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Idm being ace anymore. I should've never had an issue with it but I did. I thought I'd feel empty. I'd never feel passion , I'd never get to experience the vulnerability of sex. I'd never get to show someone parts of me that I hide from the world.
I know now that being ace doesn't limit that. It just presents different ways of doing it. I'm not sure if I'll ever get into a long-term relationship anytime soon, but I think I can live with that. I get to daydream possibilities and look forward to it. Even if it never happens, I'll be fine. I like being alone. I like crocheting and listening to music. I like reading random books and writing essays on them. I like trying new recipes. I like myself and I wouldn't mind spending some alone time for a long time, yk?
This is just a random post lmao, idk what to put here
Brains are weird
Brains are weird because I forgot until today that the one person I consider to be my best friend that I’m gonna miss more than my parents when I move in a few months had only been promoted from classmate to friend a little over a year ago (and best friend quickly after that)
Brains are weird because in high school I told people I had a crush on them on a whim whether I was sure about it or not and now the idea about saying concrete things like “you are my best friend” gives me such a stomach ache that I can hardly eat anymore
And brains are weird because throwing out vague but deeply personal information on the internet feels easier than journaling even though my therapist wants me to journal but I don’t wanna because I’m afraid a family member could find it as if they couldn’t find me online