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“Noise On The Tele” by me.
I’m feeling particularly anxious today. I’ve been through a lot, and maybe it’s just the PTSD, but I honestly feel afraid now that everything is over. There’s static in my head and I just can’t seem to get past the what ifs.
Part of me even feels like I don’t deserve it-- as though I’ve done something to condemn myself to a lifetime of misery. I feel lost. Maybe I hate myself, like I’ve been conditioned to do all of my life.
So I guess this is me, in reference to the song Echo by Gumi (Crusher-P). I’ve struggled most of my life with extreme anxiety-- so maybe I’m just... feeling a valid thought. I’m used to being disappointed as soon as I relax, so I tend to not allow myself to feel happiness. It’s like.... the most damning thing I can do is to feel happy because if I do, I swear it’ll never work out.
But I’ve always been colorblind-- so maybe I just can’t see the vibrancy around me? c:
Ashe.~
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