, but thereâs something firm about it, something that makes it clear to everyone watching that this isnât just a game to him.
That you arenât just some passing thrill like the stupid rumor says.
You hum against his lips, smiling as you kiss him back, your arms looping lazily around his neck.
And across the hallway, Dann watches.
Watches as you melt into him.
Watches as Hongjoongâher Joong, the one who used to only care about being popular, about her opinion, about their stupid, nerdy friendshipâacts like nothing else matters except you.
Her hands curl into fists. She doesnât realize sheâs holding her breath until the kiss ends and you laugh, pushing Hongjoong away playfully.
Thatâs when she looks down.
Thatâs when she finally walks away.
⎠â
Later, at lunch. You poke at your salad, not really eating, watching Hongjoong as he scrolls through his phone between bites.
You should be enjoying this.
A week ago, you wouldnât have even imagined having him beside you like thisâsitting so close, stealing bites from your plate, his knee brushing against yours under the table.
But something feels⌠off.
Because youâre always with himâexcept when it matters.
You exhale, setting your fork down âWanna do something after school?â
Hongjoong barely looks up âCanât.â
You frown âAgain?â
âIâll make it up to you, pretty,â He says, flashing that sweet, nerdy smile that used to make you melt âPromise.â
You roll your eyes, unimpressed âThatâs what you said yesterday.â
Hongjoong falters âIââ
âAnd the day before that, and last week.â You add, tilting your head.
He swallows, clearly guilty, but still, he doesnât explain.
Just like always.
You huff, pushing your tray aside âForget it.â
And this time, he doesnât have a response.
Because you both knowâthis isnât just about today.
This is becoming a routine.
And youâre starting to hate it.
⎠â
That afternoon your house is rarely quiet.
Too quiet.
Itâs late, and youâre curled up on the living room couch, a book in your handsâone Hongjoong recommended to you weeks ago. You never planned on reading it, but now that heâs been too busy to spend time with you, you find yourself clinging to the little things that remind you of him.
Mike is here too, sitting in one of the armchairs across from you, flipping through a book of his own. For a moment, thereâs peace and not the constant bickeringâjust the soft rustle of pages turning.
Then, it shatters.
"Darling."
Your fatherâs sharp voice cuts through the air. You tense, lowering the book just as he strides into the room, his phone in hand. Thereâs something about the way he looks at youâcold, expectant, already disappointedâthat makes your stomach tighten.
"You mind explaining this?" He holds up his phone "I just received a notification that you spent five hundred thousand dollars this month, again."
Your grip on the book tightens. Your heart pounds, but your face remains unreadable. You already know what this is about.
The money you sent to someone.
But you canât tell him that.
So, you lie. Easily. Effortlessly.
"Clothes," You say, flipping a page in your book like this conversation is beneath you "I bought some pretty things."
Your father exhales sharply, his irritation evident. "YNâ"
"I am YN Clarke, am I not?" You interrupt, looking up at him with a slow, sharp smile "It would be a disgrace if I didn't spend money like one."
Your father clenches his jaw "And I'm not complaining about you spending money, just try to use it for other purposes instead of buying clothes, you already have so many, Darling andâ"
"Do I have to ask permission to spend it now?" You cut in, voice smooth but icy.
Your father glares at you. Then exhales, shaking his head like youâre hopeless. Like youâre not even worth the effort.
"You act just like your mother," He mutters under his breath.
And thenâ
Laughter.
Slow, cruel, mocking.
Mike leans against the couch, watching with amusement.
"Thatâs an insult to Mother," He says, a smirk curling his lips "At least she knows when to keep her mouth shut."
Your blood runs cold.
âMike.â Your father warns him.
You can feel Mikeâs eyes on you, waiting for a reaction.
But you wonât give him one.
Not now. Not ever.
So you lean back, pick up your book again, and turn the page like nothing ever happened.
But inside?
Inside, you are burning.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
You stare at your phone, fingers gripping it tightly.
No message. No call. Nothing.
Hongjoong hadn't shown up at school. Again.
The first time, he had at least texted you. But today? Silence.
You tried to ignore it. Pretend it didnât bother you. But as the hours dragged on and your messages remained unread, irritation started brewing into something heavierâsomething that felt a lot like doubt.
By the time school ended, you had already made up your mind.
You got into your car and drove straight to his house.
Hongjoong was still asleep when the loud, persistent knocking dragged him out of unconsciousness.
He groans, rubbing his eyes as he reaches for his phoneâonly to realize itâs dead. The knocking comes again, more insistent this time.
Dragging himself out of bed, still half-dazed, he stumbles toward the door and cracks it open.
Then, he freezes.
You stand there, arms crossed, looking every bit like a queen ready to tear someone apart.
âPretty?â His voice is groggy, confused.
You push past him into the house without waiting for an invitation.
âSo you are alive,â You say flatly, glancing around the dimly lit room before turning to face him âGreat. Now tell me why the hell you didnât show up at school or bother to text me.â
Hongjoong runs a hand through his messy hair, still processing everything.
âMy phone died,â He mutters âIâ I was just really tired. I didnât mean toââ
You scoff, cutting him off âTired? Thatâs your excuse?â
He blinks âI mean⌠yeah?â
You let out a sharp laugh âRight. You were so tired that you just forgot I existed?â
His frown deepens âYN, itâs not like thatââ
âThen what is it like?â You snap, stepping closer âBecause lately, all you do is act sweet one second and avoid me the next.â
Hongjoong exhales, already feeling the weight of this conversation pressing down on him.
âIâm not avoiding you.â
You arch a brow âThen why havenât we hung out in weeks? Why do you always say no when I ask you to do something? And why didnât you at least tell me you werenât coming to school today?â
Hongjoong clenches his jaw. He knows you are right. But the truthâthe fact that he is drowning under stress, exhaustion, and the pressure of keeping his job a secretâfeels too heavy to explain.
âI just have⌠a lot going on.â He mutters.
You fold your arms tighter âOh, so you do have time for something. Just not for me.â
âThatâs not fair, prettyâŚâ He says, frustration creeping into his tone.
âIsnât it?â Your voice is sharper now, hurt lacing every word âBecause from where Iâm standing, it sure as hell looks like I was just some game to you.â
Hongjoongâs breath hitches âWhat?â
âWas that the plan all along? Get close to me, let me make you popular, and then just⌠pull away once you get what you wanted?â
His stomach twists âYou donât actually believe that rumor.â
âThen tell me what Iâm supposed to believe, Hongjoong! Because I stood up for you. I risked my reputation for you. And now, when I finally feel like we are something, you start acting like this!â
He inhales sharply, his patience thinning âYN, not everything is about you!â
Silence.
The second the words left his mouth, he regretted them.
Your expression barely changes, but he sees the way your fingers twitch, the way your lips pressed togetherâlike you had just been slapped.
You let out a bitter laugh âRight.â
Hongjoong steps forward âI didnât mean it like that, pretty. I justââ
âNo, youâre right,â You cut him off, voice eerily calm âItâs not about me. Because if it were, youâd actually trust me enough to tell me whatâs going on instead of shutting me out.â
He opened his mouth, but no words came.
Because you are right.
You shake your head, taking a step back âYou know what? Forget it. Iâm done begging for your time.â
Hongjoong panics, reaching for your wrist âPretty, waitââ
You yank your arm away âDonât.â
And for the first time, you are the one walking away. You donât slam the door when you leave, you donât need to.
The silence you leave behind is loud enough.
When you close your car door, you grab your cell phone and open the group chat with your close friends.
YN: Let's go to our club.
YN: Take whoever you want.
⎠â
The music pulses through the club, a deep, rhythmic beat that vibrates through your bones. Neon lights flash in erratic patterns, casting the room in a kaleidoscope of colors.
You tilt your head back, allowing the intoxicating energy of the night to drown out the anger and frustration that had been eating at you all day.
Screw Hongjoong. Screw everything.
You sip your drink, the alcohol warming your throat as you lean against the plush VIP lounge. Wooyoung had come through, bringing some of his friends, including Seonghwa, who sits comfortably beside you, his usual smirk firmly in place.
âYou look like you need this, babydoll.â Wooyoung says, nudging your side with a grin âForget about that idiot for a night.â
You exhale sharply, taking another sip before raising your glass in mock celebration.
âHereâs to forgetting.â
The night wore on, and the drinks kept flowing. At some point, someone passed around a joint of weed, and without thinking, you took a hit of weed.
The world softened around the edges, the beats of the music sinking deeper into your bloodstream. You laughed, tilting your head back, your body loose, your worries fading.
Seonghwa watches you carefully from the corner of his eye, sipping his drink with calculated patience.
Then, as you giggle and lean into Wooyoungâs shoulder, eyes half-lidded, he pulls out his phone. With the quick flick of his fingers, he captured a short videoâYou laughing, pupils blown, and the telltale smoke curling from your lips. The joint is very visible to guess what it is about.
Perfect.
Discreetly, he sent the video to Dann, along with a simple message.
P.S: Show this to Mike. Heâll know what to do.
Sliding his phone back into his pocket, Hwa sat back, watching as you swayed to the music, blissfully unaware of the storm brewing just outside your high.
Tonight was only the beginning.
⎠â
As you stumble into the mansion, the world around you feels hazy, a lingering effect of the alcohol and whatever else you had consumed at the club. Your heels click unevenly against the polished marble floor, your head spinning slightly as you make your way up the grand staircase.
Itâs late. Very late. The entire house is silent, draped in shadows. You don't even bother being quietâyour parents never wait up for you, and the staff know better than to question your comings and goings.
But the moment you push open your bedroom door, you freeze.
A figure is already inside, lounging in the chair by the vanity, bathed in the dim glow of the bedside lamp.
Mike.
Your breath catches, stomach twisting into a knot. Heâs sitting with one leg crossed over the other, his fingers lazily rolling a heavy silver ring around his knuckles. His face is unreadable, but the air in the room is thickâtoo thick.
You swallow hard âWhat the hell are you doing in my room?â
He doesnât answer right away. Instead, he slowly lifts his phone, tilting the screen toward you. It takes a second for your vision to focus. But when it does, ice rushes through your veins.
A video. A familiar setting. The club.
You.
High out of your mind, swaying with Wooyoung and Mindy, laughing recklessly. Then the shot moves, revealing the moment you leaned back against a couch, head tipping back as you took a slow drag from a joint of weed someone had handed you.
Fuck, this is bad. Really bad.
Your pulse pounds in your ears.
Mike finally speaks, his voice deceptively calm âTell me, YN.â He tilts his head slightly, eyes dark and unreadable âDo you think our parents would be proud to see their little daughter doing this?â
Your jaw clenches, your hands curling into fists âThatâs none of your business.â
Mike exhales a soft chuckle, shaking his head âOh, but it is. Because your mess becomes my mess.â He stands, taking slow, measured steps toward you.
âYouâre already a failure for our family, and now this?â He gestures to the phone âHow do you think theyâd react if they saw their little girl ruining her reputation like this?â
You lift your chin, masking the flicker of fear in your chest.
âLike you care about my reputation.â
His smirk drops âYouâre spiraling, YN.â His voice is sharper now, colder âAll because of that pathetic little loser you latched onto. And look at you nowâcoming home looking like trash, acting like some cheap whore.â
You flinch, your nails digging into your palms âShut up.â
But Mike isnât finished. He steps closer, towering over her, his presence suffocating.
âYou think you can just do whatever you want? That you can embarrass this family without consequences?â
âI said shut the fuck up, Mike.â
He grabs your chin, forcing you to look at him âOr what?â His voice is dangerously low.
You glare at him, your body trembling with rage âOr Iâllââ
You don't get to finish.
The slap comes fast and brutal.
A sharp crack echoes through the room as your head snaps to the side. Pain explodes through your cheek, your vision blurring for a second. The metallic taste of blood fills your mouth as your lip splits open, but itâs the dull, radiating ache in your cheek that stuns you.
Your breath shudders.
The rings. His heavy rings had cut deeper this time, the force of the blow enough to bruise instantly.
For a moment, silence blankets the room. You stare at the floor, breath ragged, your entire body stiff.
Mike exhales slowly, shaking out his hand as if the hit had been a mere inconvenience.
âMaybe thatâll knock some sense into you.â
You donât move. Donât speak. Don't let him see how much it hurts.
Because if you do, he wins.
After a moment, Mike scoffs âFix yourself up.â He turns, walking toward the door âAnd stay in line, YN. Youâre a fucking Clarke.â
With that, he leaves.
The door clicks shut.
Only then you allow yourself to breathe.
A shaky inhale. A trembling exhale.
Your fingers reach up, touching the stinging skin of your cheek.
And thenâyou laugh.
Soft.
Hollow.
Because if you don't laugh, you might start crying.
And you refuse to cry for him.
Not anymore.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The morning sun filters through your window, casting golden streaks across your sheets. You blink groggily, your head pounding from the remnants of last night. But it isnât the hangover that makes you hesitate to move.
It 's the pain.
Your cheek throbs, the bruise deepening overnight. The gash on your lip is dry, cracked, and stings when you shift your mouth even slightly.
For a moment, you just lie there, staring at the ceiling.
You should stay in bed. Hide. Avoid everyone.
But you have an important exam today.
With a slow, careful movement, you push yourself up and drag yourself to the vanity. The moment you see your reflection, your stomach twists.
The bruise has settled into an ugly shade of deep purple and blue along your cheekbone, and the cut on your lip is impossible to ignore.
You swallow, your fingers tighten into fists before you reach for your makeup.
You layer on foundation, pressing it into the bruised skin despite the pain. But no matter how much you apply, the discoloration peeks through.
Frustrated, you grab a small adhesive bandage and place it over the worst part of your cheek, disguising it as a minor scrape. Your lip, however, is trickier. You settle for a dark shade of lipstickâanything to draw attention away from the damage.
Dressed immaculately as always, you grab your bag, sunglasses and head for the door.
Skipping breakfast is easy. Avoiding your parents? Even easier.
No one stops you as you leave.
The moment you step onto campus, all eyes are on you.
You walk with usual confidence, head high, stride controlled. But you can feel itâthe way whispers ripple through the hall as students glance at the bandage on your cheek even under the sunglasses, at the way you don't quite meet anyoneâs eyes.
Your friends rush to you the second you reach your locker.
"Babe, what the hell happened?" Mindy is the first to speak, her eyes wide with concern.
"Doll, did you get into a fight or something?" Another friend chimes in.
You force a small chuckle, flipping your hair over your shoulder.
"Relax, it's nothing. I tripped on the stairs at home. Hit my face on the railing like an idiot."
Some of them seem to accept it.
But Mindy doesnât.
Her sharp eyes flick over your face, lingering on the bruise beneath the makeup, the tightness in her expression.
You know that look. Mindy isnât buying it.
Still, she doesnât pressânot here, not in front of the others.
"Well, whoever built your staircase should be sued," Mindy jokes, trying to lighten the mood.
You force another laugh "Right? I shouldâve gotten a warning sign."
The conversation moves on, shifting to gossip, plans for the weekend, anything but you. But Mindy stays close, watching you.
And from across the hallâso does Hongjoong.
He hadnât expected to see you today after yesterday.
After your fight.
After you left, looking at him like he had broken something between them.
But here you are. And something is wrong.
Even from a distance, he can tell.
Youâre quieter, your movements more controlled than usual, like youâre holding something in. And the moment he notices the bandage on your cheek, his stomach twists.
What happened to you?
Was it because of yesterdayâs fight?
Did someoneâ
His jaw clenches, his fingers curling into fists.
He wants to go to you. Ask. Demand answers. But after everything that happened, after the things they said to each other, he hesitates.
Heâs the last person you want to see right now.
So he stays where he is, watching as you disappear down the hall with your friends. Watching, and worrying.
During lunch, the room is buzzing with its usual chaotic energy, the clatter of trays and chatter filling the air. You sit at the far end of the table, Mindy by your side, but she can tell youâre not really there.
Your eyes stay trained on the empty space in front of you, your fork poking listlessly at the food.
Mindy is the one to notice him first. Hongjoong stands a few feet away, looking like he's about to approach, but frozen by the tension in the air. He shifts from foot to foot, glancing between you and your friend, obviously unsure of what to do.
Your gaze flicks to him, but you quickly look away, jaw tightening. Youâre not in the mood for this, not today.
Hongjoong takes a few tentative steps forward "Hey," He starts, his voice almost too soft, like heâs testing the waters "I... I just wanted to say I'm sorry for what happened yesterday."
You don't meet his eyes. Instead, you pick at your food, pretending to be absorbed in it, but the tension around you is palpable.
He steps closer, a mix of concern and regret pulling at his features "I didnât mean to hurt you. Whatever I said... I didnât mean it." His voice cracks slightly on the last word, the guilt obvious "I justâ"
"You donât get it, do you?" You cut him off, voice sharp, though it trembles at the edges. Your hands fist into the napkin on your lap "You can apologize all you want, but nothing will change and you know it."
Your eyes flick to him, but itâs fleeting. You canât bring yourself to look at him for long.
Mindy watches the exchange with a raised brow, her own discomfort starting to show. She leans in.
"Maybe we should just go...?"
Before Hongjoong can respond, you stand up abruptly, pushing the chair back with a sharp scrape.
"Get lost, nerd." You mutter, voice quiet but resolute.
Without another word, you grab your bag and start walking toward the door. Mindy follows closely behind, glancing at him with a small shake of her head, a silent apology.
Hongjoong watches them leave, his heart sinking. His fingers curl into fists, frustration and confusion surging through him. But you are already out of reach, disappearing down the hallway toward the bathroom.
The bathroom door swings shut behind them with a soft thud, and you lean against the sink, hands gripping the edge. Mindy follows you in, glancing around briefly before her eyes settle on you.
"Okay, babe. Spill it," Mindy demands, arms crossed "What the hell happened between you two?â
You sigh, a deep exhale that feels like it comes from the very core of you. You look at her reflection in the mirror.
"We had a fight yesterday." You pause, fingers running over the bandage on your cheek "Iâm tired of this routine.."
Mindy raises an eyebrow "I thought you were already dating.â
You press your lips together, your gaze flicking to the floor "Weâre not⌠at least not yet.â
Mindy softens, her arms uncrossing as she approaches you "Babeâ"
âDon't want to talk about it.â You cut her off as you search for your lipstick in your purse.
Mindy chews on her lip for a moment before nodding, though the uncertainty in her expression doesnât fade.
"Okay, then let me remind you that youâre a terrible liar, babe.â She changes the topic and internally you appreciate it.
You roll your eyes, fixing your lipstick in the mirror âExcuse me?â
Mindy folds her arms âThe stairs, YN? Really?â
Fuck, you thought she wouldnât say anything about it.
You click your lipstick shut âItâs the truth.â
âBullshit. I know you more than anyone.â Mindy steps closer, voice lower, serious âTell me what really happened.â
You hesitate. Just for a second.
But you canât tell her, so you do what you do best.
You smirk, tossing your lipstick into your bag âWhy are you so dramatic, babe? I told you, I tripped.â
Mindy doesnât look away âWas it Mike?â
Just for a second. You freeze.
But Mindy catches it, and for the first time, you feel something dangerous creeping up your throat. Not anger. Not annoyance.
Something far worse.
Something close to tears.
So you swallow it down, just like you always do.
You smile, perfect and unbothered âOf course not.â
And you walk out before Mindy can say another word.
⎠â
The rest of the day is a blur. You move through the halls like a ghost, your usual presence dimmed. People notice, but no one dares to question you beyond whispers.
By the time the final bell rings, you feel exhaustedânot just physically, but mentally. You don't want to go home. Donât want to face Mike. Donât want to face your parents and worry them with your wounds.
So, instead, you linger.
You head to the rooftop, where few people ever go at this hour. The cool breeze feels good against your burning skin, and for a moment, you close your eyes, letting yourself breathe.
But you aren't alone for long.
Footsteps.
Slow. Measured.
You know who it is before you even turn around.
Seonghwa.
Of course.
âSkipping your driver today?â He teases, coming to stand beside you.
You don't respond. You just watch the sky, waiting for him to leave.
But he doesnât. Instead, he studies youâthe bandage, the quietness.
âYou look like shit.â
âCharming,â You mutter.
Hwa leans against the railing, crossing his arms âWhat happened?â
âTripped.â
âTry again.â
You glare at him âNot in the mood, Seonghwa.â
He hums, unconvinced âIâll take a wild guess. Mike?â
Your grip tightens on the railing.
Seonghwa watches, eyes sharp âYou know, if you need helpââ
âI donât.â
A beat of silence.
âFine.â Hwa sighs dramatically âBut at least make it worth my time. If youâre going to suffer, at least be entertaining about it.â
You scoff, shaking your head âYouâre sick.â
âYou love it.â
For a second, they stand there, neither speaking.
Then Seonghwa says âCome out with us tonight.â
You look at him.
You consider saying no. You should say no. But the idea of drinking, forgettingâeven for a few hoursâis too tempting.
So you nod.
And Seonghwa grins âGood girl.â
⎠â
Wooyoung is not in the mood for this conversation.
He's sitting in the cafeteria, scrolling through his phone, pretending heâs not listening to Seonghwa ramble beside him.
The tension in their circle has been suffocating ever since the rumor and little Hongjoong avoiding youâhe knows everyone feels it.
And now, of course, Seonghwa is trying to stir the pot.
Woo sighs, setting his phone down "No."
Hwa blinks, then lets out a short laugh, like Wooyoung just said something ridiculous.
"No?"
"Yeah. No," Wooyoung repeats, leaning back in his seat "Why the hell would I invite Hongjoong?"
Park smirks "Because itâll be fun."
"It wonât be fun for YN."
"And?" Hwa tilts his head, as if that is irrelevant "Come on, Wooyoung. Theyâre not even fighting, theyâre justâwhatâs the word? Avoiding each other. So letâs fix it."
Woo gives him a dry look "Since when do you fix things?"
Seonghwa grins "Since it benefits me."
Wooyoung knows this is a bad idea. He knows it in his bones. You are already in a bad place, and dragging Hongjoong into a clubâwith Seonghwa there? Thatâs just asking for more drama.
And yet, Seonghwa is persistent.
"Think about it," Hwa says, lazily stirring his drink with a straw "The nerd has been acting weird, hasnât he? The whole disappearing act after school? The tension with YN?" He pauses, letting it sink in before adding, "A night out could be very interesting."
Woo exhales through his nose, resisting the urge to roll his eyes.
"Hongjoong doesnât even go to clubs," Wooyoung argues.
Hwa shrugs "Thatâs what youâre for."
Woo groans. He rubs his temple, already regretting everything.
"You owe me one," Seonghwa reminds him, a smug smile tugging at his lips.
Wooyoung swears under his breath "Fine, but if YN gets pissed, you're taking the blame."
Seonghwa just laughs, slapping his back "Relax, Jung. Whatâs the worst that could happen?"
Wooyoung gives him a flat look, and Seonghwa just winks.
And that is how you know shit is about to go down.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The club is already packed when they arrive.
Music pulses through the air, bass shaking the floor beneath their feet. Neon lights flash overhead, bathing the crowd in shifting shades of red, blue, and violet.
The smell of alcohol, perfume, and sweat lingers in the air, a dizzying mix that makes everything feel a little more reckless.
You step inside first, dressed to kill. Your usual effortless confidence is back in full force, like armor you wear to keep the world at bay. You ignore the way people turn to stareâsome in admiration, some in jealousy.
Tonight, you don't want to think about Mike.
You don't want to think about the bruises hidden under your makeup.
You don't want to think about Hongjoong.
You just want to forget.
And for the first few minutes, you do.
Your friends pull you onto the dance floor, and for a while, everything is a blur of movement, music, and laughter. San and Mingi keep close, making sure you don't get too lost in the chaos, but actually you don't mind.
Then Seonghwa shows up at your side, sliding an arm around your waist.
âYou look dangerous tonight, baby.â He murmurs into her ear, voice rich with amusement.
You smirk, tossing your hair over your shoulder âAlways.â
Hwaâs lips curl into a knowing grin âThen letâs dance.â
Meanwhile Hongjoong hadn't planned to be here. He had ignored Wooyoung's first few messages inviting him out, but when he found out that you were going, something inside him told him to show up.
And now, standing near the bar, his jaw clenched as he watches you, he realizes how much of a mistake this was. He is there, regretting his life choices.
He knew he shouldnât have come.
The second he stepped into the club, he felt like an outsiderâlike he didnât belong in this world. The music is too loud, the lights too disorienting. Heâs never liked clubs. Never liked the forced energy of it all.
But here he is.
And the reason for that is standing in the middle of the dance floor, looking like a fucking dream.
You.
His stomach tightens at the sight of youâhis girl, glowing under the flashing lights, swaying to the music like you were made for it. But youâre not alone.
Park Seonghwa is with you.
And heâs touching you.
Hongjoongâs jaw clenches.
You donât push him away, you donât even seem bothered by it. Instead, you tilt your head back, laughing at something Seonghwa says, eyes half-lidded, lips parted just enough to make something ugly coil in Hongjoongâs chest.
He doesnât know what the hell heâs feeling, but itâs not good.
Something dark. Something possessive.
He forces himself to look away, gripping the drink Mindy shoved into his hand. He takes a sip, barely registering the taste.
"Didnât think this was your scene, Joong." Mindy remarks, appearing beside him.
Hongjoong exhales slowly, forcing himself to relax "Itâs not."
Samantha hums "Then why are you here?"
He doesnât answer, but they know why.
And that is when shit gets worse.
Because Seonghwa, the bastard that he is, suddenly turns his head, meeting Hongjoongâs gaze across the club.
And he smirks. A slow, taunting smirk.
Then, keeping his eyes on Hongjoong, Hwa leans in closer to you, whispering something in your ear. His hand slides down your back, fingers teasing the hem of your mini dress.
Hongjoongâs grip tightens around his glass.
Heâs going to fucking kill him.
⎠â
You aren't drunkânot yetâbut thereâs a pleasant warmth buzzing in your veins, making it easier to laugh at Seonghwaâs jokes, to let his hand rest on your waist, to let yourself forget about the weight in your chest.
Because when you drink, you don't think.
And right now, you don't want to think about Hongjoong.
But apparently, the universe has other plans.
Because when you tilt your head back to sip your drink, your eyes flicker across the crowdâ
And there he is. Standing a few feet away, stiff as a board, his jaw clenched so tight you can see the tension from here.
And worseâheâs staring right at you.
What is he doing here?
You exhale sharply, dragging a hand through your hair, trying to push down the irritation bubbling up. But before you can even decide what to do, Hongjoong is already moving.
Straight towards you.
Seonghwa notices first, of course. His lips curl into a slow smirk, clearly enjoying this, because he lives for chaos.
âAh, the nerd finally made it,â He muses, taking a lazy sip of his drink âTook you long enough.â
You tense as Hongjoong stops in front of you, his expression unreadable. But his eyesâhis eyes are dark, stormy, swirling with something you canât quite name.
âGet your hands off her.â
His voice isnât loud, but it cuts through the music, the air between them suddenly thick with tension.
You blink... The fuck?
Seonghwa chuckles, clearly amused, but he doesnât move his hand from your waist.
âRelax, man. Weâre just talking.â
âThatâs not what it looks like.â Hongjoongâs fists curl at his sides, and his voice drops lower âI said, get your hands off her.â
The possessiveness in his tone sends a shiver down your spineâbecause Hongjoong has never spoken like this before. Never had this sharp edge to him.
Hwa tilts his head, looking far too entertained âAnd if I donât?â
You groan, already tired of this âBoth of you, stop it.â
You push Seonghwaâs hand away yourself, stepping between them before this escalates further.
âWhat the hell is your problem, Hongjoong?â
âMy problem?â He scoffs, his frustration finally boiling over âAre you serious, YN? Youâve been all over him all night!â
You cross your arms âOh, so now you care what I do after ignoring me for weeks?â
âI havenât been ignoring you.â
You let out a sharp, humorless laugh âReally? Because every time I ask you to hang out, you have some excuse. Every single time.â
Hongjoong clenches his jaw, shifting uncomfortably. He wants to tell her the truthâabout his job, about why heâs been avoiding her after schoolâbut something holds him back.
And thenâSeonghwa just has to add fuel to the fire âMaybe he just doesnât want to spend time with you, baby.â
You stiffen, and Hongjoong snaps.
His glare cuts straight to the tallest âYou donât get to talk about us like you know anything.â
Seonghwa shrugs, smirking âI donât need to. Itâs obvious, isnât it? One minute, YNâs your whole world, and the next? Youâre running away.â He clicks his tongue âIâd be pissed too, if I were her.â
Hongjoong turns back to you, desperate now, he softly grabs your wrist.
"Come with me."
"What the hellâ"
"Now." He snaps, dragging you out of the packed dance floor and into a dimly lit hallway near the bathrooms.
You yank your arm away once they stop "What the fuck do you think you're doing?"
âIâm not running away, Itâs not like that, pretty.â
You shake your head âThen what is it like, Kim? Because Iâm sick of feeling like I donât matter to you the second school ends.â
âYou do matter to me,â He insists, his hands twitching like he wants to reach for you, but something stops him âI justââ
âJust what?â
And thenâhe blurts it out âIâm not the one all over another guy, YN.â
The words are bitter, sharp, dripping with jealousy.
You inhale sharply, eyes widening.
Hongjoongâs chest rises and falls rapidly, his emotions a messâanger, jealousy, frustration, all tangled up.
Your lips part, but for onceâyou don't know what to say.
And for a moment, you just stand there.
Staring at each other.
Two stubborn storms on the verge of collision.
And neither of you willing to back down.
His words linger between you, and it stings in a way you weren't expecting.
Because he 's wrong.
And yet, you canât deny that Seonghwa complicates things.
âWell,â You muses, swirling the drink in your hand like this is just another game to you âIf youâre so bothered, why donât you do something about it, nerd?â
He knows you are playing with him right now, but HongjoongâHongjoong is already on edge, already fueled by emotions he doesnât know how to handle, and your words only push him further.
And before you can stop him, he does something about it.
He grabs your waist, pulling you to himânot rough, not aggressive, but firm.
Itâs possessive.
And before you can process it his lips are on yours.
Itâs not careful. Not gentle.
Itâs desperate.
Itâs frustration, jealousy, and something deeper, something neither of you have put into words yet.
And the worst part?
You melt into it.
Because for all of Hongjoongâs insecurities, for all of his awkwardness, he kisses you like he means it.
Like he needs you.
Like youâre his and his alone.
And for a brief, dizzying moment, you let yourself believe it.
When you break apart, Hongjoongâs breathing is uneven, his grip on your waist still lingering.
And thatâs when reality crashes back in.
Because this kiss doesnât fix anything.
It doesnât erase the distance between you.
Or the secrets heâs still keeping.
And the realization twists something ugly inside of you.
You push him away slightly, your frustration boiling over âI donât get you, Hongjoong,â You bite out, taking a step closer, your eyes narrowing âYou act like you care, like you want to be with me, but when it actually mattersâwhen I need you, when I want to be with youâyou push me away!â
Hongjoong opens his mouth to protest, but you cut him off, your voice rising.
âWhy donât you just admit it, huh?â You sneer. âYou fuck with me because you know Iâm popular, right? You just want thatâto be seen with the girl everyone knowsâso you can brag about it to your friends and tell them youâre the one whoâs got me.â
His expression falters, and for a moment, you think you see a flicker of guilt or disbelief in his eyes.
But you donât care.
âYou donât actually give a damn about me, do you?â You spit out âYou just want the status, the validation. Iâm just another trophy to you.â
Hongjoongâs face hardens, his hands curling into fists "YN, stop."
You let out a bitter laugh "Why? Because you donât want to hear the truth?"
He exhales sharply, running a hand through his hair, frustration clear in his expression.
"Thatâs not the truth," He says, his voice lower now, more controlled "You think I care about that? About popularity? I told you that day at the amusement park, I did it just because I want to be with you. I donât give a damn about what anyone else thinksâI just want you."
You shake your head, crossing your arms "Bullshit."
"Itâs not bullshit," Hongjoong steps closer, eyes locked onto yours "I like you, YN. I really like you. And I donât care if youâre popular or if the whole school hates youâIâd still feel the same way."
You swallow hard, but the ache in your chest doesnât go away. His words sound good.
Too good.
"If thatâs true," You murmur, looking away, "Then why do you keep avoiding me?â
Hongjoong looks pained, like he wants to tell you something but canât.
"Itâs not like that, Iâ"
"Then what is it like?" You demand, voice cracking "Because from where Iâm standing, it feels like youâre only with me when itâs convenient for you."
"I would do anything for you. Anything, YN. But you wonât even let me prove it."
You inhale sharply, feeling your resolve shake for just a second. But then you remember the countless times heâs avoided you, dodged your calls, made excuses.
And you shake your head "I donât believe you."
His face drops "YNâŚ"
"No," You cut him off, stepping back "If you really meant that, you wouldnât keep making me feel like Iâm not enough."
Hongjoong stares at you, chest rising and falling like heâs struggling to find the right words, but whatever he wants to sayâitâs too late.
Because youâre already turning around, walking away before he can break your heart even more.
He stands there, watching you disappear into the flashing lights and the haze of smoke, feeling you slip even further away.
And just a few feet away, hidden among the crowdâFrom the shadows, Seonghwa leans against the wall, watching the entire exchange with an amused smirk.
Everything is going exactly as planned.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
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Pairing: heir!Song Mingi x heir!Reader AU: non-idol | arranged marriage | enemies to lovers Genre: angst, humor, fluff in future chapters Rating: NC-17 Summary: After a life-altering car accident, Mingi is given one final shot at redemptionâreborn as a fuzzy little puppy. To earn a second chance at life, he must complete three tasks or risk being doomed to the afterlife forever. Word Count: 5.4K Warnings: angst, character d*ath, feelings of despair
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a/n: if I cried writing this chapter, ya'll are going to cry too đ
âThis morning, we bring you breaking news about the arrest of a 48-year-old woman involved in a harrowing incident connected to one of the nation's most prominent families. The woman, identified as the former nanny of the Choi Group heiress, was apprehended late last night following her mistaken discharge from Utopia Mental Health Facility.
According to investigators, the woman, whose identity is being withheld due to privacy laws, had been institutionalized after multiple previous incidents involving obsessive behavior toward the heiress and an attempted kidnapping of another six-year-old girl earlier this yearâŚâ
You sat quietly at the long wooden table in the conference room, your gaze fixed on the polished floor beneath your feet. The low hum of the news droned on in the background, the anchorsâ voices a static blur. Your bandaged arm rested on the table, the gash beneath the wrappings a painful reminder of how wrong everything had gone.
âWhat are we going to do!?â your mother paced around the room, her voice rising with every word. Your father sat silently at the head of the table, his expression unreadable. San and Jongho exchanged knowing looks, clearly expecting another one of her tirades.
âThe press wonât stop hounding us!â she exclaimed, her voice nearly cracking. âTheyâre everywhereâoutside this building, near our homeâtheyâre relentless! I mean, we canât even breathe without someone taking a picture or shouting questions!â
San leaned forward, his tone calm but firm.âKira and the firm are already doing everything they can to handle the situation. The best thing we can do now is to have Y/N lay low while the investigation continues. We need to let the lawyers and PR team do their job.â
Your mother whirled around to face him, her frustration palpable. âLay low? How exactly do you expect her to do that when her face is on every news channel right now?â
She grabbed this morningâs paper from the edge of the table and waved it in the air, the motion so aggressive it crinkled the front page. Your face stared back at you, frozen in a manufactured smile that you hated with every fiber of your being. It wasnât youâit was the version of you your family wanted the world to see.Â
You looked down at your hands, your bandaged arm resting awkwardly on the table. The memory of the attack flashed in your mind, sharp and vivid, as though it had just happened. This wasnât the kind of attention you wantedâthis wasnât the life youâd ever asked for. Yet here you were, front and center in a drama you had no control over, and it was tearing you apart from the inside out.
âWeâre already managing the narrative,â Jongho interjected.Â
âThe new cycle will shift, it always does. By this afternoon, Kim Namjoonâs official announcement for his political run will dominate headlines. Itâs a matter of hours. Security at all your properties has also been significantly tightened, as you requested.â
Your motherâs laugh was bitter, almost hysterical. âHow could security have been tightened when Y/N was still attacked in a public place!?â your mother shrieked, her voice growing shrill.
âYou were supposed to keep an eye on her, andââ
That was it. You stood up so abruptly your chair scraped against the floor, catching everyone off guard.
âIt was my fault,â you said, your voice shaking but growing stronger with every word.Â
âI asked Kira to let me go out with her because I didnât want to be locked away in the penthouse anymore. I made that decision. This is my mess, my problem, and no one elseâs. Pointing fingers wonât undo what happened, so can we stop pretending it will?â
Your mother stood frozen, her face pale, her mouth gaping like a fish gasping for air. She searched for a retort, an argument, anything to regain the upper hand, but you didnât give her the chance. Without another word you stormed out of the room, ignoring the calls from your family in your wake.
You didnât stop until you were in the corridor, far from their judgmental stares and suffocating expectations. Slowly, you slid down to the ground, your legs folding awkwardly beneath you. The tears youâd been holding back pricked at your eyes, blurring your vision as you stared blankly at the ceiling. You hated crying, especially over this, over them. But it wasnât just the argument with your mother or the media circus that broke you down.Â
It was the loneliness.Â
The crushing realization that no one in that room really saw you or understood what you were going through. To them, you were an asset, a liability, a problem to solve. Not a person.
Your fingers trembled as you fumbled for your phone. But the moment you turned it on, your breath caught in your throat. Maroâs face stared back at you from your lock screen, a photo youâd taken just weeks ago.
His tiny tongue hung from the side of his mouth, his fur slightly disheveled from spinning in circles on the couch, chasing his own tail. Youâd taken the photo in the middle of laughing so hard you could barely hold your phone steady. You could almost hear the soft jingle of his collar as he burrowed into the cushions, glancing up every now and then to make sure you were watching.
But the laughter felt like a distant memory now, replaced by the crushing weight of grief. Your free hand moved to your bandaged arm and your fingers curled over the wound instinctively. Â
You sat hunched over in the waiting room of the emergency animal hospital with your arms wrapped tightly around yourself. Every second dragged on like an eternity, Every sound made you flinch, hoping it was someone coming to tell you heâd pulled through, that heâd be okay. But as the minutes stretched into what felt like hours, your hope began to waver.
âY/N!â
You looked up to see Yeosang rushing toward you after you had called him on the way to the clinic.Â
âThey took him back to the operating room, butâbut they wouldnât let me go with him,â you whispered as he crouched down next to you.Â
âY/N, Iâm so sorry,â he squeezed your shoulder. âHeâs a fighter. Maroâs tough, and he loves you. Heâs not going to give up that easily, okay? And neither should you.â
âI donât know what Iâd do without him,â you admitted.Â
âHeâs the only one whoâs ever been there for me. Heâs a dog but through these last few months he never judged me, never made me feel like I wasnât enough. He just⌠loved me.â
âI canât lose him,â your voice cracked, and just like that, the dam broke. Tears spilled freely down your cheeks, unguarded, as your body shook with uncontrollable sobs.
âHeâs all I have, Yeosang.â
âI know,â Yeosang replied quietly. âI know, Y/N. And itâs not fair. But you canât blame yourself. You did everything you could to protect him.â
His soft exhale filled the heavy silence that followed. Yeosang understood that no words could fix this. So, he simply stayed with you, letting your anguish fill the space, offering nothing but his quiet presence as you crumbled.
The sound of a door opening made you lift your head, your heart leaping into your throat. A vet in scrubs approached you, her expression solemn, and your stomach dropped. Her words were a blur, muffled by the roar in your ears, but you didnât need to hear them to know.Â
The look in her eyes said everything.
You curled in on yourself, your sobs muffled now as you pressed your face against your knees, as if trying to hold together the pieces of your shattered heart.
You let the grief take over, let the tears fall freely, because no one was there to see. You didnât know how long you stayed there, but when the tears finally slowed, leaving you drained and empty, you lifted your head and stared blankly ahead. Â
You were so tired. Tired of carrying everything alone, tired of being left behind. But no matter how much it hurt, you knew there was no one coming to share the weight. It was just you.
No one was coming. No one ever did.
It had always been just you.
â
Mingi sat in the garden, his small paws tucked neatly under him as he watched Hongjoong tend to his flowers. The garden was a vibrant burst of life and color. Golden marigolds lined the cobblestone pathways, nestled between the soft hues of blooming roses and sprigs of lavender. The gentle garden was otherworldly, which was appropriate considering where they are.
The afterlife was serene. Quiet. Too quiet, Mingi thought, though heâd never admit it. A part of him didnât want to accept that this was how everything would end.
That this was it.
That he wouldnât have the opportunity to make amends. That he wouldnât get to see you smile again. He wouldnât get to prove to you that he was worth forgiving, worth believing in, worth something at all.
He felt like he was suspended in a world that didnât quite belong to himâa visitor overstaying his welcome.
Mingi sat atop a stack of books piled high with a cushion, his small, fluffy body perched precariously as his tail swayed lazily behind him. His ears twitched as he watched Hongjoong move around the cozy cottage.
âComfortable up there?â
Mingi let out a soft huff. âI guess.â
The table was low enough for him to rest his paws on the edge, and he did so now, leaning forward as Hongjoong placed a small dish in front of him. Inside was a portion of scrambled eggs and bits of roasted sweet potato, the steam curling up in tendrils.Â
âI think these are dog friendly foods, but since youâre in the afterlife now, I guess anything goes.â
Mingi sniffed the dish suspiciously, then gave an approving wag of his tail before diving in, the mess from the food around his snout making Hongjoong laugh.
âItâs good, right?â he teased, watching as Mingi polished off every last bite.
Mingi responded with an enthusiastic wiggle of his behind, his entire body vibrating with happiness. Once the dish was licked clean, he flopped onto his side with a contented sigh, his paws stretching out dramatically.
The fullness from the meal brought a fleeting sense of comfort. For a moment, everything felt simple, like when heâd curl up beside you after a long day and your presence putting him at ease.Â
As his tail slowed and his breathing steadied, a hollow ache settled in his chest, heavier than the satisfaction of a good meal could counter. Mingi stared at the faint glow of the afterlifeâs sky out the window.
He missed you.
The thought that he might never get to tell you how sorry he was, how much he regretted every cruel word, every moment of neglect, made his chest tighten painfully.Â
Hongjoong moved among the flowers, humming a tune under his breath as he trimmed roses and pulled at weeds. Mingiâs eyes drifted to a bouquet of marigolds lying nearby, vibrant their bold orange and yellow petals standing out against the green backdrop.
His ears perked up as he stared at the flowers, a memory of you flickering to life in his mind. He remembered the day you brought home a similar bouquet, cradling it in your arms. Youâd smiled softly with a distant look in your eyes, and then you disappeared again, taking the flowers with you. He realized now that those marigolds were for Hongjoongâs grave.
âCan you see what happens in the human world?â
Hongjoong chuckled softly, as if the question didnât surprise him in the slightest. His hands stilled over a rose bush, as he turned slightly to glance over his shoulder at Mingi.Â
âSometimes,â he admitted, his gaze drifting upward, as if he could see past the skies and into another realm entirely. âItâs different for everyone. Some people can see glimpses, others nothing at all. It depends on what they hold on to when theyâre here.â
âWhat about you?â
âI made peace with the fact that I was going to pass. Maybe a flicker here or there, but itâs never clear.â
Mingiâs paws shifted against the dirt, unease settling in his chest. That meant Hongjoong might have seen the way he treated you. Maybe not everything, but enough. Enough to know how much he hurt you in ways he could never take back.
âDo you hate me? For how I treated Y/N?â
Hongjoong didnât respond. His expression remained unreadable, but Mingi could feel the weight of his scrutiny. Of course, Hongjoong hated the way Mingi had treated you. The way he dismissed you, how he walked away when you needed him most, leaving you to fend for yourself in ways you never should have had to. He hated the thought of you standing there, waiting for someone who never looked back.
And yet, Hongjoong also pitied Mingi. Because for all of his mistakes, for all of his cruelty and neglect, Mingi had been hurting too. As the saying goes, hurt people, hurt people.
âNo, Mingi. I donât hate you.â
Mingiâs ears twitched slightly waiting for the rest of his response.
âMore than anything, I just wanted you to know what itâs like to love someone and be helpless to stop their suffering. Because thatâs how I felt whenever I had the opportunity to glimpse into the human world.â
Hongjoongâs fingers trailed along the edge of a wilting petal, plucking it free and letting it drift to the ground. âButâŚâ he murmured, his gaze flickering back to Mingi.
âWhat matters now is what you do with the time you have left.âÂ
Hongjoongâs smile turned wistful. He didnât push for a response. Instead he gave Mingi the space to lean into his own thoughts. Mingi closed his eyes, his ears drooping as the weight of his emotions threatened to overwhelm him.Â
âIâŚâ Mingi started, but his voice wavered. He swallowed thickly, lowering his gaze to the ground as though afraid to meet Hongjoongâs eyes.Â
âI donât know if Iâll ever get the chance to tell her how sorry I am. I just wanted to be good for her. To show her that I can be better. That I want to be better.â
He turned to Hongjoong, the desperation tinged in his voice. "I want her to see me as someone she can trust. Not someone who always messes things up or leaves her behind." Mingi blinked back tears as he met Hongjoongâs gaze.Â
âI miss her. I want to see her, but this time as myself.â
Hongjoong didnât reply right away. Instead, he leaned back, his gaze drifting lazily toward the sky, where soft, golden light filtered through the clouds.Â
âI donât think it's over for you yet.â
Mingiâs ears flicked slightly, his brow furrowing. "What do you mean? Iâm here, arenât I? Thereâs nothing left for me to do. Nothing I can do."
He let out a quiet hum, neither confirming nor denying Mingiâs words. Instead, he stood, brushing stray petals from his sleeves before turning toward the small stone path leading away from the garden.
âItâs getting late, what do you want to have for dinner?â
You sat curled up on the couch in the suite, your chin resting atop your knees as you stared at Mingiâs body. Your fingers traced mindless patterns against the fabric of Maroâs collar. Sleep had been a stranger these past three days. The collar was a lifeline in your trembling hands, keeping you grounded as the weight of everything around you crushed youâthe incessant calls from reporters, your familyâs worried texts, the suffocating guilt.
The attack had turned your life into a circus. All you wanted was to disappear.
This room, though sterile and suffused with antiseptic air, was the only refuge you had left. Here, in the stillness of your husbandâs hospital suite, you didnât have to pretend to be okay.
âWhat do you think dogs do in heaven?âÂ
Your gaze dropped to your hospital slippers, the thin fabric worn down from countless restless nights pacing the suite. A sad smile tugged at your lips as you shook your head and set aside the collar.Â
This was your reality now: sneaking away from the penthouse just to sit beside your comatose husband, pouring your heart out to someone who, if and when he woke up, would probably scoff and dismiss you for wasting your time on him.
âI heard they all go to heaven,â you continued, as your voice grew quieter. âAt leastâŚthatâs what the movie says.â
A lump formed in your throat, making it harder to breathe, harder to swallow the ache.
âI think they get to run forever.â
You stared down at your hands, your fingers curling into the sleeves of your sweater.
âAndâŚâÂ
Your voice wavered slightly as you struggled to find the words.Â
âAnd thereâs an endless amount of treats.â
The first tear slipped down your cheek, warm and unbidden, as if your body couldnât contain the sorrow any longer. It was the smallest thing, but in that single tear, it felt like the world was coming apart. Your shoulders shook with a quiet sob, your chest tightening as you inhaled sharply. You squeezed your eyes shut, desperate to stop the flood, but it only made it worse.
âJ-Just big o-open fields where itâs s-sunny all the time.â
And maybe it was silly, this imagining of dogs in heaven, free and happy, without the pain or heartbreak that followed you here.Â
âGod, I just feel so alone, Mingi. I had the worst fucking week of my life,â you cried into the emptiness, your hands trembling as you clutched your chest, hoping you could physically hold yourself together. Â
âIf I hadnât begged Kira to let me go to that stupid store with her, this wouldnât have happened. None of it.â
The words came out like a confession, one you hadnât been brave enough to say aloud until now.Â
âItâs all my fault. Everyone leaves me and itâs m-my fault!âÂ
Your sobs filled the room, echoing back at you like a cruel reminder that no one was there to answer. No one was there to tell you that you were wrong, that it wasnât your fault, that the universe didnât conspire against you with every loss. But the silence gave no comfort.Â
âThis is getting ridiculous.â
Unseen, Wooyoung sat perched on his bench in the courtroom, watching over you with a weary expression. His chin rested on the back of his hand, fingers idly tapping against his jaw as he observed the way your body trembled from the weight of grief.
He had seen countless souls in despair, had judged and guided those lost between life and death. But you, your suffering was different.
It was the kind of sorrow that settled into a personâs bones, an ache that would not fade with time. And as much as Wooyoung pretended he had grown numb to such things, thisâŚthis he could not ignore.
His thoughts drifted to the one soul tied to yours, the one whose fate he had carefully molded with his own hands. A certain puppy who was at the center of your suffering, both the cause of it in his human form and, ironically, the brightest light in your life now.
If Wooyoung had to guess, Mingi had made you happier than you had been in your entire life. It was a miracle, really, considering who he had been before all of this. But for all of his faults, he had taken to his new form with an earnestness Wooyoung hadnât expected. He had tried.
The judge had watched him bumble his way through this second chance, a puppy who didnât quite know what to do with himself. It had been amusing at first: the way Mingi stumbled over his own paws, the way he wagged his tail a little too eagerly, desperate for your affection.
But somewhere along the way, something shifted.
He had seen the way Mingi softened, the way he clung to you like you were his home. The way he curled against your side as if he could take away your pain and carry it for you.Â
âSong Mingi, you idiot!â Wooyoung sighed, ready to pull his hair out.Â
This wasnât supposed to be the way things ended. Mingiâs final task was to make you truly happy, to undo the damage he had done. It was the last step before he could return to his human form. But no, he had to play the hero and sacrifice himself to protect you.
He groaned, rubbing a hand over his face. He hated to admit it, but there was something admirable about it. For all his faults, for all the pain he had caused you, Mingi had finally learned how to love you the way you deserved. He had given up everythingâhis second chance, his futureâjust to make sure you were safe.
Now you were left behind, drowning in the weight of his sacrifice and Wooyoung couldnât bear to see how miserable you were.Â
With a flick of his wrist, the air around him trembled, the very foundation of his courtroom bending to his will. The air split with a sharp crack, and in the blink of an eye, the room dispersed into smoke, replaced by the glow of the fireplace.
âAlright, Song Mingi,â he muttered, propping his feet on the dining table. âItâs time to go home.â
â
âYouâre late.â
Mingi blinked, his vision still adjusting as he lifted a paw to rub at his eyes, as if that would somehow make sense of what he was seeing.
âW-Wooyoung!?â
The judge sat comfortably at the dinner table, tapping his fingers lazily against the polished wood. His presence alone was jarring and Wooyoung never just showed up. If he was here, it meant something.
âItâs rude to keep guests waiting,â Wooyoung huffed, tilting his head in exaggerated disappointment. âIâve been sitting here for ages.â
âYou didnât have a reservation,â Hongjoong deadpanned, unimpressed as he set his basket of gardening tools onto the counter. Unlike Mingi, he wasnât startled by the unexpected visit. Instead he hummed a tune and busied himself around the cottage, grabbing ingredients for dinner.Â
âHongjoong,â Wooyoung whined.
âCan it wait until after dinner?â he replied. He set a pot of water on the stove, as if the all powerful judge of the afterlife wasnât currently lounging at their dining table.
âFine!â he groaned, kicking his feet up onto the chair beside him.
His gaze flickered to Mingi again, and suddenly, his expression shifted.
âOh my god.â His voice dropped to a whisper. âI forgot how small you are!â
Mingi flinched. âWhat?â
âNo wonder Y/N was so smitten with you,â he cooed, practically vibrating with excitement. âYouâre so cute!â
Mingiâs eyes went wide with horror. âNo, waitââ
He didnât stand a chance. Wooyoung lunged, faster than Mingi could react, scooping him up in one swift motion. Mingi let out an undignified yelp as he was lifted clean off the ground as his little legs flailed uselessly in the air.
He spun Mingi around in his arms, cradling him like the most precious thing in the world. Hongjoong, unbothered, continued chopping vegetables in the background, the rhythmic sound of the knife against the cutting board the only indication that he was even listening.Â
âI can see why all those women refused to leave you alone,â Wooyoung mused, studying Mingi as if seeing him for the first time.Â
Mingi let out a strangled noise of protest. âPut me down!â
Wooyoung ignored him, instead stroking the fur between his ears with a contemplative hum. âYou really donât get it, do you?â
Mingi froze, sensing the shift in Wooyoungâs tone. It wasnât teasing anymore. There was something thoughtfulâalmost wistfulâbeneath his words.
âI sent you there to right your wrongs,â Wooyoung said softly. âThat was the deal. But instead, you sacrificed yourself like an idiot. Do you know how miserable that made her?â
Wooyoung sighed, shifting Mingi so that they were eye to eye. âYou should see how sad Y/N is, I canât stand seeing her cry anymore.â
Mingiâs ears flattened as he processed Wooyoungâs words. That didnât make sense, did it? He had spent so much of his life pushing you away, saying the wrong things, hurting you without even meaning to. Even in the end, he had only caused you more pain by leaving.
Mingi swallowed hard, ears flicking. âBut⌠I always made her cry.â His voice was small. âHow could I have made her happy?â
Wooyoung huffed out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. âYou really are hopeless,â he muttered. âShe was happy because you were there, dummy. Because you stuck around. Because, for the first time, you werenât just someone passing through her life. You stayed.â
Had he really made you happy just by being there? By choosing to stay by your side, even when he thought he didnât deserve to?
âYou didnât just make her smile a few times. You made her feel safe. You made her laugh. You made her happy without even realizing it. And you did it without asking for anything in return. I guess that's what dogs do.â
Wooyoung reached out, flicking him lightly on the nose. âAnd thatâs why youâre going back.â
âEh?â
âThatâs right!â Wooyoung declared triumphantly, placing him on the ground. He grinned, straightening up and placing his hands on his hips.
âEven if you are an idiot who charged in without thinking, what you did was the purest act of love you couldâve shown. You held up your end of the bargain so⌠a dealâs a deal.â
âIâmâŚIâm going back?â
Mingiâs tail wagged furiously, his entire body practically vibrating with excitement. He was going back. Back to you. He could see you again, hear your voice, feel your touch. He could fix things and make things right. He wouldnât waste this second chance.
âEat first,â Hongjoong interrupted, scooping up a bowl of stew for the puppy.
âYou wonât get far on an empty stomach.â
Mingi let out a tiny huff, his tail flicking in mild protest, but the rich aroma of the stew was too tempting to resist. He sniffed hesitantly before lapping at the bowl. The warmth of the broth spread through him instantly, soothing in a way he hadn't realized he needed. His stomach grumbled again, this time in appreciation, and he begrudgingly continued eating.
Between bites, his gaze flickered up to Hongjoong. Something about him seemed⌠different. His expression was just as calm and composed as ever, but there was a certain wistfulness in his eyes.
Mingiâs little tail wagged as he padded closer, tilting his head. âAre you okay?â
Hongjoong blinked, seemingly caught off guard for just a second before his lips curved into a small smile. Mingi peered up at him, and noticed the longing in his eyes. Not for something lost, but for something he once cherished.
Hongjoong reached out, ruffling Mingiâs fur with a gentle touch. âEven if things get difficult,â he murmured reassuringly, âI know everything will work out in the end.â
His hand lingered for just a moment longer before he pulled away.
âYou just have to fight.â
Your eyes shot open at the sound of the alarm blaring from your phone. The shrill tone cut through the silence of the hospital room, a jarring contrast to the rhythmic beeping of the monitors. Blinking blearily, you forced yourself upright, disoriented for a moment before remembering you had set it for 8 AM, the time you usually fed Maro.
You exhaled slowly, rubbing the sleep from your face. You hadnât meant to doze off here again, but exhaustion clung to you. You needed to go home. There were things to do. You needed to eat, tooâhad you even eaten since yesterday? Probably not.
âY/NâŚâ
Your mind moved sluggishly through a mental checklist. Feed Maro. No, heâs not here anymore. Answer texts. Call Kira. Had you remembered to bring a change of clothes? You should grab something on the way home. Maybe coffee, too. Â
â...Y/N.â
For a second, you thought you were hallucinating. There was no wayâno wayâyou heard your name. Maybe you were just overtired, running on empty. Maybe it was your mind playing cruel tricks on you.Â
You shrugged, shoving your belongings into your overnight bag, preoccupied with gathering the blankets youâd let slip to the floor in your sleep.Â
A strange sensation washed over Mingi as his eyes fluttered open. His body felt heavier and his senses, once heightened, dulled. In the distance, he heard the faint chime of an alarm, followed by the soft shuffling of your footsteps. The sound was muted, like a memory being replayed from another life, but it was real.Â
"Be good, okay?" Wooyoung's voice was light, but there was a tightness to it, as if he was holding something back. His hands moved with gentle care, adjusting the small bandana around Mingiâs neck.Â
"I donât want to see you for another 70 years!"
Beside him, Hongjoong let out a soft chuckle, crouching down to run his fingers behind his ears. "Take care of Y/N," he murmured.Â
"But most importantly, take care of yourself, okay? Give yourself some grace.â
âI will,â Mingi replied, determination settling into his voice. He wanted to hold onto this moment, to express his gratitude, but time was already pulling him away as the gate for the human world was beginning to close.Â
The path before him stretched endlessly, lined with delicate white flowers that glowed under the light of the afterlife. With each step, he could feel the ground beneath his paws become less solid, as though he were walking on the edge of a dream. His body tingled, his heartbeat echoing in a different rhythm now, one that matched the pull of reality waiting for him beyond this place.
As the world around him dimmed, as his senses faded into something familiar, one thing remained unchangedâ
You.
Your presence.
And the moment he opened his eyes again, the first thing he saw was you.Â
Not the flowers piled up in the corner of the suite. Not the wires draped across his chest or the monitors keeping him alive. Not the light of morning spilling through the window, chasing away the shadows of the night before.
Just you.
âY/N.â
Still, you didnât hear him.
Mingi watched as you flitted around the room, smoothing down your wrinkled clothes, sighing at the thought of stepping outside this room and facing reality again as you grabbed your bag.Â
âY/N.â
The sound of your name was sharper and more insistent and you knew for sure you werenât imagining it.Â
You froze.
Your breath caught as something inside you, some instinct, screamed at you to turn around. Slowly, hesitantly, your head snapped toward the hospital bed.
Mingi was watching you.
His eyes were tired and heavy with exhaustion, but they were focused. Determined. His brows drew together, as if mustering every ounce of strength he had left just to make you look at him.
Your bag slid from your shoulder and hit the ground as your legs struggled to keep up. A sharp gasp tore from your lips as your chest constricted with a surge of emotions you thought you had long buried.
Relief, disbelief, and something unnamed swelled within you as you staggered forward with tears in your eyes.
Mingiâs fingers twitched again. A little stronger this time, shaking as they lifted just an inch from the bed. For a moment, they faltered, wavering midair. Then, slowly, they stretched toward you.
Reaching.
Wanting.
Your fingers trembled as you reached out, letting your hand hover over his for a moment before finally brushing against his cold skin. His hand stilled beneath yours and his fingers curled weakly as you closed yours around them.
Mingiâs eyes softened, and for a second, you thought he might try to speak, his lips parting slightly, but no sound came. His fingers squeezed yours weakly in response, and despite his weakened state, a small smile tugged at the corner of his lips. His eyes held yours and were filled with something that made your heart ache in the best way.
It wasnât much. But it was enough.
Because this time, Mingi had reached for you first.
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Iâm about to super mario 64 jump into my phone and fight mike and dann, havenât liked mike from the beginning and dann Iâm trying to be understanding cause of what happened, but also i care too much about reader and hongjoong.
speaking of hongjoong my boy be honest with reader please, this is only gonna get worse and iâm gonna end up throwing my phone in frustration cause itâs gonna be a bunch of build up lies.
anyways I enjoyed the chapter like always the next one worries me (all the next chapters are gonna worry me), but first heartbreak ahhhhhhh
keep up the great work! <3
Popular, Boy
â08: The first lie.
Pairing: Nerd!Hongjoong x Popular!Reader
Genre: +18, smut, agnst, slow burn, drama, dark academic, love triangle.
wc: 8,5k
Summary: Your relationship with Hongjoong takes a new turn, but sooner after, things start to feel off.
Rumors spread, and frustration will consume you.
Warnings: Smut (MDN!!) Switch!Hongjoong, Switch!reader, oral (f receiving) slight handjob, hair pulling, riding, pet names (good boy, pretty, baby) suggestive.
Series masterlist Taglist
â07 â09: The first heartbreak.
You and Dann.
The Clarke mansion is always buzzing with activity, but tonight, Mike had a plan to ensure it was completely emptyâexcept for two specific people.
You sit at the grand dining table, smiling at the photo on your phone screen and the short message attached.
HN: She says: thank you for the toys!!
You let out a soft smile before scrolling through your social media.
On the other side of the table, Mike watches your parents with a casual smile. Your father, ever the businessman, is flipping through his tablet, barely paying attention to his meal, while your mother delicately cuts into her filet mignon.
"You know," Mike begins smoothly, setting down his glass, "It's been a while since we went out together for dinner. Why not go somewhere special tonight? Just us."
Your father lifts an eyebrow "A night out? That's rather sudden, Son."
âYeah, let's have dinner tonight to celebrate all our achievements as a family.â
âThat sounds so nice, Mike.â Your mother says with enthusiasm as she turns to you âSweetie, we can match our outfits, what about emerald and pearls tonight.â
Before you can say something Mikeâs speaks again.
âActually, I was inviting only you two. YN can do other things.â
You can sense the bitterness in his tone, so you just roll your eyes. Isn't like you want to waste your time at dinner with him.
âBut, Mikeââ Your mother starts, but you interrupt her.
âDon't worry, Mommy. I don't feel like hanging out today.â You give her a smile waving off.
Your father finally glances up "Where do you have in mind?"
Mike leans forward, feigning nonchalance.
"I made a reservation at The Imperial Orchid at seven. Itâs exclusive, elegant, and I hear their sommelier is outstanding. Consider it a small token of appreciation for everything you do."
Your mother exchanges a look with her husband, a subtle curiosity flickering in her eyes. Mike knows them too well.
Your father enjoys luxury, your mother enjoys exclusivity. He had picked the perfect bait.
Your father nods slowly "It does sound appealing."
"Well, thatâs very thoughtful of you, dear. I suppose we could use a quiet evening out."
Your mother looks at you with concern but you smile again, so she can go out without worries about you feeling left out.
Mike smirks internally.
Perfect.
⎠â
As the last of the evening sunlight fades, Dann arrives at Mikeâs studio, her face still clouded with remnants of anger from earlier. Mike is waiting for her, his usual smirk firmly in place as he watches her enter.
âYouâre just in time,â He says, pouring himself another drink âI have one more task for you tonight.â
Dann crosses her arms âWhat now?â
Mike steps closer, his voice dropping to a whisper.
âI know itâs cruel of me to force you into this, Dann, but you have to make sure they have sex.â
Dannâs breath catches in her throat âWhat?â
âYou heard me,â Mike continues smoothly, tilting his head âYN is predictable. Sheâs been waiting for the perfect excuse to pull Hongjoong in closer. And now, with an empty house and him eager to have her forgiveness, itâs going to happen.â
Dann swallows hard, torn between hesitation and the deep-seated anger still burning inside her.
He leans in just a little âOnly if they do, we can move forward with the plan.â
Dann clenches her fists but nods âFine. Iâll do it.â
Mike grins, satisfied. Everything is falling into place.
âGood, see you later then.â
⎠â
YNâĄ: Come over tonight. You still owe me an apology.
The moment your mother announces that she, your father and Mike wonât be back until later, you seize the opportunity.
An empty houseâwell, if you ignore the maidsâis something you canât let go to waste.
You smirk as your phone vibrates with a response. You already knew what it would say. He never could resist you.
JoongieâĄ: Iâll be there in thirty.
Satisfied, you set your phone down and head to the shower, letting the warm water soothe your skin. You take your time, indulging in a long, relaxing bath before stepping out, your mind already set on what comes next.
A pretty white lingerie setâdelicate lace, soft satinâmakes you look innocent, almost angelic. The irony makes you smile.
You add lacy stockings, white heels, the perfect complement to the illusion of purity youâre crafting. With a final touch of mascara and lip gloss, you stare at your reflection, knowing exactly the effect this will have on him.
Are you putting in all this effort for a gorgeous nerd?
Yes, you are.
A silk robe drapes over your body, shielding the little surprise youâve prepared. You donât even know why youâre trying so hardâwhy the thought of him seeing you like this sends an unfamiliar flutter through your stomach.
A soft knock at the door pulls you from your thoughts.
His voice follows, hesitant but warm "Pretty?"
One last glance in the mirror, one deep breath, and you step toward the door.
The second you open it, Hongjoongâs sweet smile falters. His eyes widen, sweeping over you in stunned silence. Leaning casually against the doorframe, you look effortless, untouchableâuntil you decide otherwise.
"Took you long enough, nerd." You tease, stepping aside to let him in.
He swallows hard, quickly averting his gaze "I had to make sure my mom believes my lie."
You arch a brow "You lied to your mom? What did you tell her?"
"Pretty, itâs almost eight," He mutters, rubbing the back of his neck "If I told her I was coming here, sheâd start making assumptions. So I told her I was going to the movies with Yunho and Yeosang."
You tilt your head, amused "So you lied⌠just to make it up to me?" You step closer, fingers lightly tugging at the collar of his shirt "Right?"
Hongjoong exhales sharply, his resolve crumbling under your touch.
"YeahâŚ"
A victorious smile curves your lips
"Then prove it."
You turn and walk to the bed, sitting at the edge with slow, deliberate ease, watching as he hesitates. You pat your thigh, tilting your chin up
"Kneel."
His breath catches.
For a second, he doesnât move, like his brain short-circuited at the command. You can practically hear his internal battleâhis nerves screaming at him to overthink, to doubt, but his obsession with you outweighing everything else.
Then, as if pulled by an invisible string, he obeys.
Hongjoong kneels between your legs, hands clenched at his sides, gaze locked onto yours with a mixture of awe and pure, unfiltered longing.
He looks so shy, so adorably uncertain, like he canât believe heâs here, like he doesnât know where to start.
"Youâre nervous," You murmur, your fingers trailing along his jawline.
He exhales shakily "You⌠You make it hard to think."
"Good."
You lean in, your lips ghosting over his, teasing but not quite giving in. He whimpersâan actual whimperâhis fingers twitching against his thighs as if fighting the urge to touch you.
You smirk, dragging your nails lightly down his arms.
"Relax, Joongie."
But heâs trembling, overwhelmed, his whole body wound tight like a spring.
"Iâ I donât wanna mess this up," He admits, his voice laced with vulnerability.
That softens you.
You cup his face, your thumb brushing over his cheek before trailing down, lower, your touch both gentle and deliberate.
"You wonât," You assure him "Just stop holding back."
And when you finally kiss himâreally kiss himâhe melts.
Because no matter how nervous he is, no matter how much he overthinks, thereâs one thing he knows for sure.
Heâd do anything to prove himself to you.
The kiss deepens, slow and deliberate, and you feel the way he shivers beneath your touch. His hands, still hesitant, finally find your waist, gripping the fabric of your robe as if grounding himself.
You pull back just enough to study himâflushed cheeks, parted lips, pupils blown wide with desire and uncertainty.
God, heâs adorable.
Then, your fingers reach up, and before he can react, you slide his glasses off.
Hongjoong stiffens "W-Waitâ"
You hush him with a finger against his lips "You wonât need these tonight."
You fold the glasses and set them aside on the nightstand, watching the way he blinks rapidly, disoriented.
Without them, his gaze is softer, more vulnerable, as if youâve stripped away yet another layer of his defenses.
"I⌠I can barely see you," He admits, flustered.
You smirk, running your hands through his hair before tugging lightly.
"Then feel me."
A strangled sound escapes him, and you swear you can see his last bit of restraint snap.
His hands tighten on your waist, his lips crashing back onto yours with newfound desperation. This time, he isnât hesitating. Heâs learning, exploringâhis touch still unsure, but eager.
His kisses grow bolder, and when you shift, pulling him closer, he groans against your mouth, a sound so raw it makes your stomach flip.
"YNâŚ" He breathes, your name falling from his lips like a plea, like a prayer.
You grin against his skin, dragging your nails lightly down his back, and he shudders, pressing himself closer.
"Good boy," You murmur, and the way his breath hitches tells you everything you need to know.
Heâs completely, utterly yours and lost in you now.
The moment you murmur âGood boy,â Hongjoong practically melts against you, his grip tightening, his breath uneven. His entire body responds to your touch, to your words, as if heâs been waiting for thisâfor youâto finally consume him.
His lips trail down your neck, hesitant at first, then bolder when you donât stop him. Every movement is cautious, like heâs afraid to mess up, but you guide him effortlessly, tilting your head to give him more access.
"You're thinking too much," You whisper, threading your fingers through his hair and tugging slightly.
A soft groan escapes him, and his hands tighten on your waist.
"I just⌠I wanna do this right," He admits, his voice thick with emotion.
You lean back slightly, taking in the sight of himâflushed, breathless, pupils blown wide with desire and uncertainty. Heâs so desperate to prove himself to you, to show you that he can be enough.
That he is enough.
Your fingers trail down his chest, slow and deliberate.
"You already are."
Hongjoong exhales shakily, his gaze flickering between your eyes and your lips. Heâs still nervous, still overthinkingâso you do what you do best.
You take control.
With a push, heâs on his knees before you, his hands resting on your thighs, looking up at you with something between awe and devotion.
"YNâŚ" His voice is barely a whisper, but the way he says your name sends a shiver down your spine.
You cup his face, tilting it up so he has no choice but to look at you.
"You're mine, nerd."
Your voice is soft but firmâa quiet promise, a claim.
Hongjoongâs breath stutters, his hands tightening around your legs as if anchoring himself. His pupils are blown wide, his lips parted in something between reverence and disbelief.
"Yours," He breathes, like itâs the easiest thing heâs ever said.
And thatâs all you need.
You pull him back up, claiming his lips once more. This time, thereâs no hesitation, no restraint. You feel the shift in himâthe anticipation, the desperation, the sheer need.
His hands tremble slightly as they slide up your arms, fingertips ghosting over the silk of your robe before carefully pushing it off your shoulders. It pools onto the mattress, forgotten.
When he pulls away, he doesnât speak. He just looks at you, drinking you in, his breath caught somewhere in his throat.
Your lingerie leaves little to the imagination, and yet, to him, itâs everything.
He doesnât know where he finds the confidence, doesnât know what possesses him to move the way he doesâbut suddenly, his grip on your hips tightens. In a swift, uncalculated motion, he pushes you up the bed, his strength surprising even himself.
Your breath catches.
Fuck, that was hot.
"So you want me to apologize?" His voice is lower now, rougher, laced with something unfamiliar yet thrilling.
You blink, caught off guard. His shyness is gone, replaced by something bold, something raw. And you like it.
A smirk curves your lips "Yeah⌠Show me how much you want my forgiveness."
His answering smile is slow, teasing, almost wicked. It makes heat pool in your stomach, makes your fingers curl against the sheets.
And then heâs kissing you againâharder, deeper. This time, thereâs no hesitation, no second-guessing.
Lust fuels every movement, every touch. His hand finds the curve of your waist, gripping just enough to make you gasp against his mouth. The other stays planted beside your head, keeping him steady.
When he pulls away, his breathing is ragged, his lips swollen and pink.
"Can I touch you?" His voice is barely above a whisper, yet it sends a shiver down your spine.
You blink up at him, momentarily confusedâuntil you feel the light brush of his fingers at the hem of your lacy panties, tentative, seeking permission.
Your pulse skips.
Heâs still your nerd, still the same awkward, blushing boy who would do anything for you.
But tonight, he wants to prove that heâs more.
And youâre going to let him.
You nod without hesitation, anticipation shimmering in your eyes. A slow, confident smile tugs at Hongjoongâs lipsâone that sends a shiver down your spine.
His hands move with newfound boldness, sliding the fabric down your hips. You lift yourself slightly, helping him discard the last barrier between you.
Kneeling between your legs, he takes a shaky breath, his fingers grazing over your thighs, tracing the delicate lace of your stockings before pressing into your skin with a firm squeeze.
He has a perfect view of your already wet folds, he tilts his head, his eyes locked in your sticky core. His gaze is fixedâentrancedâas if memorizing every inch of you.
You squirm under his stare, warmth creeping up your neck, but when you instinctively try to close your legs, he stops you, his hands tightening around your thighs.
"Don't hide from me," He murmurs, his voice lower than usual, filled with something deeper. Something reverent.
Your breath hitches as he leans in, his lips ghosting over your skin, leaving a trail of heat. You fist the sheets beneath you, trying to steady yourself, but when his tongue takes the first taste of your arousal, a soft gasp escapes your lips, fingers immediately tangling in his hair.
âJoongââ His name falls from your lips in a breathy moan, the sensation making your stomach coil with pleasure.
He hums against you, the vibration sending sparks through your veins. His movements are slow, careful, savoring every drop, every reaction, every shiver he pulls from you.
Your back arches, desperate for more, but before you can beg, he pulls away.
Your protest dies the moment he crashes his lips against yours, stealing your breath in a kiss thatâs all tongue, heat, and desperation.
You taste yourself on him, the intimacy of it making your head spin.
"You taste so good, pretty." Hongjoong mutters against your lips, his voice husky. You whimper, trying to chase his lips again, but he chuckles softly "What do you need, baby?"
His words send a new wave of heat through you, your body reacting before your mind can catch up. His voice, his touchâeverything about him is intoxicating.
"I need you," You breathe, nails dragging down his back "I need you to fuck me."
Hongjoongâs confidence wavers for the first time tonight. His grip on your waist trembles slightly, his breath uneven.
You watch his Adamâs apple bob as he swallows hard, hesitation flickering behind his dark-rimmed glasses.
Hongjoong has never done this beforeâat least, not like this. He has no sexual experience, the only experiences he's had are with you, but you didn't go beyond.
Every intimate moment youâve shared up until now has been a slow buildup of tension.
But this? This is something else. Something bigger.
His fingers twitch against your skin as he exhales shakily, pressing his forehead against yours.
âI donât want to mess this up.â He confesses, voice barely above a whisper.
Your expression softens. Reaching up, you cup his cheek, brushing your thumb over the flushed skin.
"You won't," You promise, kissing him gently, reassuringly "Just trust me."
And as he looks into your eyes, his nerves slowly melt away, replaced with something else entirelyâsomething that makes your pulse quicken.
Because tonight, he isnât just the shy nerd who worships you.
Tonight, heâs yours.
You notice the shift in his body languageâhow his muscles tense, how uncertainty flickers behind his dark eyes.
You know why.
Without hesitation, you shift positions, guiding him onto his back until heâs lying beneath you. Your thighs bracket his hips, your hands resting lightly on his chest as you straddle him.
Hongjoong stares up at you, wide-eyed, breath caught somewhere between surprise and anticipation.
You giggle softly, leaning down so your lips hover just above his.
"Donât worry, Joongie," You murmur, tracing your fingers over his collarbone "Iâll teach you how to fuck me properly later."
His lips part slightly, but before he can respond, you close the distance, capturing his mouth in another kiss. Slow. Deep. Reassuring.
You pour everything into itâevery bit of desire, every bit of unspoken reassuranceâsilencing any lingering doubts he might have.
You need him to understand that his inexperience doesnât matter. That you donât care. The only thing that matters is this.
Him. His first timeâhis first experienceâwith you and only you.
You feel him relax beneath you, his hands finally moving, trailing up your sides with a newfound confidence. His grip tightens slightly on your hips, fingers pressing into your skin as if grounding himself in the moment.
Encouraged, you reach for the hem of his jeans, unfastening the button, lowering the zipper with deliberate slowness. He tenses againâbut this time, not from hesitation.
His breath hitches when your fingers brush against his already hard crotch, and his grip on you tightens as you start to ease his jeans down, taking his underwear with them.
Fuck, this is really going to happen.
Hongjoongâs mind starts to race in negative thoughts as you take his length in your hand.
âDonât mess this up. Where does he put his hands? Is this okay? Should he ask? No, asking sounds lame. But what ifââ
âHongjoong.â You call him, noticing his demeanor. Of course, you do. You always see right through him.
He lets out a shaky breath, looking up at you with nothing but need in his gaze, you knowâheâs yours.
âYes?â
Your fingers brush against his jaw, tilting his face up so your eyes meet. You smirk, your voice low and teasing.
âRelax, nerd. You think too much, if you are nervous you're not going to enjoy it.â You say with tenderness as you lift his shirt, Hongjoong noticing your intentions, sits down to help you to remove it âItâs okay, itâs your first time and I know you are overthinking it.â
You murmur leaning closer to press a soft kiss in his lips, trying to calm him, and it works. He hums kissing you back, his hands now on your thighs and his hips jerking a little.
Your hand never stopped stroking him, making Hongjoong gasp in your mouth.
He closes his eyes lying down again, letting the pleasure invade his body, letting your touch calm him.
You bit your lip at the sight, his pretty face with a grimace of pleasure, his bare chest, his hands gripping your flesh, and his long dick, tip bright red dripping pre-cum.
Shit, you could cum only by seeing him like this.
âAre you ready, babe?â You ask softly, raising your hips to rub his tip in your sticky folds.
He opens his eyes, breathing heavily and locking his eyes with yours. He slowly nods, he's ready to do this, he's ready to give you all of it.
You can see a hint of nervousness in his eyes, so you lean back to kiss him to distract his mind from the first time.
As you kiss you slowly place his tip on your tight hole, you close your eyes at the stretch, it's been a long time since the last time you got intimate with someone.
And that someone was Seonghwa.
Completely sinking on his length, both of you moan. The stretch is exquisite, his long cock filling you completely.
You gasp out his name as you stay still for a moment, letting Hongjoong process it and adjust. His eyes are close and his hands grip your thighs.
âAre you okay? Can I move?â You murmur against his parted lips.
âY-yes.. you can move.â
He nods, opening his eyes, watching you straighten up and place your hands on his chest for support. Hongjoong lets out a choked whimper when you start moving, the pace is slow but firm.
Immediately his head collapses on the pillow, eyes shut and hands rushing to grab your hips.
Holy fuck, this is better than he imagined the sex would be.
Your hips moving deliciously, your hands on his chest, your head tilting back in pleasure, your little whimpers, the light sound of slapping everytime your bodies connect.
Shit, this is heaven for him.
âFuck, J-joong⌠You feel so good.â You pant almost urgently, you take one of his hands to place it directly on one of your breasts âPlease touch me, babe..â
And he does, without hesitation he kneads your breast with a firm grip as his other hand gently helps you guide your hips upward.
For Hongjoong the sight is amazing, as you move up and down he is able to see how his cock disappears in your tight cunt.
"Fuck, baby." Hongjoong groans, his voice rough, strained with desire.
Before you can fully process it, he movesâswift and instinctiveâflipping you onto your back, his body pressing down against yours.
A surprised gasp leaves your lips, but thereâs no hesitation, no resistance. If anything, the shift only sends a new wave of heat flooding through you.
He hovers over you, breath uneven, eyes dark with something raw and unfiltered. His hands find your thighs, gripping tight as he spreads them further apart, settling between them like he was always meant to be there.
The way he looks at youâlike heâs seeing you for the first time, like he wants to memorize every inch of youâsends a shiver up your spine.
His lips crash onto yours again, but this time, thereâs no hesitation, no uncertainty. Only hunger. A desperate need to be closer, to feel you, to lose himself in you. The kiss deepens, all tongue, heat, and breathless moans.
He pulls away just enough to look at you, his forehead pressing against yours, his grip on your hips tightening as he pushes his dick inside your cunt again.
A broken moan slips from your lips, your fingers immediately flying to his back, nails digging in as he stretches you open.
He groans at the feeling, at the way your body welcomes him so perfectly, so warmly.
âShit,â Hongjoong gasps, voice trembling as he buries himself deeper âYouâfuck... you feel so good.â
Your legs wrap around him, pulling him impossibly closer, your body arching into him as pleasure blooms in waves.
You donât even have wordsâjust whimpers, just gasps, just the sound of his name spilling from your lips like a prayer.
He starts moving, slow at first, as if savoring every second. But the more you moan, the more you beg for more, the faster, rougher, deeper his thrusts become.
The room is filled with the sound of bodies moving in sync, breathless cries, the rhythmic creaking of the bed beneath you.
And in this moment, nothing else existsâjust him, just you, just the overwhelming pleasure of finally having each other like this.
⎠â
Outside, just beyond the door, Dann lingers in the shadows of the hallway. Her heart pounds in her chest as she listens, her fingers curled tightly around the hem of her sweater.
She feels sick. Angry. Humiliated all over again.
But she has a job to do.
She inches closer, careful to keep her footsteps silent against the polished floors. The muffled sound of movement reaches her earsâthe rustle of sheets, the creak of the bed frame, your muffled moans.
Her stomach twists.
Carefully, she opens the door, letting a little space to see inside.
She immediately put her hands over her mouth while tears formed in her eyes. That scene in front of her eyes just makes her feel worse than that day at Wooyoungâs party, this time it feels more intimate, something that she shouldn't have been watchingâŚ
Something that she would never get to do with him.
âMake sure they go through with it. We need this to work.â
Dann swallows hard. She shouldnât be here, shouldnât be watching, shouldnât feel like her entire world is crashing down around her.
But she closes the door, she stays.
Because this is just the beginning of your end.
⎠â
Your hands tremble as you cling to him, his body pressed against yours, his warmth surrounding you like a force you never knew you needed this desperately.
âH-hongjoongâŚâ
His name falls from your lips over and over, each syllable carrying the weight of everything you feelâthe longing, the surrender, the undeniable connection weaving you together in ways neither of you fully understands yet.
Hongjoong moves above you with a newfound confidence, no longer hesitant, no longer doubting.
He follows the rhythm of your bodies, of your moans, of the way you gasp his name like itâs the only word you know.
His body begins to get tired, but he doesnât stopâdoesnât dare stopânot when you feel this good, this right beneath him.
"Pretty..." He groans, forehead pressed to yours, voice thick with something more than just lust "I can'tâfuck, Iâm gonnaââ
You can feel him unraveling, just as you are. It builds like a slow-burning fire, the pleasure coiling tight, higher and higher, until thereâs no stopping it.
His fingers find yours, interlocking, pinning your hands above your head, grounding you to him. He kisses youâdeep, desperate, like he wants to pour every unspoken emotion into it.
And when you fall apart, itâs not just pleasure that washes over youâitâs him. Itâs the way he worships you with every touch, every thrust, every whispered moan against your lips.
You shatter together, his name a soft cry on your lips, his breath a broken gasp against your skin.
He collapses on top of you, breathless and with a dumb smile, he holds you as if afraid youâll disappear, his arms wrapped around you like youâre something sacred.
And in that moment, as he buries his face in the crook of your neck, whispering your name like a prayer, you realizeâthis isnât just about desire.
This is something more.
Something deeper.
Something that neither of you can walk away from.
After a couple of minutes, the room is quiet now, except for the soft sounds of your mingled breaths, still uneven, still recovering.
Your bodies are tangled in the sheets, his warmth pressed against you as if he has no intention of letting go. His skin is slightly damp, and you can feel his heart racing beneath your palm, its rhythm slowing as the moments pass.
Neither of you speaks right away. Thereâs no need. The silence is comfortable, wrapped around you like the soft glow of the dim bedside lamp.
Hongjoong shifts slightly, just enough to press a lazy kiss against your shoulder before letting out a deep, satisfied sigh.
âYouâre so pretty.â He mumbles, voice husky and thick with exhaustion.
You smile, brushing your fingers through his tousled hair.
âYou always say that, Joong.â
He huffs, lifting his head just enough to look at you. His eyes, even in the dim light, are full of something so soft, so unguarded, it makes your heart clench.
âI mean it every time.â He murmurs.
Your chest tightens, and instead of answering, you cup his face, guiding him into a slow, lingering kiss. Itâs different from beforeâno urgency, no desperation.
Just warmth. Just the quiet reassurance that this moment is real.
Hongjoong hums against your lips before pulling back, resting his forehead against yours.
âI feel like I should say something cool right now,â He admits, a sheepish smile tugging at his lips.
You chuckle, running a thumb over his cheek.
âLike what?â
âI donât know. Something suave. Like in the movies.â He pauses âBut my brain is kinda mush right now.â
You laugh, and he grins, obviously pleased with himself for making you do so.
For a while, you just lay there, exchanging kisses, whispering about nothing and everythingâyour favorite movies, how ridiculous Hongjoong looks when he squints without his glasses, how the ceiling has a tiny crack that youâve never noticed before.
Eventually, the night catches up to you both, and your eyelids grow heavy.
Hongjoong lets out a small sigh, shifting slightly, but he doesnât move away. Instead, he tightens his hold around you, burying his face in your hair.
âI should probably go home.â He mumbles, though he makes no effort to leave.
You hum in response, tracing small patterns on his back.
âYou could stay.â
He goes still for a moment before pressing a gentle kiss to your temple.
âIf I do, I donât think Iâll ever want to leave.â
Your heart stutters at his words, and instead of responding, you just hold him closer.
Eventually, with a reluctant sigh, Hongjoong forces himself to sit up. You watch as he searches for his clothes, his movements slow, almost hesitant.
Before he can put his glasses back on, you reach out, grabbing his wrist.
âHey,â You whisper.
He looks at you, and for a moment, you just stare at each other. Then, without thinking, you pull him back down for one last kissâsoft, sweet, and lingering.
When you finally pull away, he smiles against your lips.
âYouâre dangerous.â
You smirk âAnd you love it.â
He laughs, shaking his head as he finally gets dressed. But just as heâs about to leave, you sit up, biting your lip, feeling something unfamiliar and terrifying tighten in your chest.
âHongjoong.â You say, and he pauses at the door, turning back to you.
You hesitate for a moment, the words sitting heavy on your tongue. Itâs not easy for you to be vulnerableânot like this.
But with him, it feels⌠safe.
âMaybe,â You start, voice softer than usual âMaybe we could try something.â
He blinks âSomething?â
You swallow, forcing yourself to hold his gaze âYou know⌠something more. Like, actually trying.â
Understanding dawns on his face, his mouth parts slightly, his fingers tightening around the strap of his bag as if grounding himself.
Then, slowly, a smileâsmall, disbelieving, but full of something devastatingly tenderâspreads across his lips.
âAre you serious?â He asks, voice careful, like heâs afraid you might take it back.
You roll your eyes, crossing your arms âForget it, nerd.â
âNo, no, no!â Heâs quick to step back toward the bed, hands raised in surrender âI justâI wasnât expecting that.â
You huff, looking away, but he reaches out, gently tilting your chin back toward him.
âI want that,â He says, voice steady now âI want you.â
Something inside you melts, and before you can second-guess yourself, you pull him into another kiss.
When he finally leaves, thereâs a different kind of warmth in your chestâone that has nothing to do with what just happened in bed.
And for the first time in a long time, the idea of something real, something more⌠doesnât scare you as much as it used to.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The night air was cool as Hongjoong slipped back into his house, the door creaking softly as he closed it behind him.
This night with you was incredible, the night lingering in his mind like a sweet memory he never wanted to fade.
But as he entered the living room, the atmosphere felt heavier than usual.
His parents sat together on the couch, their faces drawn, their eyes clouded with worry. His motherâs fingers trembled around a cup of tea she hadnât touched, and his fatherâs usually composed demeanor was cracked.
âDear, there you are,â His mother says softly, her voice tight with concern âWe need to talk.â
Hongjoongâs stomach drops. Heâd never seen them like this before âWhatâs wrong?â
His father clears his throat, looking at him with a mixture of sadness and determination.
âI lost my job today.â
Hongjoong frezee. His mind canât immediately process the words. His father had always been the pillar of stability in the house.
âWhat? But⌠I thought everything was going well.â
âIt was,â His father replies, rubbing his temples âBut the economyâs taken a toll, and the company had to make cuts. Iâm part of that.â
Hongjoongâs heart sank as the weight of the situation began to settle in. His family wasnât rich. They managed, but losing one income meant things would get tight.
They needed a solution.
âWeâll need to figure something out, Honey,â His mother adds, her voice breaking âWe canât cover everything without a steady income.â
Hongjoong clenches his fists, frustration bubbling up inside him. He doesnât want to see his parents struggling.
âIâll get a job,â He says quickly, the words tumbling out before he has time to think them through âIâll work. I can help.â
His parents exchanged a look, but his mother smiled faintly, her eyes filled with pride.
âJoong, you donât have toââ
âNo,â He interrupts, âI want to. I can help with expenses. Donât worry about me. Iâll find something.â
His parents look at him with a mixture of pride and sadness, but they donât argue.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
Morning light filters through the grand windows of the estate, casting long shadows across the pristine floors. Dann moves through the halls like a ghost, her steps light, her eyes hollow.
The weight of last night clings to her like a second skin, suffocating, unbearable.
She barely slept. Every time she closed her eyes, she saw it again.
The way he touched you. The way you let him. The way he whispered your name like it meant something.
Her stomach churns, and she grips the strap of her bag tighter, forcing herself to focus. She just needs to get out of here, get to school, get some airâ
âYou look awful.â
Dann freezes.
Mike stands at the end of the hallway, leaning casually against the doorframe of his bedroom, dressed in his usual expensive attire, a cup of coffee in one hand. He looks well-rested, refreshed.
Completely unaffected.
Her pulse stutters, but she doesnât stop walking âI need to go.â
But Mike doesnât move. Instead, he lifts his coffee to his lips, takes a slow sip, and smirks.
âNot before you tell me what I need to know.â
Dann clenches her jaw, her feet slowing to a reluctant stop. She doesnât want to talk about this. She doesnât want to think about it.
But Mike doesnât have patience for hesitation. He tilts his head slightly, eyes glinting with amusement.
âDid it happen?â
Her throat tightens. The words taste like poison
âYes.â
Mike hums, pleased âGood.â
Dann grips her bag harder, her nails digging into her palms. He doesnât care. He doesnât care how humiliating it was, how painful it was to watch.
And then, just as she feared, he leans in slightly, voice lowering conspiratorially.
âNow, you need to start talking.â
She frowns âTalking?â
âYou know how these things go, Dann,â He says, waving a hand lazily âWhispers spread faster than fire in that school. All you need to do is plant the seeds.â
Dann swallows âWhat are you saying?â
Mike smirks, stepping closer âMake sure everyone knows that the nerd finally got what he wanted. That once he got YN into bed, he lost interest. That he only chased her because she was a challengeânothing more.â
Dann stiffens, her nails pressing into her skin âThatâs not true.â
âWho cares?â He chuckles âTruth is irrelevant. What matters is perception.â He takes another sip of coffee before adding, âAnd as for YN? Well⌠make sure they see her for what she really is.â He pauses, then smirks cruelly âA desperate little whore.â
Dann flinches. Her stomach churns.
Miek studies her reaction, then sighs âDonât tell me last night was too much for you.â
She lifts her chin, forcing her expression into something cold, detached.
âIâll do it.â
He grins, satisfied âPerfect.â
And with that, he steps aside, letting her pass like he didnât just shatter the last piece of her heart.
Dann forces herself to walk away. To keep moving. To pretend that she doesnât feel like sheâs falling apart.
Because this is just the beginning.
And thereâs no turning back now.
⎠â
The library is quieter than usual, the murmur of hushed conversations barely filling the vast space between the shelves. The scent of old books lingers in the air, but Dann barely notices it as she walks in, her hands clenched into fists at her sides.
She spots them instantlyâJongho, Yunho, and Yeosangâhuddled together at a corner table, deep in conversation over an open textbook.
They donât notice her at first, too focused on whatever pointless discussion theyâre having. But they will.
Taking a slow breath, Dann straightens her shoulders and approaches their table. She places her hands flat against the polished wood, her voice steady despite the turmoil in her chest.
âGuess what.â
Jongho looks up first, brows raising in mild surprise. Yunho and Yeosang follow, exchanging glances before turning their attention to her.
âWhat is it, little one?â Yunho asks, leaning back in his chair.
Dann lets the silence stretch just long enough to draw curiosity. Then, with careful precision, she says.
âItâs about Joong.â
That gets their attention. Yeosang frowns, setting down his pen, while Jonghoâs expression turns wary.
Yunho, however, snorts âWhat, YN banned him again?â
Dann forces herself to look hesitant, conflicted. Then she exhales and shakes her head.
âNo, nothing like that. ButâŚâ She glances around, lowering her voice just enough to make them lean in âBut I heard something last night. Something about him and YN.â
Yeosang tilts his head âWhat do you mean?â
Dann bites her lip, like sheâs debating whether or not to say it. And then, just loud enough for the surrounding students to hear, she murmurs.
âI heard them.â
Yunho blinks âHeard them?â
She leans in, just slightly âHaving sex.â
Silence crashes over the table like a tidal wave. Jonghoâs eyes widen, Yeosang shifts uncomfortably, and Yunho lets out a low whistle.
Around them, the subtle rustling of books ceases. The library isnât silent anymoreânot really. Not when whispers have already started creeping through the aisles.
âNo way,â Yeosang mutters.
Dann shrugs, feigning nonchalance âI was at the house. I heard everything.â Then, after a pause, she adds the final touch, the poison that will spread like wildfire âAnd you know whatâs funny? He hasnât even talked to her today.â
Jongho frowns âWhat are you saying?â
âIâm saying,â Dann lowers her voice, but she knows theyâre listeningâeveryone is listening.
âThat maybe Hongjoong only wanted one thing. Maybe he was chasing her for a reason. And now that he got what he wantedâŚâ She lets the words linger before shaking her head, looking almost pitying âWell, you can figure out the rest.â
Yunho looks uncertain âDann, Hongjoong isnât like that.â
Jongho, however, doesnât seem convinced. He narrows his eyes at her.
âWhy are you telling us this?â
Dann meets his gaze evenly âBecause youâre his friends. And friends deserve to know the truth.â
She doesnât wait for their response. She just turns on her heel and walks away, leaving behind a table of stunned boys and an entire library already buzzing with the news.
And just like that, the seed is planted.
⎠â
The cafeteria hums with the usual morning chaosâlaughter, the clatter of trays, the low murmur of gossip weaving through the air like an unshakable presence.
You sit at your usual table, gracefully stirring your iced matcha with a straw, your expression relaxed.
After yesterday night you have been feeling like that, relaxed. You don't know if it's because you got laid or because it was with Hongjoong.
Your phone sits next to you, Hongjoongâs message from earlier still lighting up the screen. You tap your nails against the table absently, a small smirk tugging at your lips.
JoongieâĄ: Good morning, pretty. I won't go to school today :c
JoongieâĄ: See you tomorrow. Love you âĄ
You don't mind that he isnât here today. If anything, it keeps things interestingâgives him a chance to miss you.
But the moment of peace doesnât last.
Wooyoung slides into the seat across from you, his face twisted in something between amusement and hesitation. Mingi follows right after, dropping his bag onto the bench with a sigh.
"You wonât believe what we just heard during practice, babydoll." Woo starts, resting his chin on his hand, eyes flicking over you carefully.
You don't look up from your drink "If itâs about last seasonâs failures, I really donât care."
Mingi exhales, shaking his head "Itâs about you. And the little nerd."
That catches your attention. You raise a perfectly arched brow.
"What about us?"
Wooyoung exchanges a glance with Mingi before leaning in slightly, lowering his voice just enough to make it sound more scandalous than necessary.
"Apparently, half the school thinks little Hongjoong finally got what he wanted from you⌠and now heâs done with you."
You blink. For a second, you just stare at him, then let out a soft, disbelieving laugh.
"Thatâs ridiculous, guys."
"Yeah? Because itâs spreading like wildfire, babydoll." Woo says, voice more serious "People are saying he just wanted to sleep with you, and now that he has, heâs gonna drop you."
You roll your eyes, completely unbothered "Youâre actually listening to this nonsense?"
Mingi tilts his head "I mean⌠The nerd is mysteriously absent today."
You scoff "He told me this morning that he wasnât coming. Heâs busy. This rumor is stupid."
But Mingi doesnât look convinced "Iâm just saying, doll, people are talking. You know how fast things spread in this school."
"I donât care what people say," You cut in smoothly, picking up your drink again "Hongjoong wouldnât do that. Heâsâ"
You pause.
Heâs been sweet, devoted, always there. Hongjoong wouldnât do that. Right?
Still, you push the thought away and fix them with a sharp look.
"Who started this stupid rumor?"
Mingi shrugs "Not sure, but people are saying Dann was the one who heard⌠something."
You still for half a second before exhaling slowly "Dann?"
Woo nods, stirring his own drink "Yeah. Apparently, sheâs been telling people she heard you twoâŚ" He waggles his brows suggestively.
Your jaw tightens, your grip on her cup firm.
That bitch.
You knew Dann had always been lurking in the background, watching, waiting. But this? Spreading rumors about you and Hongjoong? That was lowâeven for a pathetic nerd.
But it doesnât matter.
You exhale, letting your usual confidence settle back over you like armor.
"Let them talk," You say coolly, taking a slow sip of your drink "Theyâll get bored soon enough."
But deep inside, a nagging feeling lingers.
And for the first time, she wonders. What if theyâre right?
⎠â
Hongjoong steps out of his house early, shoving his hands into his hoodie pockets as he walks down the quiet streets of his neighborhood. His parents had already leftâhis mom to work, his dad to search for a new job.
He exhales, determination settling in his chest. He needs to help.
Skipping school wasnât something heâd normally do, but this was more important. Finding a job meant easing the burden on his parents, making sure they didnât have to worry so much.
He starts at a small convenience store a few blocks away.
âSorry, kid. Weâre not hiring right now.â The owner says with an apologetic smile.
Hongjoong nods, forcing a polite thank-you before heading to the next place.
A bakery.
âNo positions open.â
A bookstore.
âWeâre looking for someone with experience.â
A restaurant.
âCome back in a month. Maybe.â
By the afternoon, exhaustion creeps into his bones. Heâs been walking around the city for hours, hearing rejection after rejection. His feet ache, his stomach grumbles, but he keeps going. He has to.
He checks his phoneâpast three oâclock. School was almost over. You had texted him earlier, but he hadnât checked it yet.
He didnât want you to worry, so heâd told you heâd see you tomorrow.
With a sigh, he rubs his face and glances around. His house is too far, but he decides to check one last place before heading home.
Thatâs when he spots itâCafĂŠ Aurora.
A small, warm-looking cafĂŠ tucked between two buildings, the scent of coffee and pastries spilling into the air as a customer steps out.
He hesitates for a second, then pushes the door open.
The cafĂŠ is cozy, filled with soft chatter and the clinking of cups. A few students sit in the corner, studying. A couple shares a quiet conversation over steaming mugs.
Hongjoong walks up to the counter, his heart pounding slightly.
A girl stands behind the counter, wiping down the surface. She looks up at him, and her eyes widen slightly before she flashes him a bright smile.
âHey there! Welcome to CafĂŠ Aurora. What can I get you?â
Sheâs short, wavy brown hair pulled into a loose ponytail, bright eyes, a dimple on one cheek. Her name tag reads âJina.â
Hongjoong clears his throat âUh, actually⌠I was wondering if you guys are hiring?â
Jina blinks, then grins âOh, really? Hang on.â
She disappears into the back, and Hongjoong lets out a breath. Please let this work.
A moment later, she returns with a middle-aged man in a dark apron.
âThis is Mr. Lee, the owner.â
âYouâre looking for a job?â Mr. Lee asks, crossing his arms.
âYes, sir. I can work after school and on weekends.â
âYou ever worked as a waiter before?â
Hongjoong shakes his head âNo, but Iâm a fast learner.â
The girl giggles âHe looks like a fast learner.â
He glances at her, thrown off by the teasing tone. But Mr. Lee doesnât seem to notice.
âWe could use someone in the evenings. Can you start tomorrow?â
Hongjoongâs eyes widen slightly. Really?
âYes! I meanâyeah, I can.â He says quickly.
Mr. Lee nods âJina will train you. Donât be late.â
Hongjoong exhales in relief âThank you.â
As Mr. Lee walks away, Jina leans on the counter, resting her chin on her palm.
âYouâre cute when youâre nervous.â She says suddenly.
Hongjoong blinks. What did she say?
âIâuhâthanks?â He stammers.
She just grins âSee you tomorrow, newbie.â
He leaves the cafĂŠ with a new job and a strange feeling in his chest. He finally found work. Thatâs all that should matter.
So why does he feel like things just got a little more complicated?
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The usual morning buzz fills the hallwaysâstudents chatting by their lockers, laughter echoing from different corners, the occasional shout of someone running late to class.
You walk through the hall with your usual confidence, heels clicking against the polished floor.
Youâre aware of the lingering stares, the hushed whispersâthe rumor hasnât died down completely.
But you don't acknowledge them. You act as if nothing is out of the ordinary. Because to you, itâs ridiculous.
Hongjoong wouldnât use you. Joong isnât like that.
You spot him near his locker, talking with Jongho and Yunho. Heâs laughing at something Yunho said, his head tilted slightly as he shakes his head.
Something warm blooms in your chest at the sight of him.
You saunter up to them, flipping your hair back âMorning, nerds.â
Hongjoong looks up, and just like always, his face softens when he sees you.
âHey, pretty.â
You smirk at the nickname, ignoring how Yunho and Jongho exchange knowing looks.
You step closer to him, slipping your fingers into the front pocket of his leather jacket like itâs the most natural thing in the world.
Hongjoong doesnât pull away. If anything, he leans into your touch, his free hand brushing against your waist in a casual, familiar way.
Theyâve always been close. But now, their closeness is undeniable.
Jongho clears his throat, smirking âYou two look⌠cozy.â
âYeah, should we give you some privacy?â Yunho teases.
You roll your eyes âYou guys are so annoying, that's why we cannot be friends.â Hongjoong just chuckles. You turn to him, tilting your head slightly âDo you wanna do something after school? Maybe go to that new place downtown?â
You expect a quick yes. He never says no to you.
But this time, he hesitates. Just for a second.
Then, he rubs the back of his neck and says âI canât, pretty. Iâll be busy.â
You blink âBusy?â
âYeah.â He doesnât elaborate.
Itâs⌠weird.
Hongjoong always makes time for you. Even when he had schoolwork, even when he had plans with his friends.
You come first.
And now, suddenly, heâs busy?
But you don't press. You just shrug, masking any hint of curiosity or doubt.
âOkay. Your loss.â
He chuckles, leaning down slightly âYou mad?â
You scoff âWhy would I be mad?â
He grins âBecause youâre used to getting what you want.â
You roll your eyes but don't deny it. Instead, you lean up and press a quick kiss to his cheek before stepping back.
âFine, Iâll let you off the hookâjust this once.â
Hongjoong watches you with something unreadable in his eyes, but before you can question it, the bell rings.
âSee you later, nerd.â You wave, walking off.
He watches you go, a small smile on his lips. But in the back of his mind, he knowsâThis is the first time heâs ever lied to you.
And it wonât be the last.
The following days felt different. Hongjoong kept his distance from you, his mind consumed with work and worrying about how to help his family.
He didnât want to burden you with his struggles. You had your own worldâone he wasnât sure he belonged to anymore.
You, of course, didnât know. Hongjoong kept his familyâs situation quiet, not wanting anyone, especially you, to feel sorry for him. But it was hard.
The afternoons you used to spend together seemed further away now, and Hongjoong didnât know how to bridge the gap that was forming between you.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
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iâm gonna crash out we need to end dann and mike iâm serious iâm going to throw a car at them or something, reader, hongjoong, get behind me
Iâm not ready for the next chapter i canât i need reader to be happy and i need them to be with hongjoong oh Iâm sick
great chapter, I canât wait for the next one <3
Popular, Boy
â07: The first breakdown
Pairing: Nerd!Hongjoong x Popular!Reader
Genre: +18, smut, angst, drama, dark academic, love triangle
wc: 9,8k
Summary: Humillation and disappointment from others always leave you more isolated than ever. The tension grows and unresolved emotions linger.
But unexpected plans could change everything in your little world.
Warnings: Cursing, verbal abuse, manipulation, just Mike being a bastard.
Note: This chapter has important info that will develop in the next chapter, just want to say that next chapter is more spicy than aespa's song!!!
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â06 â08: The first lie
The grandeur of the Clarke Mansion is still evident in the moments before they leave. The staff bustle around, making sure every detail is in place, as you, your family, and Dann prepare to depart for the lavish event at the Ritz.
The golden light of the chandelier in the hallway spills out into the driveway as the sleek black cars pull up, their engines purring softly in the night air. The elegance of the mansion stands in stark contrast to the wild, pulsing energy of the celebration awaiting themâa night meant to showcase Mikeâs latest achievement.
You walk down the grand staircase, a vision in your red dress. As you descend, every step is deliberate, measured, meant to captivate.
Your parents, who were already waiting near the entrance, canât help but pause in admiration at the sight of their daughter.
But you are too preoccupied with the swirling thoughts in your head to fully bask in their praise. Your brother's harsh words still echo in your ears, but you've done everything you can to mask the weight of them.
Tonight, you need to be untouchable.
Your father approaches you, voice full of pride.
âYou look stunning, darling. No one will be able to take their eyes off you tonight.â
âAnd you better make sure they donât, sweetie.â Your mother in an elegant black dress says brushing a strand of your hair.
You force a smile, though your gaze flicks to Mike standing near the door. You know heâs already prepared for what he perceives as your inevitable fall tonight.
But you wonât give him the satisfaction of seeing you flinch.
âMaybe you should focus on not embarrassing yourself, YN. Thereâs no room for mistakes tonight.â He smirks.
You feel your pulse quicken, the familiar sting of his condescending tone cutting through you like a knife. But you don't respond. Not tonight. you've already made up your mindâyou will be perfect, no matter what he says.
Dann, standing quietly in the background, watches everything unfold with a mix of disdain and curiosity. She can feel the heat radiating off you, and for the first time, sheâs not sure if she envies you or resents you.
Still, thereâs a part of her that doesnât want to get swept up in the endless cycle of praise and punishment that seems to define your world. As the last person to make their way out the door, Dann glances at her mother, who gives her a sweet smile, waving her goodbye.
When the cars finally pull up to the Ritz, the atmosphere shifts entirely. The event is already in full swing, lights glittering, the hum of conversation and laughter spilling out into the cool night air. The building itself looks like a monument to luxuryâtall, majestic, with every surface reflecting the opulence that the Clarke family holds dear.
Inside the car, your family sits in quiet anticipation. Your parents speak in hushed tones, planning their approach to tonightâs gathering, while Mike remains distant, his eyes fixed on the glowing windows of the Ritz.
As the car doors open, the flood of sounds from the celebration pours inâcascading music, the clinking of glasses, and the rhythmic beat of life beyond the door.
You step out first, followed by Mike, parents, and Dann. They make their way up the steps to the grand entrance, where the doormen usher them in with professional smiles. Inside, everything is extravagantâgleaming chandeliers, velvet drapes, and golden accents everywhere.
It feels like a different world entirely.
You adjust your posture, and for a moment, you feel the weight of all eyes on you. This is your world, a place where you can thrive, even with Mikeâs shadow looming over you.
As you step into the grand ballroom, the scent of roses and expensive perfume mixes with the faint aroma of hors d'oeuvres being passed around on silver trays.
The room is alive with conversation and laughter, the hum of wealth and power weaving through the air. Youâre used to thisâthis is where you belong, where youâve always shone. You adjust your dress, a subtle yet powerful statement of the seasonâs trends, and scan the room.
Your friends spot you almost immediately, their polished appearances as perfect as always. They weave through the crowd with ease, their heels clicking against the marble floor as they make their way toward you.
âBabe!â Mindy exclaims, her eyes sparkling âYou look stunning, as always.â
âOf course she does,â Samantha chimes in with a sly grin âWhat else is new?â
You smile, a perfect blend of warmth and confidence âItâs all about keeping up appearances, isnât it?â
Mindyâs gaze shifts past you, her brows arching in curiosity âWait a second⌠Is that Dann?â
All turn, spotting Dann lingering awkwardly near one of the side tables. Sheâs holding a glass of sparkling water like itâs a lifeline, her lavender gown catching the light in a way that draws just enough attention.
âOh my God, it is her. Whatâs she doing here?â
You shrug with a practiced air of indifference âMother invited her. You know how she getsâalways so kind and generous. She thought it would be nice to show some appreciation for Dann helping around the house.â
Mindyâs lips press into a thin line, and the others barely hide a snicker âKind of her,â She says, her voice dripping with sarcasm âBut seriously, babygirl, what were you thinking, letting her wear a dress from a collection from years ago? She looks ridiculous.â
You feign innocence, a soft laugh escaping your lips âWho am I to deny her a chance to feel special?â
Sam smirks âYouâre a saint, baby. Truly. She really sticks out, doesnât she? Like she doesnât belong here.â
âThatâs not my problem,â You reply smoothly, brushing off the comment with a flick of your hair âMother wanted her here, and Iâm doing my part. Whether or not she fits in is up to her.â
You glance across the room, your eyes narrowing as they settle on Seonghwa. Heâs standing with his family, dressed impeccably as always, his confident smile lighting up the space around him.
For a brief moment, your polished demeanor falters. Thereâs a lot unsaid between the two of youâmore than anyone in this room could ever guess.
After Wooyoungâs last party you haven't talked.
âShall we mingle?â Someone asks, breaking your train of thought.
âOf course,â You reply, slipping your arm through Mindyâs âLetâs remind everyone who really runs this town.â
As you move through the crowd, your presence commanding attention as always, you can feel the weight of the evening settling in.
Tonight isnât just about appearancesâitâs about control, power, and making sure everyone, including Mike and Dann, knows exactly where they stand.
⎠â
As the evening progresses, the hum of conversation and laughter fills the air, but Dann lingers near the edges of the room, keeping to herself. Her glass of sparkling water trembles slightly in her hand as she tries to blend into the background.
The soft lavender gown you gave her feels alien on her body, and sheâs keenly aware of every glance sent her way.
What she doesnât realize is that many of those glances are judgmental, the dress silently announcing her as out of place.
It doesnât take long for Mindy and the other girls to leave you with your parents and notice Dann standing awkwardly by the refreshments table. They exchange a quick look, their eyes gleaming with amusement, and saunter over, their movements purposeful and predatory.
âDann? Oh my god, hi.â Mindy says, her voice dripping with faux sweetness.
Dann startles slightly but nods, trying to smile âUm, hi.â
Samantha tilts her head, feigning curiosity âThatâs such a⌠unique dress youâre wearing. Where did you find it? A vintage shop?â
Dannâs cheeks burn, but she forces herself to meet their gaze.
âActually, YN gave it to me. She thought it would be appropriate for tonight.â
Their smiles widen, eyes sparkling with malicious delight.
âOh, our babygirl always so generous. Did YN let you borrow it from her last seasonâs wardrobe? Or was she just trying to make you look like a charity case?"
"I mean, you must feel so lucky to be here with all these important people in such a... dated dress."
âVery retro, not something anyone else here could pull off, but good for you for trying.â
Dannâs grip tightens around her glass, her stomach twisting. She knows theyâre mocking her, but she refuses to let them see her falter.
âThank you,â She says evenly âIâll take that as a compliment.â
Mindy arches an eyebrow, clearly surprised by the response, but Sam isnât done yet.
âItâs just so sweet of YN to give you something she wouldnât wear anymore. Such a generous friend, donât you think?â
Before Dann can respond, Seonghwaâs voice cuts through the conversation like a blade.
âLadies, there you are. Iâve been looking for you.â
He appears at Dannâs side, his presence commanding, and tone light but with an edge that makes your friends instantly fall silent.
âHwa,â Mindy says with a wide smile âWe were just admiring YNâs generosity in lending Dann one of her dresses. So thoughtful of her.â
Seonghwaâs lips curve into a polite but icy smile âOf course,â He turns to Dann, his expression unreadable âAre you enjoying yourself?â
Dann hesitates, but nods âYes, thank you.â
âGood.â His eyes flick to your friends, his smile never wavering âIf youâll excuse us, I promised to introduce Dann to some of my friends.â
All the girls exchange glances but step aside.
âSure, have fun.â
Seonghwa grabs Dannâs arm and leads her away, his steps measured and graceful. Once theyâre out of earshot, he leans in slightly, his voice low enough that only Dann can hear.
âDonât let them get to you. Theyâre just bored.â
Dann glances at him, unsure whether to trust the sudden kindness.
âThanks, I guess.â
Once theyâre seated with a drink in hand, Hwa turns to Dann, his expression serious.
"So, howâs everything going with Mike? Whatâs the plan for tonight?"
Dann glances around nervously, making sure no one is listening.
"Mike told me to tell Hongjoong a fake address so that he wouldnât come tonight... he wanted YN to be left alone, humiliated. He said he was going to make sure she felt small in front of everyone during his speech."
Seonghwa nods, pleased with the progress of the plan, but thereâs a certain coldness in his smile.
"And youâre sure heâll follow through? Mike doesnât usually miss a chance to put YN in her place."
Dann sighs, her hands trembling slightly as she grips her glass.
"I donât know if I can keep doing this... but heâs promised that tonight, itâll all come together. YN will feel what itâs like to be cast aside."
Seonghwa watches her for a moment, assessing, before leaning back and taking a sip of his own drink.
"Good. Just remember, if you want to be part of this, you have to follow through. All of us are in this together now."
Dann nods, but the weight of her actions starts to sink in. She knows sheâs in too deep to back out now, and yet the guilt gnaws at her.
As Seonghwa continues to chat with her about their plans, she canât shake the uneasy feeling that the lines between revenge and her own humanity are beginning to blur.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
Hongjoong adjusted his cufflinks in the mirror, his expression thoughtful as he glanced at his reflection. The evening was meant to be a special oneâan elegant celebration at the Ritz, an event where he would finally step into the world you navigate so effortlessly.
But something didnât feel right. Why did your family decide to change the venue so suddenly?
Confused but trusting, Hongjoong went along with the information, believing it was just a miscommunication. He got ready, dressed in the suit you bought him, ready to experience a world beyond his usual scope.
But as he drove, the city fell behind him, the roads winding into quiet, unfamiliar countryside. There was no Ritz, just a few ordinary homes and farmland stretching into the distance.
Panic started to settle in his chest as his phone buzzed, showing no signal. He tried calling you, Dann, and even Wooyoung, but no calls went through.
The further he drove, the more he realized Dann had played a cruel trickâluring him away, leaving him isolated and alone.
Anger surged through him as he realized the intent. Dann had deliberately ensured he wouldnât make it to the party, making you feel abandoned, unsure, and hurt.
His fists clenched around the steering wheel, frustration boiling to the surface. He needed to get to you, to make sure you knew it wasnât his choice to stay away.
Desperate, he took a U-turn, his tires screeching slightly on the gravel as he headed back toward the city.
The night was dark, and the streets were eerily quiet as he raced toward the first address you had given him.
⎠â
The party was in full swing, and you had slipped into your role effortlessly. Your laughter echoed through the room as you sipped champagne, your friends and guests hanging on your every word.
Mindy, Sam, Wooyoung, and a few others surrounded you, chatting about the latest gossip in the city, and the music played softly in the background, setting a festive mood.
You looked around the grand ballroom, admiring the luxurious dĂŠcor, the chandeliers that sparkled overhead, and the gentle hum of conversation filling the air.
It was everything you had grown accustomed toâthe perfect night of glamour, elegance, and being the center of attention.
But as the evening wore on, you couldnât shake the nagging feeling in your chest. It was as though something was missing, and that something was Hongjoong.
You glance at your phone again, noting that the time is slipping away, and Hongjoong still hasn't arrived. The champagne, which had initially made you feel warm and confident, now seemed to weigh on you, making you restless.
âWhere is little Hongjoong, babydoll?â Wooyoung asks you.
âDon't know, he should be here by now.â
âMaybe he doesn't know how to get here.â
âMaybe, let me call him.â You excused yourself from the group and wandered toward a quieter corner.
Your heels click softly on the marble floor. You unlock your phone and send a quick text to Joong.
YNâĄ: Joong, are you coming? Itâs getting late.
You bite your lip, anxiously staring at the screen, waiting for a reply. But the familiar bubble showing that he is typing never appeared.
Frowning, you call him next, holding the phone to your ear as the ringing tone echoed in your eardrum. But when the call goes straight to voicemail, your anxiety deepens.
Where is he?
You make sure to include him in this world you live in, and now, you are starting to doubt if heâd actually show up.
There had been no signs of trouble earlier, but now the silence from Hongjoongâs end is unsettling.
You pace slowly, trying to calm your racing thoughts, but it's hard to ignore the tightness in your chest. You know you shouldnât be worriedâhe might be caught up in traffic, or maybe something had come upâbut deep down, a quiet voice is telling you it isn't that simple.
You text him again, hoping for any kind of response.
YNâĄ: Kim Hongjoong. Where are you?
Nothing.
The seconds stretch into what feels like minutes, and your stomach twists. You donât like this feeling.
You donât like being uncertain.
You donât like being let down.
You return to the party but find yourself unable to focus on the conversations around you. Your gaze flickers back to your phone as the minutes tick by. Your thoughts keep drifting back to Hongjoong.
What is keeping him? Is he really on his way? Or has something happened?
You take a long sip of your champagne, trying to shake the unease, but it lingers.
You just wanted him here, wanted to be with him.
You force yourself to rejoin the party, plastering on a faint smile as you move through the crowd. Mindy and Wooyoung are still chatting nearby, but their laughter feels muffled, distant.
The sparkle of the chandeliers seems dimmer now, the glamour of the evening dulled by the absence of the one person you were hoping to share it with.
âSweetie, there you are,â Your motherâs voice pulls you from your spiraling thoughts. âMikeâs about to give his speech. Come, stand near the front.â
You nod, following her to the center of the ballroom, where Mike is standing on a small stage. The guests quiet down as he takes the microphone, his charismatic smile commanding attention.
âLadies and gentlemen,â He begins, his voice smooth and confident âFirst, thank you all for being here tonight. It means the world to me to celebrate this milestone with my family and our closest friends. As most of you know, Iâve recently been entrusted with a significant position in our family business, and I am honored to take on this responsibility.â
The crowd applauds, a few cheers breaking out. Mike raises a hand, his grin widening.
âI want to take a moment to express my gratitude for the opportunity to step into this role and carry the legacy of the Clarke family forward. My parents have worked tirelessly to get me here, and I will do everything in my power to uphold the values of this company. Itâs an honor to follow in the footsteps of my father and grandfather.â
A round of applause erupted, and you force a smile, applauding with the crowd, even though a sense of dread fills your chest.
You can already feel where this is going.
âBut before I move forward,â He continues, his voice gaining an edge of sarcasm âI have to acknowledge someone whoâs always been there for me, even if she doesnât always realize how much of a burden sheâs been.â
His eyes flick to you, and for a moment, the entire room seems to pause.
Your heart skips a beat. You try to keep your composure, but there is an unsettling feeling settling deep in your stomach.
You force yourself to stand tall, but the quiet murmur of the crowd around you makes you feel exposed, like a target under a spotlight.
âAs my sister, YN has been⌠well, how should I say this⌠a distraction,â Mike says, his voice dripping with mock affection âSheâs been more focused on parties and⌠friendships than actual responsibility. And I think itâs time she learns that life isnât all about being the center of attention.â
You feel your cheeks burn, the words piercing through you like ice. You can feel the eyes of the guests on you, the weight of their silent judgment. You try to maintain your composure, but the sting of Mikeâs words make you feel small.
Like you donât belong here.
Like you are nothing more than a plaything in the shadow of your perfect, golden brother.
Mikeâs gaze never wavers from yours as he delivers the final blow.
âMaybe one day, sheâll realize that success isnât about what you can get from people, but about what you can give back. I can only hope that she grows up soon enough.â
A few uncomfortable chuckles rip through the crowd, and your chest tightens. The blood rushes to your ears, and for a brief moment, you feel like you canât breathe.
You look around, trying to find someoneâs gazeâanyone who might offer you some comfortâbut they all seem to look away, as if they have already accepted Mikeâs harsh truth.
Your father is smiling, nodding as if itâs all just a joke. Your mother is watching you with a mixture of concern and hurt.
But you feel entirely alone.
The crowd clap hesitantly, you manage to give a tight smile, though it feels like the weight of the world is on your shoulders.
You stand still, trying not to let the tears welling in your eyes break free.
You have no idea where Hongjoong isâif he is even comingâbut right now, you need him more than ever.
You need someone who sees you for who you truly are, not the image that Mike and everyone else had constructed for you.
âExcuse me,â You murmur to no one in particular, slipping away from the crowd.
⎠â
The party had begun to mellow out after Mikeâs speech, the guests turning their attention to the endless flow of wine and hors dâoeuvres. In one of the quieter corners of the room, Dann sat alone, her champagne glass untouched on the small table before her.
She fiddled with the hem of her dress, her eyes flickering toward the laughter and conversation swirling around her.
Mike, ever the picture of confidence, approached her with a sly grin, his glass of scotch in hand.
âWell, Dann,â He says smoothly, sliding into the chair beside her. âHow much did you enjoy YNâs little⌠public humbling?â
Dann hesitates, caught off guard by the directness of the question. But then, her lips curl into a faint smirk.
âI canât say it wasnât satisfying,â She replies, her tone measured but laced with an undercurrent of bitterness.
He chuckles darkly âI thought youâd appreciate it. After all, youâve had a front-row seat to her antics, havenât you?â
She shrugs, her fingers tracing the rim of her glass âIâm around her every day, every hour. I see more than anyone else does.â
Mikeâs brows lift, his curiosity piqued âReally? And where is our dear YN now? Have you seen her?â
Dannâs eyes darted toward the balcony doors âProbably outside, drinking, smoking, who knows.â
Mike leans forward, his voice dropping slightly âSmoking?â
âYeah,â Dann replies casually âShe does it often. You wouldnât notice, but I do. She hides it well.â
He studies her for a moment, as if trying to gauge the truth in her words. Then, with a smirk, he straightens up.
âInteresting. Well, I suppose I should go check on her, make sure she hasnât set anything on fire in her dramatics.â
Dann let out a small laugh, but it didn't quite reach her eyes. She watches as Mike rose and headed toward the garden doors, his steps purposeful and unhurried.
⎠â
The garden is quiet, the cool night air wrapping around you as you step outside. The soft glow of the party lights spills onto the garden, but you move further into the shadows, needing to be alone.
You clutch your champagne flute tightly, the glass cold against your palm. Your chest feels heavy, the weight of Mikeâs words pressing down on you.
Why does he always do this? Why canât he just let you be?
You take a deep breath, the crisp air biting at your lungs, and tilt your head back to look at the stars. Theyâre beautiful, distant, and unattainableâjust like the life youâve always wanted.
Your hands shake slightly as you sip champagne, the liquid sloshing around in the crystal flute as you bring it to your lips. You donât care if that is already your fifth glass.
You need something to numb the ache in your chest, something to drown out the sting of Mikeâs words.
You fumble for a cigarette, pulling one from the pack with a trembling hand. The sweet strawberry scent fills the air as you lit it, inhaling deeply as the smoke curls around you like a shield. It doesnât help.
The words heâd saidâhow you arenât good enough, how you would never live up to his expectationsâreplays in your mind over and over.
You try to focus on the cool air, the quiet of the garden, but the ache in your heart doesn't go away. You felt completely exposed out here, the vulnerability that had crept in from Mikeâs public humiliation gnawing at your insides.
You didnât care that you were smoking in a garden meant for guests, you didnât care about anything at all right now.
How long have you been out here? An hour? Two? You donât even know anymore. Your head is fuzzy from the alcohol and the smoke, and all you want is for someone to make it stop.
But no one is coming.
Your phone buzzes in your purse, but you donât bother looking at it. It can be anyoneâyour parents, Mindy, maybe even Seonghwa.
But the person you truly want to hear from is nowhere to be found.
The door to the garden creaks open behind you, the sound sharp and jarring. You flinch, not needing to turn around to know who it is.
The anger in the footsteps, the unmistakable tension in the airâit could only be Mike.
âYN.â His voice cuts through the night like a blade.
You take another drag from the cigarette, your back stiffening.
âWhat do you want?â
âI want you to stop acting like an embarrassment!â His words are sharp, accusing âWhat the fuck are you doing out here, smoking and drinking like some commonââ
You whip around to face him, your own anger rising like a tide.
âI donât need you to lecture me, Mike.â
âClearly, you need someone to remind you of your place,â He shoots back, his tone venomous âYouâre out here, embarrassing the family, and you donât even care.â
Your lips curl into a bitter smile, your fingers still wrapped tightly around the cigarette.
âYouâve made it clear enough how you feel about me. Why donât you just get lost and leave me the fuck alone?â
Your voice is raw, but your words are sharp and final.
Mikeâs jaw clenches, his anger bubbling over. Before you can react, he steps forward, his hand lashing out and landing across your cheek with a sickening crack.
You gasp, your head snapping to the side from the force of the slap.
For a moment, everything goes still. The sting spreads across your face, your vision blurring, but it isnât just the slapâitâs the realization that he didn't change during these years and his knack of hitting you when he's upset is still there.
That he can hurt you again, in front of everyone, and no one would stop him.
Your lip splits, the taste of blood mixing with the bitterness in your mouth. Your eyes fill with tears, but you blink them back, refusing to show weakness.
âYou'll always be the same, right?â Your voice trembles with the weight of the words.
Mikeâs chest heaves with anger, but you don't care. You aren't afraid of him anymore. His cruelty has pushed you to the edge for too long, and now, something inside you snaps.
But as much as you want to say more, to lash out at him for everything he has ever done, your throat tightens. You swallow the lump in your throat, clenching your fists at your sides.
âGet back inside, YN,â He sneers, turning on his heel âYouâre making this family look pathetic.â
You stay silent, watching him walk away, the sound of his footsteps echoing in the empty garden. You sink back onto the bench, hands trembling.
You hadnât expected him to hit you againâbut it doesnât matter. Nothing about this night matters anymore.
What is left for you? Where is Hongjoong?
As you sit there, all you can feel is the weight of his slap and the suffocating silence of the garden.
⎠â
The mansion looms in the distance as you step out of the car, the cold air biting at your skin through your thin dress. The chauffeur doesnât say a word, and you donât acknowledge him.
You didnât say goodbye to anyone at the partyâdidnât even care if anyone noticed you slipping out.
You push open the front door, the familiar creak echoing in the grand, empty hall. The house is silent, save for the faint hum of the refrigerator from the kitchen and some maids doing errands.
Itâs late, but a light glows faintly from the far side of the room. Dannâs mother is there, cleaning up, as she often does late into the night.
She looks up as you enter, her expression softening into concern the moment she sees you.
âMiss YN?â She says, her voice cautious yet kind âWhat happened to your lip?â
You touch your fingers to your mouth, wincing slightly at the sting of the torn skin. The dried blood cracks under your touch, but you force a small, dismissive smile.
âItâs nothing,â You say, your voice hoarse and detached.
She frowns, setting the dish towel down âIt doesnât look like nothing. Are you sure youâre alright?â
You nod, unwilling to engage any further âIâm fine. Goodnight.â
Without waiting for a reply, you make your way upstairs, each step feeling heavier than the last. By the time you reach your room, the weight of the night is unbearable.
You close the door behind you, leaning against it for a moment before letting out a shaky breath.
The room is exactly as you left itâimmaculate, pristine, and entirely too cold. You slip out of your dress, trading the suffocating fabric for a pair of loose sweatpants and an oversized hoodie.
Crawling into bed, you stare at the ceiling, the events of the night playing over and over in your mind.
Mikeâs humiliating speech, the slap that still burns on your cheek, and the conspicuous absence of Hongjoong.
Hongjoong.
You held onto the hope that he would show up, that heâd swoop in and make everything feel bearable, but he didnât. Not a call, not a message. Just silence.
Your chest tightens, and your throat feels raw as the urge to cry threatens to consume you.
But you donât. You wonât.
You clench your jaw, swallowing hard against the lump thatâs risen in your throat. Tears prick at the corners of your eyes, but you blink them away furiously, refusing to let them fall.
Crying feels like defeat, like letting Mike, Hongjoong, and everyone else see how much theyâve gotten to you.
You curl up on your side, staring blankly at the wall. The ache in your chest is suffocating, but you press your lips together, forcing yourself to stay composed.
Mikeâs words echo in your earsâhis sneer, his disdain. And the silence from Hongjoongâthe boy who is supposed to be on your side, who is supposed to see you, really see youâis deafening.
But you wonât cry. You wonât give them that power.
You take a shaky breath and close your eyes, trying to block it all out. The humiliation, the loneliness, the betrayalâtheyâre all too much, but you wonât let them break you.
You are a Clarke. And YN Clarke doesnât cry.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
Hongjoong bursts into the venue, his heart pounding from the frantic drive. The event is still lively, guests milling about in elegant attire, but his eyes scan the room for one person onlyâyou.
He pulls out his phone, scrolling to your name, his thumb hovering over the call button. With a shaky breath, he presses it, raising the phone to his ear as he moves through the crowd.
âCome on, pretty. Pick up.â He mutters under his breath.
The line doesnât even ringâit goes straight to voicemail. His stomach sinks, and a fresh wave of panic washes over him. He tries texting instead:
JoongieâĄ: YN, Iâm so sorry. Iâm here now. Where are you? Please let me explain.
He hits send and watches the message sit undelivered, the grey checkmark mocking him.
âDamn it,â He hisses, running a hand through his hair.
âHongjoong?â
A familiar voice cuts through the din. He turns to see your mother standing a few feet away, her brows knitted together in mild surprise.
âMrs. Clarke,â He says, relief flooding his tone as he quickly approaches her âHave you seen YN? Iâve been trying to find her.â
Her expression softens, though thereâs a trace of sadness in her eyes. She sighs, folding her arms across her chest.
âI havenât seen her in a while. She mightâve left already.â
Hongjoongâs face falls âLeft? Why would she leave?â
Mrs. Clarke hesitates, clearly choosing her words carefully.
âYou know how these events can be⌠overwhelming. Sometimes, she just needs space.â
His heart twists. He can sense thereâs more she isnât saying, but he doesnât press her. Instead, he nods, his mind racing with worry.
âDid she⌠say anything before she left? Did she seem okay?â
Her lips press into a thin line, and she glances away briefly âShe didnât say much. ButâŚâ She pauses, then shakes her head âI think itâs best if you talk to her yourself. Maybe she is at home.â
Hongjoong nods again, swallowing the lump in his throat.
âThank you. Iâll find her.â
The elegant woman gives him a small, almost apologetic smile before stepping away, leaving Hongjoong standing amidst the glitz and glamour of the party.
The lights feel too bright, the laughter too sharp. He dials your number again, and when it goes straight to voicemail, his frustration bubbles over.
âPretty, please, call me back,â He says into the phone, his voice strained âI need to talk to you. Iâm sorry I wasnât here earlier. Please, just⌠let me know youâre okay.â
He hangs up, his chest heaving. Every second that passes feels like an eternity. He starts pacing, determined, Hongjoong sets off toward the exit, hoping against hope that heâs not too late to make things right.
After a twenty minute drive, Hongjoong pulls up to your house, his heart pounding as he steps out of the car. The sprawling mansion looms in the moonlight, its grandeur only amplifying his anxiety.
He jogs up the stone steps and rings the doorbell, shifting nervously from foot to foot.
After a moment, the door creaks open, and a maid greets him. Her expression brightens slightly when she recognizes him.
âOh, Mr. Hongjoong, youâre a friend of Miss YN, arenât you?â
âYes,â He says, his voice laced with urgency âIs she home?â
The maid hesitates, then nods âI think she is in her room now, come in.â
Hongjoong exhales, his chest tightening âThank you.â
He makes his way through the elegant hallways, his footsteps echoing faintly on the polished floors.
When he reaches your door, he finds it closed. He pauses, then knocks softly.
âYN? Itâs me, Hongjoong,â He says, his voice trembling slightly âI⌠I need to talk to you. Please.â
Thereâs no response.
He knocks again, this time with more urgency âYN, Iâm so sorry. I need you to know what happened. Please, just give me a chance to explain.â
Inside, you sit on the edge of your bed, your knees pulled up to your chest. You can hear every word heâs saying, the emotion in his voice tugging at your heart.
But you donât move, your resolve firm. You canât face him right nowânot like this.
Hongjoong presses his forehead against the door, his fists clenching at his sides.
âI was tricked,â He says, his voice breaking âDann⌠she gave me the wrong address. I thought I was going to the party, but it was all a lie. By the time I realized it was too late. Iâm so sorry, YN. I didnât mean to let you down.â
Still, you remain silent, staring at the door with a mix of anger, sadness, and exhaustion.
You want to believe himâyou really doâbut the weight of the evening keeps you rooted in place.
Hongjoong leans back, running a hand through his hair âI hate that I wasnât there for you,â He continues âI know tonight was important to you, and I messed it up. But please, pretty⌠I care about you. Iâll do whatever it takes to make this right.â
Your heart aches at his words, but you canât bring yourself to respond. Maybe itâs the humiliation still fresh in your mind or the sting of feeling abandoned when you needed him most.
Either way, you decide to stay quiet.
After a long silence, he sighs heavily âI get it, you donât want to talk to me right now. Thatâs okay. Iâll wait until youâre ready.â
He lingers by the door for a moment longer, as if hoping for a miracle. When none comes, he finally steps away, his footsteps retreating down the hallway.
Inside, you exhale shakily, your hands gripping the edge of the bed. You feel torn, caught between your desire to open the door and the overwhelming need to protect yourself.
Maybe when you feel betterâwhen the pain isnât so rawâyou can talk to him.
But for now, you stay where you are, letting the quiet of the room envelop you.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The next few days pass in a haze. You keep to your room, the curtains drawn and the world shut out. You donât want to face anyoneâMike, your parents, your friends, and especially Hongjoong.
The humiliation from the party still lingers like a wound that refuses to heal, and you canât bear the thought of their pity or judgment.
Your mother knocks on the door each morning, her voice soft and tentative, but you always feign a cough or complain of feeling unwell. It works, for now.
They let you stay hidden away, though you know itâs only a matter of time before they stop accepting your excuses.
By Wednesday, the isolation is starting to feel suffocating, but you still canât bring yourself to leave.
The knock on your door comes earlier than usual, followed by your motherâs voice.
âSweetie, itâs me. Can I come in?â
You hesitate, considering pretending to be asleep, but before you can answer, the door creaks open. She steps in, her expression a mixture of worry and sadness as she closes the door behind her.
She sits on the edge of your bed, smoothing the blanket with her manicured hands.
âYouâve been in here for days,â She says gently âIâm worried about you, sweetheart.â
âIâm fine,â You murmur, your voice hoarse âI just need some rest.â
She reaches out, brushing your hair âYou donât have to pretend with me, YN. I know how hard that night must have been for you.â
Her words catch you off guard, and for a moment, you feel your resolve waver.
But instead of breaking down, you pull the blanket tighter around yourself.
âI donât want to talk about it.â
She nods, her gaze softening âThatâs okay. But I need you to know that⌠Iâm here for you. No matter what.â You donât respond, your eyes fixed on the wall. After a moment, she sighs and leans forward, kissing your forehead âIâll let you rest. Just⌠donât shut yourself off completely, okay?â
Later that evening, another knock sounds at your door. This time, itâs your father.
He doesnât wait for permission before entering, holding a small black box in his hand.
âDarling,â He says, his tone unusually bright âI thought you could use a little pick-me-up.â
You glance at him warily as he places the box on the bed beside you.
âWhat is it?â
âOpen it and see,â He says, his smile strained.
You sit up slowly, pulling the box closer. Inside, nestled on a velvet cushion, is a sleek key fob. Your breath catches as you recognize the emblemâyour fatherâs favorite luxury brand.
âA car?â You ask, looking up at him.
He nods, his smile faltering slightly âItâs parked in the driveway. I thought⌠after everything, you deserve something special.â
You stare at the key, a mix of emotions swirling inside you.
This isnât the first time heâs done thisâtried to smooth over their failures with expensive gifts. When you were a child, it was toys, then clothes, then trips abroad.
Now, itâs cars.
âThanks,â You say quietly, your fingers curling around the key.
Your father seems to relax at your response, as if the gesture has absolved him of guilt.
âTake your time, darling. Whenever youâre ready, we can go for a drive.â
You nod, watching as he leaves the room. The door clicks shut behind him, and youâre alone again.
You stare at the key in your hand, the weight of it heavier than it should be. Itâs a beautiful gift, but it doesnât fill the emptiness inside you.
It doesnât erase the memory of Mikeâs words or the ache of feeling like youâre always second best.
You set the key down on your nightstand and lie back against the pillows, closing your eyes. Maybe tomorrow, youâll feel strong enough to face the world.
But for now, you stay cocooned in your room, the only place where you feel safe.
⎠â
The next morning, you wake up before your alarm, determination burning in your chest. Youâve spent days locked away, hidden from the world, but that ends today.
No one at school knows what really happened that night, and you intend to keep it that way. As far as theyâre concerned, you were just under the weather.
Also, after four days, you decide to turn on your phone, which immediately fills up with notifications of missed messages and calls. You decide to take a moment to review it.
10 missed calls from Mindy.
7 missed calls from Brat Woo.
2 missed calls from Hwa.
1 missed call from Mingi.
28 missed calls from Joongie.
486 unread messages.
You don't want to read so many messages, so you prefer to shut it down and start to get ready for the day.
You pull open your closet door and scan through the racks of designer clothes.
After a few moments, you settle on a pearl-white blouse that hugs your frame perfectly, paired with a plaid mini-skirt that shows off your legs, and your favorite jimmy chooâs high heels complete the look, adding the perfect touch of glamour.
Your makeup is flawless, of course. You conceal every imperfection, erasing any hint of the chaos youâve endured.
The faint scab on your lip vanishes beneath a carefully chosen red lipstick, and the flush of blush gives your cheeks a healthy, radiant glow.
The girl staring back at you in the mirror looks exactly as she should: untouchable, effortless, and every bit the queen bee.
Outside, your new car gleams under the morning sun, a symbol of your parentâs guilt and their way of fixing everything with a price tag.
You donât care. Today, itâs a weapon, and you know exactly how to use it.
The engine purrs as you pull into the school parking lot, catching everyoneâs attention. Heads turn, conversations falter, and by the time you step out, all eyes are on you.
You move with purpose, your heels clicking against the pavement as you stride toward the entrance.
You can feel the weight of their stares, hear the murmurs of curiosity.
âIs that YNâs new car?â
âDidnât she call in sick for the past few days?â
âShe looks gorgeous!â
You smirk inwardly, keeping your expression neutral. Let them wonder. Let them speculate.
None of it matters.
Inside, your friends are waiting near your locker, their faces lighting up as they spot you.
âBabe! Youâre back!â Mindy exclaims, her voice tinged with relief âWe were so worried about you!â
âWhat happened? Are you feeling better?â Another friend chimes in.
You shrug casually, opening your locker as if this is just another normal day.
âIâm fine. Just needed a few days to recover from the flu. Nothing serious.â
Mindyâs eyes flicker to your car keys, which youâre holding deliberately in your hand.
âAnd the car? Is that new?â
You flash her a small smile, dangling the keys for emphasis âA little gift from my parents. They thought I deserved a pick-me-up.â
The group erupts into compliments, fawning over your car and your outfit. Itâs almost too easy to redirect their attention.
But as you glance around, your gaze lands on Hongjoong in the distance entering the library.
Maybe itâs time to talk with him about that night, he owes you an apology.
âI see you in class, girls.â
Without waiting for a response, you make your way to the library.
The library is quiet, the faint rustle of pages and soft whispers creating a cocoon of calm. You scan the room until your eyes land on Hongjoong, sitting at a table with a few of his friends.
He looks up just as you approach, his face shifting between surprise and relief.
âYN,â He starts, rising from his seat, âIââ
âSave it for later, Hongjoong,â You cut him off sharply, your tone leaving no room for argument âWe need to talk about what you said that night.â
He hesitates, glancing awkwardly at his friends, but your unwavering stare makes him nod and follow you to a secluded corner of the library.
Once youâre alone, you cross your arms, your eyes narrowing.
âWhy didnât you show up at the party? I waited for you for almost three hours, Joong.â
âI know, I know, pretty,â He says immediately, reaching out to steady your waist, his tone pleading âBut like I told you that night, Dann tricked meââ
You cut him off again with a scoff, pulling back âDann? You promised me you wouldnât talk to her again.â
âAnd I didnât start the conversation!â He protests, frustration creeping into his voice âShe approached me that day at the mall.â
âWhat?â You blink, momentarily thrown off. The situation sounds ridiculous, almost laughable.
âThat day, I was shopping, and out of nowhere, Dann appeared, asking what I was doing there. When I mentioned the partyââ He pauses, sighing heavily as his hand rakes through his hair, âShe told me the venue had changed and said sheâd send me the new address. I thought it was odd, but when she mentioned your mom inviting her, I believed it.â
Your jaw tightens âAnd then?â
âI drove to the address she gave me,â He continues, his voice dropping with guilt âIt was in the middle of nowhere. No signal, no way to contact you or anyone else. By the time I realized what was going on, it was too late. I rushed back to the Ritz and then to your house as soon as I could, butâŚâ
Youâre silent for a moment, processing his words. None of it makes sense.
Dann, sweet, shy, unassuming Dann, pulling off a plan like this? The thought feels absurd.
Then again, you remind yourself, people arenât always what they seem.
âAnd why did you trust her? Why didnât you call me after she told you that?â You press, your tone sharper now.
Hongjoongâs hands tighten briefly around your waist before he mutters.
âShe said maybe you were busy and forgot to tell me. I... I trusted her because she was my friend.â His voice is barely above a whisper, the admission dripping with shame.
âOh my god, Joongie.â You let out a bitter laugh, shaking your head âI thought you were smart. But I understand. She was your friend, and you didnât think sheâd trick you like that.â
He bites his lip, clearly embarrassed, but when you reach out to cup his cheeks, lifting his gaze to yours, he softens.
âNow you owe me an apology,â You murmur, your lips brushing his lightly âYou left me all alone.â
He smiles at your pout, a playful glint in his eyes âI know. What about dinner after school?â
You shake your head, frowning âI want another kind of apology. You know what I mean, Kim Hongjoong.â
And of course, he knows. But he canât resist teasing you, just a little.
âWe canât do anything indecent here, pretty,â He murmurs, his hands slipping lower to rest on your hips as he pulls you closer âI donât want to get us in trouble.â
You roll your eyes but let the moment linger for a breath longer before stepping back, a plan already forming in your mind.
âFine,â You say, straightening your posture and fixing him with a determined look âBut this isnât over. And speaking of people owing me, Iâm going to have a little chat with Dann. She has some explaining to do.â
Hongjoong stiffens, his playful demeanor vanishing âYNâmaybe you should let it go. You know how Dann is. Sheâll twist things, make it worse.â
âNot this time.â Your voice is steady, cold âShe went too far, and Iâm not letting her get away with it. If she wants to play games, Iâll show her how itâs done.â
He watches as you stride out of the library, determination radiating from every step.
He knows better than to argue when youâre like this, but even he canât help the twinge of unease at the thought of whatâs coming next.
⎠â
The final bell rings, and students rush to leave the school. The hallways are alive with chatter, but you remain by your locker, surrounded by her entourageâMindy, Wooyoung, Samantha, and a few others. Hongjoong lingers close by, his face a mixture of anticipation and tension.
As the crowd thins, you spot Dann walking down the hall, clutching her books, her head low as if trying to make herself invisible.
Your lips curl into a sharp smile, eyes glinting with cold determination.
âDann!â You call out, voice slicing through the noise like a whip.
Dann freezes, her face draining of color. Slowly, she turns, her eyes wide as they meet yours.
It's been days since that day at the party and sheâs been so nervous about you finding out what she did.
You saunter toward her, your friends following closely, their presence an unspoken threat.
âYN, I have toââ Dann begins, but you cut her off.
âDonât even try, Dann. Iâm not in the mood for your pathetic excuses.â You step closer, your gaze narrowing âI just have one question for you: What made you think you could lie to Hongjoong and me and get away with it?â
Dann swallows hard, glancing at the others, who are watching her like predators sizing up their prey.
âWhatââ
âOh, donât give me that!â You snap, throwing her hands up dramatically âYou know what you did that day.â Dannâs panic builds, and her breath catches in her lungs for a moment âYou didnât mean to send Joongie to some random, deserted place? You didnât mean to ruin my night?â
Dannâs grip tightens on her books âI wasnât trying toââ
âYou werenât trying to what?â You interrupt, voice dripping with mockery âYou werenât trying to sabotage me? Youâre such a bad liar, Dann.â
Mindy smirks, chiming in âI mean, seriously, Dann. Did you really think you could pull this off? Youâre so⌠gullible.â
âAnd desperate,â Wooyoung adds with a chuckle, earning a snicker from the others.
You cross your arms, your expression one of feigned hurt.
âYou know, I even gave you that dress for the party. That expensive designer dress. Because I thought, âHey, maybe Dann deserves a chance to feel special for once.ââ You pause âGuess I was wrong.â
Dannâs eyes well up with tears, but she shakes her head, trying to muster a defense.
âYN, I didnât mean to ruin anything. I justââ
âJust what?â Your voice rises, drawing the attention of a small crowd of lingering students. âJust decided to be so dumb and submissive that youâd believe anything someone told you? Or are you working with someone?â
The accusation hangs in the air, and Dannâs lips part as if to respond, but she quickly closes them, her silence speaking volumes.
To everyone's surprise; Hongjoong steps forward, his jaw tight.
âYou know what, Dann? I canât believe I trusted you. You used to be my friend. I thought you were better than this.â
Dann flinches at his words, her composure slipping further.
âJoong, IâŚâ Dann looks down, her tears threatening to spill over.
You smirk, stepping closer until youâre towering over Dann.
âDid you want me to be mad at him?â
Dannâs face flushes with humiliation, and she shakes her head vehemently.
âNo! Thatâs not what Iââ
âSave it, youâre pathetic, Dann. And youâre not just a liarâyouâre a bad one. Honestly, I doubt you came up with this plan on your own. Someone mustâve put you up to it. Who was it?â
âMaybe it was Seonghwa, I saw them talking at the party.â Mindy snaps with a grin âRight, Dann?â
Dann remains silent, her lips trembling as she clutches her books tighter. She won't say a word about it, and you frown at the mention of Seonghwaâs name.
Seonghwa talking with her, What the fuck?
âNo answer?â You laugh bitterly âI see, youâre too scared to even admit it. Well, let me give you some advice: Stay out of my way. Youâre not in my league, Dann. You never were, and never will.â
Wooyoung steps forward again with a grin âYou owe YN and Hongjoong an apology.â
âA real one. Not that half-hearted excuse you tried earlier.â Sam adds.
Dannâs tears finally spill over, and she whispers âIâm sorry. I didnât mean to hurt anyone.â
You roll her eyes, turning to your friends.
âLetâs go. Iâm done wasting my time on her.â
As they walk away, you glance over your shoulder one last time, lips curling into a satisfied smirk.
âOh, and Dann? Donât ever think about messing with me again. Next time, you wonât get off so easily.â
The crowd disperses, leaving Dann standing alone, her face streaked with tears. Behind her trembling exterior, a flicker of something elseâanger or determinationâtakes root.
⎠â
Dann steps are heavy, her hands trembling slightly as she clutches her bag. Tears still cling to her lashes, but her face is set in a grim determination.
The humiliation at school burns fresh in her mind, your cutting words replaying over and over like a cruel mantra.
By the time she reaches the front door of Clrarkeâs mansion, her shame has transformed into angerâa searing, all-consuming fury.
She pushes open the heavy doors without hesitation, her steps echoing through the grand foyer.
There is Mike, sitting comfortably reading something.
âMike.â She says, her voice firm despite the lump in her throat.
Mike looks at her, his expression cool and calculating as always. He closes the book, his sharp eyes scanning her face.
âWell, well,â He drawls, his lips curling into a smirk âYou look like hell. Let me guessâQueen YN had her fun at your expense?â
Dann glares at him, dropping her bag onto the floor.
âShe humiliated me again. In front of everyone.â
Mike chuckles, crossing his arms âThatâs her style. Did you expect a thank-you card for all your hard work?â
âI expected her to be human for once,â Dann snaps, her voice trembling with emotion âBut sheâs not. Sheâs a monster. And Iâm done being her punching bag.â
Mikeâs smirk widens, a glint of approval in his eyes âFinally. I was starting to wonder if youâd ever grow a backbone.â
Dann takes a deep breath, forcing herself to steady âYou were right. About everything. YN needs to be taken down. For good.â
He raises an eyebrow, intrigued âAnd youâre ready to do what it takes?â
âYes,â Dann says without hesitation, her fists clenching at her sides âI want to destroy her. Her reputation, her relationships, her entire worldâI want it all gone.â
Mike stands up, and walks directly in front of her âNow youâre speaking my language. But do you have a plan, or are you just here to vent?â
Dann lifts her chin, meeting his gaze with newfound determination.
âI thought you might have some ideas. Youâre the one whoâs been watching her for years, waiting for her to slip up.â
âI do have a few ideas. But if weâre going to do this, weâll need to be smart. YNâs not stupidâsheâll see a direct attack coming from a mile away.â
Dann nods, her anger simmering just below the surface.
âSo what do we do?â
Mike gestures for her to follow him, leading her to a luxurious sitting room where he pours himself a drink.
He takes a slow sip before speaking.
âWe chip away at her. Little by little. Sheâs built this image of perfection and control, but all it takes is one crack for the whole thing to shatter.â He leans against the bar, his eyes gleaming with malice âWe start with Hongjoong. Make YN doubt his intentions.â
Dann swallows, the weight of his words settling over her.
âHow do we do that?â
Mike swirls his drink lazily, watching Dann with a satisfied smirk.
"Simple," He says "We make her think the one person she trusts most is betraying her."
Dann frowns, confused "Hongjoong? But heâs loyal to her."
He chuckles, shaking his head "Loyalty is fragile. YNâs world is built on power and controlâshe doesnât trust anyone completely. If we plant the right seeds, sheâll start questioning even him."
Dann crosses her arms "How? He barely even talks to anyone outside of their little circle."
Mike leans forward, his voice lowering conspiratorially.
"Iâm pretty sure that after that nerd missed the party, he will apologize to her, right? Maybe this time he will fuck her as an apology.â He smiles, his words full of venom.
Dann shifts uncomfortably at Mikeâs crude words, but she doesnât argue. Heâs rightâHongjoong will go crawling back to you, desperate to make it up to you.
Heâs like a lost puppy when it comes to you, willing to do anything to stay by your side.
Mike watches her reaction carefully, then smirks âAnd when that happens, weâll act.â
Dann furrows her brows âWhat do you mean?â
He sets his glass down with a soft clink, straightening up.
âIâll tell you later, now go.â
Dann hesitates, a flicker of uncertainty passing over her face, but she does what he ordered. She turned around and left the room.
Whatever Mike is planning must be good.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
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DudeâŚletâs kill Mike
IâM SICK OF THIS MAN I SWEAR!
CHAPTER STARTED OFF SO CUTE WITH READER AND HONGJOONG GOING ON A DATE AND NOW I CAN FEEL IT SENSE THAT JOONG GONNA SHOW UP AT A DIFFERENT VENUE AND READER GONNA BE UPSET AHHHHHHHH
We need to kill Mike we gotta stop him iâm so serious i need reader or someone to hit him if future chapters preferably i want reader to hit him
moving on, Iâm excited for the next part even thought itâs literally titled "the first breakdown" and i just know iâm gonna feel sad for reader more than I already do especially after this chapter
keep up the amazing work! <3
Popular, Boy
â06: The first move.
Pairing: Nerd!Hongjoong x Popular!Reader
Genre: +18, slow burn, angst, smut, drama, dark academic, love triangle.
wc: 10,8k
Summary: You and Hongjoong grow closer, but in your world, trust is a dangerous thing. Mike's cruelty lingers, and in the shadows, a plan unfolds... One designed to break you.
Break your heart, and make you question everything... especially Hongjoong.
Warnings: Verbal abuse, past trauma (?), power dynamics, fluff, suggestive.
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â05 â07: The first breakdown.
The low rumble of the engine fills the quiet evening air as you glance out the window. The car is nothing like the sleek, expensive vehicles sitting in your familyâs garage. Itâs modest, a little old, and the faint smell of worn leather lingers in the air.
âYou borrowed this from your dad?â You ask, raising an eyebrow as you turn to Hongjoong.
He shrugs, his hands gripping the steering wheel with a mix of focus and nervousness. âYeah. Figured itâs better than taking the bus.â
The bus? Hell no, you have never been in one and you hope it never happens.
You glance at him, a small, amused smirk playing on your lips. The whole thing is⌠endearing in a way you donât expect.
âSo, are you going to tell me where weâre going?â You cross your legs and adjust your pink leather jacket.
âNope.â His lips quirk into a smile, but he keeps his eyes on the road âJust sit back and enjoy the ride, pretty.â
You roll your eyes but donât press further. Thereâs something about his excitement that keeps your curiosity piqued.
When the car finally comes to a stop, you step out and immediately catch the sound of distant laughter and the faint scent of fried food in the air. Turning toward the neon-lit entrance ahead, your brows knit together.
âAn amusement park?â Your voice is tinged with surprise.
Hongjoong steps around to your side, his hands in his pockets and a slightly nervous look on his face.
âYou said youâd never been to one, soâŚâ He gestures toward the brightly lit rides.
You glance down at your outfitâhigh heel boots, a sleek skirt, and your leather jacketâthen back at him.
âAnd you didnât think to mention that I might want to dress for this?â
He grins, his nervousness fading into a playful confidence âYouâll be fine. You look beautiful and you could rock a runway in a park if you wanted to.â
You shake your head, unable to suppress a smile âFine. Lead the way.â
The ticket booth is up ahead, and you instinctively reach for your purse, already accustomed to paying for yourselfâand for others. But before you can even unzip it, Hongjoong steps forward, pulling out his wallet.
âTwo adults, please.â He says, handing over the cash.
You blink, momentarily stunned. People donât usually pay for you. They just assume youâll foot the bill, given your familyâs wealth. But here Hongjoong is, without hesitation, handling everything.
âThanks.â You say, your voice softer than usual.
He shoots you a small, reassuring smile âItâs a date, isnât it?â
The park is alive with energyâbright lights, music, and the unmistakable hum of excitement in the air. Youâre not sure what to expect, but as the night unfolds, you find yourself swept up in the moment.
Hongjoong pulls you from ride to ride, his enthusiasm contagious. You scream on the roller coasters, laugh uncontrollably on the spinning teacups, and you surprise yourself by enjoying the bumper cars, laughing uncontrollably as Hongjoong triedâand failedâto outmaneuver you.
Hongjoong made a great effort to win a small stuffed bunny at one of the carnival games, he handed it to you with a triumphant grin.
âFor you,â He says, holding it out.
âSeriously?â You ask, but there is no hiding the smile that tug at your lips âItâs so tacky.â
âTacky but adorable, just like you.â He counters with a pretty smile.
And you find yourself clutching the fluffy bunny tightly as you continue through the park.
At the snack stand, you try to insist on paying, but Hongjoong beats you to it again, handing over the cash before you can protest.
âYouâre really committed to this, huh?â You tease.
He shrugs, offering you a bag of popcorn âI like treating you. Youâre worth it.â
The words catch you off guard, leaving a strange warmth in their wake. You look at him, the boyish grin on his face, and wonder how he can be so⌠genuine.
As the day turns into evening, the parkâs lights flicker on, casting a magical glow over everything. You stand in line for the carousel, the soft music adding a nostalgic charm.
You climb into one of the ornate horses, your laughter echoing as Hongjoong chooses the one beside you.
âYouâre having fun, admit it.â He says, his voice filled with mock accusations.
You tilt your head, a playful smirk on your lips âMaybe a little.â
The carousel begins to move, and for a moment, you let yourself get lost in the moment. The weight of your pride, your fears, and the persona you had carefully crafted seems to fade.
Itâs just you and Hongjoong, spinning in a world that feels oddly perfect.
As the evening wears on, you realize something elseâyouâre having fun. Real, uncomplicated fun. Itâs a feeling youâre not used to, and itâs equal parts exhilarating and terrifying.
When you finally board the Ferris wheel, the city sprawls out below you, glittering in the night. The car sways gently, and Hongjoongâs arm rests casually on the back of your seat.
âYouâve been quiet,â He glances at you âWhatâs on your mind?â
You hesitate, your fingers toying with the hem of your jacket âI guess⌠Iâm not used to this.â
âTo what?â
âTo someone doing all of this just for me.â You admit, your voice barely above a whisper.
He looks at you, his expression softening âYou deserve it, pretty. All of it.â
You bite the inside of your cheek, unsure of how to respond. The gnawing doubt in the back of your mind refuses to let go.
What if this isnât real? What if heâs just playing along, trying to climb some invisible ladder to the top?
The Ferris wheel car rocks gently as it halts at the top, giving you a perfect view of the glowing amusement park below. The world feels smaller up here, the laughter and music from the park blending into a soft hum. But your focus isnât on the view.
Hongjoongâs hand brushes against yours, hesitant yet deliberate âYN,â He begins, his voice soft but firm, breaking the fragile silence. You turn to him, caught off guard by the serious tone in his voice âThereâs something Iâve been meaning to tell you,â His eyes locking onto yours âSomething I shouldâve said a long time ago.â
You blink, unsure of where heâs going with this âWhat is it?â
He exhales deeply, running a hand through his hair âDo you remember the first time we met? On the first day of college?â
You frown slightly, trying to recall âI remember you asking me for a pen and I told you not to speak to me again and get lost.â Both of you chuckle at the memory âYou were⌠different back then.â
He smiles faintly, though thereâs a sadness to it âI was, and I remember everything about that moment. How you walked into the lecture hall like you owned the place, and every single person in the room noticed you. Including me.â
You tilt your head, curious now.
âI knew I didnât stand a chance,â He continues, his voice quiet âYou were⌠YN. Popular, beautiful, confidentâeverything I wasnât. But I couldnât stop thinking about you. And I guess, in some way, I thought if I could change myself, maybe youâd notice me.â
âChange yourself?â You echo, your brow furrowing.
He nods, a faint, self-deprecating chuckle escaping his lips âThe clothes, the hair, trying to fit in with your worldâit was all for you. Even when I begged you to make me popular, it wasnât really about the popularity. I just wanted to be enough for you. To have a chance with you.â
His words hit you like a wave, and for a moment, you donât know what to say.
âYou hated me back then.â You murmur, though your voice lacks conviction.
âI didnât hate you,â He says firmly, his gaze unwavering âI hated how you treated me sometimes, yeah. But I didnât hate you. How could I, when I was in love with you?â
Your breath catches âIn love with me?â
âSince that first day,â Hongjoong admits, his voice barely above a whisper âIt didnât matter that you barely knew I existed. It didnât matter how hard it was to watch you humiliate me or use me as a punchline. I just wanted you to notice me, YN. Even if it hurts.â
A lump forms in your throat as you stare at him. His words are raw, honest, and so unlike the Kim Hongjoong youâve grown accustomed to.
âHongjoongâŚâ You trail off, your voice faltering.
He shakes his head, his hand tightening around yours.
âI know how it sounds. And I get it if you donât feel the same way. But I had to tell you. Because all of this? Itâs real for me. Youâre real for me.â
You feel your chest tighten, the weight of his confession pressing down on you. Part of you wants to believe him, to let yourself fall into the warmth of his feelings, but the doubts linger.
âWhat ifâŚâ You begin, your voice trembling âWhat if youâre wrong? What if this isnât real?â
âIâm not wrong,â He says with quiet determination âAnd Iâll prove it to you, pretty. Every day, if I have to.â
His words stir something deep inside you, but the echoes of your brotherâs voice resurface: âOnce the thrill of the game wears off, theyâll both be exactly where they belongâcrumbling.â
You bite your lip, trying to suppress the turmoil within you.
âI donât know if I can trust this.â
Hongjoong leans closer, his eyes searching yours âYou donât have to trust it all at once. Just⌠let me show you. Let me prove to you that Iâm not going anywhere.â
For a moment, you hesitate, your heart warring with your mind. But then, as if on instinct, you lean in and press your lips to his.
The kiss is soft at first, tentative, but then it deepens, his hands cupping your face as yours find their way to his shoulders. For a moment, the world around you disappears, leaving only the warmth of his touch and the steady rhythm of his heartbeat.
When you finally pull away, breathless and flushed, Hongjoongâs eyes are wide, his expression filled with awe.
âDoes this mean that we areâŚ?â
âIt means,â You interrupt, your voice trembling but steady âThat Iâm giving you a chance to prove it, then we discuss what will happen. Donât make me regret it.â
He smiles, the kind of smile that reaches his eyes and lights up his entire face.
âI wonât. I promise.â
The Ferris wheel begins to move again, but this time, as it descends, you feel lighter, the weight of your doubts momentarily lifted.
Maybe this is reckless. Maybe itâll all fall apart. But as Hongjoongâs hand finds yours again, lacing your fingers together, you decideâfor nowâyouâll take the risk.
⎠â
The hum of the car engine fades as Hongjoong pulls up to your familyâs grand estate, its sprawling driveway illuminated by soft outdoor lighting. He steps out of the old car and quickly moves to your side, opening the door for you with a charming smile.
âSuch a gentleman.â
You tease, stepping out in your heels, clutching the medium-sized plush bunny heâd won for you at the amusement park. Its soft, floppy ears brush against your arm, and for reasons you canât quite explain, holding it makes you feel⌠warm.
âWell, tonight was special. You deserve the whole VIP treatment.â He quips, offering his hand to steady you.
As the two of you walk toward the front steps, the soft chill of the evening air wraps around you, but you barely notice it. The warmth of the evening lingers, and youâre not quite ready to let it go.
âI had fun tonight.â You admit, your voice softer than usual.
âYeah?â He asks, his eyes lighting up âYouâre not just saying that because I let you beat me at the ring toss, are you?â
You roll your eyes, a laugh escaping as you hug the bunny tighter.
âYou didnât let me win. Iâm just naturally talented.â
Hongjoong grins, leaning slightly closer âNaturally talented, huh? Iâll remember that next time Iâm getting crushed at bumper cars.â
A comfortable silence falls between you for a moment as you both reach the front door.
âThank you, Hongjoong,â You say, turning to face him fully âFor everything. I mean it.â
He scratches the back of his neck, his cheeks tinged pink under the porch light. âYou donât have to thank me. I just⌠I wanted you to have a good time.â
âWell, mission accomplished.â You reply, your smile lingering.
The moment feels charged, like the quiet pause before a firework explodes. Slowly, he steps closer, his gaze flickering from your eyes to your lips.
âGoodnight, pretty.â He says softly, his voice barely above a whisper.
âGoodnight, Joongie.â You reply, leaning in.
Your lips meet in a tender kiss, warm and unhurried, the kind that feels like a promise. The bunny slips slightly in your grip, but Hongjoong steadies it with a hand, his touch lingering just long enough to make your heart flutter.
When you pull back, thereâs a flicker of hesitation in his eyes, as though heâs reluctant to leave.
âIâll see you tomorrow at school.â He murmurs, his hand brushing yours one last time before he turns and walks back to his car.
You watch him drive away, the sound of the engine fading into the night. For a brief moment, you stand there, feeling lighter than you have in weeks.
The plush bunny in your arms feels oddly comforting, and you catch yourself smiling at the memory of him insisting on winning it for you. Heâd been so focused, so determined, as though nothing else in the world mattered.
But the warmth is short-lived.
As you step inside, the soft click of your heels echoes in the dimly lit foyer. The house feels quiet, almost too quiet, and a sense of unease prickles at the back of your neck.
âLate night, huh?â You freeze. Mikeâs voice cuts through the silence like a knife, cold and taunting.
He steps out from the shadows of the living room, his arms crossed, and an infuriatingly smug look on his face.
âSo, did Prince Nerd sweep you off your feet?â
You roll your eyes, trying to keep your composure âGo to bed, Mike. Youâre not my keeper.â
He chuckles, the sound low and mocking âOh, but itâs so entertaining watching you play house with your little project.â
You glare at him, your defenses rising âHeâs not a project. And you donât know anything about him.â
Mike raises an eyebrow, stepping closer âDonât I? Letâs see⌠Hongjoong, the reformed nerd. The guy who suddenly started hanging out with the queen bee⌠How curious, don't you think?â Your jaw tightens, but he doesnât stop âYou think thatâs love, YN? Or is it desperation?"
"Face it, dear sister. Heâs obsessed with you because youâre a trophy. The queen bee who gave him the time of day. Do you really think thatâll last? Once he realizes he canât keep up, heâll snap back to reality. And where does that leave you?â
âStop it,â You snap, your voice shaking slightly.
But Mike only smirks âYouâre scared, arenât you? Scared that Iâm right. Scared that once the shine wears off, heâll remember who he really isâand leave you behind.â
His words sink in like claws, dragging at the fragile hope youâd started to build tonight. You open your mouth to fire back, but the lump in your throat stops you.
Mike leans in, his voice dropping to a whisper âEnjoy the fairytale while it lasts, little sister. Because when it ends, itâs going to hurt.â
Without another word, he turns and disappears into the shadows, leaving you standing there, clutching the bunny tightly to your chest.
The warmth of Hongjoongâs kiss feels like a distant memory now, overshadowed by the weight of Mikeâs cruel words.
As you climb the stairs to your room, the doubts creep in, unbidden and relentless.
You set the bunny down on your bed, its soft, innocent face staring back at you as though mocking your turmoil.
Tonight was perfect. But now, youâre not so sure how long perfect can last.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
March, 2008â・
You were five years old, standing in the middle of the schoolyard with a bouquet of cheap plastic flowers and a small silver medal hanging around your neck. The other kids were swarmed by their parents, showered in hugs, kisses, and congratulations.
You stood apart, your smile faltering as you scanned the crowd again and again, hoping to find a familiar face.
But your parents never came.
By the time the babysitter arrived to take you home, the festival had already ended, and the school grounds were nearly empty. You sat quietly in the car, clutching the medal tightly in your small hands, determined not to cry.
You had worked so hard for the performance, staying late after school for weeks, practicing the routine over and over. You had wanted your parents to see you, to be proud of you.
When you finally got home, the house was dark. Your parents werenât there, of course. They had told you that morning that they might be "a little late," but you hadnât realized it meant missing the entire festival.
The babysitter gave you a sympathetic smile before heading upstairs. You sat at the dining table, the silver medal still around your neck, as you stared at the empty chairs where your parents shouldâve been.
It wasnât until late at night that you heard the front door open. You rushed downstairs, your little heart pounding with a mixture of excitement and apprehension.
Your parents entered, followed by your eight-year-old brother, Mike, who was holding a shiny trophy in his hands.
âLook at this, first place!â Mike boasted, raising the trophy high.
âWeâre so proud of you, Mike.â Your mother said, ruffling his hair.
âMommy, Daddy,â You began hesitantly, clutching her medal âYou missed my dance festival.â
Your parents glanced at you briefly, their smiles faltering for just a moment.
âOh, honey, weâre so sorry,â Your father said, though his tone was distracted âBut Mike had his soccer game today, and his team won! It was such an important match.â
âI won too. I won second place, look.â You said quietly, holding up your medal with a smile.
You looked between your parents, hoping for a flicker of pride, of recognition.
Mike snorted âSecond place? Thatâs just the first loser, YN.â
Your cheeks burned, and your grip on the medal tightened âItâs still good,â You muttered.
The oldest exchanged a quick look before your mother knelt down in front of you.
âThat's incredible, sweetie. Weâre sorry we couldnât make it. Weâll make it up to you, okay? Tomorrow, weâll take you to the store, and you can pick out whatever you want. How does that sound?â
You nodded slowly, but the hollow ache in your chest didnât go away. You watched as your parents returned their attention to Mike, showering him with questions about his game, reliving every goal and every cheer.
You stood there, forgotten, the silver medal in your hand feeling heavier by the second.
That night, as you lay in bed, you stared at the medal on the nightstand. You thought about the promise your parents had made, the reward theyâd offered to soothe their absence.
A reward.
Thatâs what you were worth to them. Not their time, not their presence, but a material gift to ease their guilt.
And so, even at five years old, you learned a valuable lesson: if you couldnât earn love, you could at least be compensated for its absence.
⎠â
October, 2017â・
The house was alive with music, laughter, and the clinking of glasses. Streamers in shades of purple and gold adorned the grand living room, and a three-tier cake stood proudly at the center of the dining table, surrounded by an array of delicately prepared treats.
It was your fifteenth birthdayâor at least, it was supposed to be.
You stood near the large bay window, your dress a vision of elegance and sparkle, the kind your mother had insisted on getting for the occasion. But your smile was thin and forced, your eyes constantly darting to the growing crowd around Mike.
Your older brother was the center of attention, as he always seemed to be.
Earlier that evening, just as the guests began to arrive, Mike had announced to their parents that he had been accepted into the most prestigious university in the country. The news was met with exuberant cheers and immediate celebration.
Your parentsâ pride radiated like the sun, casting a shadow over everything elseâincluding you.
At first, you tried to hold onto the joy of your own milestone, but as the night wore on, the decorations, the cake, and even the guests seemed to shift their focus.
âTo Mike!â Your fatherâs voice boomed as he raised a glass of champagne âFor making us the proudest parents alive!â
A collective cheer followed, and you felt your chest tighten. You glanced at your mother, hoping for a gesture of acknowledgment, but she was too busy beaming at Mike.
The words you had rehearsed to thank everyone for coming stayed locked in your throat.
âItâs okayâŚâ You told yourself, gripping the edges of the dress to steady your trembling hands.
As the hours passed, your birthday transformed into an impromptu celebration for Mikeâs achievement. Relatives and family friends crowded around him, offering their congratulations. The gifts that were meant for you sat unopened on a side table, forgotten.
Later that night, after most of the guests had left, you found yourself alone in the kitchen, picking at the remains of the untouched birthday cake. Your parents walked in, their faces still glowing with pride.
âDarling,â Your father said, noticing your somber expression âWhy are you here by yourself? It was such a wonderful evening.â
You looked up at him, eyes glistening with unshed tears.
âIt was supposed to be my birthday party.â
Your motherâs smile faltered âOh, sweetheart, weâre so sorry,â She said, reaching out to place a hand on your shoulder âBut you understand how important this is for Mike, donât you? This is such a big accomplishment for him.â
âI guess.â You mumbled, though the ache in your chest remained.
Mike walked in then, a triumphant grin on his face âWhatâs this? Pouting because you had to share the spotlight?â He teased, ruffling your hair in that condescending way that always made your blood boil.
âItâs not a big deal. Come on, you should be happy for me. Not everyone gets into a school like this.â
You clenched your fists, fighting the urge to lash out âHappy birthday to me.â You muttered under her breath.
Her parents, sensing the tension, exchanged a quick glance.
âYN, weâll make it up to you. Tomorrow, weâll take you shopping and get you whatever you want. Anything at all.â
You forced a smile, nodding mechanically.
âSure. Thanks.â
But as you lay in bed that night, staring at the ceiling, you couldnât shake the feeling of being invisible. No matter how hard you tried, it seemed you would always come second to Mikeâthe golden child, the perfect son, the one who could do no wrong.
And so, the seeds of bitterness were planted, watered by years of neglect and overshadowed by a brother who always shone brighter.
You promised yourself then that you would never let anyone make you feel small again.
If you had to be cruel to survive, so be it. Because in a world where everyone else seemed to have the upper hand, kindness felt like a luxury you couldnât afford.
⎠â
July, 2020â・
The dining room was filled with laughter and the soft clinking of glasses. The long table was adorned with an elegant spread, shimmering under the chandelierâs warm glow.
It was Mikeâs farewell dinner, a grand event in honor of his departure to Germany to pursue his masterâs degree in business management.
The room buzzed with pride and excitement for the familyâs golden boy.
You, now seventeen, sat near the end of the table, quiet and composed, your gaze fixed on your untouched plate. You had learned to blend into the background during these family gatherings, where you knew your presence would be an afterthought.
âTo Mike!â Uncle William raised his glass for the third toast of the evening âA true inspiration to us all. Youâve always been the pride of the family!â
âHereâs to making us proud in Germany,â Chimed in Aunt Silvia, dabbing her eyes with a napkin âOur boy is destined for greatness.â
Everyone joined in the toast, glasses clinking, voices filled with admiration. Your grip tightened around the fork, your knuckles white as you forced a polite smile.
âAnd what about you, YN?â Cousin Andrewâs voice cut through the noise like a blade, drawing attention to her âAny plans to follow in your brotherâs footsteps? Or is it still fashion magazines and parties for you?â
The table erupted in laughter, the kind that stung more than it amused. Your jaw clenched, but you kept a neutral expression, unwilling to give them the satisfaction of a reaction.
Your motherâs voice cut through the mockery, firm but not forceful.
âThatâs enough, Andrew. YN has her own path, and sheâs doing well in school.â
âWell, of course she is,â Mike interjected, his tone smooth but laced with condescension âYN has always been⌠creative.â
More laughter followed, and you felt the familiar sting of their dismissive comments. Years of enduring this treatment had toughened you, but tonight, it felt heavier, like a weight pressing on your chest.
As dessert was served, Grandpa leaned toward you.
âYou should be proud of your brother, Little YN. Heâs setting the standard for the family. Maybe one day youâll find your own way to contribute.â
âI am proud.â You said softly, voice steady despite the lump in your throat.
Your father, noticing the tension, tried to lighten the mood.
âCome now, letâs not overshadow YN entirely. Sheâs done well this year, too.â
âSure,â Mike quipped, a smirk tugging at his lips âBut tonight isnât about her.â
You pushed your chair back, movements graceful despite the storm brewing inside you.
âIf youâll excuse me, I think Iâll get some air.â
The murmurs at the table quieted as you left the room, heels clicking against the polished floor.
Once outside, You inhaled deeply, the cool night air filling her lungs. Your chest heaved as you fought back the tears threatening to spill.
You wouldnât let them see your break.
Not now. Not ever.
When your parents found you later, sitting on the garden bench, your father held out a small, velvet box.
âWeâre sorry, darling,â He said, his voice soft with guilt âWe didnât mean to make you feel left out.â
You opened the box to reveal a delicate diamond bracelet, the stones catching the moonlight.
âItâs beautiful.â You said, slipping it onto your wrist.
But inside, the gesture felt hollow. No gift could fill the void left by years of neglect and overshadowing.
That night, the bracelet glittering on the nightstand, you made a vow: If the world wanted to underestimate you, you would let it. And then, you would show them all just how wrong they were.
⎠â
Present year (Mikeâs return)â・
Hours later, you returned home after dinner at Hongjoongâs house, your mood lifted by the warmth and genuine affection of his parents. But the moment you stepped inside your own home, the oppressive atmosphere returned.
Mike confronted you as always, but you didnât mind, didnât talk back. But your chest burned with frustration and hurt.
As you reached the top of the stairs, you passed by your parentsâ room. Their voices carried through the cracked door.
âDo you think we should talk to her?â Your mother asked, her tone uncertain.
Her father sighed âSheâll be fine. She always is.â
âI donât know,â She said softly âMaybe we should get her something. You know how sensitive she can be about these things.â
âA trip, perhaps?â Your father suggested âOr maybe one of those designer handbags she likes. Itâs not like she doesnât enjoy it.â
You froze in the hallway, stomach twisting. Of course. This was how it always went. Gifts instead of apologies. Material things to soothe over their lack of understanding or support.
You leaned against the wall, fists clenching.
As a child, you had cried over these moments, hoping for more, longing for genuine care. Now, you knew better.
You have learned to accept it, even take advantage of it.
If they thought they could buy your affection, you would let them.
Your lips curved into a bitter smile. If they wanted to give you a car, a trip, a bag, or whatever else they thought would ease their guilt, so be it. Youâd make sure it was worth their while.
But as you slipped into your room and closed the door, the bitterness remained, gnawing at the edges of your heart.
You should be used to this by now.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The bustling energy of the school hallway feels distant as you walk to your locker. Usually, your heels click with purpose, your presence commanding attention.
But today, something is off. You aren't radiating your usual aura of authority and sharpness. Instead, you move through the crowd quietly, your thoughts heavy.
Your mind has been restless since the night before, replaying old memories you rarely allowed yourself to dwell on. The echoes of the pastâyour parentsâ hollow apologies, Mikeâs dismissive wordsâlingered, intertwining with the warmth you had felt during the date with Hongjoong.
Why now? Why did those memories resurface now, after a day that had been nothing short of⌠perfect?
As you approach your locker, you feel a presence behind you. Turning, you see Hongjoong standing there, his brows furrows in concern.
âYouâve been quiet.â He says softly.
You tilt your head, brushing a strand of hair behind your ear.
âAnd thatâs unusual?â
âFor you? Yeah.â He says, a small smile tugging at his lips.
You smirk faintly but don't respond. Instead, you play with the lock on your locker, your movements uncharacteristically hesitant.
Hongjoong leans against the locker next to yours, studying you.
âSomethingâs on your mind.â
You hesitate, pride warring with the strange weight pressing on your chest. Finally, you shrug, closing the locker door.
âDonât flatter yourself. Not everything revolves around you, Joongie.â
Hongjoong chuckles, but his concern doesn't waver âOkay, but if you need someone to talk to, you know where to find me.â
You nod, taking a deep breath, trying to shake off the unease.
âToday I planned a little meeting at my house, bring a swimsuit.â
⎠â
The sun cast golden reflections over the pool as music pulses through the speakers. Laughter and chatter fill the air as you and your friends lounge around, drinks in hand. Mindy, Samantha, Wooyoung, Seonghwa, San, Mingi, and Hongjoong are all there, the atmosphere lighthearted and carefree.
Dann, ever the obedient little pet, carries a tray of drinks, moving carefully to avoid spilling anything. She approaches the group, her expression unreadable as she sets the drinks down on the small poolside table.
"Finally." Seonghwa smirks, picking up his glass.
"Took you long enough, nerd." Mindy snaps.
"What, did you have to mix them by hand?" Wooyoung adds with a chuckle.
Dann clenches her jaw but says nothing. She had learned that silence is often the best defense. But today, something in her burns hotter than usual.
Maybe it is the sight of you and Hoongjoong sitting so close, his hand around your waist, your chemistry undeniable.
Maybe itâs the way you barely acknowledge her, as if she is nothing more than an accessory in your world.
"You should be more grateful," Dann mutters under her breath "Not everyone is willing to put up with your bullshit."
Silence. Then laughter. You arch an eyebrow, standing up and tilting your head as if you hadn't heard correctly.
"Excuse me?"
Dann swallows, but her resolve doesn't waver "I saidâ"
But before she can finish, you let out a scoff, exchanging a look with Wooyoung. Without warning, you place a hand on Dannâs shoulder and give her a hard shove. Wooyoung, catching on to the moment, joins in, and together you push Dann straight into the pool.
A loud splash echoes through the air.
Laughter erupts from the group as Dann surfaces, coughing and sputtering, her soaked hair plaster to her face. Wooyoung doubled over, wiping tears from his eyes. Even Hongjoong chuckles along with the others.
Dann wipes water from her eyes, her face burningânot just from humiliation but from something deeper. Something sharper.
As the group continues to laugh, none of them notices the figure watching from the mansionâs balcony. Mike stands at a distance, his expression unreadable, his grip tightening around his glass as he observes everything in silence.
The laughter has barely settled when Dann storms away, her soaked clothes clinging to her like a second skin, her face burning with humiliation.
She can still hear their amusement echoing behind her, but she doesnât turn back. She wouldnât give them the satisfaction.
Just as the group is about to move on from the incident, a familiar voice interrupts.
âSweetie,â Your motherâs elegant tone cut through the chatter, drawing everyoneâs attention.
âYes, mommy?â
Your mother looks over the group with an approving nod âI see youâre all having fun,â She says pleasantly âI wanted to extend an invitation to all of you. This Saturday, weâre hosting a celebration for Mikeâs accomplishments. Itâll be a grand affair.â
The mention of Mike makes your stomach twist, but you keep your expression unreadable.
Your motherâs gaze then lands directly on Hongjoong âAnd you, young man, I would love for you to attend.â
Hongjoong blinks, clearly caught off guard. He isnât sure if that is true or just a polite formality, but he nods nonetheless.
âUh, thank you, Mrs. Clarke. Iâd be honored to come.â
âWonderful.â She said smoothly, and with that, she excused herself, leaving the group with murmurs of intrigue about the upcoming event.
⎠â
As the night stretches on, one by one, your friends depart, leaving only you and Hongjoong by the pool. The energy has shifted. The teasing, the careless funâit all faded into something quieter, something heavier in the air between you.
The water is cool against Hongjoongâs skin, a welcome contrast to the heat radiating between you. His arms wrap around your waist, pulling you closer, feeling the warmth of your sun-kissed body against his own. You straddle his lap, your fingers threading through his hair as you talk.
âAnd your friends⌠what are they like?â You ask, your voice softer now, genuinely curious.
Hongjoong chuckles âA bunch of nerds, really,â He admits âYunho is always energetic, making jokes and annoying. Yeosang is quiet but he is also a weirdo.â You both laugh, you can see in his eyes how much he appreciates his friends âOn the other hand, Jongho is reserved and always listening, sometimes scary, but in general we spend way too much time debating books lore and analyzing sci-fi movies like itâs a science.â
You smirk, tilting your head toward him âThatâs kinda cute.â
He raises an eyebrow âCute? You wouldnât last five minutes in one of our discussions.â
âTry me, I know much more than just fashion and pop culture gossip.â
And for a while, you simply talk. About things that don't matter, about things that do. And for the first time in a long time, you aren't thinking about your reputation, about expectations, or about proving yourself.
You are just there, with him.
At some point, you drift closer, and Hongjoong notices. The way your eyes soften under the dim lights, the way the water reflects off your skin. The way you look at himânot like he is some nerd trying to reach too high, but like he is just Hongjoong.
Without overthinking, he leans in, brushing a damp strand of hair behind your ear.
âYouâre different when itâs just us.â He murmurs.
âAnd you donât mind?â
He shakes his head âNot even a little.â
Your lips meet, tentative at first, then deeper. The warmth of the water, the way your bodies press against each otherâitâs intoxicating. Your fingers curl around the nape of his neck, pulling him closer.
His hands trace slow, lazy circles on your bare waist, and for that moment, nothing else exists.
"You always talk about your nerdy friends," You murmur as you pull back a little, your breath catching against his lips "But you never really tell me about you."
Hongjoong lets out a soft chuckle, shaking his head "And here I thought you didnât care."
You roll your eyes, but thereâs something different now. The barest hint of a smirk touches your lips.
"Maybe I do."
His breath hitches at the sound of your voice, and you feel the faint tremor in his hands as they hover on your waist. Thereâs hesitation, a slight uncertainty, as if heâs not sure how far to go or whether heâs doing it right. You like it. Itâs endearing.
You know exactly whatâs on his mind, that quiet nervousness, and it only makes you want him more.
You reach out, tracing your fingertips slowly down his arm beneath the water, deliberate and teasing. He shivers slightly under your touch, his pulse hammering.
When your hand drifts to his chest, you linger there, pressing your palm flat against his skin, feeling the steady rhythm of his heart beneath your fingers.
âLet's go shopping tomorrow after school. You need a suit, and you have to impress my mother.â
âOnly your mother?â He teases, making you scoff.
âThink what you want, but you need something that screams âI belong to YN Clarkeâ.â
Hongjoong laughs but nods âAll right then, pretty.â
"Youâre warm," You note absently, your breath shaky as you let your touch wander.
Hongjoong exhales sharply, his hand lifting, skimming over the curve of your waist. His fingertips brush over your bare skin, and you can feel his uncertainty, the way he pulls back just a fraction when you press closer.
His breath is uneven, like heâs trying to keep up with the rhythm of your touch, trying to suppress the nerves coiling in his gut. He swallows hard.
"YNâ"
You cut him off before he can say more, leaning in to kiss him again, your lips meeting his with an urgency that both surprises and excites him.
The kiss is slow at first, teasing, but as Hongjoong slides his hand to the small of your back and pulls you closer, something inside both of you snaps.
The moment his grip tightens, pulling you flush against him, you gasp softly, feeling the heat between you intensify. Hongjoong's kiss becomes deeper, rougher, his hands gripping you like heâs been starving for you, his touch becoming bolder, more eager.
His muscles tense beneath your hands, the slight tremor in his touch betraying his inexperience, but you donât mind. If anything, you find it charming, knowing youâre the one who can pull this reaction from him.
The water around you suddenly feels too cool compared to the heat of his body against yours. Your arms wrap around his neck, fingers threading through his damp hair as he presses you against the edge of the pool.
He kisses along your jaw, over the damp skin of your throat, sucking lightly before flicking his tongue over the spot to soothe the sting. You shudder at the sensation, your legs instinctively wrapping around his waist beneath the water.
"Joongâ" You breathe, your voice barely above a whisper, lost in the warmth of the moment.
But he swallows the rest of your words with another kiss, drowning you both in the heat of it, in the desperation, the raw hunger that feels so real and unrestrained.
His hands roam lower now, gripping your thighs beneath the water, and you arch into him. You can feel his self-control hanging by a thread, the way he stifles every urge to push harder, faster, the way he almost overthinks each move. Itâs a mix of hesitance and hunger.
He wants you so badly, but heâs not sure if heâs doing it right. But the more you respond, the more he realizes thatâs not what matters. Itâs the way you want him that matters.
You guide him without saying a wordâyour body melting against him, soft sighs escaping your lips as he becomes more confident with each touch. His kisses deepen, and the passion between you escalates.
Thereâs nothing awkward about this anymore. The hesitation fades, and whatâs left is raw, real, and completely right.
"God, you drive me crazy," He murmurs against your lips, voice hoarse with the effort of holding back.
You smirk, brushing your fingers along his jaw "I know, nerd."
Hongjoong groans, his grip tightening as he nips at your lower lip in retaliation. You laugh, but it quickly fades into a soft sigh when he dips his head, kissing along the curve of your shoulder, his lips gentle but insistent.
For a moment, you can feel him stiffen slightly, unsure whether heâs moving too fast, and then you pull him closer, urging him to follow your lead. His hands move with more certainty now, exploring with a quiet passion, and the way his body reacts to yours is nothing short of electrifying.
The beauty of it is not just in the physicalityâthe way his hands and lips touch youâbut in the way heâs learning.
Hongjoong is not perfect, and heâs not experienced, but heâs here.
Heâs with you, and the more he responds to you, the more he learns what you need, the more you find yourself consumed by him.
Itâs the way he forgets his nervousness, the way he becomes sure of himself because of you.
And you know, deep down, that this isnât just about the touch, the heat, the kissing. Itâs about the way heâs learning to be confident in himself. Because of you.
And that, in the end, makes all the difference.
For once, you let yourself get lost in it. In the way Hongjoong touches you, the way he wants you, the way he holds you like youâre something precious.
It 's intoxicating.
And yet, hidden in the shadows, Dann stands frozen, her chest tightening, her fingers clenched into fists as she watches the scene unfold.
Dann hadnât meant to stay. She hadnât meant to see.
But there she is, standing by the edge of the terrace, her heart sinking lower and lower.
It wasnât just a kiss. It wasnât just some game you were playing.
This is real.
She has told herself she doesn't care. That it doesnât matter. But the painful sting in her heart tells her otherwise.
And it hurt.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The next day, you and Hongjoong find yourselves strolling through an upscale shopping mall. The polished marble floors gleam under the soft glow of designer store lights.
As usual, your style is impeccableâheels clicking in rhythm, and your hair flowing with the air. Beside you, Hongjoong is a stark contrast, casual yet charming in his plain sweater and jeans.
You lead him into one of the most exclusive stores, where racks of tailored suits and elegant ensembles line the walls.
The sales assistants greet you with knowing smiles, instantly recognizing your status.
âDo you even know my size?â He teases, watching you confidently pull out a dark navy suit with subtle pinstripes.
You smirk, holding the suit up to him âI donât need to know your size. I have an eye for perfection.â
He shakes his head, chuckling as he takes the suit from your hands âYou know I donât need something this expensive, right? I can just wear the stuff I have at home.â
âNot if youâre going to a party as my date.â You say firmly, your tone leaving no room for argument.
Hongjoong smiles softly but doesnât press further. He disappears into the fitting room, and while heâs gone, you wander the store, your gaze drifting over the luxurious displays.
The weight in your chest hasnât eased since yesterday. If anything, it feels heavier under the bright lights and polished surfaces.
Itâs not about the suit. Itâs not about the party. Shopping, spending, indulgingâitâs the only thing that ever distracted you from the hollow ache inside. It always has been.
âYN?â Hongjoongâs voice pulls you from your thoughts.
You turn, and for a moment, your breath catches. The suit fits him perfectly, accentuating his broad shoulders and lean frame.
He looks⌠confident. Polished.
Yours.
âWhat do you think?â He asks, doing a half spin for effect.
You step closer, your fingers brushing over the lapel of the jacket âYou lookâŚâ You pause, searching for the right word, then smirk âLike someone who belongs to me.â
He laughs, shaking his head, but thereâs a hint of pink in his cheeks âI shouldâve known youâd say that.â
After the purchase is madeâyour card, of courseâyou both leave the store. Youâre holding onto a medium-sized bag containing some clothes as Hongjoong holds a bag with his new suit that costs more than some people make in a month.
As you walk through the mall, Hongjoongâs phone buzzes in his pocket. He glances at the screen, and a small smile spreads across his face.
âWhat is it?â You ask, curious.
âItâs Jongho, Yeosang, and Yunho,â He says, showing you the message âTheyâre asking if I want to hit the arcade with them tonight. Itâs been ages since weâve hung out.â
You notice the way his eyes light up at the mention of his friends, and for a moment, your heart clenches.
You nod, keeping your expression neutral.
âYou should go.â
He hesitates, slipping his phone back into his pocket âI donât want to leave you alone.â
âIâll be fine,â You say with a small smile âGo have fun with them. You deserve it.â
âAre you sure?â He asks, studying your face.
âYeah,â You reply, tilting your head slightly âIâll just go home and relax. Maybe binge some show or something.â
Hongjoong doesnât look convinced, but he doesnât push.
âOkay, but only if you promise me something.â
âWhat?â
âThat youâll call me if you need anything.â
You roll your eyes, your lips curving into a smirk âRelax, Joong. Iâm not helpless.â
âI know youâre not,â He says softly âBut I care about you, pretty. A lot.â
The sincerity in his voice makes your chest tighten. You canât help but wonder if itâs only a matter of time before those wordsâhis care, his affectionâturn into something else.
Something colder.
He leans down and kisses your forehead, his hand briefly brushing yours.
âIâll text you later, okay?â
âOkay,â You whisper, watching him walk away.
You clutch the bag in your hand, the weight of the expensive items nothing compared to the familiar emptiness settling in your chest.
⎠â
The arcade was alive with the sound of laughter, the ping of game machines, and the occasional cheer of someone winning.
Hongjoong walked in, spotting the boys huddled near the air hockey table.
âHongjoong!â Yunho calls, waving him over.
âAbout time you showed up,â Yeosang teases âWe thought YN had you on a leash or something.â
Hongjoong rolls his eyes, grinning âVery funny.â
Jongho smirks âFor a moment we thought you'd say no, since you've only spent time with her.â
âI also have a life apart from being with her and she also needs her space, so she let me come.â
âShe let you come? I didn't know you had to ask permission to go out with your friends.â Yunho snorts mockingly.
âWeâre kind of a thing now.â Hongjoong murmurs shyly.
The boys look confused at each other before looking at him.
âWhat do you mean with that, Joong?â
He hesitates before shrugging, a small smile tugging at his lips âWe had a date.â
Yunho drops the joystick he was holding âA date?!
âWait, wait,â Yeosang says, laughing âYN Clarke? Like, the queen bee had a date with you?â
âThe same one.â Hongjoong replies, scratching the back of his neck.
Yeosang and Yunho exchange a look before breaking into wide grins.
Jongho let out a low whistle âI thought you were joking about liking her. She actually went out with you?â
âYeah,â Hongjoong says, his smile growing âIt was amazing. I took her to the amusement park. She even let me win her a prizeâa stuffed bunny.â
Yunho grinns âAww, how romantic. Joongie the Casanova.â
âMore like Hongjoong the miracle nerd,â Jongho adds âSeriously, dude. YN Clarke? Thatâs insane.â
Yunhoâs grin widens âDude, youâre living the dream. A date with the queen bee of the school? Youâre officially a legend.â
Hongjoong chuckles, his face reddening slightly. Before he could respond, a familiar voice interrupted.
âJoong?â
He turns to see Dann standing a few feet away, clutching a soda.
âDann?â He says, confused âWhat are you doing here?â
âYunho texted me,â Dann says, glancing at the boys âThought itâd be nice to hang out.â
Hongjoong stiffs slightly âOh... Uh, cool.â
Dann steps closer, her gaze lingering on him âItâs been a while. Youâve been⌠busy.â
He scratches the back of his neck, glancing at his friends for support âYeah, I guess I have.â
Dann smiles, though it doesn't quite reach her eyes âWith YN, right?â
âYeah,â He answers, his tone cautious.
Yeosang, sensing the tension, jumps in âHey, letâs hit the games. Air hockey, anyone?â
âSure,â Dann says quickly, stepping closer to Hongjoong âWe can team up.â
Hongjoong hesitates. He knows you donât like Dann being around himâand he can't blame you. Dannâs feelings for him are obvious, you told him from the beginning and he can already confirm it.
He doesnât want to hurt Dann, but he also doesnât want to disrespect you.
âActually,â He starts, his tone gentle but firm âWhy donât you play with Jongho? Heâs unbeatable.â
Dannâs smile falters âOh. Right. Sure.â
Yunho raises an eyebrow at Hongjoong, but doesnât comment. They are all aware of the feelings of both, Dann in love with Hongjoong and Hongjoong with you, they just hope that things don't get awkward in the future.
As they move toward the air hockey table, Dann hangs back, watching Hongjoong laugh and joke with the others.
Her chest tightness. Hongjoong was pushing her awayâkindly, yes, but it was still rejection. And she knows why.
It 's not fair. She had been there for him when no one else was. She had defended him when people mocked him for being a nerd. And now, he was choosing you. Again.
Her phone buzzes, breaking her thoughts. She pulls it out to see a message from Mike:
Mike C: Stay focused. Remember our deal.
Dann clenches her jaw, her fingers tightening around the phone.
If Hongjoong wants to choose you, fine. But you donât deserve him. And Dann is going to make sure he sees thatâno matter what it takes.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The cafeteria is alive with its usual energy, but the corner table claimed by you and your entourage buzzes with a more refined excitement. The topic of the day? Saturdayâs celebration for Mike at the Ritz.
âSo,â Mindy begins, twirling a strand of her perfectly styled hair âWhoâs already stressing about their outfit? Because I may or may not have gone a little overboard at Valentino yesterday.â
âOnly yesterday?â Wooyoung teases, smirking âSome of us have been planning for days. Iâm bringing the tux my dad wore to that gala in Monaco. He swears itâs vintage gold now.â
You scoff, taking a delicate sip of your iced coffee âMonaco tux or not, just donât embarrass me, Woo.â
âMoi? Embarrass you? Never, babydoll.â He grins, leaning back in his chair.
Mindy sighs dramatically, resting her chin in her palm âI still think about the last party. The lighting, the flowers, the champagne towers. Do you think theyâll top it this time?â
âTheyâd better,â You reply nonchalantly, though your gaze flickered briefly âMy parents love to âimpress.â Itâs practically their brand.â
âAnd what time should we grace them with our presence?â Another of your friends, Samantha, asks, pulling out her phone.
âSeven-thirty, at the Ritz. And be punctual. This isnât one of those parties you can show up fashionably late to.â
âNoted,â Wooyoung says, tapping the time into his calendar âAnd little Hongjoong? Are you ready to make your grand debut into the Clarke world of extravagance?â
Hongjoong, who has been quietly observing the banter, chuckles softly âI think Iâll survive. YNâs already dragged me through the whole shopping process.â
âOh, please,â You cut in, smirking âDragged? You should be thanking me, Joong.â
He raises his hands in surrender, laughing âAll right, all right. I owe you one.â
âJust one?â Wooyoung teases again, winking.
Mindyâs eyes lit up as she leaned forward âWait, what did you go with? Armani? Tom Ford?â
âTom Ford, It suits him. And trust me, heâll be turning heads Saturday night.â
âCanât wait to see it.â Woo says, smirking at him.
âSo, how many bottles of champagne do you think your parents are bringing out this time? Ten? Twenty?â
You snort, leaning back in the chair with an air of practiced nonchalance âIf itâs less than twenty, Iâll personally tell the caterers to triple the order.â
Wooyoung laughs âForget the champagne. Iâm more interested in how many pastries theyâll have. Last party, I swear I had a religious experience with those chocolate eclairs.â
âOh, the eclairs,â Sam sighs dreamily âIâve been thinking about them since then. And donât even get me started on the tiramisu.â
Hongjoong chuckles, glancing at you âSo, is this a party or a dessert buffet?â
âItâs both. A Clarke family event is always an experience. Youâll see.â
âDamn right,â Woo said, raising his water bottle like it was a champagne glass âTo YN Clarke and her family's amazing parties!â
The group laughs, the easy camaraderie filling the space. Hongjoong looks at you, a soft smile playing on his lips. You caughting his gaze and, for a brief moment, your confident exterior softened.
The party was just days away, and for now, everything seemed perfect.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The air in the Clarke mansion was a flurry of activity, with staff bustling through the grand halls, preparing for the eveningâs event. The clinking of silverware and the faint aroma of freshly brewed coffee filled the dining room, where the family had gathered for breakfast.
You sit at the table, scrolling through your phone, your polished nails tapping lightly against the screen. Across from you, Mike is casually flipping through the dayâs paper, looking as composed as ever. Your father is already grumbling about last-minute details while your mother sips her tea, the picture of elegance amidst the chaos.
âDann, can you help me with this?â Dannâs motherâs voice echoes softly from the kitchen.
Dann, trying to stay invisible, hesitates before hurrying to her motherâs side. Together, they carefully carry trays of food into the dining room.
Your father raises an eyebrow, glancing at Dann as she places a platter of fruit on the table.
âQuite the multi-tasker, arenât you?â He remarks, his tone hovering between sarcasm and indifference.
Dann stiffens slightly, her cheeks coloring âJust helping my mom, sir.â She says quietly.
Before anyone can say more, your mother sets her cup down with a delicate clink.
âYou know, Iâve been watching how hard you work around here, Dann,â She says warmly âAlways helping your mother, always polite. I think itâs only fair that we extend an invitation to you for tonightâs party.â
The room falls silent. your head snaps up, eyes narrowing slightly, while Mikeâs smirk barely conceals his amusement.
âMom,â You begin, voice sharp âI donât thinkââ
âNonsense, sweetie,â She interrupts smoothly âItâs about time we show a little appreciation. Donât you think so?â
Dann blinks, surprise evident on her face âOh, Mrs. Clarke, thatâs⌠I mean, thank you, butââ
âOf course,â Your father interjects, his tone dry âJust make sure youâre aware of the dress code. Itâs black tie, not⌠casual.â His eyes flick briefly over Dannâs simple attire, and the implication hangs heavy in the air.
Your motherâs jaw tightens, and shoots her husband a pointed look âWhich is why, sweetheart, youâll be lending her something appropriate to wear. Iâm sure you have plenty of dresses that would look lovely on her.â
Your lips curve into a slow, calculated smile âOf course, Mommy.â
After breakfast, you guide Dann into your walk-in closet with a sweeping gesture, the dazzling array of dresses catching her wide-eyed attention.
She's already entered the closet next to your room, but this one is much bigger. Her fingers trail hesitantly over the delicate fabrics, her expression a mix of awe and discomfort.
Sheâs never been surrounded by such luxury, let alone been invited to wear it. The second-hand clothes she normally wears couldnât be further from this.
âYouâve got so many.â She murmurs, her voice tinged with wonder.
You smile, tilting your head âI know, itâs almost a problem, right? Too many choices. But donât worryâIâll help you find something thatâs just right for tonight.â
Dann nods quickly, her unease flickering across her face. Sheâs not used to this kind of kindness from you, and itâs unsettling.
But as much as she doesnât trust it, she canât exactly refuse either.
You reach into one of the last racks, where the clothes you no longer wear are stored, you pull out a shimmering emerald gown with a slit up the side.
âHereâs a favorite of mine. Itâs gorgeous on, trust me. And itâll definitely help you stand out.â
Dann takes the dress with both hands, handling it as though it might dissolve in her grip âItâs beautiful,â She says, her tone genuine âIâve never worn anything like this before.â
You smile, masking your amusement âWell, thereâs a first time for everything.â
Moving through the racks, you select another gown, this one a deep crimson with delicate lace detailing.
âOr maybe this one? Itâs a classic. Wore it to a charity auction, and let me tell youâit turned heads.â
Dann stares at the dress, wide-eyed âWow. It 's amazing.â
Sheâs completely oblivious to the fact that these dresses, as stunning as they are, are from last yearâs collectionsânow outdated by anyone with even a passing knowledge of fashion.
To Dann, theyâre the height of elegance.
You pull a lavender gown from the back of the rack, its soft beading catching the light.
âThis oneâs a little more subtle,â You say, handing it over âItâs sweet and sophisticated. I think itâs perfect for you. You can keep it, take it as a gift.â
Dann nods enthusiastically, her unease momentarily forgotten as she clutches the gown to her chest.
âThank you, YN. This is⌠this is so kind of you.â
You wave off her gratitude with a bright smile âOf course. Itâs my pleasure. Go try it on, letâs see how it looks.â
She disappears into the dressing room, and you lean against the doorway with a smug tilt to your lips.
The plan is unfolding perfectly. These dresses, while stunning in their time, are no longer the kind that command admirationâthey invite quiet judgment.
But Dann doesnât know that, and thatâs exactly the point.
When she steps out in the lavender gown, her face lights up âIt fits perfectly,â She says, her voice tinged with shy excitement.
You study her for a long moment, your smile never faltering.
âIt looks wonderful on you, just wait until you see everyoneâs reaction tonight.â
Dann beams, completely unaware of the double meaning behind your words.
âI canât thank you enough, YN.â
You wave her off again âNo need to thank me. Iâm just glad youâll have something to wear.â
Inside, youâre already picturing the whispers and raised eyebrows at the party. Tonight will be a night sheâll never forgetâfor all the wrong reasons.
As Dann leaves the room clutching the dress, you lean against the doorway, arms crossed. Your motherâs unexpected invitation throws you off, but if Dann is going to attend, you will make sure itâs on your terms.
⎠â
Dann holds the lavender dress against herself, staring at the delicate fabric in awe. She hurries to the kitchen, where her mother is wiping down the counters.
âMom, look at this,â Dann says, holding the gown up for her mother to see âItâs beautiful, but I donât have the right shoes or makeup to match it.â
Her mother glances at the dress, her expression softening with a mix of pride and concern.
âItâs lovely, sweetheart, but youâre right. You need to look your best if youâre going to that party.â
Dann frowns âBut⌠I donât have anything like that.â
Her mother thinks for a moment, before leaving the kitchen she smiles at her âWhy donât you go shopping? Find a nice pair of shoes and maybe some makeup. You deserve to feel special tonight.â
As Dann mulls over the idea, Mike enters the room, his usual air of confidence trailing behind him. Overhearing their conversation, he leans casually against the doorframe.
âShopping for the party, Dann?â He asks, his tone dripping with feigned interest.
Dann straightens, clutching the dress tighter âI donât have shoes or makeup, so I thoughtââ
âPerfect.â Mike pulls out his wallet, flipping through the neatly arranged bills and credit cards. He holds out a black credit card âHere. Get yourself something nice. Consider it a little thank-you for⌠being cooperative.â
Dann hesitates but eventually takes the card, murmuring a quiet âThanks.â
Mikeâs smirk widens âWhile youâre at it, Iâve been thinking. Wouldnât it be amusing if Hongjoong accidentally ended up at the wrong address tonight?â
Dannâs brows furrow âWhat do you mean?â
âOh, you know.â His tone is casual, but his eyes gleam with mischief âIf YNâs little nerd showed up at the wrong place, itâd be quite the embarrassment. Donât you think?â
Dann bites her lip âHow would we even do that?â
Mikeâs smirk sharpens âSimple. We just need YNâs phone. Once youâre back, weâll figure out the details.â
Dann nods slowly, the plan settling uneasily in her mind. She doesnât like deceiving Hongjoong, but the thought of disrupting YNâs perfect evening is too tempting to resist.
Later, at the shopping mall, Dann wanders through the perfume section, marveling at the elegant bottles and their enticing scents. She is about to make her selection when a familiar voice catches her attention.
Turning, she sees Hongjoong standing a few feet away, examining a cologne bottle. His brows furrowed in concentration as he sprayed a tester onto a card.
âJoong?â Dann calls, her voice carrying a hint of surprise.
He looks up, a smile breaking across his face âDann? What are you doing here?â
âJust⌠shopping,â She says, holding up a small bag âYou?â
âSame,â He says with a laugh âYN told me I needed to step up my game for tonight, so here I am.â
Dannâs mind races. This is her chance to plant the seed of doubt. She steps closer, lowering her voice conspiratorially.
âBy the way, did YN tell you about the venue change?â
Hongjoong blinks âVenue change? What are you talking about?â
âOh,â Dann says, feigning surprise âI thought sheâd have mentioned it. YNâs mother invited me to the celebration because Iâve been working for YN, so she told me earlier that Mike decided to move the party to that new place downtown, I'll send you the address, but she said something about Mike wanting a more modern vibe.â
Hongjoong frowns, confusion flickering across his face âWhy didnât YN tell me?â
Dann shrugs âSheâs probably just busy with everything. You know how these rich people's events areâchaotic.â
He nods slowly, though uncertainty lingers in his expression âYeah⌠maybe.â
Dann smiles sweetly, placing a hand on his arm âDonât worry. Just show up at. Youâll be fine.â
As Dann walks away, a pang of guilt surfaces. But itâs quickly overshadowed by the thrill of watching the plan unfold.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
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so much happened this chapter and so much is going to happen next chapter oh reader you are so much better than me cause I wouldâve leaped across that table like a frog and punch mike
I HATE THAT MAN!
It was cute seeing reader and hongjoong talk and now everything gonna go downhill probably due to miscommunication or reader getting in their own head.
AHHHHH I CANâT
iâm excited for the next part keep up the great work! <3
Popular, Boy
â05: The first fracture.
Pairing: Nerd!Hongjoong x Popular!Reader
Genre: +18, slow burn, angst, smut, drama, dark academic, love triangle.
wc: 10,5k
(sorry, lot of important things)
Summary: Mike's return brings back old wounds, family cruelty, and impossible expectations. Amidst it all, you find solance on Hongjoong.
But alliances form, and the game shifts... you have no idea what's coming.
Warnings: Verbal abuse, family being mean, manipulation, power dynamics, fluff, suggestive.
Series masterlist
â04 â06: The first move.
The living room of the Clarke residence gleams with quiet opulence. Everything is meticulously arrangedâvases of freshly cut lilies, trays of delicate hors d'oeuvres, and glasses of sparkling champagne.
Your mother flutters around, checking every last detail, while your father adjusts his tie for the third time.
You sit stiffly on the cream leather sofa, arms crossed. Your outfitâan expertly styled designer ensemble of a short skirt, matching crop top, cropped jacket, and high bootsâscreams confidence, but your body language betrays your discomfort.
Dann lingers near the edge of the room, notebook in hand, trying to blend in with the staff. She glances between you and your parents, who seem almost giddy with anticipation.
âHeâll be here any moment.â The elegant woman says, smoothing out imaginary wrinkles on her skirt.
The sound of a car pulling into the driveway cuts through the room. The staff lined up near the entrance, their postures straight and practiced. But you, you don't move.
The front door opens, and Mike strides in, flanked by a crisp breeze. Heâs tall and impeccably dressed, his tailored suit hugging his broad shoulders perfectly. His dark hair is slicked back, and his smile is radiant.
âMike!â Your mother exclaims, rushing to embrace him.
âMom,â Mike says warmly, wrapping her in a hug âItâs good to be home.â
Your father steps forward, shaking Mikeâs hand firmly âWelcome back, son. Youâve been missed.â
Mike turns his charm on the staff next, shaking hands and thanking them for keeping the house in order. Heâs polite, almost disarmingly so, his every word and gesture oozing charisma.
Dann watches in awe. Sheâs heard about Mike because of SeonghwaâYNâs perfect older brotherâbut seeing him in person is something else entirely. Heâs like a prince stepping out of a storybook, all confidence and charm.
âYN,â He says, his tone casual but pointed âYouâre quiet.â
Your jaw tightens, but you force a smile âWelcome back.â
Thereâs no embrace, no handshake. Just those two words, cold and clipped. The air between you hums with unspoken tension, and Dann notices the flicker of amusement in Mikeâs eyes.
âThank you, little sister,â Mike says, his tone condescending despite the warm words âItâs good to see you.â His gaze flicks over your outfit, and his smile tilts âYouâve certainly⌠embraced your personal style. Very bold, YN.â
âSpeaking of outfits,â Your mother interjects, her tone brisk, âSweetie, I expect you to wear the dress I picked out for you tonight. This isnât just any dinner, itâs a celebration for Mikeâs return, and you need to look the part.â
You scoff, crossing your legs âI think Iâm dressed just fine.â
Mikeâs gaze lingers on your short skirt and boots, his smirk widening âOh, youâre definitely making a statement. Not sure itâs the one family would approve of, though.â
You shoot him a glare âThanks for the unsolicited advice, brother.â
The tension between you two is palpable, and Dann feels caught in the crossfire. To her, Mike seems perfectâcharming, kind, and everything you aren't. But the sharpness in your voice and the smugness in Mikeâs eyes tell a different story.
âLetâs not bicker,â Your father says quickly, trying to diffuse the moment âTonight is a family celebration. Son, go get some rest before dinner. Darling, youâll change, wonât you?â
You don't answer, your lips pressing into a thin line.
âOf course she will,â The tallest says, his tone dripping with condescension âYN always knows how to make an impression.â
As your parents and staff begin leaving the room, Mike lags behind for a moment, catching your eye.
âStill bratty, I see,â He murmurs, just loud enough for you to hear.
âStill idiot, I see.â You snap back under your breath.
Dann catches the exchange, her stomach twisting. Thereâs more to this âperfect brotherâ than meets the eye, she realizes, but for now, she pushes the thought aside and trails after the staff, notebook in hand.
Something feels⌠off.
⎠â
The grand dining room sparkles under the soft glow of crystal chandeliers. Every corner of Clarkeâs mansion is dressed to perfection, as though the house itself is eager to impress Mike upon his long-awaited return.
The scent of roasted lamb and decadent desserts fills the air, mingling with the low hum of polite conversation.
You sit at the far end of the polished mahogany table, fingers tapping against your wine glass. You're dressed immaculately in a tailored navy dress that your mother picked out for the occasion. Everyone around you gushes over Mikeâs accomplishmentsâthe glowing pride of the family.
âThree years, and youâve outdone yourself, Mike,â Your grandfather says, beaming âA masterâs degree from Germany, and already planning your next move. We couldnât be prouder.â
Mike, seated comfortably at the head of the table like a king, offers a modest shrug, though the grin on his face betrays his satisfaction.
âItâs been a long journey, but worth it. I just want to make sure I uphold the family name.â He gives you a look before he smiles.
Your jaw tightens. You know whatâs coming next.
âYN.â Your aunt, Silvia, chimes in, turning to you with a saccharine smile âYouâre still in school, right? Howâs the business program treating you?â
Fucking business program, you hate it.
You force a smile, your heart racing âItâs⌠going well. Challenging, but rewarding.â
Mike chuckles, drawing all eyes back to him âChallenging? Business? Come on, YN. Youâve been in undergrad for what, three years now? I could teach you the basics in a week.â
The table erupts into polite laughter, but your cheeks burn. You know the jab isnât just playfulâitâs calculated, meant to belittle you.
âEveryone can go at their own pace and that's okay.â You say, voice sharp enough to make your mother glance at you warningly.
Mike leans back in his chair, swirling his wine âItâs not about pace, YN. Itâs about discipline. Focus. Something youâve always struggled with.â
âThat's true, Mikey!â One of the younger cousins laughs âI'm just in my first year of college and it's all too easy, it's not âchallengingâ as YN says.â
âMaybe the career is only made for men, we are the ones who dominate business in companies.â Your father's brother, William, comments by drinking his wine elegantly.
Everyone laughs at his sexist comment.
"Don't say that, honey!" His wife slaps his arm with a giggle "Your daughter studies the same thing."
"But my daughter is smart and focused." He blurts out with mockery as he gives you a look, and you save yourself the urge to roll your eyes.
"YN is also focused, she has good grades." Your mother says sweetly, defending you.
"But 'good' is not enough, you always have to strive for perfection and not settle for mediocre grades." Mike adds with a shrug.
And the whole table laughs like it's the funniest joke they've ever heard. Your mother shakes her head disapprovingly but says nothing.
Your father clears his throat, trying to shift the conversation, but the damage is done. Mikeâs words hang in the air.
Your hands curl into fists under the table. Youâve had enough.
âYou always know how to make someone feel bad.â You mutter, just loud enough for Mike to hear.
âWhat did you say?â He asks, his tone faux-innocent, leaning forward slightly.
âEnough, kids.â Your mother says with an awkward smile.
But Mike isnât done. He leans closer, his voice low and cutting âYouâre a disappointment, YN. You always have been. Pretending to study business when youâre off chasing some frivolous dream.â
You hold your breath when you hear that, that fucking idiot "You don't know anything."
âFashion design, really? What are you going to do with that, sew costumes for kidsâ plays?â
Your parents look at Mike in terror. The topic of your study preferences was always private, so that the rest of the family wouldn't gossip and intrude.
Yes, your parents knew and know about your passion for fashion, since you were a child your dream was to be a designer and create your own brand, but due to the family business they forced you to study business management, and you had to accept without being able to reproach.
Mike knew it too, and still decided to talk.
The table falls silent, and your chest tightens when everyone looks at you with surprise and mockery.
Without noticing, your eyes burn with unshed tears.
âIâexcuse me.â You stammer, pushing your chair back abruptly.
Your mother calls after you, but you are already halfway to the door. Heels click against the marble floor as you grab your car keys and storm out of the house.
You don't know where youâre going until youâre halfway across town, your phone clutched in your trembling hand. The only person who crosses your mind is Hongjoong, you need Hongjoong right now.
You don't text or call him, you don't need to. You know heâll be home.
When you reach his house, you knock on the door, heart pounding as you wait.
Hongjoong answers, his hair disheveled and his face scrunched in confusion.
âYN?â
âCan I come in?â You ask, your voice breaking.
Hongjoong watches as you step inside, the soft click of your heels on the polished floor breaking the quiet of the hallway.
Your dress gleams faintly under the light, the kind of fabric and craftsmanship that scream exclusivity. The subtle sheen of your makeup and the designer heels complete the look, making you seem almost out of place in the cozy, modest home.
His heart clenches. He doesnât ask questions, not yet. Instead, he offers a small, reassuring smile.
âCome in, pretty.â From the dining room, the clinking of cutlery and quiet conversation filters through. Hongjoong glances toward it, hesitating âUh⌠weâre having dinner. My parents are home.â
You straighten, brushing your hair away as if steeling yourself âOkayâ
He nods and leads you to the dining room. His parents, mid-conversation, look up as you enter.
âOh.. whoâs this beautiful lady?â
You smile shyly at her, and Hongjoong puts his hand on your bare shoulder.
âMom, Dad,â He says, clearing his throat âThis is YN.â
His parents exchange a look, surprise flashing in their eyes. Hongjoongâs mother, a petite woman with a kind face, recovers first.
âYN, itâs nice to meet you. Would you like to join us for dinner?â
You smile politely, your usual sharpness softened âIf itâs not too much trouble, thank you.â
âNo trouble at all.â His father says, though his gaze lingers briefly on your dress, shoes, even your watchâitems that likely cost more than their monthly mortgage.
You glide into the chair with practiced elegance, every movement drawing attention. The table is set simplyâa far cry from the elaborate spreads youâre used toâbut something about the simplicity feels oddly grounding.
Hongjoong pulls out the chair next to yours, sitting close but not too close. His parents exchange another glance before his mother breaks the silence.
âSo, YN, how do you and Hongjoong know each other?â
Your posture stiffens slightly, and Hongjoong tenses, too. If only they knew how you met and the things that Hongjoong has done under your orders and all those humiliations, they would surely kick you out.
You both share a fleeting glance, silently agreeing to tread carefully.
âWeâre in the same business program.â Hongjoong says, his voice steady.
You nod, your hands resting lightly on the table âYes, weâve worked on a few projects together. Joongâs very⌠dedicated.â
Hongjoongâs parents smile, though his fatherâs expression is tinged with curiosity at the way you call his son.
âThatâs wonderful,â He says âItâs good to see you making connections, Hongjoong. Your schoolâs not an easy one to get into.â
You smile faintly, but thereâs an underlying tension âItâs very competitive.â You add.
The pretty woman serves the mealâroast chicken, mashed potatoes, and a crisp salad. The aroma is inviting, but you hesitate for a moment, the simple fare so unlike the complex, perfectly plated dishes youâre accustomed to.
As you eat, Hongjoongâs father canât help but notice the way you hold the fork, the delicate way you cut the food.
Very elegant and sophisticated.
âSo, YN,â He says, his tone conversational but probing âYou must be quite driven to be studying at such a prestigious school.â
You pause, your fork halting mid-air âI suppose so. Itâs⌠a good school.â
Again, Hongjoongâs parents share a glance, clearly trying to reconcile the poised, elegant girl in front of them with their down-to-earth son.
âDid you always want to study business?â The female asks gently.
Your hand tightens on the fork, but your smile remains âIt's the common choice in my family.â
You say vaguely, your voice betraying none of the resentment you feel. Hongjoong, noticing the slight tension in your posture, jumps in.
âYNâs really good at presentations.â He tries to shift the conversation âShe knows how to keep everyone attentive.â
The praise makes you glance at him, your expression softening âAnd heâs increrible in everythig.â You add a rare note of warmth in your voice.
As the meal winds down, you find yourself surprisingly at ease. The food, while simple, is filling and comforting. The warmth of the room, the unpretentious conversationâit feels like a stark contrast to the cold, high-stakes environment youâre used to.
âYouâre welcome here anytime.â Hongjoongâs mother says as they finish, her smile is genuine.
You look at her, and for the first time in a long while, you feel the ache in your chest ease just a little.
âThank you⌠that means a lot.â
As Hongjoonng leads you to the living room, you sink into the sofa, the tension in your shoulders finally dissipating.
âThank you.â
Hongjoong sits beside you, close but respectful âAnytime, pretty.â
After a quiet moment, Hongjoong decides to speak again.
âYN, you donât have to tell me everything, but⌠somethingâs bothering you. Was it your brother? The dinner?â
Your head tilts back, staring at the ceiling as if trying to collect yourself before responding. Your thoughts race, but you don't know how to express them.
You've always been the type of person who keeps your concerns and problems to yourself, not wanting to be a nuisance to others with your stuff. But Hongjoong gives you enough peace of mind to want to tell him a thousand things.
Finally, you sigh, the weight of everything pressing down on your shoulders.
âIt was just⌠the same thing.â You sigh again âMy family acting like Mike is perfect. Itâs like nothing I do is ever good enough for them. Itâs always âMike this, Mike that,â and IâŚâ You trail off, your throat tightening âI hate it.â
Hongjoongâs heart twinges with sympathy, and he shifts closer, his hand resting gently on your shoulder.
âYou donât have to prove anything to them, YN. Youâre incredible the way you are. You donât need to be him. Youâre your own person.â
You smile faintly but it doesnât reach your eyes âI donât even know who I am sometimes,â You admit softly âI pretend to be what they want me to be, but I hate it. I hate pretending.â
He leans in slightly, his hand moving from your shoulder to gently cup your face, lifting it so you meet his gaze. His voice is tender, but firm.
âPretty, you donât have to pretend. Youâre not alone in this, okay? You donât have to carry this burden by yourself. Iâm here for you. I promised you I'd do anything for you, remember?â
You laugh a little knowing what he means, but you know that he didn't promise to do anything just because it's you. He did it because he wanted to come out of the shadows, to be popular.
Your eyes shimmer with unspoken emotion as you watch him, lips parting slightly as if to speak but then closing again. The vulnerability in your gaze makes his heart ache, and without thinking, he leans forward, pressing a soft kiss to your lips.
The moment is warm, comforting, and safe. Itâs like nothing else in the world matters right now.
Just then, in the kitchen, Hongjoongâs mother steps back into the shadows, her heart aching for you. She had heard everythingâthe quiet, broken words, the tenderness between the two. And in that moment, she sees beyond the image you project.
Beneath the designer clothes, the perfect façade, youâre just a girl, trying to navigate the weight of your familyâs expectations.
Her heart aches with a kind of pity for you who has everything and yet, nothing at all. She quietly wipes a stray tear from her cheek, then retreats further into the kitchen, giving you the space you need.
Your voice is almost lost in the soft quiet of the room as you look at him once more, a gentle smile beginning to form.
âThank you, Joongie.â You whisper, eyes reflecting the depth of your unspoken gratitude.
Hongjoong smiles back, his heart full âAlways, pretty. Always.â
And for the first time in a long while, you feel like maybe, just maybe, youâre not as alone as you thought.
⎠â
The quiet of the house wraps around you as you step inside, the weight of the night still lingering in your bones. Itâs lateâalmost twelve PMâand the house is eerily silent. No one is waiting for you in the hallway.
The fancy dinner is long over, and you haven't bothered to text them to let them know where you were, knowing they wouldnât care.
You take off your heels, the cool hardwood of the floor brushing against your feet, and walk slowly into the living room.
There, sitting on the couch with his back straight and arms crossed, is Mike.
âLook who finally decided to come back,â He says, his tone as sharp as a knife âHaving a little fun, were we? How nice of you to finally come home.â
Your chest tightens as you stop in the doorway. You haven't seen him like this in a whileâhis arrogance and superiority seem to grow with every moment heâs home. His sharp gaze cuts through you like a blade, but you stand tall, trying to control the fluttering in your stomach.
âDonât look at me like that,â He sneers, his eyes narrowing as he stands âYou think you can just walk in late after disappearing for hours? Youâre pathetic.â
Your heart sinks, but you keep a neutral expression âI didnât mean to make you wait.â
âWait?â Mike scoffs, pacing in front of you âYou think I care about waiting? I care about you making a fool of yourself in front of the family. Youâve always been a brat, and you still havenât learned. Youâre not a child anymore, YN. You need to grow up.â
Every word he spits feels like venom, but you know better than to show weakness. You know what heâs doingâtearing you down, making you feel small.
This isnât new. This is just who he is.
âIâm just trying to live my life, Mike.â
Mike pauses, his smirk widening as he leans closer âLive your life? Youâve been living in a fantasy, little one. You think you can just pretend everythingâs fine? Everyone thinks youâre studying business because you'll be part of Dad's company, but you never really think about doing it. Youâve been a joke this whole time. Youâre nothing like me. Youâll never be good enough.â
You take the words in, letting them sink in as you have done for so many years. Itâs painful, but you know how to endure it. You know how to ignore the voice inside telling you youâre not worthless, that youâre more than what he says.
But tonight, it feels heavier.
âI donât know why Mom and Dad think youâre this perfect little angel.â You say with mockery, looking him up and down.
He laughs bitterly âBecause I am perfect. Iâve done everything right. Iâm successful. Iâm smart. And unlike you, I know how to get what I want. They should be proud of me. But you, YN? Youâre just a spoiled child whoâs going to get everything handed to her. And still, you fail. Youâll never be me.â
Your fists clench at your sides, but you don't respond. Instead, you bite your lip, trying to keep your composure. The words are harsh, but youâve heard them all before. Heâs always been the sameâdeceptively charming and cruel when it matters most.
âWell, Iâm sorry Iâm not perfect like you,â You say quietly, Hongjoong's sweet words resonate in your mind âIt's just⌠I don't want to be like you.â
Mike looks down at you with disdain, his expression unreadable for a moment before he sighs.
âNot even in your dreams could you be like me, pathetic thing.â
You canât help the flare of anger that rises in your chest at his words, but you suppress it quickly.
Without saying another word, you turn and walk toward the stairs.
From the shadows of the hallway, Dann, who had been listening from the hallway leading to the staff rooms, feels a tightness in her chest. Sheâs overheard everything, and the way Mike speaks to you⌠it makes her happy.
Finally someone is taming you.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The next few days feel like a strange game of charades to you, your home transformed by the presence of your brother. Itâs almost like heâs a perfect guest whoâs come to stay indefinitelyâcharming, polite, and always acting like heâs the model son.
He plays the part well, and even the staff, including Dann, are entranced by his manners and wealth. You watch it all from the sidelines, a bitter knot tightening in your chest every time her brother flashes that smile, every time your parents look at him with eyes full of admiration.
And then thereâs Dann. She continues her errands around the house, doing what you ask, but now there's an air of something different. Sheâs captivated by Mikeâs presence, stealing glances at him whenever heâs nearby.
She doesnât know much about him, but the way he carries himselfâwith that effortless confidence and charmâmakes her heart skip.
One afternoon, Dann is walking through the hallway, balancing a tray of snacks for you. As she turns a corner, she almost runs straight into Mike.
âOh, Iâm so sorry!â Dann stammers, gripping the tray tightly to steady it.
Mike catches the edge of the tray, steadying it with ease âNo harm done,â He says with a kind smile. His eyes flick to the contents âFor me?â
Dann blinks, flustered âUh⌠no, forâuhâsomeone else.â
âPity,â Mike teases lightly âBut still, itâs impressive. Not everyone takes the time to look after others like this. Whatâs your name?â
âDann,â She manages, her cheeks heating.
âDann,â He repeats, his tone smooth, as if committing it to memory âA beautiful name for a beautiful soul.â
Her breath catches âI-I should go. This is forââ
He raises a hand, cutting her off gently âNo need to rush. Take a moment to breathe. You deserve it.â
His smile deepens, and for a moment, Dann feels like sheâs the only person in the room. She mutters a shy thank-you and hurries past him, her heart pounding.
Mike watches her go, his expression unreadable. Then, as he turns back toward the study, he chuckles to himself, amused by how easily people fall for a kind word and a smile.
Later, when Dann brings you the tray, Dannâs unusually quiet, and you notice her flushed cheeks and the faint smile she tries to hide.
âWhatâs with you?â You ask sharply, taking the tray.
âNothing,â Dann says quickly, shaking her head.
You narrow your eyes âLet me guessâmy brother said something to you?â Dannâs face goes red, betraying her âUnbelievable,â You mutter under your breath, setting the tray down âHeâs not what you think, Dann.â
Dann hesitates, confused âHeâs⌠heâs nice.â
You let out a bitter laugh âSure, heâs nice. Keep believing that.â
Dann doesnât respond, her mind too wrapped up in replaying Mikeâs words. To her, he was kind and genuine, a stark contrast to your sharp edges.
You, watching her, feel your frustration boil over. You know your brotherâs game too well, and know exactly what heâs doing. But you also know trying to warn someone like Dann would be pointless.
For now, you let it go, biting your tongue as the tension simmers beneath the surface.
⎠â
The next few days, Mike couldnât help but notice Dann more often. She moved through the house quietly, always carrying something or running an errand.
At first, he assumed she was just part of the household staff, but something about her demeanor didnât quite fit. She seemed too young, too out of place among the polished, uniformed employees.
One afternoon, as he lounged in the garden sipping coffee, he spotted Dann hurrying across the lawn with a pile of books. He called out to her.
âHey, Dann!â
She froze mid-step, the books wobbling precariously in her arms. Turning slowly, she offers a hesitant smile.
âYes, sir?â
Mike winces at the formality. âNo need for that. Just Mike is fine.â He gestures to a nearby chair âCome, sit for a moment. Those books wonât run away.â
Dann hesitates, glancing back toward the house âI⌠I really should get these toââ
âSit,â Mike insists gently, flashing the same disarming smile he used with everyone âIâm curious about you.â
She reluctantly obeys, setting the books down on a nearby table before perching nervously on the edge of the chair.
âSo, Dann,â He begins, leaning forward slightly âIâve noticed youâre always running around doing things. Are you part of the staff here?â
Dannâs eyes widen âNo! I meanââ She fidgeted with her hands âIâm not a staff. Iâm⌠Iâm the maidâs daughter.â
âThe maidâs daughter?â He echoes, raising a brow. He studies her closely, sensing there is more to the story âThen why are you always doing errands?â
Dann hesitates, clearly uncomfortable. Finally, she sighs, her shoulders slumping. She doesn't think anything will happen if she tells him, he is very kind and understanding.
âItâs because of miss YN.â
âMiss YN?â He repeats with mock.
âShe⌠she ordered me to work for her,â Dann admits, her voice dropping to a whisper. âAt a party I accidentally spilled my drink on her dress...â
Mike tilts his head, his smile fading slightly âShe ordered you to work for her? What dress?â
âIt's a pretty expensive one⌠I heard her mention something like Chanel.â She explains quickly âShe told me to choose between paying for the cost of the dress with money or with small tasks. I don't have the money to pay for the dress, so Iâve been helping her out with errands.â
Mike leans back in his chair, processing this information. A slow smile spread across his face, though there was a flicker of something darker in his eyes.
âSo, let me get this straight. YN, my little sister, is making you work off the cost of a dress?â Dann nods, glancing down at her hands. Mike lets out a soft laugh, shaking his head âHow long have you worked for her?â
âMaybe, a month ago.â
âWell, Dann, youâve given me a lot to think about.â Before she can respond, he stands, brushing invisible lint from his pants âBetter get back to your books. Wouldnât want YN to get upset.â
Dann nods quickly, standing to retrieve the books. As she hurries away, Mike watches her go, his expression unreadable.
âInteresting,â He murmurs to himself, a sly grin tugging at the corner of his mouth.
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The grand dining room gleamed with elegance, the long table lined with intricate floral arrangements and flickering candlelight. You sit at one end, your mother to your left, and Mike across from you. Your father presides at the head of the table, quietly savoring his wine.
In the shadows of the kitchen doorway, part of the chefâs staff, is there observing the scene as the family begin their meal.
âSweetie, When will Hongjoong come? It's been more than a week since I saw him.â She smiles kindly while sipping from her cup âSuch a lovely boy.â
You smile at the mention of the guy who has been occupying your thoughts lately.
"Tomorrow we have to do an essay for business management class, so he is coming."
Your mom claps her hands with enthusiasm "Amazing! I would love to say hello."
You laugh a little at her sigh, it seems that she likes it more than you would like to admit.
Mike raises an eyebrow in confusion, who the fuck are they talking about?
âWhoâs Hongjoong?â
âYNâs close friend. Heâs been here many times.â Your mom responds right away âHeâs polite, respectful, and always so helpful. And heâs clever, too. I remember when they were working on that literature project. He explained everything to me when I asked.â
Mike smiles mockingly, doing a project together? You, working with someone... It's silly, to Mike this sounds like you taking advantage of a nerd. But his mother is a ray of light, she has no idea.
âI'm sure it's your personal nerd, doing your homework and that, right?â
And he's all right, but that was before everything you went through together during this time.
âOf course not.â
Mike leans back, grinning âNo? So why does he always do work with you? Don't you have more friends who want to do projects with you?â
Your mother gets a little upset hearing that âThatâs enough, Mike. Hongjoong is a good influence on YN. You could stand to meet him before passing judgment.â
âOh, Iâm sure heâs delightful. Just the kind of guy to fit right in at the nerd club.â
âSon, thatâs enough. You havenât even met the boy. Give him a chance before making assumptions.â This time your father says.
âWhatever. But Iâm curious⌠What is his last name? Is his family part of a company or why are you defending him so much?" He asks with mockery.
You glare at him, your jaw clenches âThat doesn't matter Mike, don't meddle in my business.â
âMike, that's enough. I'm not going to allow you to talk like that about a boy as cute as Hongjoong." For the first time your mother speaks seriously to him.
âSureâŚâ
âLet's change the subject. Mike, you have to prepare your speech when you take your position at the company. The party will take place next week.â Then he looks at you, "You can invite Hongjoong and your other friends, my dear."
You nod while your mother applauds happily again, but Mike only rolls his eyes.
âInstead of focusing on your âfriendsâ, you should catch up with college.â
âMike.â Your father warns him.
âAlso, what about that girl running up and down like her personal servant?â He asks with false curiosity.
Your father clears his throat, his gaze landing on Mike âDann working for YN was agreed upon by us. Sheâs working for her to settle her debt. Thereâs nothing more to discuss.â
âAgreed upon by you, maybe,â Your mother interjects, her voice softer but laced with unease. She doesnât look up, carefully slicing her steak as if her plate demands all her attention âI still think itâs a bit... unorthodox, forcing a young girl into such an arrangement. Just an apology and letting it go wouldâve been more appropriate.â
Your father frowns âAnd what about the consequences of such acts, my love? This way, everyone benefits. Dann gets experience, YN gets help, and the debt is paid.â
Mikeâs smirk widens as he watches the exchange, clearly enjoying the tension.
âExperience, huh? Interesting choice of words for running errands and taking verbal beatings.â
âMike, donât say that!â Your mother snaps, finally looking up âThe staff could misunderstand it.â She murmurs with panic.
âWhat?â He holds up his hands, feigning innocence âIâm just saying, letâs not sugarcoat it. We all know YN isnât exactly... sweet.â
You grip your fork tightly, the metal digging into your palm âJust shut your mouth and eat, Mike. Nobody asked for your opinion.â
âYN,â Your father warns, his tone sharp.
Mike chuckles, ignoring him âSee, little Dann must be so scared of her.â
Your mother sighs heavily, setting down her knife and fork âEnough of this. Weâre not discussing Dann or her situation any further. Itâs settled.â
But the older son isnât done. He leans forward, resting his elbows on the table, his gaze locking with yours.
âYou should be careful, YN. People like Dann have limits. Push her too far, and she might push back. Harder than you expect.â
The words hang in the air, and for a moment, the table falls silent. Your father glares at Mike, but he doesnât say anything. Your mother busies herself with her glass of wine, avoiding your gaze.
You stand abruptly, your chair scraping against the floor âIf weâre done with this delightful family bonding session, Iâll be going now.â
As you leave the dining room, your motherâs voice follows you, tired and resigned âSweetie, waitââ
But you donât stop. Mikeâs words echo in your mind, and for the first time, you wonder if thereâs truth in them.
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âHongjoong!â
Your motherâs enthusiastic voice fills the grand hallway as the front door swings open to reveal Homgjoong, standing there with his usual boyish grin.
âGood afternoon, Mrs. Clarke!â He says, matching her energy. His warm tone makes her giggle in delight.
âSheâs upstairs,â Your mother replies, stepping aside to let him in âShe mentioned something about working on an essay. You two have been quite busy with school, havenât you?â
He nods, the picture of politeness âYes, maâam. Lots of group projects lately.â
From the top of the grand staircase, Mikeâs deep voice cuts through the air like a blade.
âIs this him?â His gaze analyze Hongjoong up and down. His outfit was very different from what Mike expected from a nerd.
Of course the glasses scream ânerdâ in all the letters, but the denim jacket over a gray turtleneck shirt with an abstract print, black cargo pants, a gray beanie on his head, and a black crossbody bag complete the lookâŚ
Mike didn't know that nerds had evolved during these three years, that now they can mix with others and you wouldn't know theyâre a freak..
Hongjoongâs gaze snaps upward, and your brother appears, descending the staircase with a calm but predatory aura. His tailored suit and sharp features radiate authority, the kind that seems designed to make people feel small.
âYes, this is Hongjoong,â Your mother chimes in, her cheerful tone unwavering.
Hongjoong extends a hand, smiling âNice to meet you.â
Mike eyes the hand for a moment before taking it. His grip is firmâcalculated, even.
âSo, youâre the charity case,â He says smoothly, his words laced with a thinly veiled insult.
Hongjoongâs smile falters slightly, but he quickly recovers âI guess you could say Iâm lucky to have YN as a friend.â
Mike raises an eyebrow, his lips curving into a smirk âFriend?â
The tension is palpable, but before it can escalate, your mother interjects âMike, be nice. Hongjoong is here to help your sister with schoolwork. Donât scare him off.â
âWouldnât dream of it,â Mike replies, though the gleam in his eyes suggests otherwise.
Just then, you appear at the top of the staircase, dressed casually but impeccably as always.
âJoong,â You call, your voice warm, though your eyes flick to Mike in a silent warning.
Hongjoong visibly relaxes at the sight of you âHey, YN.â
You make your way down, shooting a quick glare at your brother before slipping your arm through Hongjoongâs.
âWeâll be in the study room.â You say pointedly, guiding him away.
Mike watches the two of you go, a bemused expression on his face.
⎠â
The study is bathed in the soft afternoon light streaming through the large windows. Papers and books are spread across the table, though most of it remains untouched.
Hongjoong sits comfortably in the large red sofa, pen twirling absentmindedly between his fingers as he watches you pace the room, clearly distracted.
âAre we actually going to work on this essay,â He teases lightly, âOr are you going to wear a hole in the floor?â
You pause mid-step, shooting him a mock glare âExcuse me for needing to think while I walk.â
Hongjoong chuckles, setting his pen down âThinking about the essay, or something else?â
You sigh and drop into the seat opposite him âBoth, maybe.â
For a moment, thereâs silence as you both glance at the notes in front of you. Hongjoong flips through the pages absentmindedly before he leans back and studies you.
âYou know,â He starts âThis is kind of funny.â
âUh?â
He smirks âThe fact that weâre doing an essay on entrepreneurship, and I remember you telling my parents youâre studying business just because itâs a common choice in your family.â
You blink, caught off guard âYou remember that?â
âOf course I do,â He says, his tone softening âIt was hard to miss how uncomfortable you looked when they asked about it.â
âI wasnât uncomfortable.â You lie, crossing your arms.
Hongjoong tilts his head, giving you a knowing look âPrettyâŚâ
You sigh, dropping the act âFine. I was uncomfortable. Happy?â
He leans forward, resting his elbows on the table âNot really. I mean, itâs not every day you see Miss pretty YN Clarkeâqueen bee of the schoolâlooking out of her element. What was that about, anyway?â
You hesitate, your gaze dropping to the notebook in front of you. After a long pause, you speak, your voice quieter than usual.
âI didnât choose to study business. My parents chose for me.â
He blinks, taken aback âSeriously? But I thought youââ
âThought I was passionate about business?â You interrupt with a bitter laugh âNo. I wanted to study fashion design.â
âFashion design?â Hongjoongâs eyebrows shot up, his curiosity piqued âYou? The future CEO of Clarke Enterprises wanted to design clothes?â
And he can see your potential. You have impeccable taste in fashion, not just in the way you always dress, but also in how you can identify others' styles just by looking at them. And heâs a witness to itâwhenever he went shopping with you, you always picked things that matched the style he chose after his research on the subject. Your sense of fashion was enviable.
âLaugh it up,â You mutter, though thereâs no heat in your tone.
âIâm not laughing,â Hongjoong assures you. âIâm just surprised. Youâve never mentioned this before.â
âWhy would I?â You snap, but your irritation isnât directed at him âItâs not like it matters. My parents made it clear that âpassion projectsâ donât pay the bills. Clarke family members study business. Thatâs just how it is.â
Hongjoong frowns, the playful glint in his eyes replaced by concern. âThat doesnât sound fair.â
You shrug, forcing a nonchalant tone. âLife isnât fair, Joong. Besides, itâs not like I had a choice. My father practically enrolled me himself. My mother didnât say much, but she didnât exactly fight for me, either.â
He watches you carefully, his brows furrowed âDo you... regret it?â
âEvery day,â You admit quietly âBut regret doesnât change anything. My lifeâs been mapped out for me since the day I was born. I just⌠deal with it.â
The silence that follows feels heavy, and for a moment, neither of you knows what to say. Finally, Hongjoong breaks it.
âYN⌠you donât have to be what they want you to be.â
You scoff, though his sincerity tugs at something deep inside you âYou donât get it, my family isnât like yours. I canât just decide to go against them and do what I want. Itâs not that simple.â
Hongjoong leans forward, his voice steady and kind âMaybe itâs not simple. But that doesnât mean itâs impossible.â
You look at him, surprised by the determination in his eyes âWhy do you care so much, anyway?â
âBecause I hate seeing you like this,â He admits âYouâre always so confident, so in control. But when you talk about this, itâs like⌠youâre not yourself.â
You swallow hard, his words hitting closer to home than youâd like to admit.
âIâm just saying,â He continues, his tone gentler now âif you ever want to talk about it, or, you know, vent or anything, Iâm here.â
A small, genuine smile tugs at the corner of your lips.
âThanks, Joongie.â
âAnytime,â He says with a grin. Then, with a playful tone, he adds âNow, can we actually write this essay? Because Iâm not about to fail this class just because my partner has a secret dream of designing couture.â
You roll your eyes, but for the first time that day, you feel a little lighter âFine. Letâs get to work.â
As the two of you finally turn your attention to the assignment, you canât help but glance at Hongjoong. For all his flaws, he has a way of making you feel like, just maybe, you donât have to be alone in this.
And that makes you feel happy and secure.
A couple of minutes laterâten minutes to be exactâ starting the draft of your essays, you and Hongjoong are supposedly working, but your proximity makes it clear that focus is not the priority. Papers and pens are scattered across the desk, completely forgotten.
You start talking about other stuff until you settle yourself on his lap, and his hands resting on your thighs as he gazes up at you, clearly captivated.
âYou really shouldnât let him get to you.â Hongjoong says softly, his voice tinged with concern.
Once again the topic of your annoying brother.
You smirk, trailing a finger along his jawline âMike gets to everyone. Itâs his specialty.â
Hongjoongâs hand tightens slightly on your leg âWell, not to me.â
You lean closer, your faces mere inches apart âGood.â You whisper before kissing him.
The moment is charged, but neither of you notices the shadow just outside the door.
Dann stands there, hidden in the hallway, her heart sinking as she watches the scene unfold. Your laughter, Hongjoongâs rapt attentionâevery detail feels like a dagger to her chest.
Her grip on the doorframe tightens as she fights back tears, her mind racing with anger and jealousy.
As you pull back slightly, your fingers lingering on Hongjoongâs jawline, he gazes up at you with a rare softness. The silence stretches between you, not awkward but charged with unspoken words.
âPretty,â He begins, his voice a little hoarse as if gathering courage.
You tilt your head, teasingly brushing a strand of his hair back âWhat is it, nerd?â
Hongjoong chuckles softly, but the sound is nervous. He looks away for a moment, his thumb absently tracing small circles on your thigh.
âI was thinking... Maybe we could go out this weekend. Like, just us. A real date.â
Your breath hitches, though you manage to keep your expression neutral. A date. The word sets off a flutter in your chest that you quickly smother. You canât let yourself feel this wayânot for him.
Heâs sweet, in a way that disarms you. And yes, thereâs something undeniably magnetic about the way he looks at you, like youâre the only thing in the world that matters.
But thereâs also a voice in the back of your mind, sharp and cynical, whispering warnings.
What if heâs just like everyone else? What if heâs only here because being with you makes him feel important?
Youâve seen it beforeâthe fake smiles, the shallow affections of people who only want something from you. Itâs always been easier to keep your guard up, to let the world think youâre untouchable.
Still, as you look at him now, with his nervous grin and earnest eyes, a part of you wonders if Hongjoong is different.
âA date, huh?â You echo, a playful smirk tugging at your lips âAre you asking me out, Joongie?â
His grip on your leg tightens ever so slightly as he nods âYeah, I guess I am.â
You tilt your head, studying him, trying to find some crack in his sincerity. But thereâs none. Heâs genuineâalmost painfully so.
âAlright, youâve got yourself a date.â Your tone is flippant, casual, as if it doesnât matter. But the faint blush creeping up your cheeks betrays you.
Outside the door, Dann halts mid-step. She had intended to leave, to distance herself from the painful scene, but Hongjoongâs words froze her in place.
A date.
Her breathing stops, and her mind reels, repeating every look, every silly smile he used to give you every time you passed by his friends' table, even before he sat down with your ridiculous social group, and she can't deny how much Hongjoong likes you, even now.
Dann had told herself that he didnât really mean it, that he was just infatuated, that you didnât deserve him. But hearing him now, so sincere, so devotedâit feels like a knife twisting deeper into her chest.
She takes a shaky step back, her vision blurring with tears. Her mind is a storm of anger, heartbreak, and self-loathing.
Why her? Why not me?
Dann quietly slips away, her steps quick and silent. But her expression hardens with every step she takes. If there was any doubt before, itâs gone nowâshe wonât let you keep humiliating her.
Dann rushes down the hallway, her chest tight and her mind swirling with emotion. She doesnât even notice Mike leaning against the wall near the corner, arms crossed, a knowing smirk playing on his lips.
âWell, well,â He drawls, his smooth voice stopping her in her tracks âWhatâs got you running off in tears, Cinderella?â
Dann stiffens, quickly wiping at her eyes and turning to face him âNothing. Itâs nothing.â
Mike raises an eyebrow, his sharp gaze flicking to the study door she just fled from. His curiosity piqued, he steps past her without another word.
Dann doesnât try to stop him, her head hanging as shame and frustration bubble within her.
Quietly, Mike approaches the slightly ajar study door. His keen eyes take in the scene inside:
YN, sitting on the nerd's lap, whose hands rest possessively on her thighs as they kiss.
Your closeness, the intimate way your fingers trail along Hongjoongâs hair, makes Mikeâs smirk widen.
He glances back at Dann, whoâs standing frozen in the hallway, her shoulders tense. His mind pieces the puzzle together.
Dannâs crushed expression, your little display with the nerd in his designer clothes, that obviously, Mike knows that you bought for him, and the underlying tension heâs noticed between the two girls.
A cruel but amused thought settles in his mind. Of course, you're using that poor guy to hurt Dann. Classic YN. Itâs vicious, but⌠beautifully done.
Pushing the door slightly closed so you and Hongjoong remain unaware, Mike strides back to Dann. He tilts his head, studying her, his tone feigning concern.
âLooks like my sister is having quite the fun time in there, doesnât it?â He says casually.
Dannâs head snaps up, her wide eyes filled with panic. âYouâyou saw?â
Mike shrugs, his smirk softening into something almost comforting.
âItâs hard to miss, really. She does know how to put on a show.â He pauses, letting his words sink in before stepping closer âYou like him, donât you?â
Dannâs face burns, and she quickly shakes her head âI donât know what youâre talking about.â
âCome on, Dann. Donât insult me by lying,â He says smoothly, his voice low and persuasive. âYou like that nerd, itâs written all over your face. Youâre smitten, and YN? Well, she knows it. And judging by what I just saw, sheâs enjoying rubbing it in.â
Dannâs lips tremble, but she says nothing. The truth in his words stings too much to deny.
Mikeâs expression shifts, his voice softening. âItâs cruel, isnât it? After everything youâve done for her, she still treats you like this. Like a pawn in her little games.â
Dann bites her lip, her anger and hurt bubbling to the surface âWhy are you telling me this? What do you want?â
He chuckles, shaking his head. âWhat I want is irrelevant. What you want, though⌠Thatâs what matters, doesnât it?â He steps even closer, his tone conspiratorial âYou want to stop her, donât you? Make her see what itâs like to be humiliated, to lose everything she holds dear.â
Dann looks at him, her eyes narrowing âWhy would you care? Sheâs your sister.â
Mike smirks again, his gaze hard. âOh, I care, Dann. But not in the way you think. YNâs gotten away with far too much for far too long. Itâs time she learns that actions have consequences. And I think you and I? We can make that happen.â
Dann hesitates, her emotions warring within her. Mike leans in slightly, his voice dropping to a near whisper.
âThink about it, Dann. Do you really want to keep being her servant, watching her parade around with him, knowing sheâs using you? Or do you want to take back some control?â He pulls back, straightening his tie as if the conversation is no more than business.
âThe choice is yours. But if youâre tired of being her shadow⌠You know where to find me.â
With that, he turns and walks away, leaving Dann standing there, her heart pounding and her thoughts racing.
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Dann sits at the back of the school library, nervously twisting the strap of her bag. The place is nearly deserted, the only sounds are the faint hum of the air conditioning and the occasional rustle of a page turning.
She checks her phone for the third time, anxiously glancing at the clock.
Finally, Seonghwa strides in, his usual air of confidence intact. Spotting her, he saunters over, dropping into the chair across from her.
âYouâre lucky I donât hate this place,â He mutters, propping his chin on his hand âNow, whatâs so urgent?â
Dann hesitates, her gaze darting around to ensure no oneâs within earshot âItâs about Mike.â
Seonghwaâs brow furrows slightly, but he maintains his calm demeanor.
âWhat about him?â
Dann leans closer, lowering her voice. âHe⌠approached me yesterday. After YN and Hongjoongââ Her voice falters, and she shakes her head, willing herself to stay focused âHe saw me upset and, um, he offered me a deal.â
Hwaâs eyes narrow, and for a moment, thereâs an unreadable flicker in his expression.
âA deal?â
Dann nods quickly âHe said he knows YNâs been using Hongjoong to hurt me, and he wants to help me⌠to bring her down.â
A smirk slowly spreads across Hwaâs face, but thereâs a calculating glint in his eyes.
âWell, isnât that interesting?â
âI donât know what to do,â Dann admits, her voice shaking slightly. âI mean, I hate YN for everything sheâs done, and heâs kind. I trust him, but I donât knowâŚâ
âWell, you shouldnât trust him,â Seonghwa says bluntly âMikeâs not the kind of guy who does anything out of the goodness of his heart. Heâll want something in return, probably something youâre not ready to give.â
Dann bites her lip, her uncertainty clear. His words sound similar to what you told her days ago.
'He's not what you think, Dann.'
âThen what do I do? If I say no, heâll probably find another way to mess with her. But if I say yesâŚâ
Hwa leans back in his chair, his smirk growing. âYou'll say yes.â
âWhat?â Dann looks at him in shock.
âThink about it,â Hwa says smoothly. âThis is an opportunity. Mikeâs already got a grudge against YN, and heâs offering you a chance to take her down. Why waste that?â
âButâŚâ Dann hesitates. âHeâll know Iâm working with him. He might use me, too.â
Hwa leans forward, his voice low and firm. âThatâs where I come in. You agree to his deal, play along with whatever he asks, but you donât let him know about me. Iâll guide you from the sidelines, help you navigate whatever mess he pulls you into.â
Dann looks at him uncertainty âWhy do you want to stay hidden? You and Mike⌠You know each other, donât you?â
Hwaâs smirk fades slightly, replaced by a more serious expression.
âOur families are close. Too close. If he knows Iâm involved, itâll complicate things. And trust me, you donât want him digging into your allies.â
Dann frowns, still unsure âSo, Iâm supposed to be his pawn, but secretly working for you?â
Seonghwa nods âExactly. Let him think heâs in control, but weâll be the ones pulling the strings.â He leans back again, his smirk returning. âAnd when the time comes, weâll let the golden boy deal with his sister, then make sure he doesnât come out unscathed, either.â
Dann hesitates for a moment longer before finally nodding.
âOkay⌠Iâll do it.â
âGood girl,â Hwa says with a grin âJust remember, no matter what Mike says or does, you keep me out of it. Understood?â
âUnderstood,â Dann says quietly, her resolve hardening.
As Seonghwa gets up to leave, he gives her a final glance.
âDonât let him intimidate you, Dann. Youâre stronger than you think. And with me in your corner, YN wonât stand a chance.â
Dann watches him walk away, her heart pounding. She feels a flicker of hope, but itâs laced with fear.
Sheâs stepping into dangerous territory, and she knows thereâs no turning back now.
⎠â
The evening air feels heavier as Dann makes her way to the agreed meeting spot. Seonghwaâs proposition lingers in her mind, but now, standing face-to-face with Mike, your seemingly perfect older brother, she feels a renewed sense of purpose.
âYouâre late.â He remarks, his tone sharp and businesslike.
His piercing gaze studies her, assessing her worth as an ally. Dann crosses her arms defensively.
âIâm here, arenât I?â
Mike smirks faintly, leaning back against the wall âFair enough. So, youâve decided to take me up on my offer. Good. Letâs not waste timeâtell me everything you know about YN and this⌠Hongjoong guy.â
Dann hesitates, a flicker of doubt crossing her face. Is she really doing this? Betraying her values?
But then she recalls the laughter, the dismissive looks, and the countless times you made her feel small.
Her jaw tightens âHongjoong used to be normal,â She begins, her voice steady but bitter âHe had his own friends. He was part of that freak crowd. Good grades, nothing special. Just a regular guy trying to get by.â
Mike arches an eyebrow, intrigued âAnd now?â
âNow?â Dann scoffs, bitterness seeping into her tone âNow, heâs your sisterâs lapdog. But before that, he was part of the âslavesââas your sister and her friends called them. The kids who did their homework, their projects, whatever they didnât feel like doing themselves.â
A flicker of surprise crosses Mikeâs face, though he quickly masks it.
âGo on.â
âYN and her crew, they humiliated him. Constantly. He was a joke to them. They used him, mocked him, and then, one day, out of nowhere, YN decides heâs worthy of her attention. He just⌠sat with her at lunch one day, like it was the most normal thing in the world. After that, he started hanging out with them, ditching his old friends. Forgot about them completely.â
Mikeâs expression hardens as he listens. He processes the information quickly, the gears in his mind already turning.
âSo, youâre saying she picked him up like a⌠project?â
Dann nods âThatâs exactly what it looks like. But the weird part is⌠he doesnât seem to mind. If anything, heâs completely loyal to her. Itâs like she has him wrapped around her finger.â
The older man chuckles darkly, his smile cold âThat sounds like my little sister, all right. Always taking what she wants without a second thought.â
Dann swallows hard, her hands clenching into fists âShe doesnât deserve him. And he doesnât deserve to just⌠get away with forgetting where he came from.â
Mike leans forward, his voice low and commanding âYouâre absolutely right. Thatâs why weâre going to remind himâand herâthat actions have consequences. But I need more. Details, patterns, vulnerabilities. I want to know everything sheâs hiding.â
Dann hesitates, her mind flicking briefly to Seonghwaâs warning not to involve him. She decides to steer clear of mentioning her.
âThe others, Mindy, Mingi, San, and Wooyoung, theyâre all in her circle, part of the same game. They cover for her, laugh at her jokes, make sure no one crosses her. Theyâre as bad as she is, if not worse.â
Mike nods slowly. He knows all of your friends, but where is little Park Seonghwa? You used to be inseparable.
His expression is one of calculated determination âGood. Thatâs a start. Keep watching, keep listening. I want updates on every little thing. The more I know, the easier itâll be to tear her down.â
Dann feels a chill run through her as she realizes just how serious Mike is. But she doesnât back down. Dann bites her lip, glancing at him.
âThereâs something elseâsomething about Hongjoong.â His eyebrows lift slightly, urging her to continue âHe⌠he always feels like he has to stay on YNâs good side,â She says slowly, her voice tinged with both resentment and a hint of sadness âEven when sheâs wrong, even when sheâs downright cruel.â
Mike narrows his eyes âWhat do you mean?â
Dann looks away, the memory of that day in the cafeteria flooding back âThere was this one time. It wasnât long after he started sitting with her, maybe a couple of weeks. YN was in one of her moods, and she was picking on meâmaking me carry her bag, fetch her coffee, stupid stuff like that.â Her voice trembles slightly, but she forces herself to keep going. âHongjoong... He didnât say a word.â
âTypical YN. But Hongjoong? That doesnât sound like the hero type youâre making him out to be.â
âThatâs the thing,â Dann says bitterly. âHeâs not. Not really. He just⌠stood there, watching, like he didnât want to risk making her angry.â She pauses, swallowing the lump in her throat. âBut one day in the cafeteria, something happened. YN took it too far.â
âWhat did she do?â He asks, his tone colder now.
âI dropped her drink over her purse, Mindy made me get on my knees and beg YN's forgiveness...â Dann says quietly, her cheeks flushing with humiliation even at the memory. âAnd when I refused, YN stepped on my hand mercilessly. Everyone was laughing, pointing, but Hongjoong defended me⌠he told her to stop, and after he went after me.â
Mike tilts his head, intrigued âHe stood up to her?â
âFor a moment,â Dann says with a dry laugh âBut you know what happened after that? She ignored him. For days. Didnât talk to him, didnât look at him. And Hongjoong? He couldnât handle it. After a few daysâŚ. He apologized to her. For defending me that day in the cafeteria.â Dann says softly, bitterness slipping into her tone.
He arches an eyebrow, his curiosity piqued âAnd how do you know that?â
Her cheeks flush, and she looks away, remembering the explicit scene she saw that night, debating whether to answer.
âBecause⌠I saw them.â She mutters.
âSaw them?â He presses, leaning forward slightly.
âAt Wooyoungâs party,â Dann explains, her voice shaking, âThey went upstairs together. IâI didnât see everything, but when they came back, YN looked⌠satisfied. And Hongjoong lookedâŚâ
Her voice trails off, the implications hanging in the air. Mikeâs lips twitch into a smirk, the pieces clicking together in his mind.
âAh,â He drawls, a hint of amusement in his tone âSo thatâs how he managed to crawl his way into her good graces again.â
Dann bites her lip but says nothing, her face burning with a mix of shame and jealousy.
Mike chuckles, crossing his arms âPoor little Hongjoong. Heâs so desperate to stay on YNâs good side, heâll do whatever it takes, wonât he?â His smirk grows wider, more cruel âIâm almost impressed. Almost.â Dann looks down at her hands, refusing to meet his gaze âSounds like heâs more afraid of being cast out than he is of losing his integrity. Thatâs good to know.â
Dann looks at him, frowning slightly âWhat do you mean?â
âI mean, that we can use that. If Hongjoongâs loyalty to YN is built on fear of losing her approval, itâs only a matter of time before he breaks.â He steps closer, his voice dropping to a near-whisper âPeople like that are easy to manipulate. You just have to know where to push.â
Dann hesitates, her gaze darting to the floor before meeting Mikeâs calculating eyes.
âThereâs one more thing,â She says cautiously.
âGo on.â
âHongjoong⌠he asked YN out on a date,â Dann reveals, bitterness lacing her tone âI donât know when or where, but he did.â
Mikeâs expression darkens, a smirk curling at his lips.
âNow heâs inviting her on dates, playing the doting âboyfriendâ while she pulls the strings. Itâs almost⌠poetic.â He leans forward again, his voice dropping to a conspiratorial whisper âYou know this fairytale wonât last, right? Once the thrill of the game wears off, theyâll both be exactly where they belongâcrumbling.â
Unknown to Dann or Mike, you have just rounded the corner, your footsteps halting as you overhears your brotherâs mocking voice. You step back into the shadows, your breath catching in your throat.
How does he know about the date?
Your stomach churns. You are drawn to Hongjoongâhis warmth, his loyalty, the way he looks at you like youâre the center of the universeâbut you canât bring yourself to admit it.
Pride keeps your walls up, but fear builds them higher.
Fear that Hongjoongâs interest is just another way to climb to the top, that heâs using you like everyone else in your life seems to.
You clench your fists, forcing yourself to keep listening as Mike chuckles darkly.
âWell,â He continues, leaning back against the wall âLet them have their little fairytale moment. Let them hold hands, kiss under the stars, and pretend itâs all perfect.â He pauses, his smirk turning cruel âBecause once it endsâand it will endâitâs going to crash down so hard they wonât know what hit them.â
You feel your chest tighten, your brotherâs words hitting a nerve you didnât even realize was raw. You press your back against the wall, your breathing shallow as you fight the urge to burst in and confront them.
Instead, you slip away quietly, mind a whirlwind of thoughts. Hongjoong asked you outâŚ
But what if Mikeâs right? What if itâs all just a game to him?
The idea sends a pang of vulnerability through your chest, one of you quickly smothering with anger.
No one uses you, you think fiercely, even as your heart betrays you with the smallest flicker of hope.
As you leave, Dann and Mike have done their chant. As Dann turns to leave, Mikeâs voice stops her.
âOh, and Dann,â He says, his tone almost casual but laced with menace âIf you try to cross me or withhold anything⌠youâll regret it.â
Dann doesnât respond. She just walks away, her heart pounding in her chest.
Sheâs in too deep now, and thereâs no turning back.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
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â sugar and sin â | PARK SEONGHWA
pairings â mafia! seonghwa x fem! reader
genre â mafia au, non-idol au, SLOW BURNN
synopsis â Â
seonghwa goes above and beyond to eliminate his targets: going undercover in places they go to most. when you happen to spend your time in a secluded bakery, seonghwa decides to bake your treats with doses of poison - yet somehow, you keep surviving.
in which you thought you made a new friend in your local bakery, when in reality - your âbakerâ keeps mistaking laxatives for poison.
w.c â 9.1k
c.w â dark themes, some desc of gore, poison, drink-spiking, kiss scene but no smut very very slight yandere behaviour, cursing, reader + seonghwa are in their 20s (not too relevant to plot), reader wants to be an architect.
authorâs note: ngl, this story ended up a little more wholesome than i anticipated but oh well. remember to reblog and comment if you enjoyed, any and all feedback helps!
not proofread!
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it was official. you were a walking, unkillable creature sent to test seonghwaâs patience.Â
you had to be at this point. that was the sixth poisoned-cream puff heâd given you this week and you were still talking on the phone about some guy you met at work.Â
seonghwaâs fingers curled around the register, his knuckles turning white. when was the last time it took him this long to kill someone? five years ago?
time flies by fast - and yet itâs going painfully slow to take. you. out.Â
âoh my god, no way-â you laughed suddenly, interrupting his thoughts.Â
seonghwa sighed, resisting the urge to roll his eyes. he turned around and headed for the kitchen. if you werenât going to die quickly, the least he could do was distract himself.Â
âback to baking,â he muttered through clenched teeth.Â
1 MONTH AGO - SIGHTSEEING
the early morning was cool, damp and filled with the scent of rain. the light drizzle from the grey sky above pattered against the balcony railing as birds chirped louder than the traffic below.
seonghwa sat on the metal chair, placing his steaming cup of tea onto the small table next to him.Â
the balcony door slid open.Â
a yawn was heard from behind him. âare you people-watching again?â hongjoong asked, rubbing his eyes.Â
seonghwa didnât look back, only nodding in response.
âyouâre on food duty now, remember?â hongjoong stepped onto the balcony, sitting on the chair beside his friend. âyou donât need to look for targets..â
seonghwa leaned forward, mumbling, âis it wrong to have hobbies?âÂ
the morning rush was in full swing - people running with umbrellas over their heads, cars splashing through puddles and delivery workers speeding on bikes. it was oddly satisfying to watch, especially when you werenât a part of any of it.
hongjoong rested his chin on his hand. âi donât pay you to kill anymore. i hope you know this.â
âyeah, yeah,â seonghwa said absentmindedly, like heâd done many times before - though something caught his attention.
his eyes narrowed, focusing on a girl - must be in her early 20s, hurrying down the sidewalk with a large stack of papers in her arms. her steps were rushed, nearly bumping into the people ahead of her.
and then it happened.
she tripped over her own foot, causing her to stumble forward. the papers flew out of her grasp, scattering onto the crowded pavement. she dropped to her knees, scurrying to gather them.
but before she could, a gust of wind swept most of them down the street.
seonghwa got up from his chair abruptly, his tea long forgotten.
hongjoong raised an eyebrow. âdid you see something?â
seonghwa didnât answer. his attention was fixed on you, your hands moving as fast as possible to salvage the remaining papers. just as you managed to grab a few, a van sped through a nearby puddle, splashing you from head to toe.
you froze, shivering. and to make things worse, the light rain turned into a heavy downpour. â...fuck!â
seonghwaâs eyes lit up in fascination.Â
heâd never seen someone as unlucky, unfortunate and pathetic as you in all of his years.Â
you were perfect.
âseonghwa-?â
a slow, almost predatory smirk spread across seonghwaâs lips. he couldnât take his eyes off of you - the defeated and helpless girl that stood frozen on the pavement, completely drenched.Â
âi found my target.â
2 WEEKS AGO - ITâS CALLED EMPLOYMENTÂ
the smell of fresh bread and melted butter greeted you as you pushed the bakery door open, the small bell jingling.Â
âah â____â!â the old baker, mrs earl, said with a smile. âitâs good to see you again.â
you gave her a bright grin. âi brought you the new crossword,â you placed a folded newspaper on the counter.
âoh honey, youâre an angel,â she thanked.
you waved off the praise, already making your way to the display case. you grabbed your free muffin (it wasnât technically free, but mrs earl adored you enough to turn a blind eye) and took a bite.
as you ate, she wiped her hands with a dishcloth. âyou know, a boy came in today. said he wanted a job.â
you raised an eyebrow. âsomeone applied?âÂ
âmhm,â she nodded, her smile widening. âi was quite shocked, heâs very young- around your age.â
â..huh,â you said, unsure of how to respond. it was hard to imagine someone else your age showing interest in such a bakery.
mrs earlâs eyes twinkled as she giggled, âhe was such a gentleman, too. handsome, if i may add.â
you grinned. âmrs earl, are you into him?â
she laughed heartily. âof course not! i still have my boys at the country club..â
â..anyways,â she continued, slightly softer. âwith him around, i donât need to come in anymore.â
â...really?â
she nodded firmly. âwhy not? i think heâs capable enough to manage things while i go on vacation.â
â..if you say so,â you replied, a little doubtful.Â
youâve grown so attached to mrs earl that the idea of someone else stepping in felt.. strange. even then, you quickly pushed those thoughts away. you werenât going to stop her from having her well-deserved break.
but little did you know - across the street, seonghwa sat on a weathered bench, his eyes following you.Â
you were an open book, he realised. your patterns were consistent, your routine almost boring in its predictability. lunch breaks at the bakery. post-work visits for a chat and a muffin. your world revolved around this tiny little bakery that it made you so so easy to track.
it was perfect.
and now all he had to do was wait.
1 WEEK AGO - HEY I JUST MET YOU, AND THIS IS CRAZY
holy shit.Â
mrs earl wasnât kidding when she said the new hire was handsome.
a man stood behind the counter, arranging pastries with meticulous care. his hair fell perfectly, right out of a shampoo commercial, while his skin looked impossibly flawless and clean.Â
â...wow,â you breathed out before you could stop yourself.
the man turned, his sharp features softened by a slight tilt of his head.Â
you blinked rapidly, scrambling to recover. âi mean- hi!â you blurted with a nervous laugh. âiâm â____â, iâm a regular here,â you stuck your hand out.
it took a second before he shook your hand, giving you a small, polite smile. âmrs earl told me about you.â
your rubbed the back of your neck. âgood things i hope..â you chuckled, earning a nod.Â
âyouâre..â you looked down, squinting to read the name tag pinned neatly to his apron. âseonghwa..?â
âcorrect.â
as seonghwa moved to the display case, you couldnât help but watch him. everything about him was so polished, so graceful - it was like he belonged in the movies.Â
when you saw the row of pastries he was arranging, you raised an eyebrow. thatâs different.Â
he glanced at you. âsorry, i donât make muffins as good as mrs earl,â he admitted sheepishly. âbut i think my cream puffs are up there.â
you stared at the tray of golden, perfectly piped pastries, your mouth watering. âc-can i take one?â
his lips curled into a faint smirk, his eyes darkening slightly. âof course.â
PRESENT - PLOT ARMOUR GOES CRAZYY
outside, the world bustled with its usual chaos, but inside the bakery? everything felt calm - too calm for seonghwa, whose patience was wearing dangerously thin.
from behind the counter, he had an excellent view of you. you chatted animatedly on the phone, the sunlight streaming in making you look annoyingly serene for someone who shouldnât be here.Â
âgirl- the guy at my office is cutee,â you said as you stirred the remnants of your coffee.
seonghwaâs jaw tightened. the coffee you were sipping had enough poison to kill a sumo wrestler. you shouldâve been dead on the floor by now.
so how the hell were you still alive?
blissfully unaware of his glare, you laughed at something your friend said. âare you crazy? why should i make the first move?â
when he first saw you, seonghwa thought youâd be his easiest target yet. he almost pitied you. your sheer unluckiness practically screamed death.Â
yet here you were, as if life itself decided to mock him.
as you hung up the call, you stood up and strolled to the counter, rummaging through your bag. âhow much do i owe you?â
seonghwa shook his head, sighing. âitâs on the house,â he said.Â
you paused, slipping your phone into your pocket. âseonghwa, you really need to stop giving me free food,â you pulled out a ten-dollar bill.
âbut i want to,â he shrugged.Â
you studied him for a moment, tilting your head. âthen can i get another coffee to-go, please?â
his eye twitched.
it was such an harmless request, something seemingly so simple. yet it felt like an insult to his entire career.
still, seonghwa forced a smile, taking the cash. âof course.â
turning to the coffee pot, he poured another cup. when you looked away to check your phone, he sprinkled a little extra poison into the drink - just to be sure.
âthank you so much,â your face lit up as you took the cup from him. âyouâre a lifesaver.â
the irony hit him like a truck, but he simply nodded.
as you turned to leave, he stared at the coffee pot, his mind spinning.
how? how?
you were unkillable. immune. an anomaly wrapped in plot armour so thick and absurd it made his chest ache with something he couldnât name.Â
obsession, frustration, fascination - it all blurred together into one singular thought:
he needed stronger poison.
âŤâŤâŤâŤâŤâŤ
â..helloo?â a hand waved in front of seonghwa, snapping him out of his thoughts.
seonghwa blinked, turning to find wooyoung standing beside him, wooden spoon in hand, his apron splattered in sauces.Â
âyouâre sanding the plate,â wooyoung smirked before turning back to the bubbling pot on the stove.Â
the sound of running water filled the hideoutâs small kitchen, together with the clanging of pots and pans. seonghwa stood over the sink, yellow rubber gloves on his hands as he washed the dishes.
seonghwa looked down - and to his horror, heâd been scrubbing the same spot on the plate for who knows how long. a noticeable mark formed, the glaze nearly wearing off.Â
wooyoung glanced over his shoulder. âyou okay?â
âyeah,â seonghwa replied.
a short silence followed before wooyoung spoke up again. ââŚyou still havenât killed that girl.â
seonghwa rolled his eyes, nearly breaking the ceramic in his hands. âdonât remind me. sheâs invincible.â
âinvincible?â wooyoung barked out a laugh, his shoulders shaking. âto you?â
seonghwaâs lips pressed into a thin line, sighing. the memory of the coffee earlier was still fresh in his mind. âmy poison doesnât work on her.â
wooyoung paused. âwe have poison?â
âyeah,â seonghwa muttered, rinsing the plate and setting it on the drying rack. âthe blue ones in the cupboard.â
wooyoungâs face shifted slowly from confusion, to realisation, to then poorly concealed amusement.
âseonghwa..â he began carefully, facing him. âyou know those are laxatives, right..?â
the sponge in seonghwaâs hand nearly slipped into the soapy water. â..what?â
âtheyâre laxatives,â wooyoung repeated. âi mean, they do look the same, but theyâre laxatives.âÂ
seonghwa stared at him. âthose are the only ones left- what happened to my poison?â
âwe uh-â wooyoung hesitated, shifting on his feet. âwe crushed it up and made paint..â
the air in the kitchen turned deathly still.
âyou what?â
âi thought no one used it-!â
âi use it-! who makes paint with pills?â seonghwa snapped, his hands gripping the edges of the sink. he exhaled deeply, forcing himself to stay calm. ânow i have to get more from that dealer.â
âuhh..â wooyoung cringed.
seonghwa turned to him, narrowing his eyes. âdonât tell me..â
wooyoung gulped, nodding slowly. â...san killed him.âÂ
WEEK 3 - TOUCH GRASS
the sound of your best friendâs voice echoed from your phone as you sat by the window, nibbling on the cream puff seonghwa gave you - again.
âi know this is TMI,â you said quietly. âbut iâve been shitting a lot lately. i donât know if it's my period or lactose intolerance acting up.â
as you took another bite, the cream puff melted in your mouth, its sweetness making you temporarily forget about your bowel issues.Â
rejecting it felt stupid - it was free. sure, it was weird that seonghwa kept giving you free food, but mrs earl trusted him, so why shouldnât you?
still, you couldnât quite figure him out. the man had a habit of glaring at you from across the bakery. were you that pretty? yes. but his glares didnât feel like he was admiring you. they leaned more towards⌠anger.
your friend on the other end of the call burst out laughing - and you joined her for a moment. but before your friend could reply, your phone screen went black.Â
âugh, seriously?â you grumbled, tapping the screen repeatedly. with an annoyed sigh, you stuffed the dead phone into your bag.
with nothing else to do, your attention shifted. your eyes eventually landed on seonghwa, who was watching you with a blank face.Â
it wouldnât hurt to get to know him, right? after all, you see him everyday - and since your phone died, maybe itâs finally time to get some real human interaction in.
you gave him a wide smile. âhey, seonghwa.â
he blinked, visibly startled. âi uh-â
â-why donât you sit with me?â you asked. âyouâre not busy, are you?âÂ
for a moment, he seemed frozen. but somehow, you managed to convince him to sit across from you.
âso...â you began. âhow are you?â
âgood.â
you blinked. this wasnât the riveting conversation you were hoping for.
unfazed, you continued. âhowâs work been? stressful?â
he exhaled softly, shaking his head. âitâs fine. how about you? howâs work?â
âitâs alright,â you shrugged. âitâs gotten better since i started coming here. the vending machines at work are always broken.â
he nodded, his fingers drumming lightly on the table. âyeah- itâs even more convenient since itâs walking distance, right?â
you paused.Â
â...how do you know that?â
seonghwaâs fingers froze mid-tap.Â
âmrs earl,â he said finally. âshe said a lot of her regulars work in the area.â
âoh, that makes sense,â you said, your suspicions fading quickly. you glanced out the window, your face softening. âi miss her..â
seonghwa let out a quiet sigh of relief, nodding as though he agreed with you.
but inside, his mind was screaming. that was way too close.Â
focus.
âŤâŤâŤâŤâŤâŤ
you kicked your shoes and slumped onto the couch, letting out a long sigh. the day had been.. something. your chat with seonghwa was pretty awkward, but more than anything, it made you miss mrs earl.
reaching for your phone, you dialed her number.
ââ____â! my favourite customer,â she greeted cheerfully, the background noise filled with chatter and clinking glasses.
âmrs earl!â you replied. âhow are you? are the boys at your country club treating you well?â
âoh, you know how they are,â she giggled. âtrying to impress me with golf and fancy dinners. itâs nice to relax for a change.â
you chuckled, sinking deeper into the couch. âthat sounds perfect. you deserve it.â
the conversation flowed easily unlike the one earlier. you updated her on the usual - work and office gossip. but eventually, the topic drifted to the bakery.
âi hope the new boy hasnât burned the place down,â mrs earl began.
âheâs actually a pretty good baker,â you said. âhis cream puffs are unreal-â
you paused for a moment before you added. âthough i have to say, they make my stomach hurt whenever i eat them.â
the line went quiet.
â...please elaborate,â mrs earl chuckled softly.
âi mean- i donât know,â you shrugged, even though she couldnât see it. âafter i eat his pastries, my trips to the toilet are⌠traumatic.â you let out a small laugh. âbut theyâre so tasty, itâs worth the lactose intolerance.â
another silence followed, longer this time. you frowned slightly, shifting on the couch.Â
âmrs earl?â
her voice finally came through, slower this time. âthatâs.. impossible, my dear.â
âwhat do you mean?â you asked, sitting a little straighter.
âwell,â she began carefully. âthe bakery strictly uses oat milk. we donât use any dairy products in our pastries.â
â...what?â
âthe cream, the milk- everything is plant-based,â she continued. âitâs been that way for years. didnât i tell you that when you first came in?â
you opened your mouth to respond, but no words came out.
mrs earlâs voice broke the silence again. âit could be something else. youâve been stressed, havenât you?â
âyeah..â you replied automatically, though your thoughts were far from the conversation.
âtake care of yourself, honey,â she said gently. âi have to go, but call me again soon, okay?â
you nodded. âokay.. bye, mrs earl.â
âstay well, â____â.â
the call ended, leaving you sitting on the couch, phone in hand. for a long moment, you stared at the screen, her voice echoing in your head.Â
the bakery strictly uses oat milk.
MONTH 1 - I WAS SPACING OUT
you sat at your regular table by the window, flipping through your notebook while sipping on your coffee.
you tapped your pencil against the table. yes, âtraumaticâ was probably an exaggeration for your bathroom trips - but if there was no dairy in seonghwaâs cream puffs, then what was messing with your stomach?
you quickly shook your head, a sigh escaping your lips. âtoo weird to think about,â you thought to yourself. whatever it was, the food was worth it.
you returned back to sketching, taking out your ruler to make straight lines. but as you drew, you couldnât help but feel a certain someoneâs eyes on you.Â
âyouâre staring again,â you said without looking up.Â
a long pause settled over the bakery before you heard a, â..no, i wasnât.â
you glanced up, a smile tugging at your lips. âwanna see what iâm working on?âÂ
and that was how seonghwa found himself unusually close to you, sitting beside you as you showed him your sketches - clean lines forming buildings, bridges and intricate floor plans.Â
âyou like drawing?â he asked.
âyeah,â you nodded, flipping to another page. âi wanted to be an architect.âÂ
seonghwaâs brow furrowed slightly. âthen why arenât you doing it?âÂ
you let out a laugh. âbecause iâm broke,â you said simply. âiâd rather work in an office than take out student loans.âÂ
you flipped through more sketches - some labelled with small notes in the margins while others had more detailed calculations. âitâs just a little hobby of mine.â
seonghwaâs eyes darted between you and the notebook. âthis doesnât look like a hobby,â he muttered.
you raised an eyebrow. âwhat does it look like then?â
âit looks like something youâre serious about.âÂ
you paused, blinking at him before leaning closer. âiâm serious about a lot of things, seonghwa- but that doesnât mean i make a career out of them.â
the silence between you stretched as you flipped through the pages. the energy shifted to something you couldnât quite explain - and as you tilted the notebook to show him a certain sketch, you realised that his eyes werenât even on the paper anymore, they were on you.Â
you sighed, closing the notebook. as you slipped it into your bag, you noticed how his eyes were still following you, sharp yet strangely soft with concern.
âdonât worry-â you said, smoothing out your clothes. âiâm perfectly content with where i am now.â
âare you?â he asked.
you met his eyes for a moment longer than usual. âyep,â you finished the last sip of your coffee. âhow could i not be? free cream puffs and all, right?â
seonghwa didnât respond.
âthanks for looking at my sketches,â you smiled, turning away. âhope i didnât bother you.â
as he watched you walk out the door, he let out a slow sigh he didnât realise he was holding, running a hand through his hair.
he stared up at the ceiling, leaning back into the chair. and for the first time in a long time, seonghwa felt sympathy.Â
MONTH 2 - FRIENDSHIP IS MAGICÂ
over the past few weeks, you developed the habit of waving seonghwa over to join you whenever you stopped by the bakery. what started as polite small talk turned into embarrassing work stories you had.
this afternoon was no different. you sat across from him, coffee in one hand and a half-eaten cookie in the other, complaining about your friendsâ latest questionable decision.
âyeah, she doesnât listen to me,â you took a bite out of the cookie. âlike- why fuck him if you hate him, yâknow?â
behind his usual composed self, you caught the faintest twitch of seonghwaâs lips, followed by a sound so soft you almost missed it - a low chuckle.
you froze mid-bite. âdid you just.. laugh?â
seonghwa raised an eyebrow. âyeah..?â
you leaned forward, eyes wide with excitement. âiâve never seen you laugh before.â
âiâm sure you have,â he blinked.
âno, i wouldâve remembered it,â you shook your head, grinning. âi like it.â
seonghwa choked, caught off guard. before he could even respond or process what you said, his phone buzzed in his apron pocket. he glanced at the screen and frowned.
âexcuse me,â he said, heading to the small kitchen in the bakery, leaving you slightly confused.
âŤâŤâŤâŤâŤâŤ
seonghwa pressed the phone to his ear. âwhat?â he asked.
âi got your poison ready,â sanâs voice came through.
seonghwa nearly dropped his phone, swallowing the lump in his throat. â...really?â
âyeah- you wanted it extra strong, right?â san continued. âit took some tweaking, but itâs ready to go.â
the bakerâs eyes darted to the half-open kitchen door. he could almost picture you sitting on the other side of it. âright⌠good.â
this was it. no more laxatives, no more delays.
itâs real now.
the thought of finishing the job left a strange knot in his chest - not dread exactly, but something close to it.
he wasnât supposed to feel this way - no, heâs never felt this way. his work had always been detached. he never tried to make connections outside of the world of crime, didnât deal with people who werenât tied to his web of blood.
not until you came along.
you talked to him like he was.. normal. like he was a regular guy in a regular bakery.
he was finally seen as a person, not a killer.Â
it was refreshing.Â
âhello?â sanâs voice broke him out of his thoughts.
âi uh-â seonghwa cleared his throat, realising that he was silent for too long. âjust leave the poison on my desk. iâll get it later.
âsure,â san replied before adding, âbut donât overthink it, okay? just get it done.â
seonghwa hung up, staring at his phone for a moment before slipping it back into his pocket.
just get it done.
âŤâŤâŤâŤâŤâŤ
from your seat, you only caught bits and pieces of seonghwaâs call. you didnât mean to listen in, but your ears got carried away.Â
his voice was low and hard to hear, muffled by the thin walls of the bakery - but one word stood out: poison.
your brows furrowed as you leaned back into your chair, the word echoing in your mind. poison? like food poisoning? did he get it? was that what you had?
you pushed those thoughts out of your mind. after all, what were the odds that your new friend seonghwa said something like âpoisonâ in a bakery of all places? you mustâve misheard.
the door creaked open as seonghwa stepped out, dusting his apron off as he walked back to the table.
âsorry about that,â he said, sitting across from you.
you tilted your head. âeverything okay?â
âyeah,â he replied - but you swear you caught a hint of guilt in his eyes. âwhere were we?â
MONTH 3 - THIS ISNâT FUN ANYMORE
you wandered through the aisles that had shelves lined with tools, appliances and decorations. mrs earl invited you out for a little shopping spree, wanting to pick out a few things for her house.
as she inspected a stack of plates, something caught your attention - a small set of colourful forks, each with cute designs of fruits and animals.
âthese are adorable,â you muttered as you picked it up.
mrs earl looked over your shoulder. âi didnât know you liked these things.â
you shook your head, laughing softly. âoh- i do, but this is for seonghwa.â
âfor seonghwa?â she raised an eyebrow.
âyeah,â you nodded. âheâs always giving me free food. i just thought itâd be nice to get him something.â
mrs earlâs lips curved into a knowing smile, though she said nothing. instead, she patted your shoulder and moved to examine another shelf.
over the past few weeks, seonghwa had become quite a good friend of yours. after all, you saw him everyday and you started to look forward to his presence whenever you stopped by.
and honestly? youâve been wanting to pay him back for ages. all the free pastries, coffees and times he let you ramble on about work without looking annoyed. he needed.. compensation, if that was what it was called.
you sighed. what if he thought you were weird? well, it didnât really matter - you wanted to do this.
âŤâŤâŤâŤâŤâŤ
the bakery was quiet and empty. seonghwa stood at the counter, his fingers gripping a small packet of crushed pills in one hand and the coffee you ordered in the other.
the poison felt heavier that it should, sinking into his palm as a reminder of what he was about to do. his mind spun, his thoughts fuzzy.
was this really happening?
he stared at the packet, his breathing shallow. it took him longer than usual to go near the wretched thing, let alone hold it. now, standing with the poison scarily close to your coffee, the reality set in.
your life was in his hands.
seonghwaâs chest tightened. he could just stop, throw the poison away, pour the coffee down the sink and pretend that none of this happened. after all, no one was forcing him to do this - except himself.
he sighed shakily, his fingers trembling as he began to shove the poison into his pocket.
but then the door swung open. you werenât supposed to be back yet.
âhey seonghwa-!â
your voice startled him. his eyes snapped to the door as you walked in with paper bags, followed by mrs earl.
âi got you something-â you said before your smile faltered, your eyes landing on the packet in his hand. âis that.. wait- is that drugs?â
seonghwa coughed, fully shoving it into his pocket quickly. âno- itâs not-â
your eyes narrowed - and before seonghwa could react, you went behind the counter and reached into his pocket, pulling out the packet.
âwait-â
your lips parted as you read the label. â...poison?â you breathed out.
the words hung in the air.
your eyes darted to the coffee cup still clutched in his other hand. it was unmistakably yours, your drink order obvious. and it didnât take long for the pieces to click.
âare you-â you gulped. â...are you trying to kill me?â you asked, your voice trembling.
seonghwa stood frozen, unable to respond.Â
mrs earl, who was trailing behind, looked at the packet in your hand, then at seonghwa.
âwhat is the meaning of this?â she demanded. she stormed over to him, grabbing a nearby towel and smacking it across his shoulder. âi trusted you with my food! my bakery! and this is what you do?!â
seonghwa flinched but didnât resist. his eyes, however, werenât on mrs earl - they were on you.
you were completely still, the poison clutched in your hands.Â
seonghwa opened his mouth to say something - anything, but the words died before they could form. you couldnât even look at him, your eyes wide and unfocused.
ignoring how his chest tightened, he turned and dashed - leaving nothing but silence in the bakery.
mrs earl paced angrily, muttering curses under her breath. but you didnât hear her - you couldnât. your eyes remained fixed on the packet, your breathing heavy.
you sat down, throwing the poison far away from you. your heart pounded in your chest, each beat louder than the last.Â
holy shit.
he was going to kill you.Â
MONTH 4 - ARE WE STILL FRIENDS?
you leaned back in your seat, stretching your arms above your head. you powered down your computer, your office building quiet - working overtime seemed more tiring than usual.
you grabbed your bag, slinging it over your shoulder when your eyes landed on a small box tucked into the corner of your desk.
the fork set.
for weeks, you avoided looking at it. the sight of it was a reminder of the bakery - your now-dead friendship with seonghwa and the moment you realised he tried to kill you.
why did you even keep this?
you didnât want to bring it home. you didnât want to keep it at all. maybe it was time to throw it away and be done with it.Â
you stepped out of your office building, the streets eerily silent. the only source of light you had were the streetlights that shined yellow light onto the pavement.
you clenched the fork set in your hands.
poison.
the word did circles around your mind, sending an uncomfortable feeling throughout your body. was that why your stomach always hurt after eating his pastries? was he actually trying to poison you the whole time?
the idea of it stung. you thought back to all the times you trusted him, to all the times you talked.
was any of it even real?
your thoughts were interrupted by the faint sight of movement you caught from the corner of your eye.
you stopped, glancing to the alley to your left. at first, it was hard to make out what you were seeing, the shadows dark. but then you froze.
a man stood there, holding a gun.
and someone else was infront of him, pinned against the wall.
your breath hitched when you realised who it was.
seonghwa.
his eyes locked onto yours, wide with fear as the gunman barked something you couldnât hear. his face was bruised, blood smeared along his jaw and soaking his shirt.
you gulped.
this man tried to kill you. you could just.. walk away, pretend this didnât happen.
you took a step back, everything in your body telling you to leave. but then, seonghwaâs trembling hand reached toward you, his fingers shaking as he silently pleaded.
shit.
you donât know what compelled you - pity or something else entirely, but your grip tightened on the box in your hand. quickly, you opened it, grabbing the first fork you saw.
without thinking, you chucked it at the gunman.
the fork struck his shoulder with a dull thud, making him whip around in shock, pointing the gun at you.
your heart stopped. this was it.
but seonghwa worked fast.
grabbing the fork, he lunged forward with all the strength he had, driving it into the gunmanâs neck.
the man stumbled, choking as he clawed at his throat, slumping to the ground.
seonghwa collapsed to his knees, panting heavily as the fork clattered from his hand to the pavement. blood dripped from his fingertips, pooling around him as he pressed a hand to his side, trying to stop his wound from bleeding.
â...thank you,â he managed to say, his voice hoarse.
you stared at him, your chest heaving. you stepped closer, looking down at his bloodied state. âdamn it.â
seonghwa glanced up at you, his eyes filled with⌠gratitude? sincerity? relief? or was that desperation?
you sighed, shaking your head. âyouâre lucky iâm a nice person.â
âŤâŤâŤâŤâŤâŤ
âiâm sorry-â
âdonât talk to me,â you cut him off, shoving a cold can of soda into his hand.
you brought seonghwa to your office, the only place you could think of where he wouldnât be found - or bleed out. he sat in your coworkerâs chair, guilt written all over his face.
with a heavy sigh, you sank into your own chair across from him, leaning back as you tried to catch your breath.
for what felt like an eternity, the two of you sat in silence, your eyes locked in an unspoken fight. dark red tissues piled up beside seonghwa as he pressed another one to the cut on his cheek, wincing.
you didnât want to feel sorry for him. you didnât want to care. but seeing him like this - injured, his clothes stained with the horrid look of blood, made it impossible to ignore the way your stomach twisted.
â...how did you end up like this?â
your words cracked, betraying the hurt and confusion you tried so so hard to bottle up.
âi-â began before stopping himself, his voice faltering. he pressed his lips into a thin line, looking away from you.Â
EARLIER THAT DAY
âwha-? you canât say no, seonghwa,â hongjoong snapped. âthis is your job.â
seonghwa slouched deeper into the couch, arms crossed over his chest. his eyes followed his boss as he paced around the room. âi donât want to go.â
ââi donât want to goâ,â hongjoong mocked, stopping mid-step to glare at him. âiâm not asking you to go, iâm telling you.â
seonghwa stayed silent.
âcome on,â hoongjoong ran a hand through his hair. âwe got a tip theyâre loitering around these streets. the least you could do is check it out.â
âtheyâ.
aka the drug cartel that had been bothering hongjoong and the group for months. even then, seonghwa shook his head, refusing his bossâs orders.
hongjoong let out a frustrated sigh. âyouâve been like this ever since you failed to kill that girl. youâre depressed- go outside.â
seonghwaâs head snapped up. âiâm not depressed,â he glared.
âright,â hongjoong chuckled dryly. âbecause moping and lazing around is normal behavior for you. wake up.â
seonghwa bit back a retort, his nails biting into his palms. he wasnât depressed. he wasnât.
was he?
a heavy silence settled over the room. sure, the last few weeks have been.. off. he hadnât been sleeping well. his appetite was nonexistent. and everytime he thought about you, he felt an ache in his heart that he couldnât quite shake.
it wasnât depression. it was just a.. slump.
he was not depressed.Â
seonghwa sighed, rolling his eyes. âwhatever,â he muttered finally. he pushed himself up. âi better be paid good for this.â
PRESENT
seonghwa gulped, staring at the bruises on his arms. finally, he met your eyes, shifting uncomfortably. â...itâs just my job.â
you crossed your arms. âyour job?â
he said nothing.
âseonghwa-â you began, leaning forward. âwhat kind of job leaves you looking like this?â
his shoulders stiffened, and for a moment - you thought he wouldnât answer. but then he sighed, wiping his bloody hands on his shirt.Â
âif i tell you,â he said. âyou need to promise me something.â
you raised an eyebrow. âpromise what?â
âthat you wonât tell anyone.â
a dry laugh escaped your lips. âiâm not promising anything. spit it out.â
â...iâm in a gang.â
âwha-â you stared at him, your face blank for a second before you let out a snort and cackle. âyouâre joking, right?â
but when he didnât laugh, you froze.
âwait- youâre not joking?â you asked, your voice quieter.
he shook his head.
his words hit you like a wave. your mind spun, connecting the dots - the poison, his sketchy behaviour, the guilty look in his eyes - it all fell into place.
â...is that why you tried to kill me?â you asked after a long pause. âwhat did i do?â
âthatâs..â seonghwa trailed off, looking away. âunrelated.â
you rolled your eyes. âof course it is.â
his face softened into something almost remorseful. âi donât really know how to talk about this,â he said. âbut i know iâm sorry.â
âyou didnât have to save me, but you did,â he leaned forward. âand i keep wondering why- because if it was the other way around, i donât think i wouldâve done the same.â
you raised your eyebrow.
âiâm sorry, really,â he said, quieter now. âi donât know what else i can say, but i just.. i donât want you to think iâm taking any of it lightly.â
you stared at him, surprised by how sincere he was. âseonghwa..â
âi know an apology wonât fix anything,â he said. âbut iâll do whatever it takes to make it right.â
âwhatever it takes?â you asked, furrowing your brows.Â
he nodded quickly.
you scoffed, leaning in closer, your eyes piercing his. âif you really mean that, prove it.â
âi will,â he said immediately.
ââŚuhuh,â you looked him up and down before standing, grabbing your bag. âyou can start by cleaning the blood off of my coworkerâs chair.â
he let out a faint chuckle, though it was more self-deprecating than anything. before you walked away, you paused, turning back to him.
âseonghwa?â
âyeah?â
you stepped closer, grabbing his collar and pulling him towards you. âbefore you try anything stupid, remember this: i still have that poison of yours.â
MONTH 5 - WALK HIM LIKE A DOG
you had to admit - it was convenient having your own personal assistant, even if the circumstances were⌠complicated.
it wasnât like you asked for this arrangement. seonghwa brought it upon himself, showing up whenever you called.Â
printer jammed? heâd be there in ten minutes. out of pens? heâd have a pack delivered to your desk. of course you didnât trust him with tasks involving your drinks or food, but even then - he made himself useful with other things.
over time, you got used to calling him for simple errands - and he never complained.Â
it was most definitely awkward though, especially when he tried to make small talk with you.
â..your hair looks nice,â he said once as he stood by your desk.
âthanks,â you replied, not looking up from your screen.
a moment passed. you glanced over your shoulder, raising an eyebrow when you noticed he was still standing there. â...do you need something?â
he quickly shook his head, turning away as he muttered an apology.
youâd be lying if you said you didnât find it amusing. as much as you hated to admit it, having him around wasnât unbearable.Â
as days turned into weeks, the distrust you held so tightly began to loosen its grip. it wasnât like you forgot what he did, there were just moments when he seemed normal.
âyouâre terrible at this,â you smirked, watching him struggle to assemble the new office chair you ordered.
he looked up at you. âi might be terrible, but at least i can read the instructions.â
you laughed.
but then youâd remember.
youâd remember the poison, the fact that this man tried to kill you for what seemed like no reason.Â
and everything goes back to square one.Â
MONTH 5.5 - T.G.I.F BY KATY PERRY
that friday, your coworkers insisted on dragging you out for a night at the club.
âletâs get wasted!â they said. âitâll be fun!â they said.
that was probably a lie, but you gave in, changing your clothes before heading out.
neon lights shined erratically, painting the crowd in shifting shades of red, blue and green. bass-heavy music filled the club, so loud that it felt like waves went through your body. it was chaotic and packed to the brim with bodies swaying and stumbling.
itâd only been ten minutes and you already lost sight of your coworkers in the sea of people.
âshit,â you muttered under your breath, trying to find the exit.Â
you pushed through drunk, clumsy dancers, finally spotting the door. but as you approached it, two towering men stepped infront of it, their shoulders forming an impenetrable wall.
âwha-?â you frowned, stopping. âi canât leave?â
they didnât respond.
âfine, whatever,â you scoffed, rolling your eyes. if you were going to be stuck here, might as well grab a drink.
you made your way to the bar, squeezing between a group of rowdy patrons to get the bartenderâs attention. but just as you opened your mouth to order, you heard a voice behind you.
âhey, angel.â
you paused, glancing behind to see a man standing way too close. he was quite well-dressed, but an unsettling smirk settled on his face.
âexcuse me?â you raised an eyebrow.
âcan i buy you a drink?â he purred, leaning closer. âi think iâll regret it if i donât.â
you blinked. âno, itâs okay-â
â-two shots of tequila,â he called out to the bartender, cutting you off.Â
you stared at him, barely processing his words before a shot glass was placed infront of you, the clear liquid weirdly fizzing.Â
âthank you, but i donât-â
âdrink.â
before you could react, his hand was at the back of your head, tilting it back as he pressed the shot glass to your lips. the liquid burned as it slid down your throat - making you cough violently while the heat seared your chest.Â
âwha- what is happening?â you mumbled. your limbs felt heavy and your head was spinning as your vision blurred.Â
the manâs smirk deepened, his face inches from yours as he gripped your wrist. âlet me ask you something, angel.â
you blinked, your thoughts sluggish and messy.
âwhat do you know about a man named park seonghwa?â
the name hit you in the face, your breath hitching. âi-â
his grip on your wrist tightened painfully. âanswer.â
âheâs just a baker,â you said quickly.
the man chuckled darkly, the sound sending a chill down your spine. âare you sure?â
you nodded, unable to form a response.
he leaned closer, his breath hot against your ear. âthen why did he poison my boss a few months ago?â
poison.Â
that stupid stupid word haunting you again.Â
the man laughed again, low and ominous. âyou had a reaction there- you know something i donât?â
you shook your head weakly, the motion making your dizziness worse. your knees buckled slightly, making you grip the edge of the sticky counter to steady yourself.
suddenly, the manâs phone buzzed in his pocket. he pulled it out, still holding you firmly in place.
âyeah,â he said after a moment. âi got his girlfriend right here.â
your eyes widened. âiâm not his girlfri-â
before you could finish, his hand clamped over your mouth, muffling your words.
âsleep,â he whispered, your world fading to black.
âŤâŤâŤâŤâŤâŤ
seonghwa laid in bed, staring at the ceiling where his fan spun. with a sigh, he shifted under the covers, letting sleep take over him.
but just as he closed his eyes, his phone buzzed on the nightstand. his brows furrowed as he reached for it.
he swiped to answer it, not looking at the screen. âyes?â
âhey seonghwa,â a low, gruff voice was heard on the other end.
instantly, he was wide awake, sitting upright in the bed. his grip on the phone tightened. â...who is this?â
the voice chuckled. âi got your pretty little girlfriend right here- knocked out like a light.â
seonghwa paused. â...girlfriend?â
âyeah,â the man replied. âthe chick youâre always hanging around. surprised you werenât with her, thought iâd have to put up a fight.â
seonghwaâs blood turned cold as the realisation hit.
you.
he didnât waste another second. he hung up immediately, throwing off the covers as he leapt out of bed, grabbing his jacket.
his footsteps echoed through the hideout as he stormed toward jonghoâs room. he barged through the door without knocking, startling jongho who was hunched over his gaming setup.
jongho spun around in his chair. âwhat the hell-?â
âtrace this number. now,â seonghwa shoved the phone into jonghoâs hands.
jongho blinked. âiâm in the middle of a game.â
âi donât care.â
jongho groaned, taking his headset off as he tapped the phone screen. âfine.â
seonghwa paced around the room like a caged animal - his fists clenching and unclenching as he tried to calm himself down. if theyâd taken you, it was most definitely his fault.Â
âgot it,â jongho said after a while, typing something into his laptop. âyou want me to track the phone too?â
âyes-â seonghwa snapped. âhurry.â
jongho glanced up at him, his brows furrowed. âwhatâs going on?â
âsomeone has her,â seonghwa muttered.
jonghoâs eyes widened slightly, his fingers flying over the keyboard. âi thought you were over her?â
âwha- no,â seonghwa glared at him. âjust find her.â
âŤâŤâŤâŤâŤâŤ
you slowly woke up, your head throbbing. your first attempt to open your eyes was met with darkness. no - something pressed against your face. a blindfold.Â
your body felt stiff, the coarse bite of rope digging into your wrists and ankles. inhaling shakily, you realised something else: your mouth was muffled by a towel, trapping your cries before they could escape.
panic ran around your mind as you tried to make sense of your surroundings. the surface beneath you swayed gently - and you could hear the occasional creak of metal together with muffled voices. a vehicle. you were in a moving vehicle.
but out of nowhere, you heard a shout.
âshit!â
the vehicle swerved violently, the tires screeching against the asphalt with a sound sharp enough to make you wince. your body jerked with the motion, the restraints keeping you in place. tears spilled beneath your blindfold, your breaths shallow and rapid against the towel.
the screeching came to an abrupt stop, followed by the jarring slam of a door.
what came next was a symphony of screams and the sickening, wet sounds of a blade piercing flesh, bodies hitting the ground. you clenched your fists, trembling.
the next door opened.Â
another scream.Â
another stab.
then silence.
your chest heaved, your heart pounding so loudly it drowned out everything else. was this it? were you next?
then your blindfold slipped away.
your eyes fluttered open, the tears caught in your lashes making your eyelids feel heavy. when your vision eventually cleared, the first thing you saw was him.
seonghwa. his face splattered with blood, his dark eyes wide as he searched yours. his chest rose and fell as he tried to catch his breath.
âare you okay?â he asked, removing the towel from your mouth.
tears spilled down your cheeks faster now, your emotions overwhelming you in a way youâve never felt before.
seonghwaâs face softened as he wiped your tears with his thumb, the blood on his hands smearing across your skin.
he moved to the ropes binding your wrists and ankles, his hands working quickly.Â
âiâm sorry,â he said softly. âiâm so sorry- shit. i shouldâve stayed away from you.â
the moment you were free, you threw your arms around him. he stiffened at first, caught off guard, but then his hands moved to your back.
your body shook against his as you cried. over his shoulder, you saw the man at the bar - his lifeless body crumpled on the ground, stab wounds dotting him.
âiâm so sorry,â seonghwa whispered again, his hand rubbing slow circles on your back. âthis is all my fault.â
you pulled back slightly, your face still wet with tears. his hands stayed on your shoulders. âdid they hurt you?â he asked softly.
you shook your head.
the vehicle fell into a heavy silence, the only sounds being your sniffling.
seonghwa gulped. âiâm sorry-â
â-thank you,â you said at the same time.
both of you froze, your words overlapping.
you chuckled, tears still clinging to your lashes.
âiâm really sorry,â he said once more, his voice cracking.
you studied him for a moment, taking in his disheveled hair, the blood on his skin and the exhaustion in his eyes.Â
â...were you sleeping?â you asked, noticing the pajama shirt peeking out from under his jacket.
âyeah, i was about to.â
your eyes widened. âyou saved me even though you were about to sleep?â
he raised an eyebrow. âwas i not supposed to?âÂ
you stared at him, stunned. â...thank you.â
MONTH 6 - JUST DO IT
youâve been staring at the text for hours, the words glowing on your phone screen.
letâs meet up.
seonghwa sent it to you that morning. no follow-up, no explanation, just those three words. and yet, they felt more heavy than you could even imagine.
what could you even say?
you tried to distract yourself, grabbing your laptop and scrolling through social media, but nothing held your attention for more than a second. your mind kept drifting back to the message.
your phone buzzed, the screen lighting up with another notification. not him. but you couldnât stop yourself from looking at the text again.
letâs meet up.
âhe saved you-â you reminded yourself. â-but he also tried to kill you.â
it shouldâve been simple. black and white. a clear boundary between trust and mistrust. but nothing about seonghwa was simple.
when you thought about him, the first thing that came to mind wasnât the poison or the lies.Â
it was his hands, trembling as he untied you.Â
it was his voice, breaking with regret as he apologised.Â
it was the way he looked at you, like he didnât deserve your forgiveness but was desperate for it anyway.
you hated it.
you hated that he saved you. hated how jumbled your feelings were.
and most of all, you hated how much time you spent thinking about him and his stupidly flawless face.Â
you groaned, tossing your phone onto the couch. âthis is ridiculous.â
this wasnât what you needed right now. you grabbed your bag and went out the door. maybe grocery shopping would clear your head.
âŤâŤâŤâŤâŤâŤ
the store was crowded, filled with after-work shoppers. you walked aimlessly, picking up a few essentials here and there, but your mind was still on that text.
you stopped at the fridges, grabbing a drink. but as you turned to place it in your basket, you collided with someone. âwatch it-â you began.
your words fell short when you realised you bumped into seonghwa, his phone in one hand and an awkward expression on his face. his eyes widened - and for a moment, neither of you spoke.
âhey,â he said finally.
you blinked, letting out a nervous chuckle. âhey,â you raised your free hand in a small wave.
â...can we talk?â
you nodded slowly. âyeah,â you put your drink into your basket. âwhatâs up?â
seonghwa glanced around, looking at the other shoppers nearby. âmaybe not here.â
you nodded, heading to the checkout line without another word.
âŤâŤâŤâŤâŤâŤ
you sat beside seonghwa on a wooden bench, your grocery bag resting at your feet. the both of you settled down in a park, a quieter and less busy place where you could actually breathe.
you reached for your drink, opening it. âthirsty?â you asked, holding it out to him.
he shook his head.
âi didnât poison it,â you smirked.
seonghwa gave you a look, his ears turning pink. âyou know i feel bad about that,â he muttered.
you chuckled softly, taking a sip. âsorry, sorry,â you said, turning to face him fully. âwhat did you want to talk about?â
he paused, hesitating as he fiddled with the edge of his jacket. âi just wanted to apologise,â he said finally.
you sighed setting the drink aside. âseonghwa- this is the hundredth time youâve said that.â
âi know but-â
âi forgive you,â you said, your mouth moving faster than your mind.
his head snapped up, his eyes wide with disbelief. âwhat?â
âi forgive you,â you repeated, more confidently this time.
â...really?â he asked, completely shocked.
âyeah,â you shrugged. âyou saved me. and itâs not like i can stay mad at you forever.â
seonghwa blinked. âyou definitely can,â he said. âi wouldnât blame you for it.â
silence fell between you, heavy but not uncomfortable.Â
his fingers brushed against yours accidentally - and he instantly pulled his hand back, his face turning a shade of red. âoh my god- iâm so sorry-â
âseonghwa,â you interrupted, reaching for his hand and holding it gently - his fingers slightly calloused. âstop apologising.â
âi canât help it,â he admitted quietly.
everything seemed to come to a standstill.
the distant sounds of birds chirping and leaves rustling faded into the background. your eyes locked, time pausing.
neither of you spoke.
slowly, almost unconsciously, you both leaned closer. the faint warmth of his breath brushed against your lips, uneven and nervous, mirroring your own.
you blinked, your breath caught in your throat when you realised just how close his face was to yours. âwoah..â you whispered.
seonghwa immediately leaned back, clearing his throat. âsorry-â
before he could retreat any further, you reached out instinctively, your fingers curling around his jaw - his skin hot under your touch. âstop saying that,â you mumbled, your thumb brushing lightly against his cheek.
he froze, his eyes searching yours for something - permission, reassurance or maybe a blend of both.
you saw how he looked down at your lips for a split second, his adamâs apple bobbing. â...is this okay?â seonghwa breathed out shakily.Â
you smiled softly, your thumb tracing slow circles on his jaw. âof course.â
the moment his lips pressed against yours, the world disappeared.Â
his shoulders relaxed as he leaned into you, his hand rising to cup your cheek. his touch was careful, as if he was afraid of hurting you in some way.
your lips moved together in a soft, slow rhythm, the warmth of him spreading through you like a comforting fire.Â
the sensation was intoxicating - and you found yourselves melting into each otherâs touch.Â
seonghwaâs breath hitched as he tilted his head slightly, deepening the kiss. his heart pounded against yours, a blush creeping up his neck, leaving him lightheaded.
when you finally pulled back, your lips were tingling. and before you could say anything, seonghwa leaned forward again, leaving a trail of kisses along your jawline.
âhey!â
a voice broke the moment like a needle popping a balloon. both of you jumped, your heads snapping toward the sound.
a parent stood not too far away, their hands clamped over their childâs eyes. âplease do this at home or something,â they said, glaring at the two of you before walking away quickly.
you and seonghwa exchanged a look, your cheeks flushing as you tried to stifle your laughter.
âyeah,â he said, looking into your eyes, then at your lips. âletâs do this somewhere else.â
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BONUS SCENE - CUE THE MARIACHI BAND
you stirred awake to the faint aroma of something tasty wafting through the air. groggily, you rubbed your eyes open, only to find seonghwa standing by the bed, a tray in his hands.
âhappy anniversary,â he said softly, his lips curving into a smile.
you pushed yourself up on the pillows, your eyes wide with surprise as you took in the tray - a plate of freshly baked bread and scrambled eggs.
âthank you..â you mumbled, half-asleep but touched by the gesture.
seonghwa stepped closer, carefully placing the tray on your lap. he leaned down to press a kiss to your forehead. âeat quickly,â he said with a hint of excitement. âi got you something.â
you raised an eyebrow. âi thought we said no gifts this year.â
he shrugged, smirking. âi lied.â
you rolled your eyes, though you couldnât stop a smile from forming on your lips. you grabbed a piece of bread and started eating. it was perfect, just like everything he made.
when you were finished, you slid out of bed, wrapping your cardigan tighter around yourself. you walked to where seonghwa was, sitting next to him.
âseonghwa,â you began. âwe agreed- no gifts.â
âi know,â he said, reaching for something on the coffee table. âbut i changed my mind.â
your eyes landed on the envelope in his hands. you stared at it as he handed it to you, your brows furrowing slightly. âwhatâs this?â you asked, taking it hesitantly.
âopen it.â
sliding your finger under the seal, you pulled out a letter. as your eyes skimmed the words, your jaw dropped.
â...is this-?â
âyeah.â
âyou paid for my school?!â you exclaimed in disbelief.
he nodded. âyou wanted to be an architect, right?â
âi do but..â you looked at him in shock, the letter trembling in your hands. âisnât it expensive?â
âso?â he leaned closer to you, pulling you gently towards him.
your lips parted, trying to form words. âbut you paid in full-â
âit doesnât matter,â he cut you off softly, pecking your cheek. âi wanted to do it. for you.â
you searched his eyes, completely stunned. he leaned in, his lips brushing against yours in a tender kiss.Â
when you eventually pulled away, he didnât let you go fully. instead, he smiled, brushing a strand of hair away from your face before pressing a gentle kiss to your temple. âhappy anniversary.â
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THE CLIFFHANGER?!?!??
I need the next part (of course take your time)
Pairing: heir!Song Mingi x heir!Reader AU: non-idol | arranged marriage | enemies to lovers Genre: angst, humor, fluff in future chapters Rating: NC-17 Summary: After a life-altering car accident, Mingi is given one final shot at redemptionâreborn as a fuzzy little puppy. To earn a second chance at life, he must complete three tasks or risk being doomed to the afterlife forever. Word Count: 6.6K Warnings: angst, character d*ath, attacks on animals, mentions of blood, swearing, mentions of mental health, only half proofread, use of crude language
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a/n: it hurt me to write this chapter đ
You werenât particularly close to your father. His life revolved around his workâthe family business he hadnât wanted but had accepted out of obligation when your uncles, San and Jonghoâs fathers, stepped aside, unwilling to subject their sons to the challenges of running a conglomerate.
Sometimes you wished he had done the same too.Â
He was often away, traveling to meet clients or locked in endless board meetings. He wasnât the type of man to swoop in with comforting words or a warm embrace. Instead, he listened without interrupting, nodded without judgment, and spoke only when he felt it was necessary. Despite the distance between you, his steady presence had a way of making you feel oddly secure.
And maybe that was why, as you paced the length of your penthouse, you found yourself dialing his number. Mingi followed your every move, his small body glued to your side. He kept glancing up at you, occasionally tripping you with how close he was.
âCome on, pick up, pick upâŚâ You muttered to yourself. Your pacing carried you in a loopâthrough the kitchen, into the dining room you barely used, and then into the living room. Then, you wandered back into the kitchen, your footsteps quickening with every unanswered ring.
âY/N?â
Your shoulders sagged in relief, and you stopped pacing, planting yourself in the middle of the kitchen as Mingi bumped up against your ankles.Â
âDad!â
âIs everything alright?â
You hesitated, your fingers tightening slightly around the phone. How were you supposed to explain everything that had transpired the last few weeks without sounding unhinged?Â
What were you even supposed to say? Hi, Dad. Quick question: Are you sure the woman youâre married to is actually my mother?
Your parentsâ marriage had always seemed like a curious thing to you. It was a product of an arrangement. Yet, over the years, your fatherâs quiet gestures of affection seemed to keep your mother content, even happy.
Surely, he couldnât have had an affair.
The idea felt absurd, but then again, youâd always felt like a stranger in your own home, an outsider looking in at a family that didnât quite seem to know where you fit.
âI-I need to talk to you about something. I didnât want to call mom becauseâŚyou know how she gets.â
Your mother had a flair for theatrics, a tendency to turn even the smallest inconvenience into a grand production. If youâd called her instead, the situation would have escalated before you even finished explaining.Â
âWhatâs going on?â
âIâŚâ You faltered for a moment, running a hand through your hair before continuing your train of thought.
âThereâs this woman who I think has been stalking me. A friend of mine was dogsitting Maro when she approached him at the park.â Your voice dropped slightly, recounting your conversation with Yeosang.Â
âShe recognized MaroâŚand referred to me as her daughter.â
There was a pause on the other end of the line, and you took a moment to crouch down and stroke Mingiâs fur as he leaned into your side.Â
âI donât know who she is,â you admitted softly. âButâŚsomething about her felt wrong. And itâs been bothering me ever since.â
âDid she hurt you or Maro?â
âNo, but she tried to abduct a little girl a few weeks ago. We stopped her and she fled.â
âY/N, I need you to listen to me carefully,â he said, his tone suddenly firm.Â
You froze mid-step, his words rooting you in place. âOkay,â you said hesitantly, your voice small.
âI need you to stay put,â he continued. âDonât do anything or go anywhere, especially not alone. Iâm going to call the lawyers and have them review the court order and police files.â
âCourt order?â you repeated, confusion rising in your chest. âWhat are you talking about?â
âCall either San or Jongho,â he said instead, his tone softening just enough to sound like a plea.Â
âLet them know Iâve asked one of them to stay with you until we sort this out.â
âDad, what court order?â you pressed, gripping the phone tighter as your heart raced.Â
Mingi, sensing your distress, pawed at you insistently, his soft whines urging you to sit down. But you couldnât move, couldnât tear your focus away from the ominous edge in your fatherâs voice.
âThere was an incident when you were three. If she is who I think she is, sheâs someone we dealt with a long time ago.â
âWho?â
âYour former nanny,â he admitted, his voice steady but grim. âShe tried to take you,â he said bluntly.Â
âAt first, she seemed fine. Kind, attentive, everything youâd want for a child. But things started escalating. Your mother noticed something was off right after she lost her own daughter in an accident. Sheâd grown too attached to you. Too possessive. We let her go, but before we could take any legal action, she attempted to abduct you.â
âShe tried to kidnap me?â
âShe managed to evade security at first. It was like any other day. But by the time we realized what was happening, she was already on her way to the airport with you.âÂ
The room spun, and before you realized it, you had sunk to the floor. The color drained from your face as the weight of the revelation hit you. Mingi froze, his small body going still as he struggled to process the gravity of what he was hearing. Â
He let out a soft whine, curling closer to you. He hadnât fully understood your fears, the reasons behind your walls, the way panic sometimes overtook you without warning.
Now, as a dog, powerless to do anything but sit beside you, the weight of guilt felt almost unbearable.
âWe caught her in time,â he continued quickly, his tone shifting, as if trying to calm you.Â
âShe didnât make it far. Security intercepted her at the gate just as she was preparing to board a flight. We filed charges immediately and she was arrested.â
âBut?â you scoffed. âYour money and influence couldnât keep her behind bars?â
âWe didnât think sheâd ever get out, Y/N. The charges were serious, and the evidence was solid. At the time, we were assured sheâd be locked away for decades.â He hesitated, and for a moment, you thought you heard his voice waver.Â
âYou were so young. We didnât want to burden you with something you wouldnât even remember. We thought we could protect you from it all.â
âSo much for power,â you muttered bitterly, rubbing your temples. âShe seems to be escalating. Sheâs openly trying to kidnap children now. Who knows what else sheâs capable of?â
Your fatherâs sigh was heavy. âWhich is why youâre not to go anywhere alone, Y/N. Not until this is resolved.â
âDadââ
âIâll be increasing the security presence around the penthouse as well. And before you ask, yes, I'll be coordinating with Mingiâs family to ensure their resources are aligned with ours.â
The mention of your in-laws made your stomach twist. They were probably unaware of the situation, but it wouldnât stay that way for long. You could already imagine your mother-in-law spinning the story to her social circle about her damsel of a daughter-in-law and how her poor son was unable to save her. The thought of being the centerpiece of their gossip left you feeling exposed and vulnerable.
âMake sure thereâs a secure presence at the hospital too,â you said, cutting in before the conversation could linger on your in-laws.Â
âShe might try something there.â
Your father arched a brow. He knew you didnât particularly like being married to Mingiâhe wasnât blind to the strain in your relationship. Truthfully, he regretted agreeing to the arrangement in the first place. Heâd witnessed firsthand the coldness with which Mingi had treated you, most notably the way heâd rebuffed your birthday gathering that first year of marriage. It had been a bitter reminder that not all alliances were worth the price they came with.
But upon hearing your request, it made him realize that you had always been kinder, and more compassionate than those around him. While he had always seemed distant, caught up in his own world of business and power, moments like these reminded him that you had grown into someone he was proud of. Someone who cared, even for those who didnât deserve it.
âIs there anything else that you need?â he asked, his voice softer now.
âNo,â you replied, shaking your head slightly. âBut Iâm not going to live in fear forever. She doesnât get to have that power over me.â
âI donât expect you to. I just want you to be safe.â
The line disconnected and you set the phone down, your hand lingering on it for a moment before turning back to Mingi. You felt a surge of emotionsâanger, frustration, fear, and a flicker of determination.Â
But when you saw him sitting patiently on the floor, watching you intently with his big eyes, fluffy ears, and wrinkled nose, everything inside you softened. The weight of the world seemed to melt away in that moment, and your heart ached with affection.Â
âYouâre so cute, I canât stand it,â you squealed, the intensity of your emotions spilling out in a completely unexpected way.Â
Without thinking, you scooped him into your arms, pressing your face against his soft fur as you swayed back and forth with him. Mingi melted into your embrace, his small body going limp as he relished your warmth.Â
âI just want to squish you!â you exclaimed, giggling as you kissed him between the ears.Â
Mingi let out a soft, rumbling growl, not out of annoyance but because he didnât know how else to respond to the flood of emotions washing over him. If only you knew how deeply he wanted to protect you, not just as a dog, but as the man who had failed to see your worth for far too long.
âI should probably text the group chat,â you murmured, reaching for your phone while balancing Mingi securely in your other arm.
[Y/N]: My dad said I can have a sleepover
[Grumpy Bear]: fuck yeah
[Mountain Mayne]: Can Kira come too?â
[Y/N]: Only Kira, you stay home
â
Mingi found himself scowling, scooped up in Sanâs arms, as the four of you lounged in your living room, covered in mountains of blankets, pillows, and snacks. He wasnât sure how heâd ended up in this situation, but he was definitely not thrilled when your cousins and Sanâs fiancĂŠe came crashing into the penthouse after you summoned them with a single text.
âWhy isnât the dog distribution system working for us?â San asked, holding Mingi out toward Kira like he was some kind of offering. Mingi shot him a glare, but the effect was somewhat lost given his tiny size and the way his fur poofed up around his face.
âBecause we already have three cats at home,â she replied, chomping on a piece of cheese without looking up from her phone. San sighed dramatically, pulling Mingi back to cradle him like a baby.Â
âDonât worry, Maro, I'll save you from your owner and her evil husband.â
Mingi bristled, his fur puffing out even more. He barked indignantly, but it only made San laugh as he nuzzled Mingiâs fluffy face.
âYeah, if the evil husband ever wakes up,â Jongho snorted from under his fortress of blankets.Â
The room fell silent, save for the faint sound of Howlâs Moving Castle playing in the background. Mingi froze, his small body tensing in Sanâs arms. His ears flattened against his head as Jonghoâs words echoed in his mind.Â
Sure, he hadnât been a perfect husband. He wasnât even sure heâd been a good one. ButâŚevil?
âOh come on, thatâs not fair,â you replied, albeit with an edge to your tone.Â
âWhat?â Jongho raised his hands defensively, his expression a mix of guilt and awkwardness.Â
âIt was a joke. I mean, come on, the guy cheated, publicly humiliated you⌠you can do so much better, Y/N.â
âI know a good divorce lawyer,â Kira added, waving her phone as if the solution to your problems was just a call away.Â
The truth of their words clawed at Mingi, a painful reminder of everything heâd done wrong. He wanted to bark, to growl, to defend himself, but what could he even say? That they were wrong? They werenât. Not completely.
You inhaled sharply, your lips pressing into a thin line as you plopped down next to San. He glanced at you, but you ignored it, your focus entirely on the small dog curled stiffly in his arms.
âI get it,â you said finally, your voice clipped as you reached out and gently plucked Maro out of your cousinâs arms. He went still in your hold, his small body tensing as he waited for what youâd say next.
âMingi has his own problems, but right now, he doesnât have anyone in his corner. I donât know what will happen when he wakes up, but itâs not fair to say things like that when heâs not here.â You cradled him closer, your touch instinctively protective as if shielding him from their judgement.Â
Jongho exhaled loudly, his earlier confidence deflating as he sank deeper into the pile of blankets. âFair point,â he muttered, rubbing the back of his neck.Â
âSorry. I didnât mean to upset you. That was out of line.â
Mingi stayed silent, nestled in your arms, his mind racing. You could have left him at the hospital. You could have walked away, started over. Hell, maybe you should have. You could have even entertained the thought of dating Seonghwa, or Yeosang, or anyone else. Anyone but him.
But you hadnât.
You spent countless nights in that hospital room, talking to him, even when he couldnât say anything back. You stood up for him, even now, when he didnât deserve it.
Mingi could picture it so clearly: someone else making you laugh, someone else holding your hand, someone else seeing the best parts of you.Â
Maybe they were right, he thought bitterly. Maybe you really could do better.Â
But even if that was true, he couldnât bring himself to accept it. Not when there was still a sliver of hope that he might wake up, make amends, and find a way back to being the man you once believed he could be.
âWell, Iâm going to bed,â you announced, rising to your feet with an exaggerated stretch. âItâs way past bedtime.â
âIâll stay here,â San declared. âIn case your stalker tries anything.â
âGood for you, honey,â Kira patted his shoulder. âBut Iâm going into one of the guest rooms because thatâs what sane people do.â
âYouâve got this covered,â Jongho muttered sleepily, dragging himself out of the blanket pile. He stretched with a loud yawn and shuffled toward his room without even waiting for a reply.
âWeâre supposed to be in this together,â San grumbled, throwing a pillow halfheartedly at Jonghoâs retreating figure. It missed by a wide margin, flopping harmlessly to the floor.
As you slipped into your room, the shift was immediate. The air turned quiet and soft, a reprieve from the playful chaos outside. You closed the door gently and set Mingi down on the bed, his fluffy body sinking into the plush comforter.
He sat perfectly still, watching you move around the room. You pulled back the covers on your side of the bed and fluffed the pillows before finally settling in.
Patting the space beside you, you called softly, âTime for bed.â
He padded over, his small paws making barely a sound as he climbed onto the blankets and curled up near your side. When he tucked his nose into the crook of your neck, you giggled.
âI love you. Night night, puppy,â you whispered, pressing a kiss to his forehead.
As you drifted off to sleep, Mingi stayed awake, tracing the gentle slope of your nose to the soft curve of your lips. It all seemed so fleeting, like everything could slip away in the blink of an eye.Â
He sighed softly, rolling onto his back and then to his side again, unable to find a comfortable position. Sanâs snores rumbled faintly through the door, a reminder of the others nearby. But Mingiâs mind was too restless to relax.
His mind drifted to his last task: What did it mean to offer you happiness without expecting anything in return?
Isnât it about giving you what you wanted? Protecting you, making you laugh, or ensuring you were never alone? But the more he thought about it, the more complicated it became.
How could he possibly give you that when so much of his past had been spent hurting you?
He remembered the times heâd chosen his own pride over your feelings, the cruel words he couldnât take back, the moments heâd walked away when you needed him most. He had made you feel small, like you were the one who didnât belong, the one who wasnât good enough for him, all while he continued living his life while you were left to pick up the pieces of your own.Â
âYouâre home all the time, donât you have any friends?â
Your response had been blunt, cold, almost dismissive.Â
âNo, theyâre dead.â
That was all you said to him. No explanation, just a heavy finality that left him speechless. He didnât know what it meant then, but now, looking back, it felt like a confession, a glimpse into a part of you that was buried beneath the walls youâd built to protect yourself after losing Hongjoong. Â
Kim Hongjoong, the ghost of a man who had never left your heart. The man who had held a place there long before Mingi had even existed in your life. And in that moment, jealousy crept in. It was sharp, bitter, the thought of losing you to a ghost threatening to consume him.
He hated that Hongjoong would always carry that piece of your heart he couldnât touch, a piece that belonged to someone who had once been your everything. Because in this moment, Mingi, more than anything, coveted that place in your heart.Â
No matter how much he tried to remind himself that he was here, that he was now, it didnât quell the sense of inadequacy growing within him. He couldnât love you with the expectation of erasing your past or taking what wasnât his to have.
If he was to prove himself, to earn his humanity, it couldnât be about him. It had to come from a place of selflessness. He had to love you for who you were, even if it meant living in the shadow of a ghost. Even if it meant never being able to fully claim a place in your heart.
Even if it might mean accepting that some parts of you could never belong to him, no matter how much he wanted them to. And as painful as that truth was, Mingi knew it was the only way forward.
He nestled into your side, his fluffy form fitting snugly against you as he placed a paw against your nose. The steady rise and fall of your chest soothed him, reminding him that he was yours, even if it was only as Maro.Â
âIâm so bored,â you groaned, hanging your head over the back of the couch dramatically. The ceiling wasnât particularly interesting, but you were so desperate for stimulation that you started counting the corners of the crown molding.
Kira glanced over from the kitchen, her brow furrowing in concentration as she whisked a bowl of batter with a bit too much vigor.Â
âYou should try being useful. Come help me bake.â
âIâd rather be anywhere but here,â you muttered, sliding further down the couch until you were almost horizontal. âIâve seen every corner of this penthouse.âÂ
âDrama queen,â she said lightly. âYouâre safe here. Thatâs what matters. And besides, I thought youâd enjoy the time off.â
âTime off from what?â
âI donât know? The hospital? The back and forth must be draining.â
You hummed in response, though that was all you could muster. Draining wasnât quite the word for it. It was true the days spent at the hospital had a way of blurring together, but you didnât mind staying there. In some strange way, it felt right.
At the hospital, you had a routine. Youâd arrive in the evening, lay on the sofa and stare out into nothingness. Sometimes youâd read, talk to him about trivial things, or just sit quietly, the hum of the monitors filling the silence. It wasnât much, but it was something. A way to show him that he wasnât alone, even if he couldnât respond.
Because deep down, you knew he needed someone on his side.
It wasnât easy to admit, even to yourself, but a part of you still held out hope for reconciliation. Not the fairytale kind, where everything magically resolved and all wounds were healed, but something quieter. A mutual understanding, perhaps. A moment where heâd open up, even just a little, and let you see the person behind all the walls heâd built.
You knew he was hurting. Youâd always known, even when he tried to mask it with anger or indifference. His actions, the coldness, the distance, the biting remarks, were all symptoms of something deeper. Â
But there was another part of you, a quieter voice that you couldnât ignore. The part that braced for no change at all. That prepared for the possibility that when, if, he woke up, heâd still be the same person he was before. That heâd still look at you like you were the problem, the obstacle, the thing standing in the way of his happiness.
That part of you longed for freedom.
Youâd spent so much time tangled up in his chaos, in his pain, that youâd almost forgotten what it felt like to just...be.
Maybe, if and when he woke up, heâd be willing to part ways. And maybe that would be for the best.
âI ran out of eggs!â
You blinked, momentarily disoriented. âWhat?â
âEggs!â she repeated, holding up the empty carton. âI canât believe I forgot them. Iâm halfway through making this cake, and now I have to stop everything to run to the store.â
âIâll go with you!â you said quickly, standing up from the couch so fast you nearly tripped over your own feet.
Kira froze, narrowing her eyes at you. âYou know youâre not supposed to leave.â
âAnd youâre supposed to be at the courthouse, but here you are, baking a cake for a man.â
âFirst of all, itâs called paid time off,â she replied, narrowing her eyes further. âSecondly, Sanâs stroke game is top tier.â
âOh my God, stop!â you cut her off, throwing your hands up.Â
âI do not want to hear about your sex life with my cousin. He used to eat mud as a kid.â
Kira rolled her eyes, crossing her arms as she leaned against the counter. âAnyway,â she continued, âyour dad would absolutely kill me. He gave strict orders to keep you here. And unlike you, I actually follow them.â
âCome on, Kira,â you pleaded. Your eyes landed on Maro, lounging nearby. You scooped him up in one swift motion, holding him up like a fluffy shield.Â
âEven Maro thinks itâs a good idea!â
Mingi tilted his head, his dark eyes widening as he gave Kira his best impression of a sad, helpless puppy.
âLook at him. Heâs begging you.â
Kira groaned, pinching the bridge of her nose. âThis is ridiculous.â
âItâs a quick trip. Five minutes, tops,â you promised, your tone bordering on desperate. âI wonât go anywhere, Iâll stay by your side the entire time!â
She sighed, clearly wavering. âFine.â
The ding of the storeâs bell announced your arrival, and the comforting smell of fried food from the deli counter made your stomach grumble. Kira grabbed a basket, striding purposefully toward the back where the eggs were stashed.
âEggs,â she said firmly, shooting you a warning glance over her shoulder.
âGot it,â you replied, though your eyes immediately wandered to the chip aisle.
The small store was quiet, almost unnervingly still, and you couldnât shake the feeling that someone was watching you. As you followed Kira, your gaze flicked around the storeâa habit youâd picked up recently without fully realizing it. Your shoulders tensed, the faint prickling sensation at the back of your neck making you feel exposed. It was probably nothing, you told yourself, trying to brush it off.
Kira tossed a carton of eggs into the basket and turned to you with a raised brow. âAnything else?â
Her voice startled you, pulling you out of your thoughts. You blinked, momentarily disoriented, before grabbing a bag of chips from a nearby rack and a pack of chocolate-covered pretzels from the next shelf over.
âAlright, ready!â you chirped.Â
The cashier rang up your items without much fuss, and soon you were both on your way. But as the store door clicked shut behind you, that sense of discomfort returned. You glanced over your shoulder, your movements slow and deliberate, as if any sudden motion might draw unwanted attention.
Your eyes darted to the empty street ahead, scanning the familiar buildings and darkened windows. It looked deserted, but the nagging feeling told you otherwise.
âYou okay?â Kira asked, noticing your hesitation.
âYeah,â you said quickly, the word tumbling out a little too fast. You forced a smile, hoping it looked convincing.Â
You told yourself it was nothing, a stray thought feeding your paranoia. But as you turned the corner toward your apartment, your worst fears materialized. A shadow detached itself from the side of a building ahead, stepping into the weak glow of the nearest streetlamp. Your stomach dropped, and your chest tightened when you noticed the glint of the knife in hand.Â
âY/N.â
Your stalker. Your former nanny.Â
Kira froze beside you, her posture immediately tense. Her free hand twitched toward her phone, but her other gripped your arm tightly, as if anchoring you in place. You shook her off with a small, almost imperceptible gesture, your lips moving silently to form the words: Call San.
Her eyes widened slightly, but she didnât argue. She stepped back, her movements careful as she pulled her phone from her pocket.
âHeyâŚmom,â you said, your voice trembling but just steady enough to hold its own. The lie tasted bitter on your tongue, but it was all you could think of to buy yourself time.
The womanâs head tilted, her expression softening into something disturbingly tender. âOh, my sweet Y/N,â she cooed, taking a step closer.Â
âIâve been waiting for this moment for so long,â she continued. âYouâve grown so much. Youâre even more beautiful than I imagined.â
The delusion in her voice sent ice down your spine. She didnât just see you as a person. You were a possessionâsomething she believed she owned.
âItâs been a while,â you said cautiously, keeping your tone light, though your hands trembled at your sides.Â
âWhatâŚwhat are you doing here?â
âIâve come to take you home!â
âRightâŚhome,â you repeated, your stomach churning at the word. You took a step back, careful to keep your movements slow and nonthreatening.Â
âWhy donât we go for a walk and catch up? I just ate, and walking helps with digestion. Did you know that?â
The woman blinked, her head tilting further to the side. For a moment, she seemed caught off guard by the suggestion.
âA walk?â she echoed, suspicion flickering across her face before fading into hesitant curiosity. âYou want to spend time with me?â
You nodded quickly, forcing a smile. âO-Of course! I mean, itâs been so long, right? We have so much to talk about.â
Behind you, Kira moved as quietly as possible, her phone pressed to her ear as she whispered into the receiver. The nanny walked ahead, still clutching the knife tightly in her hand as your figures disappeared into the darkness.
â
Mingi paced restlessly around the penthouse, his claws clicking softly against the floor. His tail flicked with agitation, and his ears twitched, straining to catch a sound that wasnât there. Something felt wrongâdeeply, inexplicably wrong. You were only supposed to be gone with Kira for five minutes.Â
But those five minutes had turned to an hour.Â
The door to the penthouse slammed open, and Jongho burst inside, his phone pressed tightly to his ear. His face was pale and his brow furrowed deeply as he listened to the voice on the other end.
âYes, Iâm here now,â he said hurriedly, his tone clipped and tense. Mingi froze mid-step, his ears flicking forward as Jonghoâs words sank in. Looking for you? His heart dropped. Did something happen to you?
âIâll stay here in case she comes back. Yes, San and Kira are out looking for her along with law enforcement.â
Mingiâs nose twitched, catching the faint remnants of Jonghoâs scent. There was something else mingled with itâthe sharp tang of fear. A shiver ran down his spine. Jongho wasnât scared for himself; he was scared for you.
In his frenzy, Jongho forgot to shut the door completely. It clicked behind him, but the latch didnât catch, leaving it slightly ajar as he retreated further into the penthouse.Â
Mingi knew you were most definitely scared, but were relying on your wit to keep your abductor as distracted for as long as possible. But it could only go so far. You needed help. You needed him.
He darted after Jongho, letting out a short, sharp yip that made him turn with a frown.
âMaro?â Jonghoâs brow furrowed in confusion. âWhatâs wrong?â
Mingi barked again, more insistent this time. He jumped in place, then headbutted Jongho's leg with surprising force, urging him toward the hallway. When Jongho still didnât move, Mingi let out a sharp yip, trotted to the door, and paused to bark over his shoulder. Come on, follow me!
Out in the hallway, Mingiâs incessant barking continued until Jongho relented, reaching out to push the call button for the elevator.Â
Jongho stared down at the little dog, confusion etched across his face. âWhy are you so interested in the elevator?âÂ
Mingi stayed silent in an attempt to get this timing right. Then, as soon as the doors began to close, he darted forward, squeezing inside at the last second. Jongho blinked, momentarily stunned, before the realization hit him.
âI justâŚgot played by a dog.â
Outside, Mingi paused just long enough to pick up your scent on the breeze. Darting forward, Mingi weaved through the bustling crowd, his small frame slipping unnoticed between legs and around obstacles. His nose twitched, staying locked on the trail, as he took off into the night with the promise of finding you
âIâm coming,â he whispered under his breath, to keep himself moving. His legs burned, and his lungs ached, but he didnât stop.
Your nanny stood a few feet away, as you guided her to a nearby park. Her body taut with a kind of unnatural stillness. Her expression was deceptively calm, but her eyes gleamed with something unhinged.
âHow have you been? Youâre married right? I see the ring on your finger.â
Your fingers twitched involuntarily, brushing against the cool platinum of your wedding band. It felt heavier than usual under her scrutinizing gaze. âI am,â you replied, keeping your tone calm and steady despite the way your stomach churned.
âAlmost three years now.â
âThree years? Thatâs wonderful. Whatâs your husband like? Oh, Iâd love to meet him!â
âUnfortunately, heâs on a business trip overseas. B-But when he comes back, maybe we could have dinner.â
Her smile stretched impossibly wider, her eyes glinting with a strange light as she clasped her hands together. âDinner? Oh, how wonderful! Just like old times!â
âY-Yeah, just like old times. You, me, um, Mingi andâŚdad.â
âDad?â she echoed, her voice hollow and strained. âYour father?â
The moment the word "Dad" left your lips, her expression darkened and her grip on the knife tightened, turning her knuckles white as the blade trembled in her hand.
âNo! Not him! Not while heâs married to that bitch!â she spat venomously.Â
âYou know, his wife didnât love you like I did! She didnât raise you! She wasnât there for you!â
Her face twisted with fury, her voice rising as she screamed. âShe left you behind! Do you remember that? Do you? She didnât care about you! She abandoned youâthrew you away like trash! But me? I stayed. I cared. Iâm your family!â
Mingiâs ears perked up at the sound of that voice. It was herâthe same woman who had tried to abduct Yena weeks ago. A low growl rumbled in his throat, but he forced his down, shifting his focus to the sights and sounds around him. In the distance, he caught fragments of Kiraâs raised voice, as she argued with the District Attorney.
âShe should never have been released!âÂ
âHer delusions werenât just untreated, they were escalating. And instead of following protocol, the facility discharged her prematurely without an appropriate plan in place.â
Mingiâs ears flicked toward the sound as Kiraâs voice grew louder, her pace quickening.
âThe ruling was explicit! The family was to be notified of any changes in her care plan. But no one was! And now sheâs out here, putting Y/N in danger!â
The echoes of Kiraâs tirade faded into the background as Mingi tuned everything else out, his focus narrowing to a single goal. Find you. Protect you.
She wonât hurt you. I wonât let her, he promised.Â
You swallowed hard, your mind racing as you searched for the right words to diffuse the situation. âYouâre right,â you said gently, taking a slow step forward as your eyes stayed locked on the blade.
âI shouldâve done more to stay in touch. You were important to me, and I didnât show that the way I should have.â
Mingi crept closer, staying low and moving with careful precision. His small frame blended with the shadows cast by the trees, his paws silent against the ground. His ears were pinned back as he watched the stalker. For a split second, her grip on the knife faltered. Her expression softened, dimming into something more fragile, almost childlike.
But then her face contorted again. âYouâre lying!â she screamed, taking a step toward you.Â
âYou donât mean that! Youâre just saying that to make me go away.â She took a step closer, the knife jerking with her erratic movements.
His nose twitched, catching the faint scent of your fear mingled with her unbridled rage. Her emotions were spiraling out of control, and with every step she took, the gap between you and danger grew smaller.
âIâm not,â you said firmly, taking a careful step backwards.Â
âI mean it. You were there for me when I needed someone, and I want to be here for you now. But I canât do that if you donât trust me.â
She hesitated, the knife wavering slightly in her grip. Her breath came in short, shallow gasps, and for a fleeting moment, it seemed like your words might be getting through.
Mingi inched closer, his eyes tracking her trembling hand, and his body tensed, ready to spring.
âYouâll leave me again! Just like her!â
That was his cue. With a burst of speed, Mingi darted forward, his small body a blur of motion. His sharp teeth clamped down on her ankle, eliciting a startled cry. She stumbled, but her fury only intensified. She lashed out blindly, her hand sweeping through the air, the knife flashing dangerously.
âMaro!â you screamed.Â
Without hesitation, you lunged forward, your heart pounding as you reached for her wrist. Your grip was firm, fueled by adrenaline and sheer determination as you kicked her back, sending her stumbling slightly. With a swift motion, you scooped Mingi into your arms, cradling him against your chest.
As she steadied herself, her arm swung wildly and you raised your arm to shield Mingi. The knife sliced through your forearm leaving streaks of blood, but you didnât let go, tightened your hold on him as you focused on the woman in front of you.
âIâm sorry you lost your daughter,â you began, your tone water as you tried to bite back the pain radiating down your arm. Â
âI canât imagine the pain youâve been carrying, or how much itâs changed you. Iâm sure whatever happened broke you in ways no one can see. But trying to replace her wonât bring her back.â
You could see the tears threatening to spill over, but they did nothing to soften her. If anything, they seemed to fuel her anger. Her grip on the knife tightened as she took a shaky step toward you. Your heart pounded and Mingi whimpered softly, pressing his small body closer to yours, and you instinctively held him tighter, bracing yourself.
âPolice! Drop your weapon!âÂ
âY/N!â your dadâs voice rang out. You turned your head just enough to see him running toward you, San and Kira close behind, flanked by a group of police officers.
The stalker froze, her head snapping toward the source of the commotion. Her grip on the knife faltered, and for a split second, you thought she might comply. But then her face contorted with fury once more, and she tightened her hold, her body tensing as if preparing to lunge.
âStay back!â she screamed, her voice shrill and panicked.
The officers fanned out, their weapons drawn, their voices calm but firm as they repeated their commands. âDrop the knife! Put it down now!â
Your dad reached you first, his hand gripping your shoulder as he stepped slightly in front of you. âAre you hurt?â he asked urgently, his sharp eyes taking in the blood streaking down your arm and the puppy trembling in your hold.
âShe cut me,â you admitted, glancing at the blood streaking down your arm. âItâs not deep, butââ You shifted Mingi slightly in your hold, cradling him closer.Â
Mingi let out a soft, sleepy sigh, his head resting heavily against your chest as your dad checked you over. His breaths came slower now, each one softer than the last. His little paws twitched as though he were trying to cling to you.
His mind wandered, a hazy string of thoughts pulling him along. He couldnât wait to go home, to finally feel safe and warm. He imagined curling up in your lap, nuzzling into your arms while you stroked his fur. He thought about Hetmon and all the running around theyâre going to do at the park.
Oh, and snacks, he thought sleepily. Lots of snacks. His little tail gave a faint twitch at the thought, but even that felt like too much effort now.
Just a nap, he thought. Iâll rest for a bit, then weâll go home. Weâll be okay.
When Mingi woke, the air around him was...different. It wasnât the plush sheets of your bed or the soft pillow heâd grown accustomed to sleeping on. Instead, he found himself in a small, cozy basket lined with a soft cushion, placed near a gently crackling fireplace.Â
He blinked, his vision adjusting to the soft light streaming through the windows of a small cottage. The space was intimate, with wooden walls lined with shelves overflowing with books, plants, and stacks of parchment. The scent of tea and ink hung in the air, faint but familiar, tugging at something deep in Mingiâs memory.
The atmosphere was comforting, nostalgic even, though Mingi couldnât quite place why.Â
âAh,â the man said, his lips curling into a soft smile. âYouâre finally awake.â
Mingiâs ears perked up as he turned toward the sound. A man crouched next to himâhis features were sharp but his expression was soft and kind. Mingi tilted his head, his ears twitching as he studied the man. Heâd never met him before, but his scent was unmistakable.Â
It was audacious and bold, much like the jazz notes he remembered sitting on the piano back at home.Â
Kim Hongjoong?
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the moment between hongjoong and reader about readerâs brother was really sweet, but I canât help but be nervous for whatever seonghwa and dann (mainly seonghwa) have planned cause I know itâs going to involve mike and other secrets we may not know about reader yet.
Iâm excited for the next part and keep up the great work! <3
Popular, Boy
â04: The first surrender.
Pairing: Nerd!Hongjoong x Popular!reader
Genre: +18, slow burn, angst, smut, drama, dark academic, love triangle.
wc: 8,5k
Summary: Alliances and secrets simmer beneath the surface as relationships are tested. Whispers of a returning precense cast shadow over your carefully controlled world.
Amid growing tension, nothing is as it seems, and trust becomes a dangerous gamble.
Warnings: Cursing, emotional manipulation, power dynamics, fluff, SMUT (MDN!!) Virgin! Hongjoong, oral (f receiving) fingering, hair pulling, cum eating, use of pet names (good boy, baby, babe, pretty) suggestive.
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â03 â05: The first fracture.
YNâĄ: I hope you enjoy your return to the losersâ club, ungrateful pet.
Those words feel like a slap in the face, but there's a part of him that can't deny the sting of guilt. Hongjoong had stood up to you, and now, he was being pushed away.
He feels conflicted, like he's torn between two sides of himself.
On one hand, you have everything heâs always wanted, popularity, control, power. On the other hand, he canât help but feel a flicker of empathy for Dann, even if itâs not enough to overpower his desire to keep his place in your world.
The past three days have been agonizing for Hongjoong. Your cold text still lingered in his mind, your words cutting deeper than he expected.
He wasnât sure what stung more: being labeled an 'ungrateful pet' or the realization that you had the power to decide his social fate.
In the hallways, the change was immediate and brutal. Your circle avoided him entirely, with Mindy, Wooyoung and the others offering smug smirks or outright ignoring his greetings.
The glances from the rest of the school stung even more, whispers of, 'Guess YN dumped her charity case,' followed him everywhere.
Hongjoong tried to go back to his old routine, hanging out with Yunho, Yeosang, Jongho and Dann in the library, but it wasnât the same. The nerdy jokes and shared interests felt hollow, overshadowed by his embarrassment.
He couldnât stop feeling like heâd failed⌠failed you, failed himself, and maybe even failed Dann.
âJoong, are you okay?â Dannâs voice pulls him from his thoughts during lunch.
Her gaze is soft but cautious. He knows she is trying to reconnect with him, but guilt twists in his stomach.
âYeah, Iâm fine,â He mumbles, shoving a forkful of food into his mouth to avoid saying more.
But Dann isnât convinced. She has noticed how his shoulders slump when your table erupts into laughter or how his eyes flicker toward you every time you walk by, as if waiting for something.
Was he regretting standing up for her? She wondered, unsure whether to feel gratitude or guilt herself.
⎠â
Brat woo: Party at my place tonight, babydoll!! Weâre gonna get lit!!
You smirk as you read Wooyoung's text. Typical of Woo, his personality is always bright and comfy.
You bit your lip, twirling a strand of your perfectly styled hair as an idea formed in your mind.
YN: Invite Hongjoong, too.
The three dots appear almost immediately, followed by Wooâs response.
Brat oo: Babydoll, why would I invite him?
Brat woo: Isnât he banned from your bad bitches club?
You laugh at his last message as you lean back against your plush chair, crossing one leg over the other. Your perfectly manicured nails taps the edge of your phone as you craft a reply.
YN: Yeah, but invite him.
YN: It would be fun, babe.
Brat woo: Fine. But you owe me a blowjob, doll.
You scoff rolling your eyes, and you prefer not to bother replying. You knew Wooyoung well enough to predict heâd follow through.
You lock your phone and you get up to head to your closet, it's time to look for something cute to wear tonight.
⎠â
His first instinct was to assume it was a mistake. Jung Wooyoung wasnât his friend. The last party held at his house was amazing and he treated him like they were friends for years, but it was only because he was with you... but not anymore.
Hongjoong read the message again, searching for some hidden sarcasm or trap.
J Wooyoung: Party at my place tonight, you must come.
Why would Wooyoung invite him?
Was this a chance to prove himself again? To get back into your orbit? The thought makes his chest tighten with both excitement and dread.
His phone buzzes with another text, this time from Dann.
Dann: Hey, wanna hang out tonight? We could watch that weird series youâve been talking about.â
He hesitates, guilt creeping in. Spending time with Dann sounded comfortable, easy, even, but the allure of Jungâs party looms large in his mind. And then, an idea struck him.
He quickly types a reply.
Joong: Actually, wanna come with me to a party tonight?
Dann: What? A party? With whom?
Joong: Jung Wooyoung invited me.
Joong: Itâs at his place. You should come.
His reply is almost casually, as if it werenât a big deal. There is a pause before Dannâs next message comes through.
Dann: Joong, that sounds⌠weird. Why would Wooyoung invite you? And why are YOU inviting me?
Dann: I remind you that the last time I went to a party, everything went wrong!
Hongjoong frowns, his thumbs hovering over the keyboard. He didn't think that far ahead, but now that Dann brought it up, the invite does seem odd. Still, he can't let her skepticism damp his resolve.
Joong: Does it matter? Itâs a party, Dann. It could be fun. We havenât done anything like this in forever.â
Dann: I donât knowâŚ
Joong: Come on!! Itâll be fine.
Joong: Youâll be with me the whole time.
Joong: If it sucks, we can leave.
Another pause, longer this time. Finally, her reply comes through.
Dann: Okay⌠Iâll go.
Dann: But if this turns into some kind of disaster, you owe me, Joong.
He let out a breath he hadnât realized he was holding. He tosses his phone into the bed and starts rifling through his closet, searching for something that looks remotely party-appropriate.
This is it, he thought, half to reassure himself. This is my chance to prove Iâm not just a nobody anymore.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The party is already in full swing when you step through the door, your entrance commanding attention as always.
Wooyoung is the first to greet you, slinging an arm over your shoulder in a casual, brotherly way.
âAbout time, babydoll.â He teases, steering you further into the house âYouâve got people asking for you already.â
You smirk, brushing a perfectly styled strand of hair from your face.
âGood. Let them wait. it builds anticipation.â
Your eyes scan the room, taking in the crowd of familiar faces. The thrum of music, the faint haze of smoke, and the sharp scent of expensive cologne feel like home. But tonight, itâs not the crowd youâre interested in.
âDid you do it?â
He glances at your sideways, catching the subtle edge in your voice âYeah, I invited him. He is coming, right?â Woo asks casually, though thereâs a glint of mischief in his tone.
You nod, lips curving into a sly smile âOf course he will. Thanks for the invite.â
âAnything for you, Queen Bee.â Woo chuckles, patting your shoulder before disappearing into the crowd.
You barely take two steps before Seonghwa appears in your path, leaning casually against the doorframe of the kitchen as if heâs been waiting.
âYou really showed up.â He says, his tone teetering between disbelief and sarcasm.
âObviously, miss out on this? Never.â
His sharp eyes rake over you, the casual air he projects cracking just slightly.
âSo, you brought him here?â
You lift your chin, feigning innocence âWho?â
âYou know who,â Hwa says, his voice dropping âThe nerd.â
âOh, him. Heâs just part of the fun, but he is not coming with me today.â
âFun,â Hwa repeats bitterly, stepping closer âThatâs what youâre calling it?â
You don't back down âYouâre awfully concerned for someone whoâs supposed to be done with me.â
The jab hits, and Hwaâs jaw tightens âWeâve been through a lot, Clarke. I know how you operate, and this is recklessâeven for you.â
âReckless?â You scoff, taking a deliberate step toward him âSpare me the lecture, Seonghwa. If youâre so worried, maybe you should focus on your own vices. Or do you need me to remind you how much recklessness youâve been indulging in lately?â
His eyes narrow, his jaw clenched âYou always twist things around, donât you?â
You tilt your head, a flicker of amusement dancing in your gaze âOnly when necessary.â
The tension between them hums like a live wire, but before either can escalate further, you sigh and soften your tone.
âLook, Hwa, I get it. Youâre mad because Iâve been spending time with Hongjoong. But you and I both know thisâwhatever this isâdoesnât have to be like this.â
Seonghwaâs perfect brows knit together, his posture relaxing just slightly âAnd whatâs âthis,â YN? Because it feels like weâre always walking the same damn line.â
âFriends,â You say firmly, though your voice carries a hint of warmth âWeâve been friends forever, havenât we? Almost more than friends, at times. Iâm not throwing that away just because weâve hit a rough patch.â
He studies you for a long moment, his expression unreadable. Finally, he exhales and runs a hand through his hair.
âYeah, well, youâve always been good at getting under my skin. Guess I should be used to it by now.â
You smile, a real one this time âYou should. And for what itâs worth, I didnât mean for things to get so tense between us. Truce?â
Hwa hesitates but eventually extends a hand, his lips quivering into a faint smirk-
âTruce. But donât think Iâm letting you off the hook completely.â
âWouldnât dream of it,â You say, shaking his hand briefly before pulling him into a quick hug.
As they pull apart, Wooyoung reappears, his grin as wide as ever âSee? Told you itâs a party, not a courtroom.â
Both of you laugh, the tension finally dissipating. After all, you've been friends since you were kids, fighting over who got the best gifts or who got the most toys during Christmas.
Yes, maybe fights always were and will always be frequent, but the bond you created will always be there, whether as friends or as lovers. And no one can deny it.
⎠â
The laughter still bubbles around you and friends as you relax on the plush couch in the middle of the buzzing party. The low hum of music blends with the chatter of your friends, creating the perfect backdrop for your carefree moment.
You perched elegantly with your cocktail in hand, tossing your hair back with a playful smirk.
âRemember when you told everyone I cried about losing that silly bet when we went to Meeru Island in the Maldives?â Mingi says, aiming a mock glare at Wooyoung.
He chuckles, shrugging. âYou did cry, Mingi. Like, full-on wailing. I saved you from complete humiliation by telling everyone you were faking it.â
âYouâre insufferable, Woo.â You lean forward to swat at him, but your grin betrays your amusement.
San joins you, plopping down on the armrest beside Seonghwa, his beer in hand.
âGod, you two never change. Should we get you a reality show or something?â
Mingi rolls his eyes but laughs along, the tension from you and Hwa's little fight seemingly evaporating. Itâs like old times again, your rhythm unshaken.
Then Wooâs gaze shifts toward the entrance, and his playful expression stiffens slightly.
âUh⌠you told me to invite him, but I didnât think heâd actually show up.â
You follow Wooyoungâs line of sight, your smile freezing as you spot Hongjoong stepping into the house. His attempts at looking casualâdown to his carefully chosen shirt and forced grinâbetray the nerves heâs clearly trying to hide.
But itâs not just him. Dann is with him, hovering awkwardly at his side.
Seonghwa notices too, his smirk turning razor-sharp âWell, if it isnât the exile. You sure know how to pick your projects, Clarke.â
Your grip on the empty glass tightens ever so slightly before you recover, placing it calmly on the coffee table. You rise with an air of detachment, smoothing your short silk black dress.
âDonât start, Hwa.â
Hwa leans back, watching you with an amused glint âI donât need to. This show writes itself.â
Ignoring him, you stride toward the entrance, movements deliberate, your heels clicking against the polished floor.
Hongjoongâs face lights up with hope when he sees you approach, but you don't acknowledge it.
âEnjoying the party?â You ask coolly, your gaze sweeping over both Hongjoong and Dann.
âUh, yeah,â He says, scratching the back of his neck awkwardly âThanks forââ
âWooyoung invited you,â You interrupt, your eyes flick to Dann, your lips curving into a smile thatâs anything but friendly âDidnât realize youâd be bringing⌠extras.â
Dann stiffens under your gaze âI just came because Joongââ
âI didnât ask,â You cut her off smoothly. your focus shifts back to Hongjoong âEnjoy the party, and stay out of my way.â
Before Hongjoong can respond, you turn on your heel, heading back to the couch where all your friends are waiting, barely containing their laughter.
âThat was subtle.â Mingi teases as you sit back down.
You pick up another drink and take a long sip, your face calm but your mind racing. You had ordered Jung to invite him, but seeing him here, with Dann of all people, scratches at your carefully curated control.
Seonghwa leans closer, his voice low âTrying to make him mad, huh? Gotta admit, itâs fun to watch.â
You don't reply, your gaze lingering on Kim as he and Dann hover near the edge of the room. The party continues to swirl around you, but the game youâre playing tonight is only just beginning.
âLet's go dance.â
And without waiting for an answer, you drag Seonghwa to the center of the dance floor.
⎠â
The party pulses around Hongjoong, but all he can see is you. You were radiant, laughing as you danced with Seonghwa, your hand grazing his chest as if it was the most natural thing in the world.
Weren't you supposed to be on bad terms? He threatened you a few days ago and now you act as if none of that has happened.
Every glance, every touch, feels like a slap to Hongjoongâs face, and when your eyes meet his for a brief moment across the room, he knows it wasnât accidental.
Dann stands beside him, trying to engage him in conversation or distract him with sarcastic comments about the crowd, but he barely responds.
His guilt over snapping at her earlier only adds to the storm brewing inside him.
As the night goes on, you and Seonghwa grow bolder. You dance closer, bodies pressing together in a way that feels almost taunting. Your hand trails lazily over Hwaâs chest as you throw a sly glance over your shoulder, directly at Hongjoong.
He can't take it anymore.
âI need a minute.â He mutters to Dann before walking away.
He finds you in the corner of the room, laughing at something Seonghwa had said. Your head tilts back, the sparkle in your eyes brighter than ever. You look utterly in control, utterly untouchable.
âYN.â Hongjoong says, his voice tight.
You turn to him, your expression cool and unimpressed âHongjoong, enjoying the party?â
âIâŚâ He hesitates, glancing at the tallest, who stands smirking at him like he knows exactly how pathetic he feels.
âSpit it out.â You cross your arms waiting for his next words.
Hongjoong swallows hard, his pride crumbling under the weight of your icy stare.
âIâm sorry.â
âFor what?â You ask, feigning ignorance as you raise an eyebrow.
âFor⌠for defending Dann.â He admits, the words tasting bitter on his tongue âI shouldnât have done it. I wasnât thinking. Please, YN. I didnât mean to upset you.â
You tilt your head, a small smile playing on your lips âIs that so?â
âPlease, YN. Iâm sorry. Iâll do whatever you want to make it up to you.â
You raise an eyebrow. That phrase sounds kinda familiar. Your gaze sweeps over him with an air of detached amusement.
âAnything?â
âYes.â He said, desperation dripping from every syllable.
âProve it.â
He looks at you confused, unsure what you mean. But when you point at the floor with a slight nod, his heart sinks.
Here? Now?
The party is still bustling around them, and though the music is loud, he knows there are enough eyes on them to make this moment humiliating.
But the thought of losing your favor, of being cast back into obscurity, is unbearable.
Slowly, he sinks to his knees in front of you like the first time he did it. The weight of the action crushed the little pride he had left.
âIâm sorry,â His voice trembling as he looks up at you âPlease, YN. Forgive me.â
Your lips curve into a slow smile, and you reach down, brushing your fingers along his jaw.
âGood boy.â
Without another word, you grab his hand and pull him to his feet. Ignoring the stares of the partygoersâand the way Seonghwaâs amuse chuckle follows themâYou lead him through the crowd and up the stairs.
Hongjoongâs pulse races as you push open the door to an empty room, shutting it firmly behind you.
âYN, Iââ He starts, but you silence him with a finger to his lips.
You step closer, a hand sliding up his chest before tangling in the collar of his shirt. Your lips hover just above his, teasing him, your breath warm against his skin.
âYou want me to forgive you, donât you?â You whisper against his lips.
âYesâŚâ He breathes, his voice shaking.
âThen show me how sorry you are.â You say as your lips finally crash into his.
The kiss is rough, demanding, leaving Hongjoong breathless as your hands roam over him.
You push him into the edge of the bed, your confidence unwavering as you climb into his lap.
âMake it up to me.â You murmur against his ear, your tone lace with both seduction and dominance.
The room remains shrouded in heavy silence, broken only by the sound of your ragged breathing and the soft rustling of fabric as your hands continue their work.
Hongjoong sits before you, his chest rising and falling rapidly, his eyes glazed with a mix of guilt, desire, and submission. Heâs completely under your control, each deliberate movement you make reinforcing your hold over him.
You trail your nails lightly down his chest, exposed now as his shirt hangs loose from his shoulders.
âSee, Joongie,â You purr, leaning in to press a lingering kiss to his neck âWhen you beg like that, it reminds me how much you want to be here⌠how much you need me.â
He shivers under your touch, his lips parting as if to speak, but no words come out. His mind is a haze, lost in youâyour voice, your touch, the overwhelming weight of your presence.
He feels as if heâs drowning, yet he doesnât want to come up for air.
Your lips return to his, capturing him in a kiss so intense it steals his breath. His hands caressing from your waist to your bare legs as you tug him closer, your hands tangling in his hair, ensuring thereâs no escape.
Not that he wants one.
Your smirk deepens as you lean closer, your fingers curling under his chin to tilt his face up. Your dominance is unshakable, your presence commanding every ounce of his attention.
âOn your knees.â
You order, carrying a weight that leaves no room for protest as you get off his lap to sit next to him on the bed.
Hongjoongâs breath hitches. His mind scrambles for a response, but the intensity of your gaze renders him silent. Swallowing hard, he glances around the empty room, then back at you, his cheeks already red when he sees you spread your legs.
He thinks he knows what you want him to do, and that makes him more nervous.
âYN, I donât knowââ
âDo you trust me or not?â You interrupt, fingers trailing down to his collar, tugging him forward âYou said youâd do anything for me, didnât you?â
Caught in your words and unwavering stare, Hongjoong nods hesitantly.
âI do.â He whispered.
âThen show me.â
Slowly, he slides down to his knees, the fabric of his jeans scraping lightly against the floor. His hands hover awkwardly at his sides, unsure of where they should go, as he looks up at you, his wide eyes fill with a mixture of anticipation and nerves.
He's never done this before. He's seen it in porn videos but still doesn't know exactly what to do.
Your fingers slip into his hair, touch firm but not rough, and you guide him closer with a slow, deliberate motion.
âI always tell you this. Relax, Hongjoong, Iâll take care of you.â
Your other hand moves to the hem of your dress, slipping it up just enough to expose the soft fabric of your black panties.
Hongjoongâs gaze drops instinctively, his breath catching in his throat as his pulse races.
âFocus, Joongie.â You tease, tugging lightly on his hair to draw his attention back to your face âStart slow. I want to feel how much you want my forgiveness.â
With shaky hands, he rests his palms on your soft thighs, his touch hesitant and careful, the cold of his rings making you shiver.
You guide him lower, your smirk never wavering as his lips brush against your thighs.
The warmth of your skin, the faint scent of your perfume, the weight of your hand in his hairâall of it consumes him.
His inexperience is obvious, but you don't mind. You encourage him with soft sighs and subtle movements, your hips tilting forward slightly as he grows bolder, leaving little bites on your inner thighs as his fingers play with the edge of your panties, sliding them down slowly.
He starts taking his time dishing out kisses and biting on both thighs, making you impatient.
You let out a whimper pulling his hair slightly âHongjoong⌠hurry up and eat me out.â
For the first time in his life, Hongjoong feels confident enough to smile mockingly against your delicate skin.
You, begging him to touch you? He never imagined it.
Still holding his smile, he slides your panties all the way down to your ankles, and removes them eagerly, leaving on your pretty high heels.
When he returns to his starting position between your thighs, he can't avoid looking to your bare core, all glossy with slick. He bites his lip at the sight.
Did he provoke that?
âJoong...â You reproach again with a whine.
You really need him to do something on his own or you'll force him to sink into your folds right now. You've never felt so desperate before, so eager for someone to touch you.
Hongjoong smiles again, your whiney voice turning him on.
The dry humping in your car, the blowjob in the empty classroom, and all the little make outs can not compare to this. Your pussy inches from his face, your hand tugging his hair and your desperate form waiting for him to touch you.
Fuck, he canât believe this is happening.
With the highest confidence ever, even though he keeps in mind that he does not know what he is doing, he leans towards your pussy, giving a long lick that makes both of you moan in pleasure.
His warm tongue explores every millimeter of your womanhood, you whine as Hongjoong swipe his tongue up and down your wet slit, taking all your slick on his mouth.
âShit, you taste so good, baby.â He says without realizing his words, his mind already cloudy.
You open your mouth in surprise at his daring words, you swear you feel more arousal coming out of your cunt.
âFuck, HongjoongâŚâ You tighten your grip on his hair, forcing him to sink his head further and he lets you do it gladly, smiling against you âAh⌠f-fuck me with your tongue, babe.â
And he does, he leaves your swollen clit to play with his tongue rubbing around your entrance, making you whine desperately.
He snorts with fun when you pull his hair harder, he is loving the way youâre acting, all whiny and desperate for him.
Without making you wait any longer, he slowly introduces his long tongue in your core.
He moans when he hears you do it and starts moving his tongue in and out, your walls clenching on it, his nose rubbing your clit, and his hands squeezing your thighs, bringing you closer to his mouth.
You arch your back, squirming and moaning under his exquisite touch. You never imagined that a virgin nerd like him could eat pussy so well.
Fuck, you never imagined he'd ever do this to you.
âThatâs it,â You whisper, voice breathy but firm âJust⌠just like that, Joong.â
Each sound you make spur him on, his nervousness slowly giving way to determination. He wants to please you, to prove that he is worthy of your forgiveness, even if he doesn't fully know what he is doing.
Your breathing quickening as you tilt your head back âGood boyâŚâ You murmur, your words sending a shiver down his spine.
The tension in the air is electric, every movement charged with a mix of control and surrender.
As your soft moans grow louder, Hongjoong can't help but feel a sense of pride, his confidence building with each passing moment.
⎠â
The music blared through the speakers, the heavy bass vibrating the walls of Wooyoungâs mansion. Dann squeezed through groups of laughing, dancing people, her eyes scanning the crowd.
Sheâd been looking for Hongjoong for what felt like forever.
She finally spots Jung Wooyoung leaning casually against the bar, a drink in hand, and his signature easygoing grin in place.
Relief washes over her as she approaches him. She has never interacted with him, but she must find Joong.
âWooyoung,â She calls out, raising her voice above the music âHave you seen Hongjoong?â
Jung tilts his head, his expression is a grimace when he sees her. He's drunk but he doesn't remember inviting this loser to his party, much less knowing the grudge you have against her.
âLittle Hongjoong?â He echoes, taking a slow sip from his drink âYeah, he went upstairs. With babydoll.â At Dann's confused expression, he rolls his eyes âHe is upstairs with YN.â
Dannâs stomach drops at his words, her brows knitting together.
âWith YN?â She repeats, her voice tinged with disbelief.
Wooyoung nods, smirking âYep. Upstairs. Why? You jealous or something?â His tone is teasing, but Dann doesnât have the energy to respond.
She turns on her heel and heads for the stairs, her heart pounding with every step. As she climbs, the noise of the party grows muffled, replaced by the quieter sounds of her own breathing and the creak of the steps.
Her mind races with thoughts she doesnât want to entertain.
Why would Hongjoong be with you? After everything, after all the tension between you?
She reaches the top of the stairs and pauses before she approaches the only door that is closed in the hallway. Something tells her that they are both in there.
Her hand hesitates on the doorknob, her heart hammering against her ribs. Slowly, she pushes it open, the hinges creaking softly.
Her breath catches in her throat at the sight before her.
There you areâYou and Hongjoong. Youâre laying on the big bed, moaning as your hands grip Hongjoongâs hair while he is between your legs.
Hongjoongâs shirt is half-unbuttoned, hanging loosely off his shoulders, and his hands grip your thighs tightly, pulling you closer.
Dannâs chest tightens as a sharp pang of betrayal and hurt courses through her. She stands frozen in the doorway, her fingers gripping the frame as she struggles to make sense of what sheâs seeing.
Neither you nor Hongjoong notice her. Youâre too consumed by each other. The intensity of Hongjoongâs movements speaks volumes, and he is clearly enjoying being there.
Your dominance is evident too, your control absolute, while Hongjoong seems lost, entirely under your spell.
Dann bites her lip, willing herself not to cry as she takes a shaky step back. The scene before her is a confirmation of every fear sheâs tried to suppress.
She retreats into the hallway, her heart aching with every step.
Downstairs, the party rages on, oblivious to the turmoil in Dannâs chest.
⎠â
âJoong⌠Iâm close.â You announce closing your eyes shut and your whines get louder, the pleasure is too much to handle.
At your words, Hongjoong places his lips around your sensitive clit, sucking and pulling at it, and without you expecting it, he thrust two of his fingers into your narrow entrance, making you open your eyes and groan in surprise.
âFuck, fuck, fuckâŚâ
You quickly lift yourself up on your elbow to get a better view of him eating you like a starved man, It is certainly a spectacular sight.
His eyes closed in concentration, his warm mouth on your pussy and his fingers caressing the right places in your tight cunt.
ShitâŚ. Is he really a virgin? Because this is the best oral sex you have ever received.
âL-look at me⌠look at me, baby.â You order him and he immediately obeys, looking at you with those doe eyes, those pretty doe eyes make a wave of pleasure run through your body âF-fuck⌠gonna cum, baby. K-keep going.â You moan again tilting your head back, your eyes rolling back âJ-just like thatâŚâ
Damn, Hongjoong swears that this is the best view in the world, your mouth agape, eyes rolling back, you saying his name like a fucking mantra, this will undoubtedly be an image that will stay in his mind forever.
âCum for me, pretty⌠cum on my mouth.â
He doesn't know where that sentence came from but he can't help it, the adrenaline of the moment has his mind clouded.
With those words, you lose it. Your strength leaves your body when the well-known pressure on your abdomen appears, your grip on his hair becomes stronger and your legs begin to tremble from immense pleasure, your orgasm explodes like never before, leaving you breathless.
He moans in satisfaction, the taste of your slick driving him crazy, he moves his tongue everywhere collecting every drop of your orgasm, just like you did that day with him.
âAh⌠fuck, Joong!â You squirm under his movements, feeling the beginning of overstimulation âHongjoong⌠âs too much, baby.â
With a last lick and a wet kiss on your clit, Hongjoong lifts his head with a light smile.
Heâs pussy drunk right now and you smile, taking him by the cheeks and bringing him closer to you to kiss him.
His lips are swollen and his chin is soaked with your fluids, he looks messy, but you don't care. The kiss is full of something special this time, you don't know if it's gratitude, warmth or love. But you're definitely enjoying it too much.
âDid I do it right?â He murmurs against your lips and he smiles when you nod.
âThat was amazing.â You pull him back, your breathing uneven, your eyes meet his with a satisfied gleam âNot bad for your first time.â
Hongjoong remain above you, his chest heaving as he tries to process what had just happened.
You run a hand through his messy hair, glancing down at him with a mix of amusement and approval.
âLetâs go back to the party.â You add, leaning down to press a quick, teasing kiss to his lips before pulling back.
And Hongjoong smiles satisfied, satisfied to have your forgiveness
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The hallway outside Wooyoungâs upstairs den is dimly lit, the faint bassline of the party vibrating through the walls.
Dann leans against the banister, her arms wrapped tightly around herself as if to shield her from the storm raging in her chest. Her mind replays the image of you with Hongjoong in that compromising position.
She blinks back the sting of tears, her breath hitching.
âPathetic,â She whispers to herself, trying to steal her resolve.
But the pain lingers, twisting deeper with each passing second.
âYou look like hell.â A voice cuts through her thoughts, sharp yet strangely casual.
Dann startles, her wide eyes locking onto Seonghwa as he saunters out of the shadows. His shirt is half-buttoned, his tie hanging loose around his neck.
He takes a slow drag from a cigarette, the embers glowing faintly in the dim light.
âWhat do you want?â Dannâs voice wavers, a mix of anger and embarrassment as she hastily wipes at her cheeks.
Seonghwa tilts his head, smirking âRelax, I just happened to notice you running out of there like the worldâs ending.â He exhales a thin trail of smoke, his eyes narrowing with mock âSaw something you didnât like?â
Dann glares at him but says nothing. The silence between them grows heavy, thick with unspoken truths.
âIâll take that as a yes,â Hwa finally says, leaning casually against the banister âLet me guess⌠Hongjoong and YN, all over each other like she hadn't kicked him out a week ago because of your little show in the cafeteria?â
His tone drips with derision, his smirk deepening when Dann flinches.
âWhy are you telling me this?â She snaps, her voice cracking slightly âYouâre supposed to be her friend, arenât you?â
Hwa chuckles, low and mirthless âFriendshipâs a funny thing, donât you think? Especially when it comes to someone like YN.â He flicks the cigarette away, watching the faint glow disappear into the darkness âYou think she really cares about anyone but herself?â
Dannâs gaze falters, the weight of his words settling over her.
âLook,â Hwa says, his voice softening just enough to sound sincere, âI know what itâs like to be on the receiving end of YNâs little games. Sheâs been pulling this crap since we were kids, using people, discarding them when theyâre no longer useful.â
Dann clenches her fists, her voice barely above a whisper.
âBut Hongjoong isnât like that.â
Hwa raises an eyebrow, his smirk returning âYou sure about that? He dropped you pretty fast for her, didnât he?â
Her breath catches, the truth of his words cutting deeper than she wants to admit.
âBut hereâs the thing,â Hwa continues, stepping closer, his voice lowering conspiratorially âYNâs not untouchable. Sheâs got secrets, vulnerabilities⌠things she wouldnât want getting out.â
Dann looks up at him, confusion and hesitation warring in her eyes.
âWhat are you saying?â
âIâm saying⌠if you really want to hit her where it hurts, I can help.â
The air between them crackles with tension. Dann hesitates, her instincts screaming at her to walk away.
But the memory of Hongjoong doing such a thing with you flashes through her mind again, the sting of betrayal fueling the embers of something darker.
âWhy?â She asks cautiously, her voice steadier now.
Seonghwaâs grin widens, his eyes glinting with calculated charm
âLetâs just say I have my reasons. And besidesâŚâ He leans in closer, his voice dropping to a near whisper âDonât you want to see her fall?â
Dann swallows hard, the weight of his proposition pressing down on her. Her mind races, torn between doubt and the growing need to fight back.
Finally, she nods, her voice quiet but firm.
âOkay. Iâm in.â
Hwa straightens, satisfaction flashing across his face âGood. Stick with me, and weâll make sure YN regrets every move sheâs made.â
As he walks away, Dann stands frozen, the faint echo of his footsteps fading into the music downstairs.
For the first time that night, she feels something other than painâsomething sharp and dangerous, simmering just beneath the surface.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The soft glow of the afternoon sun filters through the expansive windows of your house, casting a warm, golden hue over the sprawling living room.
You and Hongjoong sit cross-legged on the expensive carpet, a mess of images, glue sticks, and markers spread out between you. The project youâre working on is for the literature classâa visual timeline of key events in European history.
For once, you aren't delegating the work entirely to Hongjoong. Instead, youâre snipping pieces of paper with surprising focus, handing them over to him to paste onto the board.
âHere,â You say, holding up a carefully cut-out image of the Berlin Wall âPaste this next to the 1989 marker. And make it straight this time.â
Hongjoong smirks, taking the picture âYes, pretty. Anything else youâd like me to do, Your Majesty?â
You roll your eyes but hide a smile âJust donât mess it up. My gradeâs on the line, too.â
You share a laugh, the recent nickname he loves to call you since that night at Wooyoungâs party makes you feel butterflies in your stomach.
Since that day, Hongjoong feels the ease between both of youâsomething he never thought possible just a few weeks ago. He doesnât feel nervous or out of place anymore.
Being with you feels natural now, like he belongs here.
You lean back, brushing your hair over your shoulder, and look at him with a curious expression.
âYouâre actually not bad at this. Who knew?â
He grins âWow, high praise coming from you. Should I write this down?â
You smirk, tossing a crumpled piece of paper at him âDonât push your luck, Kim.â
The banter continues, light and comfortable, until the sound of heels clicking on the marble floor interrupts them.
Your mother appears in the doorway, dressed immaculately as always, her gaze sweeping over the room.
âOh! Hi, Hongjoong. Didn't know you were here.â Your mother greets him with a lovely smile
âGood afternoon, Mrs. Clarke.â He bows his head politely.
âHow are you doing with that guys?â She says while looking curiously at your project.
âGreat, weâre having fun.â Hongjoong answers with a sweet smile and your mother giggles gracefully.
From the first time your mother met him, she was delighted with the boy, saying how handsome and polite he was.
âIncredible. Sweetie?â Now she addresses you and you hum in response âI wanted to let you know your brother will be returning from Germany next week. He finished his program early.â
You freeze, your hands stilling on the paper you're cutting. For a moment, a flicker of somethingâfear?âcrosses your face.
âOhâŚâ You say, voice strained despite her attempt at nonchalance âThatâs⌠great.â
Your mother narrows her eyes slightly, as if detecting the unease.
âYes. Heâs looking forward to seeing you. I hope youâll make him proud of how youâve been handling things here.â
âIâm sure heâll be thrilled.â You reply with a forced smile.
âWell, I'll let you continue with your work.â Your mother gives a curt nod before leaving the room.
Hongjoong glances at you, sensing the sudden shift in your mood.
âMike?â
You exhale sharply, tossing the scissors aside âYeah. My amazing brother. If he finds out Iâve been⌠well, less than perfect, he wonât hesitate to tell my parents.â
Hongjoong frowns âHe sounds⌠intense.â
âYou donât know half of it.â You mutter, running a hand through your hair. For a moment, your confident exterior falters, revealing a hint of vulnerability.
Hongjoong reaches out, hesitating before placing a hand on yours.
âHey, itâs okay. Whatever happens, youâll handle it. Youâre YN, remember? You always do.â
You look at him, your expression softening âYouâre sweet, you know that?â
He shrugs, a blush creeping up his neck âJust for you, pretty.â
You lean in, your lips brushing his in a soft kiss.
âLetâs finish this project before my mother comes back and give you compliments just for existingâ
Hongjooong chuckles, but he canât shake the lingering thought of your brother. Whoever this guy is, he clearly has a hold over youâand thatâs saying something.
Meanwhile, in the kitchen, Dann quietly tidies up remnants of her lunch, her movements mechanical. She hasnât spoken to Hongjoong in days. He doesnât even look at her anymore.
But she notices the change in youâthe way you smile more, laugh more, when Hongjoong is around you.
And Dann canât help but feel the ache in her chest grow sharper with each passing moment.
How much she wishes she was in your place, to be so close to Hongjoong.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The house buzzes with quiet anticipation, the staff moving about with heightened energy. Your mother, dressed in her usual pristine elegance, stands in the center of the room, her voice carrying an air of authority but still kind.
âI want everything perfect for my sonâs return,â She announces, her tone leaving no room for error âThe table arrangements, the food, the decorâeverything must reflect our familyâs standards. Heâll be here in three days, and this dinner must welcome him properly. The whole family will come, so the banquet should be for twenty-five people.â
Dann crouches in the corner of the hallway, hidden behind a large vase. She had come to deliver your paperwork but froze when she overheard the conversation.
Her heart pounds as she listens, her mind racing. YNâs brother⌠She wouldn't know that the Clarkes have two children if it weren't for some pictures hanging on the walls, in all this time she never heard anyone mention it, not even your parents.
She knows almost nothing about him, but the little mention that Seonghwa made one day left her intrigued.
Why does no one in the family talk about that guy?
The moment your mother leaves the room, Dann slips out and makes her way to the backyard, her hands clutching the papers tightly.
She unlocks her phone in hand and calls Seonghwa.
Heâs been a constant presence in her life these past two weeksânot as a friend, but as a partner in their silent pact.
In these weeks, Hwa has treated Dann with a mix of indifference and amusement. He never misses an opportunity to remind her of their deal, yet heâs never outright cruel.
For him, sheâs a toolâa means to an end. But for Dann, every interaction feels like walking a tightrope, unsure when his charm might twist into something sharper.
âSeonghwa,â she calls softly when he picks up.
âHi, whatâs the news?â
Dann hesitates before speaking âYNâs brother⌠Heâs coming back in three days. Her mom is planning this big welcome dinner for him.â
âThe golden boy, huh? Interesting.â
âInteresting?â Dann blurts out before she can stop herself.
âOf course, it is. Daddyâs favorite, perfect older brother who can do no wrong? Heâs probably the only one who can knock YN off her pedestal.â
Dann frowns, clutching her hands nervously âAre you sure about this?â
âDon't be scared, Seo, Iâll take care of everything.â
Dann isnât comforted by his nonchalance, but she knows better than to push. Seonghwa isnât someone who worries; he plans, manipulates, and waits for the perfect moment to strike.
âOkay⌠bye.
Dann bites her lip, hanging up before walking back inside the house. But as she retreats, she canât shake the feeling that sheâs stepping deeper into a game she barely understands.
⎠â
You lounge on the oversized velvet sofa in the living room, your legs tuck beneath you as you flip through the book Hongjoong recommended to you.
Youâre not reading itâyour eyes skim over the pages without absorbing a single word.
Around you, the house is abuzz with activity. Maids dust every surface, fluffing pillows to perfection.
A team of florists meticulously arranges extravagant bouquets in the foyer, filling the air with the overpowering scent of lilies and roses.
Your mother strides into the room, clipboard in hand, rattling off instructions.
âThe table settings must be silver, not gold. And make sure the wine glasses are spotlessâhe deserves only the best.â Her voice drips with excitement.
You glance at the dining room, now transformed into a stage for the grand dinner. Crystal chandeliers gleam above the polished mahogany table, which is already set with fine china and embroidered napkins.
Everything is immaculate, screaming perfectionâjust like your brother.
Your father joins his wife, a rare smile softening his otherwise stern face âFinally, our son is coming back. Three years is far too long.â He places a hand on the woman's shoulder, his tone filled with pride âHeâs the best of us.â
Your stomach twists. Their words sting in a way you donât expect. Itâs not that you hate Mikeânot really. But the shadow he casts is suffocating, the impossibly high bar he sets that youâll never reach.
The perfect son, the golden child whoâs never made a misstepâor so everyone thinks.
Because you know better. You know the cracks hidden behind his flawless exterior. The things heâs done, the lines heâs crossed.
The way heâs used you to cover his tracks, forcing you to dirty your hands so his reputation could remain unscathed. The memory of his voice, cold and commanding, still echoes in your mind.
'Youâll do it, YN. You owe me.' And you always did because saying no was never an option.
Your parents know about his anger issues. Theyâve seen his temper, the way his anger can spiral into violence.
Theyâve heard the arguments, felt the weight of his wrath. But they ignore it, choosing instead to uphold the illusion of their perfect son.
You know they love you and love to spoil you, but you also know their disappointment runs deep.
To them, youâre the little child who always gets her way, who causes trouble without considering the consequences.
A loud clatter from the kitchen breaks her thoughts, and your mother whirls around.
âWhat was that? We canât afford any mistakes!â
You watch your mother hurry away, and your heart sinks further. Mistakes.
Thatâs all you feel you are lately and a series of disappointments waiting to be uncovered. Your eyes drift to the grand staircase, and you imagine Mike descending it, his presence commanding the room, and your parents beaming with pride.
Your phone buzzes, pulling you from bad thoughts. Itâs a text from Hongjoong, something sweet and simple about your project.
Joongie: Weâre getting a 10, pretty.
Joongie: Promise!!
For a moment, you smile, but it quickly fades. Hongjoong is your escape, your distraction, but even he canât erase the weight of your familyâs expectations.
Sighing, you set the book down and lean back, closing your eyes. The house feels suffocating, filled with reminders of who you are supposed to be.
But this time, you wonât be caught off guard. If your brotherâs return is inevitable, youâll face him on your termsâeven if it means confronting the secrets they both carry.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
The school backyard is too quiet to be the last class, a gentle breeze rustling the leaves of the trees as students chatter in the distance.
You and Hongjoong sit on a bench, the space between them comfortable but heavy with unspoken thoughts.
You swing your legs lazily, your eyes looking at the horizon. Your usually confident demeanor seems a little more distant today, like your mind is elsewhere.
Hongjoong notices it instantly, and though heâs not the type to pry, he canât help but ask.
"Hey, what's going on? You seem⌠off today."
You glance over at him, lips curling into a small smile, but it doesnât quite reach your eyes.
âItâs nothing. Just stuff with my family.â
He raises an eyebrow, sensing that itâs more than just âstuff.â He leans a little closer, his voice softer now.
âYour brother, right?â
You freeze at the mention of him, gaze flickering to the side, as though trying to avoid the thought altogether. Your fingers fidget with the hem of your jacket, and you sigh deeply.
"Yeah, heâs coming back today." You try to mask the vulnerability in your tone, but Hongjoong catches it anyway "After three years, my parents are so excited. You should see the house, Joong... everything has to be perfect."
Hongjoong watches you carefully, his expression thoughtful. He remembers when your mother told you about Mikeâs return.
You had been visibly upset, though you masked it quickly, eager to avoid the conversation. He knows that you have spent your whole life living in your brotherâs shadow, constantly compared to his perfection.
"I get it," He says softly, his voice steady "Youâve always felt like heâs the âgolden child,â right? The one your parents adore."
Your lips tighten, but you don't argue, just nod, glancing at him with a half-smile.
"Itâs exhausting. Heâs everything they ever wanted in a son. Business master. Perfect grades. Perfect manners. Perfect everything." You pause, a bitter edge creeping into your voice "It doesnât matter how many times I get a perfect score or do everything right. Itâs never enough."
Hongjoong nods, his hand resting on the back of the bench, his gaze still on you. He knows you hide a lot behind that confident exterior, but the cracks are starting to show now, and it makes him feel both protective and⌠uncertain.
"It sounds like a lot to deal with. But your parents love you. They just have high expectations, donât they?"
Your gaze flickers briefly to him, but you don't meet his eyes. You bite your lip, as if debating whether to continue.
"They do, but sometimes it feels like itâs not enough." You shrug, trying to brush it off, but the weight of the words lingers in the air between them "Anyway, enough about that."
You shift in your seat, a new thought clearly forming.
âHongjoong,â You say, voice softer now, almost vulnerable "I know Iâve been, uh⌠caught up with my family stuff lately. But would you⌠would you ever invite me to your place one day? Just, you know, to get away from all of this?"
He blinks in surprise, but the warmth of your request is clear. Itâs not about the drama or the pressures you face at home. Itâs just you wanting a break, wanting something simple.
A break from being the âperfectâ daughter, the one always judged against the golden child.
"Of course, pretty." He replies without hesitation "Whenever you want. You can always come over."
You look at him, eyes softer now, a real smile tugging at the corners of your lips.
"Thanks, that means more than you know."
You sit in silence for a moment, the weight of your words settling between you. Hongjoongâs heart races, unsure of what this means for their relationship but knowing one thing:
Being around you, seeing you like thisâvulnerable, honestâit pulls him in deeper.
Finally, you break the silence again âWell, if I have to put up with my perfect brother for a while, at least Iâll have something to look forward to, right?â
He chuckles, the sound filling the quiet space between you âExactly. And you know, I think the âperfectâ brother might need a little dose of reality. No one can be perfect all the time.â
You grin at that, your usual self-assuredness flickering back to life.
"Maybe.â
"Well, youâve got me for anything. Always."
As you sit there, the rest of the world seems to fade away. Just for a moment, everything is okay.
And for now, thatâs enough.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
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â blood in the clouds â | DELETED SCENES | original fic
HOUR 5.5 OF 7 - YOUTUBE VLOGGING
your fingers crumpled the edges of the âscriptâ that hongjoong gave you, the gun ahead of you acting as an unwelcome reminder that you could die at any moment.
you squinted at the paper, your voice cracking slightly as you read aloud.Â
ââdad, you are to provide the $150 million you owe to K.H.J., through your next meeting with mr kim. refusal means that your daughter will be cut up and scattered across the s-ââ
your eyes widened. âare you serious?âÂ
 he lowered the camera he had been aiming at you. â..you want to find out, pretty?â
HOUR 15 OF 7 - DRESS TO IMPRESS
âare you always this picky?â wooyoung sneered as he leaned against the wall.Â
you glared at him. âyes.â
the room you were brought to was slightly cleaner and brighter than what youâve seen so far. on the bed, there were dresses stacked on top of each other, some ridiculous and some stunning.Â
âwhy do you even have these dresses?â you asked as you held one up.Â
âwe donât,â wooyoung rolled his eyes. âboss made me steal them for you.â
you dropped the dress and shot him a look. âare you serious?â
âwhy would we have these lying around?â he scoffed.Â
you sighed, picking up a dress. something that was simple and elegant. âiâll wear this one.â
when you realised that wooyoung ignored you, you spoke up again. âget out.â
he rolled his eyes and left the room with a dramatic huff. once he left, you put the dress on. it wasnât the most flattering dress youâve worn, but at least it wasnât that horrid uniform youâve been wearing.Â
when you were done, you opened the door to see wooyoung waiting - holding a bag of what looked like makeup supplies. you sat on the bed as he loomed through them, picking out something.Â
âwhat the hell is this?â he muttered as he held what looked like a pencil.Â
you blinked. ââŚitâs eyeliner.â
âshit,â he grumbled as his hand wobbled and drew a squiggly line across your cheek.Â
you flinched. âwhat the hell are you doing? i can do it myself-â
â-iâve done this before!â wooyoung argued as he continued to draw crooked lines near your eyes.Â
âis she done yet?â a new voice cut in. you turned to see a man at the doorway. âwhy is she not ready?â
âseonghwa, take over,â wooyoung snapped as he shoved the pencil into seonghwaâs hands. âiâm getting pissed off.â
seonghwa sighed and stepped forward to where you were sitting. his movements were calm and precise as he wiped off the makeup and reapplied it.Â
once he was done, he stepped back with a nod. âyou look good.â
you blinked, unsure of whether to thank him. âuh- do you guys have mirrors here?â
both men exchanged a glance before seonghwa shrugged. âno, but just take our word for it.â
before anyone else could say anything, the door swung open.Â
it was hongjoong.Â
his eyes swept over you slowly and his lips curled into a smirk that made your stomach twist. âletâs go pig hunting.â
HOUR 16 OF 7 - FAST AND FURIOUS
the car swerved violently, tires screeching as hongjoong gripped the steering wheel. the tunnel around you was noisy with gunshots and bullets bouncing off the walls.Â
you were in the passenger seat, wearing a black dress as you held the car door for dear life.Â
âi thought we were going to an event!â you yelled over the gunshots as the car jerked to the side.Â
âi thought so too,â hongjoong sighed as he tilted the rearview mirror.Â
before you could say anything, he reached into his blazer and pulled out a sleek black pistol.
âwhat are you doing?â your jaw dropped.Â
he rolled his eyes. âdonât act surprised.âÂ
âwhat is wrong with you?!â you spat out, watching him check the bullets. âiâm not letting you kill anyone-â
âgod- youâre such a brat,â he clicked his tongue, cocking the gun. âtake the wheel.â
youâre eyes widened. âwhat?!â
âtake. the. wheel,â he ordered, already unbuckling his seatbelt.Â
hongjoong rolled down the window, letting go of the steering wheel entirely and ramming the gas pedal as he stood up. panicked, you lunged for the wheel, struggling to grip it as the car swerved dangerously to the side. âare you crazy?!â
âdrive!â he yelled, raising the gun and firing several shots at the black SUV trailing close behind.Â
âshit,â he muttered, ducking back inside to reload his gun. he leaned back out again. âturn right-â
you quickly listened to him as he aimed carefully, firing several more rounds. a loud bang echoed as the SUVâs tires blew out, the vehicle swerving violently before crashing into the tunnelâs wall.Â
hongjoong slid back into the seat, taking the steering wheel from you as he rolled up the window. âyouâre welcome.â
MONTH 3 - LETâS GO GAMBLING! (initial draft)
âget ready!â san yelled, his voice cutting through the noise.
weapons were drawn and the room erupted into chaos.
you rushed forward, gripping the knife wooyoung lent you earlier. your pulse pounded in your ears as you scanned the room, overwhelmed.
âstay back, brat. youâre not ready.â
hongjoongâs voice was sharp, his hand grabbing your arm as he pushed you to the side. his eyes bore into yours, leaving no room for argument.
you hesitated. the rest of the group either fought piglets near slot machines, roulette tables or bars, their moves deadly.
you tried to follow hongjoongâs order, really. but when you saw one of the piglets break away from the main fight and headed for yeosang, who was hiding under a pool table, you couldnât resist.
your grip on the knife tightened as you ran forward.
the piglet turned to you, snarling. âyou think you can take me, girl?â
without thinking, you lunged.
the clash of steel pierced your ears as your knives collided. you were definitely not a good fighter - your strikes were clumsy and your footing was off, but you were high on adrenaline.
his blows were relentless, forcing you to backpedal. his knife caught yours at an odd angle, causing the blade to deform.
panic surged through you as he moved to strike again, but before he could reach you-
-the piglet dropped to the ground.
you looked behind to see hongjoong standing not too far away, his pistol still aimed at where the piglet was.
his eyes inspected you, narrowing as he assessed your state. blood dripped from a small gash on your lip, and your sleeves were torn - revealing small cuts on your arms.
he sighed. âgo hide with yeosang,â he ordered before quickly turning to rejoin the fight.
you staggered toward the pool tables, slumping next to yeosang.
âyouâre not fighting?â you panted, wiping your lip.
he shook his head. âtoo tired.â
you nodded, leaning back against the tableâs leg as you impatiently waited for the fight to end, which didnât take too long.
the gunfire finally ceased, the room falling quiet.
one by one, the group gathered in the corner, collapsing onto the floor in a circle as you and yeosang joined them. bottles of water were passed around as everyone caught their breaths.
for a while, no one spoke, the only sounds being an occasional groan.
âhey,â wooyoung hiccuped, breaking the silence as he turned to you. âgive me my knife back.â
you looked at him awkwardly before handing him his completely deformed blade.
âwhat the hell!â he exclaimed. âthat was one of my favourites!â
you shrugged. âyou shouldnât have given it to me then.â
âhow was i supposed to know youâd get into an actual fight?â wooyoung complained. ânow i donât feel bad for your busted lip anymore.â
âyouâre such a dick,â you rolled your eyes.
wooyoung grinned, leaning closer - his voice mocking sweet. âaw, donât be mad, sweetheart. iâll get you a better knife- one that wonât break in your delicate fucking hands.â
âohmygod- shut up,â you groaned, shoving him lightly as the others chuckled.
hongjoong leaned against the wall, his arm crossed over his chest. his eyes shifted from wooyoung to you.Â
he told himself it was relief - that he was glad you were bonding with the crew, that you were starting to feel like one of them. thatâs what he wanted, wasnât it? to see you mesh with his team, to become a member?
but why did his stomach twist every time one of them smiled at you?
he didnât realise how hard his fingers were digging into his arms until his knuckles turned sore and white.
âenough,â hongjoong cut through the conversation.
the laughter died down instantly as everyone turned to him.
âwe donât have time for this,â he continued, standing up. âgrab any cash you find and meet by the van. now.â
the group complained but obeyed, sluggishly rising to their feet.
you went to pick up a discarded water bottle, hongjoongâs eyes lingering a fraction too long on the bloodied edge of your sleeve and the small cut on your lip.
he should be angry at you for disobeying him, for throwing yourself into danger when you werenât ready. but all he could feel was the sickening churn of jealousy at how easily you laughed with the others.
as you passed by him on your way out, he caught your wrist briefly.
ânext time, stay where i tell you,â he said. ânow youâre hurt.â
you nodded, hesitating before you spoke, your voice soft. â...iâm sorry.â
hongjoong blinked, taken aback.
âi-â your brows furrowed. âi didnât mean to get hurt. i just wanted to help..â
fuck- why, no- how were you so genuine?
he expected you to talk back or shrug him off, not this - sincerity shining in your eyes. now, he just looked like a shithead, guilt clawing at his chest.
hongjoong exhaled sharply, running a hand through his hair. âwhatever- it wasnât your fault-â
you tilted your head, confused. âbut you-â
âjust find the cash we need,â he cut you off, walking away.
hongjoong felt his stomach twist once more. he told himself it was just concern or worry. but deep down, he knew it was something more complicated.
and he hated it.
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AHHHHH I LOVE IT!!!! IT WAS AMAZING 10/10 the different text next to the hours were interesting to read.
I canât wait to read the other members parts whenever they come out. keep up the amazing work <3
â blood in the clouds â | KIM HONGJOONG
pairings â mafia leader! hongjoong x flight attendant! fem! reader
genre â mafia au, non-idol au, SLOW BURNN
synopsis â
itâs finally your last day as a flight attendant. you wanted nothing more than to laze on your couch and watch netflix - just to find out that one of your passengers blew out the brains of your pilot with a gun.
in which hongjoong to hijack a plane that his rivalâs daughter is on.
w.c â 10.5k (yes im a yapper im sorry)
c.w â dark themes, vivid descriptions of gore, guns and knives, kiss scene but no smut, use of the nickname âbratâ, âprettyâ and ONE TIME - âprincessâ, your dadâs a dick oops, vulgar language, reader is smart
authorâs note: this is the first oneshot of my mafia series! yes it is long but i promise you that it does eat and that youâll enjoy it. remember to reblog and comment if you enjoyed, any and all feedback helps!
not proofread!
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white clouds drifted by the airplane window as the sky turned from a soft blue to a deep orange.
it wouldâve been a pretty sight if it werenât for the gun to your head.
youâd called in sick or put in your two weeks notice earlier if this was how your last day of being a flight attendant would end - but apparently, life hates you too much to let you catch a break.
HOUR 1 OF 7 - TAKEOFF
âgod- i canât take this anymore,â you thought to yourself. you hated waiting, despised it actually.Â
after today, no more jet lag, rushed goodbyes or missing celebrations. you can finally unpack that suitcase for good, find someplace quiet and actually live in it. the thought alone was enough to keep you excited, but something bothered you at the back of your mind.
this trip didnât feel right.
it wasnât the plane itself, but your passengers? only 2 showed up in a plane that could seat at least 50 people.Â
not that you were complaining. fewer passengers meant less work - which was a good thing.Â
but the uneasiness you felt kept rising in your chest, no matter the times you tried to push it down.Â
âjust 6 more hours,â you thought. âthen this will all be behind me.â
HOUR 2 OF 7 - MEALTIME
meal service started like any other: boring.Â
after handing out the trays, you pushed the trolley back to its place and returned with beverages. you plastered on your most professional smile as you walked over to your passengers. âwould you like a drink?â
the man in sunglasses turned to you lazily, his eyes shifting from the trolley to your face. âwhat do you have?â
you sighed, quietly but deeply. you had that stupid list engraved into your mind by now. âwater, coffee, tea, coke, spri-âÂ
â-do you have alcohol?â he cut you off.Â
your eye twitched. this dickhead.
first of all, he interrupted you. and secondly, you didnât mention the alcohol on purpose. it was stored at the back of the plane and you did not have the energy to drag it out.Â
âuh hongjoong- i mean, boss-â the guy next to him whispered hurriedly. âi donât think thatâs a good idea-â
â-i think it is,â hongjoong interrupted before turning back to you. âwhereâs the menu?â
you gave him a forced smile as you pushed the alcohol menu towards him. he took his time with it, flipping through the pages slowly before finally saying, âtwo shots of whiskey.â
âsure thing,â you snatched the menu back. with a swift turn, you fetched the whiskey and the glasses, returning back to his seat.
you poured and placed the two shots on his tray table. he took the glass and drank it in one go, setting it back down with a thud.Â
hongjoong then turned his head towards you, eyebrows raised. âwhat?â
you blinked. âwhatâ? just âwhatâ? where's the âthank youâ?Â
you were losing your mind.
ânothing,â you muttered through clenched teeth, moving away before he could ask for anything else.
grade A asshole.
HOUR 4.5 OF 7 - POINT OF NO RETURN
the shitty in-flight wifi was a joke as always. why did you even try?
with an annoyed sigh, you shoved your phone into your back pocket when suddenly-
static.
its piercing sound followed by faint garbled voices on the intercom startled you. you frowned as the sound continued, getting louder and more distorted.
with a groan, you stood up, straightening your uniform. âwhat are they doing?â you thought as you walked towards the cockpit.
but when you passed by the first-class cabin, you paused. the seats were empty. both passengers were gone. âweirdâŚâ
things only got weirder as you approached the unlocked cockpit door.Â
concerned, you pushed it open.
the smell hit you first - a metallic tang that twisted your stomach.
then your eyes caught up.
blood splattered the walls and windows in chaotic streaks, dripping down to the controls and the carpeted floor. the pilot and co-pilot laid in a gruesome pile to the side, the jagged holes in their skulls grotesque.Â
a guy sat at the controls, steering the plane as though he wasnât surrounded by horrors.Â
grade A asshole- no, hongjoong, sat cross-legged on the floor, his sunglasses shattered at his feet. a gun rested in his hand and his lips curled into a smirk as he watched you enter.
âyouâve got to be kidding me..â you breathed out.Â
pieces of brain and organ matter clung to the control panel as a simple blinking green light above that indicated that everything was, somehow, still functioning.
hongjoong tilted his head, amused. the gun shifted to point at what you now noticed was the crumpled bodies of your pilots, their faces mangled in unrecognisable masses of flesh and bone.
âthese your friends?â
you shook your head as you stepped back, wiping your sweaty hands on your uniform. hongjoong seemed to enjoy your reaction, his grin widening into something sickening.Â
he smirked. âdonât worry, i wonât spoil that pretty face of yours.â
you coughed at the wretched smell as the crimson-stained carpet squelched beneath your heels, your mind begging you to leave.
âwell-â you said, turning to the door. âiâm sure you donât need me here, iâll just-â
an audible click cut you off.
you froze.
slowly, you turned back to see a gun aimed directly at you.
âleaving so soon?â he raised an eyebrow. âletâs talk.â
HOUR 5 OF 7 - SKYDIVING DOESNâT SEEM TOO BAD
hongjoong dragged you to the first-class section to âtalkâ. it was the first time youâve ever sat there and to be completely honest, this was not how you imagined yourself âenjoyingâ it.
well, not like it mattered. you had other issues - like handcuffs locking you to the chair.
he stood infront of you, one hand gripping the gun while the other held a file. ââ____â, am i right?â he asked.Â
you nodded slowly. â..thatâs me.â
â3.6 GPA in university..â he muttered. âflunked out of med school during your first year..â
..how the hell did he get that information?
âyou ended up as a flight attendant because your father owns the airline.â
â..yeah,â you reluctantly admitted, your stomach churning. âuh- was the med school part necessary?â
hongjoong ignored you, flipping to the next page. you watched his eyebrows shoot up as his eyes narrowed. âhow close are you with your father?â
you blinked, confused by the weird question. âi mean- heâs my dad,â you replied. âbut i havenât seen him in years.â
âhm,â the sound came from him. hongjoong studied you for a moment longer before he spoke again, but this time, his voice was cold.
âdo you know what heâs been doing during those years?â
your brows furrowed. âno, i-â
âkilling. my. men.â
you didnât even have time to process his words because he leaned forward when he said them, the gun uncomfortably close to your face.Â
you swallowed the lump in your throat. â...are you sure you have the right person?â
his smirk widened into something eerie. âi have a gun pointed to you, donât i?â
your pulse quickened. you couldnât decide which was worse: the possibility that he was telling the truth or the fact that he was clearly enjoying your reaction.
âi always wanted to get back at that pig..â he held the gun up to the bottom of your chin, forcing you to meet his eyes. âand look at how kind the world is- blessing me with his daughter.â
you struggled to breathe, to think. the handcuffs dug into your wrist as you unconsciously tried to break out of them, a clink against the metal arm of the chair.
your voice trembled. â..what do you want from me?â
hongjoong didnât answer immediately. instead, he leaned in even closer, so close that you could feel your foreheads touching.
âwhat i want,â he said slowly, eyes locked onto yours. âis for your dad to suffer.â
HOUR 6 OF 7 - SURPRISINGLY ALIVE
the stuffiness of the plane did little to calm your nerves. you sat quietly in the seat, staring at the shattered remains of your phone on the floor.
hongjoong snatched it from your hands a few minutes ago, grumbling about how âyou donât need devicesâ. great. just great.Â
the sound of the cockpit door creaking open drew your attention. the other guy - or âpilotâ, stepped out, adjusting the cuffs of his sleeves. âboss.â
hongjoong raised an eyebrow. âwhat?â
the âpilotâ moved closer to hongjoong, lowering his voice. âair traffic control was notified of our path,â he said quietly. âthey know somethingâs off about the plane, but i have no idea how.â
hongjoongâs eyes darkened as he processed the information. then, he glared at you, like he was accusing you.
you scoffed. âyou shot my phone, how would i even contact anyone?â
for a moment, the two of you locked eyes and you swear that you could see him debating whether to believe you.
the âpilotâ cleared his throat. âwhat should we expect?â he asked nervously.
hongjoong leaned back in his seat, running a hand through his hair. âthe police.â
HOUR 7 OF 7 - SHIT IS GETTING REAL
âwhat the hellâŚâ you whispered to yourself as you peered out of the window.
SWAT teams and federal agents stood in rows, their weapons pointed directly at the plane. flashing lights of red and blue lit up the empty airport.Â
you turned away from the window, watching hongjoong pull out a burner phone from his jacket. his fingers typed something out before he suddenly snapped the phone in half, tossing the remains on the floor.Â
ââŚwho are you?â you asked quietly.
he raised an eyebrow. âyou donât need to know, pretty.â
your survival instincts told you to move, to do something. but the second you tried to stand, hongjoong shoved you back down.Â
âstay seated until we land,â he said before tilting his head. âisnât that your job?â
you rolled your eyes, gripping the armrests as you tried to calm yourself down and steady your breathing.Â
but that was when you heard it - gunshots.Â
âtheyâre shooting us?â you panicked, flinching with each sound.Â
no answer.
âhey-â you tried again, but was cut off by the tires hitting the terrain.Â
the landing was rough - harsher than anything youâve experienced as a flight attendant. the plane rattled like never before.
your chest tightened when it rolled over something particularly large. âwhat was that?â your voice cracked.Â
no answer.Â
when the plane finally came to a halt, you barely had time to catch your breath when hongjoong moved. in a blink, he uncuffed you from the chair, only to secure the handcuffs on your wrists once more.Â
he brought you to your feet, pulling you so close that you could feel his breath against your ear. âdonât do anything stupid,â he hissed.Â
the cockpit door opened and the âpilotâ appeared. he quickly unlocked the emergency exit and you saw the makeshift ramp that had been attached to the side of the plane.Â
a van rested just outside of it, hongjoong dragging you towards the vehicle. you descended the ramp, the cool air hitting your face as you looked around.Â
but that was when you saw it.Â
blood.Â
on the wheels of the plane, the dark colour leaving a fresh trail on the ground. Â
âdid you..â you gulped, your voice barely above a whisper. âdid you run over them?â
hongjoong glanced at you. âi didnât,â he shrugged. âthe plane did.â
you stopped in your tracks, your feet stuck rooted to the ground as you stared at him in horror. how could he say that like it was no big deal? just who was this man?
âmove,â hongjoong ordered. but when you didnât, he clicked his tongue, rolling his eyes. âgod- youâre such a brat.â
before you knew it, you were shoved into the back of the van. the âpilotâ closed the door with a loud slam and sat in the driverâs seat while hongjoong took the passengerâs seat up front.Â
you met hongjoongâs eyes through the rearview mirror. his glare was sharp, acting as a warning to keep your mouth shut. you didnât need to be told twice.
the van drove forward and you caught glimpses of city lights in the distance, slowly growing closer. civilisation - maybe you could get help.Â
but against your mindâs wishes, you felt your eyelids getting heavy - and you did something that no one should ever do when theyâre in a car with armed strangers.
you fell asleep.
HOUR 14 OF 7 - HIP HIP HOORAY YOUâRE NOT DEAD
you heard a voice whine. âwhy canât we kill her?âÂ
âdo you want boss to kill us?â you heard another reply.
your eyes fluttered open. your head felt heavy as the room came into focus, your stomach twisting.Â
the space was dingy, poorly lit by a bulb hanging from the ceiling and an unnecessarily tall lamp on the ground. the walls were stained and the air stunk of blood.
you tried to move, only to feel tight ropes against your wrists and ankles. you were tied to a chair.
âi canât believe we have to babysit the pigâs daughter,â a man with a knife groaned.
âcalm down, wooyoung,â the other one sighed.
âcalm down?!â wooyoung exclaimed. âyeosang got to fly a plane! how is that fair?â
âhe has a license,â the second man rolled his eyes.Â
âitâs still a plane, jongho-â
âshut up,â jongho interrupted. âthe girlâs awake.â
both men turned their heads to look at you, the sudden attention sending a shiver down your spine. wooyoungâs grin stretched across his face as he got to his feet, jongho following behind.
âaw look whoâs finally awake,â wooyoung approached, his voice childish. âyou slept like a baby- and we didnât even drug you!â
your heartbeat quickened as he leaned in close, his grin widening as he studied your face.
âi read your file,â he began. âyouâre smartâŚâ wooyoung paused, his eyes inspecting you and your ridiculous uniform. âand hot.â
your throat tightened, but you forced yourself to respond. âthank you-?â
â-whatâs your favourite feature about yourself?â he asked, twirling the knife in his hands.
âuh-â your mind scrambled for an answer as he got nearer, the knife glinting. âi- my eyes?â
âyour eyes,â wooyoung repeated, the grin stuck to his face. âgood choice.â
he brought the knife closer, the cold steel trailing down the side of your face. you flinched as the blade hovered near your eye, your breath hitching.
âyouâre going to answer all our questions,â he stated, almost in a sing-songy way. âand if you dont-â
he tilted the knife, now directly above your eyeball. â-iâll dig those lovely pearls out of your sockets.â
your chest tightened, terror paralyzing you from head to toe. you couldnât even breathe, every cell in your body pleading you to stay still.
âhey-â jongho tapped wooyoung on the shoulder, whispering. âuh.. boss said we canât scratch her..â
âare you serious?â wooyoung scoffed. âthen whatâs the point?â
jongho bit the inside of his cheek, avoiding eye contact with his friend.
wooyoung groaned, throwing the knife to the ground with a strength that made it bend. âfuck this- torture isnât even fun anymore.â
he stormed out of the room, slamming the door behind him.
silence was in the air until jongho cleared his throat awkwardly. he turned to face you. âuh..â he hesitated, rubbing the back of his neck.Â
âchange of plans.â
HOUR 15 OF 7 - DAY DRINKING IS FUN
you never imagined yourself in a hideout, drinking vodka with one of your captors - yet here you were.Â
the whole thing felt absurd: a shaky barstool beneath you and a scuffed counter separating you and jongho. he poured you a shot he claimed was âvery expensiveâ, before proceeding to chug most of the vodka from the bottle in a long gulp.Â
your legs were untied now, though your wrists were still bound, the rope loose enough for your hands to rest infront of you. âwhat are we waiting for?â you asked. âhongjoong?â
jongho froze, his eyes snapping to yours. âdonât say his name,â he whisper-shouted.
you raised your tied wrists in apology. âokay.. what should i call him?â
âcall him boss.. or mr kim.. or anything that isnât his first name,â jongho said, his words rushed.Â
you nodded slowly, looking at the man infront of you with mild concern. he looked even more scared than you did.Â
then suddenly, the door slammed open.Â
both you and jongho flinched, watching two figures stumble in.Â
the first was a tall man - storming into the room. the second was him, hongjoong, clutching his side in pain.
âmingi- boss!â jongho panicked instantly as he ran to help the injured man. âholy- youâre hurt!â
âthe pig called for backup,â mingi sighed heavily.Â
you blinked, stunned as the sound of hongjoong coughing violently brought your attention back to the injured man.Â
blood seeped through his fingers, staining his sleeves and skin. you donât know what took over you, but you pushed yourself off of the barstool and rushed towards him.Â
âwhat do you think youâre doing?â mingi stepped infront of hongjooong, his hand resting on his gun protectively.Â
you glared at him. âdo you want your boss to bleed out?â
mingi studied you. after what felt like ages, he exhaled sharply and stepped aside. âfine,â he muttered, keeping a hand on his weapon.Â
you knelt next to hongjoong, trying to make him face you as you grabbed his arm. though, he snatched himself away from you quickly.Â
you rolled your eyes. âiâm trying to help you. let me see it.â
hongjoongâs eyes pierced your soul. you could see the cogs in his head turning on whether he could trust you.Â
a few moments passed before he finally faced you with a sigh, revealing a large gash on the side of his stomach - a wound created by knife.Â
âi need water.âÂ
jongho blinked, clearly thrown off. âwhat?â
âto clean his wound..?â you explained. âget me water. now.â
jongho hesitated before snatching a bottle of water from a mini fridge. he pushed it to you, the little amount of liquid sloshing inside. âyou should stay still for this,â you said before slowly pouring the water over the wound.Â
crap- a gash this big needed a stitch.Â
âuntie me,â you said, holding your wrists up to your captors.Â
jongho glanced at his boss worriedly for permission. hongjoong gave a small nod and jongho quickly pulled out a small knife to cut the rope.Â
once free, you quickly looked around for something to stitch his wound with. when nothing looked remotely useful, your eyes dropped to your uniform - a skirt with a yarn trim. it wasnât ideal, but it would have to do.
you began to unravel the yarn from the hem.
âwhat are you doing?â mingi asked, frowning.
âstitching him,â you sighed as your fingers worked hurriedly. âor do you want him to get an infection?â
hongjoong let out a groan, shifting uncomfortably. âjust hurry.â
you finished unravelling it, but now you needed a needle. your hand instinctively reached up to your hair - pulling out a small bobby pin. it was definitely not as sharp as a needle, but youâre sure that hongjoong can handle his pain.
âshit- i need to sterilise this,â you muttered, mostly to yourself.
âvodka,â jongho said instantly, grabbing the bottle and handing it to you.
you poured the small amount over the pin, letting it drip onto the floor. then, threading the yarn through the makeshift needle, you glanced at hongjoong.
âthis will hurt,â you warned.
he looked at you with clenched teeth. âi donât care.â
you placed a hand on his side to steady him, feeling the tension in his muscles as he tried to not flinch. carefully, you began to stitch the gash, each pull making him wince.Â
when the stitching was complete, you tied the yarn and tore it off with your teeth - but the wound was still bleeding slightly.
you glanced down at your sleeves. without hesitation, you tore a strip of fabric free. you used it to dab away the excess blood, then folded the remaining fabric to wrap it around his side.Â
âthat should work. for now,â you sat back as you wiped your forehead with your arm.
â...you know how to treat people?â hongjoong asked, wincing slightly.Â
you nodded slowly. âyeah.. i know the basics.â
âhm,â he tilted his head. âyouâre more useful than i thought.â
you blinked. was a good thing or a bad thing?
âwooyoung,â he yelled out.Â
a loud crash was heard in another room, followed by the muffled sounds of frantic movements. within seconds, wooyoung appeared in the doorway.Â
âyes, boss?â wooyoung said out of breath, brushing off his shirt as he lookedaround the room.Â
hongjoong didnât respond immediately. instead, he looked you up and down, his lips twitching into what seemed like a smirk. âget her some actual clothes. we have an event to catch.â
HOUR 17 OF 7 - WORDS TALK BUT GUNS TALK LOUDER
âwoah..â your eyes took in the building before you. glittering lights and an impressive exterior that was way more extravagant than anything you imagined hongjoong to be involved in.
he parked the car, the engine coming to a stop. before you could say anything, hongjoong stepped out of the car, closing the door shut. you scrambled to follow him, your heels clicking against the pavement as you caught up.
the two of you approached the man stationed at the door - a bouncer with a pen and clipboard.
without warning, hongjoongâs hand snaked around your waist, pulling you snugly against his side. you flinched at the sudden contact, but with how tight his grip was, there was no room for protests.
âah, mr kim,â the bouncer greeted. âyou made it.â
hongjoong offered a brief, fake smile before dropping it immediately. âlet us in.â
âhold on now,â the bouncer said, flipping through the papers on the clipboard. âwe canât let her inside.â
hongjoongâs brows furrowed. âwhy?â
ânew policy,â the man sighed, pretending to sound disappointed. âno more plus-ones.â
hongjoong rolled his eyes, not bothering to respond. instead, he reached into his blazer, about to pull out a-
ânevermind!â the bouncerâs face turned pale. he stepped aside with a nervous laugh. âyouâre all set- enjoy the night.â
the interior was breathtaking - chandeliers hung from high ceilings and round tables were scattered across the venue, draped in pristine white table cloths.Â
âdonât eat or drink anything here.â
you blinked, nodding slowly at hongjoongâs words. âokay.. but why-â
â-and if you really want to stay alive,â he interrupted, his lips brushing your ear. âdon't leave my sight.â
his voice sent a chill down your spine. âokay,â you mumbled as he brought you further into the room.
he led you to a seating area - though it looked more like a conversation pit, where an old man sat waiting.Â
hongjoong released his grip on you to sit across the man, gesturing for you to follow. you hesitated briefly before settling next to him.
âmr kim,â the old man greeted gruffly. his eyes shifted to you, studying your face. âi see you brought someone.â
hongjoong gave a nod, glancing at you. âintroduce yourself, brat.â
âoh uh-â you put out your hand reluctantly, forcing a polite smile. âiâm â____â.â
the old manâs eyes narrowed before they widened in realisation. âher father-â
â-iâm glad you noticed,â hongjoong cut in. he slowly reached into his blazer again, but this time, he actually pulled out his pistol.Â
your eyes widened as he aimed it to your waist, the cold metal brushing your side. âwha-â
âw-what are you doing?â the old manâs face drained of colour, panic flashing in his eyes.Â
hongjoong tilted his head. âletâs negotiate.â
âmr kim-â the old man began, his voice cracking. âas his friend, you do understand that i have to tell him sheâs here.â
âdo it,â hongjoong shrugged, leaning back. his arm returned to your waist, pulling you to him as he tapped the gun against your side.Â
âletâs see if he values his money more than his own daughter.â
HOUR 18 OF 7 - LIFE ISNâT FAIR
a loud crash echoed through the venue, making you jump. the sound of heavy footsteps grew violent with every second.
hongjoongâs hand tightened around your waist as he stood, dragging you up with him. âmove.â
âwait-!â the old man called after you, but hongjoong didnât stop.
his grip on you was firm, the barrel of his gun pressing against your stomach. you tripped over your feet, struggling to keep up his pace.
âwhere are you taking me?â you panicked as you glanced over your shoulder at the armed men closing in.
âto your father, princess,â he sneered, his voice mockingly sweet.Â
âmr kim! stop right there!âÂ
you froze, whipping your head around. standing at the far end of the room, infront of a small army of armed men, was your father.Â
âlet go of my daughter,â your father ordered. he pointed a gun directly at hongjoong, his men following suit.Â
your eyes glanced around the room - seeing guests cowering against the walls, some injured and others dead.
âiâm not giving up the brat until i get what i want,â hongjoong demanded.
âwhat you want is an impossible amount of money!â your father yelled, his grip on his gun tightening.
âimpossible?â hongjoongâs eyes widened with craze. âyou have more than $500 million tied to your name! did you think iâll forget who you killed to get here?â
your blood ran cold. âdad.. you killed people?â you asked, your voice trembling as you looked at him.
for a split second, your fatherâs eyes softened, though that quickly disappeared with a scoff.
âif i didnât, you wouldnât have a roof over your head,â your father spat. âyou were too stubborn to do anything after you dropped med school.â
the world seemed to tilt, your fatherâs words more piercing than any bullet. âbut i didnât-â
â-you did,â your father interrupted you. âi spent all that money bribing them just for you to fuck up.â
your heart sank as tears welled in your eyes. hongjoong noticed your reaction, his grip on the gun loosening slightly.Â
âiâd appreciate it if you didnât make my hostage cry,â he said. âdo you really want those to be your last words to her?â
âshut up,â your father snarled, his finger close to the trigger. âiâll say what i want. sheâs too stupid to argue back anyway.â
the tears you held back spilled over and all you could hear was your dad shouting, âget her!â
HOUR 18.5 OF 7 - THEY WANT YOU SOO BAD
gunshots were heard in every direction, completely deafening.Â
the pungent smell of gunpowder burned your nose as you stumbled, your legs barely holding you up. hongjoong shoved you to the ground, his hand against your back.Â
âstay down,â he ordered you, raising his gun and firing without hesitation.
you flinched with every shot, watching in horror as armed men fell one by one with his aim. the world felt like it was spinning too fast and you could barely keep up.
suddenly, a hand grabbed your arm.
âstop moving!â your father yelled, his grip painful as he dragged you towards the exit.
âno!â you choked out, your heels digging into the floor in an attempt to resist. panic ran through your veins as your eyes darted around desperately.
your eyes landed on a fallen gun near your feet. you quickly snatched it, hands trembling as you tried to point it towards him.
âdonât make me do this!â you cried.
your father didnât stop and without thinking-
-you pulled the trigger.
a bang was heard, followed by his rough scream as he collapsed to the floor, clutching his bleeding thigh.
âoh my god,â you whispered, the gun slipping from your hands as tears flowed uncontrollably down your cheeks. you sank to the floor, staring at the blood pouring out of him.
âyou bitch!â he shouted in pain.
out of the corner of your eye, you caught hongjoong watching you, something strange flashing across his face. was that.. surprise? pride? maybe he was impressed?
hongjoong fired a shot at an armed man without looking, moving to you quickly.Â
âdidnât think you had it in you, pretty,â he looked over his shoulder. âbut we need to leave.â
he led you to a small janitorâs closet near the exit. the narrow space smelled of bleach, but at least it was quiet.
hongjoong shut the door behind you and dusted off his blazer. without a word, his dark eyes inspected you, checking your shoulders and arms.
you stood motionless, too shocked to stop him as he gently tilted your chin up, his thumb wiping away the mascara-stained tears from your cheeks.
ânothing broken,â he muttered, more to himself than to you. âno scars either..â
he pulled out a burner phone, typing something quickly.
âi- i just shot my dad,â your shoulders shook as new tears welled up in your eyes.
hongjoong glanced up from the phone, meeting your eyes. â..are you bragging?â he asked bluntly.
âwhat? heâs my dad-â
â-and heâs a dick,â hongjoong cut you off. âyou might share blood, but that man clearly hates you.â
you hiccuped, wiping your eyes with the back of your hand. â...am i going to hell?â
hongjoong scoffed. âcome on-â he began, but stopped himself when he looked at you and the tears spilling from your eyes. âyou didnât kill him⌠youâre fine.âÂ
you opened your mouth to protest but he silenced you as he continued typing. âand even if you did,â he added. âyouâre doing the world a favour.â
he smashed the burner phone onto the ground, discarding the pieces. he reloaded his pistol before turning back to you, wrapping his arm around your shoulders as he led you through bodies and debris.
outside, a black van waited by the curb. hongjoong pushed you inside before climbing in after you, slamming the door shut behind him.
âdrive,â he ordered.
as the street lights went past you, you slumped in your seat, completely exhausted. âwhere are we going?â you asked softly.
hongjoong studied you for a moment, watching your eyelids go heavy. â...go to sleep, brat.â
DAY 2 - OH HONEY I'M HOME
you woke up with a jolt. you sat up from the couch you laid down on, completely disoriented. your eyes darted around the dimly lit room. the hideout.Â
relief and fear spread within you. you were safe - for now.
just then, a knock from the doorway made you jump. âdidnât mean to scare you,â a man said, leaning against the frame. âboss wanted me to check on you.â
you blinked. âi- okay,â you coughed to clear your throat, wincing at how dry it felt.
âiâll let him know youâre awake.â
and with that, he disappeared down the hall, leaving you alone once more.
though that didnât last long. moments later, hongjoong entered. he carried a stool over, setting it down across from you before sitting.Â
âhow long did i sleep?â you asked hoarsely.
âa day,â he replied with a shrug.
your eyes widened. it was only then you noticed your attire - a baggy t-shirt replacing the outfit you were wearing before.
âwho changed me?â you blurted out, heat rising to your cheeks.
âi did,â hongjoong answered. he noticed your flustered expression, tilting his head. âwhat?â
âdid you-â you cleared your throat. âdid you see anything?â
âiâm not a pervert,â he scoffed. âif it makes you feel better, you were changed in the dark.â
you fell into an awkward, heavy silence as you sat across each other. for the first time, there was no danger, no gunfire or anyone yelling out orders. just silence.
âyour dad..â hongjoong began, speaking up. âwants you dead.â
â...what?â
he held up a cassette tape, tossing it onto the table between you, your hands trembling as you picked it up. hongjoong then brought out a cassette tape player, allowing you to hear your fatherâs voice.
âmr kim, weâve had our ups and downs, but iâm sure that we can agree on one thing - that bitch who shot my thigh is a liability. an idiot that made it this far because of me. sheâs no longer my responsibility or family, so expect to find her head on a stick when you turn your back. have fun.â
âwhat the fuck..â you whispered shakily as it came to an end.Â
âto be honest, your only purpose was to be a hostage.â hongjoongâs fingers drummed the edge of the stool. âand now that he doesnât want you.. youâre useless-â
the world around you crumbled, his words making you feel worse.Â
â-to him.â
your eyes widened, looking at him in confusion.
âyouâre smart,â he shrugged. âand you stitched me.â
you blinked. ââŚwhere are you going with this?âÂ
âi want you to be an addition to my team,â he replied.
âdo i have to kill people?â you blurted out. âor steal, or-â
âno,â hongjoong raised a hand to cut you off. âall youâll be doing is treating my injured men. quite the opposite of killing.â
you frowned, furrowing your eyebrows. âwhy would you trust me with that?â
âbecause,â he said, leaning forward. âyou have nowhere else to go.â
âthatâs not true-â
âreally?â hongjoong smirked. âdo you know how many businesses your dad owns?â
you shook your head.
âmore than 80% in the country,â his eyes sparkled with something dark. ânow that youâve shot him, youâve burnt every bridge heâs built for you.â
your jaw dropped. âbut-â
âno job, no family, nowhere to live either since he owns most of the real estate here.â
you stared at him, struggling to process his words.
âhereâs my offer,â hongjoong continued. âyou get a decent amount of money, a place to live and protection...â
â...just to treat people?â you asked in disbelief.
he nodded.Â
you bit your lip, staring at the floor as you picked at your nails. how could your dad do this to you? abandoning you just like that? and now he wanted you dead? you could feel yourself getting angry just thinking about him.
after a long moment, you lifted your head, meeting his gaze. âdeal.âÂ
MONTH 1 - FAMILY BONDINGÂ
that evening, you sat on the floor with san, wooyoung and yeosang, eating a batch of cheap instant noodles. it was a little awkward - mostly because you just joined, but you were silently appreciating their efforts to make small talk with you.Â
suddenly, a loud bang was heard through the hideout. the three men jumped up immediately, pulling guns and knives from who knows where.Â
âback entrance?â wooyoung asked as he sharpened his knives.Â
your heart raced as you watched the three of them shift into combat mode - and you caught yourself lagging behind. you hurriedly stood up and grabbed the medical kit you kept close.Â
âstay here,â san said firmly.Â
you shook your head. âif someoneâs injured, iâm coming.â
the three of them shared a look before yeosang gave you a reluctant nod. ââŚjust stay behind us. weâll get in trouble if you get hurt.â
they moved swiftly and silently through the narrow halls of the hideout, weapons in hand. you trailed closely, your heart pounding as you gripped the medical kit tightly.Â
when you reached the back entrance, san motioned you to stay back while they checked the door.Â
the signs of forced entry were obvious - the lock was broken and scuff marks lined the floor.Â
wooyoung scoffed, speaking under his breath. âstupid piglets.â
yeosang sighed. âlooks like they took a few weapons and left.â
âare they testing us?â san asked, inspecting a footprint on the ground.Â
before anyone could respond, the door slammed open making all of you jump. you turned to see mingi, his chest heaving as he leaned against the door frame.Â
âmeeting. now.â
âŤâŤâŤâŤâŤâŤ
the hideoutâs âmeeting roomâ was more of a cramped closet with mismatched chairs and a comically large table in the middle. hongjoong paced at the end of the room, his jaw clenched.Â
âwe canât stay here any longer,â he began. âitâs only a matter of time before they come back in full force.â
hongjoong stopped pacing and crossed his arms. âwe need to move back to our old apartments. theyâre scattered enough to keep us hidden until we figure out our next move.â
you shifted uncomfortably.Â
hongjoong noticed this. âwhat?â he asked, his sharp eyes landing on you.Â
âi uh-â you hesitated. âi donât have a home..â you said sheepishly.Â
hongjoong raised an eyebrow.Â
âmy dad owns the house,â you admitted. âand thatâs not really an option anymore.â
âright,â hongjoong sighed, running a hand through his hair. âshit..â
âalright, who has space?â he clapped, glancing around the room.Â
everyone exchanged uneasy looks.Â
âwe donât,â yeosang said, gesturing to himself, san, wooyoung and jongho. âthe four of us are already crammed into one place.â
âsame here,â yunho spoke up. âmingi and i barely fit in ours.â
hongjoong turned to seonghwa, his face hopeful.Â
âno,â seonghwa said without hesitation.Â
a heavy sigh escaped hongjoong as he pinched the bridge of his nose. he leaned against the table, deep in thought.Â
minutes stretched into what felt like hours before hongjoong finally spoke up. âyouâre coming with me,â he said, looking directly at you.Â
your eyes widened in surprise. â..what?â
âyouâre staying at my place.â
âŤâŤâŤâŤâŤâŤ
the car sped down the (somewhat) empty highway, the faint smell of vanilla from the air freshener mixing with the lingering scent of old fast food.Â
you gripped the edge of your seat as the streetlights ran by the window in a blur. âare we in a rush?â you nervously glanced at hongjoong.Â
âno,â he replied flatly.Â
there was a black car beside you that had been keeping pace for the past few minutes - and just as you shifted in your seat, it suddenly swerved infront of your car and slammed the brakes.Â
âwhat the-â you barely managed to say before the impact. the car jolted violently as it hit the one ahead, the sound of metal crunching loud.Â
hongjoong let out a low string of curses under his breath. his face was weirdly calm as he unbuckled his seatbelt, stepping out of the car without a word.Â
âwait-â you scrambled to undo your own seatbelt.Â
from your seat, you saw him approaching the car. the moment he glanced inside, his eyes widened. he reached for his gun and pulled the trigger instantly.Â
the loud gunshot made you flinch and your stomach twisted as you saw the slumped figure in the driverâs seat, blood splattered across the windshield.Â
your heart pounded as you stumbled out of the car, rushing towards him. âwhy did you do that?!â
hongjoong turned to you, his jaw clenched. âit was a piglet.â
âwha-â your eyes drifted to the body, a shiver going down your spine as you saw the bullet hole clean through the skull.Â
hongjoong, completely unfazed, went back to the car. you stared at the lifeless body for a moment longer before hurriedly following him.Â
once you were back inside, you swallowed the lump in your throat, attempting to break the suffocating silence. ââŚ.how did you know he was a piglet?â
hongjoong didnât respond immediately. his fingers flexed against the steering wheel as he glanced at you.Â
âthey have a bullet tattoo..â he said finally, pulling down his collar to point to his collarbone. â..right here.â
you blinked. âoh.â
âif you ever come across one,â he continued. âkill them on sight.â
your eyes widened, your throat tightening. âwhat about the police?â
he fell silent for a second, his eyes fixed on the road. then, a faint smirk crossed his face. âyou donât need to worry about them.â
his answer left you unsettled, but before you could question him further, the apartment building came into view. it was modern - standing tall with the city skyline.Â
hongjoong smoothly pulled into the parking lot. the abruptness of the stop sent you forward, but his hand shot out instinctively, pressing against you to keep you steady.Â
âsorry,â he muttered, his voice soft - though he didnât look at you as he retracted his arm.Â
âŤâŤâŤâŤâŤâŤ
some might describe hongjoongâs apartment as âminimalisticâ, but to you, itâs just an excuse for a grown man to avoid decorating.Â
the walls were devoid of any art or family photos, the kitchen was spotless - though it was definitely untouched with how there was almost no food in the fridge. and from what you saw, the only source of entertainment was a lone TV.Â
âdo you..â you began, looking around the bare space. âdo you even live here?â
hongjoong ignored your comment and walked towards the big couch and began to pull it into a makeshift bed. the springs creaked slightly as he unfolded it. âthis is where youâll be sleeping,â he said, dusting himself off.Â
âcool.â
âdonât complain-â he stopped himself mid-sentence and narrowed his eyes when he realised what you said. âwait, youâre okay with this?â
you blinked. ââŚyeah?â
âhm,â he said, slightly surprised. he looked you up and down before turning to the long hallway. âget some rest, weâre getting you a phone tomorrow.â
MONTH 2 - LIVE LAUGH LOVE GUNS
you shouldâve known it wouldnât be long before the piglets attacked you again.Â
hongjoong sent you on a simple supply run - nothing unusual. but as you stood in the small pharmacy, you felt the air shift when the cashierâs demeanour turned cold.Â
it all happened so fast.Â
the moment you saw the gun aimed at your chest, your eyes fell to the faint outline of a bullet tattoo peeking out from his collarbone. great.Â
your breath hitched as your body moved on impulse. you barely avoided the first shot as you ducked behind the display rack.Â
the pharmacy was strangely empty, no one else to intervene. your heart pounded as the sounds of footsteps and gunshots echoed.Â
fumbling with your phone, you dialed every number you could think of. yet, no one answered.Â
your hands trembled as you typed hongjoongâs number, your last resort.Â
he picked up after one ring.Â
âthis better be important, brat,â he grumbled, groggy like he just woke up.Â
âi need help-â you semi-yelled as you narrowly dodged another shot, darting behind the counter. âiâm getting attacked-â
â-send your location,â hongjoong interrupted. âiâm on my way.â
the line went dead before you could respond.Â
you sent your location and shoved the phone back into your pocket. the cashier reloaded the gun, his footsteps growing louder. and just as you moved, he charged.Â
he grabbed you, trying to pin you down. you barely managed to fight back, until you made an educated attack - kicking him in the groin.Â
he groaned, stumbling back. you took the opportunity to snatch the gun from his hands.Â
you pointed it at him, your hands shaking. âstay back,â your voice cracked.Â
the man scoffed. âover my dead body,â he lunged at you again.Â
your finger moved instinctively, pulling the trigger.Â
once.Â
twice.Â
again and again and again.Â
the sound of gunfire rang in your ears, the recoil sending waves through your arms. you didnât stop until you heard a clicking noise that meant that the gun was empty.Â
when you opened your eyes, he was no longer standing.Â
you looked down, the cashier laying sprawled on the ground, the concrete dark with blood. bullet holes littered his body, evidence of your frantic shots.Â
you dropped to your knees, your chest heaving. you reached out to check his pulse. nothing.
you just took someoneâs life.Â
your eyes fell to your hands, bloody and shaking. from young, you always wanted to save lives - not take them. tears fell from your eyes, blurring your vision.Â
the door slammed open.Â
hongjoong stood in the doorway. he took in the body on the floor and your frozen form in a single glance. he sighed, stepping in.Â
âcome on, letâs go,â he crouched to grab your arm.Â
you couldnât move, your eyes fixed on the lifeless body.Â
âhey,â his fingers gripped your jaw, tilting your face to meet his. his eyes were intense, his touch warm against your cold skin. âwe need to leave before more show up. you donât want to kill anyone else, do you?â
you shook your head quickly.Â
he pulled you to your feet, wrapping his arm around yours as he guided you to his car. the ride back was silent as you stared out of the window.Â
and before you knew it, you were back at his apartment.Â
you hesitated at the door, unable to bring yourself to step inside.Â
hongjoong sighed, grabbing your wrist as he tugged you in. he tossed his gun and his keys in the kitchen counter before turning to you.Â
âgo take a long shower. iâll be in the living room.â
you nodded, moving to the bathroom in a daze.Â
the water was scalding as it hit your skin. no amount of soap or scrubbing would ever make you feel clean from the bloodied-stains. every part of your body felt foreign - even your puffy eyes and lips.
once you were done, you dressed in the softest clothes you had, hoping that it would provide you with some form of comfort (it didnât).
the pull-out couch was prepared with brand-new pillows and fluffy blankets when you returned to the living room. hongjoong sat on the edge, gesturing for you to sit. you sank down beside him.Â
the silence stretched on until it became unbearable.Â
you spoke up, your voice barely audible. ââŚi killed someone.â
âyou did,â he nodded. âgood job.â
your head snapped up, your eyes wide. âi killed someone.â
âand so have i,â hongjoong leaned forward, his elbows resting on his knees. âdoes that bother you?â
âiâŚâ
he leaned back. âit should. the first time always does.â
âi donât think i can do this,â you breathed out shakily. âi donât want to hurt people..â
the two of you locked eyes for what felt like ages. you could see hongjoongâs adam's apple bob up and down, his jaw tightening slightly. âno one wants to hurt people,â he replied softly.Â
you blinked.Â
âi shouldnât have sent you out alone, especially with your dad targeting you,â he sighed. âthatâs on me.â
âbut-â
â-though i do have to say, this made me realise how.. unprepared you are,â he continued.
your eyebrows furrowed.Â
âif you want to survive, you need to know how to defend yourself,â he drummed his fingers against the couch. â...youâre off supply runs. from now on, youâre training with the others.â
you stared at him. âwhat?â
âthe rest have some âscheduleâ for training. iâm sure you can join without any problems.â
you hesitated. the thought of the blood, the body, the gun in your hands made you nauseous. the idea of training scared you.Â
he noticed this, his eyes softening slightly. âyou wonât be a killer, just someone capable of self-defense.â
you swallowed the lump in your throat. finally, you nodded, your voice small. âokay.â
MONTH 3 - LETâS GO GAMBLING!
the casino was glitzy and loud with copyright-free music, its neon lights casting eerie shadows on the dark streets outside.Â
âyou three, cover left. you two, check the vault. the rest of you will stay near the exit,â hongjoong ordered.
you waited for your assignment, expecting to be grouped with someone. instead, hongjoong said, âyouâre with me.â
you sighed. âalright.â
you followed hongjoong to the right side of the casino, the sounds of laughter and clinking glasses filling the space. he moved silently, keeping his gun concealed but ready. you tried to mimic his focus, clutching the knife wooyoung lent you earlier.
the first sign of trouble came when the alarms blared.
armed men swarmed into the casino. piglets.
hongjoong moved first, taking them down in a single shot. you ducked behind a pillar, your heart pounding.
the fight moved fast. hongjoong was precise - he wasnât even touchable, killing the men easily.
but that was when you saw it before he did: a piglet creeping up behind him, raising and aiming the gun to his head.
âboss!â
without hesitation, you hurled wooyoungâs knife to the piglet.
the knife pierced and plunged into his neck, causing the man to fall, his gun clattering to the ground.Â
hongjoong whipped his head around with wide eyes, shooting the man infront of him before spinning to kill the piglet you just hit.
the silence that followed was deafening.
hongjoongâs breathing was heavy as he lowered his weapon. he dusted his clothes off, looking at you with an unreadable expression.
he gulped, finally speaking up. â...good job, pretty.âÂ
âŤâŤâŤâŤâŤâŤ
slowly, everyone regrouped in the corner, collapsing onto the floor in a circle. bottles of water were passed around as everyone caught their breaths.
for a while, no one spoke, the only sounds being an occasional groan.
âhey,â wooyoung hiccuped, breaking the silence as he turned to you. âgive me my knife back.â
you looked at him awkwardly before handing him his completely bloody and dented knife - basically ruined.
âwhat the hell!â he exclaimed. âthat was one of my favourites!â
you shrugged. âyou shouldnât have given it to me then.â
âi didnât know you were actually gonna use it,â wooyoung complained. âi thought you would just watch.â
âyouâre such a dick,â you rolled your eyes.
wooyoung leaned in closer - his voice annoyingly sweet. âaw, donât be mad, sweetheart. iâll get you a better knife- one that wonât bend in your delicate fucking hands.â
âshut up,â you groaned, shoving him lightly as the others chuckled.
hongjoong leaned against the wall, his arm crossed over his chest. his eyes shifted from wooyoung to you.Â
his chest tightened in a now-familiar way: youâre fitting in too well.
it wasnât jealousy - at least, thatâs what he told himself. it was about control. your presence was a distraction he didnât account for. but the others took you in so easily, which was technically a good thing, right?
and yet...
why did his stomach twist every time one of them smiled at you?
hongjoong blinked, realising how his leg was bouncing restlessly. he forced himself to stop, sighing deeply.
âyou good, boss?â yunho asked.
hongjoong paused. â...iâm fine.â
yunho raised an eyebrow but didnât question it, turning away.
hongjoongâs eyes returned to you. you were leaning a little too close to yeosang now, laughing at some joke wooyoung said - sending a strange pang through his chest.
why did this bother him so much?
you werenât doing anything wrong. you were building trust, meshing with the group - just like he expected.
but this wasnât about the group, was it?
he frowned, thinking. you stitched him right after he kidnapped you, you saved him from getting shot even though you were definitely not ready to fight.
what has he ever done for you?
introduced you to a world of crime? to a world of killing, stealing and hatred? accidentally ruined the relationship between you and your dad?
hongjoong closed his eyes, pinching the bridge of his nose.
shit.
âŤâŤâŤâŤâŤâŤ
without bothering to change, you sank into the pull-out couch - exhaustion pulling you to it like gravity.
you heard hongjoong locking the door behind him, the soft click sounding loud in the quiet apartment. his footsteps shuffled toward the kitchen, the sounds of cabinets opening and closing reaching your ears. you were way too tired to look.
you didnât realise you drifted off until you were awoken by something heavy on your body.
your eyes fluttered open groggily. for a moment, you thought you were dreaming. hongjoong was in the middle of draping a large blanket on you.
âwhat are you doing?â you mumbled, your voice thick with sleep.
his eyes darted to yours briefly. ânothing.â
you frowned, shifting to sit up - but he placed a hand on your shoulder, pressing you gently back down. âsleep.â
you let out a quiet sigh. âshouldnât you be sleeping?â you muttered.
he paused, his jaw tensing. â....tomorrow onwards, youâre training with me.â
you stared at him, stunned. before you could even say anything, he turned and walked away without a word.
âŚdid your boss just tucked you in?
MONTH 3.5 -Â PUNCH, KICK, SNARE
âagain,â hongjoong said, slightly out of breath.Â
the living room felt smaller than usual with the two of you moving around. the coffee table and couch was pushed aside, leaving just enough space to practice your punches without tripping over the furniture. he claimed training here would teach you how to âfight in tight quartersâ.
he sighed. âyour moves are sloppy.â
you groaned, shaking your aching wrists. âiâm trying.â
âthatâs not enough when someoneâs aiming a gun at your head,â he replied, stepping back and raising hands. âyour punches are too weak and your balance is all over the place. reset your stance.â
you rolled your eyes but obeyed, repositioning your feet. it wasnât the first time youâve heard those words from him.
hongjoong moved closer, tapping your wrist. âkeep your guard up. always.â
you threw another punch, but it barely made his hands move. he lowered them, sighing. âthatâs not going to hurt anyone-â
â-iâm doing my best, okay?â you snapped. âiâm not a fast learner.â
his eyes softened for a moment before narrowing again. âthatâs not an excuse when your life is on the line.â
you tsked. he was right of course, but that didnât make it easier to hear.
âagain.â
you tried once more, throwing a combination of punches that he blocked with ease. when you attempted a kick, you stumbled, nearly losing your footing.
he caught you instinctively, his hands steadying you.
âwatch your balance,â he said automatically, going on a tangent on how training is important and blahblahblah.Â
you tried to focus on your surroundings, on the words he was saying, but it was hard to ignore the proximity between you. the smell of his cologne mixed with the faint smell of sweat in the room. his touch wasnât rough or aggressive like youâd expect - it was gentle.
your eyes drifted to his face, catching the faint scars along his cheekbones and jawline. were those always there? or was this the first time you really noticed?
his brows furrowed, likely in frustration at your lack of response, but the concern in his eyes snapped you back into reality, making you realise that you were staring the whole time.
âi donât think iâm cut out for this,â the words spilled out before you could stop them.
hongjoong paused, his lips parting slightly - he wasnât expecting you to say that. for a moment, he was silent. he then leaned in, his eyes piercing.Â
âyou donât get to quit.â
the intensity of his voice made you forget about the aches in your muscles and the sweat dripping down your back. his words werenât angry - they were commanding.Â
âwhy do you even care?â you whispered, barely audible.
his grip on your arms loosened slightly, his eyes searching yours for what felt like eternity. then out of nowhere, he stepped back, clearing his throat as he avoided your gaze. âtake five,â he mumbled, walking to the kitchen.
MONTH 5 - BLOOD, BLOOD AND MORE BLOOD
the office building looked ordinary. if you didnât know any better, youâd think it was just another corporate HQ. but you knew better.
and so did hongjoong.
you held up the new knife wooyoung gave you, one that wasnât as pretty as the last. it was finally the day you ambushed your dad, the man thatâs been wanting you dead for months.
you looked up to face hongjoong. âi donât want to see it,â you said suddenly.
he raised an eyebrow. âsee what?â
âwhen you kill him. my dad,â you clarified, your throat tightening. âiâm.. okay with it, but i donât want to see it.â
his eyes studied you. after a moment, he nodded. âmake sure to stay close to me,â he said before turning to the building.
âŤâŤâŤâŤâŤâŤ
the group slipped into the building through the side. hongjoong led the way, gripping his pistol tightly as you stayed close behind him.
âelevators are too risky,â hongjoong looked back at the group. âweâll take the stairs.â
the group nodded, their weapons drawn as they moved quietly through the halls. the fluorescent lights did nothing to mask the sinister aura that was buried in the walls.
when you reached the stairwell, the sound of footsteps echoing above sent everyone into high alert.
the first shot rang out.
gunfire filled the stairwell. the air was thick with smoke and gunfire. you pressed yourself against the wall, trying to avoid all of the attacks happening around you. you tried to go in to fight but-
-someone grabbed you.
you struggled, twisting out of their grasp. but before you could scream, a hand clamped over your mouth, dragging you away. âstay still.â
âŤâŤâŤâŤâŤâŤ
the stench forced your eyes open - a horrid mix of stale cigar smoke and alcohol. the office was dimly lit and your father crouched infront of you, his face smug as he cornered you.
âyou think youâre better than me, donât you?â he sneered.
you glared at him, your heart pounding. âfuck off.â
a bitter laugh escaped his lips. âyouâve gotten worse since you joined that boy,â he spat. âshould i cut off your tongue? unhinge your jaw? or maybe iâll be basic and shoot you.â
âyouâre insane,â your stomach twisted. âitâs hard to believe weâre related, especially with how ugly you are.â
âyou-â
before he could finish, you jammed wooyoungâs knife into his other thigh, dragging it down to create a large gash. he let out a guttural scream, stumbling into a desk as his pants turned a dark red.
you moved quickly, scrambling out of the corner, but two piglets grabbed you before you could get far.
âstupid bitch,â your father hissed, forcing himself up as he took out the knife in his thigh, looking directly at you. âyouâre going to regret that.â
âŤâŤâŤâŤâŤâŤ
as hongjoong shot another piglet with his pistol, he looked around the haze, searching for a certain someone. âwhereâs â____â?â he asked.
the group stayed silent.
âshit- we donât know,â wooyoung said nervously.
hongjoongâs face darkened - and without hesitation, he grabbed a nearby piglet by the collar, slamming him against the wall. âwhereâs your boss?â he snarled.
the piglet squirmed. âi- i have a family!â
hongjoongâs grip on his collar tightened, his eyes widening scarily. âthen bring me to him.â
âŤâŤâŤâŤâŤâŤ
âyour mother shouldâve gotten the abortion,â your father said before settling down infront of you, the bloody knife close to your face. âthen my money wouldnât be wasted on cunts like you.â
âiâm surprised that you got a woman like her to fuck you,â you breathed out shakily as the blade hit your skin.Â
âi guess you inherited her bitchiness.â
the door burst open as the knife grazed your skin. hongjoong stepped in, his gun raised. âlet go of her,â he ordered.
the piglets hesitated, glancing between your father and hongjoong. your fatherâs hand didnât move, a scar forming on your face.Â
âyou want her that badly?â your father asked mockingly. âyouâre becoming soft.â
hongjoong didnât answer. instead, he moved faster than you thought was possible, shooting the two piglets that held you with ease.
the bodies hit the ground - causing your father to shove you harshly against the wall. pain shot through your body as you heard something crack.
hongjoong froze, his pistol trained on your dad.Â
âstay back,â your father warned, hovering the blade near your temple.
hongjoongâs jaw clenched. he dropped his gun slightly, making your father relax.
but then hongjoong lunged.
the fight was brutal, all punches and grunts. you slumped against the wall, your cheek bleeding uncontrollably as every part of your body ached.
after what felt like ages, hongjoong finally gained the upper hand, pinning your dad down as he pointed the gun to his head. but then his eyes landed on yours, wide and terrified - making him freeze.
âshit,â he cursed under his breath, lowering the gun. he turned and rushed to you, pulling you into his arms.
your father tried to crawl away, but hongjoong didnât let him go far. with you in his embrace, he covered your eyes and ears tightly as the sound of a singular gunshot echoed in the room.
you clung to him, your tears soaking into his shirt. his hand cradled the back of your head, his touch soft. âitâs over,â he whispered as you sobbed.
you shook your head against his chest, the salt in your tears stinging the cut on your cheek. âi almost died.â
âi know,â he said softly. âbut i wouldnât let that happen.â
his words settled over you like a warm blanket. you pulled back slightly, your eyes searching his face. you could feel the heat of his body as he kept you close.
hongjoong shifted, his hands moving to your shoulders as he looked at you carefully. his thumb brushed over your scar, wiping away the trail of blood on your face.
âyouâre shaking,â his eyebrows furrowed. âyou need to breathe.â
âiâm trying.â
he reached for a nearby chair and pulled it over, guiding you to sit. hongjoong crouched infront of you, your hands trembling in his.
âyouâre safe,â his eyes locked onto yours. âiâve got you.â
something inside you cracked at his words - and tears spilled once more. hongjoong didnât say anything, but his presence was enough. he stayed crouched infront of you, letting you take all the time you needed.
when you finally looked up, there was something unspoken in his eyes - a mix of guilt and relief that made your heart ache. â...thank you,â you whispered.
his lips parted like he wanted to say something, but the words never came. instead, he nodded slowly, his grip on your hands tightening for a moment before letting go.
at that moment, you leaned forward, closing the small distance between you. your lips brushed against his, just enough to make his entire body stiffen.
for a second, you thought you made a mistake. his hands paused midair and his breathing hitched.
but then, he moved. to you.Â
his hands cupped your face gently, pulling you closer into a kiss. it was slow at first, but when you gripped his shirt tightly - the feelings heâd been keeping were let loose.
his lips pressed against yours with urgency. his fingers tangled in your hair, holding you like you might disappear if he let go.Â
you responded instinctively. your hands found his neck, his jaw - brushing over them softly in a way that made him groan. âfuck- youâre so pretty.â
the world around you spun in swirls of blood, smoke and cologne, overwhelming you in a way that made you lose your breath.
hongjoong broke away for a moment, panting slightly. his lips curled into a smirk, before he kissed you again, softer this time but no less intense. it was grounding, reassuring and impossibly warm.
when the two of you pulled back, his thumb traced your scar. âthis..â he began quietly. â..this isnât what i expected tonight.â
you let out a soft, shaky laugh. âme neither.â
he pecked your forehead as he stood up, his legs slightly wobbly from the kiss. hongjoong held out a hand, helping you to your feet. â...letâs go home.â
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BONUS SCENE - MINE
the apartment was quiet as you laid on the pull-out couch, staring at the ceiling. sleep wasnât coming - your mind was too busy replacing the events earlier.
the memory of hongjoongâs arms around you stayed, along with the feeling of his lips on yours. how could a man as dangerous as him bring you such comfort?
a soft knock against the wall broke the silence.
you sat up slowly, seeing hongjoong standing in the hallway. his hair was slightly damp and he wore a loose black hoodie, the sleeves pushed up to his elbows. he hesitated before walking to you, his movements weirdly awkward.
â...you okay?â you asked the nervous man.
he shrugged, trying to play it off as he sat next to you. âiâm fine. you?â
âiâve been better.â
there was a pause as the two of you stared at each other, the silence heavy. finally, he cleared his throat, shifting uncomfortably.
âiâve been thinking..â hongjoong trailed off.
âuh-oh.â
âi-itâs not a bad thing-â he said hurriedly. âitâs just that.. tonight made me think about a lot of things.â
you tilted your head, confused.
his voice softened as he continued. âbut this isnât just about tonight. itâs about.. everything. i donât want you to feel.. unsafe all the time.â
âi donât,â you said instantly, but youâre not sure how much you believed yourself.
he leaned back slightly, reaching into his hoodie pocket. when his hand reappeared, it was holding a pistol - his pistol, sleek and black.
âtake this,â he held it out to you.
you blinked, staring at the weapon. âwhat? why?â
âbecause itâs mine,â he replied simply leaving no room for argument. âand now, itâs ours.â
you hesitated, your hand hovering over the gun. âi.. i barely know how to use this.â
âthen iâll teach you.â
you looked up at him, searching his face for answers. â...why are you giving this to me?â
you noticed the way his eyes darted down as you looked at him, his fingers tightening around the pistol as he pushed it to you.Â
âbecause,â hongjoong began quietly. âi trust you.â
your fingers paused before finally closing around the gun. the cold metal felt deadly in your grasp, but the way his eyes lit up made your heart swell.
âyou trust me..?â you asked softly, a faint smile on your face. âhongjoong..â
his usual composure faltered as you said his name, a blush dusting his face. he swallowed the lump in his throat, gathering himself. âyouâre not just a part of the group,â he said. âyouâre more than that. to me.â
your eyebrows shot up, completely stunned. â...i donât know what to say.â
âsay yes.â
you blinked. âyes to what?â
âto being mine,â hongjoongâs hands fidgeted slightly.
your heart raced as you heard his words. a wide smile spread across your face as you realised what he was really asking.
âare you..â you paused. âare you asking me to be your girlfriend?â
his breath got caught in his throat as he nodded. âyeah.â
the man that was the literal leader of an entire gang, was sitting nervous infront of you. it was a funny sight to see, but you brought yourself back to reality, answering his question.
âyes.â
a wave of relief washed over his face as he let out the breath he seemed to be holding. he reached out, his fingers brushing yours briefly as he leaned closer. âwanna sleep in my bed tonight?â
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this series just keeps getting more and more interesting. Iâm curious of the aftermath now that hongjoong has left reader and Iâm curious when readerâs brother will show up.
keep up the great work and canât wait for the next chapter <3
Popular, Boy
â03: The first betrayal.
Pairing: Nerd!Hongjoong x Popular!Reader
Genre: +18, slow burn, angst, smut, drama, dark academic, love triangle.
wc: 8,6k
Summary: Tensions simmer as alliances fracture , and lines are crossed; forcing one unexpected figure to take a stand. But every choice has a price, and betrayal lurks where it's least expected.
Leaving friendship and loyalties hanging by a thread.
Warnings: Cursing, verbal abuse, public humiliation, emotional manipulation, power dynamics, fluff, SMUT (MDN!!) Sub!Hongjoong, Virgin!Hongjoong, oral (m receiving) cum eating, use of pet names (good boy) suggestive.
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â02 â04: The first surrender.
The next few days passed in a whirlwind of your world enveloping Hongjoong entirely.
On monday, you made a show of having Hongjoong walk you to class, your hand looped through his arm as if he were some prized accessory. Your laugh rang out in the hallway, over-exaggerated yet charming enough to keep everyoneâs attention firmly on you.
Hongjoong smiled sheepishly, still unsure how to navigate this new role. Despite your guidance, he couldnât shake the feeling of being out of place, like a puzzle piece forced into the wrong picture.
By Tuesday afternoon, your curiosity got the better of you.
"Youâre always talking about books and nerdy stuff." You teased, leaning against the libraryâs entrance "Show me whatâs so interesting about it."
He blinked in surprise, adjusting the strap of his backpack. He wasnât sure if you were serious or just looking for another way to flaunt your dominance. Still, the chance to share a piece of himself was oddly appealing.
"Uh, okay." He said, leading you to a quiet corner of the library.
You trailed behind, your heels clicking softly against the tiled floor. When you reached the shelves, Hongjoongâs demeanor shifted. His posture relaxed as he ran his fingers along the spines of the books, his face lighting up in a way you hadnât seen before.
"This oneâs incredible," He said, pulling a worn paperback from the shelf. The cover featured a pirate ship hurtling through the clouds. "Itâs about a crew exploring the universe, trying to find a new home after their planetâs destroyed. The writing is just⌠amazing."
You arched a brow, your manicured nails tapping lightly against the edge of a nearby table. "Sounds... intense."
"It is," Hongjoong replied eagerly, flipping through the pages "But itâs also about relationships and survival. Youâd like it, I think."
You leaned closer, taking the book from him, inspecting it like a rare artifact "You think Iâd like it? Bold assumption."
Hongjoong chuckled nervously "Well, maybe not the battles. But the characters⌠theyâre complicated, just like you."
Your lips curved into a smirk, and you handed the book back "Careful, Hongjoong. Youâre starting to sound charming."
You spent the next hour browsing, with Hongjoong pointing out his favorite authors and you occasionally picking up a book just to make a witty comment about its cover. It was strange, almost surreal.
YN Clarke, the queen bee, immersed in his world.
At one point, you plopped down on a cushioned chair and crossed your legs elegantly.
"Okay, impress me." You said, holding out a slim notebook you had pulled from your bag. He hesitated, then sat across from you, scribbling a quick sketch of the pirate ship heâd described earlier. He showed it to you shyly, half-expecting a sarcastic remark. Instead, you studied it thoughtfully. "Not bad," You admitted, handing it back "Maybe youâre not as boring as I thought."
Your words were teasing, but the tone was softer, almost approving.
For the first time, Hongjoong felt like you were seeing him, not as a project or a pawn, but as something more. But just as quickly as the moment came, it passed.
You stood, brushing imaginary dust off your skirt "Alright, nerd. Letâs go. Iâm starving."
"Where to?" He asked, slipping the notebook back into his bag.
"Back to my place," You said with a wink "You can show me more of your⌠fascinating hobbies while we snack."
As you left the library, Hongjoong couldnât help but feel a strange mix of pride and unease. Your approval was addictive, but at what cost?
That afternoon was spent at your house, watching movies or listening to music in your plush room. You sprawled out on your bed, phone in hand, while Hongjoong sat awkwardly on the edge.
"You can relax, you know," You teased, patting the space beside you.
He hesitated before joining you, feeling your warmth radiate beside him. You tilted your head to look at him, your lips curving into a soft, knowing smile.
"See? This isnât so bad."
By Wednesday, you had fully integrated Hongjoong into your routine. You sit with him at lunch, laughing at his jokes, and an odd sincerity in your gaze when you look at him.
For a moment, the lingering tension, the unspoken dynamics, and the ever-watchful shadow of Dann keeps Hongjoongâs heart uneasy, even as he tries to enjoy the fleeting comfort of your charm.
Little did you know, the world you were teetering on the edge of, was about to shift once again.
⎠â
That same day, the tension between Seonghwa and you had reached a boiling point. It wasnât just about your weird relationship anymore, it was about the power shift that Hwa couldnât ignore.
You had been spending all your time with the nerd, and he couldnât stand being sidelined.
At lunch, Seonghwa makes his move.
You are at your usual table, Hongjoong at your side, your heads bent close as you laugh over some private joke. His jaw tightens at the sight.
Without waiting for an invitation, he walks over, towering above you âYN,â He says curtly, his voice cutting through your laughter âWe need to talk.â
You barely glance up, your gaze cool. âAbout what?â
âAlone.â He insists, his tone sharp.
Your lips curl into a faint smirk âIf itâs so important, you can say it here.â
Seonghwaâs eyes flicks to Hongjoong, who stiffs slightly under his gaze âFine,â He says tightly, crossing his arms âWhatâs with you? Ever since the party, itâs been all about him.â He jerks his chin toward Hongjoong âYouâve barely said two words to me.â
âSo?â
Seonghwa let out a bitter laugh âYouâre unbelievable. I get it now. Heâs your new toy, right? Your latest project⌠Whatâs the plan, YN? To make him worship you till you get bored?â
Your eyes narrow as you rise slowly from your seat, meeting Seonghwa head-on âYouâve got some nerve, Park. Is this jealousy? Or are you just mad that youâre no longer the center of my world?â
He steps closer, his voice lowering but his words sharper âYou think Iâm mad because youâre ignoring me? No, Clarke. Iâm mad because I know you, and I know how this ends. You ignore me and then come back to me like nothing happened, it's tiring.â
âStop complaining, I can handle myself.â
âCan you?â Hwa shoots back, leaning in slightly, his voice dropping to a dangerous whisper. âWhat would your brother think if he knew about your little extracurricular activities? The drinking? The parties? The weed?â
Hongjoong frowns at his words. Brother? Do you have a brother?
Your composure cracks further. The mention of your older brother makes your stomach twist. You could almost feel the sting of his hand across your face, the disappointed look in his eyes as he coldly tells your parents everything.
âCareful, Hwa. You donât know what youâre talking about.â
âOh, I know plenty. Imagine if your brother finds out. Whatâs his name again? Oh, rightâMr. Perfect. He still thinks youâre his sweet, innocent little sister, doesnât he?â Seonghwa grinds, he isnât done âHow do you think he would react if he found out about all the bad things you've done since he left? Or better yet, how do you manipulate people and toss them aside like trash? Bet he wouldnât be too proud of his baby sister then.â
âYou wouldnât dare.â You say between your teeth, almost a murmur.
âOh, I would,â His grin gets bigger âHeâs abroad, isnât he? Perfect son, perfect man... but if he found out about all this?â He gestures vaguely around âHow long before he tells your parents? Or better yet, how long before he comes back and shows you what happens when you ruin his perfect family image?â
For a moment, all your confidence falters. Your heart racing at the memory of your brother⌠your parentsâ golden child, the one person you couldnât afford to disappoint. But you recover quickly, your smirk returning like armor.
âNice try, Seonghwa. But letâs not forget that you have secrets too. Drinking? Drugs? You think your parents wouldnât care? Youâre a Park. Your last name is everything. What would your father say if he knew his precious son was sneaking around doing God-knows-what? How long do you think that reputation of yours would last?â Hwaâs smirk froze, his confidence visibly shaken for the first time âThatâs what I thought,â You continue with an icy voice âSo donât come at me with fucking threats unless youâre prepared to deal with the fallout.â
He scoffs, his frustration evident as he turns and walks away âYouâll regret this.â He mutters under his breath before disappearing into the crowd.
As Seonghwa walks away, your mask slips for just a second, jaw clenching and your eyes flashing with anger and fear.
Hongjoong frowns confused âWhat was that about? Is he threatening you?â
You exhale sharply, brushing off his concern âDonât worry about it. Seonghwaâs all talk.â
But your voice lacks its usual conviction, and Hongjoong isn't entirely convinced.
As you return to your conversation, your mind churns, plotting your next move. Whatever it takes, youâd make sure your secrets stay buried.
⎠â
After lunch, your mood seemed lighter to anyone who didnât know you well, but Hongjoong could see the subtle tension in your shoulders, the slight edge to your voice.
You barely touched your food, and your eyes kept darting around the cafeteria, likely searching for Seonghwa.
As the bell rings and students begin to shuffle to their next classes, you grab Hogjoongâs arm, pulling him close
âWeâre skipping.â You announce, leaving no room for argument.
âWhat? YN, I canâtââ
âYou can, and you will.â You interrupt him, locking your gaze with his âI need to relax, and youâre going to help me. Now come on.â
Without waiting for a response, you drag him through the hallway, your grip firm as you lead him to a quiet, empty classroom on the far side of the building.
âYN, whatâs going on?â He asks as you close the door behind you, the soft click of the lock making his heart race.
You turn to face him, your expression unreadable for a moment before a sly smirk creeps into your lips.
âYouâre going to make me forget about Seonghwa and his stupid threats.â
Hongjoong blinks, caught off guard by your sudden shift in tone âWhat does that mean?â
âIt means,â You step closer to him, your fingers toying with the collar of his shirt âThat I need a distraction. And youâre it.â
His breath hitch as your hands slid to his chest âYN, I donât thinkââ
âStop thinking, Kim.â You whisper, lips brushing against his ear âJust do what I say.â
Before he can respond, you press yourself against him, your lips finding his in a heated kiss. His resolve crumbles almost instantly, his hands finding your hips as you deepen the kiss.
You push him back against the desk, movements confident and calculated. As you straddle him, your fingers trail teasingly along the waistband of his pants, your touch light but deliberate, as you glance up at him with a sly smirk.
He holds his breath for a sec, his hands gripping your hips tightly. He looks down at you, wide-eyed and unsure, but there is no mistaking the nervous excitement that flickers in his gaze.
âYouâre so tense, Joongie.â You purr with a soft but teasing tone âRelax. Iâll take care of everything.â
Your fingers toy with the fabric for a moment longer before tugging gently, letting his pants slide down his hips, and letting free his length already hard as a fuck.
Is he hard with just a few kisses? Cute
Taking a deliberate step closer, your hands gliding up his thighs as you position yourself between his legs, arching your back as you go down on your knees, your smirk growing as you notice the way his whole body tenses.
Hongjoongâs feels his face burning, his breath coming in short, shallow bursts as he struggles to meet your gaze. He swallows hard, trying to focus on breathing, but his chest feels tight, like all the air has been sucked out of the room.
He's never been in situations like this before, he doesn't know what to do. He doesn't know where to look, at your hands, at your face, at the classroom door, but his eyes keep drifting back to you, to you in a way he can't control.
He doesn't want to give you any more signs of his embarrassing virginity, but he can't help but feel tense.
âYou look like youâre about to pass out.â A soft chuckle leaves your lips, the panic in his eyes seems tender to you âRelax, babe. Just enjoy it.â
His voice cracks as he tries to respond, but all that comes out is a strangled sound. You raise an eyebrow, clearly enjoying his reaction. You let your hands glide up his sides, nails grazing his skin ever so lightly.
âDo you want me to suck you off?â You inquire, looking up, connecting your gaze with his. You wait patiently for an answer by stroking his skin with your fingertips.
Shit, Hongjoong doesn't want to accept it, but you look fucking cute that way.
Kneeling in front of him.
Hongjoongâs jaw drops slightly, and he nods so quickly it's almost comical âY-Yeah⌠please.â He stammers, his words barely audible.
âGood boy.â You murmur with a satisfied grin, your fingers brushing over his trembling hands as you guide one up to your head âHold on if you want. I donât mind.â
His touch is hesitant, his fingers barely tangling in your soft hair as if he is afraid to push too far. You roll your eyes with a playful smirk, your hands holding his thighs steady as you lean in.
His thick cock is firmly against his stomach, it has a deep shade of pink, and some pre-cum at the tip, its the prettiest dick you've ever seen.
Everything about Kim Hongjoong is pretty.
You hold the base, your fingers barely touching the skin, you start slow with kitty licks on the tip as you test his reactions. Hongjoongâs breaths come in uneven gasps, his chest rising and falling as he tries to process everything happening.
Your hands hold his thighs firmly, keeping him grounded, but his body seems to move on its own, shifting slightly as he instinctively searches for more.
He squeezes his eyes shut, biting his lip to keep from making a sound when suddenly you put all his length in your mouth, the warm feeling of your lips around his dick make his head spin in pleasure.
Soft whimpers escape him as he tilts his head back slightly, relaxing under your touch, enjoying the moment.
Fuck, he never understood why his male classmates always talked about blowjobs as if it were the best thing in the world, and now that he is in this situation, he understands them.
The warm feeling of your mouth around him, the wet sound that comes every time you bob your head, your hand stroking where your mouth can't reach, and the pleasure sounds you let out while savoring every little inch of his cock.
Goddammit! This is the best experience a virgin boy could have.
You glance up at him, relishing the way his head tilts back, his lips part, and his entire being is consumed by the sensation.
Every gasp, and every shaky exhale from his mouth feeds your ego.
âYouâre so easy to please.â You tease, pulling back just enough to flash him a knowing smile.
His voice is barely a whisper as he mutters.
âYN, IâŚâ
âShh.â
As you continue sucking him off, you caress his thighs, and try to enjoy every part of his length. Savoring every inch of his dick, the softness of his tip stroking the back of your throat, the taste of the pre-cum on your tongueâŚ
Fuck, youâre getting more than horny for this nerd.
Hongjoong feels himself nearing the edge, his breaths coming faster, his grip on your hair tightening just slightly causing you to whine. His whole body trembles, his hips moving involuntarily as he tries to hold on, but it's too much.
He is literally fucking your mouth, you couldn't be anything but happy, and your satisfied moan made it clear.
âFuck⌠I-Iâm close.â He whines with shaky breath, his hips moving a little faster.
You almost let out another whine when you hear him curse for the first time, you didn't think hearing it would make your skin crawl with excitement.
Motivated by the sweet sounds coming out of his lips, you move your head faster, applying more force with your tongue.
Hongjoong gets louder, forgetting where he is for a moment. His gasps turn into soft, needy whimpers, his free hand clutching at the desk behind him as if it was the only thing keeping him on the ground, and with one final moan, he finally reaches his limit, his whole body tenses, his breath catching in his throat as a broken moan escapes him.
âShitâŚâ
His vision is hazy, but he can appreciate the way you swallow all his load, licking every drop like it's your last meal.
He closes his eyes cursing internally, that is the hottest thing he's ever seen and experienced in his fucking life.
The best of all? It was with you.
When you pull back, just a little to watch his pretty face. You smirk to yourself, knowing that you have him completely undone. A satisfied grin spreads across your face as he slumps back against the desk, utterly tired.
When he finally regulates his breathing, Hongjoong can't bring himself to meet your eyes, his face burning with embarrassment and something elseâŚ. something like awe.
âSee? Told you Iâd take care of it.â You say smugly, standing and cleaning the edge of your mouth, removing any traces of lipstick.
Hogjoong looks up at you, his face red, his chest still heaving âI⌠I donât even know what to say.â
You giggle âDonât say anything.â His tender demeanor makes you laugh a little âJust remember who made you feel this good.â
You approach him to give him one last kiss, Hogjoong groans, he can taste himself in your mouth.
When you break the kiss he looks at you with something new in his eyes, you're not sure what it is, but as long as he's by your side doing everything you ask without question, you won't complain.
From that day on, Hongjoong could only think about you and the amazing first blowjob he received that day.
Maybe he should thank Seonghwa for making you angry.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
That week had been amazing for you and Hongjoong, every interaction and every moment made you feel genuinely closer, and not only because of the small deal you made that day in the school's garden.
There was something more between the two of you but you didn't want to accept it.
However; that whole week was a martyrdom for Dann, you keeped asking her to do uncountable tasks that she can barely have time to do on her own.
In the mornings before going to school, you asked her to bring you breakfast in bed, to organize some things in your backpack, and to carry the books or folders with the work she did for you.
During school hours, you asked her to bring your things to your classroom and a matcha latte before the first class started. At lunch she would go get your and your friends' food.
She looked like a small waitress going from one end to the other with trays in hand.
And when she thought she could rest at home, you called her to do your homework and projects, in addition to cleaning your room, which by the way there was nothing to clean anymore... you just wanted her to waste her time.
One of the things that bothered Dann the most was the fact that not only did you order her what to do, but your friends also asked her to do small errands when they visited your home.
'I'm not their servant,' she used to repeat when Mindy or someone else asked her for something, but your strong gaze and your perfect raised eyebrow forced her not to reproach and to do what they asked.
She was tired, tired of your orders and mistreatment. The worst of all is that no one could help her. Your parents, especially your dad, were okay with you treating her like your personal doll, so she couldn't complain to them.
On the other hand, her mother could only look at her with pity every time your voice calling for her was heard. Dann complained every day to his mother about the things you made her do and she just hugged her, patted her on the back and said it would all be over soon....
But when will it be that, a week has passed and she feels desperate for this martyrdom to end.
Another thing that bothered Dann was the fact that Hongjoong was by your side all the time and watched the daily humiliations without doing anything, without defending her.
They're not supposed to be friends? Why doesn't he defend her as she did several times?
âI want to go shopping.â
Your voice slices through the fog of Dannâs thoughts, yanking her back to reality. She blinks at you with a blank expression, already bracing herself for whatever new errand or degrading task you have in mind.
âHave fun.â Hongjoong says casually, flashing one of his rare, easygoing smiles.
Your perfectly manicured fingers gently swat his arm, your playful grin in stark contrast to the command that follows âYouâre coming with me, silly.â
He blinks, taken aback âWait, me?â He asks, the confusion on his face almost comical.
âOf course. You don't want to come with me?â You tilt your head, feigning innocence, but the glint in your eyes reveals your true intention. You weren't asking him, you were telling him.
Hongjoong hesitates for a moment, his gaze flicking toward Dann, who shrinks back into herself, pretending not to listen.
âI... uhââ
You cut him off, stepping closer and lowering your voice âDonât tell me youâre saying no, Kim Hongjoong.â
He responds immediately to your harsh tone when saying his name âShopping it is.â
You clap your hands together in mock excitement âPerfect! You can meet me outside in ten minutes. Oh,â You turn to Dann, a sickly sweet smile spreading across your face, âAnd youâre coming too. Iâll need someone to carry my bags.â
Dannâs stomach knots as she swallows back a retort. She wants to argue, to tell you she has better things to do, but the cold, expectant look you throw her way dares her to say otherwise.
âIâll... grab my things.â Dann mutters, her voice barely above a whisper.
You watch her retreating figure with a satisfied smirk, then you turn back to Hongjoong, your tone softening âWeâre going to have a lot of fun!â
⎠â
The luxury mall gleams under the bright lights, filled with the chatter of shoppers and the faint sound of background music. You move through the aisles of an upscale clothing store with an air of authority, Hongjoong walks beside you gladly holding your hand while Dann follows at a distance, burdened with shopping bags that seem to multiply by the minute.
You pause your walk in front of a mannequin dressed in a sharp blazer and slim-fit pants.
âThis is perfect for you.â You turn to Hongjoong, your eyes scanning him with a mix of scrutiny and mischief âPut it on. Let me see.â
He hesitates, glancing at the price tag âIt's so expensive.â
You step closer, your fingers brushing lightly against his as you take the tag out of his hand.
âDonât look at the price. Your only job is to look good for me.â Hongjoongâs cheeks flush, but he nods and takes the blazer to the fitting room. You turn to Dann, your smirk widening âCareful, Dann. Those bags are worth more than your tuition. Donât drop them.â
Dann glares at you, but she says nothing, her grip tightening on the handles.
Moments later, Hongjoong reemerges, the blazer fitting him like it was tailored just for him.
Your eyes light up as you clap your hands âI knew it! You look incredible, Joongie!â
You step closer, tugging at the lapels to adjust them. Your hands linger, smoothing the fabric over his chest before trailing down to his forearm. Hongjoong stands frozen, his breath catching as your touch sends a spark through him.
It's only been two days since that incredible blowjob, an act too intimate in his opinion, but he still can't help but feel shy about your touch and presence in general.
You lean teasingly close enough that he can feel your breath âI might just keep you dressed like this all the time. You look hot.â
Hongjoong chuckles nervously, his face bright red. Your lips curve into a sly smile, and before he can react, you lean in, brushing your lips softly against his mouth. Giving him a little peak.
âConsider it a reward for being such a good boy.â
He feels his ears burn, and his pulse racing at the sudden show of affection. Also; that pet name makes him feel something he shouldn't.
Dann, standing a few feet away, shifts uncomfortably, her expression a mix of bitterness and hurt.
⎠â
You are sitting in a plush chair, slipping on a pair of sleek red stilettos. You stretch your leg out, admiring the way the shoes accentuate your figure. Hongjoong sits nearby, fidgeting with the hem of his shirt, while Dann sits on a bench surrounded by luxury brand bags with all your purchases.
You glance up at Hongjoong with a mischievous smile âWhat do you think? Pretty?â
You tilt your foot, the curve of the stiletto catching the light.
Hongjoong stammers, his eyes darting nervously âUh⌠Theyâre⌠pretty.â
âIs that all youâve got?â
You stand, crossing the short distance to him. Placing your hands on the arms of his chair, leaning closer, your face inches from his.
âSay it like you mean it, Joong.â
He swallows hard, his voice barely above a whisper âYouâre stunning.â
You smirk, clearly pleased. You straighten up, brushing a hand lightly across his shoulder as you walk back to your seat.
âThat 's better. I like it when youâre honest.â
Dann shifts awkwardly, her eyes darting between you two. You notice and smirk again,
âWeâll take these. And those boots too.â You say to the salesperson with a sweet smile.
âYN, you really donât need to buy me things.â
âHongjoongâŚâ You cut him off as you step closer again âI want to do it.â
Your thumb brushes lightly over his shirt, and he nods, his breath hitching.
Dann looks away, her face tight as she pretends not to notice.
⎠â
All of you step out into the cool evening air, the weight of the shopping bags palpable, well⌠at least for Dann.
You walk confidently ahead, your hand joined with Hongjoong's was becoming a habit, casual intimacy.
âSee? That wasnât so bad, was it? Shopping is fun.â You tease with a grin.
Hongjoong chuckles nervously, his gaze darting to the bags Dann carries.
âI feel bad, though. About, you know⌠her.â
Your smile falters slightly, but you recover quickly, tightening your grip on his hand.
âShe needs this. Itâs character building.â You stop abruptly, turning to face him. Your free hand reaches up to toy with the collar of his denim jacket âAnd you need this too. Youâre not the same guy you were last week, Hongjoong.â You lean in, your lips capturing his, lingering just enough to make his knees weak âYouâre mine now. Donât forget that.â
Hongjoong nods, his heart pounding as you lead him to your car.
Behind you, Dann struggles to keep up, her expression a mixture of bitterness and heartbreak.
YN and Hongjoong holding hands.
YN brushing her lips against his in fleeting, possessive kisses.
YN laughing, her voice light and carefree, while Hongjoong smiled at her like she hung the stars.
Each glance they shared felt like a dagger. It wasnât just the weight of the bags that left Dann breathless; it was the sight of Hongjoong, her Joong, so completely absorbed into your orbit.
Dann swallows the lump in her throat as a sharp ache settles in her chest. She had known this day would comeâŚ. the day Hongjoong is fully absorbed into your world, but it didnât make it any easier.
For every bag she carried, there was another piece of herself being stripped away, replaced by bitter envy and an unbearable sense of invisibility.
By the time they reached your sprawling mansion, the sun was dipping below the horizon, painting the sky in hues of orange and pink. The estate was as imposing as ever, with its perfectly manicured lawns and grand double doors.
You toss your keys to the porter, your demeanor as effortless and commanding as always.
âLetâs head up to my room,â You say, turning to Hongjoong with a smile that could light up the night âSnacks and a movie sound good?â
Hongjoong hesitates, glancing at Dann, who stands at the base of the grand staircase, clutching the bags like they were her lifeline.
It's not the first time he's spent the afternoon at your house, but having Dann right there watching your interactions makes guilt consume him.
âUh⌠yeah, sure.â He mumbles, torn between your intoxicating pull and the pang of remorse that lingers whenever he sees Dann.
âDann.â You call sharply, breaking Hongjoongâs thoughts âTake these up to my closet. Organize everything by type and color. Oh! And tell your mom to bring up snacks for us in ten minutes.â
Dannâs stomach churn, but she nods, her jaw tightening as she obeys.
Inside your room, the atmosphere is a world away from the cold detachment of the mansion downstairs. The expansive space is bathed in soft pastel tones, luxurious fabrics, and delicate lighting from the ornate chandeliers.
Despite its size and splendor, the room always feels surprisingly intimate.
You plop into the oversized bed, tossing your designer heels to the floor without care as you pat the spot beside you, looking at Hongjoong with an expectant smirk.
âCome on, donât be weird about it. Sit.â
Hongjoong sits down, his posture stiff despite the number of times he's been there now. You roll your eyes, leaning into him with playful ease. âRelax, Joongie. I donât bite⌠unless you want to.â You tease, running a hand lightly over his arm.
He gives you a little shy smile, but says nothing.
The movie began playing on the massive screen, though neither of you seemed particularly interested in it. You lean back against his shoulder, your head resting there comfortably.
You grab a handful of popcorn from the tray one of the maids had just delivered, holding a piece up to his lips, fingers brushing against his mouth as you feed him, and you smirk when you notice him blush.
As Hongjoong grows more comfortable, his gaze wanders around your room. His eyes caught on a silver-framed photo on your nightstand. It shows you smilingâtruly smilingâbeside a tall, impeccably dressed man with striking features.
âIs he your brother? The one that Seonghwa mentioned that day?â He asks cautiously, nodding toward the photo.
Your teasing smirk falters for a moment, and your body stiff slightly against him. You sit up and grab the frame, holding it in your hands as your eyes trace over the image.
âYeah⌠Thatâs Mike.â
Hongjoong sense a shift in your tone, the lightness replace by something far heavier âI didn't know you had a brother.â
âAlmost no one knows, only a few. Heâs... perfect. The perfect son, the perfect student, the perfect everything.â Your fingers grip the frame a little tighter âHeâs the reason Iâll never be good enough for my parents, no matter what I do.â
He frowns, leaning in slightly âYN...â
You force a small laugh, though it sounds hollow âHeâs studying abroad now, getting his business masterâs degree. Every time he comes back, itâs just to remind me how much better he is at everything. And if he ever found out about... stuff, heâd make sure my parents knew. Itâd be game over for me.â
Your words falter as if Seonghwaâs voice still echoes in your mind from that day in the cafeteria.
'How do you think he would react if he found out about all the bad things you've done since he left?'
Hongjoong shifts closer, his hand resting gently on yours as you hold the photo âYN, nobodyâs perfectânot even him. And youâre not... youâre not as bad as you think you are.â
You look at him, lips pressing into a tight line âYou donât know him, Hongjoong. He would... heâd destroy me if he knew half the things Iâve done.â Your voice cracks slightly, and you quickly look away.
Hongjoong hesitates before squeezing your hand gently âMaybe heâs not as invincible as you think. Maybe heâs got his own flaws, like everyone else.â
You let out a bitter laugh, wiping at your eye quickly as if you would never show vulnerability for too long.
âThatâs generous of you.â
âNo, itâs honest. Youâre more than whatever shadow heâs cast over you. I mean it.â
For a moment, you just stare at him. Your usual sharpness seems to melt away, replaced by something softer, something raw. Then you set the photo back on the nightstand, your hand lingering on it briefly.
âThanksâŚâ You murmur, so softly it's almost inaudible.
He leans back with you again, letting you rest your head on his shoulder once more. Neither of you say anything, but the silence isnât uncomfortable.
Itâs a rare moment of understanding, one they both seem to need.
As Dann carries the bags upstairs, she hears the faint sounds of your laughter and Hongjoongâs responses through the closed bedroom door.
Her heart twists, the weight of the shopping bags nothing compared to the invisible burden she carries.
Dann unpacks the bags in your enormous closet, her hands moving automatically as her mind replays every painful moment of the day. When she finishes, she sits on the edge of your chaise lounge, staring at the floor.
From the hallway, she hears soft laughter and murmurs from your room, each sound a reminder of how far you and Hongjoong have drifted apart.
Her mother passes by with a tray of tea, her face tight with worry as she glances at her daughter. Dann gives her a weak smile, but as the door to your room closes behind her mother, the bitterness and heartbreak sheâd been holding back finally spills over.
She sits in silence, the faint echoes of your laughter stabbing at her like tiny needles.
In that grand mansion filled with people, Dann had never felt so utterly alone.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
Once again, Dann sighs tired while she organizes your and your friends' drinks on the table.
âCareful, Dann. If you spill anything, thatâs just more work for you.â
She wants to roll her eyes at your words but she doesn't want to make a scene.
âHonestly, she should be thanking you, YN. Who else would give her such a generous chance to repay her debt?â
Dann places the drinks carefully on the table, her hands trembling slightly from exhaustion and frustration. She doesnât reply to those sharp comments, knowing that any response could worsen her situation.
Mindy laughs, taking a sip of her coffee âSheâs like your little pet now, Babe. So obedient.â
Dann grits her teeth but keeps her head down, focusing on arranging the drinks neatly âIâm not a pet.â
You raise an eyebrow, your sharp ears catching the quiet defiance âWhat was that, Dann?â
Dann stiffens, her hands clenching into fists by her sides. She looks up, meeting your cold gaze with as much courage as she can muster.
âI said Iâm not a pet.â
The table goes silent for a moment, the air thick with tension. You lean back in the chair, crossing your legs elegantly. Your lips curve into a dangerous smile.
âNot a pet? Funny, because youâre doing a pretty good impression of one. Running around, fetching drinks, doing homework. Should I get you a designer leash next?â
Mindy and the others burst into laughter, and Dann feels her face burn with humiliation.
âYN, maybe thatâs a bit muchâŚâ Hongjoong quietly, almost hesitantly says.
âOh, now you have something to say? Where was this energy all last week when she was crying about carrying my books?â
Hongjoong looks down, not daring to meet your eyes. Dann glances at him, hoping for some semblance of solidarity, but he avoids her gaze entirely.
You sigh dramatically and turn your attention back to Dann âNow, Dann, letâs be clear. You ruined an expensive dress, so until I say otherwise, youâre working for me. Unless youâd rather I take the cost straight from your momâs paycheck?â
Dannâs breath catches, and she clenches her fists tighter âNo... Iâll keep working.â
âGood girl. Now, youâve wasted enough time here. Go grab some snacks.â
Dann hesitates, her pride fighting against the inevitable, but ultimately she turns and walks toward the counter.
âAnyways, tomorrow I won't come, my father has a billion-dollar meeting and important executives will have dinner at my house, so don't miss me too much.â You drink your smoothie gracefully and your friends laugh.
âThat's right, queen, I hope your dad gets those billions and can go on that summer trip that we have planned.â
âOf course it will be, my daddy is the best at his job.â
When Dann returns to the table, you look up at her with a saccharine smile âTook you long enough. Now clean this up, and make it quick. Weâre leaving soon.â
Dann nods silently, her head low, as she leaves the snacks on the table and starts cleaning it. Her chest feels heavy, but she pushes the feelings down, knowing thereâs no use fighting back.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
Itâs a rare day at school without you on her all the time. Dann feels a strange mix of relief and unease knowing you are back at your mansion, preparing for your fatherâs dinner.
With no errands to run for you, Dann finally has a moment to herself.
She sits quietly in the library with Jongho, Yeosang and Yunho, all of them engrossed in a shared book, when Hongjoong unexpectedly joins them.
âHey, guys.â He greets them happily.
âAren't you going to play at being popular today?â Jongho makes fun of him and he rolls his eyes while taking a seat next to Yunho.
âShe is not here today JonghoâŚ.â Dann murmurs without taking her eyes out of the book, but then she frowns, looking at Hongjoong âWait, why arenât you with her friends? Did they give you the day off, too?â
âAs you said, YN is not here. Why should I stay with her annoying friends? I prefer to hang out with you guys.â Hongjoong shrugs, smiling to see his friends here.
âWhy?â Yeosang narrows his eyes at him.
This looked suspicious, for two weeks he ignored them as if they hadn't been friends since high school, and now he's coming back as if nothing happened.
âWhat do you mean, why? Canât I just hang out with my friends?â
Yunho raises an eyebrow âWe havenât exactly been friends since... well, since you started following YN like a dog.â
Hongjoong lowers his gaze in sorrow âThatâs not fair. Things are complicated with her.â
Jongho snorts âComplicated? Thatâs a nice way of putting it. You mean stupidity.â
Hongjoong shifts uncomfortably but doesnât respond right away. Instead, he glances at the book in their hands.
âYouâre still into these epic fantasy novels, huh? Guess some things never change.â
Yunho smiles softly âAnd youâre still into coding, I bet. Or did YN ban you from being a nerd?â
Everyone laughs at the tallest funny remark, even Hongjoong does.
âI sneak in some nerd time when sheâs not looking.â
They fall into a familiar rhythm, talking about things they used to enjoy together. Books, games, and small, silly inside jokes.
For the first time in what feels like forever, they see a glimpse of the Hongjoong they used to know.
They had missed him a lot, but just as theyâre laughing about an old shared memory, Mindy, one of your closest friends, spots them from across the library and strides over, her heels clicking against the floor.
âWell, isnât this cozy? The nerd squad back in action.â She mocks.
âWhat do you want, Mindy?â Jongho is the first one to confront her.
âOh, nothing. Just making mental notes for YN. You know how she gets when people step out of line, right Dann?â
âWhy donât you mind your own business for once?â She closes her book suddenly feeling angry at Mindyâs presence.
Mindy ignores her words, patting Hongjoongâs shoulder âJust giving you a friendly warning, Joong. YNâs not going to be thrilled when she hears about this little reunion. Better get your story straight before she does.â
Mindy saunters off, leaving behind an uneasy silence. Hongjoong looks conflicted, running a hand through his hair.
âSheâs not here, Joong. You donât have to let her control you every second of the day.â Yeosang says softly, feeling pity for his friend.
âItâs not that simple, you donât get it.â
âMaybe we donât. But you used to.â
They don't push further, but the words hang in the air. For a brief moment, Hongjoong feels a pang of guilt, a memory of simpler times when things werenât so messy.
⎠â
Meanwhile, back at the mansion, you are busy overseeing preparations for your fatherâs dinner when Mindy calls to report what she saw.
âBabygirl, youâre not going to like this, but guess who Hongjoong was spending his day with?â
You frown âWhat are you talking about?â
âYour little maid, Dann and the other freaks. They were all chummy in the library. It was kind of gross, honestly. Looked like they were best friends again.â
Your grip tightens around the phone. The thought of Hongjoong spending his time with his old friends you care little about, but with Dann⌠laughing with her, reminiscing. Sparks a flicker of jealousy and anger.
âThanks for letting me know, babe.â
Cutting the call, you tell yourself itâs nothing. But the idea of Hongjoong slipping back to his old life, even for a moment, makes your blood boil.
The sound of the preparations for the business dinner echoes faintly through the mansion, but your focus is entirely on the phone.
Maybe you should remind Hongjoong which class he belongs to now.
Hongjoongâs phone buzzes just as heâs settling into class after his little encounter with his friends. His stomach drops when he sees your name pop up.
YNâĄ: I heard you were with Dann at school today. Care to explain why you thought that was a good idea?
Joong: We were just talking.
YNâĄ: Talking? Mindy says you were hanging out like old friends. Do you even realize how that makes me look?
Hongjoong hesitates, his mind racing. He knows your temper and doesnât want to risk your wrath.
Joong: Itâs not like that. I was just bored, and sheâs⌠easy to be around when thereâs nothing better to do.
The words feel wrong even as he types them, but he presses send anyway.
YNâĄ: Keep it in mind, Joongie. Sheâs not your friend anymore. You belong to me, remember that.
Joong: I know, YN. I wonât talk to her again. Promise.
⎠â
Itâs late in the evening. The business dinner is in full swing downstairs, but you have excused yourself to your room.
When you hear Dann come back from helping the staff, you call her up.
Dann knocks hesitantly on your door. Sheâs exhausted from helping clean up after the dinner preparations, but your icy summons gives her no choice.
âClose the door and sit.â With your head you point to the seat next to your large bed. Dann obeys, her hands clenching nervously in her lap âSo, I heard you had a good time with Hongjoong today.â
Dann opens her mouth to start babbling âI⌠I didnât mean anything by it. He justââ
âOh, spare me. I already know everything.â You interrupt her.
You toss your phone onto the bed so Dann can see the screen. Itâs open to Hongjoongâs messages.
Dann reads it, and her eyes moisten with sadness âeasy to be around when thereâs nothing better to doâŚâ Her heart sinks. The words sting more than she expected, and she feels a lump form in her throat.
âSee? Even he knows where you stand. Youâre nothing, Dann. A convenient distraction when heâs bored. Thatâs all you will ever be.â You lean back, watching the emotions flicker across Dannâs face; confusion, sadness, and humiliation.
âWhy are you showing me this?â She whispers.
A mischievous smile lands on your lips âTo remind you of your place. Donât get too comfortable with Hongjoong. I donât share what's mine.â Dann nods silently, unable to meet your gaze âGood. Now get out. I have to go back to an important dinner.â
You sit back down on your bed, satisfied but strangely restless while Dann stumbles out of the room, holding back tears.
As she retreats to the staff quarters her emotions swirl, the door clicks shut behind her, her legs give out, and she slides to the floor, the weight of your words pressing down on her chest.
She pulls her knees to her chest, resting her forehead against them as the messages replay in her mind.
âEasy to be around when thereâs nothing better to do.â
The words sting like a fresh wound, sharp and unrelenting. Hongjoongâs voice echoes in her head; not the Hongjoong she knew from before, the one who stayed up late helping her study for exams, who always made her laugh even when things were tough.
This Hongjoong felt like a stranger, someone who would say anything to stay in your good graces.
Her heart aches.
Why does she keep hoping heâll be the person he used to be?
Dann clenches her fists, anger flickering alongside the sadness. Your smirk and your cruel words swirl in her thoughts, too. Dann knows your power, the way you can bend people like Hongjoong to your will.
But that doesnât excuse him. He chose to say those things about her.
A single tear slips down her cheek, and she brushes it away furiously. Sheâs tired of feeling weak, tired of being the easy target.
"Youâll regret this, YN. One day, youâll push too far, and everything youâve built will crumble.â Dann exhales slowly, her tears finally dry âI canât let her win. I wonât let her win."
⎠â
Early the next morning, Dann wakes before dawn, the Clarkeâs mansion still cloaked in silence.
She moves through her routine with mechanical precision, but her mind is elsewhere. Formulating, planning.
She thinks she owns me. That her words and her smirks can crush me into submission. And maybe, for a while, they did. But every cutting remark, every degrading task, only sharpens my focus.
'One day YN Clarke, youâll realize Iâm not as small as you think I am.'
She pulls on her simple clothes, smoothing the creases in the mirror. For a brief moment, her reflection stares back, eyes tired but filled with a quiet fire.
"I won't let her humiliate me anymore.â
Later that day at school in the cafeteria during lunch. You and your entourage sit at your usual table, the center of attention, laughing and chatting.
Dann approaches, carrying your latte on a tray. Her face is calm, but her heart races. Sheâs had enough of your endless demands and sharp tongue.
Dannâs fingers tighten around the tray. She can feel the weight of their stares, the way Mindy smirks at her like sheâs a walking joke.
Her stomach churns, but she keeps her head high. Sheâs done everything you asked, swallowed every cruel word, and yet you still treat her like dirt.
âOne little accident wouldnât hurt.â She tells herself.
As she reaches the table, her hand shifts slightly, and the latte tilts; pouring straight into the table and your purse.
âWhat the hell?! Are you crazy?â You gasp with sharp voice
Dann feigns panic, though her lips twitch with suppressed satisfaction âIâm so sorry! It slipped!â
You stand abruptly, staring at your stained designer purse. Through gritted teeth âIt slipped? Youâve got to be kidding me.â You scoff.
âWow, Dann. Maybe YNâs been too nice to you.â
You narrow your eyes âYouâre right, Mindy. I think Dann needs a reminder of her place.â
Dannâs satisfaction fades as Mindy steps behind her, pushing her forcefully down to her knees. The cafeteria goes silent, all eyes on the scene unfolding.
âWhatâwhat are you doing? I said Iâm sorry!â Dann starts to panic, her confidence leaving immediately.
âSorry isnât enough.â You step closer, towering over Dann. Your voice drops, sharp and cruel âYou think youâre clever, donât you? Dropping my drink on purpose like a little brat. Let me make one thing clear. Your mother might work for my family, but that doesnât mean youâre worth anything. Youâre just a servantâs kid playing in a world you donât belong to.â
Tears sting Dannâs eyes, but she bites her lip, refusing to cry. You smirk and Mindy crouches at Dann's height to whisper against her ear.
âNow, beg. Right here, in front of everyone. Beg for her forgiveness.â
âNo... I wonâtââ She shakes her head. You cut her off, stepping forward and pressing your Louboutin heel onto Dannâs hand âStop! That hurts!â She yelps with tears rolling down her cheeks now.
You let out a slight laugh at her cries âThatâs the point. Maybe next time, youâll think twice before trying to humiliate me.â
The cafeteria is deathly quiet, the other students frozen, unsure whether to intervene.
Hongjoong stands a few feet away, frozen in shock. His stomach churns as you dig your heel into Dannâs hand, and your words like knives.
Hongjoong steps forward, raising his voice.
âYN, stop!â
You turn your head sharply, her eyes narrowing âOh, Whatâs the matter, Joongie? Feeling guilty for siding with me?â
âThis isnât right. Let her go.â
You've never seen him so serious, for the first time his look made you feel intimidated. You blink several times before faking a smile.
âFine. Iâm in a good mood today.â You step back, your heel lifting off Dannâs hand.
She pulls her hand back, cradling it as she glances up at Hongjoong, his expression torn between anger and guilt. She wants to scream at him, to tell him itâs too late for him to play the good guy.
But instead, she swallows her pride, standing shakily and clutching her bruised hand. She doesnât say another word. Instead, she stands up and walks out of the cafeteria, leaving the whispers and stares behind.
You watch her go, your lips curling into a satisfied smirk. Hongjoongâs angry glare doesnât faze you; if anything, itâs amusing.
âYouâre welcome to join her if you want. Maybe you two can cry about it together.â
He doesnât respond, but the look he gives you says more than words ever could. He lets out a sigh and begins to walk in the direction Dann left.
You snort without being able to believe what you see âFucking losers.â
Taking your phone, you open the chat you have with him.
YNâĄ: I hope you enjoy your return to the losersâ club, ungrateful pet.
⎠â Ë。𦹠â・°âŠ
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This is so good! I canât wait for the next part! <3
Pairing: CEO!Seonghwa x CEO! reader (f)
Warnings / content for Part One: Suggestive content, angsty, alcohol consumption. Please note that other than Ateez, all other character names used are fictional.
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Masterlist for The CEO Collision
âCongratulations, Ms. Y/N,â your secretary said when you entered your office after your last meeting for the day, and the week as it was a Friday. âThe investors seemed impressed.â
âThank you, Nari,â you replied with a grin, gathering your stuff to put it in your bag. âShouldnât you be heading out soon for your date?â
Nari blushed. âYunho pushed our reservation by half an hour to give me some time to get ready.â
You nodded. âThatâs sweet of him. Have fun tonight,â you said, slinging your bag over your shoulder. âAnd tell Yunho I said hi.â
âWill do,â Nari said with a grin. âYouâre heading straight home?â
âThatâs the plan,â you replied, glancing at your phone to check the time. âIâm long overdue for a quiet night in.â
Nari chuckled. âKnowing you, youâll end up working from home anyway.â
You smirked. âProbably, but at least Iâll be in my pajamas.â
âFair point,â she said, walking you to the elevator. âDrive safe, Ms. Y/N.â
âYou too. And donât let Yunho distract you too much from dinner,â you teased as the elevator doors opened.
Nari blushed again, laughing as she waved goodbye. âNo promises.â
The elevator doors closed, leaving you alone for the descent to the parking garage. You leaned against the wall, letting out a breath you hadnât realized you were holding. The week had been productive but exhausting, and the promise of the weekend was the only thing that kept you going.
Once the elevator reached the basement, you stepped out and made your way to your car. The quiet hum of the nearly empty garage was oddly comforting as you unlocked the sleek black sedan that your father had insisted you drive.
Sliding into the driverâs seat, you tossed your bag onto the passenger side and started the engine. The low purr was satisfying, a reminder of all the hard work that had brought you here. As you pulled out of the parking lot, the city lights began to blur together in a comforting glow against the evening sky.
The drive home was uneventful, the streets gradually growing quieter as you moved away from the bustling business district. By the time you reached the gates of your familyâs estate, the sun had dipped below the horizon, painting the sky in soft shades of pink and purple.
The gates opened automatically as you approached, and you drove down the winding driveway toward the sprawling mansion. Parking in your usual spot, you turned off the car and sat there for a moment, staring at the grand facade of your childhood home.
With a resigned sigh, you grabbed your bag and stepped out of the car, making your way to the front door. One of the house staff greeted you with a polite smile as you entered.
âWelcome home, Ms. Y/N. Dinner will be served shortly.â
You nodded in acknowledgment, slipping off your heels as you made your way inside. The comforting aroma of your motherâs cooking wafted through the air, and despite your exhaustion, a small part of you looked forward to the meal.
As you approached the dining room, you heard the faint hum of conversation and your twin brotherâs unmistakable laughter.
âLook who finally decided to show up,â your twin, Hongjoong, teased without looking up.
Rolling your eyes, you walked over and ruffled his perfectly styled hair, earning a sharp protest.
âUgh, stop that!â he grumbled, swatting your hand away.
âCanât help it,â you replied with a smirk as you took your seat. âYou look too polished. Someone has to keep you grounded.â
He huffed, running his fingers through his hair to fix it, muttering under his breath about how annoying you were.
âKids, behave,â your mother said with a fond smile as the staff began serving dinner.
You glanced at the spreadâsteaming platters of food, perfectly arranged salads, and freshly baked buns. Despite the lavish meal, your mind was still buzzing with thoughts of work.
âHow was your day, dear?â your mother asked, her tone warm while she watched you fill up your plate.
âIt went really well,â you replied, a sense of pride creeping into your voice. âWe had our investor meeting today for the new line of medical imaging devices, and they were impressed. Theyâve agreed to back us for the next phase of development.â
âThatâs wonderful news,â your father said, setting down his fork to look at you. âThis could be a game-changer for your company.â
âIt will be,â you said confidently, picking up your glass of water. âThe potential applications are huge, and with their support, weâll be able to expand production globally.â
Hongjoong raised an eyebrow. âAnd here I thought youâd be burnt out by now. Youâve been working on that pitch for weeks.â
You shrugged, taking a sip of water. âI wonât lie, itâs been exhausting. But seeing the results today made it worth it.â
âHard work always pays off,â your father said approvingly. âYouâve done an excellent job, Y/N.â
Your mother beamed with pride. âI knew youâd pull it off. Youâve always had a knack for making things happen.â
âWell, letâs just hope the development phase goes as smoothly,â you said, though the smile on your face didnât waver.
Dinner buzzed with lively conversation as the dishes were passed around. Stories from work, jokes, and plans for the weekend filled the air. You felt the weekâs exhaustion slowly ebb away as the comfortable rhythm of family time took over.
âSo, Joong,â your father said casually, turning to your brother. âAre you heading to Mingiâs bar later tonight? Seonghwa mentioned the two of you were planning to catch up over drinks.â
Hongjoong shrugged, chewing on a bite of salmon. âHe brought it up earlier, but I havenât decided yet. Why?â
Your father leaned back in his chair, his expression growing more serious. âI spoke with Seonghwaâs parents today.â
The mood at the table shifted subtly, your mother straightening her posture and Hongjoong setting down his fork.
âOh?â your brother said cautiously. âWhat about?â
Your father hesitated for a moment, as though choosing his words carefully. Then, he said, âTheir company has been struggling for a while now. They came to us with a⌠suggestion.â
âWhat kind of suggestion?â you asked, sensing where this might be headed but hoping you were wrong.
Your father looked directly at you. âTheyâve asked for your hand in marriage, Y/N.â
The words hung in the air like a thunderclap.
âWhat?â you said, your voice sharper than you intended.
Hongjoong gaped, clearly just as blindsided at hearing that his bestfriend would possibly marry his twin sister. âWait, hold on. Youâre joking, right?â
Your father shook his head. âThey believe a marriage between you and Seonghwa would secure both familiesâ futures. It would strengthen the partnership and stabilize their company.â
âThis is ridiculous,â you snapped, your appetite vanishing. âYou canât be serious.â
âItâs not as bad as you think,â your mother interjected softly. âYou and Seonghwa already know each other since high school. It wouldnât be like starting from scratch.â
âThatâs exactly the problem!â you exclaimed. âWe know each other too well, and itâs not good!â
Well, your relationship with Seonghwa was complicated. In simpler words, you hated each other.
Okay, maybe hate is a strong word. Strongly dislike?
You and Seonghwa have history, though. Â
And it hurts every time you see him.
âY/N,â your father said firmly, âthis is bigger than personal feelings. Sometimes, sacrifices need to be made for the greater good.â
Hongjoong was not amused, his voice rising. âYouâre really going to force her into this? Without even discussing it with her first?â
âWeâre discussing it now,â your father replied, his tone calm but unyielding.
You felt a wave of anger and disbelief crash over you. âDiscussing? Youâve already decided, havenât you?â
Your mother avoided your gaze, and your fatherâs silence was confirmation enough.
Hongjoongâs jaw clenched. âThis is insane.â
âYouâre being dramatic,â your father said. âThis arrangement will benefit everyone.â
âIâm not doing it,â you said through gritted teeth, pushing your chair back. âYou canât make me.â
âY/Nââ your mother started, but you were already on your feet, your heart pounding with fury.
âI need some air,â you muttered before storming out of the dining room, leaving your stunned family behind.
The cool night air brushed against your skin as you stepped into the garden, the faint glow of lanterns lighting the cobblestone path. The neatly trimmed hedges and rows of blooming flowers framed the vast space, but your focus was on the gazebo aheadâa sanctuary of peace amid the chaos of the evening.
You made your way to it and sat down on the wooden bench inside. The gazebo overlooked the koi pond, its surface rippling gently under the moonlight. You closed your eyes, inhaling deeply, trying to calm the storm of emotions raging within you.
Marriage. To him.
The thought alone made your chest tighten. You pressed your hands against your lap, fingers gripping the fabric of your dress. Your mind, against your will, drifted to the past.
It was senior year of college, a warm night like this one, and a party full of red cups, blaring music, and friends urging you to drink. You and Seonghwa had both been there, circling each other with that same mix of irritation and curiosity that had always defined your relationship.
You remembered the alcohol-fueled courage that led to a heated argument in the kitchen, which somehow turned into shared laughter and then lips moving against each other, and thenâŚ
You shook your head, willing the memory to stop, but it continued. The two of you in his dimly lit bedroom, a tangle of limbs and whispers, hands all over each other, bare skin to bare skin, the lines of hatred blurring for a brief moment. And then, the next morning.
The hurt welled up as you recalled how he had acted like nothing had happened, brushing it off as though it had been meaningless. No acknowledgment, no apologyâjust an unspoken agreement to pretend it never occurred.
Your nails dug into your palms as the emotions swirled. Hurt. Anger. Resentment.
Because that wasnât the first time you spent the night in Seonghwaâs bed. It happened one more time the same year.
And again three years later when you both started a masters degree in the same university.
He reacted the exact same way, acting like this was all a mistake.
A soft knock on the wooden pillar of the gazebo startled you, pulling you back to the present.
You turned, and there he wasâPark Seonghwa.
His tall figure was illuminated by the soft garden lights, and his dark suit clung to him perfectly, as always. His expression was unreadable, his eyes steady as they met yours.
âMind if I join you?â he asked, his voice calm, though you could sense the tension beneath it.
Your heart skipped a beat, but you masked it with a glare. âDo I have a choice?â
Seonghwaâs lips curved into the faintest smirk as he stepped into the gazebo, his presence filling the small space. âNot really.â
You scoffed, crossing your arms. âWhy are you here?â
âI came to pick up your brother,â he said, leaning against one of the pillars. âBut it seems like I stumbled into a family meeting instead.â
âYou knew,â you accused, your voice sharp.
His brows furrowed. âKnew what?â
âAbout this ridiculous arrangement,â you snapped, standing abruptly. âAbout our parents trying to marry us off like some business merger.â
Seonghwaâs expression hardened. âYou think I had a say in this?â
âYou always seem to have a say in everything,â you shot back, the years of resentment bubbling to the surface.
He exhaled sharply, running a hand through his hair. âI found out this afternoon, Y/N. Iâm just as blindsided as you are.â
You searched his face for any sign of deception, but all you saw was the same frustration you felt. It caught you off guard, and you lowered your gaze, the fight draining out of you.
âIâm not doing it,â you muttered, more to yourself than to him.
Seonghwaâs voice softened slightly. âNeither am I. But you know how our families are. They wonât make this easy for us.â
You clenched your jaw, looking away. The weight of the situation pressed down on you, and for a moment, the two of you stood in silence, the gardenâs serenity at odds with the turmoil in your hearts.
âI donât want to marry you, Seonghwa,â you said finally, your voice trembling with honesty.
He hesitated, and when he spoke, his tone was quieter, almost resigned. âI know,â he murmured, loud enough for you to hear before he left you alone.
But for some reason, the way he said it didnât bring you the relief you thought it would.
-x-x-x-
The soft clinking of cutlery and the murmur of polite conversation filled the sunlit dining room. The brunch spread before you was nothing short of extravagant, as was typical of any gathering hosted by your family. Freshly baked croissants, platters of fruit, and a variety of cheeses adorned the table, along with a selection of teas and juices.
Across from you sat Mr. and Mrs. Park, Seonghwaâs parents, their expressions warm despite the tension that lingered beneath the surface. Mrs. Park, ever elegant, wore a tailored pastel suit, her smile gentle as she sipped her tea. Mr. Park, though visibly tired, maintained his usual composed demeanor.
âThank you for having us,â Mrs. Park said, glancing at you. âItâs always a pleasure to visit.â
âItâs always nice to see you, Mrs. Park,â you replied with a small smile, setting your cup down.
Your parents sat at the head of the table, exchanging pleasantries with the Parks, but the unspoken purpose of the brunch hung heavy in the air.
âHowâs Seonghwa?â your mother asked casually, though there was a slight edge to her tone.
Mrs. Park hesitated, her smile faltering for a moment. âHe⌠had a late night with Hongjoong and Mingi,â she said delicately. âHeâs resting.â
You barely suppressed a scoff. Of course, he was. It wasnât hard to imagine him nursing a hangover while his parents tried to salvage their familyâs business.
âOh yes,â your mother said, her expression neutral as she took a sip of her tea.
Mrs. Park quickly redirected the conversation. âY/N, how is your work going? I heard about your recent success with the investors. Thatâs truly impressive.â
âThank you,â you said, offering a polite smile. âItâs been a busy few weeks, but the results were worth it.â
âYouâve always been so driven,â Mrs. Park said fondly. âItâs one of the things Iâve always admired about you.â
You blinked, caught off guard by the sincerity in her voice. Mrs. Park had always been kind to you, treating you almost like a second daughter. The thought of her struggling because of their companyâs financial issues tugged at something in your chest.
As the conversation continued, Mr. Park cleared his throat, drawing everyoneâs attention. âWe wonât pretend this isnât a difficult situation,â he said, his tone steady but tinged with exhaustion. âOur company⌠itâs been challenging, to say the least. Weâve explored every option we can think of this past two years, but this marriage proposal seemed like the best path forwardâfor both our families.â
Your father nodded, his expression serious. âItâs not ideal, but itâs a way to ensure stability.â
Mrs. Park turned to you, her gaze soft. âY/N, I know this isnât fair to you. If there were another way, we wouldnât even consider asking this of you. But⌠weâre out of options.â
The vulnerability in her voice made your heart ache. You had known the Parks for years, and they had always treated you with warmth and respect. The thought of them losing everything felt deeply unfair.
âI understand,â you said quietly, your hands resting on your lap. âYou and Mr. Park have always been kind to me, and I appreciate that more than I can say. If marrying Seonghwa is what it takes to help your family, then⌠Iâll consider it.â A silence fell over the table, broken only by the soft chirping of birds outside. âButâŚâ you continued, âI would like to get to know Seonghwa a bit more first.â
Mrs. Parkâs eyes filled with gratitude, and she reached out to place a hand over yours. âThank you, Y/N. You have no idea what this means to us.â
Your father looked at you with a mix of surprise and approval, while your motherâs expression remained unreadable.
But as you sat there, a quiet determination settling over you, you couldnât help but wonder how you would face Seonghwa after thisâand whether he would ever understand why you made this choice.
You had a soft spot when it came to him. Perhaps thatâs why it was so easy for you to at least agree to try?
Later in the day, you were sat on the plush couch in your room, a glass of wine in your hand as you recounted the whirlwind of the past 24 hours to your best friend. Across from you, Yeri was curled up in an armchair, her eyes wide with interest as you spoke.
When you finished, she let out a low whistle, her jaw dropping slightly. âSo, let me get this straight,â she said, leaning forward. âYouâre basically engaged to CEO Park Seonghwa?â
âUh, no,â you replied with a sigh, twirling the stem of your wine glass between your fingers. âI asked to get to know him, Yeri. Itâs⌠complicated.â
Yeri tilted her head thoughtfully, her expression surprisingly calm. âIt doesnât sound like youâre entirely against it, though. The idea of marrying him, I mean.â
You blinked at her, caught off guard. âYouâre not going to yell at me about how unfair this is?â
She shrugged, offering you a small smile. âDonât get me wrong, I think the whole âarranged marriage for the sake of businessâ thing is ridiculous. But honestly, Y/N, it might not be the worst thing in the world.â
Your brows furrowed. âHow can you say that? You know how I feel about him.â
Yeri sighed, setting her glass down on the coffee table. âI know Seonghwaâs a sore spot for you, and I know your history with him isnât exactly⌠ideal. But itâs been nearly four years since the last time you were with him, you both are thirty years old, and his parents are struggling and this can help them. If your families think this is the best way to secure the future, it might be worth considering.â
You stared at her, unsure whether to feel betrayed or grateful. âYouâre awfully calm about all this.â
âBecause I know you,â she said, leaning back in her chair. âYou wouldnât even be entertaining this idea if you didnât care. Youâve always had a soft spot for people in need, poor or rich, and as much as you hate to admit it, you care about his family. PlusâŚâ She paused, a teasing smile creeping onto her lips. âItâs not like Seonghwaâs hard to look at.â
âYeri!â you exclaimed, throwing a pillow at her.
She laughed, dodging the pillow easily. âIâm just saying! If you have to be stuck in a marriage of convenience, at least itâs with someone who looks like him. You must admit, he speaks so eloquently too.â
You rolled your eyes, but a small smile tugged at your lips despite yourself. âYouâre unbelievable.â
âAnd youâre too stubborn for your own good,â she shot back. âLook, Iâm not saying this is going to be easy. But maybe itâs an opportunity to start fresh. Youâve spent so much energy hating himâmaybe itâs time to let some of that go?â
You bit your lip, her words hitting closer to home than you wanted to admit. âItâs not that simple, Yeri.â
âI know itâs not,â she said gently. âBut youâre one of the strongest people I know, and if anyone can make this work, itâs you.â
You let out a long sigh, setting your glass down. âI donât even know where to start.â
Yeri leaned forward, her eyes sparkling with determination. âYou start by surviving this engagement thing or getting to know him whatever-thing. And when the time comes, Iâll be there to make sure your wedding is the event of the century. Deal?â
A small laugh escaped you as you reached for your wine glass again. âDeal.â
âTo new beginnings,â Yeri said, raising her glass in a toast.
âTo surviving this mess,â you replied, clinking your glass against hers.
-x-x-x-
The hum of activity filled your office as you reviewed the latest reports from your team. The success of the investor meeting last week had set a positive tone, and you were determined to keep the momentum going.
Your phone buzzed against your desk, drawing your attention away from the document in front of you. Frowning slightly, you reached for it and saw a message from Seonghwa.
Seonghwa: Dinner tonight? Letâs talk.
Your breath hitched, your heart racing despite yourself. You hesitated, staring at the screen for a moment before typing a reply.
You: What time?
The response came almost immediately.
Seonghwa: 7 PM? Iâll pick you up.
You: Sounds good
You set your phone down, trying to focus on your work, but your thoughts were already elsewhere. The idea of sitting across from him at a dinner table was⌠unsettling. After years of tension, could the two of you even hold a decent conversation?
A knock on your office door pulled you from your thoughts. âCome in,â you called, smoothing your expression.
Nari walked in, holding a folder. âHere are the updated projections you asked for.â
âThank you,â you said, taking the folder and setting it on your desk.
Nari hesitated for a moment, glancing at your phone. âAre you okay, Ms. Y/N? You seem⌠distracted.â
You managed a smile. âIâm fine, just a lot on my mind.â
She nodded, not pressing further. âIf you need anything, let me know.â
As she left, you leaned back in your chair, letting out a long sigh. You knew why Seonghwa had reached out. You were both navigating uncharted territory, and like it or not, you needed to give this a chanceâfor your families, if nothing else.
When the clock struck five, you grabbed your coat and bag, leaving the office with a sense of apprehension. As you headed to your car, you checked your phone again, confirming the time.
7 PM. Dinner with CEO Park Seonghwa.
Your grip on the steering wheel tightened as you drove home to get ready. You werenât sure if this dinner would bring any clarity, but one thing was certain: it was the start of a new chapter, whether you liked it or not.
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You stood in front of your floor-length mirror, smoothing the fabric of your black silk dress. It clung to your figure perfectly, the sleek design exuding elegance while still being understated enough for a dinner meeting. Your matching pumps completed the look, and you reached for your favorite necklaceâa delicate silver chain with a tiny diamond pendantâfastening it around your neck.
As you finished applying a touch of lipstick, there was a knock at your bedroom door.
âCome in,â you called, setting the tube down on your vanity.
The door creaked open, and Hongjoongâs familiar face appeared. He leaned casually against the doorframe, his sharp suit slightly wrinkled, likely from a long day at work.
âYou look nice,â he said, his tone light but his eyes watchful.
âThanks,â you replied, turning back to the mirror to check your hair one last time.
âSoâŚâ he began, stepping further into the room. âDinner with Seonghwa, huh? Heâs waiting downstairs.â
You let out a soft sigh, turning to face him. âDonât start.â
âIâm not starting,â he said, raising his hands in mock surrender. âI just⌠wanted to check in.â
You arched a brow. âCheck in? Since when do you âcheck inâ?â
He smiled faintly, but there was a seriousness in his eyes that made your chest tighten. âSince my twin sister got roped into an engagement with my best friend, whom sheâs barely been able to tolerate for the past decade.â
You crossed your arms, leaning against the edge of your vanity. âIâll survive, Joong. Itâs just dinner.â
âI know,â he said, sitting on the edge of your bed. âBut youâve never told me why you and Seonghwa donât get along. And now youâre supposed to marry him. I canât help but worry about how this is going to work.â
You averted your gaze, focusing on the soft shimmer of your dress under the light. âItâs⌠complicated.â You couldnât tell Hongjoong about the couple of times you slept with Seonghwa; he would be furious and you didnât want any drama.
âIt always is with you two,â he said, exhaling a laugh. âBut you know you can talk to me, right? If thereâs something I should know, Iâm here.â
The sincerity in his voice made your throat tighten, but you forced a small smile. âI know. Thanks, Joong.â
He studied you for a moment, his brows furrowing slightly. âYou donât have to do this, you know. If itâs too muchâif itâs not what you wantâmom and dad will understand.â
You shook your head, standing straighter. âItâs not about what I want. This is bigger than me, and you know it.â
Hongjoong sighed, running a hand through his hair. âI hate that youâre in this position. But if anyone can handle it, itâs you.â
You smiled faintly. âThanks for the pep talk, coach.â
He grinned, standing and brushing invisible lint from his suit. âWhat are brothers for?â
As he reached the door, he paused, glancing back at you. âBe careful tonight, okay?â
âI will,â you promised, and with that, he left, leaving you alone with your thoughts once again.
You turned back to the mirror, taking a deep breath. Your reflection stared back at you, poised but uncertain. This dinner wasnât just a mealâit was the first step in navigating a path you never thought youâd take.
You descended the grand staircase of your familyâs mansion, the soft clicking of your heels echoing against the marble floor. Your fingers brushed lightly against the ornate railing, and you forced yourself to remain calm, despite the flutter of nerves in your chest.
At the base of the stairs, Seonghwa stood with your mother, engaged in polite conversation. His smooth voice carried up to you, though you couldnât make out his words.
It wasnât until you were halfway down that his gaze shifted, locking onto you. His conversation with your mother faltered for a brief second, his eyes trailing up your figure with a flicker of something you couldnât quite place.
You tried not to let his attention rattle you, but you couldnât help noticing how sharp he looked tonight. He wore a silk white button-up shirt tucked neatly into tailored black slacks. The top button of his shirt was undone, revealing just enough of his collarbone to add an air of casual charm.
There was a reason why Park Seonghwa was frequently labeled the most handsome and eligible bachelor CEO in the country. And tonight, it was painfully obvious why.
As you reached the last step, your mother turned to you with a warm smile. âAh, there you are, darling. You look stunning.â
âThank you, Mom,â you said, offering her a small smile. Your gaze flicked briefly to Seonghwa, who was still watching you. His expression was unreadable, but the intensity of his stare made your skin heat.
âSeonghwaâs been keeping me company while you were getting ready,â your mother said, her tone light and conversational.
âGood to know heâs capable of that,â you replied, unable to resist a teasing jab.
Seonghwaâs lips quirked upward in a small smirk. âI aim to impress.â
You rolled your eyes but couldnât suppress the faint twitch of amusement at the corners of your mouth.
âWell,â your mother said, clasping her hands together, âyou two should get going. Donât keep your reservation waiting. Drive safe, Seonghwa.â
âOf course,â Seonghwa said smoothly, nodding toward the front door.
You paused mid-step, turning to him with a raised brow. âYouâre driving?â
âI always do,â he replied, already pulling the keys from his pocket. âWhy? Unless youâd rather drive yourself?â
You huffed softly, walking past him toward the front door. âJust try not to kill us.â
âIâll do my best,â he quipped, following you outside.
The chrome silver sports car parked in the driveway was unmistakably hisâsleek, polished, and oozing with understated wealth, much like its owner.
Seonghwa stepped ahead to open the passenger door for you, a gentlemanly gesture that caught you off guard. You slid into the seat without comment, the faint scent of leather and his cologne enveloping you.
Moments later, he was in the driverâs seat, starting the car with a low purr of the engine.
âThis should be interesting,â he murmured, glancing at you with a playful glint in his eyes before shifting the car into gear and pulling out of the driveway. The soft hum of the engine filled the car as Seonghwa drove, his hands relaxed on the steering wheel. You leaned against the window, watching as the glittering skyline of Seoul gradually faded into quieter roads and open spaces.
You frowned, glancing at him. âThis doesnât look like Gangnam or any of the other districts people like you usually frequent. Where are we going?â
He smirked, the faint glow of the dashboard highlighting his sharp profile. âRelax. Youâll like it.â
âWill I?â you shot back, your voice tinged with doubt. âCEOs like you go beyond Seoul?â
âYouâre a CEO too,â Seonghwa chuckled, a low, amused sound that made you glance at him again. âExpensive doesnât always mean good,â he said, his tone teasing. âSeems like the guys youâve been with before just took you to the basics.â
You blinked, taken aback by his comment. âExcuse me?â
He shrugged, a playful grin tugging at his lips. âWhat? Itâs not my fault if your standards have been... uninspired.â
âUninspired?â you repeated, your voice incredulous.
âYouâll see what I mean,â he replied smoothly, clearly enjoying your reaction.
You huffed, crossing your arms. âIâll have you know, Iâve been to some of the best places in Seoul.â
âGood for you,â he said, his grin widening. âBut tonight, Iâm showing you something better.â
You bit back a retort, deciding it wasnât worth the argument. Instead, you turned your attention back to the window as the car began winding up a steep hill.
Moments later, Seonghwa pulled into a small parking lot at the top. The restaurant in front of you was nothing like what youâd expected. It was simple yet elegant, with warm lanterns casting a golden glow on its wooden façade.
âThis is where weâre eating?â you asked, unable to hide your surprise.
âOne of my favorites,â he said, stepping out of the car. âCome on.â
You followed him inside, where the soft murmur of conversation and the faint aroma of freshly prepared dishes greeted you. The hostess bowed and led you down a quiet hallway to a private room at the end.
The room was intimate and tastefully decorated, with a low table surrounded by plush cushions. A large window stretched along one wall, offering a breathtaking view of Seoulâs twinkling lights below.
âNot bad, right?â Seonghwa said as he gestured for you to sit.
You hesitated for a moment before settling onto one of the cushions. âThe view is⌠nice,â you admitted grudgingly.
He smirked, taking the seat opposite you. âI told you I know good places. You just had to trust me.â
A server arrived to pour tea and hand you both menus. As you glanced over the options, you couldnât help stealing a glance at Seonghwa. He looked completely at ease, his sharp features softened by the warm glow of the room. For a brief moment, you wondered if there was more to him than the infuriating person youâd known for years.
As the server returned with the first round of dishes, you took a moment to admire the spread. The plates were elegantly arranged, and the aroma of fresh ingredients filled the room.
âThis looks amazing,â you admitted, glancing at Seonghwa.
He smirked, leaning back against the cushion. âTold you I know good spots.â
You picked up your chopsticks and sampled one of the dishes, your eyes widening slightly at the burst of flavor. âOkay, Iâll give you this. The food is actually good.â
He chuckled, watching you with a satisfied expression. âYou sound surprised.â
âWell, forgive me for underestimating someone who usually dines at places where the plates are more decorative than functional,â you quipped, a playful edge to your tone.
âTouchĂŠ,â he replied, reaching for his glass of tea. âBut Iâll have you know, Iâve always preferred places like this. The hype about fine dining is overrated.â
You raised an eyebrow. âReally? Youâre saying that after all the times youâve been photographed at Michelin-starred restaurants?â
He smirked. âAppearances. You know how it is.â
You rolled your eyes but couldnât argue. After all, youâd played the same game for the sake of business and image.
As the meal progressed, the conversation turned unexpectedly candid.
âSo,â you said, setting your chopsticks down for a moment, âwhy did you agree to this? The engagement, I mean.â
He met your gaze, his expression calm but serious. âDo I really have a choice? My companyâs struggling, and our families are⌠insistent.â
âYou couldâve said no,â you countered, tilting your head slightly.
âAnd let my parents deal with the fallout?â he said with a dry chuckle. âYou know how they are. Saying no wasnât really an option.â
You sighed, swirling the tea in your cup. âYeah, I get that. My parents were just as persistent.â
There was a moment of silence before he spoke again, his tone quieter. âWhat about you? Why didnât you refuse?â
You hesitated, the memory of his parentsâ heartfelt words at brunch flashing through your mind. âTheyâve always been kind to me,â you admitted. âI couldnât stand the thought of letting them down when theyâre already dealing with so much.â
He studied you for a moment, his expression unreadable. âYou really care about them, huh?â
You shrugged, uncomfortable with the shift in the conversation. âThey were always good to me. Thatâs all.â
The server returned with dessert, a delicate plate of mochi and a pot of freshly brewed tea. Seonghwa gestured toward the dish. âTry the matcha one. Itâs their specialty.â
You picked one up and took a small bite, nodding in approval. âNot bad.â
He laughed softly. âNot bad is high praise coming from you.â
You shot him a look but couldnât help the small smile tugging at your lips.
As the meal wrapped up, Seonghwa glanced at the time and stood. âReady to head back?â
You nodded, following him out to the car. The night air was crisp, and the stars were faintly visible against the dark sky.
Sliding into the passenger seat, you glanced at him as he adjusted the rearview mirror. âYou didnât drink tonight,â you noted.
He flashed a quick grin. âSomeone had to drive.â
You smirked. âResponsible and considerate. Who knew?â
He chuckled as he pulled out of the parking lot, the car humming softly as it began the descent back down the hill. âDonât get used to it.â
The drive was quiet but not unpleasant. You found yourself stealing glances at him, surprised by the unexpected side of Seonghwa youâd seen tonight. He seemed focused on the road, his hands steady on the wheel, but his presence filled the quiet space between you.
âYouâre awfully quiet,â he remarked after a while, glancing at you briefly before returning his attention to the road.
âJust⌠thinking,â you replied, shifting slightly in your seat.
He arched an eyebrow. âAbout what?â
You hesitated, unsure if you wanted to share your thoughts. âAbout tonight,â you said vaguely.
He chuckled softly, his lips curling into a small smile. âWhat about tonight? The food? The view? Or⌠me?â
You shot him a look, your cheeks warming slightly. âDonât flatter yourself.â
âToo late,â he teased, the smirk not leaving his face.
Rolling your eyes, you turned your attention to the window, watching the city lights grow brighter as you neared Seoul. âI was just surprised, thatâs all. Tonight wasnât what I expected.â
âIn a good way, I hope?â he asked, his tone suddenly less teasing and more curious.
You didnât answer immediately, considering your words carefully. âIt was⌠different. Iâll leave it at that.â
He let out a low laugh, shaking his head. âAlways so guarded. You havenât changed much.â
The comment made you stiffen slightly, your gaze snapping back to him. âAnd you think you know me so well?â
âIâve known you for years, Y/N,â he replied, his voice calm but firm. âMaybe not everything about you, but enough to know how you are.â
The weight of his words hung in the air, stirring memories youâd long tried to bury. Memories of the nights youâd spent together in college, and the way heâd brushed it off as though it meant nothing.
You looked away, your voice quiet. âMaybe you donât know me as well as you think.â
The silence that followed was thick with unspoken tension, but Seonghwa didnât push further.
As the car turned onto your familyâs driveway, the mansion loomed ahead, its windows glowing warmly against the night. He pulled to a smooth stop near the front entrance, cutting the engine.
âThanks for tonight,â you said, your voice a little more composed as you unbuckled your seatbelt.
He nodded, leaning back in his seat. âAnytime.â
You reached for the door handle but paused, glancing back at him. âWhy did you take me there?â
He looked at you, his gaze steady. âBecause I thought you deserved a real dinner, not something staged for appearances.â
The sincerity in his tone caught you off guard, and for a moment, you werenât sure how to respond.
âGoodnight, Seonghwa,â you said finally, stepping out of the car before he could say anything else.
As you walked toward the door, you could feel his gaze on you, lingering like a question you werenât ready to answer.
-x-x-x-
The week flew by in a whirlwind of meetings and deadlines, and before you knew it, Friday evening had arrived. You found yourself standing in front of your closet, deliberating on what to wear to Yeosangâs 30th birthday party.
The party was being held at Mingiâs bar, a sleek and exclusive venue that was a favorite among your social circle. Yeosang, who you had known since he was still crawling around in diapers, had insisted on a lively celebration, and you werenât about to miss it.
You finally settled on a fitted, navy cocktail dress with subtle sequins that shimmered under the light, pairing it with silver heels. After one final glance in the mirror, you grabbed your clutch and headed out.
When you arrived, the bar was already buzzing with energy. A live DJ played upbeat music, and laughter and chatter filled the air. The space had been reserved entirely for the party, with a section of tables arranged for gifts and a custom cake shaped like a stethoscope and a scalpelâa nod to Yeosangâs career. His family owned a chain of hospitals and he was a fourth year resident in neurosurgery. His mother was the doctor that took care of your momâs pregnancy with you and your twin.
âY/N!â
You turned to see Yeosang himself, looking dashing in a tailored suit. He greeted you with a wide smile, pulling you into a warm hug.
âHappy birthday, Yeosang,â you said, handing him a small, elegantly wrapped gift.
âYou didnât have to, but thank you!â He beamed, placing the gift on the table before turning back to you. âYou look amazing, by the way. Are you planning to steal the spotlight from me tonight?â
You laughed. âHardly. This is your night, doctor.â
As you exchanged a few more pleasantries, Hongjoong appeared beside you, his arm draped casually over your shoulder. âThere you are,â he said. âI thought youâd back out last minute.â
âNot this time,â you replied, rolling your eyes. âItâs Yeosangâs 30th. How could I miss it?â
âGood,â Yeosang said, grinning. âNow, go grab a drink and have fun. You work too much, Y/N.â
You chuckled, nodding as you made your way to the bar.
At the counter, you spotted Nari sitting beside Yunho, her cheeks flushed as she laughed at something he had said. Yunho caught sight of you and waved.
âY/N!â he called out. âJoin us!â
You smiled and approached, Nari immediately scooting over to make room.
âHi, Ms. Y/N,â Nari said cheerfully, her tone more relaxed than usual. âIsnât this place amazing?â
âIt is,â you replied, ordering a drink. âMingi always outdoes himself. You donât need to use honorifics with me, Nari, weâre not at work.â
Nari nodded with a smile. âIâll try.â
As you sipped your cocktail, a familiar voice behind you made you turn.
âFancy seeing you here,â Seonghwa said, his tone teasing.
He was dressed sharply, as always, in a dark blazer and slacks that complemented his broad shoulders. His hair was slightly tousled, giving him a more casual yet polished look.
âSeonghwa,â you acknowledged coolly, raising your glass slightly. âSurprised you made it.â
âWhy? Because Iâm such a workaholic?â he replied, smirking. âEven I take breaks occasionally, Ms. CEO.â
âRare, but good to know,â you said, turning your attention back to your drink.
Hongjoong appeared moments later, clapping Seonghwa on the back. âCome on, man. Letâs go grab a drink and join the others.â
Seonghwa gave you a lingering glance before following Hongjoong into the crowd.
As the night went on, the music grew louder, and the atmosphere became more spirited. You found yourself chatting with old friends and acquaintances, laughing and catching up. But every now and then, you felt Seonghwaâs gaze on you from across the room, a quiet intensity that was impossible to ignore.
The music pulsed through the bar, the crowd thickening as more guests arrived. You were just about to grab another drink when you noticed a familiar face making his way toward you. Jaehwan.
âY/N,â he greeted you with a bright smile, his presence as confident as ever. âLong time no see.â
You tensed slightly but masked it with a smile, trying to keep things cordial. âJaehwan. Didnât expect to see you here.â
âYeosang and I go way back, you know? We work together now,â he said with a casual shrug, his dark eyes glimmering with a hint of amusement. âAnd with you being here, itâs the perfect chance to catch up. Can I get you a drink?â
You didnât particularly want to spend more time with him, but you couldnât exactly brush him off. âIâm good, thanks.â
He raised an eyebrow at your response, clearly not used to being turned down. âOh, come on. Just one drink. For old timesâ sake?â
You hesitated. The history you shared with Jaehwan was complicated. You had been together for years, but it was always an exhausting cycle of breaking up and making up, seeing other people in the middle, until one day, you simply couldnât do it anymore.
âHonestly, Jaehwan, Iâm not interested in reminiscing right now,â you replied, trying to keep your tone light but firm. âIâm just here to enjoy the party.â
Jaehwan didnât seem put off by your words. Instead, his grin only grew. âYouâre still as beautiful as ever, you know?â He leaned in just a little closer, his voice dropping to a more intimate tone. âIâve seen you in the news and in interviews, but youâre even more stunning in person.â
Your eyes flicked away, trying to avoid the lingering gaze that made you uncomfortable. âThanks,â you said, though you didnât quite mean it. âI should get back to Yeosang.â
Before you could step away, Jaehwan reached out, gently placing a hand on your arm. âYou know, I never understood why we ended things. We were so good together, Y/N.â His voice was soft, almost coaxing, as though trying to reopen a door you had carefully shut.
You stiffened, feeling your chest tighten. âWe werenât good together. Not in the long run.â
Jaehwanâs expression faltered slightly, but only for a second. âYouâre still holding onto that, huh?â he asked, his voice tinged with a mix of disbelief and frustration. âI thought we were past it. You never gave me a real chance to explain.â
You looked him square in the eyes, your heart racing. âThereâs nothing to explain, Jaehwan. We both know how it ended. And why.â
His face softened for a moment, the charm slipping, replaced by something more genuine. âI was an idiot, Y/N. I know that now. I shouldnât have played with your feelings like I did.â He paused, searching your face as if trying to read you. âBut Iâm here now. If you want to talk, start fresh... Iâm open to it.â
You exhaled slowly, feeling your frustration rise again. Youâd put so much energy into moving on from him, and here he was, trying to pull you back into his orbit. âI donât want to start fresh, Jaehwan. Iâve moved on. Iâm not interested in going backwards.â
His face tightened, though his smile never completely disappeared. âThatâs a shame. I always thought we had something special.â
You shook your head, stepping back slightly, creating some distance. âWe did. But that was a long time ago.â
As you took a step back to leave the conversation behind, Jaehwan called out, his voice softer than before. âIâll always be here if you change your mind, Y/N. Donât forget that.â
You turned on your heel, walking toward the other side of the bar, not wanting to hear any more. It had been a long time since youâd seen him, but the feelings his presence stirred up were all too familiarâfrustration, confusion, and that lingering sense of unresolved tension. But you reminded yourself that it was okay. It was okay to feel whatever you felt. Six years of being with someone is a long time.
Meanwhile, across the bar, Seonghwa had noticed the exchange from a distance. He stood talking to Mingi, San, and Jongho, but his eyes kept flicking over to where you were conversing with Jaehwan.
âWho was that guy with Y/N? Seems familiar.â Seonghwa asked casually, though there was a slight edge to his tone.
Mingi followed his gaze. âOh, thatâs Jaehwan. Heâs a doctor, works with Yeosang. He and Y/N used to date... for a long time, actually.â
Seonghwaâs lips tightened. âOh. That was the guy?â He knew you were dating someone previously, but he didnât really ask Hongjoong for any details before, and Hongjoong never told him anything about it. You kept your relationship strictly private, so there were no articles about this either,
San, ever the one to offer the juicy details, spoke up. âYeah, they were on and off for years. Six years, I think. But they finally broke up for good. Y/Nâs pretty done with him.â
Seonghwaâs gaze darkened as he watched Jaehwan take a step closer to you to talk to you again, leaning in just a bit too much for his liking. âI see. And he thinks he has a chance?â
Jongho raised an eyebrow, surprised by the fact that Seonghwa was concerned about you. âSounds like it. But I wouldnât worry too much, Seonghwa. Y/N doesnât seem interested in going back down that road.â
Seonghwa didnât respond immediately, his eyes still trained on you, the lines of his jaw tightening ever so slightly.
âI wouldnât be so sure,â he muttered under his breath, his focus now entirely on the conversation unfolding between you and Jaehwan.
You were trying to shake off the lingering tension from your conversation with Jaehwan when you turned to the bartender and ordered a blowjob shot, hoping the sweet, creamy taste would ease your nerves.
Jaehwan, however, wasnât finished. He leaned in again, the subtle scent of cologne still lingering around him. "I still don't understand, Y/N," he said with a low chuckle. "You and I could make it work again. I mean, we've always had chemistry, right?"
You gave him a tight smile, the first sip of the shot barely numbing the irritation bubbling in your chest. "Jaehwan, I told you already. I donât think this is going to work out. Letâs just leave it at that."
But Jaehwan wasn't ready to let go. "Come on, you canât just throw away everything we had. I know you still feel something, Y/N." His hand brushed your arm, a touch too familiar, and you fought the urge to pull away.
Seonghwa had enough, and he made his way through the crowd. He moved with purpose, his sharp gaze landing on you and Jaehwan, his posture stiff with a quiet authority that demanded attention.
Jaehwan, oblivious to Seonghwa's growing irritation, smiled as he leaned a little closer to you. "I know you and I had our issues, butâ"
Seonghwaâs voice interrupted him, smooth yet firm. "I think youâve had enough time with my fiancĂŠe."
You froze, Jaehwan blinking in surprise. âFiancĂŠe?â He glanced from Seonghwa to you, confusion and curiosity in his eyes. âWait, since when are you twoââ
Without waiting for a response, Seonghwa took a step forward, his eyes never leaving Jaehwan. But it was his attention on you that made your heart skip a beat. As you took another sip of the shot, a small smear of whipped cream lingered on your bottom lip.
Seonghwa noticed, and before you could react, he reached forward, his thumb gently brushing against your lower lip to wipe away the cream. His touch was tender but purposeful, his gaze never leaving yours.
Jaehwanâs eyes widened in disbelief, clearly caught off guard by the intimate gesture. "What the hell?" he muttered under his breath, his posture stiffening as he tried to regain some control of the situation. âWho are you, again?â
Seonghwaâs voice was cool, yet there was a hint of something protective behind it. "Iâm Park Seonghwa. Y/Nâs fiancĂŠ." He didnât give Jaehwan a chance to respond before adding, "We havenât made our relationship public yet."
Jaehwanâs gaze flicked to your hand, taking note of the lack of a ring. "But⌠thereâs no ring," he remarked, his voice edged with confusion. "Is this some kind of⌠business arrangement?"
Seonghwaâs lips curved into a slight smirk, the tension between them almost palpable. "Like I said, our relationship isnât public yet," he said coolly, his eyes flicking to you for a moment before returning to Jaehwan. "Weâre keeping things under wraps for now."
Jaehwan stood there, stunned and silent, his gaze shifting from Seonghwa back to you, as if trying to piece together the situation. He clearly hadnât expected this turn of events, and his earlier confidence had evaporated, replaced by a mix of surprise and frustration.
You, on the other hand, found yourself caught in a strange moment of both relief and discomfort. Seonghwaâs intervention had put an end to Jaehwanâs persistence, but it also dragged you into a deeper web of lies you werenât sure you were ready to untangle.
"Well," Jaehwan said after a long pause, forcing a smile that didnât quite reach his eyes, "Iâll let you two be, then. Enjoy the party, Y/N." With that, he turned and walked off, leaving you and Seonghwa alone once again.
The atmosphere between you and Seonghwa felt heavy, and as much as you wanted to keep a cool, composed exterior, you couldnât shake the tension in the air. Seonghwa had taken control of the situation, but now, it seemed like there were even more unspoken words hanging between you two.
Seonghwa didnât immediately speak, but when he did, his voice was quieter, almost amused. "Youâre welcome."
You shot him a look, not sure whether you should thank him or be frustrated. "What was that all about?"
Seonghwa shrugged, his expression unreadable. "He was getting too comfortable. You shouldnât have to deal with that."
You couldnât argue with that, though it still left a bad taste in your mouth. "You didnât have to step in like that."
He tilted his head, his eyes softening for a brief moment. "I know, but I wanted to. And Iâll do it again if I have to."
You let out a small sigh, your heart fluttering in a way that confused you. The night wasnât what you expected, but somehow, you werenât sure you minded it as much as you thought you would.
Seonghwa turned toward the bar, signaling for another drink. "Come on, you need to enjoy the rest of the party. And besides, you canât have your ex running around ruining your night."
Two shots later, followed by a series of light-hearted conversations with various people, and the buzz from the alcohol was finally starting to set in. The warmth spread through your body, making your head feel lighter, the edges of your thoughts blurring slightly. You leaned back in your seat, your laughter ringing a little louder than you intended, but for once, you didnât mind. You could feel the weight of the night slowly drifting away, the constant tension easing off your shoulders.
Realizing you needed a break, you excused yourself from the crowd and made your way to the restroom. The cool air of the barâs hallway seemed to clear your head for a moment, and when you returned, you didnât feel quite as dizzy as before. You spotted the balcony just ahead, where a few people were gathered, some leaning over the railing, smoking and chatting. The fresh air felt good against your skin, and you welcomed the solitude, a brief reprieve from the noise inside.
You pulled out your phone, unlocking it and glancing at the screen. Yeriâs message was waiting for you.
Yeri: Howâs everything going? Are you okay?
You couldnât help but smile at her caring tone. You quickly typed your response:
You: Iâm good. Just needed some air. Itâs been a lot tonight, but Iâm managing. I'll tell you everything later.
After sending the message, you leaned against the railing, letting the cool breeze calm your senses. The bustling sounds from the bar seemed far away, and you closed your eyes for a moment, letting the moment of peace sink in.
But of course, peace never lasted long.
You heard footsteps approaching, and before you could turn around, Seonghwaâs voice reached you, smooth and just a little concerned. "You okay out here?"
You opened your eyes and glanced at him. He stood just behind you, his posture relaxed but his eyes watching you closely, as though taking stock of your every movement. You werenât sure if it was the alcohol or just the sheer intensity of the situation, but you felt suddenly boldâbold in a way you hadnât felt in a while.
"Yeah, just needed a break from all the...," you trailed off, glancing back towards the loud, crowded bar. "Everything." You laughed softly, then, almost to yourself. "Itâs kind of overwhelming."
Seonghwa nodded, stepping closer, the space between you narrowing slightly. "I get it. But you should be careful. Youâve had a few drinks tonight." His voice was softer now, gentler, though there was a hint of concern in his eyes.
You tilted your head, meeting his gaze directly, a flicker of challenge lighting your chest. "What, you think I canât handle a couple of drinks?" The words were a little sharper than you intended, but the alcohol had given you the courage to tease him in a way you wouldn't normally do.
He smirked, his lips curving upward in that way that made your heart skip. "Iâm not worried about you handling them," he replied, voice low and laced with something unreadable. "Iâm just worried you might get too comfortable."
Your breath caught for a moment. It wasnât the first time you had noticed how close he was now, his presence almost tangible, like he was becoming a part of the space you occupied. The air between you seemed to thicken, and for a moment, it was just the two of you, the buzz of the party a distant hum.
"Too comfortable?" you repeated, feeling the boldness rise within you like a wave. You took a step closer to him, unconsciously closing the distance, your eyes scanning his face, trying to decipher the sudden shift in his expression. "And why would that be a problem?"
Seonghwaâs eyes flickered down to your lips before returning to meet your gaze. The tension between you two felt palpable, like an invisible thread pulling you closer despite the divide you tried to maintain. He didnât answer immediately, his silence only making the moment more charged, more electric.
"Youâre a lot different when youâre not all business," he said quietly, the playful edge of his voice barely masking the undercurrent of something else. "Maybe Iâm starting to see the real you, Y/N."
Your heart raced at the comment, and you felt your breath hitch in your chest. The alcohol had loosened your inhibitions, but there was something about the way Seonghwa spoke, something about the way he was looking at you, that made you forget for a moment why you were supposed to stay guarded.
You leaned in slightly, your eyes locked with his, and a teasing smile spread across your face. "Maybe you like what youâre seeing."
The words came out almost too easily, the playful challenge in your tone not entirely fake. You could feel your pulse quickening, the thrill of the moment swirling around you.
Seonghwa's eyes darkened just a shade, his lips curling into a smile that was both amused and intrigued. "I think you're right," he said, his voice low, as though he was daring you to take the next step, to push the boundaries further.
For a heartbeat, you two stood there, neither of you moving, the tension thick and humming between you. You had no idea where this was going, no clue what would happen next, but you knew one thing for sure: you were no longer just playing along. Tonight felt different. And the way Seonghwa was looking at youâit seemed like he felt it too.
The moment hung in the air, electric and heady, as the rest of the world seemed to fade into the background. Â You were suddenly aware of how close Seonghwa was, how much you could feel the heat of his body, the rapid rise and fall of his chest as he inhaled deeply. Without thinking, you moved, wrapping your arms around his neck, pulling him closer until there was barely any space between the two of you. His breath hitched slightly at the closeness, and for a moment, neither of you spoke.
"Why are we always in this situation when we've had a couple of drinks?" you asked, your voice quieter now, a bit more vulnerable. You could feel the weight of your words, the tension that had been building between you and him finally reaching its peak.
Seonghwa took a deep breath, his hands resting gently on your waist, and you felt a surge of something strongerâsomething that made you tilt your head just slightly, brushing your lips against his. "You're not going to want me if I make a move," you said, your voice lower, almost a warning.
"I've always wanted you," he whispered against your mouth.
For a moment, everything seemed to stand stillâthe world, the music, the people inside the barâall faded away, leaving only the two of you standing in the cool night air. But then, just as quickly, you pulled back, your breath unsteady, your heart pounding harder than it had a moment ago.
"I'm not falling for that," you said, your voice strained, almost harsh, as if you were trying to distance yourself from the vulnerability that had crept in.
Seonghwaâs expression faltered slightly, and he reached out to touch your arm, as if trying to stop you from pulling away further. But you were already taking a step back, and you could see the hurt flash in his eyes, the confusion.
"I donât want to resent you more," you whispered, your voice small, almost fragile. The words were like a knife to your chest, and as soon as they left your lips, you regretted saying them. The hurt was suddenly evident in your eyes, and the alcohol that had fueled your boldness before was now making everything seem more raw, more real.
Seonghwaâs eyes widened, and his lips parted as if he wanted to say something. But no words came, just the heavy silence that fell between you two. For a moment, you thought he might try to reach for you again, but you turned away, already feeling the sting of regret that followed your confession.
You didnât wait for him to speak. You just turned and left him standing there, the cool night air around you suddenly feeling colder than it had before. You didnât know what you expected from him, but what you knew for sure was that you needed to get away from thisâaway from the tension, the confusion, and the feelings that had begun to resurface.
You quickly made your way back to the entrance of the bar, trying to keep your composure. As you stepped inside, you spotted Hongjoong in the crowd, chatting with a few people near the bar. The moment he saw you, his eyes softened with concern.
"Ready to go?" he asked, his voice gentle.
You nodded, trying to mask the storm of emotions swirling inside you. "Yeah. Let's go home," you said, your voice quieter than usual. You didnât look back at Seonghwa, though you could feel his presence lingering in the back of your mind, heavy and unrelenting.
As you and Hongjoong made your way out of the bar after saying your goodbyes to your friends, you tried to shake off the weight of what had just happened. You didnât know how to feel about Seonghwa anymore, nor about the admission that had slipped from your lips.
-x-x-x-
End of Part One.
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ă ¤ââââââââă ¤ââââââââ ă ¤ââââââ Chapter Twelve: Ma Meilleure Ennemie
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á fluff, angst, fashion designer!hongjoong x model!reader (ft. personal assistant!seonghwa & photographer!wooyoung), slowburn, strangers to lovers, soulmates au if you squint, do french people actually say bonjour irl?
á playlist !
á The night is electric, filled with fleeting glances, moments of tension, and unspoken words hanging in the air. You find yourself caught in a delicate dance between the past and the present, as old wounds resurface in the most unexpected ways. But just when you think youâve built a wall strong enough to keep it all out, everything comes crashing down. Who can you trust when even your own heart feels like a stranger? Will you finally face whatâs been lurking in the shadows, or will you keep running, hoping the past will stay buried? The answers are closer than you thinkâbut are you ready to hear them?
a/n: the way you can tell this is a belated new yearĘźs special... also peep the references hehe
tags: @beabatiny @babymbbatinygirl @vcutparis (ik youĘźre not actually on my taglist but i wanted to add you here haha đ )
Paris glowed as if it were at the very edge of heaven. Streets lined with twinkling fairy lights stretched endlessly, shimmering like stars brought down to earth. The chill of winter softened by the warmth of countless candles flickering in shop windows and the golden glimmer spilling out of bustling cafes. Children darted between the legs of laughing adults, their giggles carried on the crisp evening breeze. Couples strolled hand in hand, their faces illuminated by both the soft light of the decorations and the sheer joy of the season. Fireworks were being prepped along the Seine, their bright colors barely restrained, waiting for the stroke of midnight to explode into celebration.
Yet, amidst all this joy and revelry, there was a quiet heavinessâa void that neither the beauty of Paris nor the energy of the celebrations could fill.
You sat at the edge of your bed, the faint hum of the heater in your apartment the only sound breaking the silence. The festive cheer of the city below felt like a mockery of the hollow ache in your chest. The loneliness that clung to you was suffocating, made worse by the distance between you and Hongjoong. You tried not to think about him, but every laugh that slipped in through your window or every stray cat that crossed the street below brought him to mind. He was everywhere and nowhere all at once, his absence more palpable than any presence could ever be.
Seonghwaâs name suddenly flashed across the screen of your phone, pulling the anchor of your thoughts back to the shore. For a moment, you considered ignoring it altogetherâyou werenĘźt in the mood to do anything at all today, anyway, let alone celebrate the upcoming year. But knowing him, he wouldnât just leave it at one callâheâd keep trying until you answered. With a shaky breath, you swiped to accept.
âHello?â Your voice came out quieter than you intended, and you cursed yourself for the way it wavered.
âHey, I missed you!â Seonghwaâs voice was warm, almost too warm. âI was starting to think youâd forgotten about me.â
You forced a small laugh, but it sounded hollow even to your own ears. âAs if I could. But⌠why the sudden phone call?â
There was a pause, brief but charged, before he spoke again. âWeâre having a New Yearâs Eve party here tonightâand you should definitely come!â
Your heart sank. Of course, heâd call about that. You already knew the agencyâs New Yearâs event was a big deal, but you hadnât planned on going. The thought of being in the same room as Hongjoong, pretending everything was fine when it very clearly wasnât, was almost unbearable.
âI donât know, Seonghwa...â you began, but he cut you off.
âListen,â he said gently, âyouâve been cooped up for too long. Itâll be good for you to get out, be around people.â
You bit your lip, your grip tightening on the phone. He didnât understand. He couldnât. Being around people wasnât the problem. Hongjoong was the problem.
âI just donât think itâs a good idea,â you said, hating how weak you sounded.
Seonghwa sighed, and you could picture him running a hand through his hair, the way he always did when he was trying to be patient. âItĘźs because of Hongjoong, isnĘźt it?â
Your breath hitched, and the silence that followed was damning. Of course, he knew. He always knew.
âHeâs not going to bother you,â Seonghwa said softly. âIâll make sure of it. You can stick with me the whole night if you want. Hell, Iâll even block his line of sight if itâll make you feel better.â
You couldnât help but laugh at that, though it was brief and tinged with sadness. âI donât think thatâs physically possible, Seonghwa.â Your fingers tightened around the edge of your desk, your chest tightening. âAnd itâs not just that,â you admitted. âI donât know if I can handle pretending to be okay. I feel like Iâll just ruin the mood.â
âRuin the mood? Are you kidding?â Seonghwaâs laugh was light but not dismissive. âYouâre the highlight of any room you walk into. Trust me, no oneâs expecting you to put on a show. Just be there.â
Before you could respond, Wooyoungâs voice burst through the receiver. âHey, I know this phone number!â he beamed before straight up snatching the phone from Seonghwa. âHow come youĘźre picking up SeonghwaĘźs calls and not mine?â
Your eyebrow went up in confusion. âYouĘźve been calling me?â
âNo, but you should be able to telepathically sense my soul whenever I want you to call me.â
âWooyoung, give me back my phone!â
âNo way! Sheâs laughing now, thanks to me.â
Despite yourself, you smiled, warmth seeping into the cracks of your heart. âWell, hello to you too, Wooyoung.â
âHey there,â Wooyoung greeted. âNow, listen up. Youâre coming tonight. No arguments. Weâre saving you a seat and everything. And you know what? If you cross paths with Hongjoong and things get weird, just yell my name, and Iâll come running. Deal?â
Your smile faltered at the mention of Hongjoong yet again, but Wooyoung didnât give you a chance to dwell on it. âI mean it,â he continued. âYouâve been MIA, and honestly, we miss you. So, get dressed, look stunning, and show up. Thatâs an order.â
âWooyoung,â Seonghwa scolded lightly, âlet her decide on her own.â
âNope,â Wooyoung countered. âSheâs coming. End of discussion.â
You wanted to go. You really did. But the thought of walking into that office, of seeing Hongjoong and pretending like everything was fine... It felt impossible. The wound between you wasnât just freshâit was still bleeding, raw and unhealed.
What if he ignored you again? What if he didnât?
That was the cruelest part. You didnât know what was worseâhis cold indifference or the possibility that heâd look at you with anything resembling regret.
Your thumb hovered over the screen, contemplating an excuse to end the call. It wasnât that you didnât trust Seonghwa. You knew heâd keep his word, stay by your side, shield you from whatever awkwardness might arise. But it wasnât enough.
Because no matter how much you wanted to deny it, this wasnât just about Hongjoong avoiding you. It was about the hollow ache in your chest, the way your mind kept replaying that almost-kiss, that devastating moment when he stepped away.
You hated how much you missed him. How much you still cared, despite everything.
But maybe you were being selfish. Maybe you needed to stop wallowing in your own misery and try to move on. Maybeâ
âStill there?â Seonghwaâs voice broke through your thoughts, soft but insistent.
âUh⌠yeah. Sorry.â
âYou donât have to decide right now,â he said, and you could hear the sincerity in his tone. âJust think about it, okay? I really think itâll do you some good. And if it gets too overwhelming, Iâll take you home myself. No questions asked.â
âOkay,â you said quietly, though you werenât sure you meant it.
âPromise youâll think about it?â
âPromise.â
âGood,â Seonghwa said, and you could almost hear the smile in his voice. âAnd hey, Wooyoung wants to say something to you.â
Wooyoungâs voice came back, loud and chipper. âIf you donât come, Iâm eating all the desserts. Every single one. Youâve been warnedâmind you, half of these are your favorites!â
You laughed, a genuine one this time. âNoted.â
Meanwhile, at the office, Hongjoong found himself standing beside a table, his hands busy arranging patterned fabrics, though his thoughts were anything but focused on the task at hand. Wooyoungâs voice carried across the room, loud enough to be heard by everyone nearby, including him, making Hongjoong look up in mild surprise, only to see him and Seonghwa engaged in a phone call.
As soon as a laugh echoed faintly through the air from the other line, Hongjoongâs entire world seemed to grind to a halt. It wasnât even loudâjust a soft, almost timid soundâbut it hit him like a hurricane.
That laugh.
It was yours.
There was no mistaking it, even after the days of silence that stretched between you like a vast ocean. His hands froze, the patterned cloth heâd been meticulously arranging slipping from his grasp as his breath caught in his throat.
It was ridiculous, really. Heâd heard your laugh countless times before, in moments both mundane and extraordinary. But now? Now it felt like a lifeline, a fleeting tether to something heâd been desperately trying to push away yet couldnât help but crave.
God, how long had it been since heâd heard it? Days? Weeks? It felt like a lifetime. And to think, heâd spent all that time convincing himself that distance was the right thing to do, that staying away from you would somehow make things easier for both of you. What a joke. He wasnât sure what hurt moreâthe hollow ache of missing you or the self-inflicted wounds of his own stubbornness.
As your voice murmured something indistinct on the other end of Seonghwaâs phone, Hongjoong felt the sharp sting of longing cut through him like glass. He wanted to hear it more clearly, to hold onto every word, every inflection, as if they could somehow fill the empty spaces youâd left behind. And damn it, he wanted to be the reason you were laughing. Not Wooyoung, not Seonghwaâhim. He wanted to be the one who could coax that sound from you, the one youâd turn to when the world felt too heavy or too bright.
For a fleeting, irrational moment, he wanted to march across the room, grab Seonghwaâs phone, and press it to his ear. He wanted to say your name, hear how youâd respond, even if it was with confusion or anger. But he didnât move. He couldnât. Â
What good would it do? What could he possibly say to you that would make up for everything? For the cold shoulders, the deliberate avoidance, the way heâd pulled away just when things had begun to shift between you two? He was a goddamn hypocrite, and he knew it. He hated himself for it. Â
Because the truth was, he didnât want to keep you at armâs length. Not even a little. Every fiber of his being screamed against the distance heâd forced between you, begged him to close it, to reach out, to pull you back into the space heâd so selfishly carved out for you in his life. But then that ugly, insidious voice in his head would creep back in, reminding him why heâd done it in the first place. Â
What could he offer you? He was a man with flaws, with baggage he wishes not to let you carry. And you... you deserved more than he could give. Â
So he kept his distance, even though it killed him. Even though he could feel the cracks widening in the carefully constructed wall heâd built around himself. He told himself it was for your own good, that he was protecting you, even as the lie twisted like a knife in his gut. He didnât believe it anymoreânot really. But admitting that would mean admitting how badly heâd messed up, and he wasnât sure he had the strength for that. Â
Hearing you laugh again, even from afar, was both a balm and a wound. It reminded him of everything he was missing, everything heâd willingly let slip through his fingers. He wanted to fix it, to fix everything, but the fear of making things worse kept him rooted in place. Â
The voice of another employee of hisâYunho, broke through the fog in his mind, pulling him back to the present. âHongjoong? You okay?â Â
He nodded stiffly, forcing a tight-lipped smile. âYeah. Just... tired.â Â
But as Yunho turned back to his task, Hongjoongâs gaze lingered on Seonghwa. He watched as his friend smiled faintly, clearly amused by something youâd said. And for just a moment, the ache in Hongjoongâs chest flared into something sharperâsomething dangerously close to jealousy. Â
He shook his head, forcing the thought away. This was his choice, wasnât it? Heâd made his bed. Now he had to lie in it, no matter how much it hurt.  Â
The call ended with Wooyoungâs playful taunts still echoing in your mind, the warmth and humor of his voice a stark contrast to the silence that quickly reclaimed your apartment. You lowered your phone, letting it rest loosely in your hand as your gaze wandered to the window. Outside, the city lights twinkled in celebration of the approaching New Year, but their brightness felt muted, distant. The faint hum of life beyond the glass only highlighted the silence around you, the stillness wrapping itself around your shoulders like a heavy, unwelcome shawl. Â
You leaned against the window frame, staring out at the faint reflections of your own eyes in the glass. How long has it been since you let yourself enjoy anything? Since youâd laughed without reservation, without that ache trailing behind it? Days? Weeks? The timeline blurred in your mind, consumed by the fog of isolation. Â
It wasnât just the absence of Hongjoong that weighed on you, though his presenceâor lack thereofâwas an unshakable specter. It was the guilt of shutting out Seonghwa and Wooyoung, the two people who had always been there for you, unwavering and unrelenting in their support. They didnât deserve your cold shoulder, yet you had given it to them anyway, consumed by your inability to process your own emotions. Â
But even that guilt paled in comparison to the ache you felt for Hongjoong. Â
You missed him. There was no denying it, no point in pretending otherwise. You missed his laugh, his rare but heartwarming compliments, the way heâd tilt his head when he was deep in thought. The void he left in your life felt insurmountable, and yet you had no idea how to bridge it. Every attempt at reconciliation seemed doomed from the start, the tension between you so thick it felt almost tangible. Â
What if I go and ruin everything? The thought sliced through you like a blade, sharp and unyielding. Would your presence at the party make things worse? Would it sour his mood, dampen his excitement for the New Year? Â
But then, Seonghwaâs voice came back to you, his gentle encouragement echoing in your mind. He was rightâyou couldnât keep doing this to yourself. You couldnât keep hiding away, letting the world pass you by while you drowned in your own sorrow.Â
With a sigh, you pushed away from the window and headed toward your closet. Each step felt like an act of defiance against the part of you that wanted to stay buried under the covers, but you forced yourself forward. You werenât going for Hongjoong, you told yourself firmly. You were going for Seonghwa and Wooyoung. For yourself.
As you scanned your closet, fingers brushing over the fabric of your clothes, you tried to suppress the part of you that hopedâprayedâthat Hongjoong might notice you. That he might see you, really see you, and understand just how much you missed him.
But that was just wishful thinking, wasnât it?
Before you could dwell on it further, you grabbed an outfit and set it aside, picking up your phone to send a quick message. Â
Iâll be there. Â
Thank you for the encouragement :)Â Â
Tell Wooyoung weâll be competing on who can eat the largest amount of food by the end of the party!
The response came almost instantly. Â
knew you would cave in lol
this is woo btw Â
and donât be too confident, i wonât even give you a chance to win >:)
A small smile tugged at your lips as you read the message. You set your phone down, grabbed your outfit, and headed to the bathroom. Tonight, you werenât going to let the weight of the past hold you back.
But deep down, you couldnât deny the truth.
You wanted to see him. Even if it was from a distance.
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The clatter of chairs and tables echoed through the expansive room as Hongjoong stood at the center of the chaos, his sharp eyes tracking every movement. Employees walked around, fixing decorations, adjusting lights, and arranging catering setups. The air was filled with the subtle hum of excitement, yet he felt oddly detached from it all. He issued instructions left and right, his voice professional and commanding, but beneath his composed exterior, his thoughts churned relentlessly.Â
The memory of Seonghwaâs phone call from earlier kept replaying in his mind, an endless loop of voices and laughter that wasnât meant for him to hear. He had caught snippets of Wooyoungâs playful banter, the sound of your distant chuckle, faint but unmistakable. Heâd wondered if they were trying to convince you to come to the party. He prayed they were. The idea of you not being there made his chest feel hollow.Â
He tried to focus on the present, on the tasks at hand, but his mind stubbornly returned to you. Were you debating whether or not to show up? The last time you spoke, things were left unresolved, painful and raw. He knew you had every right to avoid him. Hell, if he were in your shoes, he wouldnât blame you for staying as far away as possible. But selfishly, he wanted to see you.Â
No, he needed to see you.
His stomach twisted at the thought of you deciding not to come. He couldnât bear it. He imagined what you might wear tonight, how effortlessly stunning youâd look, and the ache in his heart deepened. If things had been differentâif he hadnât been such an absolute assholeâhe wouldâve spent the evening showering you with compliments, unable to hold back the admiration he always felt when you were near.Â
But heâd ruined that.
The guilt gnawed at him, almost unbearable in its intensity. He sighed heavily, running a hand through his hair. Were you going to take the bus? He hated the thought of you braving the crowded streets alone on a night like this. A part of him toyed with the idea of showing up at your apartment unannounced, offering to drive you himself. But he dismissed the thought almost immediately. You hated himâhe was certain of it. The last thing he wanted was to make things worse.
Still, the worry lingered. He had no idea if you were okay, if youâd even decided to leave your apartment.
âHyung, do you mind? Youâre in the way,â a sharp voice interrupted his spiraling thoughts. Hongjoong turned to see Wooyoung, sleeves rolled up as he adjusted the trays of pastries on the table. The younger manâs expression was irritated, though that was nothing new.
âHey, waitââ
Wooyoung turned with an exasperated look, his brows furrowing as his eyes landed on Hongjoong. âWhat now?â he asked flatly. âIâm busy, you know.â
âPlease,â Hongjoong began, his tone unusually soft, almost pleading. âJust hear me out.â
Wooyoung raised an eyebrow, skepticism written all over his face. âThis better be worth my time. What is it?â
Hongjoong swallowed hard, his throat feeling dry. âI wanted to apologize,â he said quietly. âFor that day. For how I acted. I was out of line, and I feel fucking horrible about it. I shouldnât have taken my frustrations out on you, and I know everything I said was unjustifiable. I understand your behavior towards me, and Iââ
Wooyoung studied him for a long moment, his expression unreadable. Finally, he sighed and shrugged. âI didnât really mind your attitude that day. You were being a jerk, yeah, but Iâve dealt with worse. What really bothered me then, though, was the way you were treating her.â
Hongjoong flinched at the mention of you, guilt hitting him like a tidal wave.
âSo, if we go by my logic,â Wooyoung continued, crossing his arms, âsince youâre still acting like a bastard towards her, Iâm still mad at you.â
Hongjoong nodded, his voice barely above a whisper. âI know. Youâre right.â
Wooyoungâs gaze softened slightly, though his tone remained firm. âSo, whatâs the catch, then? What do you want from me?â
âI justâŚâ Hongjoong hesitated, glancing away. âIs she coming tonight?â
Wooyoung blinked, clearly taken aback. He narrowed his eyes suspiciously. âWhy do you care?â
Hongjoong exhaled slowly, struggling to find the right words. âBecauseâŚâ He paused, his shoulders slumping. âBecause I need to know. If sheâs here, Iââ
âYouâll stay away from her,â Wooyoung cut in sharply, his voice cold. âIâm not letting you ruin her night. She doesnât deserve that.â
Hongjoong nodded without hesitation. âI understand.â
Wooyoung studied him for a moment before his expression softened just a fraction. âIf my guess on what youĘźre so worried about is correctâSeonghwa will be picking her up. She wonât have to worry about the bus or anything like that.â
Relief flooded Hongjoongâs features. âThank you.â
As he turned to leave, Wooyoung grabbed his arm, stopping him in his tracks. âListen to me, hyung,â he said, his voice low but firm. âThis is your only chance to fix things with her. If you screw this up, youâre going to lose her forever. Do you understand?â
Hongjoongâs chest tightened as he nodded. âYeah.â
âGood,â Wooyoung said, releasing his arm. âDonât waste it.â
â
You stood in front of the mirror, your reflection staring back at you with an intensity that made your stomach churn. The sleek fabric of your outfit hugged your beautiful form in all the right places, the color complementing your complexion perfectly. Your hair fell just the way you wanted it to, framing your face delicately. Yet, no matter how much you adjusted the hem of your dress or smoothed down nonexistent creases, you couldnât shake the feeling that something was off.
Your hands nervously fidgeted at your sides before moving to smooth your hair again. âDoes this even look good?â you muttered under your breath, biting your lip. The anxious energy buzzing inside you was unusualânormally, you werenât the type to obsess over your appearance. You had a certain confidence about these things, but tonight felt different.
You turned to the side, checking the outfit from another angle, then turned back to face the mirror. Why were you so worked up over this? It wasnât like you were trying to impress anyone. But the longer you stood there, the more the answer lingered just below the surface, teasing you with its obviousness.
Deep down, you knew.
Hongjoong.
You shook your head at yourself, scolding the foolishness brewing in your heart. Why did you care so much about what he might think? Why were you secretly hoping heâd notice you? You let out a humorless laugh, pressing your fingers against the cool surface of the vanity. You didnât even know if you wanted him to approach you tonight. The memory of your last interaction was still fresh, a wound that hadnât fully scabbed over.
But some small, ridiculous part of you hopedâprayedâthat maybe, just maybe, things could be different tonight. That maybe heâd look at you the way he used to, with that spark of admiration in his eyes. Maybe heâd find the courage to talk to you, to apologize properly, to explain why heâd hurt you the way he did. Maybe heâdâ
Your thoughts were interrupted by the buzz of your phone on the countertop. The screen lit up with Seonghwaâs name and a message that read:
Iâm outside.
Walking to the window, you peered outside and saw him leaning casually against his car. When his eyes caught yours, he grinned and waved enthusiastically, his free hand raised high above his head. The sight of his childlike excitement made you chuckle softly, and you returned the wave.
Grabbing your purse, you cast one last glance at the mirror, adjusting your earrings before slipping on your heels. As you made your way out the door, you kept telling yourself to stop overthinking. Tonight wasnât about Hongjoongâit couldnât be. This was your chance to let go of everything, if only for a few hours.
Inside the elevator, you leaned against the wall, staring blankly at the buttons as the floors ticked by. When the elevator stopped on the third floor, Madame Dupont stepped in, her sharp eyes immediately lighting up when she saw you.
âMy dear!â she exclaimed, her voice warm with surprise. âLook at you! You look stunning.â
Her genuine excitement brought a shy smile to your lips. âBonsoir, Madame Dupont,â you greeted, inclining your head politely.
âWhatâs the occasion? You donât usually dress up like this,â she teased, though her tone carried more curiosity than mockery.
You hesitated for a moment, shifting your weight. âMy friends invited me to a New Yearâs party. I thought⌠maybe itâs time I went out and let myself breathe a little.â
Her expression softened, her wrinkled eyes glimmering with something akin to pride. âThatâs wonderful to hear, my dear. You deserve it, truly.â Before you could say anything else, she pulled you into a brief but firm hug, her perfumeâsweet and floralâwrapping around you like a blanket.
When the elevator doors opened on the ground floor, she squeezed your hand gently. âHave fun tonight,â she said with a smile. âYouâve earned it.â
You nodded, touched by her words. âMerci, Madame Dupont. Iâll try.â
The cool night air greeted you as you stepped outside. Seonghwa was quick to spot you, his entire face lighting up as he waved like an overexcited child. âThere she is!â he called out, his voice laced with exaggerated enthusiasm.
You laughed, walking toward him. âYou didnât have to make it that obvious that you missed me, you know.â
âOh, but I did,â he said with a grin as he opened the passenger door for you. âItâs been far too long since we hung out properly.â
You slid into the car, murmuring a soft âthank youâ as you adjusted your dress. But as you settled in, the familiar setting triggered a memory you werenât prepared forâthe last time you were in Hongjoongâs car. You remembered the way heâd glanced at you during that drive, how the silence between you had been heavy but not uncomfortable. How things had been⌠easier.
The smile youâd been wearing faltered slightly. You really missed him.
But tonight wasnât about him. You couldnât let it be.
Seonghwa slipped into the driverâs seat and immediately noticed the change in your demeanor. Though he didnât say anything, his brows furrowed slightly in concern. âSo,â he began, steering the conversation away from whatever was on your mind, âyouâve missed a lot lately.â
âOh?â you asked, forcing your focus back to him.
âYeah,â he said, his tone turning light and teasing. âYou missed Wooyoung accidentally sending a mass email to the wrong group. He meant to send it to the marketing team, but instead, the IT department got a very detailed report about catering options.â
You chuckled softly. âLet me guessâhe blamed it on the system?â
âOf course he did. And donât even get me started on Mingi and his latest prank. He replaced all of Yeosangâs post-it notes with ones that had motivational quotes in Comic Sans.â
You couldnât help but laugh at the image. âSounds like Iâve missed quite a bit of chaos.â
âOh, you have,â Seonghwa agreed with a grin. But as the conversation lulled, your curiosity got the better of you. âWhat about Hongjoong?â you asked hesitantly.
Seonghwaâs expression softened, a knowing look crossing his features. âHeâs⌠different lately,â he admitted after a pause. âNot as talkative as he used to be. Heâs professional, sure, but thereâs something missing. Heâs not himself.â
Worry gnawed at you, but Seonghwa reached over to pat your arm reassuringly. âDonât think about it too much tonight, okay? Letâs just focus on having fun.â
You nodded, though his words did little to ease the tightness in your chest. You wished it were that easy. You truly did.
â
Hongjoongâs fingers curled around the edge of the sink, his reflection staring back at him with a mixture of frustration and nervousness. The soft hum of the fluorescent lights above buzzed faintly, matching the unsettled rhythm of his thoughts. His hair refused to cooperate, each strand mocking his futile attempts to tame it. He combed his fingers through the dark locks for what felt like the hundredth time, letting out a low growl of irritation.
âWhy now?â he muttered under his breath, narrowing his eyes at the rebellious strands. Of all nights, it had to be this one where he couldnât look as put-together as he wanted.
But deep down, he knew it wasnât just about the hair. No amount of fixing or adjusting could cover up the restlessness gnawing at his chest. Tonight was different. Tonight, you were here.
The thought made his stomach twist in an uncomfortable knot. His gaze flickered down to his hands, knuckles white against the sinkâs edge.
âWhy do you care so much?â he asked himself, the question lingering in the air like a stubborn shadow. He already knew the answerâhe just didnât want to say it out loud.
You hadnât spoken in weeks, not properly. Not since the argument that had left things hanging in the air, unresolved and heavy. And yet, here he was, fussing over his appearance like a teenager before their first dance.
It was foolish, wishful even, but a part of him hoped that tonight⌠maybe things would be different. Maybe your eyes would find his across the room. Maybe youâd exchange even just a glance.
The muffled sound of Wooyoungâs voice drifted through the door, jolting him out of his thoughts.
âYouâre finally here!â
His body stiffened.
You were here.
âShit,â he hissed, running a hand over his face before straightening his posture. He took one last look in the mirror, smoothing out the creases in his blazer. It wasnât perfect, but it would have to do.
The moment he stepped out of the bathroom, the atmosphere shifted. The harsh fluorescent lights dimmed, replaced by the soft glow of multi-colored LEDs that washed over the venue in a dreamlike haze. Music played faintly in the background, mingling with the hum of conversations and the occasional burst of laughter.
But Hongjoong wasnât focused on any of that. His eyes darted through the crowd, scanning the sea of faces for one in particular.
Before he could spot you, the stage lights flickered on, illuminating the small platform he had set up in the center of the room. Seonghwa stood there, microphone in hand, his presence commanding attention as he greeted the crowd.
âGood evening, everyone!â Seonghwaâs voice was warm and inviting, drawing cheers and applause from the guests. âThank you all for coming tonight to celebrate not just the end of the year, but also the incredible milestones weâve achieved together. Itâs an honor to have so many talented and inspiring individuals gathered here.â
The applause swelled, and Seonghwa smiled, pausing for effect before continuing. âNow, I wonât keep you from enjoying the night, but before we get started, Iâd like to call up someone very important to say a few wordsâour host, the man behind it all⌠Kim Hongjoong!â
The room erupted into cheers as Seonghwa gestured toward him, and Hongjoong felt a surge of anxiety spike through his chest. He wasnât one to get stage fright, but the thought of speaking while you were out there, somewhere in the crowd, made his throat tighten.
He forced a small smile as he stepped onto the stage, his usual confidence faltering under the weight of his own thoughts.
âThank you, Seonghwa,â he began, his voice steady but lacking its usual vibrancy. âAnd thank you all for being here tonight. This year has been nothing short of extraordinary, and itâs all thanks to the hard work and dedication of everyone in this room.â
His words were genuine, heartfelt, but as he continued, his eyes couldnât stop flickering across the crowd, searching. He tried to keep his composure, but the way his gaze kept shifting didnât go unnoticed by a few observant guests.
âTonight is not just about reflecting on our successes but also about looking forward to the future. I hope this evening will serve as a reminder of the creativity, passion, and drive that brought us all together. Letâs welcome the new year with open arms and make it even better than the last.â
The applause was loud, appreciative, but Hongjoong barely heard it. His eyes finally landed on you.
And you were looking back at him.
For a moment, everything else seemed to blurâtime, sound, the crowd around you both. His heart stuttered in his chest, and his grip on the microphone tightened.
âIâŚâ He paused, clearing his throat to steady himself. âI hope you all have fun tonight. Thank you.â
The crowd cheered again as he stepped off the stage, but the moment had already left him shaken. Across the room, Wooyoung nudged your shoulder gently. âHey, you okay?â
You blinked, startled out of your thoughts, and turned to him with a faint smile. âYeah, Iâm fine.â
Wooyoung didnât look convinced. âAre you sure? You kind of zoned out there for a second.â
You hesitated, your eyes flickering toward the stage where Hongjoong had stood moments ago. âItâs just⌠there are so many high-profile people here. I feel like I donât belong.â
âBullshit,â Wooyoung said bluntly, earning a surprised laugh from you. âSorry for the language, but yeah, thatâs total bullshit. You belong here just as much as anyone else.â
âYouâre just saying that.â
âIâm not.â He crossed his arms, giving you a pointed look. âLook around. People are literally noticing you left and right. Youâre the star tonight.â
Before you could respond, a nearby conversation caught your attention.
âWhoâs that stunning mademoiselle over there?â a woman whispered, her gaze fixed on you.
âSheâs one of Mr. KimĘźs newest models,â her assistant replied, earning a smile of approval from the woman.
Wooyoung grinned triumphantly. âSee? I told you.â
You shook your head, trying to suppress a smile. âYouâre reaching, Woo.â
Before he could argue further, someone from across the room called out his name, and you turned to see a tall man waving enthusiastically.
âSoobin!â Wooyoung called back, his face lighting up.
You nudged him gently. âGo say hi.â
Wooyoung hesitated, glancing back at you. âAre you sure? My priority tonight isââ
âIâll be fine,â you reassured him. âGo. Catch up with your friend.â
It took a little more convincing, but eventually, Wooyoung relented, leaving you alone in the crowd, telling you to stay safe before heading towards the other corner of the room. And as much as you hated to admit it, you wanted the chance to see Hongjoongâkeeping Wooyoung around would lower your chances. You werenât sure what youâd say or do, but the pull was undeniable.
The music swelled, filling the air with a hauntingly beautiful melody that sent shivers cascading down your spine. You recognized the song instantlyâMa Meilleure Ennemie.
Its delicate notes carried a tension that mirrored the one steadily growing in your chest. Each rise and fall of the rhythm felt like it was echoing the flutter of your heartbeat, unstable and erratic.
The lights dimmed and flickered in sync with the music, casting shifting hues of red, blue, and purple over the crowd. The once vibrant room was now a kaleidoscope of moving silhouettes, their faces obscured by the moody lighting and the fog created by the haze machine. You moved cautiously through the throng of people, your heels clicking softly against the polished floor.
With every step, you felt smaller. The towering presence of high-profile figures, their laughter and animated conversations, created an invisible barrier that was difficult to breach. These were people who belonged hereâartists, designers, and models who were not only established but celebrated. They mingled with ease, their confidence palpable, while you felt like an imposter wandering through a world you didnât quite belong to.
You clenched your fingers around the fabric of your dress, the smooth satin offering little comfort against the gnawing self-doubt creeping into your thoughts.
âExcusez-moi.â
A deep voice startled you, and you turned to see an elegantly dressed man with salt-and-pepper hair and a sharp, tailored suit. He looked every bit the part of a veteran in the fashion industry.
âYou are one of Monsieur Kimâs models, no?â he asked, his French accent rolling off his tongue smoothly.
You forced a polite smile, nodding. âYes, I am.â
âAh,â he said, his smile warm but scrutinizing, his eyes scanning you as if evaluating your worth. âI thought so. You have a certain... presence. Unique.â
His words, though intended as a compliment, made your skin prickle with unease. You managed to thank him before he moved on, but the encounter left you feeling even more out of place.
As you continued walking, more people stopped you. Some were kind, their words of admiration genuine, but others were probing, their questions sharp and loaded.
âHow long have you been modeling?â
âWhich agency represents you?â
âDo you think youâre prepared for a career this demanding?â
The last question lingered in your mind long after the conversation ended, gnawing at the cracks in your composure. Am I prepared?
Someone brushes past you, stepping on your foot in the process. You hissed in pain, stumbling back and clutching your arm to steady yourself.
âApologies!â the person called out over their shoulder, but their apology was lost in the sea of voices and music.
You backed away further, retreating to the edges of the room where the lights werenât as harsh, and the crowd wasnât as suffocating. The thrum of conversations and laughter seemed louder now, drowning out the melody of the song that once comforted you.
Your breathing grew shallow, the edges of your vision narrowing as anxiety took root. Your hands trembled slightly as you pressed one against your chest, trying to ground yourself.
Maybe you shouldnât have sent Wooyoung offâŚ
The thought barely formed in your mind before you decided to leave the crowd altogether. You turned, intending to slip away unnoticed, when a warm hand closed gently around your forearm.
âWaitââ
The touch was familiar, so much so that your heart skipped a beat. You didnât need to turn to know who it was.
It was Hongjoong.
Slowly, you turned to face him, and the sight that greeted you nearly knocked the air from your lungs.
Even under the shifting, dim lights, he looked strikingly handsome. His dark hair, though slightly tousled, framed his sharp features perfectly. The tailored blazer he wore fit him impeccably, accentuating his slim build and exuding an understated elegance. But it wasnât just his appearanceâit was the way he held himself, a quiet intensity in his gaze that felt almost magnetic.
He was slightly out of breath, his chest rising and falling as if heâd been rushing. You couldnât help but wonderâhad he been searching for you? The idea made your heart clench with conflicting emotions.
âIâŚâ You opened your mouth, but the words didnât come. You had hoped to catch a glimpse of him tonight, to admire him from a distance and leave it at that. But now, with him standing this close, your resolve crumbled.
Hongjoongâs grip on your arm loosened, but his hand lingered as if afraid you might vanish if he let go completely. âPlease,â he said softly, his voice almost drowned out by the music and chatter around you. âCan we talk? Just for a moment.â
You hesitated, glancing around at the crowd before meeting his gaze again. âHongjoong, I donât think this is the time or placeââ
âThen tell me when,â he interrupted, his voice firm but laced with urgency. âTell me where, and Iâll be there. Just⌠donât push me away like this. Please. Iâm begging you.â His hand tightened ever so slightly on your arm, his desperation evident in the way his brows furrowed, his lips pressing into a thin line as if to hold back words that might spill out too quickly.
Your hesitation deepened, your heart warring against your mind. This is a mistake. Heâs a mistake. But⌠why does it hurt to see him like this?
âI donĘźtâŚâ you began, your voice faltering as your resolve threatened to give way.
âI know Iâve hurt you,â he continued, his voice trembling with emotion. âI know Iâve failed you in ways I canât even begin to explain. But if you walk away now, if you donât let me fix thisââ His voice broke, and he exhaled shakily, dragging a hand through his hair. âIâll regret it for the rest of my life. Donât let this end here. Just one conversation. Thatâs all Iâm asking for.â
You bit your lip, your chest tightening at the rawness of his plea. You wanted to say no, to walk away and preserve the fragile walls youâd built around yourself. But the sincerity in his eyes, the cracks in his usually composed demeanor, made it impossible.
This is dangerous, you thought, your mind screaming at you to pull away. But your heart had already decided.
You sighed, nodding slowly. âFine,â you whispered, the single word barely audible over the noise around you. Relief washed over his face, and for a moment, you hated how much it softened something inside you.
The moment Hongjoongâs hand tightened around your arm and he led you toward the nearest exit, your feet faltered. Panic mixed with confusion, and you instinctively pulled back, halting him in his tracks.
He turned to face you, a flicker of concern flashing in his eyes as he noticed your resistance. His brows knit together, and his lips parted to question you, but you spoke first.
âHongjoong,â you began, your voice a mixture of firm and hesitant, âyou have guests. This is your event. You canât just leave them here like this. What if they notice youâre gone? What if it leaves a bitter taste in their mouths? Theyâreââ
âI donât give a damn about what they think,â he interrupted, his tone sharp yet desperate. His voice cracked ever so slightly, and it was enough to make you pause. âTo hell with it if they think Iâm irresponsible. I donât care if theyâre disappointed, or if they whisper behind my back. All I care about is youâjust you. I need you to talk to me tonightâthatâs all that matters. So, pleaseâŚâ
The intensity in his gaze, the way his voice broke on the word please, made your chest tighten painfully. You sighed, defeated by his resolve but unwilling to make this easy for him.
When he reached for your arm again, you took a step back, hiding it behind you as you shook your head. âYou donât have to drag me with you,â you said, your tone cold but your heart racing. âI have two feet that function perfectly fine, you know.â
For a moment, his face fellâhurt flashed across his features so quickly it was almost imperceptible, but you saw it. And as much as it made guilt twist in your stomach, you knew you had every right to set boundaries. After all, he had been the one to build the fire between the two of you, only to extinguish it when you were most vulnerable.
Still, he nodded, accepting your terms without argument. A couple of minutes later, you found yourself stepping into his office on the highest floor of the building.
The room was dimly lit, the faint glow of the city lights seeping in through the large floor-to-ceiling windows. Papers were scattered across his desk, some even littering the floor. It wasnât dirty, but it wasnât the meticulously organized space you remembered from your last visit. The disarray was a stark contrast to the Hongjoong you knewâor thought you knew.
He closed the door behind him, the soft click echoing in the silence. For a moment, neither of you spoke. The tension in the room was palpable, thick enough to suffocate.
âI know,â he began, his voice low and rough, âthat Iâve been a mess. That Iâve been unfair to you.â He turned toward you, his hands twitching at his sides as if he wasnât sure what to do with them. âIâm not going to stand here and pretend like I havenât made mistakes. I have. Iâve made so many mistakes.â
You crossed your arms over your chest, leaning against the desk to steady yourself. âThen why?â you asked, your voice sharper than you intended. âWhy did you do it? Why did you build this thing between us only to tear it apart?â
Hongjoongâs shoulders sagged, and he ran a hand through his hair, his frustration evident. âBecause I was scared,â he admitted, his voice barely above a whisper. âThat night⌠at your doorstep⌠I almost kissed you. I wanted to. God, I wanted to. But I was standing at the edge of a cliff, and I wasnât sure if I was ready to fall.âHis words sent a sharp pang through your chest. âSo you werenât scared to fall when you were dancing with me at the flower shop?â you demanded, your voice trembling. âWhen youâd look at me like I was the only person in the world? When you kept lighting the fire between us? You werenât scared to do all of that, but the moment we almost kissed, suddenly youâre scared?â
He flinched at your words, and for a brief moment, you saw the guilt etched into his features.
âI was scared of what it meant,â he confessed, his voice rising slightly in desperation. âI was terrified, because I didnât know what would happen if I let myself fall for you. I thought if I stayed away, Iâd be sparing youââ
âSparing me?â you interrupted, your voice rising as tears stung your eyes. âSparing me from what, Hongjoong? From feeling like I was nothing to you? From crying myself to sleep because the one person I trusted to stay decided to leave? You werenât sparing me. You were sparing yourself.â
âI know,â he said, his voice cracking under the weight of his confession. âI know, and I hate myself for it. But I couldnâtââ
âCouldnât what?â you snapped, your chest heaving as the floodgates burst. âCouldnât handle the thought of being vulnerable? Couldnât deal with the possibility of getting hurt? Newsflash, Hongjoong: you hurt me. You left me to deal with everything on my own while you ran away. What are you so scared of?â
âIâve spent so much of my life building walls, focusing on my work, convincing myself that I didnât need anyone. But youâŚâ He took a shaky step toward you. âYou made me want more. And it terrified me.â
âThat doesnât make it better,â you snapped, your voice cracking as tears burned at the corners of your eyes. âDo you have any idea how much you hurt me? You pulled me in, Hongjoong. You made me believe in something I didnât think I could have. And then you pushed me away like I was nothing.â
He winced, his head hanging low. âI know,â he said softly. âI know I was an asshole. I know I shouldnât have waited this long to talk to you. Butââ
âItâs not too late,â you cut him off, your voice quieter but no less firm. âItâs just that you couldâve done this sooner. You had every chance to speak to me, and you didnât. Why only now?â
He stepped closer, his eyes searching yours for a sign of forgiveness. âBecause Iâve realized that I canât keep running from this. From you. I donât care how long it takes or how hard it isâIâll do whatever it takes to fix this. To fix us. Just tell me how, and Iâll do it. PleaseâŚâ
His voice broke, and the raw emotion in it shattered the last of your defenses. All the pain, resentment, and longing you had bottled up came rushing to the surface.
âYou donât get to just say that and expect everything to be okay!â you cried, your voice rising as tears spilled down your cheeks. âDo you know how many nights I stayed up thinking about you? About what I did wrongâand why I wasnât enough?â
Hongjoong reached for you, pulling you into his arms despite your attempts to push him away. You pounded your fists weakly against his chest, but he didnât let go. His hands cradled the back of your head, his lips pressing softly against your temple as you sobbed into his shoulder.
âIâm sorry,â he whispered, his voice breaking. âIâm so, so sorry. You were always enough. More than enough. This is on me. All of it.â
Your fists stilled against his chest, and you let out a choked sob, clinging to him as all the anger and frustration poured out of you.
He held you tighter, his presence grounding you even as your emotions threatened to drown you. And in that moment, you realized that as much as you wanted to hate him, as much as you wanted to push him awayâyou couldnât. Not entirely.
The silence between you stretched thin, taut like a wire ready to snap. Hongjoongâs arms remained firmly around you, his hands gently gripping your arms as if afraid you might slip away. His gaze bore into you, raw and pleading, but you couldnât look at him without feeling the sting of all the nights you cried over his absence.
âI know I donât deserve your forgiveness,â he began, his voice hoarse as though the words clawed their way out of him. âBut Iâm here now, and Iâm begging you. Justâplease, let me fix this. Let me fix us. Iâll do whatever it takes.â
You pulled back slightly, enough to meet his eyes, and the sight of him broke your heart all over again. His eyes were glassy, brimmed with tears he was clearly fighting to hold back. The vulnerability in his expression was a stark contrast to the confident, composed man you thought you knew.
âAnd what if itâs not enough?â you asked, your voice barely above a whisper. âWhat if no matter how hard you try, it wonât erase the pain youâve caused? Do you even realize what you did to me, Hongjoong?â
âI do,â he said quickly, embracing you even tighter as though afraid youâd vanish if he let go. âI know I broke you. I know I left you alone when you needed me most. And Iâll never forgive myself for that. But I swear, Iâll never make that mistake again. Just tell me how to fix thisâtell me what to do, and Iâll do it.â
You shook your head, a bitter laugh escaping your lips. âYou say that now, but what about when things get hard again? Will you run away then too? Will you leave me to pick up the pieces while you figure out how to handle your emotions?â
âNo,â he said firmly, his voice rising with desperation. âI wonât. I know Iâve been a coward, and I know I donât deserve your trust, but Iâll earn it back. Iâll prove to you that Iâm not the same person who hurt you. I⌠IĘźll admit I really thought placing a wall between us was the solution. I thought I was doing the right thing. But I was wrong. So fucking wrong. Iâve spent every single day regretting it, hating myself for the pain I caused you. And Iâm here now because I canât keep living like thisâI canât keep living without you, goddamnit.His words hit you like a tidal wave, threatening to pull you under. You wanted to believe him, to let yourself fall into the safety of his arms, but the scars he left on your heart made it impossible to trust him fully.
Still, you wanted to.
âI hate you, you know,â you said, your voice trembling as the words spilled out like shards of glass. Each one was sharp, cutting through the silence, through the air that seemed too thick to breathe. Tears ran down your cheeks in an unrelenting stream, and you didnât bother to wipe them away. Your fists clenched at your sides, the tremor in them betraying the rawness of your emotions.
âI hate how you left me in the middle of a path I was unfamiliar with,â you continued, your tone rising with every syllable. âI hate how much of a coward you are. I hate how you made me believe there was something between us, only for you to act like there wasnât. I hate how you kept me wondering why I wasnât enough for you to stay.â
Your voice cracked on the last word, and you felt yourself breaking all over again, like a dam collapsing under the weight of too much pressure.
âButâŚâ You paused, choking on the lump in your throat. âBut mostly, I hate the way I donât hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.â
The admission hung in the air, a fragile truth that seemed to silence everything around you. And as the words left your lips, you let your arms find their way around his figure, clinging to him with a desperation that mirrored the ache your heart felt.
You buried your face in his chest, your tears soaking into the fabric of his shirt. His arms came around you almost instinctively, holding you tightly as though afraid you might slip away if he loosened his grip even slightly. The faint, familiar scent of himâthe one youâd tried so hard to forgetâengulfed you, pulling you deeper into the spiral of emotions youâd fought to keep at bay.
You idiot, you thought to yourself, you absolute fool.
You had come here tonight to forget him, to push the memories of him into a corner of your mind you could lock away forever. Yet here you were, sobbing into his chest like the heartache of the past weeks hadnât been enough. You hated how much youâd missed him, how much you still craved the safety of his arms even after everything heâd put you through.
Hongjoong held you close, his own chest tightening with every sob that wracked your body. He rested his cheek against the crown of your head, his breath hitching as he tried to steady himself. How could he have done this to you?
The sight of you like thisâso fragile, so brokenâwas a knife to his heart. And knowing he was the one who had caused this pain made the guilt nearly unbearable. Heâd spent weeks convincing himself that pushing you away was the right thing to do, that he was protecting himself, protecting you. But standing here now, with you trembling in his arms, he realized how horribly wrong heâd been.
The fears that had haunted him for so longâthe fear of being abandoned again, of opening his heart only to have it shatteredâno longer mattered. Because nothing, no ghost from his past, no amount of uncertainty, was more important than you.
He didnĘźt care anymore. He didnĘźt care about anything but you.
He closed his eyes, his lips pressing softly against your temple. âIâm so sorry,â he whispered, his voice breaking. âFor everything. For hurting you, for being a coward. Iâm so sorry, and Iâll spend the rest of my life making it up to you if youâll let me.â
You sniffled, lifting your head slightly from his chest. His hands moved instinctively, one cupping your face while the other rested on your waist, steadying you. His thumb brushed away the tear tracks on your cheek, and when you finally met his gaze, the raw vulnerability in his eyes made your breath catch.
Hongjoong looked at you like you were the only thing in the world that mattered, his own tears threatening to spill over. He opened his mouth as if to say something, but no words came out. He didnât need to speak; the emotions in his eyes said everything.
And against your better judgment, against every ounce of self-preservation youâd tried to cling to, you found yourself leaning in.
The moment your lips met, it was as though the world outside ceased to exist. The kiss was slow but full of urgency, a culmination of every unspoken word, every suppressed feeling, every moment of longing that had built up between you.
Fireworks exploded in the distance, the sound echoing through the air as the clock struck twelve.
The kiss was not rushed, nor was it perfect; it was trembling, raw, and unpolished. It was the kind of kiss that could only come from a place of deep yearning, a place where words had failed and only touch could suffice.
Hongjoongâs lips were soft against yours, moving with an unspoken gentleness that contradicted the storm of emotions swirling between you. It wasnât about passion or desireâit was about connection, about pouring every unsaid word and buried feeling into this single, fragile moment. His touch was tentative at first, like he was afraid you might pull away, but when you didnât, he kissed you deeper, his hands steadying you as if to anchor you both.
The world around you seemed to dissolve into nothingness. The distant sound of fireworks faded into a muffled hum, the sharp chill of the night forgotten. All that remained was the warmth of his lips and the way your heart thundered in your chest, not from nerves but from the overwhelming sensation of being wholly, undeniably seen.
His hand cupped your cheek with a reverence that made you feel like you were something sacred, something he was terrified of breaking yet couldnât bear to let go of. His thumb brushed against your skin, a subtle, tender movement that spoke volumes more than words ever could.
For the first time in weeks, the ache in your chest began to ease, replaced by a bittersweet warmth that spread through your entire being. The kiss wasnât just an apology; it was a confession, a plea, a promise. It carried every moment youâd spent apart, every sleepless night, every tear youâd shed. It was as though he was trying to stitch back together every broken piece of your heart, not with grand gestures but with the simplicity of his presence and the sincerity in his touch.
And you kissed him back just as softly, your movements hesitant but full of meaning. It wasnât forgivenessânot yetâbut it was a surrender. A quiet acknowledgement that no matter how much he had hurt you, no matter how hard you had tried to let him go, he was still there, embedded in every corner of your heart.
You could feel his tears against your skin, hot and unrelenting, as they mixed with your own. Yet, he didnât pull away; he stayed, pressing closer as though afraid that even a breath of space might shatter this fragile moment. His lips trembled against yours, betraying his vulnerability, his desperation, his overwhelming relief.
It was soft, painfully so, like the brush of a feather or the first tentative notes of a love song. And yet, it carried the weight of everythingâthe pain, the longing, the fear, and the undeniable truth that no matter how broken the two of you had been, you were still standing here, together, trying.
When you finally pulled back, your foreheads nearly pressed together, both of you breathing heavily, as though the kiss had stolen every ounce of air from your lungs. His eyes met yours, glistening with unshed tears, and for the first time in what felt like forever, you saw himâtruly saw him. Not the man who had hurt you, not the coward who had run away, but the boy you had once fallen for, the boy who was still fighting to be worthy of you.
Coming to terms with what just happened, your cheeks flushed, and it seems he still noticed it despite the dim, ambient surroundings engulfing both of you, given the way he smiled.
And in that moment, as the bright hues of fireworks lit up the sky, you realized something: this wasnât an ending. It wasnât even a beginning. It was a moment suspended in time, a fragile, imperfect truce between two hearts that refused to let go of each other, no matter how much they had tried.
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Pairing: heir!Song Mingi x heir!Reader AU: non-idol | arranged marriage | enemies to lovers Genre: angst, humor, fluff in future chapters Summary: After a life-altering car accident, Mingi is given one final shot at redemptionâreborn as a fuzzy little puppy. To earn a second chance at life, he must complete three tasks or risk being doomed to the afterlife forever. Word Count: 5.7K Warnings: a little angst, mental health care, hints of child abduction, mentions of death, mentions of infidelity
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You paced around your bedroom, restless energy driving each step as the anticipation of your upcoming therapy session settled over you. The faint glow of the laptop screen illuminated the room, the app open and waiting. The timer ticked down with an almost menacing rhythm as you adjusted the laptop, twisting it slightly left, then right, before stepping back to assess the angle.
Tired eyes stared back at you, dulled by sleepless nights, and the lines on your face seemed deeper, etched by the weight of too many burdens. No amount of hydrating could fix this.
The laptop chimed, signaling the start of the session. With a heavy sigh, you clicked "Join." The screen flickered, and soon the familiar face of your therapist, Jungah, came into view.Â
âY/N! How are you?âÂ
You hesitated, your eyes darting to the floor for a moment. âIâm...well, a lot has happened since our last session.â
Jungah nodded gently, her expression softening as she leaned in, resting her chin in the palm of her hand. âTell me more,â she encouraged.
âMingi was in an accident,â you said, the words feeling heavier as they left your mouth. âHeâsâŚin a coma right now.â
âOh Y/N, Iâm so sorry to hear that. I canât imagine what youâre going through right now! How are you holding up?â
You nodded, the lump in your throat making it hard to respond. âIâm pretty overwhelmed. I got a dog though, which is great. But everything about the situation just feels soâŚcomplicated,â you admitted, your voice dropping slightly.Â
âPart of me feels like I should beâŚdevastated. And I am, in a way. I think just because weâve always had such a difficult relationship.â
âItâs okay to feel all of those things. Thereâs no ârightâ way to process something like this. Whatâs been the hardest part for you?â
You hesitated, your fingers tracing patterns on the edge of your desk as your thoughts churned.
âProbably the fact that it reminds me of when Hongjoong was in the hospital. During his battle with cancer.â
âRight, and we talked about that in our first session. What kind of feelings does this bring up for you?â
You swallowed hard, the words clawing their way out of you.Â
âGuilt. I canât believe I was in class when it happened,â you began, your voice already trembling. Your voice cracked, and you gripped the edge of the desk tightly. Your breath hitched, and you shook your head as tears pricked at the corners of your eyes.Â
âI should have been there,â you said, the words spilling out in a rush, your voice rising with emotion. âI shouldâve skipped class, stayed by his side, done something. I thought I had more time, and thenâthen I didnât.â
A single tear slipped down your cheek, and you quickly wiped it away, frustration bubbling beneath the surface.Â
âHe died alone. Alone. And I wasnât there to tell him I loved him one last time, to hold his hand, to let him know he wasnât alone.â
You pressed your palm against your chest, as if trying to steady the ache threatening to consume you.
âAnd now, with Mingi,â you continued, your words tumbling out in a rush. âWeâve never been close. But the thought of leaving him alone, of him waking up, o-or dying and not having anyone there, makes it feel like itâs happening all over again.â
Your voice broke completely, and a sob tore from your throat. You buried your face in your hands, fingers clutching at your temples as though trying to contain the flood of emotions pouring out.Â
Mingiâs head shot up, his ears twitching as the sound of your broken sobs filled the room. Panic flashed in his eyes, and he scrambled to his feet, the urgency of your pain pulling him forward. He stumbled slightly, his small paws skidding on the floor in his haste, but he didnât stop until he was in your lap.
With all the force his tiny body could muster, he pressed against you, nudging your hands, pawing at your chestâanything to pull you back from the edge. His movements were frantic, almost desperate, as if he could piece you back together with his touch.
No, no, no, don't cry.
âWhy does this keep happening to me?â you choked out. You curled in on yourself, arms wrapping around your middle as if to contain the grief threatening to consume you whole.Â
Mingi had never seen you like this. The weight of it crushed himâheavier than any argument youâd ever had, sharper than the harshest words exchanged in anger.Â
Heâd known about Hongjoongâs death in a detached, matter-of-fact wayâsomething that had happened before your lives became entangled. But until now, it hadnât occurred to him how deeply that loss had scarred you, how it marred your heart.
You werenât just the person heâd been forced to marry, the one heâd spent so much energy resenting and clashing with. You were a whole personâsomeone who had loved, lost, and carried burdens he hadnât even noticed.
âY/N,â Jungah said softly, âtake a deep breath with me. Just one. In through your nose...and out through your mouth.â
You tried to follow her lead, managing a shaky inhale, then exhaling in a stuttering gasp, fresh tears spilling down as you followed the motions.
âItâs not your fault,â Jungah said. âNone of this is your faultânot Hongjoongâs passing, and not Mingiâs accident. You loved Hongjoong, and youâre doing everything you can for Mingi now. Thatâs what matters.â
âThatâs the problem,â you said, your voice trembling. âI shouldnât be the only one. His parentsââ Your words caught, a wave of anger rising in your throat, hot and bitter, cutting you off mid-sentence.
âThey wouldnât even take turns staying with him at the hospital! I asked. But his mom brushed me off like it was nothing, like their son lying there broken didnât matter.â
Jungahâs face softened with understanding, but you could see the anger flicker in her eyes. âThatâs not on you, either. Theyâre the ones failing him, not you.â
âI justâŚI just canât stand the thought of him being alone. Even after everything heâs done, after all the hurtâhe doesnât deserve that. No one does.â
Mingiâs heart clenchedânot with guilt, but with a profound, almost overwhelming sense of gratitude. You were angry, hurt, and exhausted, yet you still stood up for him. You still wanted to be there for him, even after all the ways heâd hurt you, you stayed.
It struck him thenâhe had spent so much time fighting against your world, your pain, but had never truly tried to understand it.
âYouâre right to be angry. They should be there for him, but theyâre not, and thatâs their shame to bear. You, on the other hand, have gone above and beyond. Youâve stayed. Youâve cared. And that says so much more about who you are.â
âIâm so tired,â you admitted. "I donât even know if Iâm doing this because I care or because Iâm afraid of looking like a terrible person. I just want to do the right thing, but I donât know what that is anymore.â
âY/N,â she said gently, âit sounds like youâre carrying a lot and putting everyone elseâs needs before your own. You know, itâs okay to prioritize yourself.â
âI know, I know.â You ran a shaky hand through your hair, âI donât know what that looks like for me right now. I think I just care too much about people whoâd never do the same for me. I feelâŚpathetic, honestly.âÂ
âI hear you,â Jungah said softly. âYouâve been through a lot, and itâs natural to question where you stand, especially when you give so much of yourself to others and donât always get it back.â
Your gaze drifted down to Maro, his soft brown eyes watching you intently. As if sensing your turmoil, he nudged his head against your hand. You offered him a weak smile, gently scratching behind his ears.Â
âBut I need you to hear this, Y/N. Youâre showing compassion, and thereâs incredible strength in that. Youâre standing up for someone who needs your care and your support, someone who may not even realize how much they need you right now.â
âTaking care of yourself isnât a betrayal of those qualities, itâs a part of them. You deserve the same care you give to everyone else. Youâre worthy of that, Y/N. You need to remember that.â
Jungah smiled softly as your therapy session came to a close. âWeâll keep working through this, step by step. For now, just think about what self-care might look like for you. Youâve been through so much, Y/N. Give yourself the grace you so readily give to others.â
âThank you,â you sniffled, wiping at your eyes.Â
With a shaky exhale, you gave her a small, grateful wave before reaching out to end the call. The screen went dark, and the silence of the room rushed in to fill the space where her voice had been.
For a moment, you just sat there, staring at the blank screen of your laptop. The tears welled up again, but this time they came slower, quieter, as if you were finally too tired to hold them back. You let out a long, trembling sigh before looking down at Maro, who was watching you intensely.Â
You wrapped your arms around him, pulling him close as he nestled into your chest. âIâm sorry,â you murmured into his fur, your voice barely audible.Â
You didnât even know exactly what you were apologizing forâmaybe for being angry, for feeling conflicted, for not having all the answers. But Mingi didnât flinch or pull away. Instead, he nuzzled closer, his way of silently telling you he understood, that he saw the pain you were carrying.
He could feel it allâthe storm raging inside you. The guilt, the exhaustion, the anger. He was someone who had hurt you, who had failed you in ways he couldnât begin to measure. Yet here you were, holding him as if he was still worth fighting for.
You were fightingâfor him, for yourself, for the hope that things could be different. And though he didnât know if he deserved it, Mingi silently willed you to keep going. Somehow, in the stillness, he realized somethingâŚyou were his reason to fight, too.
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The cafĂŠ was quiet when you arrived, the gentle hum of conversations and the clinking of silverware blending into a soft, comforting din. Near the window, Mrs. Kim sat in the warm glow of sunlight, quietly leafing through a stack of sheet music while humming along to the notes.
âY/N!â she greeted, her face lighting up as she caught sight of you. Rising from her seat, she pulled you into a gentle hug, her familiar warmth easing the lingering tension in your shoulders. Her gaze dropped, and her expression softened when she noticed the small figure nestled at your feet.
âAnd who is this?â The corners of her mouth lifted into a smile.
âThis is Maro,â you replied, scooping him up into your arms. His ears perked up at the sound of his name, his curious eyes darting toward Mrs. Kim.Â
âI hope itâs okay that I brought him along.â
Mrs. Kim chuckled, her hand already reaching out toward him. âOf course itâs okay,â she said warmly, her fingers brushing against his soft fur as she gently scratched behind his ears. Maro leaned into her touch, his fluffy tail wagging slightly.
âItâs nice to have some extra company.â
You sat down, and Maro settled under the table as the server came by to take your order. Hongjoongâs mother watched you for a moment, her gaze warm but thoughtful, as if she was piecing something together.Â
âYou seemâŚtired,â she noted softly.Â
You let out a dry chuckle, brushing a hand through your hair. âWhen youâre married to the most narcissistic family on the planet, it kind of comes with the territory,â you replied with a wry smile, the humor in your words unable to mask the weariness behind them.
Mingi let out a quiet huff, his ears flicking back as he gave you a sidelong glance from his position under the table. His frown was subtle but noticeable, a clear sign that he didnât entirely agree with your assessment of his familyâeven if he couldnât voice his objections.
âMarriage can be⌠complicated,â she said gently, lifting her mug to her lips, âbut itâs in those challenges that we often discover who we really are.â
Mrs. Kim folded her hands over the sheet music, her gaze warm yet thoughtful. âItâs also about finding ways to grow together. Itâs often the small, quiet decisions to stay and try that matter most, even when it feels impossible.â
She paused before adding, âI know the Songs can beâŚintense. But people like that are mirrors. They reflect parts of yourselfâyour strengths, weaknesses, and fears. Facing those reflections isnât easy, but it can lead to unexpected growth.â
âI just wish it didnât feel like a constant fight. Like Iâm always proving somethingâto them, to myself, to Mingi.â
âProving yourself is exhausting. But maybe, without realizing it, youâre showing them how to fight for something worth keeping.â Mrs. Kimâs voice was gentle, her words lingering in the air before she added, almost as an afterthought, âOh, before I forgetâŚâ
She slid the stack of sheet music into your hands, your breath caught as you scanned the pages, immediately recognizing Hongjoongâs handwritingâthe chaotic, unruly script that mirrored the way his mind danced through ideas, always just a little ahead of itself.
âJazz?â you murmured, a small, bittersweet smile tugging at your lips.
âJust a few of his hundreds of compositions heâd written over the years,â she explained, her own smile touched with sadness. âI thoughtâŚyou might want to have them.â
You ran your fingers lightly over the pages, the notes and markings so distinctly himâbold, inventive, and just a touch wild. The ache in your chest swelled, but it was softened by the warmth of the memory.
âThank you,â you said softly, your voice thick with emotion. âThis means a lot.â
âHe always wanted his music to be shared, to bring people joy. I think heâd be happy knowing you have these.â
Under the table, Mingi pawed at Mrs. Kimâs leg. It was a small, almost instinctive gesture, as if even in his canine form, he wanted to ease the weight of her sadness. Mrs. Kimâs gaze softened as she glanced down at him.
Mingi studied her closely, sensing the deep sadness she carried beneath her calm demeanor. It was an enduring grief for her son, one that seemed to seep into every word she spoke and every careful action she took. Yet, she never let it consume her. Instead, she channeled it into wisdom, offering others a sense of peace and understanding.
He couldnât help but wonder if his own mother would ever be capable of finding those same emotions.
âYouâre a sweet one, arenât you?â she murmured, her voice low, almost as though she were speaking to herself.
âThank you for keeping me company, dear.â
Mingi tilted his head, his small tail wagging slightly as he considered her words. People often avoided what they didnât understand or couldnât fix. And yet, here he was, a tiny puppy, silently promising her he wouldnât be one of those peopleâat least, not today.
âExcuse me? Have you seen my daughter?âÂ
The frantic question cut through the murmur of the busy street. Mrs. Kim and Mingi turned in unison, her hand still resting on the leash as her gaze landed on the source of the voice. You looked up from adjusting your coat just in time to catch the womanâs anxious expression as she stopped abruptly, her chest rising and falling with shallow breaths.
âI-Iâm sorry,â she stammered, âMy daughter, Yena, sheâs...sheâs gone! She was right beside me just a moment ago, and now I canât find her. Sheâs five, wearing a pink jacket and yellow rain boots?â
Mrs. Kimâs eyes softened immediately, her expression one of concern. âOh, Iâm so sorry to hear that. We havenât seen her, but weâll keep an eye out for her.â She turned to you for confirmation, and you nodded, already scanning the area.   Â
âThank you, thank you,â she said, though her gaze was already shifting, searching the busy street.
âI turned around for a second and the next thing I knew, sheâs gone!â
âNo, donât blame yourself,â Mrs. Kim said gently, her voice steady and soothing. âChildren are naturally curious. Letâs focus on finding her now. Have you called the authorities?â
The woman nodded quickly, her hands trembling as she fumbled to show a picture of her daughter on her phone.
âYes. This is her,â she said, holding her phone out for you to see.
Pictured was a bright-eyed little girl, with round cheeks, grinning widely as she clutched a stuffed rabbit nearly as big as she was.Â
âWhere did you last see her?â you asked, already forming a mental map of the area.Â
âJust over there,â the woman said, her hand shaking as she pointed toward the park entrance.
âWe were sitting by the benches under the oak tree, and I turned to grab her water bottle from my bagâŚâ Her voice wavered, and she paused, her breaths growing shallow and erratic as the memory clearly consumed her.
âItâs okay,â you interjected gently, your tone steady and reassuring. You leaned in slightly, meeting her panicked gaze.Â
âYouâve done the right thing by calling for help. Weâll keep an eye out for her and report anything we find to the authorities.â
The woman nodded shakily, clutching her phone as if it were a lifeline. âThank you,â she whispered, her voice trembling under the weight of her fear.
You gave her a reassuring smile, though the heaviness in your chest lingered.Â
With a quick nod, you and Mrs. Kim turned to make your way toward the park, leaving Yenaâs mother behind to continue her frantic search.
âHow unfortunate,â Mrs. Kim sighed after a moment, breaking the silence. She shook her head, her expression clouded with sympathy.Â
âI canât imagine what that woman is going through. Losing sight of your child, even for a second...itâs a nightmare no parent should ever have to endure.â
Mingi gave a small huff, his nose twitching as he sniffed the air. His steps quickened slightly, and you had to tighten your grip on the leash to keep him from pulling too far ahead.
Sheâs around here somewhere, his instincts told him as he sniffed the air again. Something about the situationâthe motherâs panic and the childâs vulnerability, tugged at a deep place in his heart. It didnât matter that he didnât know Yena, she was small, defenseless, and alone. That was enough for Mingi to feel protective.
He remembered the times heâd been alone, in places where no one called his name or came looking for him. But Yena wouldnât feel that loneliness, not if Mingi could help it. She needed someone, and he was determined to be that someone.
Whatever loneliness heâd known in his own life, he wouldnât let a lost little girl feel it. Not while he could do something about it.
Mingi sniffed the air again, his movements growing more urgent. His ears twitched, his muscles tensed, and his posture shifted, radiating a focused energy that caught your attention. You noticed his change immediately, the way he stopped sniffing idly and started searching with intent.
âMaro?â Your grip on the leash tightened instinctively as he stepped forward, his nose brushing the ground before lifting to sniff the air again.
Mingi hesitated for a moment, his body rigid, as though confirming something only he could sense. Then, without warning, he surged forward, the leash pulling taut in your hands.
âMaro, wait!â you called, trying to hold him back, but his determination overpowered your grip. With a quick twist of his body, Mingi wriggled free of his harness. The loop fell to the ground with a soft thud, and in a flash, he was off.
âNo!â you shouted, panic rising in your chest. You took off after him, your heart pounding as his barking grew louder, guiding you toward his destination.
He darted through the park, weaving between trees and darting past startled spectators, as though he were following a trail only he could detect. You struggled to keep up, adrenaline driving your steps as you sprinted after him.
"Go away!" Yena cried, her voice breaking as she snatched her arm away from the strange woman. Her wide, tear-filled eyes darted around the clearing, searching for an escape.
"I'm not a stranger," the woman said, her tone syrupy but strained, a smile tugging uncomfortably at the corners of her lips.
"Iâm your mommyâs friend."
"My mommy said never to go with strangers!â
The woman crouched slightly, her smile tight and unnatural as her patience began to wear thin.
âI told you, Iâm not a stranger,â she said, her voice growing sharper. Her eyes glinted with something cold as she glanced around the clearing.Â
âYouâll be in trouble if you donât listen to me, little girl. Do you want that?â
Before the woman could reach for her again, furious barking erupted from the trees. Mingi charged into the clearing, positioning himself between the girl and the woman, his growls low and menacing.
âShoo!â she snapped, waving her hand at him as though he were a mere nuisance. âGet out of here, you little pest!â
But Mingi didnât flinch. His growls deepened, his stance lowering as if ready to lunge if she dared to come closer. His determination seemed to fill the air, daring her to make a move.
âA puppy!â Yena gasped, her tears momentarily forgotten as she crouched slightly behind him.
âMaro!â you called, your voice sharp. He turned briefly, his tail wagging slightly at the sound of your voice, but he quickly refocused on the woman, his growls resuming.
The womanâs gaze darted between you and the dog, her jaw tightening. For a fleeting moment, her eyes locked with yours, and recognition flashed in her expressionâa flicker of something dark and calculated. Her lips curled into a sneer before she turned and bolted, disappearing into the trees with a speed that left you stunned.
Mingi barked after her once, but then turned his attention back to Yena. Rising onto his hind legs, he nudged her gently as if urging her to sit. Once she did, he hopped into her lap without hesitation, his warm, furry body pressing against hers like a shield.
Yena gasped softly at the contact, her small hands instinctively clutching at his soft fur. She buried her fingers into his coat, the warmth and comfort he provided allowing her sobs to finally break free.
âOh my god, Yena!â you gasped, dropping to your knees beside her. Your hands hovered for a moment, unsure whether to touch her or give her space. âAre you okay?â
Yena peeked up at you, her tear-streaked face still pressed against Mingiâs side.
âThe bad ladyâs gone?â she whispered, her voice fragile.
âSheâs gone,â you assured her. You reached out, brushing a strand of her disheveled hair away from her face.
âMaro made sure of it. He scared her away.â
âHeâs a good puppy,â she murmured shakily, her voice barely above a whisper. Her fingers stroked his back, and though her movements were timid, they carried a quiet gratitude.
Your hands fumbled for your phone, the adrenaline making your fingers clumsy. You swiped at the screen, barely managing to bring up Mrs. Kimâs number. Pressing the call button, you held the phone to your ear, your eyes scanning the tree line as if to ensure the woman wouldnât reappear.
The phone rang once, then twice, before Mrs. Kimâs voice came through, steady but laced with worry.
âDid you find her?â she asked, her words hurried.
âYes,â you said quickly, glancing down at Yena, who was still clutching Maro. âSheâs here. Sheâs safe, butâŚâ You hesitated, swallowing hard before continuing.
âCall the cops. Iâll stay here with her until they arrive.â
â
The faint sound of hurried footsteps reached your ears, and when you glanced toward the path, you saw Mrs. Kim, Yenaâs mother, and two officers running toward you.Â
âYena!â she called, her voice cracking as she rushed forward.
âMommy!â Yena cried, scrambling to her feet, still clutching Mingi. She stumbled toward her mother, who dropped to her knees and wrapped her arms around her daughter tightly. Yena buried her face in her motherâs shoulder, fresh tears spilling down her cheeks.
âThank you,â she said, her voice thick with emotion. âThank you so much. I donât know what I would have done ifââ Her voice broke, and she hugged Yena even tighter.
âI donât know how I can ever repay you!â she continued.
You shook your head gently, offering her a warm, reassuring smile. âThereâs no need,â you said, your voice calm but earnest. âIâm just glad I was here to help. Thatâs all that matters.â
Mingi barked softly, as if echoing your sentiments. His tail wagged as he sat back at your feet, looking every bit the proud protector he was. Yena pulled back slightly from her motherâs embrace, wiping at her eyes with one hand while the other reached down to pet Mingi.
âThe puppy saved me,â she said softly, her voice still shaky but filled with awe. âHe scared the bad lady away.â
You crouched down to Mingiâs level, scratching behind his ears. âHeâs the real hero here,â you said, glancing up at Mrs. Kim with a small smile.
âHe knew something was wrong before I did.â
Mingi let out a happy huff, rolling onto his back to expose his belly, practically inviting Yena to join in the celebration. The little girl giggled through her tears, her small hands eagerly scratching his side.
Yenaâs mother knelt beside her, her trembling hand reaching out hesitantly. Her fingers brushed over Mingiâs soft fur, and her lips quivered with emotion.Â
âThank you,â she whispered again, her voice cracking as she looked back at Yena. âThank you both.â
âMsâŚ?â one of the officers interrupted gently, his notebook in hand.
âChoi,â you said, standing to face him. âUm, Iâm Choi Y/N.â
âDo you mind providing a witness statement?â
âOf course,â you replied, taking a steadying breath. âI was walking my dog when I saw a woman with Yena,â you began.
âThe woman claimed she was a friend of the mother, but something about her seemedâŚoff. She got increasingly aggressive when Yena didnât cooperate.â
The officer nodded, scribbling rapidly in his notepad. âCan you describe the woman?â
âShe looked like she was her forties,â you said, replaying the scene in your mind. âDark hair, pulled back tightly. She was wearing a black jacket and purple pants and seemed disheveled. When I caught up to Maro, she froze like a deer in the headlights and bolted into the trees.â
âDid you see which direction she ran?â
You nodded, pointing toward the dense tree line a few yards away. âThat way. She moved fast, like she knew exactly where she was going.â
The officer glanced in the direction you indicated, then back at his notes with a heavy sigh.Â
âWeâll search the area and alert nearby units to be on the lookout for someone matching her description. In the meantime, thank you for stepping in. Your dogâs instincts likely saved this little girl.â
As the officers wrapped up their investigation, you crouched down one last time to Yenaâs level. Her wide eyes were still a little red from crying, but there was a sparkle of hope in them now.Â
âYou were so brave today. And you know what? Maro thinks youâre a hero, too.â
Yenaâs lips curled into a shy smile as she reached out to pet his head. He leaned into her touch, his tail wagging lazily.
âCan I play with him again sometime?âÂ
âAnytime,â you promised. âYou just let your mom know, and weâll make it happen.â
With a final wave, you gave Mrs. Kim a quick hug, murmuring your thanks before sheepishly retrieving the sheet music you had almost forgotten. Clutching it tightly, you turned to leave, Mingi falling into step beside you.
The walk home was quieter now, the crisp night air carrying the faint rustle of leaves. Mingi trotted happily at your side, his leash loose, as if he understood the weight of the moment but chose not to linger on it. Instead, his steady presence offered you a quiet comfort, grounding you in the stillness of the night.
When you reached the penthouse, you slipped off your shoes, hung up Mingiâs leash, and set the sheet music on the music shelf.Â
âWell, today was something else,â you muttered, rubbing the back of your neck as you flopped onto the couch.
Before you could settle in, Mingi hopped up beside you, his fluffy tail wagging in a lazy rhythm. Without hesitation, he settled into your lap as if it was the most natural thing in the world.
You chuckled softly, your fingers finding their way behind his ears, scratching gently in a spot you knew he loved.
âWe make a pretty great team, huh?â
You leaned back into the cushions, your hand slipping from behind his ears to run through the soft fur along his back. Each stroke seemed to soothe not just him, but you as well.Â
âYouâre amazing, you know that?â you murmured after a moment, your voice quieter now.Â
âI donât know what Iâd do without you.â
Mingi shifted slightly, resting his head against your chest as his eyes fluttered shut, lulled by the rhythm of your heartbeat. Accepting this new form hadnât been easy; it challenged everything he thought he knew about himself.Â
But moments like this, with your hand threading gently through his fur and your voice brimming with affection, chipped away at his doubts. The walls he had so carefully constructed around his heart crumbled, leaving him exposed to a truth he could no longer deny: the feelings growing within him, his feelings for you.
Mingi surrendered to the quiet realization that he no longer wanted to run from you or from the parts of himself he couldnât face. You had shown him something he thought heâd lost; a capacity for care, compassion, and even love.Â
And he wanted to show you that could become something more.Â
But his peace was short-lived as your phone blared to life, interrupting his nap. Jiwooâs name lit up the screen, and with a tired sigh, you swiped to answer, already bracing yourself for her shenanigans.Â
That annoying woman!
âY/N!â Jiwooâs voice was bright and full of excitement. âIâve found it. The place. Itâs in Prague, and itâs everything youâve been looking forâcharming, historic, and in a perfect location!â
âPrague is a little far, donât you think?â
âExactly!â Jiwoo exclaimed, as if youâd just proved her point. âFar enough to get away from all these assholes!â
You chuckled softly, your fingers absentmindedly carding through Maroâs fur. He stirred slightly, letting out a soft sigh as he snuggled deeper against your chest. Jiwooâs energy was infectious, even when you werenât entirely on board with her ideas.
âSpeaking of assholes,â she said, her tone dropping, âhave you heard about Ahri?â
Your stomach dropped at the mention of her name. âWhat about her?âÂ
âSo,â she started, drawing out the word, âSara saw her the other night at The Z. And she wasnât alone. She was looking way too cozy with that model guy. Whatâs his name? Mingyu or something. Itâs kind of creepy that he and Mingi have similar sounding names.â
Mingiâs relationship with Ahri had always been a sore spot, a constant reminder that you had no place in his life. But hearing this made you feel something you couldnât quite placeâvindicated? Sad? Angry? Maybe all three.
âAnd get thisâwhen Sara asked her about Mingi, she brushed it off. Like she wasnât walking around a few weeks ago looking pretty banged up herself. I mean, can you believe it? While heâs in a coma?â
âTheir relationship doesnât concern me,â you replied, but your words felt hollow.Â
âNot your business?â Jiwoo scoffed. âItâs disgusting, Y/N. I know you and Mingi have a complicated relationshipâI get it. but he doesnât deserve that. No one does. Sheâs out here living her best life while heâs fighting for his.â
Her outrage echoed your own feelings, but instead of comfort, it only heightened the discomfort twisting in your chest. Each mention of Ahri reminded you that this moment, where you were pouring your heart into caring for him, staying by his side when no one else would, was nothing more than a spell cast by some higher being.
Once the spell was broken, you'd return to your separate lives despite being bound to one another.
âAnyway,â Jiwoo said, sensing your silence, âthatâs just more reason to take the leap. Leave all this drama behind and protect your peace. Start over. You might actually find love too!â
You let out a dry laugh, though it wasnât the least bit genuine. âYeah, right. Love.â
The words tasted bitter on your tongue, and the thought of it, of someone loving you in the way you needed, in the way youâd always hoped felt almost impossible.
âI mean, if Czech men arenât your thing, I know Park Seongââ
âMy foodâs here, bye!â you blurted out abruptly, cutting her off before she could finish her sentence.Â
You rested your head back against the couch and closed your eyes for a moment, shifting Maro against you, his small body fitting so easily into the curve of your side.Â
Who needs husbands when you have a dog? You couldnât help but smile at the thought. Maro, with his unwavering loyalty and comforting little form, was all you needed right now. He didnât ask anything of youâjust your love and care in return. A love that came without expectations, without demands for answers or explanations.
With him, you could simply be.
Outside the towering penthouse, a figure lingered in the shadows, her frail frame swallowed by a dark jacket. Her fists were clenched tightly at her sides, knuckles stark white, and her shoulders trembled with each shallow, uneven breath. Then, without a sound, she slipped into the darkness, leaving no trace behind.
But the chill that lingered in the air suggested she wouldnât be gone for long.
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THIS IS SO GOOD! I CANâT WAIT FOR THE NEXT PART! <3
SUMMARYÂ |Â You, a literature professor turned governess, is settling into your role at the Jeong castle and developing feelings for both the lord, Yunho, and his cousin, Jongho. Â You soon learn that the castle is haunted by a spirit who desires to be resurrected and take over your body.
PAIRINGSÂ |Â Yunho x Reader x Jongho
RATING | Mature, NSFW, EXPLICIT, MDNI, 18+
GENRE |Â Smut, historical fantasy au, paranormal, dark academia, fluff, angst, drama
CONTENT/WARNINGSÂ | Â mentions of death/curses/resurrection, a creepy ghost, fingering, clothes ripping, oral sex, unprotective sex (wrap it up!), lovemaking instead of fucking (more to come in part 2)
LENGTHÂ |Â 15,012 words
TAGLIST | Â --
NETWORKS |Â Â @ksmutsociety @illusionnet @cromernet @wonderlandnet @k-vanity @othersideoutlawsnetwork
AUTHORâS NOTE | Soooooooo⌠This is for @ksmutsociety network's The Velvet Vault event! I'm looking forward to reading all the participant's fics since we all worked so hard for this. It was nice to work with everyone and hype each other and exchange ideas. Love you folks!
Here's part 1 of this 2-part fic lol. It was getting too long (and the brain stopped braining at some point). I hope it's engaging enough that you return for part 2, which is in the works! And yes, more smut in part 2 (for Jongho and maybe a threesome LOL)
Thank you @cheolism for the beautiful banner, @hobeemin for the amazing moodboard (below) to keep my inspo in check and @lovetaroandtaemin for the beta-read as always! You guys are amazing folk!
Please like, comment, reblog. I love you all đ
âWell, Iâm finally here,â you mutter as you look at the enormous castle that looms overhead.Â
You had been traveling to get here for some time and your body ached from the long journey. However, now that you were in the presence of the magnificent building, you felt like you couldnât stop and rest just yet. You thought it was weird when a reclusive lord wrote to you, a professor at a prestigious university, and requested that you be his childrenâs governess. He mustâve thought you were qualified because you were a literature professor and had read a lot of books, which were important for teaching children. However, there were no references, and no one had heard of the family or this lord that was writing the letter. Yet, you decided to take the job for your own personal reasons.
You were leaving your life from the modern world and everything that was associated with it.
It wasnât hard for you to leave everything behind. You didnât have friends, and no one would come to look for you if you disappeared. When you were not teaching students, you spent your life in the company of books. They were the only thing that made you happy and the only things that had stayed constant throughout your life. That was the main reason you agreed to work for this strange lord, because you had heard that his castle was filled with the greatest works of literature.
As you approached the front doors, you noticed how the windows were dark, no light was coming through. Was everyone asleep? The castle seemed eerie in the night, and you had a nagging feeling that something wasnât right. You tried to shake those feelings away, knowing that this was not the time to get spooked. You were exhausted and wanted nothing more than to sleep.
Upon arriving at the front door, you knocked and patiently awaited a response. Your heart raced, anticipation gnawing at you. After no one answered, you tried again, knocking louder this time. You wouldnât have traveled this far without wanting an answer. On the verge of quitting and finding rest, the door, as if beckoning, slowly opened, urging you to enter. You paused, torn between entering and leaving, ultimately deciding that it was rude to depart without a word.
âHello, is anyone home?â You shouted as you walked inside, hoping someone would answer.
No one came to greet you, but the sound of the wind echoed in the empty halls. There was no need to be scared. You were hardly scared of things that you didnât understand, but this place had an air of mystery that made you uneasy. It felt like there was someone else in the house, watching your every move. The only lights came from the torches along the wall, but their light did little to ease the darkness.
âLord Jeong, are you here?â You called out. You knew it was late, and he might be asleep, but you needed someone to answer you. âMy name is Y/N. I am the new governess that you hired.â
Again, no one answered you, and you felt a chill run down your spine. You had hoped that someone wouldâve met you, but the lack of answers and the emptiness of the castle made you uneasy. You made your way down the hall to see if there was anyone awake. Maybe the servants were still awake, doing last-minute chores before going to bed. You hoped to find someone that could tell you where you could sleep.
You didnât have a plan or anywhere else to go.
As you walked through the hallways, you noticed how the walls were lined with portraits. The people in the paintings all looked so beautiful, even if they were old and dust had covered their faces. However, it was odd that the portraits seemed to stretch out endlessly, even though the hallway was not very long. You thought about wiping the dust off to see the faces, but you decided not to since they were not yours.
Your eyes wandered down and saw the many artifacts that were also lined up on the walls. There were old swords, shields, and even some strange-looking guns. As a literature professor, you couldnât help but be curious about what those weapons were used for. The stories of these things would make for interesting research.
You were so distracted by the many relics on the walls that you didnât notice a figure moving swiftly towards you until it was too late. Something cold grabbed onto your arm and you turned to see a pale hand gripping you. You screamed and tried to break free, but the grip was so strong, it was almost as if it was draining the life from your body. You turned and saw the face of a beautiful man, who looked at you with wide eyes.
âYouâre not supposed to be here. The doors shouldâve been locked,â he said, his voice raspy and low. He had a stern face, his sharp eyebrows furrowed as he stared at you. He wore a fancy suit and looked to be in his late twenties, but his age didnât match his youthful features.
âI-Iâm sorry! Iâm the new governess, and the doors just opened by themselves!â You cried.Â
The man let go of you and you stepped back, trying to get away from him. You could tell that he was the master of the house, and you didnât want to anger him. You were not the kind of person to yell at others, especially your employer, but his sudden appearance and tight grip were enough to make anyone lose their composure.
âIâm sorry, Miss. Iâm Jeong Yunho, the lord of the castle,â he apologized, his face softening. He seemed to be the kind of person who didnât speak often, and you found his voice comforting. âIt is very late, and I was just startled. I didnât expect anyone to come to the door at this hour. Please, forgive me for frightening you.â
âItâs fine. I am just a little shaken up,â you said, trying to calm down. You didnât want to admit it, but his sudden appearance had frightened you. And that said a lot since you were scarcely afraid of anything.
âCome, letâs get you settled,â he gestured to follow him. âI will take you to your room.â
You followed him, still wondering what had just happened. The house was dark, no light was coming from the rooms. You wondered why the lord would keep the lights off at this hour. You also noticed how silent it was. There were no voices, no sounds at all. You didnât think you had traveled far enough for this place to be abandoned, but it certainly felt that way.
Yunho stopped at a door and opened it. âThis will be your room while you are here.â
The room was very elegant, decorated in various shades of blue. There was a large four-poster bed with a canopy, a dresser, a vanity, and a bookshelf. The shelves were full of books, just like the ones you had read. You were relieved to know that there would be something familiar for you to do.
âPlease get some sleep,â Yunho nodded at you slowly. âTomorrow weâll tour the castle and introduce you to the staff and the children.â
âThank you, Lord Jeong. Goodnight,â you curtsied and he closed the door behind him, leaving you alone.
You were exhausted, so you quickly took off your shoes and laid down on the bed. The sheets were soft and smelled nice, like fresh laundry. It had been a long day, and you couldnât wait to fall asleep. As you lay there, you thought about the castle, the servants, and the children. Tomorrow was going to be an exciting day.
As you drifted off to sleep, you couldâve sworn you heard the sound of whispering, as if the voices were coming from the walls themselves.
The next morning, you woke up early, eager to start the day. The first thing you did was get dressed and head downstairs to the dining hall. When you arrived, the servants were already bustling around, preparing the table and setting out the food. They were all wearing the same outfit: black uniforms with white aprons, their hair neatly combed back.
The table was set, and you sat down, waiting for the rest of the household to arrive. Soon, you were joined by Yunho, who greeted you politely. The man was dressed in a black suit, and his hair was perfectly styled. He looked so regal, but his face was emotionless, his mouth pulled into a straight line. He had dark circles under his eyes, making him look older than he was.
âGood morning, Miss Y/N. How are you feeling?â He asked. His voice was deep and commanding, but there was no hint of malice in it.
âGood morning, Lord Jeong. Iâm well,â you answered. âIs the rest of the household going to join us?â
âThey are busy with their own duties,â Yunho responded. âWe will tour the castle later today, but I would like to discuss the duties you will have while you are here. First, your primary task will be the education and care of the children. They have not had a governess for a few months and they are at the age where they should learn and be educated.â
âOf course. As a professor of the literary arts, I will make sure to teach them everything they need to know,â you responded. You were excited to have a chance to teach someone, especially young minds. âWill I also be in charge of their daily routines?â
âYes, their daily routine and their discipline as well,â he continued. âYou will have your own schedule and free time, so do not feel as if you are confined to this castle. You are welcome to go out and explore the town or the grounds. There are plenty of beautiful places for you to see. In the meantime, the staff will continue their duties and will help you with anything you need. If you have questions, please do not hesitate to ask.â
âI will, thank you, Lord Jeong,â you said, trying not to let the excitement show in your voice.
âJust call me Yunho,â he said, his face softening a bit.
âYunho,â you said, testing his name out. You liked the way it sounded.
âWell, now that thatâs out of the way, letâs begin the tour,â he stood up and led you out of the dining room.
As the two of you walked through the halls, Yunho pointed out different rooms, explaining what they were used for. You saw a drawing room, a sitting room, a parlor, and even a billiard room. There were other rooms as well, but you couldnât remember what they were. You tried to listen carefully to everything that Yunho was telling you, but your mind was elsewhere. The castle was so grand, and the interior was so intricate.
You had never seen anything like it.
You were shown the ballroom, a music room, and even an observatory. Everything was so grand and it all overwhelmed you. Yunho told you more about his family and the history of the castle.Â
You learned that the castle had been built a hundred years ago, when Yunhoâs ancestors had moved to this land. The estate had been passed down through generations and was the source of pride for the Jeongs. However, the family had lost many members, and the last one was Yunhoâs late wife.
âAnd this is the grand library,â Yunho said, standing in front of the double doors. The doors were massive, carved with intricate designs. You couldnât help but feel intimidated by them.
âI canât wait to see whatâs inside,â you said, stepping forward and grabbing the handle.
âNo!â Yunho yelled, grabbing your hand and pulling it away from the door. âNo one is allowed in the grand library.â
âWhy not?â You asked, confused. You were curious about the books and wanted to explore the grand library.
âThose books are too dangerous. They are filled with stories and tales that could corrupt the mind and the soul,â Yunho replied, his tone serious. âThey are the reason my late wife is dead.â
You couldnât believe what you were hearing. How could books be dangerous? You knew there were some books that could be scary, but those were fiction. These were books, not demons or monsters. You didnât understand why they were kept locked away.
âPlease, Miss Y/N. Donât ask me to open the doors. Iâve lost too much already,â Yunho begged. His eyes were pleading with you.
You didnât know what to do. You were a scholar of literature, and the idea of being banned from reading books was painful. It was in your nature to be curious, and you wanted to find out why the library was locked. But you didnât want to upset Yunho or lose the job that you havenât even started yet.
âThere is a smaller library for you to use with the children,â Yunho assured you. âYou can read anything in there. Just please, donât ask me to open these doors again.â
You nodded your head in understanding, and Yunho seemed to relax. You wished you couldâve said something, but it was pointless to argue with him. The mystery of the grand library would remain unknown to you. Still, your mind raced with curiosity. You couldnât shake the feeling that you needed to see the forbidden books. Perhaps it was because you were a scholar, but you needed to understand. You needed to learn the truth, no matter what the cost.
âThank you, Yunho. I will keep your advice in mind,â you replied. Your heart raced with thoughts about the library and the possibility of learning the secrets that were hidden behind those doors. As long as you were here, there would be no escaping the desire to learn more. You knew that would get you into trouble someday. That was just a part of who you were.
After finishing the tour, Yunho led you to the children who were outside in the courtyard playing. As you neared the children, you noticed a man in casual clothes who appeared to be a groundskeeper or something of the sort. You noted his appearance, thinking he looked handsome. As you and Yunho entered the courtyard, the children came running to greet him, calling out âDaddy!â. Despite his age, Yunho lifted all three children as they tried to hug him and spin them around in his arms. His gaze softened as he embraced each child. His stern demeanor was nowhere to be seen.Â
When he put them down, Yunho introduced you as the new governess. The children hid behind their father, whispering to him about how pretty you were. You giggled slightly, finding their reaction endearing, and it made you less nervous about taking the job. Yunho chastised the children, and they soon came out of their hiding, shyly offering you their introductions. Yunho introduced you first to his son, Yujin, who had turned five, then to his daughters, four-year-old Suyeon and three-year-old Sujin. You kneeled and greeted them politely. The children immediately attached themselves to you, clutching to you and introducing themselves. While this wasnât a simple task for you as someone new, you could feel their excitement as they began to speak to you about their interests and their favorite toys.
Yunho sent them off to play once more after confirming when their lessons would start the following morning. The man you assumed to be a groundskeeper watched the interaction between you, the kids, and Yunho. As the children ran off and resumed their playing, the young man stepped forward, offering you a friendly smile. You watched curiously, noticing his youthful appearance. He couldnât have been that much older than yourself.
âWelcome, miss,â he said. âIâm Choi Jongho, the lordâs cousin and the groundskeeper here. Though I help out with other matters within the castle as well.â
âNice to meet you, Jongho,â you smiled, extending a hand out which the young man took firmly, shaking it. You couldnât imagine that a man of his age could maintain a property as extensive as the Jeong castle. âI hope we will get to spend some time together since Iâm the new governess for the Jeong children. Are you their only groundskeeper?â
Jongho released your hand with a small chuckle. âI suppose I am. Itâs not a simple job, but someone has to take care of things here, am I right? Besides, the estate means everything to Mr. Jeong, and I care deeply about it as well. He trusts me fully, and thatâs a blessing.â
The young manâs tone was genuine and laced with kindness. Jongho carried himself with an ease that reassured you as well. Something about the young man felt safe.
âHeâs very nice and has already been treating me quite well,â you mentioned as Yunho joined you two, the children having returned to their previous activities, oblivious to the world around them.
âThe staff here all admire and respect Lord Yunho, as he deserves,â Jongho said. âThe children are fortunate to have a father so dedicated to them.â
You glanced at the lord who held a similar expression to Jongho, the two staring back at the children, no doubt sharing the same thoughts. You would be lying if you didnât admit the warmth spreading in your chest from the image. Yunho was gentle with the children, and it made you feel good about taking the job despite the secrets locked within the castle. You still didnât quite understand what the books could contain, but chose to ignore the curiosity for the time being. Yunho already trusted you enough to open up, revealing some of his past, even if it did spark more questions than answers.
The three of you remained in the courtyard watching the children until they came running toward you again, nearly jumping into their fatherâs arms. Yunho spun them in circles before lifting Sujin and carrying her back towards the house.
âI better start getting Sujin cleaned for her supper,â he said to the remaining party. âCome on, children.â
Sujin was quick to wiggle in her fatherâs grasp, as she clearly wanted to walk. âPapa! Down!â she giggled as Yunho lowered her and followed her and the children back inside the castle.
Jongho and you watched as the Jeongs walked off, chuckling slightly in the wake of the energetic kids and Yunho. When Yunhoâs silhouette had disappeared, you looked back at Jongho with a bright smile on your face, admiring how the sun hit his skin to accentuate his handsome features. The young man was incredibly attractive, and you hoped youâd get to spend more time with him while working at the castle.
âWell then,â Jongho rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly and shifted his stance, âI will go back to tending the grounds. If you need me for anything, you just have to ask. Itâs nice to meet you, Miss Y/N. I really hope we get to spend some time together in the future. Take care of yourself.â
Before you had the chance to respond, Jongho placed his hat on his head and promptly headed for the gardens. There was a skip in his steps, something you couldnât help but notice as you watched him make his way through the expansive yard. For a man that was around your age and appearance, you expected him to be a little less excited about his chores and duties, especially given the size and maintenance requirements. You almost expected him to have complained a little about being a servant, but he didnât appear to have any issue with it. This intrigued you even more, giving you reason to pay him more attention in the coming days.
As the last rays of sunlight faded, the maids began setting tables for dinner. With Yunho preoccupied with the children and Jongho busy elsewhere, you decided to explore the grounds for some fresh air. The castle grounds were spacious, and it was important to take some time to explore the vast space. Besides, if you were going to be staying at the castle for some time, it was good to familiarize yourself with everything. You didnât want to get lost in the castle, since you would no doubt become easily disoriented among the winding halls. The grounds also would be the best place to familiarize yourself. You should have started earlier since now the sun was fading and darkness was settling into place. You hoped to be back within an hour as dinnertime was approaching fast.
Despite the castle being eerily ominous and quite frightening when you saw it last night, it looked gorgeous bathed in sunlight during the day. You couldnât resist letting your imagination roam about as you strolled around the premises. You imagined a heroine escaping through the open space while wearing a beautiful silk dress. You envisioned her making her way across a stone pathway and into an emerald garden filled with vivid plants and flowers. This reminded you that the castle did seem out of place for being located in a dense forest in the mountains, isolated by many miles. It was fascinating and beautiful in the daytime. Now that the sun had fallen below the horizon, and you couldnât enjoy the sights, it gave the castle a darker feeling.
On your explorations around the castle, you heard noises that sounded like muffled conversations. However, when youâd check, nothing and nobody would be there. Peeking in the windows and circling around the grounds, you heard these strange noises coming from the castle itself. Maybe this wasnât the best time to explore on your own.
You made your way towards one bench on the property to catch your breath. You were starting to wonder whether the noises you had heard before were perhaps nothing more than simple tricks of the mind or maybe a nearby village. You sat back on the wooden bench with a heavy sigh escaping your chest.
The sounds coming from the castle continued to grow louder. Soon, there would be nothing but utter silence surrounding it again. You thought about making your way back towards the entrance. Yet the mystery of the unknown voices calling out to you kept drawing you back in. You wanted to discover the truth about them. Was there someone or something lingering behind these walls? Was it just an old building creating these peculiar noises? Or had the wind simply picked up slightly to produce such abnormal vibrations? There was no way of telling what had been causing it and you were beginning to wish you hadnât even considered searching. The only thing left was for you to leave without learning a thing and return safely inside the castle to enjoy the warm fires of the dining area. You stood up but were startled by the sight of a figure that appeared next to the gates and your eyes went wide with surprise.
âAh!â you gasped in surprise, quickly jumping backwards to avoid falling to the ground.Â
You blinked several times, trying to clear away the blurriness from your eyes. Surely, there couldnât be any person standing there, right? You looked over at the gates again, but there was no one there. You scanned the area for any movement or sign of a living being but could see nothing besides the trees, rocks, and bushes.
This was starting to freak you out. Sure, you knew that this was a possibility when you took the job, but you didnât think that anything scary couldâve actually occurred at this location. And why were you getting such a creepy vibe from this part of the castleâs property? Something just seemed different about it somehow.
With a firm shake of your head, you straightened your posture and cleared your mind before heading back inside the castle to take your seat for supper. If you were to do any more exploring, it would be done on the next day with a proper guide. Perhaps asking Jongho to tour the entire grounds would not be a bad idea, since he would undoubtedly be more familiar with the details and stories surrounding the castle. For now, youâd eat dinner, bathe yourself and retire to sleep. This was already enough of a scary encounter, but you wouldnât let it keep you awake at night, especially on the first evening you arrived.
It had been a few weeks since youâve become a governess for the children. The kids woke you up in a cheerful mood and eager for lessons. You found yourself sitting in the garden again as you read stories with the kids and watched their natural curiosity shining brightly. Yujin and Suyeon seemed excited but also overwhelmed by the amount of information in the books. For now, you preferred keeping the story to short tales, careful to stick to the knowledge level and time frame necessary to keep them interested. Thereâd be time later to teach them more complex ideas.
It felt good teaching the children and guiding them. They were quick learners and always happy. The weather was perfect and sunny. The roses and the wildflowers that lined the path leading towards the garden swayed softly in the gentle wind. The smell of nature surrounded you as it filled the air with its sweet fragrance. Birds chirped happily, flitting through the trees above the children. All three of them had their gazes pointed towards the book as if they were focused intensely. After you finished the first reading, the three began discussing amongst themselves about what story they would ask for next. You sat quietly with a grin stretched across your lips.
What adorable little devils.
Their enthusiasm inspired you further to be the best teacher you possibly could, determined to always bring out their best traits and encourage their development. Every bit of work counted towards reaching that goal. Once the dayâs lesson ended, they skipped back inside the castle and up towards their rooms. You turned around in the direction from which the footsteps had come and watched Yunhoâs face as he walked closer towards you; the sun glistening off the gold buttons and linings in his attire. His eyes focused solely upon you.
âHow was todayâs class?â The question slipped from his lips smoothly.
âPerfect,â you responded. âThese kids are so brilliant. I can tell their excitement was genuine.â
âIs that so?â Yunho asked. âDo you enjoy teaching them?â
You nodded quickly. âI definitely do. Itâs definitely different teaching children compared to adult students, but I enjoy both. Itâs refreshing. When my lessons finish, I look forward to their little questions. It makes the entire process worth it.â
Yunho hummed his response as the sound echoed around the two of you. A comfortable silence settled between the two of you and you noticed the corners of his mouth curve slightly upwards. A faint blush formed on his cheeks and you blushed at the realization that he was staring back at you, holding your gaze.
âWould you like to join me in my study?â Yunho asked. âSince we are both professors, you in literature and I in art, perhaps I might entertain you with tales of art and literature from times long forgotten and stories you have yet to hear.â Â
A tingle ran down your spine from the seductive tone in which he spoke. Never had you heard Yunho sound like this before, but it seemed as if he was offering an invitation you could not refuse. Not that you would have declined it, either. With an eager nod, you rose and allowed yourself to be escorted towards his study.
As you followed him into the massive room and the double-door was shut behind you, Yunho lit the fireplace, which immediately filled the space with heat. The flame reflected off his glasses, his eyes twinkling in the light. When your attention shifted to the roomâs furnishings, you found yourself gazing at the stunning fireplace and intricate gold filigree work. It was breathtaking. You turned back toward him, wanting to ask him about its design and purpose in his home.
His fingers danced gracefully across the leather-bound book that he had retrieved and placed before him on a polished oak table, running the tips of them over the smooth texture. It must have been quite old. Probably thereâd be hundreds of pieces of knowledge written inside of that volume which could answer questions, solve problems or even make predictions.
âThis book has been handed down through generations in the Jeong line and is very precious. Many members of the Jeongs have read it and learned its contents, adding to its importance.â With a satisfied smile, he slowly lifted his gaze back up towards you, speaking. âWould you like to read some?â
âI would love to,â you whispered breathlessly, barely containing yourself.
Yunho laughed deeply at how eager you sounded. He slid the book towards you and watched as you held onto the book with the care that only a well-loved treasure receives. âWell then, Miss Y/N, I would like to share its contents with you. Itâs important to understand its origins and meanings in order to fully appreciate it.â
You examined the worn pages, observing the parchment-colored paper. It was bound with thin leather strips on both sides, revealing intricate designs etched into each page and carefully outlined. This wasnât just an ordinary journal. It was a journal passed down by the Jeongs from generation to generation and filled with their histories and traditions.
You flipped through the pages carefully, noticing that every single piece contained drawings or diagrams with accompanying text describing their purpose. The picture of a traveler leaving his hometown followed a section entitled âJourneyâ. He stopped in front of an enormous mountain and stared straight ahead into nothingness, while standing still for the longest time. Finally, after a momentary pause, he moved forward and disappeared over the horizon. Under the picture, two simple lines had been inscribed: âTo journey is to liveâ.
Then the traveler appeared again on another page; this time he appeared to be riding on the back of a horse. The caption read: âTraveling is to expand your horizonsâ and under it there were more words in small font size: âHe who sees the world differently is no stranger, but a friend.â You chuckled slightly, finding a kindred spirit with those lines written in cursive. It reminded you of your own experiences in college and the fact that everyone saw the world through a different lens.
âWhat do you think?â Yunho leaned forward a bit and smiled at you with interest, curiosity and an open heart.
âI love it,â you confessed earnestly. Your gaze lowered back towards the open book and its contents while you gently stroked its edges with one hand. âThank you so much for allowing me the pleasure.â
As soon as you said those words, Yunho laughed again in a sweet tone that warmed your soul and brought a smile to your lips.
âPerhaps youâll join me again sometime,â his invitation rang clearly in the air as he motioned towards a stack of papers to his left. You couldnât deny that the prospect made you feel quite excited, and you enthusiastically agreed. You needed no more encouragement, eagerly scanning the book once more before placing it gently upon his table.
âYunho... are there any more journals you could let me read through?â you questioned carefully as his body relaxed against the leather seat, stretching out and closing his eyes with a contented sigh.
âPossibly,â Yunho replied.
âPlease? I promise I wonât go too far into your family secrets,â you joked lightly, causing him to grin widely while shaking his head in amusement.
âWe all have our own histories and secrets. Though, you may be free to go through all journals that I possess if it will please you,â he teased playfully as his brown eyes glittered. The smile adorning his handsome face showed affection and perhaps even a hint of a hope that maybe one day youâd want to learn about all of his own hidden desires and passions. But for now, you contented yourself with merely exploring the knowledge held within these priceless volumes.
Before you realized it, an hour had flown by. The sounds outside grew quieter as dusk fell, yet neither you nor Yunho dared to stir. Both lost in thoughts about the history of the Jeongs and their stories, it took you by surprise when the door swung wide open, revealing Jongho in a state of clear discomfort. The corners of his usually bright eyes crinkled up nervously, but, he managed to speak without faltering.
âI... I need to talk to the Lord for a moment,â his voice was hoarse and his speech slower than usual. You could almost feel his anxiety and worry radiating through the room.
âI understand,â you politely excused yourself while leaving the book where it laid before standing up to exit his office. âThank you again, Yunho. For showing me some of the journals.â
âCertainly,â Yunho replied. He appeared relieved, seemingly happy about being able to assist you. âI hope it will provide enjoyment during the upcoming days.â
With one last appreciative glance, you exited and closed the door.
âYou showed her the journals?â Jongho asked once he was certain that youâd be out of earshot, staring at his boss intently. He raised an eyebrow questioningly. âYunho, are you sure-â
âI couldnât help it,â Yunho muttered. His face darkened briefly, a hint of sadness slipping through the cracks of his typically cheery mask. âI had to. She looks too much like...â
His statement trailed off abruptly, but the implication was crystal clear to everyone within hearing distance. They knew what had been running through his mind. The young woman resembled so much of his dead lover. She was a spitting image, reminding him of those few precious days in which he was young and naĂŻve, inexperienced in life and its cruelty, and thought love could overcome anything.
âIâm surprised that Miss Y/N looks like her,â Jongho whispered softly. âHow is it possible?â
âIâm sure that her soul is back now to stay,â Yunho breathed deeply and stared straight ahead, his hands fidgeting. âNo longer would we have to hear her restless soul wander and whisper among us, crying out our names.â
âYou canât possibly think of bringing her back. Itâs too dangerous, not to mention it will be her end,â Jongho argued. âWhat if things go wrong and she never becomes alive? Are you going to sit idly by and wait forever? For something that could take place never? And if the spell is successful, do you expect Miss Y/N to walk alongside you without questions? Youâre thinking of trading another soul to bring back your wife. Would she not end up suffering the same fate, if not worse?â
Yunho looked up at Jongho coldly. âDo you not understand how much it means to me to have her alive again? Even if only for a short period. She deserved it. We could have been so happy if not for everything else.â
âSo youâre willing to hurt someone else in exchange for the woman you loved, hoping that maybe things will go back to the way things used to be,â Jongho continued his plea, âthe late lady is gone. Miss Y/N deserves the opportunity of a complete life, free of any attachments from the past and all the horrible memories attached to them. You canât expect to use those forbidden books to bring her back to life.âÂ
âI cannot continue on without her,â Yunho hissed. His brows knit together furiously as he fought against the rising anger within him. âOur children need their mother, my family and our legacy needs their daughter-in-law, and most importantly, I need my true love to return to me.â
âThink for a second, Yunho. Do you seriously believe the spirits of your childrenâs mother would be okay with sacrificing an innocent person to resurrect their dead mother?â
âYou know what her ghost wants, Jongho,â Yunho groaned, dropping his hands to his sides in defeat.
âMiss Y/N isnât Lady Ara,â Jongho reminded him. âLady Ara and Miss Y/N have completely different backgrounds, interests and personalities. Even if they share physical appearances, that is all.â
âI am aware. Believe me,â Yunho looked away with frustration evident in his voice. âI know that my wife is gone and that Miss Y/N is alive and well...â
âYunho, why donât you just fall for Miss Y/N instead and start over instead of hurting an innocent and beautiful person? Lady Araâs soul may be gone, but that does not mean that you cannot find happiness without her again,â Jongho added quietly. âThe children seem to love her, the staff love her. And Iââ
He trailed off and shook his head slowly. Silence stretched between them as they considered everything before them.
âYunho,â Jongho muttered eventually. âThink this through again before making any decisions. Even the dead are allowed a proper resting place. Is resurrecting their late mother really the best thing to do, especially if they cannot see or feel their mother, anyway? At least Miss Y/N is a breathing person thatâs right in front of you.â
âI-I know,â Yunhoâs gaze dropped to the ground. He tried to collect his scattered thoughts. A part of him already believed Jonghoâs words. A bigger part, however, wanted his wife and only his wife. He could still vividly imagine his late wifeâs soft smile and laughter, her warmth against his chest and kisses that reminded him of sunrises. Nothing compared to the love and affection she showed him and their little family. Everything in him ached with longing for her touch, her kiss, and her embrace again. If his spells worked successfully, sheâd come back to him whole again and to spend the remaining years of his life together with him in bliss.
Yet another quiet voice in his head warned him against those foolish notions and dreams. How could it possibly be wrong when a pure soul was sacrificed to bring back the woman that was the cause for his and his childrenâs sorrows? Then again, was he truly sure he would gain exactly the results he desired and hoped for? Was bringing his dead wife back really the answer? Could it really fix their broken household? Or would he be nothing but a monster, bringing pain to others again?
âDoes her ghost still haunt you?â Jongho probed as his friend remained deep in thought, hands interlocked before him.
âYes, of course. All day long, I hear her pleas and whimpers,â the expression on Yunhoâs face fell entirely at Jonghoâs response. He sounded terribly drained. âEven after these three years? Iâm glad that the staff canât see her but the children... Iâm sure theyâre so scared.â
âOh, she wonât go after the children, would she?â Jongho questioned worriedly. âSurely not.â
âYes. You know, the only way that we can appease her and put her soul to rest,â Yunho mumbled. His eyes filled with regret as he sighed. âShe... She wonât leave us alone unless we get her back.â
âGive yourself more time and think about things properly again. If nothing works, then so be it. If anything, let Lady Araâs soul have peace and find its way towards eternal rest,â Jongho reminded him as kindly as he could. âIâll look through the forbidden books again and write up a report for you.â
Yunho blinked at him blankly for a second. Slowly, understanding began dawning on him. Perhaps he really was overreacting slightly. Maybe his desire had caused him to temporarily lose his sanity. The idea of having her back, the ideal outcome for him, overwhelmed his entire being. Perhaps Jonghoâs suggestion would lead him in the right direction. He needed to make a decision soon. For his own sake and his familyâs sake.
âOkay,â he finally managed to say. âOkay.â
Jongho gave him another quick glance, almost hesitant before eventually saying his farewell. He wanted to lighten up the mood again, at the same time aware that it was pointless and the lord would most likely shut himself off until tomorrow morning. If thereâs anything, he would help. Until then, heâd give the man some space.
As the heavy wooden door swung shut, Yunho slouched into the chair. A loud sigh escaped him. His mind still raced about a way of resurrecting her but also contemplated on the fact that maybe, just maybe, Jongho might have had a point. A faint glimmer of hope sparked within him. Maybe the feelings werenât totally gone or completely destroyed after all.
He could start over. The opportunity of getting to know and falling for Miss Y/N did cross his mind more than once and her kind and soft personality was a contrast to that of Ara, though he couldnât deny the way she could brighten the childrenâs days, as well as the staffâs and even his in such a short time was already refreshing. A bitter chuckle sounded, immediately drowned by the crackling sounds of the dying fire in front of him.
Jongho sighed, unable to hide his concerns. Not wanting the staff to sense something was off, he put on a straight face, ready to head out on another duty. Before leaving, he made sure to leave a small vase of fresh white roses, picked from his own garden and lovingly trimmed in an attempt to brighten Yunhoâs room.
Only Jongho had seen through the dark magic heâs dabbled and accidentally cursed himself with, much to their horror, because the once sweet and optimistic lord, blinded by his obsession and desperate feelings towards his deceased wife had used forbidden knowledge no human should dare meddle in, only for it to bring tragedy and heartache upon himself. Yunho never expected the resurrection spell he chanted with so much optimism would end up turning the mansion upside down, that all of them, especially him, would end up experiencing agony so great and unending, until all that remained were only broken memories of his late wife.
The household went into mourning for many months after the spell. Everyone who met Yunhoâs former wife adored her, and it had been so difficult seeing Yunho and his children suffer alone with her death. The staff tried to console them and reassure them that even the deepest wounds heal, but the way he fell into darkness left everyone speechless, even Jongho.
The previous three tutors resigned or retired prematurely because of stress and other concerns. None of them could ever reach out to their children enough to make a connection, and even when they did, they still had not figured out the dynamics well enough to work effectively with them. But ever since Miss Y/N had become the new governess of his beloved cousinâs children, his hope in them blossomed, watching their eyes slowly grow brighter with happiness and affection as the days went by.
To Jongho, Miss Y/N felt right for the job, from her enthusiasm when interacting with the young heirs of the Jeong family, to her eagerness to learn about everything regarding the Castle and surrounding area, especially the histories surrounding its location. He watched from the corners of the grounds and various windows to check up on the new governess during her daily routines, the way she seemed to enjoy teaching the children every bit of her knowledge while still allowing time to allow their innocence to flourish and their free spirits to grow and develop, how Miss Y/N willingly included them into discussions or other activities even if it seemed uninteresting to them, yet never forced the kids to do things they didnât like, always encouraging. He cherished every smile on her sweet and gentle face.
Someday... perhaps... Jonghoâs eyes lowered. Deep in his chest, something had changed. He couldnât quite pinpoint what that was. Did his heart start beating differently? Did his breathing become shallower? Jongho shook his head, shaking the strange feelings away, even as the sense that something had already shifted, and would shift more. He pushed back his self-doubt and closed his eyes. There was no way that he could harbor feelings like these when his station would never allow him to have someone. Especially a woman of her standing.
Jongho brought a hand to his face, running it over his tired features.
âDamnit,â he cursed under his breath. He thought his life was perfectly normal and steady. Until recently, there wasnât anyone who seemed to capture his attention. He felt conflicted, but resolved that the feelings would surely vanish if he didnât let himself think about them.
Jongho huffed and shook the feelings away. He knew there was no hope whatsoever, especially not at the moment when the lordâs future and reputation is in danger, where all hopes for him to recover are placed on the very governess heâs admired ever since she first arrived here, because she reminded him of the missing piece of Yunhoâs broken puzzle: his dead wife.
âDear god,â Jongho massaged his temples slowly with a deep sigh, unable to shake the image of her smile from his mind. He wondered whether heâd ever stop thinking about her. Itâs not even been a week, and sheâs already crept up inside his head. The possibilities worried him and sent shivers through his entire body. Why do these feelings exist inside him? Where did they come from and why now of all times when he has to put his life on the line for his boss?
A thousand and one worries ran rampant within him, but nothing prepared him for the day that she suddenly became the focus of his life. Was it because she had turned everything in their lives into something entirely new? She brought light and warmth everywhere she went. She gave new meaning and purpose to his dull existence. He wanted to protect her. Jongho clutched his fists tight at the thought of anyone or anything putting her in harmâs way or seeing her cry. How did this happen? Why couldnât he control whatâs going on inside his head or heart? All of his training, all of his efforts to be rational, completely overthrown by Miss Y/N.
For the longest time, Jongho stared ahead into the darkness. In his heart, a seed had been planted, waiting for its chance to burst open. A dream, a possibility for something bigger than the two of them. What if... What if she felt the same?
He wanted her. That much he was certain of, and although he had never thought it possible that his life would turn into what itâs turned into, it did. No doubt. But the biggest issue with everything: what does Miss Y/N want? Would she like a future by his side? A life with a mere servant, when she could easily marry into the aristocracy instead and obtain riches?
Jongho paused and slumped deeper into the pillows. None of these were questions he had an answer for, nor could he form any sort of speculation for at least in the foreseeable future, unless she showed him something else. The only thing heâs sure of right now is that, for as long as it takes, for as long as the chances of her loving him remained uncertain, Jongho would hold on and treasure every smile, every laugh and every giggle that makes him wish to have his own smiles and laughs with her.
And for the first time in a while, he realized what had brought such joy into his previously monotonous life and now, what he will never, ever, give up no matter what.
Even if it meant going against Yunho.
âMiss Y/N!â a sweet, cheery voice chimed happily as you settled into a chair.
The children had become comfortable enough to act so comfortably in your presence, not hesitating to pull themselves up by you for their morning meal. Every time you saw them in their cute outfits, smiles bright and glowing, and chatting happily away, a warm sense of fulfillment spread through your entire body. What were the odds that a few weeks ago you would have thought nothing like this would be possible, and yet, everything in front of you showed otherwise?
âWhat are we learning today, Miss Y/N?â Yujin asked, mouth half-full with some cut up pieces of apples.
âSlowly, dears,â you instructed patiently, gently tapping a napkin to his lip. âWe are learning more about literature and art appreciation.â
âIs it the boring kind like those dumb books in Daddyâs study?â Suyeon wrinkled her nose distastefully.
You giggled as a certain fondness washed over you. The precious little girlâs blunt opinions and personality never failed to amuse and delight you. Even if they might not like a particular activity, both she and Yujin would sit dutifully next to you and pay attention.
âThese are different kinds of books, I promise,â you winked, earning delighted gasps from the two children.
Sujin, being only three, clapped along with the excitement, watching her older siblings. Despite her babbling, there were some basic words of gratitude and greeting she recognized and had begun uttering for each member of the staff, which warmed everyoneâs hearts. As you taught the two older children, Sujin would happily be in your lap or clinging to your skirt. She definitely liked following and was quieter, preferring to listen to you speak more than try to recite herself.
âAlright. Letâs go,â you picked Sujin up.
With the children in tow, you entered the room, where several books lined the shelves neatly in organized rows. The previous tutors were highly experienced individuals; well read, knowledgeable and proper. Although Yunho gave his children the luxury of many learning opportunities and experiences, there was something to be desired in that they would not relate well to the childrenâs age. Childrenâs education needed to be adjusted according to their growth, development, interests and abilities in order for them to retain their lessons and information better.
Although you taught adults during your time as a professor in a college, being able to teach little children was an entirely new world of its own. But seeing their adorable little faces lighting up with their eyes gleaming whenever you started telling them a story, seeing Sujin clapping her chubby hands or watching them lean forward as they listened intently, hearing them ask questions, and interacting with them. Everything about their childhood was a rare treat. You could tell the children enjoyed themselves tremendously. Their innocent smiles and their wide, sparkling gazes filled with curiosity and wonder were more than enough payment to last a lifetime.
âSo,â you began, getting up from the table to approach the wooden cabinet against the wall. As usual, you scanned over its contents briefly, deciding on what to pull out, before turning your focus back to the children, who patiently waited. âI know Suyeon doesnât like the books in their fatherâs study, but perhaps she may prefer some paintings.â
âLike pretty ladies sitting on swings or walking near water fountains?â Yujin asked. His sweet question made you chuckle as his interest was also shown.
âThere are also plenty of pictures like that too, although most of them will probably show landscapes,â you mused, bringing up a large, bound folio. âHow about we try this one together?â
Your suggestion was met with their excited agreement. Once the book was laid flat on the wooden tabletop, you flipped past the first few pages. You didnât have to say much about the cover or title, as it didnât take long for the kids to recognize what the subjects of these works were. Suyeon stared curiously, barely able to read the words scrolled upon its cover.
âAre you ready to learn more about the artists behind some of these lovely images?â Your question resulted in an enthusiastic cheer.
While the kids sat with their legs dangling as they carefully examined the pictures before them, you opened another folder containing a brief passage of information that served as an introductory background on the person who painted each work. It would have taken many times the amount of energy to fully explain or discuss each painting itself, much less explain the various aspects of brush strokes, textures, color schemes and so on. Instead, a simplified overview of each artistâs lives would have to be enough until the children can sit and learn without feeling bored.
âWhat are we learning today?â Yunho asked with a raised eyebrow and a soft grin as he leaned against the doorframe with his arms crossed.
âArt. Artists,â Suyeon waved her hands around excitedly. âItâs so cool, daddy!â
âDaddy. Look!â Yujin held up an oil pastel drawing with two rabbits. The sight of him pointing proudly to his art and holding it out made you crack a fond smile.
âI figured today we delve into the arts since youâre an art professor yourself, my lord,â you remarked gently, watching the kids jump about and start on their respective drawings, though Sujin needed more of your assistance. âWe could branch out into more literary sections starting later, and of course, Iâll include plenty of reading time.â
âWhat great ideas. I think the children love it,â he offered up a quiet hum.
âThey do have talent,â you added happily. The young master and lady were exceptional at drawing and painting, though not without their moments of struggle in between, to be expected from children of their ages.
âNow, now, my young lord and ladies,â you said calmly, stepping over with the stack of paper and paints, âwe donât want to paint our beautiful clothes, do we?â
Picking up Sujin, her chubby hands filled with green and orange smudges, you rubbed them lightly over a tissue before depositing her on your hip, making the younger Jeong squeal with delight, smacking her tiny palms against your cheek and staining it. Laughing at her behavior, you handed her to the nanny as she came to pick her up. Yujin and Suyeon joined them for a moment.
âPlease make sure the children get cleaned up and dressed as well, Miss Kim,â Yunho told the nanny as you organized the scattered materials into their neat piles. The children were adamant at spending every spare second with you and constantly begging you to stay a little longer, regardless of the fact that it was nap time and you needed a break too. âMiss Y/N must also rest.â
You thanked the nanny quietly and bade farewell to the kids with the promise that you will continue your studies together with them after naptime. Just as you were about to head upstairs for a quick catnap, Yunho gently took hold of your shoulder, making you glance at him in surprise.
âYou have paint on your face,â he murmured, pulling a clean, soft handkerchief out of his pocket. Before you could respond, the cloth ran softly over the corners of your lips and across one side of your cheek. Your entire face tingled and burned. A sudden warmth enveloped your entire body despite how soft the delicate cloth felt against your skin.
His gaze and expression were softer than usual. Kind eyes that radiated heat, along with an enigmatic smile you couldnât decipher. Unconsciously, your teeth dug into the inside of your lip and an inaudible sigh slipped through your parted lips. Yunho stopped a moment and surveyed you closely, still smiling with that indescribable grin as his gaze dipped lower briefly.
âDo not think too much,â he added with a low chuckle. You became uncomfortably aware of his fingers gliding smoothly across your skin as he wiped off the extra paint left behind by the childrenâs sticky fingers, then you watched him refold the handkerchief neatly before stuffing it into his pocket.
It took you another moment to remember to breathe. His proximity still affected you greatly. Thankfully, he stepped back and headed away, leaving you alone to deal with the growing feeling in your heart and mind. How is it even possible, you wondered as your gaze remained fixated upon the dark head of hair until the figure disappeared down the hallway and turned to the corner, when his mere smile and touches were enough to make you lose composure and act shy in front of him? And the thoughts of him touching you, looking at you, thinking about you...just you, in the privacy of his chambers.Â
You buried your hot face in your hands.
Being around the man, his charming aura and enigmatic smiles, made you question and yearn for the chance to be held in his arms and in his affections. You sighed deeply, knowing fully well that, although nothing could ever happen, at least the feelings could only fizzle out with time. Surely, this entire episode will pass soon and everything can return to normal again.
To distract yourself, you decided to get some hot tea and snacks from the kitchen. You found Jongho in the kitchens already, nibbling a snack of his own. When he noticed you, he shifted so his seat would give you enough space to sit and dine on the delicious and soothing sweets.
âWhat kinds of books do you usually read, Miss Y/N?â Jongho suddenly asked, catching you completely off-guard.
âOh, me?â you hesitated a little, lowering the cup to the table with a quiet, timid chuckle.
âYes. I was curious and wanted to see whether your likes and preferences are similar.â he gave a hopeful, toothy grin. âAre there any other books or topics you are interested in?â
âOf course. I absolutely love history, literature and language, and art, of course,â you explained, ignoring the thudding of your racing heart, cheeks growing pinker. âOh, and cooking, sewing, gardening and painting, too. Anything that will allow me to unwind after work, really.â
âWhat about romance?â Jongho continued, making you grow hot.
âR-romance?â Your brows furrowed, nearly choking on the dessert.
âItâs one of the most popular genres in our townâs library,â he nodded his head enthusiastically. âBut you seem to like reading history.â
Oh, thatâs what he meant.
âWell, I enjoy all forms of literature. So, thereâs that,â you giggled nervously. You didnât have time to explain your obsession and love with the subject. âTo answer your question, yes, I do enjoy the occasional romance novels too, although it depends. They should contain elements that spark the interest of the readers.â
âAnd what interests you?â Jonghoâs smile widened even more as he asked the simple question, turning to you again and making your heart do a backflip.
For a moment, your head was a total mess. Of course, you enjoyed reading historical novels and occasionally light romantic ones, but most of it, you used to read them as an outlet for the dayâs stress or when your heart ached from loneliness. As you grew into a fully grown adult and understood your bodyâs needs, a different craving for literature developed. The contents became dirtier and explicit.
That didnât mean, however, that you were shameless enough to mention these types of works to anyone. Your eyes looked around briefly, scanning the area, making sure no one could catch sight of how flustered youâd become. Jongho was handsome, that much you could acknowledge as a fact. And in the time that youâve known him and had been working in the mansion, a faint seedling of some sort of respect, admiration, and desire for something bloomed. The fact that you could imagine him holding you so intimately that you had started looking at his built figure, thinking of his lips over yours, his fingers trailing softly over every inch of your body.
Jongho followed your gaze to find it landed on the servants. To others, they were chatting and conversing with each other and working about the area while preparing to serve tea for afternoon refreshments. It was simply them going about doing their duties. âMiss?â
âHm?â you uttered. âYes?â
Jongho shifted towards you, leaning forward and casually adjusting his legs while sliding his hands closer to where yours rested on the table. His height caused his shoulder to hunch forward slightly, so his breath wafted across your cheeks, warm and soft. His handsome features, his neatly slicked hair, his gentle expressions, you could stare at his gorgeous features for hours and not grow bored with taking everything in. âAre you okay? You seem to be quite flustered.â
âOh? Flustered?â A high-pitched noise escaped your lips, sounding more like a broken screech. âMe? I was just thinking thatââ
You quickly cupped the cup with a nervous smile and drank more of the refreshing lemon drink. Your throat was tight. Was it getting warm? The way you shifted in the seat revealed the discomfort in between your thighs that continued to grow worse. Jongho had somehow affected your hormones without realizing.
âI-itâs nothing. Nope! Just me and my silly thoughts.â you swallowed thickly, fanning your heated face with your free hand.
You couldnât understand why you started feeling this way for both Yunho and Jongho. These feelings werenât like the kind that youâd had experienced before with anyone else. Youâve had your fair share of men, though folks would call you promiscuous because they didnât believe any good woman would associate themselves with those kinds of folks. But with Yunho and Jongho, there was this unfamiliar sensation in how you reacted whenever you saw them. And if you were being completely honest with yourself, you liked this. A lot. You loved feeling the butterflies in your stomach.Â
This sweet, new thing.
âYour face is pink,â Jongho noted casually. There was no hint of teasing. It was spoken with genuine, quiet worry that caused an oncoming headache, coupled with the dryness in your throat. âPerhaps you should lay down.â
Your lips tightened and pursed. âI will, I think.â
You dabbed at the corner of your mouth and then left the servant to clean up in order to exit to your bedroom to lie down. However, instead of a long and dreamless nap, your mind became filled with dreams and fantasies of what could be. Of Jongho and your fingers entwined, him leaning closer to steal a kiss, his lips so tender upon your own and his body flushed to yours, skin tingling with need. Of Yunhoâs powerful arms around you, shielding you, and his breath hot and husky as he murmurs his affections, kissing you deeply with a passionate neediness. The images made you sigh heavily into the bedsheets, letting out all the tension that you had no other place for.
And deep down, you felt almost certain that there might be a place for both men within your heart.
The thoughts surrounding Yunhoâs mind as he slept that night were those of Miss Y/N, whom he was growing more accustomed to seeing and thinking of each passing day. Every time, when she walked past him and greeted him or when she lingered near, he would breathe her in, notice every little detail like the crinkle near her mouth when she laughed and the light in her beautiful eyes. And just when he thought that she would be ingrained in his mind, her figure would change to that of his late wife, the curves, the colors and her voice would change into her tone.
Her face appeared a lot clearer than it has been for years. Almost as if she was here beside him, lying next to him with one arm and her head draped lazily across his chest as she fell asleep to him, running his fingers gently through her smooth locks. Even her touch, her sweet smell. It felt so real, as if it was not the first time heâd had her in his arms.
With a quick inhale and a shift of his head, his hand dropped limply onto the soft covers, and the rest of her figure faded from his mind. Her memory would always linger with a bit of uncertainty that threatened to spoil his mood. How strange, Yunho thought to himself as his eyes reopened to see the soft, plush bedding covering his bare chest. In the distant corner, moonlight continued to filter into the large room, bathing all the furniture in a silver glow. For the longest while, he remained motionless and stared at the ceiling. The cold sheets caressed him lovingly as he curled against his pillow.
He heard the whispers, the voices, coming from the walls, filling his brain, filling his very being. Was he becoming crazy? Every night, it grew stronger; the voices, her, trying to draw him into an ever-growing darkness.
âYunho,â the whispers, the dead hiss came, causing him to clutch his pillow with white-knuckle strength, nails digging into the silky material as he clutched his head with his other hand.
They were always there; waiting for him, waiting for him to do... something.
âYunho,â her breath, her breath was against his ear now.
âYunho,â she hissed. âYunho, Yunho, Yunho. Donât you want me, Yunho? Do you not want me? Yunho? Yunho!â
He closed his eyes, gripping the blankets in both fists, feeling her invisible touch on the backs of his shoulders. âNo,â he whimpered, ânot anymore, not anymore!â
The feel of her icy fingers on his chest sent ice into his heart. It felt like death in his ears, in his chest, in his mouth. Yunho squeezed his eyes shut tightly as he felt a hard shudder overcome his entire form.
âGive. Me. What. You. Promised.â Her voice grew louder, a silent roar, and louder, her words growing indistinguishable as he sat in silence, a tremor overtaking his body. Yunho could feel her fingernails drawing small circles and spirals upon his bare skin, and her mouth was cold upon his ear, her breath harsh and wet. âYou promised me eternal life. Give it to me.â
He opened his eyes, staring at the ghostly apparition of his late wife who still continued to hover before him, grinning and chanting in that harsh, otherworldly voice. âI canât... Not when the body you want is a breathing, living thing!â Yunho gritted through clenched teeth.
âDonât you love me?â She snarled. âDonât you miss me?â
He stiffened, not wanting to reply, as the sight of his former, most beloved person standing before him with such unabashed cruelty was too much. He kept silent, hearing his heart beat faster as the cold spread in his chest, like frost burning up the core of him.
âTell me, dear,â her voice lowered, cooing and breathless in his ear, âdo you still love me, after everything that happened, Yunho?â
He didnât know how to reply. So many mixed emotions rose and threatened to overflow. The coldness in his bones and her heavy weight, the dread, the dread all sinking down upon him until he finally whispered,
âYes...â Yunho looked at her, unflinching. His resolve held for this one second as the memories, the old fears, the hatred flooded him all the same.
She smiled, eyes glittering darkly in the candlelight.
âDo you wish you had me by your side, again?â She cooed and reached forward. âShe looks like me, you know. You can have us both. Tell me, tell me.â
Yunho closed his eyes, shaking them, wanting to rid himself of the ghost before his eyes, his ghost, the vision before him, and then he cried aloud, âNO!â
And when he felt the warm hand that touched his arm gently, Yunho flinched away with a heavy gasp.
âMy lord?â the quiet voice came. Yunho opened his eyes, the ghost of his late wife, nowhere to be seen. In her place stood his very real, breathing person.
You looked down at his sweat drenched body, a clear sign he was either having fever or having a nightmare. You head the sounds coming from his bedroom and dashed towards him to investigate the situation. Now, standing at the bedside and examining his poor sleeping figure and seeing how he tossed and turned.
âAre you alright?â you asked hesitantly, not caring that you were just in a thin layer of chemise that barely concealed all of your most intimate areas, or that he was naked from the waist up.
âMmhm,â his throat muscles bobbed. It was all Yunho could manage through the overwhelming need and desire. You. He needed you. He needed someone else. Anyone other than her. She would not haunt him for long, not when he had a mind and will of his own. Not when he had you.
âI-I....â the man shook his head, closing his eyes for a moment before letting them flutter open. He grabbed your hand, pulling you towards him so that you lay flat on the bed, his body hovering over you.
The blanket had moved aside and fell completely from his torso to the mattress, showing off the stunning upper body, tousled and messed hair, and a glint in his half-closed gaze. You exhaled shakily, still unmoving.
âPlease. I... just want you. Just tonight,â he breathed, looking up from your cleavage. He captured your lips with his own, leaving you speechless and breathless. âStay with me tonight.â
The gentleness, his words, and his touch seemed to burn into your skin. His hands moved up your arms, pinning them above your head as he devoured your mouth and your neck. His knee settled nicely between your legs. With every word, his teeth, tongue and lips trailed over the tender skin of your exposed throat and collarbone.
It felt right; his firm, warm body pressed to your own, the gentle tugs of his hands upon the flimsy chemise, the slow drag of his thumb across your lips, the feather-light brushes and caresses, his mouth upon yours, exploring, dominating, yet coaxing out your desire. The soft noises you make and the whimpers of his name urged him forward, spurring his hunger.
âDo you want me? Tell me you want me,â he pleaded. His mouth was so close that you felt his hot breath washing over your wet lips, making you shiver. âPlease.â
âI want you,â you gasped, overwhelmed by your desires and needs and unable to say more. Your lips yearned for him. For his taste and his scent. You wanted nothing more but him.
His chest rose and fell rapidly, trying to catch his breath as he reached down with one hand to press a finger to your slick sex, dragging it upwards, sending your hips bucking and arching from the pleasurable shock that ripped through you. âYunho....â
âI...â his breath quivered. âIs it alright?â
He was hard, unbelievably hard against your thigh and his tent was already apparent in the loose trousers he was wearing. Even so, his kind nature urged him to be respectful. âIs it?â
He glanced up and down at your bare and quivering form, taking in the curves of your soft, lush skin and the dips between. His gaze lingered on your full and luscious breasts with its stiffened peaks, so tantalizingly inviting and luring. You wiggled one of your hands free, grasping the hand that was on your sex, squeezing it as you smiled tenderly.
âYes,â you breathed softly, and his eyes bore back at you in shock. âI am willing.â
After hearing your words of consent, he inserted a long finger inside you. You gasped loudly and arched your back as his mouth latched onto one hardened bud, taking your breast into his mouth, sucking greedily and harshly. He added another finger and began to slide his fingers in and out, allowing the tip of his fingers to run across that spot he knew would have you writhing in pleasure.
You bucked your hips again to meet the pace of his fingers, as you tried your best not to moan louder and louder. âP-please... Oh! Yunho, please.â
It felt as if every nerve ending in your body was alight and ready for his touch, to feel his heat wash over every inch of your exposed skin, even his soft breathing. As he pressed his body flat and covered your entire form with his own, the entire room seemed to dim, your hearing and vision a mess, every sound muted and faraway as you succumbed to the feel of Yunhoâs hands and the press of his weight over you, which somehow reassured you.
âHush now,â his low voice tickled your ear, making your entire body shake with anticipation and need. âLet me take care of you. Iâll make you feel good. So good.â
You found yourself moaning from his husky and thick voice alone. He rolled his hips to emphasise the point, dragging the hardened bulge against the inside of your thigh. He removed his hand from you only to rip your chemise cleanly down the middle.
âIâll get you another one,â he chuckled when he saw your surprised face.
âHow am I supposed to go back to my bedroom?â you managed between huffs.
âYou donât,â Yunho murmured, taking hold of both your hands in one grip again, pinning them together. âI intend to keep you all night long until the sun rises. Weâll see if you are not absolutely spent by then.â
Before you could utter another word, Yunho trailed, kissed down the valley between your breasts and all the way to your stomach, dipping the tip of his tongue in the tiny curve where the muscles in the belly are. Your senses were over flooded from every lick and stroke, each graze of his teeth, his hands and his mouth, kissing you, kneading you, stroking you, anywhere and everywhere.
Suddenly, there was an empty feeling in the pit of your stomach when you noticed Yunho rising. His hands made quick work of undoing the cord that kept his pants tied in place.
âOpen your legs,â Yunhoâs hot breath fanned over your cheeks as he breathed raggedly. He urged, squeezing the soft flesh of your thigh lightly. âWider.â
Slowly and agonizingly, he crawled down your body, his fingers all the way to the inner part of your thighs, pulling and spreading them apart for him. Without a warning, his tongue laved at your damp opening, drinking your essence greedily as you writhed and moaned beneath him. A firm hand went to your stomach, preventing you from moving too much as Yunhoâs lips covered your swollen folds. You pulled on the silken strands of his hair, earning a growl of approval, and moaned softly at the sensation of his warm breaths fanned over your clit. His tongue swirled over your entrance, driving you absolutely mad.
With his talented and torturous mouth, Yunho didnât take much longer until your release spasmed throughout your entire being, shattering your every thought and coherency. Yunho didnât relent and continued devouring you, prolonging your release until you were forced to use your free hand to push his head away. When your breathing finally evened out, you felt Yunho shift, his weight above your pelvis, and his solid erection laid heavily between the apex of your thighs.
âY/N,â his hands moved to your wrists once again. And, as you felt him enter your walls and slide deliciously along your soaking, moist flesh, he took your lips in a kiss, claiming your mouth and drawing a breathless gasp from you as his length filled you and stretched you most deliciously, stealing your breath away. The two of you settled into a delicious rhythm with his cock stroking in and out and with the thrust of his hips in perfect sync with your rocking. âYou feel so good.â
The deep grunts that followed had you burying your nails into his skin, the need for him increasing as you could almost hear the thudding of your heart as Yunhoâs movements got quicker, causing you to arch against his chest. There were no thoughts in your mind and you couldnât help the wanton moans that escaped your lips. With his hand guiding your leg around him and the other supporting him, Yunho sank his length deeper inside you.
âSo warm,â he shuddered in disbelief as his breathing became more ragged, the scent of his cologne and arousal hitting you directly, along with the droplets of sweat that began to form on his back. You moaned and whispered his name repeatedly like it was a spell, knowing that he needed more than just your words.
His low growls were so close to your ear, urging you to continue chanting his name with every movement until a small whimper broke from you, a soft, âoh.â
âLook at me,â his lips grazed your earlobe as you mewled and jerked your hips to meet his deep thrust. He needed to see the look of complete surrender on your face when he finished you. He wanted to see every detail.
âYunho,â you let out a soft moan.
âNow,â he whispered in a commanding tone that sent shivers down your spine, drawing a gasp from you as he snapped his hips, embedding himself to the hilt. âCome for me.â
A cry, sweet and wanting, was forced from his lips, as Yunho wrapped his hands around your throat, capturing the moan in another kiss, making you feel the warmth radiating between your connected bodies. He breathed heavily and groaned at the contact of his throbbing erection in your heat. As if responding to your need, he squeezed the globes of your rear gently before continuing his rough and hurried strokes.
When the tension and pressure grew too great, Yunho couldnât control himself. He climaxed with a deep grunt and your name. All his strength seemed to abandon him and his weight toppled over, leaning on you. Immediately, he shifted and placed a kiss at the top of your forehead, gathering you close to his sweat slicked skin with your head nestled under his chin.
Your hands roamed all over the expanse of Yunhoâs broad, warm chest as his heartbeat started to slow. One hand pushed a stray strand away from his face, revealing flushed cheeks, moist and slightly swollen lips, and tousled hair. Yunho looked gorgeous and absolutely stunning underneath the pale moon that continued to provide its illuminating light.
His eyelids fluttered open to look directly into yours. With his right hand, he drew your face towards him. Your breath hitched as Yunho rested his forehead upon yours, his thumb grazing across your lips. He sucked in a deep breath and whispered something in a tone that you could not catch. Afterward, he moved downwards and connected his mouth to yours, kissing your lips fervently, relishing every little moan you emitted.
âYouâre beautiful,â he uttered in the brief pauses between kisses, making you chuckle. âAre you alright?â
âI should be asking you that,â you said. âWhat happened to you earlier?â
With a furrowed expression, you witnessed the dark look that crossed Yunhoâs handsome features. The way he carried himself, the quiet elegance he always displayed. It was all still the same, but there was also something hidden and tucked behind his person. Like he carried a heavy burden on his shoulders. Yunho shook his head. âThereâs... a lot of things thatâs happened, Y/N. Itâll take a long time to explain.â
âWell, Iâm not going anywhere,â you replied quietly, brushing a thumb against his cheek.
Yunho merely looked at you, studying every minute detail of your face, committing everything to memory. At that moment, there was nothing else but you and Yunho. Nothing and no one could have this. And the way you spoke, the way your gentle hands moved across his skin as you spoke, the very fact that he was talking about something he hadnât touched upon in the years of your company, caused him to think. Maybe you werenât going anywhere, after all.
âIf thereâs a reason,â you murmured slowly and cautiously as you rested a hand upon his naked chest, âa reason that has prevented you to open up and talk, I hope that in time, youâll be willing to tell me what troubles you, Yunho.â
With a smile tugging his lips upwards, a genuine smile, Yunho held you close. For the first time in years, there was a spark of hope and warmth he could feel and it was not a hallucination, no.
It was very real.
One month passed by relatively fast.
You were standing next to Jongho, waving at the departing carriage that Yunho and the children had departed in. Yunho and the children were heading to the capital for the holidays, as was the custom for nobles to do. Sujin was clinging on to you for dear life and refused to leave, wailing and screaming in anguish, holding you tight in her embrace while the other two children joined her in their wails. Their loud sobs drowned out all the noise of the bustling servants and horses.
âYouâll be back before you know it,â you muttered, rubbing the childâs back soothingly and in a voice loud enough to be heard amongst the chaos. The toddler buried her face further into your chest, nodding slowly while sobbing quietly. âItâs only for a few weeks.â
Yunho sighed and walked up behind, gently peeling off Sujin from her iron grip.
âYou have to let go, baby,â he soothed and smiled comfortingly.
âPapa, no!â she wailed, digging her face against Yunhoâs chest with a new set of sobs. The older gentleman gave you a helpless look and sighed. You only offered a supportive smile in response.
âThe sooner you let go, the sooner we can return and you can see Miss Y/N again,â Yunho cajoled with the toddler, still not relenting her hold on his shirt.
Yunho waited patiently as Sujin processed his statement and pulled her face back, still sniffling and sobbing and hiccupping. She nodded vigorously. âUh, huh.â
âAlright. Say goodbye, now,â Yunho said sternly. The toddler pouted with tears dripping down her red face.
âBye-bye mama,â she cried. âBye-bye!!â
You stood there frozen and startled beyond belief. The children and everyone around them went still with astonishment as a sudden awkward silence washed over everyone and they stared back and forth. Your mind went blank and unresponsive, incapable of forming any thought and even a simple word as the small and fragile girl wrapped her arms around your neck once again, causing the spell to break.
âGoodbye, sweetheart,â not bothering to correct the toddler. You embraced the little girl, taking in the smell of her soft baby hairs. With one final cry, the toddler released you. âIâll see you soon.â
âJongho, keep Miss Y/N and the rest of the staff well,â the nobleman addressed to the younger man with a slight blush dusted over his cheekbones. He offered an apologetic grin before sending a knowing look your way and nodded, retreating inside his carriage with the crying kids trailing behind. The carriage shook roughly and then, with the sound of rattling wheels, was off.
âMama, huh?â One maid let out a teasing grin. âSeems like the little lady has already taken a liking to you, Miss Y/N.â
âWhat do you expect? Miss Y/N is the closest to a mother figure that the young lord and ladies have.â The house steward, old and grizzled as he was, merely hummed in thought, stroking his beard in contemplation as he watched the retreating carriage fade in the distant hills.
âI donât mind it at all,â you laughed. âSujin is three, after all. She doesnât understand much.â
âJust wait, Miss Y/N. In no time, all three children will start calling you mama. That would be adorable,â one of the kitchen maids added. Everyone began to chat animatedly. âThe master already has affection towards you. Itâs only a matter of time until those adorable tykes start picking up on his feelings.â
âWhat are you all saying?! That would never happen!â You blushed bright red as everyone burst out laughing.
Jongho chuckled. âNow, now. Letâs all get back to our duties. The sooner we all finish, the sooner we can finally relax!â
With Jonghoâs cheerful remark, the atmosphere turned jubilant. The servants immediately scattered back to their stations and went back to their responsibilities. However, Jongho stood next to you. âYou know he cares about you.â
âHe-weâre not together!â You protested loudly, waving your hands frantically in front of you. âThereâs no way he can like a woman of my stature.â
âAre you blind?â He laughed, patting your shoulder with a wide grin. âEveryone in this entire mansion and even the children have taken to you. Youâve fit right in like you were always a member here.â
âAnd you? Did you like having me around here as well, Mister Jongho?â You looked at him. You teased, a grin on your lips.Â
âMore than you know. To me,â Jongho beamed, a look of pure relief overcoming his entire form. The burden that he had carried seemed to have evaporated. He nodded toward the large estate and the shrubbery in the garden. âTo me, itâs almost like you were here to watch over all of us. Because, if anything, there was no one that has loved us like the way you did.â
âJongho....â Your chest tightened. There was something about his eyes. Something about the way they took you and held you with utmost trust and admiration that brought joy into your heart.
âI know that, like all humans, Lord Yunho had his share of tragedies in the past,â the groundskeeper began quietly, as his gaze wandered to the green hills and to the morning sun, bathing him in a soft glow and accentuating his firm jaw and soft, brown hair.
âCan you tell me... about what happened?â you asked. âNo, never mind,â you added quickly. âYou donât have to if-â Â
âNo. Itâs alright. You need to know,â he gave a strained laugh and gestured you to follow him. You and him walked down a path in the enormous garden, Jongho taking extra time to make sure all the shrubbery were in check and that the plants looked neat, pruned, and trimmed to his liking. The both of you stood underneath a small pavilion and sat at a table facing the fountain.
âWhat happened to her?â You asked him in a soft whisper.
âYou mean Lady Ara?â His gaze lingered upon the lilies floating peacefully along the surface of the pond. He clenched his fingers tightly. âYou look like her, you know. She was so vibrant, warm, gentle, and beautiful. But during the last few months of being pregnant with Miss Sujin, her health and strength began to wane.â
Your face showed concern. âHow?â
âThe grand library,â Jongho didnât bother to meet your gaze. Instead, his eyes followed a lone dove that alighted near one lily. Its wings fluttered against the cool wind and the breeze blew through his locks softly. He sighed deeply and closed his eyes. âThree months prior to little Sujin being born, Lady Ara was reading a book that wasnât meant to be read.â
âWhat were they about?â You questioned quietly and carefully as the younger manâs brow furrowed.
âOld magic,â Jongho hesitated. He was visibly nervous and when you reached out to squeeze his hand, he didnât stop you. Instead, he grasped onto your hand with such a hard grip, his face contorting and crinkling in pain and horror that you almost feared he had broken a bone or two in his hand. âAnd with old magic, came a price.â
He swallowed and continued in a low, shaking whisper. âHer life.â
Silence was the only answer he received. So, he continued.
âThank the goddess that little Sujin was spared the curse that was bestowed upon Lady Ara, but....â A bitter, defeated chuckle was heard as he stood from the bench. He picked up the clippers that laid upon the ground and snipped a tiny branch. âIt would only be a matter of time before the curse took Lady Araâs life. She didnât make it through and now her ghost haunts the castle.â
âGhost?â you asked.
âHavenât you heard whispers? Chilling voices down the halls sometimes at night?â Jongho asked.
âSo Iâm not going crazy,â you whispered. âNo wonder I hear these voices.â
âThe staff and the children canât hear or see her,â Jongho finally finished as he took his seat again. The old and withering rose bush branches were shedding their petals at a rapid pace as he pruned the branches and pulled at the weak buds. âBut Yunho and I still do. Ever since her death, sheâs been plaguing and tormenting both of us in different ways.â
You chewed at the insides of your bottom lip. âWhy her?â
âBecause her ghost is tied with that old book she read,â Jongho said. Â
âCanât Yunho burn the book?â you asked. âIâm certain that would set her spirit free.â
âWe tried, many times.â Jongho merely shrugged with a helpless look. He stabbed his clippers on the wooden bench with a sigh. âWhen the first two tries failed, it got worse. Whenever Yunho attempted to do such a thing, Lady Araâs ghost would wail so loud and horribly. Yunho and I would find ourselves being paralyzed, unable to move or speak. And when we asked her what she wanted, she hissed that she didnât want to go. That she wanted eternal life.â
âJongho,â you said.
He snorted a little and turned his head away in shame, not meeting your worried and alarmed expression.
âWhatâs going on?â you asked. Â
âYou. She wants you, Y/N.â Jongho pressed a trembling hand against his temple. âShe wants to take over your body.â
TO BE CONTINUED