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so i’m seeing her next week :)
she replied ???????????
i think our story just ended. made a reason to go into school today and she had left by the time i got there. tomorrow is the last day of term and there’s so little chance of seeing her and i have no reason to be there . but i wanted to apologise for the email and leave a way to get in touch but our last interaction is now just a normal conversation and that stupid email. i know it’s stupid to think that her leaving early today had anything to do with me but i can’t stop thinking that she wants to avoid me.
she’s not going to be here all summer as she’s going travelling so i can’t even dream about running into her some random day, and the next time i could see her is next year now if even .
i don’t want to email her again because i feel like she hates me but i feel so…. crushed
how does 7 years and all those chats and silly memories just end on a random week day and i didn’t even know it was the last one ?
went to leave books back in to school today and she wasn’t there .
my friends and i went out the other night and i got drunk and emailed her 😭😭😭😭😭so embarrassed i just deleted the whole email app
it wasn’t even bad , but i have to go in and give books back now so going to be very awkward. also mildly afraid she’ll hate me ??
just did my last exam so i will ….. never see her again
unless i go in next week to return books so i can speak to her
what do i SAY tho she’s not here all summer and i’m too nervous too ask for her number
i literally hate when i go to talk to her and there’s someone in her room… it’s always the same guy too like LEAVE this is my time
she emailed me unprompted today WHAT
last class w her , got photos including a few of just us two🥺
first time seeing j back at school after easter and
i spent all lunch in her room and it just . felt like home
middle of easter holidays … i miss her sm
j recommended me some movies so . weekend plans x
1 Week left to easter, 2 weeks when we come back , then that is …. it for school . forever
we are off for exams from may but our final official day is june …. i’m going try and come in and see her frequently before this
it actually rips my heart up though because although i’ll probably ask her if we can stay in touch , i’m not guaranteed to see her ever again
i want to cook her dinner so bad
30/03
j recommended me a movie to watch called room in rome ?? and she was like oh it’s 18+ be careful and i replied IM 18 IM LEGAL so…. embarrassed 🫠🫠
but i looked this movie up and it’s literally just . lesbian sex WHAT DOES THIS MEAN
28/03
saw her for a chat today i think i disturbed her marking tho lol
I WANT TO POST PICS OF J AND THIRST BUT THAT IS SUCH A BAD IDEA
my sister just agreed w me that j is hot idk how to feel
I JUST TOLD HER I USED TO HAVE A CRUSH ON HER . AHAISIDKDJEJWKSKSKSJSNDND E
no i did NOt just stay up to midnight making cookies specifically to give to her
j was driving out of school today as i was leaving because we had a short day and it was so sunny she was driving with the top down of her car . i love this woman
23/3/22
spent lunch with her today and she showed me a photo of her with blue hair and her family which was super cute <3
idk when i’m next going to see her though, don’t have her class to next week and i don’t want to see her too much in case she thinks i’m weird so probably will have to wait till next monday :,)
she is the most beautiful woman ever i genuinely can’t
and not to be nsfw but it’s getting warmer and she was just wearing her usual white shirt today without the suit jacket and ohmygod mommy
i spent lunch w j today and OHMYGOD
we were talking about keeping in touch after i leave and she said it’s fairly common for people here to come back on their university holidays and say hi to their teachers , and she even said she is going for coffee with a former student this weekend . so. we will be doing that
she also said she’s free same time tm so it’s a date lol - should i bake something or bring anything ? ADVICE PLS
i am going to see her today i will find a way. manifest with me pls i miss her too much
just hit me i have like a month of school left before exams and then i will probably never see her again. i want to tell her how i feel on our final day in june when we come in for a service thing but i feel like she’ll hate me for it if i do
she literally went home like i saw her going home as i was walking to her room . day = ruined
A get to know J post!
so i’ve been in this community since like 2016, but had to keep deactivating my previous blogs because my “friends” found out and were telling people. i realised i ramble a lot about j but haven’t really made a post describing what she’s like so here it is!
shes 30 years older than me and teaches classics - i have her for latin (i wanted to take the other subject she teaches but it clashed on my timetable sadly)
she was my teacher in my first year of secondary school and i’ve had her every year apart from one. this is now my last year of school.
i’d never studied latin before and she made me fall in love with the subject and i’m doing it in university next year too
shes quite tall, blonde , always wears a suit and looks kind of like cate blanchett/ gillian anderson
milf vibes even tho she doesn’t have kids
she’s …. kind of single ? we’ve talked about this she’s in a kind of long distance relationship thing but has said she’s not going to marry him and has seen him like .. twice so i dk what that means
cat person :))))))))
i have her class once or twice a week just sadly , but usually come in for a chat on a monday and we have . really good conversations that get quite personal
she likes girls (!!!!) i’m like 99% sure, we have talked about this and she gave me advice about it too
i’m pretty sure she suspects i have feelings for her bc it’s not really normal where i’m from to like go and just speak to teachers , but i haven’t told her anything and won’t until she’s not my teacher anymore
i’ve been so inactive recently for literally no reason but things with j have been going well. we had a really good conversation a while back and it got very personal on her part and also she knows i like girls now lol. but on a sadder note - i always used to talk to her every monday, but now every other one there’s a class in her room and she’s in the office which i can’t really go into :( tomorrow is a good monday though i think
i’m 18 on monday this means i can legally get with her
25/2/22
came to class early a few minutes early the other day and she told me about her holiday and how she went to visit her family . also it’s so funny every time im speaking to her and this other latin teacher walks in he looks so shocked that im in there