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Gyns…. I had a date and finally got kissed on the lips by a girl for the first time yesterday 🤭🤭🤭 y’all have to deal with my rant now lol

I made her a bouquet of her favorite flowers and took her to dinner at a Thai place nearby my house, and then we went to see “Sinners” afterwards (good movie btw) and ugh it was so healing and peaceful after how anxious I always felt trying to date men.

She’s so pretty too, 70s-90s vintage femme to my 70s-90s vintage butch lol. And she respects that I’m a stone top; while she didn’t previously understand the Stone/Princess dynamic before meeting me, she said it’s actually something she’d wanted but didn’t know had a name. She’s also spiritual like I am, and she’s got big 1920s pouty eyes and a nose piercing and UGH y’all I think I have a crush 😭 We’ve been talking for about 6 weeks now but she was preparing for finals at college about an hour’s drive away so we couldn’t meet up until after she got through with them and moved back home for the summer nearer to where I live.

Anyway tho we were sitting in her car waiting for my dad to pick me up after the movie, and she kept stalling even after he arrived so I figured she wanted a kiss, so I asked her, and she said yes but she wanted me to close my eyes because she was shy, so I did and she grabbed my cheek and gave me a few all one after the other and UGH I just love being a lesbian so much.

It’s also really healing to take the part of the “pursuer” in this circumstance (which obviously isn’t necessarily a thing butches or tops have to do, I just happen to be a stereotype lol) after past experiences that left me a little shaken. This time around I get to take that role and do it right, and I think I’m already doing a good enough job because she trusted me to hold her purse when she went to the restroom lol.

Idk I’m just really happy and it’s like that deep, calm happiness where everything just feels right for the first time in your life and you can just enjoy the experience.

Radical feminism, centering women, and worshipping female deities really turned my life around FAST because what do you mean my constant mental health problems are slowly alleviating, I’m making new female friends, I’ve finally left behind the toxic male friends, I’ve applied to and gotten my first management position, I’m gaining weight and muscle, and I’m talking to a lovely beautiful femme all within this year so far. Like I know radical feminism covers very serious issues too and politically life kind of sucks, but life really is beautiful as well when you center women and female-ness among the chaos. I love rad feminism and I love lesbianism.

If I have one more kinky (sometimes underage??) top trans man like my dating profile stating I am a LESBIAN and a STONE BUTCH who is NOT INTERESTED in kink I think I’m going to go insane 😃 like you do you boo but I think my profile makes it very clear that you’re not in the demographic of people that I’d be doing?

Literally fixed my mental health by so much 😭😭 I didn’t realize how much forcing attraction to men was weighing me down and causing me to be out of touch with a lot of the rest of my personality because I would be constantly questioning my likes/dislikes. Now I just exist as myself and it’s amazing.

realizing I was a lesbian literally felt like this

I love old media warning society of ✨ dangerous butches ✨ bc it’s always

“this woman WILL wear mens shoes and will STEAL YOUR WIFE”

“butch dykes are HANDSOME and GOOD IN BED”

“you WILL be seduced and they have a HIGH SUCCESS RATE”

“they prey on women DISAPPOINTED IN MEN and give them WAY MORE ORGASMS”

“DON’T let your loved ones receive LOVE from AFFECTIONATE LESBIANS”

What I would giveeeee to have a woman do this to me 😭😭😭

Love being possessive but not jealous like yeah babe you can talk to her, you can hang out, just let me give you a hickey, leave my lipstick on your cheek, i know you’re mine, so does she and i know she can’t have you like i do so why would i worry

Unfortunately I am a pathetic butch and I have to just accept it. Somehow I love providing, protecting, and spoiling people but I will also cry if you kiss me and be a complete sappy fool and I have to learn to live with this duality 😔

I fucking love being a lesbian.

And I know that’s pretty much all I’ve posted about so far but it’s so true. I love women and my love for women bleeds into my love for myself and it’s almost a spiritual feeling. It’s like the water cycle, I pour out love and yet it is given back to me and I never run dry.

I also find so much comfort in lesbian titles. I’ve finally found people who can understand what confused me for so long. My desire to partake in “masculine” things and yet not leave my womanhood and connection to women behind in that process. I used to think I was crazy and I was told I was contradictory, and now I know I’m just a butch and I have thousands of sisters who understand me. I used to think I was strange and broken until I learned about Stones and now I know yet again that I’m not alone, and I can not only be begrudgingly accepted for my preferences, but desired and fulfilled in a relationship that makes sense for me. There are people out there who want someone like me exactly as I am and I don’t have to change, or hide things about myself, or put up with things I don’t like in order to keep a man around and I find it so beautiful. Lesbianism is beautiful.