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What do you MEAN I have to write the rest of my thesis and refine it??? Is the shaky outline and 18 page ramble you approved not good enough? And all without supervision and schedule? It's like you think I'm a responsible adult or something...

04/27/2025

Good morning 🌞 I tried a new routine today and I love how I feel right now! Well, I didn't really change that much of my morning routine. I just decided to not cook and eat breakfast for an hour before I wrapped up my thesis work, which, to be honest, was motivating because I am starving right now and I finished revising my paragraphs in 1 hour (right?!!). I think I just saw that it was almost 1pm by the time I was able to cook breakfast, and I didn't want to drag on my day, feeling like I have my thesis dangling in front of me. So it was a BIG WIN!!! (if you haven't followed my progress so far, thesis tasks are the ones I procrastinate with the most lol)

Mood right now:

Completed

✅ Yoga ✅ Walk my dog ✅ Thesis revise paragraphs (guess I ate the frog this morning hehe) ✅ Breakfast ✅ Case study paper: do research (1 hour) ✅ Case study paper: writing (3 hours lol) ✅ Video review paper: read instructions ✅ Dinner ✅ Watch Love and Leashes (it's so good and very consensual!!)

To-Dos

⏹️ Shower (another reward!! most likely going to do this after the movie~)

SO PROUD OF MYSELF TODAY!!!

04/26/2025

Coming back to my studyblr after a few days of MIA =) Even though I haven't been logging my progress, I have actually been working hard! I think it's just that when I do work at school, I don't think about tracking, and it actually saves me time because I have Notion and an Excel sheet to track my progress anyway. I'm so ready to finish everything by 5/1 (next Wednesday) and wrap up the semester!!!

Today's mood:

Completed

✅ Yoga ✅ Walk my dog ✅ Breakfast ✅ Read To Love Your Enemy ✅ Thesis bullet points (3 hours!) ✅ Play A Little To The Left (?) ✅ Dinner ✅ Read more manga (hehe) ✅ Case study paper (1 hour)

To-Dos

⏹️ Video review paper ⏹️ Thesis revise paragraphs ⏹️ Shower

[End of study: 12:04am] Not too bad! I actually read my manhwa for 3 hours before I started anything lol. I feel like using a visual timer has been helpful to not rush myself to finish things at a certain time, but instead just know how long I need to do a task. Glad the day didn't turn out too bad. Good night 🩵

04/16/2025

Another day, another log ✨ It actually feels nice to have this check-in every day to see how I'm doing mentally and academically. Still not sleeping a lot this week because I call this month the "finals month" of PhD... Have a lot to finish, still have new tasks that get added each week, and I'm not even sure how many full days I have to take a break from it all after this month and in summer =/ Not the best situation, but at least I still get to do some things I like in the meantime 🩵

Current mindset:

Completed

✅ School ✅ Case presentation (woohoo!) ✅ Part-time job ✅ See clients ✅ Get an oil change for my car! ✅ Get gas for weekend traveling ✅ Phone call with partner ✅ Client plan ✅ Phone call with a friend ✅ Watch Everyone Loves Me ✅ Dinner ✅ Clinic notes x2

To-Dos

⏹️ Clinic report - results 6 part 2 ⏹️ Clinic report - results 7 ⏹️ Clinic report - results 8 or Thesis - bullet points ⏹️ Shower?

[End of study: 12:18am] I got frustrated with the cdrama so I ended up skipping through some episodes and stopped doing work for a bit... Ngl I'm getting tired so I think I'm gonna speed through one more episode and call it a night. Good night, lovely humans 🥱

04/15/2025

Today, I think I tapped into hyperfocus mode because (1) I only slept for 4 hours, and this is what happens sometimes when I'm sleep-deprived, and (2) my period just started, so I'm getting some energy back? I still need more evidence to support this claim haha.

I am very grateful today because even though my follow-up appointment with my doctor was basically unnecessary (I think she Googled my diagnosis and gave me recommendations from online...), I had an overall good day. I was on time for my 9am class (after a few weeks of being late). I attended all my classes. I got food for this week. I tried to get my oil changed, but the shop was busy, and somehow the staff miraculously offered to change my oil for free because they overestimated their workflow (thank you, Universe!!!). I ended up going to do my car inspection today, which worked out. And I was on the phone with my partner for a couple hours while he shopped, and somehow I felt included and valued. It feels good to be loved and supported by the people around me and the Universe 🩵

Completed

✅ School ✅ Doctor's appointment ✅ Part-time job (didn't do my full shift today so I'll have to work more hours tmr...) ✅ Car inspection ✅ Renew car registration ✅ Phone call with partner ✅ Case presentation - part 2 (1.5 hours) ✅ Walk my dog ✅ Dinner ✅ Watch Everyone Loves Me ✅ Case presentation - final (0.5 hours) ✅ Clinic report - result 3 (0.5 hours) ✅ Clinic report - result 4 (0.25 hours) ✅ Clinic report - result 5 (0.25 hours) ✅ Sleep by 12:30am?

To-Dos

I switched out a task and finished 2 small ones instead! 🎉

[End of study: 12:25am] So ready for bed 😴 Can't wait to get my beauty sleep tonight because I so so deserve it 🩵

04/14/2025

A new day, a new plan. Trying to stay optimistic and ground myself with inner peace today. I'm not sure what will happen in the future, so all I can do is to take one step at a time and focus on today =)

Completed

✅ Walk my dog ✅ Yoga ✅ Breakfast ✅ Inspirational videos (they're helpful to give me hope and motivation 💖) ✅ Pay bills ✅ Thesis: revise 1 section (took me 3 hours in total to add citations and draft an email to my advisor lol; but it's DONE!) ✅ Group project 2: find presentation slide template ✅ Therapy ✅ Dinner ✅ Play Xbox with partner ✅ Case presentation: background information ✅ Shower (gonna go shower now~)

To-Dos

⏹️ Clinic report results 3 ⏹️ Clinic report results 4

I have quite a bit to finish today, but I am hopeful. At least there are also some things to look forward to 😊

[End of day: 12:26am] Basically finished around 11:45 but I didn't want to stop watching drama trailers to find my new show lol. Then my internet decided to give me issues so now I will go shower and call it a night 🥱

04/13/2025

Tapped out the past 2 days because depression is hitting me and I think I'm having pms. It feels really difficult to do anything when the end of the semester hits. Like there are so many tasks and assignments I need to get done, and I don't even have more time to do all of them. Ugh... why is life hard sometimes? Thankfully, I pushed myself to reach out to my friends and partner. I feel better today =)

Not sure if this happens to people or not, but I find myself starting something that gives me instant dopamine when I'm the most stressed/overwhelmed. Like this Friday, I told myself I needed a day to relax, and I ended up starting this 24-episode cdrama and y'all I'm on the last episode today... I'm so committed when the thing makes me happy and gets me hooked.

Anyway, I hope to continue updating my progress so I don't just give up. Thanks for giving me a space to feel supported and safe (even in the not-so-great times) 🩵

Completed

✅ Walk my dog ✅ Yoga (Haven't done it since the accident and it actually felt nice) ✅ Breakfast ✅ Watch Perfect and Casual (Such a simple and cute contract to love story! Definitely a rewatch when I need something wholesome and heartwarming💖) ✅ Clinic notes x4 ✅ Discussion post

To-Dos

⏹️ Thesis: revise section paragraphs ⏹️ Clinic report results x2 (hopefully I can get through more if I have the energy)

Let's trust that I will get through another day feeling at peace, relieved, and proud of myself 🩵

[End of day: 12:30am] I basically lost motivation after reviewing my advisor's feedback on my latest thesis draft... He wants me to revise my writing and add more details and find more updated citations. I feel like I just want to pull my hair out. I don't know how I'm going to do this, and I'm already exhausted at this point. I feel like giving up because this thesis seems never-ending... I wish I could just escape into the drama world and call it a day.

04/10/2025

Quick update before I crash... I slept at 3:30am yesterday cause I started binge-reading the latest chapters of Ex-Love Review. It's sooooo gooood. So it's now 2am and I just finished filing my taxes 🙃

Completed

✅ Shower! ✅ See clients ✅ Advisory meeting ✅ A long walk with my dog 💖 ✅ Play A Little to the Left ✅ Light dinner ✅ FILE TAXES (Yes I finally did it and ahead of the deadline too!!)

To-Dos

⏹️ Clinic notes x4 ⏹️ Clinic report results x1 ⏹️ Thesis writing (I probably should start this again before I get too busy over the weekend...)

I cannot physically keep my eyes open. Ok, good night 😴

04/09/2025

Started reading this Webtoon called "Ex-Love Review" and I couldn't stop until I can find the latest chapters. So I'm just gonna finish one task and head to bed...

Completed

✅ School ✅ Part-time job ✅ Phone call with partner ✅ Quiz ✅ Dinner ✅ Read Ex-Love Review ✅ Clinic report results x2 (finished in 30 mins?? Amazing!!)

To-Dos

⏹️ Shower (I'm gonna shower in the morning, I promise 🤞🏻)

[End of day: 1:05am] Got more done than I expected, but I definitely neglected some things 😅 I think I'm starting to burn out, which is why I started reading on Webtoon to get a dopamine hit. Need to figure out how I can better rest and do schoolwork at the same time... Good night 🩵

04/08/2025

Starting my studying at home at 10:32pm... It's ok, I'm just going to do my best until I let myself start getting ready to go to bed in an hour. I will need the sleep, and I cannot wait to rest because I have worked hard lately =)

Completed

✅ School ✅ Staff meeting (1.5 hours...) ✅ Part-time job ✅ Nap (2 hours 😮‍💨) ✅ Dinner/snack ✅ Clinic document (so proud! I've been procrastinating on this since Feb lol)

To-Dos

⏹️ Clinic report results 1 ⏹️ Clinic report results 2 ⏹️ Shower (I'll consider this in the morning 😅)

Kinda still feeling frustrated that my professor docked points because I have been getting to class late, but I literally have accommodations for that. I hope it's just that he forgot. I'll need to talk to him about it, and I'm not enthusiastic about it...

[End of study: 12:08am] Ok, I'm calling it a day because I don't want to push my sleep back any further. Good night, lovely humans 🩵

Some laughs for today 😂

Types of study break (tag yourself!):

The Productive One: refilling a drink, crossing a task off your to do list, the comfort of knowing that you're exactly on track.

The I-can't-fucking-take-this-any-longer: flinging yourself dramatically onto the couch or bed because this subject is turning your brain into mulch. snacking on something unhealthy but so delicious. texting friends who are suffering alongside you just to cry or scream together.

The "Just five more minutes" : Scrolling through tumblr or instagram. trying to pull your thoughts together on a bad day. convincing yourself that viewing motivational posts online is almost the same as actually doing that homework, really!

The Leg Cramp: No idea how long you've been sitting motionless but you gotta MOVE. Dancing badly and singing along to your favourite song. The joy of realising you've accomplished more than you hoped.

04/07/2025

OK, I feel well-rested today, and I am still proud of myself for deciding not to go to the workshop yesterday because my friends are all complaining about how they are exhausted and annoyed. Their emotions are getting to me, so I'm dipping out for the sake of my peace 😅

I'm actually starting my study day early today, so let's see how it goes~

Completed

✅ Breakfast ✅ Listen to chill podcast ✅ Revise thesis paragraphs (2 hours) ✅ Play A Little to the Left 😺 ✅ Phone call with partner ✅ Therapy ✅ Watch anime ✅ Check and reply to school emails ✅ Fill out surveys (got a gift card!) ✅ Play Xbox with partner ✅ Clinic report formatting... (30 minutes)

To-Dos

⏹️ File taxes ⏹️ Clinical document x1 ⏹️ Clinic report results x1

I started off strong with my thesis, and woohoo! I worked on it for 2 full hours today so I can send my new draft to my advisor, and I'm just so proud of myself rn. I kinda took the rest of the day a little too chill, I guess lol. I can definitely tell how much I do not want to do my taxes, even tho I've done it before and I know it is really not that hard. I also ended up playing Xbox longer than expected so I didn't have too much time to finish the rest of the tasks.

End of Day: 12:28am - we'll try again tomorrow 🩵

04/06/2025

I just realized I reblogged my post yesterday to my own account lmao... Still nice to have tracked my study progress nonetheless!

I decided to not go to the workshop today. I just can't. Everyone was complaining about it and I just feel like I need to stay away from it for myself. Like, why stay here and complain all day when you can either accept it for what it is or leave entirely. Sorry, just my brain trying to problem solve for others. My family has always looked down on complaining, so I guess I don't do much of that unless I know I need to vent (probably like now lol).

Anyway, a good time to start getting some work done and taking it easy for the day =)

Completed

✅ Breakfast ✅ Watch Kaichou wa Maid-Sama! ✅ Wash dishes (been slacking off on this hehe) ✅ Shower!! ✅ Check and reply to emails ✅ Register for Fall classes ✌🏻 ✅ Discussion post ✅ Update report writing timeline and email my professor ✅ Create bullet points for thesis ✅ Dinner ✅ Watch cdrama shorts

To-Dos

⏹️ Revise thesis writing ⏹️ File taxes ⏹️ [maybe] Clinic document

Not the most productive day for me, but I think I have been building the consistency I have wanted since the beginning of the year. I am now telling myself that I can be proud of my achievements and hard work even when I do not finish 100% of the tasks. There are different interruptions in life, and we can't control them all. So I choose to be grateful and content when I have tried my best. Let's do this again tmr 🩵

Another day, another progress post 🩵

04/05/2025

I just want a freaking free day!!! 😤 Do you ever get so tired of studying and school that you don't know how you're going to last another 30 days?? That's why I am right now. I can't. I just can't right now.

I so want to just say f it and go take a break for a day, but I also feel like I can't. I also don't work like most people, and nighttime is my friend. But then, I can't even enjoy a relaxing night because I need to do work... Make it make sense. Why do I feel punished in society simply by being a night owl? That's not fair.

Grievances aside, only 1 more day of this workshop, and I seriously still don't know how much I'm learning. I'm not sure if this will feel worth it in the end. Maybe I need to reevaluate tomorrow morning before I decide to go.

Me feeling angry (also exhausted and frustrated) at the whole world rn:

Completed

✅ Full-day workshop ✅ Check and respond to emails ✅ Clinic note revision ✅ Grocery shopping ✅ Phone call with partner ✅ Dinner and snacks ✅ Watch Me Before You (I cried my eyes out for this 😭) ✅ Phone call with parents ✅ Clinic notes x4 ✅ Add article summaries to class notes ✅ Read research articles for thesis (30 minutes - that's all the energy I have for today) ✅ Shower (finally!!!)

To-Dos

I cut out some original plans cause I overestimated how much energy I had lol. Full-day workshop is a energy-drainer... Time for bed 😴

04/05/2025

I just want a freaking free day!!! 😤 Do you ever get so tired of studying and school that you don't know how you're going to last another 30 days?? That's why I am right now. I can't. I just can't right now.

I so want to just say f it and go take a break for a day, but I also feel like I can't. I also don't work like most people, and nighttime is my friend. But then, I can't even enjoy a relaxing night because I need to do work... Make it make sense. Why do I feel punished in society simply by being a night owl? That's not fair.

Grievances aside, only 1 more day of this workshop, and I seriously still don't know how much I'm learning. I'm not sure if this will feel worth it in the end. Maybe I need to reevaluate tomorrow morning before I decide to go.

Me feeling angry (also exhausted and frustrated) at the whole world rn:

Completed

✅ Full-day workshop ✅ Check and respond to emails ✅ Clinic note revision ✅ Grocery shopping ✅ Phone call with partner ✅ Dinner and snacks ✅ Watch Me Before You (I cried my eyes out for this 😭) ✅ Phone call with parents ✅ Clinic notes x4 ✅ Add article summaries to class notes ✅ Read research articles for thesis (30 minutes - that's all the energy I have for today) ✅ Shower (finally!!!)

To-Dos

I cut out some original plans cause I overestimated how much energy I had lol. Full-day workshop is a energy-drainer... Time for bed 😴

04/04/2025

Had a full-day of workshop and I still have a few more to go... The day hasn't been that bad. Not until I realized how much I got charged for a recent imaging I had to do for my accident 🙃 They say US health insurance sucks, and I cannot agree more. I'm trying to stay positive and keep faith in the Universe, but it's hard when things like this happen. I don't know what more I can do. I don't know how I'm supposed to let go and surrender.

Completed

✅ Workshop ✅ Hangout with my friend ✅ Dinner ✅ Thesis work (30 minutes) ✅ Phone call with partner

To-Do

⏹️ Shower before bed

04/03/2025

Decided to take it chill today. And truly, I keep reminding myself that I deserve it. Yes, I can study more, always. But do I want to not let myself take a break and rest after finishing 2 group projects? No. I need to take care of myself and relax before I can keep going, especially since the semester ends in a month and not a week.

Me seriously needing a facial and massage to take off some stress:

Completed

✅ School

✅ See clients

✅ Part-time job

✅ Nap

✅ Dinner

✅ Play A Little to the Left

✅ Check and reply to school emails

✅ Go to bed before 12am (finally!!)

Hope you are giving yourself permission to rest as well 🩵

04/02/2025

Today is one of those days when I woke up feeling weird, sat with that discomfort, and things turned out quite ok. Not feeling my best, but got some good news, and the day got better =)

Hope you are somewhere in the world having a great day 🩵

Completed

✅ School ✅ Part-time job ✅ See clients ✅ Research meeting ✅ Phone call with partner ✅ Dinner ✅ Group project 2 paper ✅ Check and reply to school emails ✅ Partial clinic notes (I'll finish the rest tmr 😴)

[Ended at 12:35am] Wrapping up earlier today and I know I deserve it. Been working hard all week and I can finally chill a little (before I have full weekend of training lol) Did my best today and I think maybe doing the bare minimum wouldn't hurt me once in a while. Good night 🩵

04/01/2025

Today, I witnessed my growth. The same things no longer trigger the same reaction as I have learned to take a deep breath and trust in the process. I feel more in tune with myself, even though I did not get enough sleep the night before and the school day was long. Today feels like something finally shifted to the right direction, and I can hear my inner guidance clearly again. Today has been great so far =)

I think this is mostly thanks to my oracle card telling me to take "a day of silence." I haven't been alone with myself without music for a long time. I used to have evenings after work when I would unwind with chores and give myself time to process and express my inner thoughts. But grad school and living situations made it difficult. I didn't know how out of tune I have been with myself until I finally turned my thoughts and attention inwards today. It has been a wonderful experience so far. Awkward but meaningful.

Completed

✅ Group project 1 presentation 🎉

✅ School

✅ Part-time job

✅ Watch Kaichou wa Maid-Sama!

✅ Break time + nap

✅ Call my parents

✅ Dinner

✅ Watch Earl and Fairy

✅ Read and reply to school emails

✅ Group project 2 paper (1.5 hours)

To-Dos

Finished but I'm not too satisfied because I didn't get to finish more of the project paper than I had wanted. Guess it'll just need to happen tomorrow.

Trying to take it easy and not be so hard on myself today 🩵

03/31/2025

So... apparently, I got a couple of nondisplaced rib fractures from the accident. I told people, and they didn't believe me. But my body knows. She knows what's up.

Completed

✅ Breakfast

✅ Listen to Jay Shetty's podcast with Benny Blanco

✅ Check and reply to school emails

✅ Follow up with medical stuff

✅ Call insurance

✅ Meet with group member for project 1

✅ Therapy

✅ Watch Kaichou wa Maid-Sama!

✅ Group project 1 paper (5 hours? too long to count...)

✅ Group project 1 presentation slides

✅ Group project 1 handout

✅ Group project 1 exam questions

To-Dos

DONE!

Song I ended on 🎧: Out of My Mind - NOEL (I literally heard the song saying "I think I'm losing it" as I closed out my last assignment 💀)

[Ended at 2:35am] My group project has so many parts that I cannot believe I just finished all of these tasks 😭 My teammate was goat. She stayed awake working with me the whole night. Now I just need to take a shower and let my body relax cause I'm in pain...

Took me a while to get back in my groove, but I am grateful for this journey with supportive people so far 🩵

03/30/2025

Started the day with a nice breakfast and an episode of Earl and Fairy =). Now, let's get down to business ~

Anime atm 😍: Earl and Fairy

Completed

✅ Breakfast

✅ Watch anime

✅ Check school emails

✅ Pay bills

✅ Buy A Little to The Left bundle 💖

✅ Rewatch Kaichou wa Maid-sama!

✅ Group project 1 paper (2 hours)

✅ Dinner

✅ Thesis (2 hours) - I did it 😭

✅ Play A Little to The Left

✅ Group project 2 paper (30 mins)

To-Dos

NONE!

[Ended at 1:30am] I can't believe I actually worked on everything I said I would do today. This is the first time this has ever happened 😭. I am so proud of myself! Even though not everything got finished, I think this is a good start. I am building trust in myself to be able to work consistently.

Thank you for y'all's support. Thank you for reading about my progress. This has been the most helpful thing I've done so far to get myself back on track. Thank you x100000000000 🩵

03/29/2025

Ugh March is almost over, and it freaks me out😵‍💫 I feel like this is the first time I don't know exactly how things will go and how I can get through with all my work and wrap up my semester... Maybe I've been here before, but every semester is a blur at this point.

Take it one day at a time, one day at a time. I need to keep repeating this to myself so I don't feel so terrified of the unknown that I run away from everything. Anxiety and stress are no joke.

Anime atm 😍: Earl and Fairy

Completed

✅ Video call with a friend

✅ Breakfast

✅ Surprise party for friends

✅ Watch repair (it took me a year to take it somewhere to fix lol)

✅ Lunch

✅ 1 episode of anime

✅ Group project 1 paper

✅ Rewatch Skip Beat ep 19 (iykyk)

✅ Thesis (1 hours 😊) - I FINALLY DID IT!! SO PROUD!!

To-Dos

⏹️ Group project 2 paper

⏹️ Pay bills

I'm not letting myself go to bed unless I work on my thesis for 2 hours. My phone is locked away, so I know I can get it done. It really doesn't have to feel like a struggle every single day. I have finished harder things in the past 😤

Me with my thesis:

~**~ Pinterest Inspirations ~**~

Found this on Pinterest to remind me that:

Consistency > Overthinking

Even if I am writing my papers 1 hour a day, I am going to get them done instead of continuously overthinking and avoiding my work, which produces zero results. Not that I have to work without breaks and rest. I just need to start somewhere, anywhere.

Everything will work out eventually 🩵

03/28/2025

Started the day slow because I need it 😤

Music 🎧: Pop, Rock, Selena Gomez

Completed

✅ Shower

✅ Breakfast

✅ Part-time job

✅ Advocacy meeting

✅ Read and reply to school emails

✅ Write clinic notes

✅ Send clinic emails

✅ Finished A Sign of Affection anime 😭

✅ Review and write group project paper 1

To-Dos

⏹️ Pay bills

⏹️ Review and write group project paper 2

⏹️ Working on thesis (2 hours - it'll go by fast so I can do this!!)

If your semester is ending soon and it is exam season, I wish you all the best! Sending good vibes 🩵

End of day reflection (1:11am): I didn't have time to finish everything, but I am proud of myself for not running away from writing my group project papers. This is my first time doing a group project that involves writing a paper together. It is harder than I had expected, and I'm not a fan of not knowing how the paper will flow until the very end. Anyways, it was a good day today. Looking forward to writing more tomorrow =)

03/27/2025

22:22 It's time to start! Have to keep reminding myself that it is never too late to start studying and writing my papers. Everything will work out, and it is going to be OK. I just need to believe in the Universe. Surrender the control I feel like I need to assert in my life right now and do what I can, one day at a time.

What I look forward to for my birthday 😮‍💨:

Completed

✅ See clients

✅ Classes

✅ Part-time job

✅ Meeting with advisor

✅ Revise my thesis timeline with my friend's help

✅ Watch 1 anime episode (current: A Sign of Affection)

✅ Dinner

✅ Sleep by 1am

To-Dos

⏹️ Group project paper

⏹️ Skim project book chapter

⏹️ Skim project articles

⏹️ Shower

~**~ Pinterest Inspirations ~**~

A big thank you to Morgan S, who created this collage!!

I saved this for a while and just noticed Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs in the bottom left corner. I have been so focused on channeling my masculine energy this whole week that I didn't realize I was crushing myself from outside in. My anxiety has been at an all-time high (kind of a symptom toward the end of each semester). Not fun! I'm still working on doing better each semester, but it's hard when the ADHD and anxiety get mixed together, and I become terrified and frozen in place.

Had a long conversation with my best friend last night about how it's time to relax into ourselves and live in peace, regardless of how chaotic life might seem at times. I allowed myself to sleep and wake up later today, and I felt the difference immediately. My anxious thoughts quieted down, and I was able to live a little more carefree.

I mean, life is not the best right now, but I am making each day a little better, a little gentler to myself.

Feels like it is time to slow down a bit in order to walk further down this journey. It sounds counter intuitive, but I know it works because it has before. I just need to trust the journey and trust the Universe to provide me the support and safety I need right now.

Sending healing vibes to everybody reading this 🩵

03/26/2025

A quick update before I crash... Had a long day of school and vented to my best friend for an hour before doing work at night. I guess you can say I had a productive day of procrastination.

Completed

✅ Classes

✅ Seeing client

✅ Part-time job

✅ Research meeting

✅ Grocery shopping

✅ Sushi night

✅ Online quiz

How I feel during the day:

I still haven't written anything new for my thesis this week, and the stress and pressure are slowly getting to me. But my friend is right: What needs to get done will get done eventually. So maybe I can let go and live a little, breathe some fresh air back into my lungs, and stop feeling like I have to do a million things in a day for the next 6 weeks.

03/25/2025

Tired school days pass by the quickest... Finally sitting in front of my laptop at 10pm to do more schoolwork (according to my planner), and once again, I wonder how my brain wandered off to a different space and time since 6pm.

Current mood 🙃:

Completed

✅ Doctor's appointment

✅ Classes

✅ Part-time job

✅ Food

✅ 30-min nap with my dog

✅ Randomly listened to an audiobook ad on YouTube for 1 hour...

✅ Clinic note

✅ New semester survey

✅ Check school email and reply

✅ Group project highlight

✅ Group paper section outline

To-Dos (still...)

⏹️ At least 1 hour of thesis writing

Venting: It's hard to not feel disappointed in myself for not working on any actual thesis writing in the past 2 days, especially when I keep telling myself that today is the day. I seriously just want my brain to not run away from my thesis because I feel like time is running out. I'm so exhausted both physically and mentally at this point that I just want to sleep for a whole day before doing anything. But I'm not sure if this is actually feasibly. I just feel so stuck in my brain right now that I just want to dump all my anxiety and fears out so my mind can shut up and do the actual work. Why is it so hard??? Ugh, and now I feel like I am not being kind to myself... But I really need to complain a bit. Life has been rough recently with school and it's not something that someone can solve for me.

03/24/2025

I updated my semester planner over the weekend and am ready to refocus my time and energy to finish my 4th semester in this program.

I was caught up with time-sensitive tasks and reworking my planner again for most of today, but I promised my accountability buddy that I would work on my thesis at least a little. I need to remind myself that:

It is never too late to start a task; it is never a failure to revise a plan.

I can't say for sure that I come back stronger each time. But I know I come back wiser and more rested with every setback.

Completed

✅ Scheduled medical appointment (finally!)

✅ Read all school emails and replied

✅ Updated semester planner for the next 1.5 weeks (for 2 group projects)

✅ Updated calendar to work on group projects and thesis

✅ Wrote a personal article

✅ Therapy session

✅ Did laundry

✅ Find PPT slide for group project

Thesis Tasks

✅ Updated thesis writing schedule for this week

✅ Review advisor's feedback on thesis draft

✅ Made 1 correction (I skimmed through an article for this so I'm calling it a win)

Today's study concluded at 1:24am.

Study Music 🎧:

"The House of Wind | Magical Night Under the Starts with ACOTAR Spring Court Ambience" - Prythian on YouTube

~**~ Pinterest Inspirations ~**~

I have been overwhelmed lately with everything I realize I need to finish by the end of the semester, which is in 7 weeks. Sadly, my birthday is within the next 7 weeks, and I would hate to be stressed out on my birthday weekend. I was in a similar spot last year having to finish preparing for a presentation the night before my birthday. I wish it would've been different. And I so do not wish this fate upon myself again this year.

Another year, a better me.

It's time to change how I handle my schoolwork and life in general. No more hiding away or being frozen in place. I have to keep my eyes open no matter what comes my way and see it for what it is - a challenge I have been trained to overcome. It just gets a little scary when everything gets thrown at you at the same time.