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There's a quiet love hidden in the question, 'Did you eat today?'. It's like a whisper in the dark. A whisper going..

'I hope you ate today, I hope you know I love you. I love you. I love you...'

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The Flesh I Burned

Guys

I think I've fallen more and more in love with Saeyoung every time Gureishi posts.

Turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you.

✧ — Summary: It’s winter again, and Saeyoung doesn’t want to forget you anymore. 

✧ — Pairing: Saeyoung x Reader (reader uses she/her pronouns)

✧ — A/N: For darling @cafedanslanuit​’s 8K event! CW: reset theory.

I.

Where do you go when you’re gone?

The snow is finally melting, and Saeyoung holds your hand just a little too tight. You are solid: steady and certain as you tug him along behind you, rushing into the crowd like you don’t know how easy it would be to disappear.

A whole season, this time—the longest the universe has ever let him keep you. You pause before stepping off the curb and fix him with a dizzying grin.

“Are you ready?” He hears echoes of the versions of you he’s already known in the way you ask him this: like you’ve said these words before; like you might remember the answer.

He isn’t ready. He sees all the times he’s met and then lost you swirling in the slush at your feet and finds it hard to meet your eyes. Will tomorrow be the day he wakes up alone in the bed, sheets tucked in like you were never there in the first place?

It is impossible that one day you can be muscle and bone and the next only smoke in the air, but Saeyoung knows by now that possible and impossible mean nothing at all when you love someone who’s always leaving.

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OKI DOKI HERE'S A RANT ABOUT MY NECRON OCS AND THEIR DYNAMIC! READ AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION!

Character mentioned: Asenath (Necron Phaerakh), Akhethetep the Abyssal (Cryptek Dimensionalist), Tethys (Exodite Eldar turned Drukhari Succubus, mentioned only briefly and is not that important to the story of the Necron OCs)

So, what I was trying to do recently is figure out the timeline of Asenath's Tombworld awakening.

For those that need a reminder or don't know: the current Asenath, 40k Asenath, is not the same person as the original Phaerakh of the dynasty that went to sleep (still trying to come up with the dynasty name... Dang it). She is actually the disciple of the Cryptek Dimensionalist Akhethetep the Abyssal. Due to unknown error in with the Tombworld awakening, she not only was (one of) the first to wake up, she also woke up in the body of the Phaerakh, with the real Asenath's mind/programming nowhere to be seen (possibly gone forever).

I wanted "Asenath" to wake up and realize she is no longer in her original body, but in the body of her Phaerakh. Something that leads to her having a complete breakdown as not only does her lowly self dared to encroach on Phaerakh's glory like that, but also this isn't her body, this isn't her title, she is NOT a Phaerakh, those are not her subjects, she has no right to command them and lead them. But is there other choice? With the original Asenath gone?

She stays huddled up in her crypt, angsting and trying to figure out on what she should do next. Asenath, the current one, may have knowledge on manipulating the fabric of reality itself, but she has no clue how to navigate politics. She has no clue how to wake up the rest of the Necrons... And should she even do it? What are they gonna do to her once they realize she is not the real Asenath? Should she lie? How long can she uphold that lie?

She angsts for only a small amount of time (two years) before her Tombworld is visited by a young boy, a laborer of the Underhive that got to curious, dug to deep and ended up here. Asenath is confused, but, as a scientist, is also intrigued. What is this creature? How did it get here? Are there more of them? She attempts communicating with the child and, well, neither of them are dead yet. The child leads her outside of her tomb, Asenath is introduced to humanity and is both disgusted, but also genuinely intrigued. She eventually learns the Gothic through listening to people talking and analyzing the patterns and is able to properly communicate with the boy. He tells her everything he knows (not a lot, lol), but she picks up on things the boy himself doesn't know. She decides to keep the humanity for the sake of studying them. If the Tombworld is to wake up, she will try to use her newfound authority to spare the humans and to enslave them instead (something she has no qualms about).

Here's where it gets complicated: Asenath doesn't know how to awake her Tombworld and would have to rely on her master, Akhethetep, to teach her instead. But how is he supposed to do that if he is asleep? Besides, Akhethetep killed the population of Tethys' Maiden World, leaving her the sole survivor... Tethys herself is supposed to be a very old Eldar, around 5 thousand years old.

Meanwhile, Asenath woke up only a thousand years before the 13th Black Crusade.

Meaning, Akhethetep has to be the first one to wake up, with Asenath being the second.

This could also contribute to the story by potentially being the reason "Asenath" is in her current situation. His awakening botched "Asenath's" own.

I will decide later what Akhethetep was doing this whole time while the rest of the Tombworld slept. Perhaps old man simply got curious about the current state of the Galaxy and snuck off like a teen sneaking off from their bedroom at night to go party. Perhaps he tried to awaken his dear disciple, so that she could accompany him, but something went wrong and he reluctantly had to leave her there. Maybe he left the message that Asenath later found that explained their situation.

There's another thing, should I make Akhethetep aware that his Phaerakh's mind was replaced by his student?

Him not knowing could lead to much angst and him feeling guilty on her machine body still slumbering, while the rest of the Necrons are already awake (with Asenath standing to the side and wondering if she should tell him).

Meanwhile, Akhethetep knowing or figuring out early on that real Asenath was replaced by his student sounds more interesting. On one hand, this is his student who is in this situation because of him being impatient, with her being scared and confused. On the other hand, he basically has the ruler of the entire dynasty in the palm of his hand. Asenath loves her master and sees him as a sort of a father figure. Akhethetep knows this, the master/deciple dynamic tangled with father figure/daughter figure dynamic (still, they don't refer to each other using family terms, neither in public, private nor to themselves). Asenath trusts and listens to Akhethetep... Wouldn't that make him the true ruler of the dynasty? Such power! It's almost tempting, doesn't it...? Perhaps, Asenath is aware of it as well, and tries to grow independent from her master, however she still has much to learn about Necron politics and has no choice but to turn to him for advice, lest she jeopardizes the future of the entire dynasty. She doesn't hate him, she just wishes things were different. Akhethetep says Asenath is smart and is doing the right thing by questioning his word and taking her time with answers, being unbiased, but... is he telling her the truth? Or is he only telling Asenath what would make her feel better?

Yeah, phew, Necrons are extremely hard to write. But fun and the results come out very interesting!

End of rambling, lol!