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Short infographic-style thing on how fae veils work for us. I attempted to put the secondary veil in the demo on the second picture but it ended up looking too messy and gave up and put a disclaimer instead. It's impossible to really accurately portray it visually; since the focus shifts like a seesaw according to what i need or want to look like to myself at least; since what others expect me to look like is out of my control therefore the primary veil is seen.
This is written from the perspective of a fae creature / fae beast however some holotheres might also find this relateable to some extent.
the way my limbs operate is like in veggietales, how they just materialize hands when they need them
being physically nonhuman explains why I don’t really experience mental shifts. I am always mentally me. My brain is not human, and so I never shift from a more human brain to a more nonhuman brain. I just am.
looking back on my childhood there are so many things that make so much sense from a nonhuman perspective. I have horrible memory, but I do know that I was absolutely convinced that I was adopted growing up. I never felt like I was a true part of the family that I belonged to. I never felt a sense of community with people.
now it’s obvious that this feeling arose from the fact that I’m not human, and that I am a changeling. I belong to another realm of existence.
there also comes my obsession with all things fantasy and fairy tales. One of the first books I ever got for myself was a huge collection of the grimms’ fairy tales. I especially loved animal stories. I identified with them so much, and it’s no wonder why.
there are a lot more examples of my behaviors being very off putting to humans, but I’m mainly focusing on my internal feelings in this post.
anyway I’m curious if any other nonhumans have had similar realizations about their childhoods.
as another fae animal, I think we’re naturally good at mimicking those around us. We mimic their forms and we mimic their behavior even though we are naturally distinct from it. By that I mean that we are at our core different, however we’re good at making it seem like we’re a part of this human society.
I don’t know if what I’m saying makes sense exactly, it’s hard to put into words. But I think what you’re saying is an interesting conversation, and I’d like to hear other changelings’ views.
at times i wonder, was *i* specifically switched in for my human counterpart when i was young because my individual fae character makes it easy for me to mimic my parental figures, or does my fae character make it easy for me to "leach" personality traits off of guardians and mirror them to make them more likely to accept me as a fake fae child?
is it an inherent changeling/fae trait? Seems likely honestly, as the ability to instinctively mirror traits to people when young while knowing they're only performed will make your survival and blending in more likely; and specially as a fae animal and not a human-like fae.
Just wanted to say if you are anti-endel, anti clinical lycanthrope/zooanthrope, maybe this isn't the best page for you. I may not be any of these but I suffer from delusions due to psychotic features with my depression and part of why I identify as holothere is for this reason.
No, I am not saying that I am against you advising others to get mental help if they want to, but I am against these types of creatures being excluded for something they can't entirely control. So if you are anti-endel, or anti-clinical lycanthrope/zooanthrope, then my page is not for you.
While I don’t often get the phantom sensation that you describe, I do sometimes feel this little twinge of energy inside me around large hawks or mustelids. It’s a bit of instinctual panic. I too have a worry that predators will see through my disguise.
For the most part I don’t feel like a prey animal, but there are times (especially around certain predators) where I am acutely aware of my place as a small part of the ecosystem.
Fellow small herbivores/prey, when passing past a large dog or whatever seems like a predator to you, do you sometimes get a phantom sensation of said predator biting into you and carrying you in their mouths? Makes me wary to walk too close to large dogs at times, and zoos not to mention.
I can almost feel the teeth in my abdomen and gravity working against me, takes me by surprise most of the time.
I'm lucky i'm a lot larger than most members of my species but instinct doesn't know that; what if the dog sees through the disguise and rushes at me? (takes a step back)
i absolutely love the peace and serentiy i got as soon as i stopped forcing myself to see us as at least fractionally human
it's okay if people consider themselves partly human, i'm only talking about our holotheric therian experience here
Just like, even the disdain we had towards humans eased, because it's no longer a confusion but an accpetance of species difference.
Physical nonhumanity is not inherently bad or unhealthy, whatever that means for oneself.
HOLOTHERE
[hol-oh-thyr / hɒləʊðɪr] from greek: "holo-"=entirely ; "ther"=animal,beast noun
1. A self-identifier term for individuals who are physically and fundamentally nonhuman in every way.
"I am holothere, i am and was born a selkie" "I am a bear holothere, but i also have a theriotyope so i identify as a therian when it comes to my non-physical animal aspects."
Holothere was created in the lack for an actual term for physical nonhumans, regardless of whether they consider their physical species a result of delusion(s) or don't experience them at all. It is meant to help those who are physically other find each-other and unite, in a way, under a term. _____________________________________________ NOTE that holothery does not inherently describe transformations, or the ability to transform. Some might, some don't and simply exist as they are; the term holothere only describes individuals who are nonhuman in every sense, not the ability to teach becoming nonhuman.
"Holothere" was made to be distinct from therian, otherkin and alterhuman communities and terms, although one might also have non-physical identities and view themselves as both therian/otherkin and holothere.
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