Your gateway to endless inspiration
Cpunk - Blog Posts
I don't have a scooter attachment or any motor attachment for my wheelchair, but I sometimes drive fast bc I am able to and I love it. I'm genuinely considering getting a "ringing bell" (idk I forgot the English word for it) and/or a "honking thing". Bc people walk sooo slow and I'm zooming ahead and most people are completely unaware of their surroundings
For the Danes or Danish speaking individuals, the words I'm thinking of are "ringeklokke og båthorn" :D
HELL YEAH
DISABILITY PRIDE MONTH!!!!!
This is my first disability pride month with a diagnosis!
"Pride month is over"
WRONG! Your pride month is over! Me and all the other disabled queers are having pride month two: disability edition
how it feels when you go to the doctor and they actually listen to you and your symptoms and the skilled doctor finds a bloodwork test and you find out your body isn't just crippled from physical injury, oh no.. It's also because your body is killing itself because it got confused /j
more vent below the cut, see warnings
The passive suicidal ideation that comes with having a physical disability is hard. I'm sure I'm not the only person who feels this way. I grew up with an ever-increasing pain tolerance due to my condition to the point where ripping nails from my nailbeds became Just One of My Habits, because it hurt less than my condition, and having my nailbed be deformed anyways before that habit formed certainly didn't help. I was the kid who always tried in sports, even if I was never athletic. I was the kid who got an A's, even when going to school was exhausting and painful and, to be honest, I was and still am really convinced that my inherent worth is attributed to what work I can produce. In all the jobs I've worked, I've done what I could, even if it wasn't...Enough. In moment like these, where my head is clouded with exhaustion and I lay in bed, in too much pain to do anything but tap my achey and tingly fingers on a keyboard as every movement sends sharp stinging pain up and down my entire arm region and drips down into my torso, and I have to get all my work done, but I can't. Think. I can't. Move. I feel like I'm an old cat, just waiting to die, except I'm a young adult human being who just wants the pain to be over. It'll never be over. This isn't to say I'm actively suicidal. I'm not- At least not anymore. Just living in a body that is in agony all the time gets hard. Really hard. And I start to wonder and think about how good I would feel if I could just slip into a sleep and not have to wake up to the pain, and the exhaustion, and the lack of limb functionality, and the fainting, and the falling, and the humiliation, and the shame- And I sometimes wish I could die, before everyone realizes how much of a disappointment I am because of this. I can't work up to the same par as everybody else can, even though I manage to get everything done up to a very good quality, it take some about 4x longer to do it compared to an able-bodied person. oinfdgionfdnndndnnnfvfn
the next time i go to the cripplepunk tag or sum and see some hoe with adhd talking sum about 'adhd paralysis' or 'how adderall is LITERALLY lifesaving!' or about how 'omg this post about physical disability is SO me but with my ADHD lol see I'm included', I will show up to their house and replace all of their food with bricks and replace all of their clothes with bamboo paper and replace all water in their home with slightly out of date soy milk an-
goodnight to people who are unable to run goodnight to people who used to be known for 'running/skipping' everywhere until it became far too painful and dangerous goodnight to people who have a walking gait that shows deformity and 'disturbs others' goodnight to people who have limbs that 'move wrong' goodnight to people who walk with a limp goodnight to people who stumble and fall goodnight to people who use a mobility aid goodnight to people who use elevators goodnight to people who use shower-chairs goodnight to people who use ramps
pots flareups are so weird because wtf do you mean my heart is going sicko mode sfter walking 10 feet???
WHAT DO YOU MEAN MY HEART RATE IS RISING WHILE SITTING DOWN???
I feel like I should do an intro post so might as well do it now!
Hello!!!!
I am the host of a DID system! This intro will be focused around me as I will be the one who posts most often! I use I/me instead of Us/we 90% of the time ,although this is not because of anything specific other than preference.
Anywho, my name is Jasper! I am a MINOR!!!!!!! I am autistic and have ADHD as well as an unknown personality disorder (BPD?? AVPD??? Who knows but it's suspected I've got both). I am physically disabled and mentally delayed but please do not infantilize me as I am a teenager and can think and act for myself!
I am demiaroace and aceflux as well as a gaybian, lesboy, and turigirl! I am Novigender meaning my gender identity takes a very long time to explain and can be difficult or impossible to understand, although I will do my best! I am a woman, a man, nonbinary, agender, none, all, a mix, and each individually. I am everything and nothing and something between. I am not pangender or bigender or agender, I am each individually. But at the same time, I am all three. This makes all attraction I feel inherently queer. I use any pronouns besides they/hir/fae and I prefer a mix of a few (although that isn't necessary!!)
DNI: Endos and anything of the sort, creeps, nsft blogs, right wing fucks, bigots, homophobes, transphobes, disrespectful assholes
If you are anything that isn't on the DNI list, interact!! Any non-NSFT questions are welcome as long as they are respectful!!
cripplepunk is visually centered around use of mobility aids and accessibility, the word cripple being reclaimed from those who used it as a word against us physically disabled people and our bodies.
i see no way anyone could think cripplepunk let alone the word cripple could ever include able bodied individuals, just because it doesnt talk about mentally disabled people and focuses on the physically disabled, doesnt mean youre being swept under the rug and erased.
just because a space doesnt include you doesnt mean you should butt in and force it to. make your own damn space instead. youre not being invalidated or treated as invisible because some "exclusive club" exists and youre not on the invite list.
cripplepunk doesnt offer you anything if youre physically abled. thats not a threat, not an insult, its a fucking statement. a fact.
cripplepunk is made by and for PHYSICALLY disabled folks and always has. those who have mental disabilities ON TOP OF being physically disabled are welcomed thats a given, but if you arent physically disabled this space literally has nothing for you, nothing you can relate to, the word cripple isnt even for you. thats not some made up rule to shoo away people we dont like thats just a fucking fact on how it is.
"the brain is an organ so i AM physically disabled" do you need a mobility aid because of your mental disability? no, do you get sick and dizzy whenever you stand up because of our disabled brain? no. do you need additional help in school because your mental disability hinders your neurological function not your ability to function PHYSICALLY? yes? then stop being a selfish idiot and stop trying to get into cripplepunk as its not a space thats for you.
being mentally disabled is entirely different from being physically disabled, both are equally valid and deserve accommodations and support but when a space is made for one and not the other, only having the other does not warrant you to push into that space.
it should not have to be said so many times let alone at all
cripplepunk is a space for physically disabled bodies.
[ID: banner reading "This blog is protected by De Rolo family and co." in all caps. It has an orange cloud background. On the left is the De Rolo coat of arms and on the right is the symbol of Vox Machina]
Some of you are only cripplepunk until it's about disabled people with deformities, until it's about disabled fat people, until it's about disabled trans people, until it's about people with "gross" or "unrelatable" symptoms, until it's about rare, severe and life-threatening disabilities, until it's about seeing disabled people being bitter and angry because the system fucked us over. Cripplepunk is about not giving any shits about the ableds discomfort and it is about uplifting our voices. Otherwise you are just a poser.