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i can do it.
but will you do it?
... no.
it’s 1am. let’s see what my adhd riddled sleep deprived jshk obsessed brain has to offer us today. expect nothing, i don’t make sense at this hour i might make this a daily thing, because my insomnia will keep me up anyways and it’s interesting what i do at night… summary: mostly just me ranting about today. and my crippling sense of self
i just cried for like half a minute and it was absolutely wonderful. highly recommend. at least an eleventh of my stress has been washed away (even if it’ll replenish extra during the weekdays).
it’s been all around horrible for the second half of the day, and partly possibly because i skipped lunch and stuff,,, but maybe because my self validation meter is running low and there’s literally nobody here to help?? maybe?
i want so badly to have an irl friend to yap about everything to. it feels too much like ive been taking all the yapping and doing absolutely everything to nod my head and listen like the open-minded person im supposed to be and barely getting to even show any of my thoughts and
it’s honestly normal to censor yourself and stuff, right? because you don’t want to let too much of it leak through and look like you’re asking for attention and such but it’s such a
what again
replace it with something you can never get (im not making sense at all) anyways, speaking of stuff i can never get, they finally found my lost computer and that’s nice, but i’ve been so writing deprived i don’t know whether i can write again, and im sure no one would notice unless i scream it to the hills anyways. wonder how i could get more people to care
and about that, it’s time to stop, but i’m on a roll so who cares
do you ever just kind of
“i want to post this” “i want to make this” “i want to do this”
“… but no one’s going to see it, so why does it matter?”
how does one break out of this? because i knwo it’s all writing for yourself but self-indulgence can only last so long (i regret making that oc so badly right now it hurts) but it’s not good for health and i know that
how do i continue this? i’ll stop. someone talk to me, i think im going insane-