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Types of Amnesia
Diagram created by me
General criteria for amnesia:
Memory loss
Confusion
Inability to recognize familiar figures/places
Difficulty recalling names or places
Not remembering where you went
Worser ability to remember things that had happened Post on how to handle these kinds of amnesia: click here!
Generalized Amnesia Where a person completely forgets everything about themself and have no recollection of what, where, and who they spoke to. This can describe a blackout switch and may still recognize who they are.
Localized Amnesia Where a person is unable to recall a specific/series of event from the whole, which creates an incomplete picture of the situation. For example, remembering childhood but not the abuse.
Selective Amnesia Where a person only lost some and retain the rest, forgetting parts yet not all of them. This can describe greyouts as it grasps some information/sensory yet not enough to tell what exactly happened. One example is playing the phone and unable to recall what occured, only to jump its memory right to being at bed.
Emotional Amnesia Where a person has an intact memory and it's details on what had happened, but do not remember what the event feels like (e.g. was scared, happy, etc.). One description is that you're watching something that didn't happen to you, because you don't feel like being in the scene itself.
Continuous Amnesia Where a person fails to retain full parts of the event/day, for a set period of time (can vary from minutes to days) and create an accumulative, small bits of selective amnesias, continuously, leaving many gaps in a chronological timeline. This usually happens in times or stress, or abuse.
Fragmented Amnesia Where a person has an unrelated, and/or disjointed memories that does not go with the timeline's order, creating confusion and difficult to grasp the cohesive picture of what truly happened. Emotional amnesia may be present in this type. Bonus for systems:
Amnesia barriers Where a person fronting is not able to recall other alter's memories, which is a form of retrograde amnesia and compartmentalization. Because the fronter will only retain any information before switching out with the next one, the rest experiences anterograde amnesia as it cannot form and remember those memories, unless being coconcious or cofronting (even though, this is not always guaranteed).
Take notes that amnesia can still happen outside system things due to comorbidities like anxiety disorders or depression, this does mean systems are bound to experience more amnesia compared to non-systems folks out there.
Do you have any discussions about this? Or would like to describe your own way of seeing these different types of amnesia? Or have more to add? Feel free to tell them here!
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Hey, mildly specific positivity post, but...
Throwing some positivity towards systems whose pre-syscovery experience was having a "mean voice" or a cruel "voice of reason" who told you horrible things or parroted what others had told you prior. ...That voice turning out later to be an alter who you now had to learn to work with to stay functional, especially after the traumatic period passed and their role waned in necessity. Positivity to those who used to have multiple of these voices/sides.
So positivity to the alters who were that voice of hostility and then evolved. Positivity to the ones who still act like that. Positivity to the ones trying to get better. Positivity to the ones who aren't trying because they aren't ready or aren't safe yet.
Positivity to the alters who had to bear the brunt of that behavior and have rebuilt that relationship. Positivity to the ones that bore the brunt of that behavior and haven't repaired that relationship. Positivity to the ones trying to make it better and friendlier. Positivity to the ones who can't fix it yet but want to. Positivity to the ones who don't want to make it amiable.
We were maybe a third grader when we could hear an unrelenting, methodical voice that told us we were worthless. It talked to us like a second person, and that voice eventually became Chatter B. We'd taken note of it in a moment of clarity once on how odd it was to hear a voice talk to me so harshly, but not 'as' me. I called her Reason. She was the first.
She's since changed shape and form, even changed name a couple times, seemingly fused with others, fractured again, and became the now meshy orbit of around ~10 we see her as today. But I love ya, [name Redacted], you were an asshole but you kept us alive. Props for that. I'm glad we can move on now that shit's over <3
it wasn't your fault btw. you were a kid. idk what you expect you could've done differently
"I want to be a dragon."
Battersea Bridge (1885) by John Atkinson Grimshaw
The psychiatrist diagnosed me with divine madness
idk why people photoshopped the crying cat meme on this pic when the unedited version is so powerful
I wish people would stop saying to just "put it behind you" when someone is traumatized. That isn't possible. We sure as hell wish it were, but it isn't. Trauma changes everything. It wreaks havoc on our brain and bodies, on our self and lives. We can't just decide one day to simply put that behind us. We can't just shelf the nightmares, flashbacks, other forms of memory intrusion, intrusive thoughts, or the many kinds of instinct based & trained reactions we have. We can't just wish away all the emotions and thoughts and how our life has changed. It takes tons of effort to work through trauma. Months, years, a lifetime. We aren't being this way on purpose, and we sure as hell would change it all with one decision if we could. Deciding to go forward with life is important for recovery, but that isn't the same as "putting it behind you."
Dissociative amnesia is most often retrograde! This is why lots of people don't realize that they have more severe amnesia than they think.
What I mean by this is let's say your persecutor part switches in and says some horrible stuff. It's not necessarily that you (whoever was fronting before/the host) weren't there for those actions, but rather after the fact, the brain compartmentalizes those memories to stay with the persecutor part.
And adding onto this it can be localized, selective, or generalized (which is what often clues people in that something is seriously wrong and often only occurs during times of severe stress)
While dissociative amnesia can be anterograde (blocking the formation of new memories) that is seen more in dissociative fugue states or during active trauma.
Clearest picture of Jupiter, from Earth. Isn't she beautiful? Actually hundreds of photos taken by the Gemini North Telescope in Hawaii, compiled to produce the infrared snap in order to see beyond Jupiter’s hazy atmosphere.
u survive literally every single event in your life & still every time a new event happens you feel like this is the event that will kill you and that you will never move on from but actually you will continue to survive like you always have bc u have a 100% win rate of surviving events. btw
switching things up (pinned post)
About me
Co-host. Among other things.
Traumagenic.
Audiophile and art enthusiast.
Terrorpunk.
Anti-psychiatry. Not opposed to uncoerced treatment.
Neutral to all good faith identities. I do mean all.
About my systemmate & this blog
My systemmate follows from dualita and used this as their main blog until April 2025. We changed that because the two of us wanted to follow separate people. I took over this one because I'm more active and I already followed a bunch of people on this account for my side blog. I still post there, but mostly just art reblogs now.
Tagging system
#gen415 - personal
#ref - reference (mostly longer posts)
#for someone - age regression
#sys shit - system related reblogs mostly
Fuck it. I went for it. It's mine now.
I've never had an entire account that's just mine before and that's what we're trying to do with this one now. Going back and forth on if I want to stick to the plan (main blog inactive except for long articles & maybe shit we both like if my host is cofronting/coconscious) or if I want to have different shit on each one.
Like my other one could be art and shitposting & this could be system shit and whatever I don't want to put there. I've been putting system shit on the other one with everything else but I keep going real tag-heavy when I post about that and my theme makes that hard to read. I don't want to change themes because my shit is ~aesthetic~ and I like how it looks.
But I don't know, I feel like it should be ~cohesive~ and if this blog went from my host's Vi thirst traps and whatever else to what I'd be posting then it wouldn't be cohesive at all. Have to decide what to do there. Looking at the posts here up until yesterday and it all feels so "not mine" that I feel weird taking it over. But I don't want to delete it all either. We don't delete each other's shit. So I don't know.
I've never had an entire account that's just mine before and that's what we're trying to do with this one now. Going back and forth on if I want to stick to the plan (main blog inactive except for long articles & maybe shit we both like if my host is cofronting/coconscious) or if I want to have different shit on each one.
Like my other one could be art and shitposting & this could be system shit and whatever I don't want to put there. I've been putting system shit on the other one with everything else but I keep going real tag-heavy when I post about that and my theme makes that hard to read. I don't want to change themes because my shit is ~aesthetic~ and I like how it looks.
But I don't know, I feel like it should be ~cohesive~ and if this blog went from my host's Vi thirst traps and whatever else to what I'd be posting then it wouldn't be cohesive at all. Have to decide what to do there. Looking at the posts here up until yesterday and it all feels so "not mine" that I feel weird taking it over. But I don't want to delete it all either. We don't delete each other's shit. So I don't know.
I don’t hate the concept of ebooks per se but what bothers me is how our society is shifting from actually owning entertainment in tangible forms like books and CDs and DVDs and game discs, to having to download everything so basically we’ll get to the point where everything is intangible and all of our property can be taken away by a website crash.
I said it in the notes on the last post but I’m gonna say it again.
I’m married to someone with severe memory problems. Automation of household appliances & systems helps him a lot and helps me a lot because it reduces the number of things I have to keep in my brain at all times. I love doors that lock themselves, being able to schedule dog food being delivered, a thermostat I can manipulate from wherever. Beyond my little bubble it should be noted that voice controlled appliances can be really good for people with mobility concerns. Appliances that can measure and talk and remember little tasks can be such a blessing for people.
I will never forgive Amazon and Google for taking technologies that could be really helpful and weaponizing them, and fuck everybody who acts like its some kind of conspiracy theory that those devices are spying on you. You absolutely should be distrustful of those devices but just make sure you’re getting angry at the right people.
not what I was going to write . but fine
People with autism or ADHD: I have this symptom
Me, a schizophrenic: oh me too!
People with autism or ADHD: I have this symptom
Me, a schizophrenic: haha yeah I got that too
People with autism or ADHD: I have this symptom
Me, a schizophrenic: yeah I deal with that daily
People with autism or ADHD: have you been checked for autism/ADHD? It really seems like you have it
Me, a schizophrenic: you know those are all possible symptoms of schizophrenia too right? You know that we have more than just psychosis right? And we can experience almost every symptom of autism and ADHD combined right? You know that we are more alike than we are different, right? Right?
"its important people talk about their experiences with plurality" i tell myself. "if the only people talking about it are people who are sure what they're experiencing is normal and textbook and 'right', it will continue feeding into a cycle of people bekng afraid to talk about themselves and always thinking their plurality is somehow wrong," i continue, still shaking, for the fear that im doing it wrong will forever haunt me
being abused or neglected really makes it clear how many things are skills that nobody really treats as. skills. exercising autonomy is a skill. listening to your body is a skill. resting is a skill. being liked and being loved are skills. nobody tells you how to do this shit because nobody even told me I was supposed to have learnt these things when I was a kid. I kind of just have to manually figure out what makes me freak out and work from there. unfair as shit
On this day twenty years ago, Rose Tyler tried to find out more about the mysterious man known as the Doctor by googling "doctor". Iconic shit.