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gillion and panic attacks

the first time gillion has a panic attack on dry land it is after the effects wear off from laffinlot. he is absolutely sure this will be his end. there is no way for him to get enough oxygen in, no water to stop his throat from closing on itself.

he watches the world shrink into pin pricks, every noise around him simply turns into thuds of his heart rate. this is his penance he decides, his failure to save everyone in the town, hurting his friends and most of all failing to fit the title his parents had always expected of him.

as his skin feels like it was drying and shrinking on itself he feels a pressure on his shoulders. hands, warm and calloused plucking him back to reality. he can hear a voice that calls to him, louder than his heart rate reminding him that he has a body still and a heart that pumps.

chips holds him for what feel like an hour, unmoving, rubbing his back and holding him back from falling off the edge and promises him that yes he will always be there