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you aren't a bad person.
it's okay to let your feelings out, but do so responsibly. there is always at least someone who will let you use them as a support system. there is always at least one healthy coping mechanism that will work for you.
take a deep breath, smell the flowers. focus on the environment around you. listen to the sounds of the outside. clench all of your muscles and slowly, one by one, let the tension go. light a few candles, or sage. pray, if your belief system includes it.
listen to reiki, asmr, or guided meditation. listen to music, no matter the genre. write out your feelings, even if it's a first draft. watch something you love; hell, do something you love. distract yourself from the feelings of guilt, anger, and anguish.
of course, you can't always run away from it. that's fine. leave it for now, and come back to it later in a healthier mindset. sleep on it. forget it in the moment.
( anti-endogenics are able to interact with this post. self-care is for everyone. )