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A quick update of why I haven’t been posting a lot for the past days.
Basically I have been dealing with 3d as usual. On top of that I have my that red week of the month and it always makes me really emotional and I feel every emotion x10 of the normal days. I have been feeling really numb and have no motivation, but have to also study for my exams too and been going to the library with friends.
Anyway! How are you all doing? :))
I’m the kind of depressed that doesn’t wanna km, but I fantasizes about death from time to time.
Is my blog making it worse for people?
Are minor seeing what I post and get triggered?
I have been thinking about it and it’s now my nightmare.
When I made my account I just wanted a safe space to talk about my 3d and my thoughts. Now I feel guilty that I may be a bad influence!
Why every youtuber I like gets famous after a year I discover them? I don’t want to share :((
If only people found out about this account. I would straight go to the crazy house.
I don’t need a normal appearance.
I don’t need a standard weight.
I don’t need an ideal physique.
I need to look sick and dead.
I need to be underweight.
I need to be skin and bones.
I’m sorry, but I am actually not gonna follow back people, who post Sh in their blog. I have talked about how I feel about it before and I didn’t think it would trigger me. I was wrong and I may or may not have cried seeing those pictures.
Worst feeling is, when you go on the scale with clothes on and think maybe the number is high because of the clothing.
So you take them off and go on the scale again, but turns out you are actually that f4t. 🐋
Ass tire zero calorie drinks in my humble opinion:
1. Pink redbull zero
2. Black coffee ☕️
3. Weird ass tea flavors 🫖🍵 (like wtf is a panda poop tea or a butterfly pea flower tea? 😐)
4. Diet Coke🥤, now this might be controversial, but since Coke Zero exists you don’t have to drink that sh!t no more. Coke Zero tastes much better. They are actually more difficult to find too, at least where I live.
Next time you think about your life struggles just know, that I grew up queer in a country, which kills queer people.
At the same time growing up both muslim and an atheist, then in my teens I was introduced to christianity and went to church.
I read my last One Piece manga chapter about half a year- maybe a year ago. And now I don’t know where I should start reading from :/
I get lot’s of notifications. Non of them are interactions. I feel like my blogs reach people, but nobody interacts more than a like!?
I love when people comment (not them crazy ones).
I ate like a 🐄 yesterday. Had half a packet of chips. A tiny itty bitty piece of cake. Some cucumber salad snd them at midnight right before sleep I had two egg sandwiches.
If only I haven’t eaten those sandwiches at night, I wouldn’t be this fat and bloated this morning :((
I’m gonna do a f4st today.
For a depressed person with social anxiety, I am for sure really extroverted.
I just said hello to one of my previous school teachers, when I saw him outside.
He didn’t recognize me and looked at me like I was bat shit crazy 😭
I just had to tell him that I know him from my school and not trying to flirt and shit
I was humiliated. Just kill me dude😫
I can’t stop thinking about the cake sitting in my kitchen. It seems like it is calling to me and I can’t ignore the temptation.
I picture myself shoveling spoon after spoon into my mouth—mindless, desperate—until there’s nothing left but crumbs and shame.
Even just imagining it makes my chest tighten. My throat aches, my eyes sting, and a wave of nausea curls in my stomach.
Could they not gift a basket of fruits instead of chocolate ? 🍓
I probably need to go to therapy, but I rather talk to AI.
What do you mean I have to trust another human being? I don’t even trust my mother.
I can’t even post sh!t no more without some smart ass writing some bs.
If you have problem with anything I write you can simply block me no need to throw a hissy fit.
Take a deep breath, calm your titis down and press the block button.
All I need is -5kg
Is it too much to ask for??
Got back to 50kg -_-
Should I end it or what?
This is literally how I’ll look like in bikinis this summer.
I feel like my brain just got heavier.