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slight preview for chapter 33 because im making myself upset js writing this </3 everyday im reminded ishiro was fully capable of stepping in for viviennes deceased father meanwhile he has a whole ass son 😭 that hits so close to him i hate when ppl blame ren for ishiros shortcomings.. reminder that this page isn’t ishiro serizawa friendly

what would happen if controller x!ren met the og controller x from final wars

i’d say a match made in hell LMAO! this isnt entirely accurate to the canon controller x since i filled in some gaps w hcs, such as his familial background— i imagine the xiliens were like leafwings from wof w leafspeak, they would pair the stronger xiliens tg to create even stronger offspring.

Canon!Controller X: (Looking around the mothership in puzzlement, last he checked, he had felt the searing burn of his ship’s self destruct, he had died. yet, here he was, stepping into an unfamiliar world.) Did I get stuck in a time loop..?

Controller X!Ren: Whatever are you doing lingering, imbecile? Back to your post.

Canon!Controller X: (Sneers, wondering who the hell this guy thinks he is.) And who do you think you are, giving me orders?

Controller X!Ren: I am Controller X.

Canon!Controller X: (Momentarily silent, though soon bursts into a fit of giggles.) No, no. I am Controller X.

Controller X!Ren: (A flicker of annoyance passed through his expression, but he quickly showed himself to be Controller X in some semblance by displaying his ability to go from zero-to-one-hundred, his gaze darkened as he raised a gloved hand, fingers twitching through the air as if rewinding an invisible tape. A soft beep emitted from his visor as it projected a grainy, holographic image— Canon!Controller X in his final moments, cackling as he triggered the ship’s destruction.) Interesting, I presume you are me from another universe, Apex could’ve achieved this technology in fifty years maximum with my intellect.

Canon!Controller X: What the hell are you talking about? And what the hizzle is an Apex?

Controller X!Ren: (Tilts his head, this time with something resembling intrigue.. How could he not know?) Apex was the company we worked for in our human life, we were the chief technology officer— a scientist, an engineer.. We piloted Gojira’s superior.

Canon!Controller X: (Blinks beneath his own visor, then barking a sharp, incredulous laugh.) Scientist? Engineer? Cattle talk. I was born among the Xiliens, in outer space, you think my name is something cattle tongues could even pronounce?

Controller X!Ren: (In a quiet, measured, almost hesitant voice.) Then tell me, were you ever Ren Serizawa?

Canon!Controller X: (His smug demeanor cracked in the form of his mouth twitching.) Who the fuck is Ren Serizawa?

Controller X!Ren: (Smiles, though not kindly.) I was.. The world didn’t want to understand Ren Serizawa, but King Ghidorah did. He opened my eyes, gave me purpose, helped me realized Ren Serizawa was a joke, hell, a tragedy. Humans want either a perfect victim or a perfect villain, you cannot be anywhere in-between or you will be disgraced— cast away. (His fingers tap against the side of his visor.) So I became X.

Canon!Controller X: (Looks at his counterpart as if he was some grotesque curiosity, cattle— he was once cattle.) You were.. One of them?

Controller X!Ren: For a time. You appear young, late teens, early twenties, perhaps? Tell me— what was your family like?

Canon!Controller X: (Scoffs.) My parents were paired to create a Kaiser amongst the Xiliens, after several failed attempts with my siblings, they finally got it right with me.. And yours?

Controller X!Ren: My father was the director of Monarch, an organization meant to study and protect Titans. My mother was a florist who worked with Monarch for their events— that’s how they met.

Canon!Controller X: (Snorts.) And..?

Controller X!Ren: (Fingers twitch, a faint spark of golden energy stemming from them.) My father never really saw me, I suppose I can’t blame him for initially thinking I would be okay with that, it was all he ever knew as my grandfather, Eiji started the cycle— neglecting his son, reconciling far too late.. But, my father threw himself to Gojira as if he had nothing left after his precious replacement daughter, Vivienne Graham, was eaten by Ghidorah.. All the more reason to adore Ghidorah, he got rid of my competition.

Canon!Controller X: (Stares blankly.) Are we done with your sob stories?

Controller X!Ren: (Lip curls, though he ultimately let it slide.)

Canon!Controller X: So there’s a Gojira in your world.

Controller X!Ren: (Scoffs.) Oh, there’s a Gojira, all right. My father was so devoted to him, we may as well have been brothers. And despite all his destruction, when I put my life on the line piloting the Mecha to stop him, I barely survived. (He reached up and with a flick of his fingers, removed his visor. Beneath it, his right eye was gone, replaced by an old, deep shrapnel wound.) I didn’t make it out entirely unscathed.

Canon!Controller X: (Frowns, inspecting the injury.) Tch. I didn’t even know a Gojira existed, some cattle idiot released him. My monsters were nearly helpless against him— except for Gigan and Monster X, of course.

Controller X!Ren: (Sneers.) King Ghidorah is superior.

Canon!Controller X: (Bristles.) Now, my turn to ask a question. Do you know Shinichi Ozaki?

Controller X!Ren: No, should I?

Canon!Controller X: Good, keep it that way. If he exists in this world, I am telling you, Controller X to Controller X, watch your damn back.

Controller X!Ren: (Turns to his henchmen.) Find out if this Ozaki exists, if he does— nuke his coordinates.

Canon!Controller X: (Smirks.) I like you.

Controller X!Ren: (Mirrors his smirk, replacing his visor.) Likewise.

any extra lore on GhidoraStan64?

duh!! i love worldbuilding on the little things so lets get it !

- ren serizawa in the ghidorahs voice au attended an elitist tokyo school from the years 2006-2009, his father was a fairly public figure who often preached about balances long before the 2014 attack which resulted in ren having a big target on his back throughout his school days, already having few friends due to being reserved on top of now being bullied.

- ghidorastan64 wasn’t born until a particular incident involving one of rens peers going out of his way to put a salamander in his shoe, which can easily be considered the straw that broke the camels back.

- when ren got home that day, he did what any angry chronically online teenager in that era and beyond would do and created ‘ghidorastan64’ as a means to take out his frustration on others, its worth noting the internet was a very different place than it is today, with that being said, he frequently targeted monarch pages, pro titan pages, vivienne graham in particular, and later went on to troll real life lolcows such as chris chan.

- ren DID NOT know ghidorah was a real thing when he created the username, to him, it was an evil creature from mythology and he had no idea said creature would fuck him over.

- nowadays, the ghidorastan64 account became so infamous several people began to use the handle— this means ren wasn’t the only one trolling bernie and a few copycat trolls came along down the line. even nearly 20 years after the account was made, controller x!ren considers this his biggest secret and feels true fear whenever someone refers to him as ghidorastan64 as opposed to X.

do you have any hcs for the three Ghidorah heads?

i know you only asked ab the ghidorah heads but i’ve been dying for a ghidorahs voice hc dump so im taking this as ‘do you have any headcanons for ghidorahs voice?’ which i do!

- since ghidorahs roar is more of a high-pitched screech or cackle, i’ve always imagined his voice was high pitched and bordered on feminine with a demonic edge, so i’d say he sounds like ‘HIM’ from powerpuff girls, obviously ichi ni and san have slightly different voices but HIM is the closest i could find.

- ghidorah saw all 33 years of rens life play out while in the coma as if it were a movie, meaning they saw lots of unpleasant things they’d rather not see (interpret this how you will)

- ichi actually isn’t the best at combat, obviously hes ghidorah and can fight, but he’s much more gifted in psychological torment and usually says something to get under his enemies skin AND THEN going for the kill after stunning them.

- additionally, ichi pays attention very heavily to body language, he’s learned lots of sign of human nervousness and human body language in general from the three years he spent in a comatose rens mind, going through his memories.

- ni has always wanted to usurp ichi, he just knows ichi is way smarter than him and is uncertain on whether san would be on board. ~~possible au where ni and san successfully erase ichi’s consciousness and instead have ren/x upload his consciousness to mecha king ghidorahs middle head.. making ren the cady haron to ichis regina george LMAO~~

- that being said, i’ve always liked the idea of ni being the henchman whos objectively more evil than their superior, ni is the best fighter out of the three and though he believes they would’ve killed godzilla in round one under their leadership, ni lacks the critical thinking to plan attacks and is a very ‘claws on’ kinda guy so he wouldn’t want to waste time planning.

- san is big on theatrics and dramatics so while in rens body, he often drags his trenchcoat as if it were a cape.

- san is more mockingly curious than genuinely curious abt human life, like the tags of ghidorahs voice states, he is __just__ as much of a villain as his brothers, the three of them are simply different villain archtypes who hate eachother and wouldn’t work together if they weren’t attached to the same body.

- ghidorastan64 was one of the chris chan trolls, i got this idea because i watch chris chan documentaries while writing 💀

- hate isnt a strong enough word to describe how ren/X feels about vivienne graham and godzilla— for the same reason, might i add! he feels they stole ishiros time and attention from him.

- ren/X views ghidorah as a sensei figure of sorts, he believed ghidorah saved his life and would’ve died from electrocution in 2024 if it weren’t for ghidorahs interference and since ghidorah has unintentionally shown more and pride interest in his accomplishments than ishiro has, ren/X may even go as far as to viewing ghidorah as a father figure, though he still deems ishiro irreplaceable, ghidorah is a close second.

- that being said, the father/son affections are completely onesided and all three heads of ghidorah view ren/x as a desperate puppet, a means to an end— they capitalize on his hatred for godzilla and overall mean spirited nature to mold him into the perfect lapdog.