Your gateway to endless inspiration
Gently Holds - Blog Posts
i had to draw the little pupper ❤️
(i dont think I’ve ever drawn a dog before..)
jude, bella, and lucas are by @justabeewithapen :D
beware the ghastly garlic
Vampire: what a glorious night, nothing can ruin it
The ghastly Garlic:
sometimes drawing is awesome and sometimes it kills u in the slowest & most agonizing ways but then u come back to life n have to draw again.
anyway. here’s a very tiny caracalla wearing a ring as a hat
reblog to pat him on the head gently
was asked to share about Bitzy the clown so im gonna!!
excuse anything that doesnt make sense or spelling errors i currently have a migraine lol
this is just surface level stuff that shows who they are as a person
okay so bitzy started off as a clownsona that i could imagine saying what i was really thinking to customers/coworkers whenever i got mad at them when i used worked in customer service lol, it really helped me chill out and control my emotions
they were originally a character that i imagined doing badass stuff to music when i went on 4 hour long car rides every weekend for half a year, it helped pass the time and keep me sane
but yea bitzy very early in development was just the embodiment of what customer service does to a mf
inspiration for them: The Collector from the Owl House, Steve from Big Top Burger, The Ice King from Adventure Time
they go by they/it
VERY gender, will wear anything
but will scratch at their skin if its exposed so they tend to wear clothing that covers their limbs
they have adhd and theyre autistic, they dont/are unable to mask
theyre immortal, they can die (usually it happens in the stupidest and funniest ways), but they keep coming back, because their worlds rules say that theyre supposed to be there, always
they are inorganic (by earth standards), along with everying in their world
theyre a literal creature, able to contort and warp their body into anything, usually unsettling scary shit
they became a god-like entity, accidentally
that gods purpose is to observe and experience
though they are not the leader type, preferring to be lead by someone else
they dont need to eat, sleep, or drink due to being immortal, but they occasionally do if they want
has a personal, wholesome, and wordless relationship with the one deity thats a higher being than them, but they rarely see it, about once every thousand years or so. it shows them the stars
sometimes they forget theyre a god though so they act like a mortal more often than not
they have a really bad memory, like, amnesia type bad. half is from repression, half is from head trauma when they were younger. also has constant headaches, the worse they are the more likely it'll mention them. both of these are partially a result of their powers
they arent as funny as other clowns, and theyre bad at entertaining and improv
as a clown they should enjoy performing for others, but they do not, instead preferring to do so alone and only for themself
hates being percieved and analyzed
it used to be a jester
sometimes works on cartoon-like physics
in their world theyre a wanderer, and though they have a home they dont use it often
their house is like a huge blanket/pillow fort that sort of resembles a circus tent
theyre very childish, and from an outsiders perspective they seem kinda empty headed
even though they are childish and whimsical, they HATE being babied
will get irritated if clothing is asymmetrical
favorite color is red
is fascinated with celestial things, too bad there's no sky in their world....
shorty, especially compared to other clowns, they can change their height but prefer not to (it lets people think theyre harmless)
very unpredictable, quick to irritate, never know what theyre gonna be chill about and what theyre gonna have a meltdown over
they try to refrain from hurting others though, hating the reputation they have due to....'events' that happened when they were younger, events that were not their fault
theyre very impulsive, not thinking before doing, but that doesnt mean theyre an idiot
can be incredibly stupid when it comes to certain things and incredibly smart when it comes to others
they cant navigate a conversation when theyre involved in it but if theyre just observing they can easily figure out intentions of the conversing parties, things those involved in the conversation wouldnt be able to decipher at all
many try to befriend them for selfish purposes and bitzy can tell, they can always tell, theyve always been able to tell
it doesnt have a reflection
theyre vehemently TERRIFIED of bodies of water, especially the ocean....
is also scared of being in a car, but not the car itself.... wonder why....
they find it funny to be chill and silly around people they know are terrified of them
something is clearly wrong with them, like theyre putting up a façade and ignoring how fucked up they are mentally
10,000 years of living in self inflicted isolation can get to a person
stuck in a state of dream-like escapism
escapism is a huge part of their story
loves liminal spaces, because, well, it lives in a world of nothing but that
has daddy and mommy issues, thats why theyre insane /j
very emotionally mature when someone is being vulnerable with them
great with kids surprisingly
has a cult dedicated to them that they do not approve of, but will use that fact to one up people
those who dont know of bitzys reputation are bound to insult and underestimate them, and then... well... they figure out who they are
bitzys overall mentality is "you dont fuck with me, i dont fuck with you"
has an immense appreciation for earth, and by extension humans, wonder why? they arent even supposed to exist in their world....
has a way tortured past
does not like the sound of jingling keys or keychains, it reminds them of some bad people, and stresses them out
they have a high pain tolerance but will fake getting hurt just to be dramatic
they also just tend to overreact as a joke, getting fake mad at little things just to be funny
powers can be emotion based though, and boyyyyy do they have some big emotions
has a gripe with technology
is not aware of peoples personal bubbles
never comforable enough to be vulnerable with anyone (anyone except for daydream)
despite being a chaotic and probably annoying person to be around theyre a good friend, who often puts their friends needs before their own, but they only have one friend that this is applicable to lol
can be unintentionally funny by being painfully truthful/blunt
struggles with reading due to brain damage, is more of a physically active person than a mentally active person anyways
if i havent made it clear enough, they are a complete outcast, but by no fault of their own, even before they lost their marbles they tried everything to get people to like them for them. it never worked...
theres a big 'secret' about bitzy i havent revealed yet but.... maybe this spotify playlist of songs that vaguely tell bitzys story will be a helpful hint ;3
Could you share some info about your fnaf self insert? They seem pretty cool :]
OOOOOOOOH BOY ARE YOU ASKING FOR AN INFO DUMP ?BECAUSE YOU ARE ABOUT TO GET AN INFO DUMP!!!!
first off, my self insert is basically just me, but some stuff is drastically different, and more of like, where i was 5 years ago mentally, so keep that in mind lol
sooo basics: their name is Kris Tycho, they're in their early 20s, they're 4'10, they're mexican, nonbinary, and aromantic
they are just a little guy who likes silly colorful fun things, as seen from the lil googly eye ring on their hand, the way they dress, and the fact that they might be the only person who wasn't scared of the dca when first meeting! they're also a fan of slightly unsettling and weird/misunderstood things, so, perfect match!
they are autistic and have adhd (like me!) so they tend to swing from being highly alert and focused to brain foggy and oblivious to what's going on around them. they do have bad sensory issues, mainly with sound and lights, which is why they decided to work night shift at the pizzaplex. also because they're reeeaallly socially awkward and get too stressed and exhausted working in customer service
they have a monotonous way of speaking, and can be taken too seriously due to having a resting bitch face, which tends to intimidate people. they're also a huge introvert, and don't make friends easily, which is partially due to how off-putting people find them. but! when they get comfortable with someone they're able to unmask and be overly expressive.
they also aren't exactly the most professional person, so people (vanessa) can be bothered by how casual they are at work (because they literally do not have the energy to act serious when its unnecessary). vanessa, exasperated by the animatronic shenanigans one night says "fuck robots" kris jokingly says "im trying" and vanessa is just like shut the fuck up. seriously.
they have spotify playlists of all the animatronics! (sun and moons have the most songs teehee)
is more than okay with the animatronics carrying them and being overly touchy. anyone else? immediately on their shit list
they're really good at sewing, and have fixed sun and moons clothes when management ignored their requests to repair them.
their favorite animatronic from the main band is glam chica (dont tell roxy)
their favorite movie is wall-e :] (they've always had a thing for robots)
their relationship with the dca kinda blurs the lines between platonic and....other, lol. they're unable to feel romantic feelings for them but they still do stuff like kiss and cuddle maybe other stuff too, but they basically act like besties and are each others comfort person. fuck labels! >:D
their entire thought process when deciding to work at the pizzaplex was, "i'll either work here long enough to pay off my student loans, or ill die. win win situation" (yikes, the pay there isn't even that good)
they're also huge fan of fazbear ent. because of all the rumors surrounding it, and because they were obsessed with the games when they were younger (which are canonically real in the fnaf universe). they are very aware of the alleged murders surrounding faz ent. and the very real danger of working at their establishments. but they're curious! sue them!
the reason vanessa and them are the only human workers in the entire building is because there needs to be at least 2 (human) people in an establishment during work hours (my source is i used to work at chuck e cheese, and that's my reference for the majority of these kinds of things)
their job title is security guard, but vanessa regularly gives them random tasks, things that staff bots aren't programmed or are unable to do, or things that dayshift workers forgot to do before closing. because between her, the staff bots, and moon, kris isn't exactly necessary when it comes to security.
kris doesn't meet the daycare attendant until like a month into their job, and when they do meet sun they immediately get kicked out of the daycare for not being a child lol. after going down the slide enough times to irritate sun he gives in, and they get to know each other. they spend at least an hour hanging out with sun each shift, and they even hang out outside of the daycare when they get too busy to visit!
moon has been stalking them the entire time though, when the lights go off every hour. they officially meet when kris has to do monthly maintenance on them and the lights go out while they're working. moon scares them by threatening and manhandling them, but they don't try to run. both because they're curious and because their flight or fight is just freeze. but after recovering from the shock the autism makes them go "holy shit your design is so cool how did your pants change color where did your hat come from?" and moon is completely silent, then he just laughs and leaves without letting kris finish maintenence.
ummm okay so they're actually a bit more willing to die than how i previously made it seem, their plan was essentially to try to explore as much of the pizzaplex as they can out of curiosity and if they die they die (they are not mentally well) so when they meet moon and he's slightly violent and grabby with them, they're like !!! an opportunity! so for selfish reasons (and because they vibe with the celestial jester theme), they try to get closer to moon. (secret reason: they like getting scared)
In this story there is no virus, its just vanny/vanessa being able to control the animatronics, but due to that they've become very anxious and stressed. this is why chica starts to overeat, why monty starts to have anger issues, why moon starts to act scary towards the children, and why sun starts to become an anxious mess.
at first kris didn't think the animatronics were sentient, and they were perfectly fine with the thought of possibly dying to one of them. but when they realized just how sentient they were (due to spending a lot of time around sun and moon), and how the animatronics were aware of what happened at previous locations, they felt sooo incredibly guilty.
despite not thinking the animatronics were sentient they still treated them like people, partly due to their autism that made them personify inanimate objects, but also because in their mind it was 'fun to act like they were real'. like an adult going to Disneyland and getting so lost in the magic that they forget the characters are just actors.
and... i don't want to spoil too much of the story yet teehee so ill end it there
thank u for letting me ramble! even though i kinda went overboard lol :]