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the first birthday sirius' remembered was their third birthday, when nothing was wrong and their hands were small and regulus was still wobbly on his feet, when their mother never screamed at them and they still saw their father from time to time.

they did know that nothing much happened, because they were still young and they didn't remember much, but one memory stood with them from then onwards, and every birthday it played in their head over and over again.

walburga picked them up in her arms and they remember they giggled. walburga smiled to her son softly.

"joyeux anniversaire, mon fils chéri." walburga said, barely over a whisper, those words only meant for sirius to hear.

it was the last time sirius would hear those words from her.

-

their twelfth birthday was quiet. it felt different, because it was different.

regulus wasn't there, sirius was away. they were apart for the first time and it hurt. they didn't know if it hurt for regulus, but it hurt for them.

no letter came from anyone from home. ever since the black family had found that sirius wore the red tie instead of the green all of them did, something changed. and it made sirius scared to go home for christmas

"happy birthday, sirius!" james smiled, putting his hand on sirius'.

it felt warm, a weird warm that sirius had never quite felt before. it felt... homelike.

"we didn't know what to get you..." remus shrugged, "so we just wrote you a letter. well, peter wrote it, because if either me or james did you wouldn't understand anything." he added with a smile.

peter grabbed his bag ceremoniously and put it on the chair next to him.

"here you are, good sir." peter nodded, handing sirius the letter, who almost snatched it out of the boy's hand due to excitement.

dear sirius,

hi and happy birthday. you're cool. we love and cherish you, dear roommate, you're also cute.

the boys

although it was short and seemingly unimportant for anyone else, tears welled up in sirius' eyes.

"thanks, friends." they said, and they hugged.

and sirius found a new home.

-

sirius' fifteenth birthday was an emotional rollercoaster.

first of all, they woke up next to remus. and they didn't remember how it happened.

"happy padfoot, birthday..." james muttered groggily from his bed.

"did you mean happy birthday, padfoot, james?" peter snickered as he was scratching his neck. "happy birthday, bestie. swear on merlin i'll give your gift later."

he glanced into remus and sirius' direction, then grinned.

"james, let's go, give the saps- uh, i mean remus and sirius! some time together. yeah. let's go."

james looked confused as he was dragged out of bed by his friend. peter looked at remus and sirius and winked, then closed the door behind them.

"good morning." remus smiled sleepily. "happy birthday, sirius."

and before either of them knew, they were kissing, softly, like it never happened to sirius before. they knew they could get caught, but they didn't care, because both of them knew what they hid from each other.

they had each other, in that moment.

them and no one else.

"is this good?" remus asked, but the purpose of the question was a whole other, that sirius understood.

"yeah." they smiled, butterflies erupting in their stomach.

-

non arguably, sirius' seventeenth birthday was the best one they ever had.

they got away from their family and, at last, they were free.

"happy birthday, fuckface." remus groaned in the crook of sirius' neck from his spot in his bed.

"happy birthday, pads!" james yodeled and sirius covered their ears their ears with the thick pillow.

"fucking hell, mate, thanks," they sighed, smiling. "but merlin's tits spare me of the screeching."

"asshole." james rolled his eyes and threw a box right next to sirius, who opened it.

inside was a black watch with stars, almost as old as time.

they knew it was fleamont's, and they rubbed their eyes in an attempt to not let a teardrop fall out of their eyes.

it was a real gift from a real family.

-

Sirius,

I haven't written in a long time, Mother has hidden the parchment ever since you left so I couldn't write.

I wanna start off with an "I'm sorry.". I should have been stronger, I should have said something, I should have done something but I never did. Because I was scared, unlike you. And for that I have always been bitter, of how you could stand up to someone like Mother and Father. I wish I could have been more like you.

It hurt after you left, it was hard, but you did what was right, because that house has been rougher on you than on anyone else. I understand why you did it and I have never been mad at you for leaving, because you did what you had to do. I was lonely ever since, though, and no one could light up the house like you did.

The little box contains your gift. It'll remind you of me. Don't forget me in your new, perfect life, Sirius.

I hope you're ok.

Happy birthday, big brother.

I love you,

your little brother, RAB

-

"happy bi'thday, pa'foo!" hari squealed from his father's arms.

"you taught him that for this special occasion?" remus asked, looking at his now fiancé, a soft smile lighting up his features.

james nodded, giving his friend a grin. "had to, hari loves them."

"hey kiddo!" sirius cooed. "did you miss me?"

hari nodded frantically, holding out his little hands, trying to reach sirius. they put their finger out and hari's little hand surrounded sirius' long finger, who smiled.

"bravo hari."

and everything was still normal.

-

"prisoner three-hundred nine."

elly my beloved <333 actually u were the first person i got close to online and u were there when i was going through a rough patch in my life and HWBFFNMSDFDSFFNM I CANT PUT INTO WORDS ILYSM😭😭😭😭 AND WDYM IM NOT MOST LOYAL WIFE???? HELLO???

ELLY'S END OF THE YEAR POST: 2021 !

HAPPY NEW YEAR! 🎉

on the end of september / early october last year, i only started this blog as an outlet to share my silly little works where i can express my adoration for our boys with fellow engene's... never did i expect to receive lots of lovely support and also be able to talk to so many amazing people!

I can't thank everyone enough for everything. the support, the relationships i've formed, and all that i've achieved this year. and so, be prepared for the extremely sappy but truthful appreciation from me to all of you down below, all spoken from the heart.

TO MY BELOVED READERS;

if only we weren't bounded by laws of physics and reality, i would've given all of you a personal hug. yes, every single one of you! and like who cares if my arms break or feel sore??? I WANT TO HUG ALL OF YOU SO BAD IT'S SO UNFAIR I CAN'T 😭

even if we've never talked or if we've never interacted before, just know it still makes me happy that you're here! i just sort of admire all of you from afar because i feel bashful sometimes... but i do see and appreciate every single one of you! <3

be it because of my goofy ass headcanons, or my fics or something else; you being here makes me so, so, so unbelievably happy. the thought of another human wanting to keep up with my stupidity always gets me going (😭✋).

i hope all of you remember that when i look at you, i don't see you as mere digits on my screen. dear lord, no, i don't. all of you are people who each have their own happiness and sadness, a life of your own — and the fact that we come here together because of our love for our boys still blows my mind.

and so, to everyone who stick around with me, no matter since when, i give you my love and adoration. no matter what, no matter when, no matter where nor who you are, remember that elly loves you! 🤍

elly loves you very very much, put a period on that!! 📢‼️

TO MY LOVELY MOOTS;

@yunascular — chaand boku no kanojou <3 you're one of the first people i've ever talked to online and you were there when i first started this blog too 🥺 would've called you my most loyal wife if it weren't for you always threatening me cutely 🙄 /j hdshhs but really, you've been there from the start and it makes me feel kinda nostalgic that you stuck with me even until now :( but that's why i love you <3

@terrytaehyunnies — i never forgot about my fairy godparent! you were so welcoming when i first met you in the server and I LOVE HOW I INSTANTLY MESSAGED YOU WHEN YOU HAD BACK PAINS and you were so supportive when i told you that i wanted to start a writing blog 😿 i miss you so much aaaaa i really really hope you're doing well, soren <3

@heejojo — the first person i interacted with on anon after i started getting into enha. i love your works nono and i will never forget the day you roasted my reading skills 🙄 unforgivable 🙄 /j i still remembered thinking your url is so cute (heeseung and jungwon!!) and then you released the nectar series AND I WENT CRAZY HAHHAA remember when i used to threaten you to hug me back? yeah hug me rn 🙄 /lh life sucks but you don't!! love you nono bae 🌹

@jungwoniics — lia!! my sweet precious cutie pie <3 I WAS SO HAPPY THAT I GOT TO DISCOVER YOUR BLOG AND THEN BECAME 🧸 ANON AND THEN HERE WE ARE HAHAHA but now that i look back, you were always present in my memories like when i first asked for your discord (and your obsession with nasi lemak 😭✋) and i love how you always check up on me :( AND NO YOU'RE MY SENIOR HOW DARE YOU SAY OTHERWISE 😡 /lh BUT REALLY terima kasih sebab selalu ada untuk elly, elly sayang lia very much :( i even had to resort to beloved mother language to express my love for lia HELP CAN YOU TELL HOW MUCH I LOVE HER (also you're still my goldfish because i know your attention span still hasn't changed 😈)

@odxrilove — dORI MON AMOUR you were one of my early followers (the 8th follower I REMEMBERED HAHHAH) and when i saw that you had a writing blog, I RAN TO SAY HI 🏃 i love your energy, and i love how you make me do things i never thought i could do (staying you up to talk to you, listen to your amazing ideas in the dms for hours straight, more!) and i loved every second of it. everyone in your life is so lucky to have you in them jdjsjd and i am proud to say i'm one of them <3 HAVE THIS 🌷 BECAUSE I KNOW IT'S YOUR FAVORITE FLOWER MWAH

@freckledwinterfalls — ate xie, my beloved autumn fairy and incredible mom <3 I CAN'T EXPRESS HOW SUPPORTIVE AND CARING YOU HAVE BEEN WORDS CANNOT EXPRESS!! thank you for always helping when i felt lost and needed help, i know i can always depend on you 🤍 i still stand by the fact that you remind me of a welcome back hug waiting for me at the front door! always there when you are needed most 🧚 언니는 엘리한테 항상 사랑스럽게 응원해주서 너무 고마웡 :( 엘리도 언니한테 항상 응원하고 있죵! 귀염둥이즈 와오아아!! ୧(＾ 〰 ＾)୨ 난 약간 애기처럼 얘기하고 있는 것같아 ㅎㅎㅎ 엘리는 언니의 애기죠~ 헤헷 사랑해! <3

@ryuflix — LILY WHO CAME INTO MY INBOX CONGRATULATING ME FOR 100+ FOLLOWERS 😭 you've come so far and maybe i told you too much or i told you too little, but i really mean it when i'm so proud of you! of what you've achieved, of what you did to make people and yourself happy this year! i look forward to seeing you shine brighter this year too, ok? mwah I LUB YOU 😽

@gongiz — ahhh my guardian angel cheonsa ate hehe <3 THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS MISSING MY STOOPID SELF AND SUPPORTING ME 😭 you are too talented it physically and mentally pains me in a good way that sends me to heaven HAHAJS you can write, sing, play the guitar, make pretty edits all while you have to work AND I LOVE YOU TO NO END!! THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS WAITING FOR ME <3 i loaf you too much and now you will be stuck with me till forevermore ( ꈍᴗꈍ)

@rozisisme — MIMI MY BELOVED <3 STILL REMEMBERED HOW YOU CRIED IN MY INBOX OVER HAPPIER IN OUR MEMORIES JDJSJKS i know you hated strawberries but you still give me sweet strawberries vibes 🙄 /j thank you for always asking for my hand in marriage and making my day with your goofy self, i love you mimi :( ALWAYS WILL BE HERE TO SUPPORT YOU BABES!! also let's be empowering omegas together 🏃 HAHHAA /j TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, LOVE YOU MIMI ALWAYS AND FOREVER <3

@mygnolia — how does it feel being able to sneak your way into my heart and my pinned post simultaneously?? HUH ☹️😟 /lh REN BAE YOU'RE FUNNY WITHOUT EVEN TRYING (the peppermint bark ask with your *gets abducted* part REN WHAT THE ACTUAL FLIP FLOP ARE YOU OK 😭🏃🏃) and i love how right off the bat, i knew i would stalk and keep you locked in my heart forever /j I LOVE YOUR WRITING AND EVERYTHING THAT YOU DO!! YOUR ASKS ALWAYS GET ME GIGGLING LIKE A HIGHSCHOOL GIRL PLS i love interacting with you so much it's not even funny ☹️💔 really looking forward to more crackheadry with you by my side this year hehe YOU'RE STUCK WITH ME NOW REN <3 (the hand in marriage receiver + the marriage proposer love story arc SO TRUE 📢‼️)

@seeuntonin — PEACH MY LOVE THAT I WILL CHERISH FOREVER AND EVER! i love how strong you are AND NO BEFORE YOU TELL ME OTHERWISE, I WILL NOT TAKE IT 😡 you've been through so much and i wanted to let you know that you've been so strong this year and i'm HELLA proud of you 🤍 thank you for being proud of me too and always reminding me to rest and hydrate when i need it!! I HAVE TO RESIST THE URGE TO WRAP YOU IN A BLANKET AND BITE EVERYONE WHO MESSES WITH YOU i love seeing you on my dash, i love seeing you express yourself, i love the way you talk about your interests — peach, you're such a precious person who deserves so much more than what people credit you for AND I AM WILLING TO GIVE YOU ALL THE LOVE IN THE WORLD NO JOKE‼️ i will forever be your baby, thank you for being my sister that supports me and someone i can cherish too <3

@elxanxr — kel my truest soulmate <3 thank you for always being with me and waiting for me!! i always feel like i can talk about anything with you and PLEASE I LOVE LISTENING TO YOU TALK LIKE YOUR PLANS AND WHAT YOU DID <3 I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOUR EDITS AND YOUR ART AND EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU 😭 you've always been a light in my life and i hope you know you'll always have a place in my heart!! ONE OF A KIND NO ONE CAN OR WILL REPLACE YOU EVER 🤍

@azure-arcanum — TEAHHH <3 LOVED HOW I WAS PRETENDING TO BE SHAKESPEARE WHEN WE FIRST MET SHAJSJJS it was funny and i'm glad i got to meet you through it! YOU'RE SO CREATIVE AND AMAZING I LOVE YOU AND YOUR BLOG SO MUCH 😭🤍 you may seem intimidating to people at first but i LOVE LOVE LOVE how soft and supportive you are!! your humour is so FEEL LIKE CINDERELLA NAEGA BYEONHAE 🏃🤸 thank you for always making me smile and supporting me :( HELLA GLAD WE GOT TO MEET AND THAT YOU'RE SOMEHOW CURSED BY FATE (how can you watch a drama at the same time as the drama's shooting HELP HENCE THE 🔮 TAG I GAVE YOU HEHE) let's naega byeonhae this year as best as we can together hehe LOVE YOU TEAH MWAH MWAH MWAH 🤍‼️

@goldenhypen — em the mona lisa to my leonardo da vinci 🌼 EVEN BEFORE I STARTED WRITING I'VE BEEN FOLLOWING YOU AND I LOVE HOW NICE YOU ARE :( SO SWEET AND TALENTED!! you deserve all the love and support you're getting and i'm one of those who will forever support you 🤍 never stop what you're doing because you inspire so many people! SO SO MANY INCLUDING ME NEVER STOP BEING THE NICEST AND SWEETEST PERSON THAT YOU ARE ❤️ i love how creative you and ari (@enhasfever) are so much, you both truly are the absolute best!! much love and support from me 😽

HONOURABLE MENTIONS;

@softhoures — thank you for always wishing me well, moon <3 THANK YOU FOR BEING INSPIRED BY WHATEVER MY THEME IS BECAUSE I GOT TO MEET YOU THAT WAY!! i wish you happiness, enough rest and time for yourself this year and in the future! thank you for being so sweet hehe i appreciate it <3

@hyuckworld — thank you for giving me great advices when i need it, alice!! YOUR BRAIN 🤌✨ KEEP DOING WHAT YOU'RE DOING MA'AM and thank you for making the loserblr server because i got to meet new people who inspired me to start this blog + for leaving a review on happier in our memories, it meant a lot to me :( I FEEL SCARED TO TALK TO YOU SOMETIMES BECAUSE I'M AWKWARD BUT JUST KNOW I RESPECT YOU AS ONE OF MY INSPIRATIONS <3 GIRLBOSS YOUR WAY THROUGH COLLEGE ALICE 🤸‼️

@berriniki — m bestie thank you for puttig mike wazowski and sullivan back into my nightmares /j HSJSJSJ thanks for all the laughters and snorts you made me do while i'm sitting on the bed and you're on the way to school (literal MULTI-TASKING ✨) LOVE YOUR ENERGY AND JUST YOU AS A PERSON TBH I LOVE YOU‼️

@enluv — coco!! i still feel shy to talk to you but i love seeing you on my dash!! you're so positive but you're not afraid to speak up when you need to (ABSOLUTE GIRLBOSS 📢) and i'm glad i got to talk to one of my inspirations before i started writing <3 keep going, coco!! you and your blog make me smile with your cute rambles and posts SAY HI TO JAY AND MINGYU FOR ME HEHE 😽

@ravenori — ame-chan 🤍 YOU'VE BEEN THRIVING I SEE WITH ALL THE THEORIES POSTS AND MOODBOARDS!! how can tou be this talented 😭✋ HAHAHS i haven't checked on you in a while, but i know you're always doing your best like you always do!! thank you to fate for letting us meet, i love you <3 (i love you even more than how

@en-ternity — we only interacted recently but i would love to interact with you some more, yumi-san!! wishing you the best this year 🤍 you're always so sweet and welcoming to everyone <3 stay the same as you always do, alright? stay strong, yumi-san! 엘리는 유미언니 항상 응원할게용 🌸

@heessseungi — we've never really interacted bECAUSE I FEEL LIKE YOU'RE TOO COOL AND I'M SHY BUT I LOVE YOUR WORKS SOPHIE!! YOUR NEWEST SUNGHOON FIC AND YOUR OTHER WORKS ARE CHEF'S KISS 🤌✨ EXCITED TO SEE MORE OF YOUR AMAZING WORKS THIS YEAR!! keep doing what you do 😽

LOOKING FORWARD TO MAKING MORE MEMORIES WITH ALL OF YOU. — with all love gathered in my little heart, elly!

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This is the same guy who was shy to do sexy dance

oH my Gawd ATEEZ served-

the visuals?? Hwa ponytail🥵😱 yeosang center??? The raps??? HALA ATEEZ??? THE INSTRUMENTAL OF THE SONG?? whole song oml-%$#%&%$$GFSDDT

not to mention this performance- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V5un8aabBtI this shouldn't be allowed to be viewed for free DEJA VU SOTY ❗❗❗