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Upset. :-(

You know sometimes it’s not fair that an child age 7 and up have to do chores and have responsibly. I’m 16 year old girl living with my mother that I don’t think accepts me for what I am anymore. When im home alone while my mother is out going to work, she always brings her work home with her. And if I can’t do an damn thing right she’s all bitchy about it. I know she has work and does bills and stuff but doesn’t mean you put the blame on others. She hates her job, shes tired all the time, she complains that she has to do everything right. She can’t expect people to do things her way, she can’t always want me do everything for her. Sometimes I wish I wish i was never born… Maybe she would be happy without me in her life… I’m sick and tired of being stressed but shes my mom and i can’t do an damn thing anymore. I don’t care if I’m an slop, careless, lazy girl but do others I know care no. They actually accepted me for who I am. And it’s not fair for an mother to not see that who’s say you an woman and be respectful for that, stop putting your hair up. With her attitudes also sometimes I would just kill myself. No i don’t do self harm. But it’s just the pressure she puts on me hurts and isn’t an patient woman. My sister thought mom should get layed with someone. I just don’t know anymore and she hurts me countless times with her words and doesn’t understand anything. I just feel like tiring my heart out and sqeeze it until it pops.

I'm sorry

I'm sorry I'm so useless I'm sorry I don't get good grades I'm sorry I don't like school I'm sorry I sleep too much I'm sorry I'm not open enough I'm sorry I don't like talking over the phone I'm sorry I stay up all night unable to sleep I'm sorry I'm sad all the time I'm sorry I worry to much I'm sorry I have flashbacks I'm sorry i get scared over nothing I'm sorry I don't eat I'm sorry I have to take pills I'm sorry I cut I'm sorry I want to die I'm so so sorry

Ugh