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and yet it did, so i'll make my peace with the fact that at least i did learn something, therefore making it all not a completely useless experience.

Trauma is werid bc how do i explain that i dont go by a different bc im trans (im gnc) but bc i can't stand people calling me smt that sends me into a panic.

Like guys jm not detransitioning i swear im just getting comfortable with me as a concept

Again again again...

am i traumatized?

save me, I dreamed of that fucking nurse again. I suffer day and night, it's only on the internet that he's not there.

I can't take it anymore

I can't stand dreaming and thinking about it, everything

I keep having nightmares about the nurse who was 'annoying' me, I can't take it anymore

someone help me

I can't leave LFLS alone today after that last chapter. Here's a color portrait of some ninpo-unlocking Leo after a long road of healing (a long, loooooong road).

MINOR SPOILERS FOR LIKE FATHER LIKE SON BELOW PIC

It's called Karai's Last Gift. In the LFLS timeline I HC that instead of the traditional black wrappings, Karai's spirit gives Leo white ones when he unlocks ninpo. She wouldn't do anything to trigger his PTSD. It's a very fitting color as it resembles journeys, spiritual connection, and cleansing.

I cried a couple of times on this one. Once because it's emotional and once because I hate vector layers with my whole fucking heart. I'm very satisfied with how it turned out considering I doodled it so quickly. Like less than 4 hours.

@eternalglitch This is just me imagining the first time Leo initiates a touch. It makes sense to me that it’d be Donnie. Hope you like 👉 👈

I have another one coming that makes more sense in color, too :) Thanks for the heartache fodder!!!

On the topic of being obsessed with introspection and “self discovery”, i recently read something by Viktor Frankl which I feel fits the whole following of astrology/mbti/personal discovery etc very well. He said that, because life has become void of meaning for many, because there is an “existential vacuum”, we compensate by “psycho-analyzing” ourselves, sharing our psychological problems and insights with others, discussing them, etc (and he predicted this development in the 40s!). An existential vacuum leads to an obsession with the own psyche that can be the cause of neuroses and its pseudo-therapy. Self-reflection can in itself be the root of many problems. I had a talk with someone about how phases of self-reflection and lots of journaling are often the least mentally stable and happy ones. When we feel good, we do not feel the need to conduct some sort of self-therapy. Viktor Frankl also came up with the concept of using a paradoxical intention for healing neuroses. A patient with insomnia, for example, cannot sleep because they so rigidly and obsessively try to sleep, which hinders them from relaxing into an unconscious state. So a paradoxical intention would be “for a change, why don’t you try to not sleep tonight, and just relax and think about something nice?” - which then makes them fall asleep quickly. Maybe by setting the paradoxical intention “i will not try to figure myself out and heal myself” many of the problems which were simply rooted in obsessing over yourself will take care of themselves.

Please remember that almost everyone around you is traumatized. I didn’t understand this when I was younger. I wondered why people acted so strangely and irrationally. Maybe all children wonder this. The author Robert Anton Wilson said (paraphrasing), “We have never seen a completely sane adult human.” No one makes it out of this life alive. It’s not their fault. Mercy, kindness, forgiving — these are what makes one human. They are other names for love. People break in the strangest of ways.

Does anyone else ever like forget how to socialize when you're tired/stressed/sleepy/hurt(or sometimes randomly)? It's like I no longer remember what's an appropriate thing to say and have to take longer to cycle through dialogue options in my head before I can decide if it sounds okay or not...I've always just said 'my filter disappears when I'm tired' buts its more like my brain can't keep up with the social cues and dialogue possibilities after a certain point and starts shutting down and my 'mask' slips completely

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️

In the heian period, Fumiko was married off by her parents for political reasons and her husband was an abusive man. He also hold a strong belief that baby girl is a taboo so when Fumiko gave birth to her daughter, he killed the baby. Yes, he's cruel. He also killed Fumiko in the end.

Muzan killed him btw.