Tk Rants - Blog Posts

me with way too many projects already: "What if I start another animatic? It definitely won't end up in wip hell with all of my other projects"

Trying to be productive creatively with adhd is so frustrating sometimes (most of the time)

I want so badly to write but it feels like everything is pulling me away from it

I open my writing document, I write a few sentences

I open Discord and begin ranting to my sibling about what I'm writing and planning on writing.

"Oh no, I got distracted again" I open my writing document, write a few more sentences

I open Discord again-

Currently at my Aunt's house for a family gathering, I bring out my laptop and start writing fanfic because The Worms are hungry, and my cousin (preteen) walked up behind me and asked "why do you have google docs open"

anyways I panicked and closed the tab because I did not want to have to explain fanfic or why i was writing it to my grandparents

i love and hate this au on one hand, the whole psychological horror branch is genuinely compelling to me for a reason I can't describe on the other, I am dealt psychic damage every time I see a new person post about it

I also hate that it is actually giving me motivation to write fic for once. I've barely written in years and yet I have an actual fic outline. What the fuck. Why this in particular

i love watching icah spread

most relatable character in a video game (except maybe mirabelle but I don't get to see her every inner thought)

i feel so called out by this game because at every step it's pointing at siffrin like "hey you, look at this. don't do this. do anything but this. this is the worst thing you could do" and im just here like "ha ha ha damn thats so me wow thats not a good thing"

I obviously don't have all of his problems (im thankfully not in a timeloop and my entire life hasn't been erased from reality) but i have issues with constantly downplaying my mental problems and just not saying anything so uh...

all of siffrin's breakdowns felt very real to me in like a kind of comforting way? it feels kind of how Isabeau describes siffrin's insults in act 5. I feel called out but also kind of seen? its not a one to one but wow is it similar

is this concerning? yeah probably. im working on it

also if you know me irl and you see this ha ha im good dw about it

just finished my first playthough of In Stars and Time this game has held me at gunpoint for the past 25 hours

started playing it yesterday at 3 am and now its 4 am today, literally could not put it down i just had to know what was going to happen next it was so captivating (the adhd said "no sleep for you sorry") such an incredible game highly recommend as long as you know what you're getting into (this game gets really dark and has a lot of stuff that could be incredibly triggering for some people)

amazing characters, they were so lovable

siffrin's inner monolouge felt so raw and real. I'd get into more detail but I want to keep this spoiler free

this isnt what i usually post (not that I post much whoops) but its 4 am and ive been awake for like 38 hours and i needed to rant

blame the typos on the sleep deprivtion