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Ryusae x reader Short Story

A little short story to the ongoing one I have because all my progress got stumped when I accidentally wrote it out on my other account so I have to rewrite it😓

Enjoy!!!

It's currently pouring outside. You're staring out the window quietly, trying to figure out what to occupy yourself with for the day before you hear the front door to the living room open.

"Oh, hey Sae!" you say with a small smile, watching him walk into the shared apartment holding a bag of food from the grocery store down the street. You get up to quickly grab it from him so he can dry himself from the lack of umbrella.

"Hey," he says, dull expression staying the same.

"Are you making dinner tonight or is it my turn?" you ask, setting the bag on the counter. Both you and Sae started spitting the meal cooking to yourselfs after quickly finding out, shidou would burn the whole house down if he tried.

"It's my turn tonight," he says, walking to his room to dry off.

You're grabbing the ingredients out of the bag before shoving it into the little bag that holds the other bags and putting the ingredients away for later that night.

"Why do you even keep those bags? It's not like we don't have the money to get some if needed," he says from behind you, making you jump before replying.

"My dad did it, plus why not save money? Who knows when we'll need them," you giggle at the inquiry like you haven't already explained it twice to him. "Plus, if it really bothers you, I'm surprised you haven't thrown them out." You look back at him, shrugging.

Ping!

You grab your phone at the notification, quickly opening it. "Ryu says he'll be home soon." Not exactly what he said, but the gist of it.

"Tell him I said just don't come back," Sae says. You stick your tongue out at him before setting the phone down and sitting back on the couch, holding the mail Sae had put in the grocery bag to keep it from getting soaked in the rain.

Looking through the mail, a letter with your name neatly written on it catches your eyes. Setting the rest down, you stare at it—your mother's name. How did she even find your address?

Setting the letter down and sighing, you glare at it as if it would disappear if you glared hard enough.

"What's that?" Sae asks with slight curiosity in his voice, before slowly looking at the door clicking open.

"I'm home!" You hear Shidou shout, dragging out the end of "home" with a playful voice. You're still dead-staring at the letter.

"Hey Ryu," you say, in a whole other dimension, staring at that damned letter. After a moment, Shidou swings himself onto your back, hanging off the couch. You look back at Sae—he has his head propped up with his hand looking at you before picking up the letter.

"Ooo~ what's that?" Shidou says in the same playful tone, snatching it from the redhead, causing Sae to look at him and sneer.

"It's a letter from her mom," Sae says, causing Shidou to grimace before ripping it open, already knowing what transpired between the two of you.

You watch him skim through it before handing it to Sae with the same grimace, then watching Sae read it with a bored expression before ripping it up.

"It's not important enough for your attention," he says, getting up and kissing your forehead before disappearing into the room, not giving you a chance to protest.

"I'm heading out," Shidou says plainly with a tick mark on his forehead, but not before also giving you a kiss on the head and ruffling your hair.

'Didn't even give me a chance to respond to any of it,' you pout, being left alone on the couch.

It's already an hour later, and you've preoccupied yourself watching TV and scrolling through Instagram.

Sae walks into the room with a smug smile on his face, holding his phone up to his ear and grabbing his keys. "Come, (name), we are heading out," he says, slipping on his shoes.

"Where are we going?" you look at him, brow raised, wary of his smug look.

"Bailing that devil out of jail," he says, wiping his face of the smirk he'd previously held, jiggling the keys in his hand while holding the front door open for you as you slip your shoes on.

It's not part two but a little peak into the future of the story🤭

Also I kinda skimmed through it so I might have some mistakes!!!

Part two of lipstick stained cigarettes is coming soon i just have to finish editing it trust

Lipstick Stained Cigarettes

Ryusae x reader

This will eventually be a ryusae x reader but I'm going for a slow burn rn, starting with Sae first then building up to shidou making his way into this. So please bare with me!!

This will also be filled with angst

Part 1

Warning!! This has a lot of mature themes including abuse, smoking, thoughts of harm to others, and sexual themes!!!

"Cut that out, (Name)! I can hear your foot tapping from a mile away." A voice cuts through the silence, yanking you from your thoughts as you stare blankly at the shattered porcelain scattered across the floor, with your mother glaring at you angrily.

"Yes ma'am, sorry Momma," you reply hastily, careful not to provoke her further. Who knows what she might do if you test her patience right now. You'd probably need more than the cigarette you're desperately craving to maintain your sanity.

"God, how did I end up with such a worthless child?" she mutters venomously, pausing before continuing, You figure staying quiet would be better than to speak your mind, anything you say will only make it worse. "Do you not want to answer me? You're a disrespectful little brat, you know that?" Before you can respond, she interjects sharply, "Clean it up before the guests arrive, and the table better be set properly as well." She storms out of the room, radiating anger with every step. And ohh, how you resented her, wishing it had been her head they broke on.

Picturing it in your head with a scowl. You glare bitterly at the broken plates littering the floor, but nevertheless begin cleaning the mess. Meticulously picking up the jagged fragments, you dispose of them in the trash, wary of their sharp edges. You swiftly set the table, eager to escape the suffocating atmosphere of the house as soon as humanly possible. Tiptoeing out of the room, trying to leave undetected, you slip on your shoes and quickly exit, gently pulling the door closed behind you, The crisp night air envelops you immediately, prompting a blissful sigh of relief, yet shivering at the sudden cold hitting you. 'Probably should have thrown on a thicker coat.'

Taking in the fresh air, staring at the stars shining down beautifully, the moon lighting up the sky, it makes you smile slightly. You reach into your pocket to grab what you actually came out here to do, retrieving a cigarette case. Upon opening it, dread washes over you as you realize you've lost your lighter somewhere in the mess of your room. With an exasperated groan, and your feet moving to walk in the direction toward the convenience store.

"Woohooo!" you silently celebrate, dragging out the word. Throwing your hands out in the air, when you finally reach your destination, lights shining brightly in the dark, a small smile playing on your lips as you approach the entrance. Peaking inside before you cross the threshold into the store. The loud chime announces your arrival as you step inside, letting the door swing shut behind you, oblivious to someone following closely behind.

A resounding thud startles you. Glancing back, you realize with horror that you've just slammed the door into another person! Oh shit he looks pissed too fuckkk.

You instinctively reach out to help, but they brusquely swat your hand away, fixing you with a piercing glare. He has some beautiful eyes. You're immediately pulled back into reality when you realize he's staring at you like you just tried to bash his head in.

"I'm so sorry, sir!" You wish the ground would open up and swallow you whole as he stares daggers at you, his teal eyes boring into your very soul. Face contorting into disgust. What am I a rat.

"Whatever," the man mutters icily, averting his gaze before briskly disappearing down an aisle. Your just left there staring at the red headed man.

'Well, excuse, you jerk,' you think indignantly, making a face at his retreating form. 'Still need that lighter,' you remind yourself, returning your focus to the task at hand with a quiet hum. Grabbing a snack while you're next to them, making your way to the checkout counter.

I wrote this hyped up on so much red bull I should be dead😭😭

So close to writing fanfics again because y'all sleeping on the ryusae x reader fics ong

Going to sleep wake me up when Rin is happy and he kills Sae with a hammer

Itoshi Rin and Sae: a story in three parts

alternatively: how having a brother complex can ruin your life (but it's mostly that you both just have terrible personalities)

So in the midst of the world cup finals last week, I remembered—in a frenzy or some state like it—of the existence of the edgy soccer manga Blue Lock. And so I read it. And it sure was edgy.

One of the things that stood out to me were the Itoshi brothers, Rin and Sae, and how most of their relationship, its highs and its lows, were predicated on Rin simply having the world's biggest brother complex.

By the way: general spoiler warning for the manga up until about the VS Japan U-20 match (around ch 147).

Prologue

Before we get any sense of backstory for them, we're introduced to the Itoshi brothers on different occasions.

In ch 4, we first meet Itoshi Sae, a genius soccer player who considered to be the best in Japan. The first impression we get of him is that he has a terrible personality. and a foul mouth. He has no interest in entertaining the media or giving any serious to interviews, and he does not hold back on his arrogant demeanor, though in his case, it's actually justified by his ridiculous skill.

Rin is introduced much later than his brother, during the second selection arc, and is someone who is also incredibly skilled. While most of his motivations seem shrouded in mystery, we know that Rin is self sufficient and dislikes to rely on others.

Oh and I guess there's also his deal with his brother.

oh yeah rin-chan seems weirdly more on edge at the mention of his brother? haha i'm sure this means nothing

Rising Action

In ch 123, the curtain is pulled back.

Itoshi Rin loves his brother very much, loved his brother very much; he admired him above all else, and strove to become just like him in the future.

Even as a little kid, Sae has had his terrible personality: he already tells his interviewers to eat shit and doesn't hold back his arrogant attitude. Most importantly, however, is how, above everything else, he hates to lose.

A young Sae takes it personally when Rin is the one to get the lucky ice cream. i'm with him on this one i would also try to justify myself too much when my brother would get the lucky items. curse him.

But those things don't mean much at this stage, where Rin and Sae stick with each other, as close as two coats of paint. Sae obviously dotes on his younger brother and treats him nicely, which contrasts with his demeanor with others. So when they both notice that Rin also has the skills in soccer, instead of being mad at Rin for intervening during his game, Sae proposes that he plays with him.

how heartwarming. im sure these siblings will keep their close relationship in the future haha

And so they do.

For the few years to come, the Itoshi brothers are an unbeatable striker duo. They share a dream: to become the best strikers in the world, with Sae as the number 1 and Rin as the number 2.

They're quite close, and have trust in each other's skill. When Sae comments negatively on Rin's play, it feels more like constructive criticism (and even playful banter), rather than insult.

Sidenote, it's interesting to compare the brothers' different approaches to playing soccer.

For Rin, he mostly relies on his instincts. It's something I may have not mentionned earlier, but one of the defining aspects of Rin is that he's a character defined by his incredible luck. It's present in the lucky ice cream he kept getting, in the fact that he was born as the younger brother to the talented Itoshi Sae, and of course, in his way of playing soccer.

a frustrated Isagi asks Rin what he's missing (ch86)

Sae, on the other hand, doesn't have as much luck. He keeps getting the wrong ice cream and he plays in a much more methodical manner: Sae actively works hard to reach his goal, while Rin allows himself to be caught along his brother's current.

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Regardless, Sae eventually gets scouted for his skill and goes away to Madrid.

In the meantime, Rin keeps holding onto the dream, the promise, he had with Sae. Though, even when he works hard for his dream, he does so by playing as Sae's replacement, in order to catch up to his brother. All the while, he keeps holding onto the idealized version of his brother that he has in his head.

Turning Point

After four long years, Sae suddenly comes back and,

He's exhausted. Rin points out how he lost some weight, but Sae also has prominent eye bags, and his face is sunken. Most importantly, he lacks the vigor he had when he left Japan.

It's also important to point out that Sae had come back earlier than expected, yet his first thought was to go see his little brother and inform him of the change in his dream. Because to him, it's important that Rin knows this; because that mutual dream of theirs is what matters the most to them.

And so he tells Rin of his newfound realization and decision. The world out there is huge, and there are plenty of more talented players out there, even better than the unbeatable Itoshi Sae, as strikers.

So, Sae decides that he's now striving to become the number 1 midfielder in the world, instead of the best striker.

And Rin...

He takes the news very badly.

Because, to Rin, all he's hearing is that his unbeatable brother, the one who hates to lose above everything else, has resigned himself from his dream of becoming no 1 striker, simply because there are others that are better than him.

To Rin, his brother had basically admitted that he's not actually the best.

Understandibly, it shatters Rin, as well as his idealized and out-of-date image of his beloved, talented, cool, older brother. He can't bring himself to accept what Sae is saying, so instead, he aggressively rejects this "new" Sae in front of him, and he refuses to ackowledge him anymore.

The thing is, though, not much has actually changed.

His older brother is the same victory-loving, defeat-hating Sae as he was before he played in Madrid; he's still the same Sae who dotes on his younger brother and wants to see him grow; he's still the same Sae who wants to become the best soccer player in the world.

All that has changed is that he saw that he plays better as midfield, so he changed positions.

To Rin, it doesn't make sense that his unbeatable older brother would change this part of his dream. To him, the very fact that Sae altered his plan is the same as giving up. He's still childish and has an all-or-nothing mindset.

But Sae, who is a bit older and who has now experienced the world, doesn't understand why Rin is so upset. After all, he still wants to be number one, and he still wants his brother by his side.

Rin retaliates.

as a way to deal with their argument, sae challenges rin

Admitedly, the stakes of their 1v1 are ridiculous, but a part of Sae wants to keep on believing in this childish dream of them becoming the best strikers. After all, it's his talented younger brother. Maybe there is a chance.

But there is none.

And it's when Rin becomes so desperate that Sae finally loses his patience and tries to knock some sense back to him. Because Sae is exhausted at this point, and his younger brother is spouting childish things. Sae wanted him to realize that, sometimes, what you're best at may not be what you initially believed it to be: something which Rin seemed incapable of accepting.

admitedly, he's being very mean about it. I guess he finally got over giving rin nice treatment just for being his little brother

He gets angry at Rin. He tells Rin to quit, because to Sae, this dream he has is something that he's been actively working for and advancing in. Meanwhile, Rin tells him that he was his sole reason for playing all this time. And it's not enough, because it's such a fickle reason.

The world is large and there are so many better players out there, that such a lukewarm reason meant that Rin was never serious to begin with.

So now, it's Sae's turn to reject his brother.

Outcome

All that their interaction in the snow had showed Sae was that his brother was not actually serious about football, after all. And because he's not serious, because he's so lukewarm, Rin will never reach Sae's level.

The thing is, Rin does outsmart his brother in one critical instant, though neither one of them meaningfully acknowledge it

The main problem with Rin is, well, his huge brother complex.

Okay, well, more seriously, Rin's biggest problem is that he bases his self-worth on his brother. Even when they officially separate, Rin's motivation for playing football is still centered on Sae. Actually, I don't think you can say that his initial reason changed that much.

As easily as Rin could pretend it, he can't think that his beloved brother being nice when they were younger was all just a lie. Because it wasn't. So now he's mad at Sae for turning his life upside down and leading down this path.

He claims he wants revenge against his brother.

ch 125

Rin says that he wants to break Sae "into pieces" and that he wants to destroy his dream, but what is the dream that he's talking about? is it the one about being the number one player, regardless of position? Or is it just that Rin wants to go back to those days they were playing together?

I don't think even Rin himself knows entirely.

His reason for playing has always been Sae. It hasn't changed: it's always been his brother. And truth be told, all Rin really wants is to gain back the affection of his brother.

To come back to the Japan U-20 match, Rin says that he wants to be his own person, that he doesn't want to be defined by his relationship to others. But he also holds onto any bit of affection he may get from Sae.

So much for a guy who claims that he hates his brother.

He allows his hostile exterior to break a bit after the match against the Japan U-20 team. For God's sake, he's so hopeful and wide eyed that Sae finally, finally sees how far he's come. That he'd compliment him for the first time in a lifetime,

but no.

rip rin-chan I hope one day he actually compliments you

Epilogue?

Besides the fact that Rin's resentment towards Isagi has grown tenfold now that the latter managed to snatch a compliment from his brother, there isn't more that has been added to their relationship after their match.

Honestly, despite all this meta that I wrote,

I'm still not over the fact that Rin's mysterious and tragic deal was that he simply has the world's biggest brocon and heavily depends on his brother's approval and love.