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Interested about if any other critters out there have had experiences with medications impacting shifts in some capacity!
For me, I get hella dog cameo mental shifts when Im on my adhd meds lmao. I have absolutely no idea why, but it's kinda cool ig. Arf arf.
I think one of the greatest feelings an individual can experience is believing for years that you're fundamentally different from everyone else in the world in some way and that you're the only person alive who experiences something in a particular way, and then one day all of a sudden you stumble onto another person like you and all you can think is "Im not the only one?"
"hey youve been kinda quiet what's on your mind?"
me: "oh nothing i was just zoning out"
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Earlier today I was making a ceramic necklace pendant and was like "hey, I wanna make something werewolf related I can wear" so I was thinking and started wondering if there was any kind of general "werwolf symbol" out there that I could carve onto said pendant.
I found out that there is! It's an ancient shield emblem originating from Germany and Eastern France called Wolfsangel, which translates to "wolf's hook" and was sometimes associated with lycanthropy, and was later adopted by peasant revolutionaries as a symbol for German liberation in the 15th century. Pretty cool right?
Well not so much actually.
Im really really glad that I kept researching before I started carving because apparently Wolfsangel was actually appropriated by the Nazi's during WW2 and is now globally classified as a hate symbol. Great :|
All of this is to say that I think it's about time we created/found a new symbol for werewolves, one that doesn't have a shitty double meaning lol. Something like the theta-delta or elven star, but for werewolves (or werebeasts in general) specifically. Not sure if one already exists somewhere, I couldn't find one while researching but I wouldn't be surprised if there was one tucked away in some dusty old 2000's internet forum that someone would like to clue me in on. But if not, I think it'd be cool to start trying to figure out a new one, something that anyone who identifies with the "were" label for any reason can use!
If for no other reason, than at least just so I can find something to put on my pendant lmaooo
Ever since I learned to cut the "but I know Im still completely human btw" bullshit in regards to my nonhumanity and instead just embraced the whole "Im literally a werewolf" mindset, Ive honestly been sooooo much happier and more confident with myself and my identity.
I feel so much more in-tune with my authentic self, and my overall expression is much better aligned with how I perceive myself. My species dysphoria certainly hasn't disappeared, but it's miles more manageable than it was even compared to a year ago, which ironically has also helped me learn to love the parts of me that are still human. Im so much more balanced now, and the internalized shame I struggled with for so long is steadily eroding away. Even something as simple as casually making jokes to my friends about how they might catch me prowling the forest on a full moon is infinitely more affirming than constantly trying to convince humans that I "didn't actually believe I was an animal".
I am a real life lycanthrope. I'm never going to deny that part of myself ever again. Fuck trying to make yourself palatable for human social norms.
i hate when i see other alterhumans call physical nonhumans/holotheres delusional. As someone who struggles with delusions and identifies as a holothere partially cuz of that it makes me annoyed. We don't owe you an explanation for our physical nonhumanity. don't assume we all are delusional thats harmful and just wrong. also don't ask us if we are physically non human cuz of delusions! thats not ok and we don't owe you an answer.
Inspired by a post by @/wilczak I’ve been thinking a lot about my own desire to have a pet snake.
For nearly all my life I’ve wanted to keep snakes. I had garter snakes for several years before rehoming them when I went to high school and became busier. I’ve always felt a kinship with them. Even before I knew what I was, I knew snakes were my kind.
It took me a long time to realize I was a snake. I knew I was a changeling since I was very young, however the realization that I was a snake took longer to come. I couldn’t see beyond the veil for a long time and only sensed fragments of my true form. Once I realized I was a snake, my attachment to them made so much more sense.
We’re not a social species by any means, however I’ve always wanted to keep snakes because we’re the same. We understand each other in a fundamental way. Largely we’re uninterested in each other, but there’s a sense of camaraderie in shared species-ship.
I love learning about my kind, and the idea of taking care of another sounds very rewarding to me. We are brethren.
On a purely physical level, I love our jaws. Snakes have incredibly flexible jaws which we use to consume prey that’s too large for the average mouth. I just think that’s neat.
I love that so many of us (changelings) are capable of shapeshifting. I find it a very interesting phenomenon. The ways in which we are (and aren’t) able to blend in with humans is fascinating too.
Physical nonhumans, holotheres, supernaturals and any other physical nonhumans, tell me your favorite thing about your biological species that you might think is underrated by others.
So many aspects of your biology feel so special to the self that others might overlook, especially if your kind is generally underrated. Few think about rabbits and hares with the same sense of importance as a hare or a rabbit itself.
Each creature has its own therocentric beliefs and thoughts, the same way humans are very anthropocentric in their view of the value of humanity. Tell me about what you find beautiful about your kind, regardless of if you're elf, alien, zombie, animal or shifter.
I love that my therapist agrees with me that the point of my treatment is functionality not sanity. Maybe for some there is a need to be sane in order to live how they want, but that is not the case with me.
I don’t need to be compliant to human’s beliefs in order to function and be happy. In fact, pretending I am human and that I think the same way they do is actively harmful for me.
Sanity is a concept made up by humans. They decide when a belief is acceptable, unconventional, or wrong. I would not be considered sane by most people’s standards. That does not make me wrong.
I am inhuman. I am me.
Personally I call it the veil or glamour, but I like visage/aspect as well!
Little off topic but glamour has special significance to me since it describes the magic of the fae. Fairies are often described as “wearing” a glamour to hide their true form. For me this means I am charmed to look like a human being even though I am not one.
Offering a term to fellow physical nonhumans* for more natural sounding language/ease of explanation:
The/a visage OR aspect.
What you might see or others see of you even if it isn't actually what's really there.
These are preexisting words that are practically synonymous - visage is defined as being synonymous to aspect which literally means the "appearance to the eye or mind."
So I can say I am physically nonhuman, but my aspect or visage is human - humans see me as a fellow human because they simply are not calibrated to perceive otherwise. My aspect/visage isn't actually me.
*I guess you could use this as a non-physical nonhuman but if you acknowledge your physical humanity I'm not sure where it would fit? Oh well, I don't gatekeep the English language, LOL.
Totally get this, I constantly shift into species dwelling in tropical regions like why??? There are snakes in my area that I could be, and then I wouldn’t feel so out of place in my environment.
It's one of the "why can't i be a snowshoe, brown, arctic or mountain hare why do i have to be a physical jackrabbit? Why of all things must i be the lagomorph that feels so alien in my own birthplace's climate and environment" days.
Get me out of here it feels like biological species edging with being so close to those hares and yet so far. Worse yet i have not been able to physiclaly morph into another lagomorph so far at least, making the whole ordeal worse
I really relate to the eating quickly thing. I don’t understand social meals. I eat fast and then eating time is over and it’s time to go. Humans make eating into a social event instead and spend long portions of time talking instead of accomplishing the task at hand as I see it. I think some other animals have social meals as well. I doubt it’s an exclusively human thing, but it’s not something my species does and so I find it very odd.
I also have to remember to chew my food since I forget I’m not supposed to swallow food whole.
I tend to forget to eat until food is actually in front of me at which point I must eat it all. Which I assume is due to me being an opportunistic feeder that doesn’t have to eat very often.
This might be one of my "weirder" rants but I think I came to a realization that the way I eat has been a pretty big sign my therianthropy.
Ever since I was little, adults in my life have been nagging me that I "eat improperly."
The biggest thing I got told off for (and still get told off for) is that I eat too fast, or a I take too big of bites when I eat. I never have understood why people thought this was such a big deal. I'm eating the way that is most comfortable for me and somehow that's the "wrong way."
I am eating like I should .
To me, this has been part of my disconnect from "the human experince." I don't eat like a human, I've always been eating like an animal; even without realizing it. Subconsciously eating as fast as I need so that my competitors don't take my food. Big bites, like a bear would. Sometimes even large portion sizes, like a bear would.
I would like to know other alterhuman's experience with food and/or eating habits. Does anyone else feel like they were eating a certain way or only eating a certain type of food and not realizing they were doing it?
gotta love the perpetual "BUT WE KNOW WE'RE PHYSICALLY HUMAN!!!!" from the therian community. You know, instead of just saying "..identifying as an animal to varying degrees".
Gotta love it. Have fun making yourself pallatable to humans who see no distinction between us either way i guess./s
Okay this but also when humans start demonizing and killing others of my kind, yeah I get pretty fucking pissed. Just let native animals live their lives! Quit messing things up with your own willful ignorance!
I can't even get mad at humans saying absolutely fucking braindead things under videos of mustelids (and animals in general) because at this point I'm amazed at their stupidly.
How do some humans go day to day being so incredibly dumb and clueless about literally any other species around them? Humans really don't deserve to be called the most "intelligent" animal lmao.
I totally get this. I do feel a bit bad for those who don’t have the form they’re supposed to. I can relate on some level to them since no one can see my true form, but I don’t wish for my scales or fangs or anything else in the same way those who aren’t physically nonhuman do.
I feel the tiniest bad when I read posts saying that others wish they had tails and ears and fur and fangs- I suppose it is because since I am physically nonhuman, I do, it's just not something that can be seen outwardly by prying eyes- that is besides my fangs which are natural and are able to be seen by the naked eye. I'm just a giant werebat and it's hard to comprehend even for myself I suppose. /lh
Definitely!! I get super alert almost to the point of hypervigilance especially if I’m tired but don’t feel safe enough to relax.
Anyone else super jumpy while sleep deprived? Like my mother and her friend are talking and I keep jumping like a scared little bat and I'm confusedd
Trying to stay normal about the physical nonhumanity symbol and not give in to the urge to immediately get it tattooed.
Δ⚓︎ Anchor Delta ⚓︎Δ
• symbol for physical nonhumanity regardless of preffered label.
( combined image version; soft and sharp edges)
The delta symbolises difference, and to quote; the anchor symbolises and is: ""an anchor"(a nonhuman/supernatural) "is a heavy object attached to a vessel"(who is attached to physical inhumanity) "by a cable, rope, or chain" (by endelity, holothery, pshifting, or more)."
The idea for the symbol itself was created by @/einaobject and @/harloqui, with me just combining the character versions into one.
Interesting! I think that’s similar to how I am. Outwardly people see a human form, but in reality I am (sometimes) an anthropomorphized snake. I have the ability to shift around between fully snake to something more anthro.
hello!! I was curious: how do you personally define werebat? I love hearing different creature’s descriptions of themselves!
Hello! For me, being a werebat is essentially like being a werewolf. However I don't have a "human" form so to speak. My human form is the outward appearance that eyes perceive. However I am still a werebat, to myself and to those who know me.
As for a descriptor, I would say imagine a fursuit of a bat. My wings are usually in one of two states; they are attached to the underside of my arms, allowing me to have paws, or they are my arms themselves. The first example with the paws being like this image here.
(Image source is in the source part of the post!)
A note on terms: I do not use the terms therian or otherkin. I may technically fit into these categories, but I do not like these labels (nothing against people who do use them though). I am a physically nonhuman shapeshifting changeling fae creature, and I am a holothere.
I may occasionally use other tags, but these are the only nonhuman labels I feel really suit me.
love being a snake shapeshifter because like…there are literally thousands of species, and I could be any of them at any given point. it’s like a huge game of species roulette.
geez the heart attack this hawk just gave me. all it did was fly overhead, but all my muscles tensed for impact…
I guess I could be considered a shapeshifter since my body changes between different species of snakes. right now (and for the past few days) I’m a California kingsnake. no idea what causes me to change or if I can control it, but it’s a neat quirk of this body.
I’m curious any shapeshifters out there able to control their shifts? were you always able to? how do you do it now?
(me if you even care)
also this point is a bit unrelated, but I find it funny that I keep rats when I’m a snake. whenever I play with them all I can of think is the phrase “playing with your food”. despite the fact that they are technically my prey, I have no urges towards them. again, I see them more as children than anything else.
I don’t know if it has to do with the neurodivergence or the nonhumanity but my relationship with pets is a bit odd. they are more siblings or children than anything else. we are both creatures which is something humans often fail to recognize/respect.
the rats I take care of are my friends. not mine through ownership, but mine through relationship.
I doubt this view is really all that uncommon in the nonhuman community, but I have yet to see much talk about it.
I don’t know if it has to do with the neurodivergence or the nonhumanity but my relationship with pets is a bit odd. they are more siblings or children than anything else. we are both creatures which is something humans often fail to recognize/respect.
the rats I take care of are my friends. not mine through ownership, but mine through relationship.
I doubt this view is really all that uncommon in the nonhuman community, but I have yet to see much talk about it.
Hello! wanted to ask some questions about schizoaffective bipolar type; because we've been dx'ed with bipolar type 1 already but aren't really trusting of anyone in psych-therapy circles to reveal any details about my schizospec symptoms. Aside from the fact that psychiatry in my corner of eastern europe is very anti-dx in general. I had to fight to get taken seriously with bipolar for them to finally stop giving me antidepressants without mood stabilisers kind of deal.
What makes bipolar be schizoaffective and not just bipolar with some schizospec symptoms? How does schizoaffective manifest for you? i've read enough regarding actual dx criteria for schizoaffective and i would fall into schizoaffective but i wanted to hear a first-person point of view.
Feel free to ignore this if you're not comfortable, or dm me instead if it's more ok for you.
thank you!
Hello! I totally understand being hesitant to disclose psychotic symptoms. It’s for different reasons but it took me a very long time to get proper treatment as I was unable to understand that my symptoms were 1. indicative of a disorder 2. severe enough to warrant treatment. Luckily where I live I have access to a lot of resources for psychotic people, so I eventually have found a regime of medications that helps me to think clearly.
I think for me the difference between bipolar with psychotic features and schizoaffective was that i was in a near constant state of psychosis before treatment. In bipolar, usually psychosis is sort of treated as the end of the road: the most severe mood symptoms can get. Honestly there’s a ton of disagreement over what schizoaffective even means. Personally I define my version of schizoaffective as schizophrenia with bipolar episodes, but that’s my personal definition and definitely doesn’t apply to everyone.
Before treatment I was constantly confused and unable to take care of myself. Some of my psychosis was related to my nonhumanity (I consider my god/angel identity to be endelic due to this), but not all of it is. And my nonhumanity is definitely not all psychotic. I really am a fae creature. I know a lot of my beliefs would be written off as crazy talk if I explained them to my psychiatrist. But ultimately I know myself best.
Human definitions for mental conditions are flawed and very subjective/fluid. Unfortunately, I love labels so I choose to identify with the diagnoses I’ve been given.
Sorry if this is a very long rambly response. I love talking about this sort of thing. If you have any more questions/discussion feel free to dm me!