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SWEETLEE’S SERPENT SHIPMAS | 02/12

Tis the season, sisters! Welcome to day four of twelve of Sweetlee’s Serpent Shipmas! I am two days late on two entries, both of which are written and being posted today, along with day four, so a total of three entries will be posted today (hopefully)!. I sincerely apologize for the delay, my weekend was a little jam packed with gift shopping and appointments. This event will end Christmas Day, and I will be tagging posts with #serpentshipmas if anyone wants to blacklist the tag and not see the posts.

day two inspiration: holiday baking song inspo: love & war - yellow claw, yade lauren ship: sweet pea x jughead jones

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“What’s that smell?”

Oh shit. Sweet Pea cringes as the sound of the trailer door slams shut behind his companion; he risks a glance over his shoulder.

“You burnt the cookies!” Jughead exclaimed, hat and boots covered in snow. His partner, Sweet Pea, stood in the kitchen, over mitts holding the tray of blackened cookies. Of course he looked guilty, with his brown orbs doe eyed and lips pouted, but Jughead could read past the facade. “You went looking for your gifts, didn’t you?” he pressed, narrowing his eyes.

“Nu-uh,” Sweet Pea responded, offended that Juggie even insinuated the idea.

“Oh, you so did!” he hung his jacket up on the rack by the front door and pointed an accusing finger towards his beau, whom had dropped the mitts onto the stove top, along with the cookies, and now stood with his hands on his hips and his brows furrowed together. “How else did the cookies end up like that, huh?”

“Your oven doesn’t cook properly,” he tried, folding his arms with a nonchalant shrug. “The chicken always comes out dry, and remember the nachos?”

Jughead cringed as he reared his thoughts back to that unfortunate incident; how they had managed to set fire to the Tostitos would forever be an unsolved mystery. “Yeah, and you know what we’re usually doing when these things happen?”

“You can’t blame the burnt cookies on my libido, you weren’t even here!”

“Oh, come on, Sweets. You and I both know that if this trailer wasn’t stuffed with presents, you’d still be in the bathroom trying rub one in before I came home.”

The towering Serpent glared down at his partner, “You make it sound so disgusting,” he skewered up his face, grimacing at Jughead’s choice in vernacular. “They’re edible, they’re fine.”

“They are not edible.”

“We both know you’re gonna try to eat them, anyway.”

“Irrelevant,” Jughead retorted quickly, dropping the hot cookie back onto the sheet, tending to his throbbing fingertips. “We promised sugar cookies -” 

“You promised sugar cookies.” 

“And we’re gonna finish these damn cookies.”

Jughead received very few complaints from his partner as he began sifting the flour; he had fallen into old routine, and though he’d never admit it, baking had become a pastime of some sort to the blue-eyed Serpent. The craving had come to him in the early hours of the morning, and after spending hours turning over every box in storage, he finally found Grandma Jones’ recipe book.

Waking Sweet Pea at six in the morning for a quickie was one thing, but rolling him over and putting all of his weight onto his boyfriend’s full bladder was another. Sweets had been less excited than his counterpart, but for the sake of the holiday season (and refusing to abandon the heat of the trailer), he had offered to stand guard and watch the baking cookies while Jughead braved the cold.

Of course, coming back to the house and finding out that the first batch had been sabotaged put a kink in his day. Majorly.

Recognizing the stoic frame, Sweet Pea sighed and moved to wrap his arms around Jughead’s waist tightly. “Sorry I burnt the cookies.” he tried, resting his chin on his boyfriend’s shoulder.

“No you’re not,” Jughead sighed, leaning backwards into the warmth. He wanted to be angry, but decided that it was a trivial thing to be upset over and brushed it off.

Sweets shrugged, tilting his head just enough to place a tender kiss to the bare column of his partners throat. The reaction he received was immediate, the heat rising slowly up from underneath Jughead’s shirt and into his neck, inch by inch until his cheeks were painted with a delightful pink, “You’re right. I’m not.” his lips spread into a smile against the flesh, peppering it with kisses before he continued, “I’m more of a chocolate chip kinda guy, anyway.”

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jughead jones x sweet pea summary: a soft jughead upset over his drunk dad, ft. comforting sweet pea a/n: I did this sorta pre-relationship, and it’s like 1:30 in the morning and this was the first thing that popped into my head. I feared if I didn’t write it now, I never would, so I hope this is enough for you. If ya’ll have any other requests, please send them here! 

Once FP was tucked soundly into his bed, face shoved deep into the pillows, Jughead finally relieves himself of his duties and retires to the couch with a tired sigh. How close had they come? How close had he come? And stupidly, he believed that a retirement party at a bar of all things was a good idea – no matter the turn out, not matter how carefully conducted, the same result was bound to happen.

Things could’ve be mended, Jughead was sure of it. There were always so many possibilities for FP Jones, and he refused them all. All except for one.

Jughead looks to the fridge, wondering if there’s any leftover bottles in the shelves. He pulls his beanie from his head, stands, and trudges his feet along the carpet. He cleared as many empty bottles as he could from the living room table, and kitchen table, and then made his way over to pull the lever open on the fridge door.

Sure enough, another six pack nestled in the bottom corner, untouched, but surely waiting in anticipation to be drank by the drunk knocked out on the couch. Jughead peers over the window into the living room, ensuring there were no signs of his rise as he cracked them open, one by one, and tipped them upside down to drain down the sink.

While he waited for them to empty, he treated to the bathroom to brush his teeth and change into something with longer sleeves. A colourful reflection caught his attention through the bathroom window; he dropped the toilet seat down and stepped up out of curiosity.

Brilliant arrays of blues, reds and purples illuminated the tiny courtyard between the gathering of trailers. Jughead’s breath caught in his throat for a moment, wondering which Serpent could possibly be the culprit. Then, he chuckled once at the thought. A Southside Serpent unwinding his or her day with a lightshow.

After another minute of watching the lights swirl intricately, Jughead began to lower himself back to the floor before a movement pulled his attention to the door of the trailer. The figure was bent over, dark silhouette hard to make out until they stood and descended their stairs.

Jughead watched Sweet Pea carry two blue bins of recycling down into the pit, green hoodie three sizes too big for his already large frame. He jumped down from the toilet seat, quickly gathering the cans from the sink to toss into his own bin, slipping his feet back into his boots. He tried his best to keep the squeak of the door as quiet as he could as he exited, happy to see that the teen had noticed him, too.

Sweet Pea plopped onto the wooden steps of his own trailer, sliding over far enough to give Jughead enough room to join him.

“Sweets,” he greeted after sorting the empties. “What’s up with the light? You strip on the side, or something?”

“Just listening to music.”

Jughead nodded once, fingers absently folding and unfolding. “You left the Wyrm a little late. Shouldn’t you be in bed?”

The step was damp, but Jughead didn’t mind. The chilling air, however, was a few degrees colder than he anticipated. “Open bar means a good time.” The Serpent replied nonchalantly. “I have a data management midterm Monday, and I need to study or I’m gonna totally bomb so I’ll be up for a while anyway. Shouldn’t you be in?” He inquired, leaning closer to bump their arms together.

Sweet Pea watched Jughead’s shoulders slump forward in defeat, raven curls falling over his already saddened eyes. There’s a brief moment where he envisioned reaching out to pull them away from his face, but quickly dismissed it.

“Long night. Tall Boy wouldn’t let the party die, so the party moved back here. Everyone’s gone now, and dad’s passed out, I was just cleaning up the trailer … ” he trailed off quietly, fidgeting the frayed threads on his sleeve.

Guilty, Sweet Pea turned his head to look down at the teen, thinking about how he had been the first to order a round of shots – one of which FP shot down whilst staring his son straight in the face. At the time, Sweet Pea hadn’t thought anything of the disappointment that shot across Jughead’s face. Thinking back now, his skin felt warm and stomach pooled nervously. “I’m sorry, Jones.” He breathed, unsure of what else he could really say.

“What? You don’t have to –”

“But I do. I … I called that first round. It completely slipped my mind that he wasn’t supposed to have anything to drink.”

Jughead dismissed it with a wave of his hand, hugging his knees up to his chest with a loud exhale. “It’s not that he’s not allowed. It was more that he said he wasn’t going to … and he did.” He began to felt his lip tremble, burning sensation building behind his closed lids as he let his face fall forward into his arms. He was careful with keeping his words clear and concise. “And I made a mistake, one he won’t let me fix, one he’s hellbent on fixing himself. All while jeopardizing everything, and for what?”

The Serpent gnawed on his inner cheek. “You wanna come in?” He offered, jerking his thumb to the half open door of his own trailer. “It doesn’t smell like booze.” He added.

Jughead didn’t even think twice before he was standing on his feet, following Sweet Pea into his home. It hadn’t been the first time he’d stayed the night, certainly wouldn’t be the last, he was sure.

He was familiar with the tweed couch, and itchy blanket, but had grown fond of the scent that lingered on the pillow Sweet Pea pulled from his own bed. But tonight he noticed that the area had been rearranged; he examined the furniture, new positions of the couch gave him a full view into the bedroom on the other side. He noticed that the lights were coming from a disco looking ball in the corner, and the gentle melody of something from Sweet Pea’s playlist came from the speaker of his phone it the other room.

“You know, if this keeps happening,” Sweet Pea gestured to outside and across the courtyard where Jughead’s own trailer sat, “My couch is always free – or my bed, if you’re here for more than a night in row.”

Jughead couldn’t help but smile. It was a thoughtful gesture, he decided, knowing that Sweet Pea was willing to offer up his own comfortability for him. From the moment he had met the Serpent, he had been shown a great deal of kindness. Or at least what he considered to be kindness, but he was sure that underneath all of the barriers and guards Sweet Pea had thrown up, there was a genuinely good hearted kid inside.

“I’ll keep that in mind.” Jughead mused with a smile, tucking his feet under his legs.

Sweet Pea busied himself with tidying up the rest of the space – not that Jughead cared if it were messy. Sweet Pea might have been the neatest teenage boy he knew. After a while, lights began to be flicked off, and Jughead nervously took his bottom lip between his teeth.

The Serpent noticed Jughead’s sudden change, and left the light on over the stove. He grabbed two cans of Cola from his mini fridge and wandered back over into the living room with a grin that stretched ear to ear. “Thirsty?”

“Thanks,” he mumbled as he took the can, wrapping both hands around its cold aluminum. “You don’t have to stay up with me.”

Sweet Pea shook his head, tugging half of the blanket over his thighs. “I know what dads can be like, and I know what alcoholics are like. Neither are easy to deal with.” He shrugged, leaning his frame against Jughead. “I just don’t want you to have to feel like you’ve gotta deal with that shit alone anymore.”

Jughead finally lifted his eyes to meet Sweet Pea’s, a look of wonderment taking over his features. There was something about his hooded lids and dark lips that felt so dangerously inviting, Jughead had to force himself to swallow back the lustful thoughts of surging forward to capture them with his own.

Oh, how he wondered what they’d taste like.

Sweets, not oblivious to Jughead’s hesitation, placed a comforting hand over his knee and squeezed tightly in reassurance, “A Serpent never stands alone. I’ll take care of you. You took care of us.”

A moment of silence hung between them. Uncertain of what he should say, Jughead placed his Cola on the coffee table and turned to face Sweet Pea. Then, he threw his arms over the Serpent’s shoulders and pulled him close, breathing in the leftover cologne from the retirement party. And there was no moment of hesitation when Sweet Pea’s arms returned the gesture, winding tightly around his waist to hold him close, tightly enough as though he were holding him together.

And in that long singular second, the bond that had been formed between the two teens solidified; there were now feelings of mutual respect, a foundation of trust, and perhaps even a ground of understanding.

big fists, bigger heart

↪ jughead jones x sweet pea summary: sweet pea’s always hated how much trouble jughead gets himself into and hates how much he gives a fuck about it. a/n: this was mostly done at 1 am, as per usual, so it’s unedited and sloppy and messy. @evolretla had sent in some inspo for something and I kinda just went with some of that, so I hope you find some satisfaction in this piece. If ya’ll have any other requests, please send them here!

Sweet Pea hated Riverdale High. If not for their prejudice, then for the fact he was sitting in the student lounge, and was the only one stuck wearing a turtleneck. He hated it’s high ceilings and large classrooms. He hated how soft and comfortable everyone and everything looked. He hated how the bathroom stalls had doors - well, no. He actually didn’t totally hate that.

But he definitely hated the fact he was reduced to nothing more than a gang member, and because of this, he now owned a rather sizable collection of turtlenecks and scarves.

He hated those, too.

Goddamn his pride and that neck tattoo.

He sat on a seat next to Fangs, greeting him with a gruff “Hey” before pulling the apple from his brown bag. He bit into the sweetness of its core, watching his friends fingers work the deck of cards absently. They spent most of their lunches like this. Eating whatever they had, if they had anything, and passing the time with unenthusiastic conversation.

Normally, at Southside, he would have been at a table full of Serpents, laughing about stupid things. Careless things. His conversation wasn’t monitored, no one ever thought to snake on a snake. Southside might have been a whole in the ground, but at least it had been one he was comfortable with.

But today he was wearing a turtleneck under his jean vest and band tee, getting the rest of his high school diploma at Riverdale High instead. Something that definitely looked better on a college application than a high school on the side of town that’s crumbling in poverty and gang violence, but still not something Sweet Pea was sure was an upgrade.

So when Jughead Jones strolled straight into the lounge ten minutes later, change in hand, causally giving them a “Oh hey, guys,” Sweet Pea wondered if Jones had a death wish. His Serpent leather clung to his frame, plaid shirt wrapped loosely around his hips - hips that Sweet Pea had already paid too much attention too over the last few weeks. He returns his eyes to the foyer, his stomach twisting nervously as Bulldogs stand from their seats.

Oh god, oh god, oh god, oh god.

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It’s just a lot. Chap. 1

After 5 months of Sweet Pea hiding his feelings by drinking. He realized he should accept them. So he walked to Jugheads trailor and knocked on the door. It echoed through the whole place and Jughead opened the door with his hair going in different directions, and him wearing black basketball shorts. And shirtless, (A plus for Sweet Pea)

“Hey, what do you need Sweets?” Jughead asks, Closing the door behind him.

“Um, okay. I’ve been thinking for the past few months…And I think I need to admit it.” Sweet Pea said, nervous as FUCK. Sweet Pea stepped close to Jug, grabbed him by his neck lightly and pressed his lips against Jugheads. Jughead of course, was in shock. But melted. Soon, it broke up. “I-i, uh. Gotta go…” Jughead said, avoiding eye contact. Blushing madley, he walked in the trailor with a wave goodbye. Sweet Pea 100% was shaking. “whoa…” Sweet Pea said touching his lower lip lightly. He then Smiled to himself and left. “Who was at the door?” Betty asked wearing nothing but lingerie and a sweater. “Just Sweets k- needing help with Toni.” Jughead Stammered. “Can we get back to what we were doing?” Betty asked subductively. “um, uh. N-no. I’m tired actually.” Jughead said. “Oh, okay.” Betty said walking to the bedroom. Jughead walked into the room and got into the bed. Betty was forcing Jughead into spooning. “Betty, no.” Jughead said politely, but Betty didn’t care. Jughead then left, pillow in hand and walking to the couch. Jug was mixed emotional at this moment. He realized that he didn’t like Betty anymore, and liked Sweet Pea. Jughead then placed the pillow on the couch and then walked outside into the fresh air, that stung his skin. He opened his phone and called Sweet Pea. ‘Incoming call’ Was placed on his screen.

“Hey Jones!” Sweet Pea said.

“H-hey Sweets…I um, like you.” Jughead admitted.

“I like you too, maybe want to hangout?” Sweet Pea admittedly asked.

“Maybe…I’ll call you later. O-Okay?” Jughead said studdering.

“Yeah” Sweet Pea huffed, and ended the call. Jughead looked back and saw Betty hiding behind the door. He then rolled his eyes.

This I one of my new favorite ships and I’m happy I found more works about them!!!

Many of Horry - Chapter three: Sated hunger, sated madness

HELLO THERE! (that’s fucking obi-wan Kenobi meme) it has been a hot minute but I have returned with the promised saucy goods and oh boy, its a mess. Both of ours boys are a mess, a hot mess, yes, very hot, very messy. BUT. Also very soft, very gentle, very romaaaance and its a bit of bad romance (insert lady gaga here plz). Snotlout has no marbles, boy’s done lost them all, and Eret is just being British, idk tbh??? Should of added a “you know nothing, Jon snow” gag but that’s a bit petty, though i may change my mind, I’m two-faced like that!

This is the boys doing the horizontal tango (add careless whisper saxophone here plz) with violence, soft moments, bickering, angst, scars, body-worshipping and all of the stuff that make weapons of mass destruction!

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Chapter summary -  Ten months prior to Eret’s leave, Snotlout a mad decision. Ten months prior to his leave, Eret took a mad man to bed.

Chapter warnings - SEX! SMUT! THE HORIZONTAL TANGO! THEY GOT AT IT LIKE RABBITS! Um, also scars, mental instability (Snotlout is kinda crazy in this fic) violence

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He’s not even given the pleasure of a warning. No distant cursing, no dramatic door-knocking, no crass bragging. Nothing.

Snotlout just storms into his cabin and punches Eret in the face.

It sends him to the floor and he stays there for a second, hand rubbing at his aching jaw as he looks up at Snotlout, confused and angry. Snotlout’s eyes, hauntingly pale in the firelight, are brimming with unspoken rage and his lips are curled back in a wrathful snarl, there is too much anger in him and its brimming at the surface.

After that, his immediate instinct is to stand back up and fight back. Which he does. He thrusts his hands against Snotlout’s chest, pushing him back a few feet, and Eret is confused when that snarl flips into a crooked grin. He wants this, he wants a fight, and who is Eret to deny him that?

“If you wanted a scrap, Snotlout, you should’ve just asked,” Eret rolls his shoulders, feeling confident and angry because how dare this short mad man come into his home and attack him? Unprovoked, mind.

“Where’d be the fun in that?” Snotlout laughs and it raises goosebumps along his arms because there is something distinctively unhinged about that sound, it leaves an unnerved feeling in his gut. Men who laugh in the face of danger are the true animals, his father once said, for they have no fear. Even dragons cower at the prospect of death. Mad men howl for joy.

Snotlout charges forward with an arm reeled back, ready to throw a punch, and Eret ducks to the side as that closed fist falls through the empty space, leaving Snotlout staggering forward. But that mad smile doesn’t falter as he expected it to and the look that Snotlout gives him from beneath his lashes triggers his flight or fight. It’s the face of a rabid animal, of a mad wolf, of a deranged dragon, of something so deluded it doesn’t even know what it’s doing.

But despite this, Eret stands his ground and fights because he’s ran away from things his whole life. Not anymore. He will fight Snotlout, he will fight this mad man.

He heaves in a heavy breath, holds it, then lurches forward with a closed fist. Snotlout doesn’t dodge, or move, or even blink and there is something terribly wrong with that. A crunching sound fills the room as his fist hits Snotlout square in the face. Eret exhales harshly as he brings his hand up to brush the loose hair from his face, knuckles throbbing and heart thumping in his chest.

Snotlout takes a step back, head down and hand to face. By all rights, he should be on the floor, out for the night, Eret hit him as hard as he could. That too leaves a sickness in his gut. How can such a small body take such a huge punch? (Not that he’s bragging, he’s just aware of his own strength)

After a moment, Snotlout let’s his hand falls to his side and it’s wet with blood.

Then the dragon-rider looks up at him. Eret swallows firmly.

Rivers of blood pour from his nostrils and steadily flow over his lips and down his chin, thick droplets dripping from his jaw and some streak down his neck like exposed veins. He looks terrible with all that blood on him. Oh Gods.

But Snotlout, to his horror, smiles at him with all his teeth and they too are red, glistening, threatening. (It might be the trick of the firelight, but they look sharp)

He looks like a wolf, a wild animal that’s just made a kill.

“Snotlout-” Eret starts, no longer angry but concerned because this isn’t the Snotlout he knows (not that he knows him well), this isn’t the prideful man who’s bull-headed and overconfident, who’s put-together and two dimensional. No, this is something else, something Eret is familiar with.

Many men went mad under Drago’s tyranny.

Snotlout takes no notice of his name being spoken and throws a poorly aimed punch, his fist a good foot from his target. He staggers forward before righting himself, staring at Eret with wild eyes.

“Snotlout, enough now,” He states firmly, forcing himself to stand taller to intimidate the shorter, but Snotlout just laughs through his wet teeth.

“What? Am I too much for the greatest dragon-trapper alive?” Snotlout mocks darkly as he opens his arms, almost inviting Eret to attack him.

And hot with the sudden rage of being mocked, of his dark past being bright to the light like its a joke, Eret takes that invitation eagerly.

He yells out as he tackles Snotlout to the floor, anchoring him down with his weight, and his vision blurs as he swings again and again and again till his hand feels close to breaking. Snotlout doesn’t fight back. He pummels Snotlout’s face as a great hatred unfurls in his chest, a hatred that does not belong to Snotlout, but to Drago.

To Drago. To his corrupted home. To himself. This hatred that’s been festering within him belongs to all the things that have caused him to run away. All he’s ever done is run, like a coward. Now, he will fight. When he looks beneath him, he sees Drago, he sees the men who murdered his father, he sees himself.

But when the fog clears, Eret is overwhelmed with regret and the first thing that goes through his head is oh Gods, I’ve killed him. Beneath him is Snotlout, not the men who made a coward of him. What have I done?

Eret pants and stares as he lowers his face closer to Snotlout’s, who also pants. He’s alive, thank Gods, I’m not a murderer. No, you are, you’re still a murder, you’re just like the men who killed him!

“Thanks,”

Eret shakes his head and really looks at Snotlout because what? Did- did he- did he just thank him? And then he catches the grin, this blissed out grin made of split lips and bloody teeth, Gods, he’s been smiling the whole time. He can’t find the words to answer back, he doesn’t even know what he would say. (You’re welcome)

The rider’s face is red and shiny with blood and it makes his eyes so bright, so pale, so blue that he could drown in them. And in those eyes, in those cold waters, Eret sees a calmness that shouldn’t be there after getting your face battered in. This is what he wanted, he let you do this, this wasn’t a fight, he doesn’t know what it was, but I wasn’t a fight.

Then those eyes do something Eret wasn’t expecting. They flicker down, down, to his lips. And they stare for a few moments before looking back into his, ghost-like and near-white. It leaves a familiar coiling feeling in his gut and he can’t stop himself from doing the same, glimpsing a look at those red-shining lips that, suddenly, looks so kissable, even with all that blood.

He wonders is Snotlout came here for any other alternative motives.

Perhaps he asks this question through his eyes because Snotlout’s eyebrows jump suggestively and he runs his tongue over his teeth, smearing that deep blood. It sends a hot flash straight to his cock and Eret swallows to quench the dryness in his throat.

“What do you want, Snotlout?” He asks lowly, hands on either side of the shorter’s shoulders.

“I think you know, Eret,” He responds stubbornly, his voice smug, and they feel so close, like there are no gaps between them. His heart feels like it’s suffocating.

Eret does know, or he believes he does. He doesn’t want to assume, doesn’t want to make this situation worse than it already is.

“I want you to say it,”

It’s a challenge and Snotlout’s grin widens until there’s too many teeth (just like Ruffnut’s) and he raises his head till their noses touch, till their breaths warm each other. He licks his lips like a hungry beast and doesn’t break eye contact, Eret can’t believe how wildly blue they are. It’s like looking at a frozen lake, the thick ice has cracked but not feel enough to break.

“I want you to fuck me,”

And that’s it. It’s out in the open. Eret is suddenly aware of the hardness pressing against his thigh and oh, how it just urges his own to grow in strength, and Snotlout know this too. He bites his bruised lip and blinks slowly. It has to be the prettiest thing he’s ever seen. Never mind the blood, never mind the bruises, those eyes are otherworldly.

Slowly, Eret closes the gap between them and the kiss isn’t rushed or violent, it’s a hesitant movement. After a moment, Snotlout’s breath hitches and reels back at the tender touch as if Eret has just smacked his across the face. He looks up at him and Eret swallows at the sudden insecurity that’s swirling in those eyes, no longer angry or mad or confident, but unsure in the face of tenderness.

Eret waits for him to move and, sure enough, Snotlout again lifts his head, eyes fluttering closed as Eret meets him in the middle. Their lips slot together like they’re meant to be and it fills Eret’s heart with a warm feeling, like molten gold in his arteries. The irony taste of blood touches his taste buds as he swipes his tongue along Snotlout’s busted lips, who lets out a quiet moan from the back of his throat. More, Eret hears.

It’s goes on for a few minutes, this gentle dance, before Snotlout tries to speed it up. He tries to make it angry and obscene, tries to make it as dirty as their fight but Eret isn’t having it. No, if they’re going to do this, they’re going to do this right.

Forcefully, he takes Snotlout’s hands and slams them to the floor, above his head, in an almost bruising hold, staring down at him with a dark look.

“Calm down,” He orders, his voice rough and heady, and Snotlout’s entire body goes weak beneath him at the his commanding tone, “I know that you want a quick fuck, but we’re not doing it like that, understand? Not while you’re like this,”

Snotlout doesn’t respond to him, but now he’s almost hyper-focused on Eret and the way he’s reacted to the solid orders and the firm hands immediately clicks an understanding in Eret. Snotlout, proud Snotlout who hates authority and instructions, needs to be told what to do.

A soft feeling spreads across his chest and Eret lowers his head till his mouth is next to Snotlout’s ear.

“You need me to get you out of your head?” He whispers softly, absently rubbing his thumb over the throbbing pulse on his wrist, and Snotlout lightly nods his head, a shiver moving through his body.

“Fuck me-” Snotlout growls frustratedly, “-like you hate me,”

“No,” is his firm answer and he lifts his head to be met with those eyes, bright and angry again at his denied request.

“What do you mean no? You- you bastard-”

Eret rucks his hips, grinding their clothed erections together, and Snotlout’s cursing breaks into a breathy gasp as he thumps his head against the floor, tilting it with his eyes as they roll to the back of his skull. In his own pleasure, Eret grunts and admires the exposed throat before him, pale and mapped out with rosy streams of dried blood. Lowering his head, he runs his mouth along the arching curve of Snotlout’s throat, his teeth travelling along the pulsing arteries like a threatening blade, Eret could rip out his throat right now and Snotlout would thank him for it. It is a powerful feeling.

He places a kiss, feather-light, on his Adam’s apple before lifting himself, freeing one of his hands so he can bring it to Snotlout’s chin. Again, they are face to face. Eret is delighted to see a flush fanning across his cheeks and a wanton look glossing his beautiful eyes. They really are beautiful, how has he never noticed them before? It’s like he’s just seen the moon in the sky for the first time. So pale, so haunting, so strange.

“I don’t do hate fucking,” He clarifies to Snotlout, voice purposeful and concise, and the response he gets is a forceful huff and an irritated eye roll, manageable enough. A smirk of his own stretches across his face as he tilts his head, eyes ablaze with mischief as he snarks; “I’m only into love making,”

A great laugh explodes from Snotlout’s throat and it fills the cabin with a rich, balmy atmosphere that oozes deep into Eret’s skin, into his bones, into his heart, it is not a sound he will easily forget. This isn’t a sarcastic or mocking cackle, but a genuine laugh that Eret has only heard briefly in unshared moments. If thunder could laugh, it would be this.

“Shut the fuck up,” Snotlout chuckles roughly, crinkled eyes looking up at him with mirth and Eret is aware of arms circling around his shoulders, bringing his face closer to Snotlout’s.

“Shut the fuck up,” He whispers again, voice silken and unchaste, and Eret is drawn into a shameless make out session that draws on till their lungs are aching from lack of breath.

They stare and pant like rabid dogs and there has never been a better feeling than this. This reckless desire, this violent delight, this bloody kiss, those brilliant eyes, that mad smile. No night has ever left him feeling so much. Eret notices that Snotlout is still covered in blood, blood that he spilt, and he rubs his thumb into the drying maroon crust beneath his nose.

“Get up,” He says simply as he rises onto his feet and Snotlout makes a barely-audible whine when the hot weight on his lap disappears, gazing up at him from the floor with this lustful yet somehow also tired look in his eyes.

“Can’t you just fuck me here?” He groans, sitting up onto his elbows and rolling his neck, and, Gods above, it’s all about fucking with him, isn’t it? Not that Eret can blame him, by the straining in his pants, he’s just as eager as the shorter man.

“It’s not love making if you’re on the floor and covered blood,” Eret retorts smartly, a grin tugging his lips as he offers his red-touched hand to Snotlout, “Now, get up and go clean your face,”

With a bemused snort, Snotlout takes his hand and is easily lifted to his feet. They don’t let go of each other straight away and when he looks down at their hands, he sees that they are both flaking with dried blood. Snotlout’s blood. It’s a strange moment, almost like time has slowed, up until Snotlout’s hand slips from his, dark blood-dust grating from their calloused fingers.

“Um, there’s a wash basin in my room,” Eret states, trying to dislodge his heart from his throat as he leads Snotlout to where his room is, their shoulders brushing as they walk through the doorway.

The copper basin resides on top of the dresser besides his bed and he refills it with clean water everyday, a thing of habit his mum drilled into him as a child.

It’s quickly tainted from a shimmering clear to a murky pink as Snotlout splashes water on his face, the diluted blood from his nose and lips slipping through his fingers into the dish. Eret averts his eyes from that glistening skin and concentrates on scrubbing the dusty blood from his hand, the skin of his middle knuckle has split slightly and stings against his rubbing hand. All he can here is the tranquil movement of water and the echoey beat of his heart.

Briefly, he looks to the Rider beside him and notices that there’s still blood on his neck, neighbouring with the gold-glinting streams of water droplets. With a face no longer shining with blood and madness, but with water and calmness, Snotlout looks like something from a soft dream and it leaves Eret’s mouth dry and pulse running. He swallows, unsure what to do other than stare.

But the longer he stares, the more that calmness shifts in a restlessness that’s writhing deep within, barely controlled, barely holding back. He should just give Snotlout what he wants, a quick shag, in and out business as it were, but there was something about that madness in those eyes that tells Eret a swift fuck isn’t what Snotlout needs. Sure, it’s what he wants, but it’s not what he needs.

“Here,” He says as he brings a wet cloth to Snotlout’s throat, who asks what he’s doing through wide, almost angry eyes.

“You’ve got blood on your neck,” Eret clarifies for him, sponging the rag along the fading lines lightly and he can see Snotlout’s artery thumping rapidly against the wet skin, it does a strange thing to his gut.

Snotlout turns to face him, head up but tilted to the side with his lips pressed together in a frustrated sort of expression, like this gentle act is an annoying inconvenience. Eret finds it both amusing and terrifying how quickly Snotlout’s moods change, from wrathful to deranged to seductive to… Embarrassed? Is that it? He has no idea, but it must be painful to feel so many things at once.

To be honest, he feels a bit light headed himself from the quick changes the atmosphere has taken in the last half hour. The tone in the air currently feels domestic-like, with a hint of apprehension.

“Fucking Hel, stop,” Snotlout brutally bats Eret’s hand away and looks up at him with a firm, determined face, “Stop with the- the- the foreplay and just-”

In a moment of great confidence, Eret mercilessly rams Snotlout against the dresser and takes hold of the hair on the back of his head, yanking unkindly until Snotlout’s throat is completely bared and his eyes are locked with his. There are no gaps between them. Their heaving chests are pressed together so closely that they can feel each other’s pounding hearts and Eret presses his leg firmly between Snotlout’s legs. A poorly restrained groan comes forth as Snotlout melts like butter in his heated embrace.

“Just what? Fuck you?” Eret growls and those blue eyes glow like a prayer in the candlelight as he faintly nods against the force of Eret’s hold, Adam’s apple bobbing through a swallowed breath.

“Yeah? You want me to be bend you over, fuck you till I’m done and throw you out, hmm? That’s what you want?”

A hotness sweeps along Eret as he watches the submissiveness in Snotlout’s eyes grow, his mouth dropping open at those dirty words, at that foul desire.

“Yes, Eret- Fuck yes, do- fucking that,” Snotlout drawls breathlessly, a moan colouring his voice as his hair is pulled, legs spreading so Eret can ruck his knee up higher.

And Eret concludes that this, this is the prettiest thing he’s ever seen and the power that consumes him is addicting, because it is no simple task to get a Viking Warrior like Snotlout to beg. Proud, fire-blooded Snotlout who now leans against him trembling and begging like a desperate whore.

Eret grins, mean and sharp, as he brings his mouth close to Snotlout’s, their lips touching in a open-mouthed kiss that has yet to start.

“Well, too bad,” He says in a low voice, lips brushing with each word, and Snotlout stares up at him with begging eyes that almost made Eret reconsider his choice.

But he doesn’t.

So, he removes his leg, releases the harsh grip on his hair and slightly backs up so Snotlout has more breathing room. But he keeps his face close, keeps their lips touching and swallows the complaint working on Snotlout’s tongue with the vigor of a gentle man. It’s one of those kisses that leave you light headed from the softness. Snotlout’s hands are frozen in mid air like he’s never touched a person before and Eret takes them, holds them, feels the tremors in them and wonders what’s so terrifying about tenderness. It’s a quiet kiss, a quiet kiss in the quiet night.

They part only slightly to catch a reprieve, lips still touching as they inhale the moment, as they wallow in the balmy warmth of this strange but comforting moment. To think that they were at each other’s throats not so long ago. It beggers belief. With closed eyes, Eret trails his mouth along Snotlout’s jaw and down his throat, kissing and sucking at the dewy skin with a gentle passion because this is all his tonight, all his to feast on, and he shall savour this taste.

“We’ll do this slowly, okay?” Eret mumbles into the crook of his neck, a heavy pulse against his lips, “I am going to fuck you, Snotlout, but I’m gonna do it slowly-”

Eret brings his mouth up until it’s right under Snotlout’s ear, teeth nibbling at the sensitive flesh and making the Rider’s body tremble excitedly.

“-I’m gonna make it feel so good for you,” he whispers headily into his ear and his abdomen tightens at the pitched, needy keen that slips from Snotlout’s mouth.

“Okay- okay, just- Damn you, Eret, you can fuck me slowly! Just get me to the bed quickly!” Snotlout rasps, caught between desperation and frustration, and Eret can’t stop the laugh from bubbling out as he throws his head back.

It’s Snotlout this time who goes in for the kiss and it’s all teeth and tongue, all hunger and thirst, all the things that Eret associates with a starved man. Starved of touch and tenderness, Eret too feels the cramp of desire. It has been too long.

Thick fingers pull loose the strings of his scaled vest and Eret grins into the kiss, moving his hands from Snotlout’s hips to the hem of his vest as he steps back so he can pull it over his head. Dropping it to the floor, he watches as Snotlout gazes with an open appreciation at his bare torso, tongue wetting his lips as he runs his hands down his muscular chest. It leaves Eret’s heart thumping wildly and a hotness creeps along his face at the touch, an admiring almost worshipping touch that is so very foreign to him.

“You’re… Hot,” Snotlout drawls lowly, half-lidded eyes and calloused hands trailing from his pecs to his abs, fingers just brushing over the teasing trail of hair on his abdomen. It sends shivers down his spine.

“I know,” He replies confidently, though he can’t quite hide the quiver in his voice.

He knows he’s attractive and he is frequently reminded of it, which does not help his ego, but the few men he has been with have always been a bit hesitant in the face of that bold brand on his chest. They’ve always given it a weary look, kept their hands close and guarded lest they get burnt themselves, treated him as if he’s something wounded. He knows he’s handsome, but that scar turns that confidence into loathing because it’s so ugly and wrong, so evil to him. It’s tainted him, it’s marked him, it’s labelled him.

SLAVE BOY! COWARD BOY! HE RUNS AWAY, SELFISH BOY! MURDERER! TRAPPER! SLAVE! ALWAYS A SLAVE, FREEDOM IS A JOKE AND NO ONE IS LAUGHING!

But Snotlout seems unhindered by it, trailing his fingers along the outline of the furrowed, pink scar with a curious, admiring touch that leaves Eret breathless. He expected a cringe or a hesitant hand, but Snotlout almost seems drawn to his many scars, like a moth in a room of candles. Hands palming and fingers tracing the wicked lines along his toned stomach, his broad shoulders, his exposed collarbone.

He is a marked man. A slave to a greedy country, a slave to a mad man, a slave to violence. He is marked by each and every one of his masters and forever he will be reminded that freedom was a dish never served to him. It was a dish he stole. No longer is he a slave, but there is something missing in his freedom and he doesn’t know what.

“I thought you wanted to get a move on,” Eret mumbles with an almost strained voice and Snotlout looks up at him, golden from candle-flames and still glistening from water, he looks like dew at dawn.

“I thought you wanted to slow down,” Snotlout retorts back, hands rubbing up and down his chest, and he grins smartly up at him, “What? I’m allowed to touch you, aren’t I?”

“Y-yeah, of course- I-”

Expelling a deep sigh, Eret ducks his head and ensnares Snotlout into a passionate kiss, no longer wanting to talk. Despite his charm, Eret finds words difficult at times and sometimes actions speak far more clearly in certain situations.

Snotlout doesn’t seem to mind, the shorter gladly returning the kiss with just as much vigour.

There is something about kissing Snotlout that feels very filling, like eating your heart out after months of rationing on a ship. Perhaps he’s been starving this whole time. Even after all these years a freedom, there’s still a hole in his gut but it doesn’t feel so empty right now, with Snotlout’s hands on his chest, lips on his lips, heart on his heart.

Perhaps this is truly freedom.

“My turn,” Eret whispers against his lips, delving his fingers beneath Snotlout’s shirt and feeling the hot skin beneath.

“Wait,” Snotlout breathes, taking hold of his wrists, and Eret looks down at him with an almost anxious look, afraid that he’s going too fast with this, despite that being what Snotlout wanted.

Snotlout swallows thickly, eyes blue and uneasy as they flicker between Eret’s face and his hands, half hidden beneath his vest. The skin there feels strange and oddly familiar though, he can’t quite pinpoint what, but his fingers move briefly over raised marks.

“Just… don’t ask questions or… Give me any pity, okay? Just… Ignore them,”

Them? Ignore what? And pity? Eret isn’t a pitying man, he knows how weak it makes you feel, he’d be a hypocrite to do so. But why would Snotlout warrant any pity? He doesn’t quite understand, but he does as he’s told and doesn’t ask any questions.

“Alright,” he agrees with an honest voice and Snotlout then nods his head, lower lip caught between his teeth.

Eret takes hold of the hem of Snotlout’s shirt and pulls it off, discarding it behind him before turning back to the Rider.

At first, he doesn’t react at all. Not physically, anyway. But his mind screams-

Oh Gods, oh Gods, there’s so much, they’re everywhere, oh Gods, how is he alive? No one could survive this, he’s a corpse, oh Gods he’s been kissing a dead man because no one could possibly survive this!

Snotlout’s entire torso is the home of hundreds, and by the Gods, he means hundreds, of ivory scars. They’re all raised and twisted and cruel-looking, like crooked grins etched into his skin that mock and laugh. They shine against the candlelight and most of them are so overlapped, that they look like just one awfully huge scar. These are lashes, whip lashes, Eret is all too familiar with these scars for he has his own set on his back but nothing like this. Nothing like this graveyard that resides upon Snotlout’s flesh.

Drago gave him fifteen lashes and a branding that day, as well as a thorough beating from his henchmen. Since then, Eret had been able to avoid punishment and failure out of pure dread of what would happen if he failed again. Perhaps this is what would’ve happened, perhaps he would’ve mauled and marred and… Marked.

He wants to ask who (what) did this to you? Why did they do this? When? How are you still alive? How are you still standing with the weight of the scars that mark you?

But he says none of these things because Snotlout asked him to and even if he’d been given permission to, his breath has been stolen from him anyways. He cannot simply ignore them, though. These hundred echoes of a hundred agonies, if scars could speak, they would be screaming. How are you not screaming? How are you still so brave?

Eret steps forth and Snotlout’s eyes, hauntingly bright, stare at him with a hidden shame within them that Eret sees clearly. He nearly mistakes that shame for his own. Lowering his head, he kisses Snotlout’s shoulder and licks along a nasty scar that bends over his shoulder to his back. He makes the mistake of opening his eyes and he sees that there are a hundred more vicious wounds defacing his back. He could be sick, he really could be, that’s why he closes his eyes again.

“Eret,” Snotlout gasps, blunt teeth biting down onto that raised line as hands map out and feel along the almost inhuman terrain of Snotlout’s body.

Eret touches each scar with a great tenderness, devoting his hands to the gentle caresses along his chest and stomach, his sides and back. All scarred, all layered with the ghosts of torture because what else could this be? There’s nothing worse than this, Eret thinks, death is kinder than this. He kisses the thick scars criss-crossed on Snotlout’s chest and massages the sunken marring on his waist and sides with his hands, trying to get Snotlout to understand that he’s here to touch him softly, gently, tenderly.

You will not be harmed here, he reassures with his lips against his scar-streaked collarbone, I will hold you right now and will only let you go if you ask me to, he promises with his hands pressed against his mauled spine.

“Eret, can we…” The request goes unsaid, but Eret understands and finally decides that Snotlout has waited long enough. They both have.

Wrapping his arms under his thighs, Eret easily lifts Snotlout off his feet and his heart grows with the shocked sound Snotlout makes as he circles his thick arms around his neck. Eret chuckles and Snotlout lets out a breathy laugh, cursing him quietly. After a few steps, he gently lies him onto the bed and crawls over him, their noses touching as Eret settles between his legs. Their clothed erections press against each other and they simultaneously groan, that hot want kindling again in their guts.

With Snotlout beneath him, Eret feels that power again.

“I’m gonna make you feel so good,” Eret promises headily against his mouth, hands fiddling with hem of Snotlout’s trousers.

“You better get on with it then,” Snotlout growls, baring his teeth before diving in for a violent kiss and Eret takes this as his final warning.

In an almost animalistic fashion, he tears Snotlout’s trousers and underclothes off in one powerful tug and grins into the kiss at the surprised sound Snotlout makes in his throat. And that grin only grows when he wraps his hand around Snotlout’s cock, the Rider breaking the kiss with a gasp as Eret skilfully pulls him apart. Bless him, he tries to hold it in with clenched teeth and pressed lips but the sounds still resonate through his throat and, though they are muffled, they are terribly pretty.

The sounds he pulls from him are almost enough for Eret to go over the edge himself to be honest, he’s never heard such surrender in his life. But he made a promise to fuck Snotlout and he isn’t going to let this opportunity pass him by because he can’t control himself. With one last tug, Eret releases Snotlout and silences that arguing whine with an encouraging press of his fingers against his mouth, leathery pads brushing against the scabbed lips. Snotlout, quick to understand, opens his mouth and swallows two of Eret’s digits and its an image that he couldn’t have come up with even in his most wildest dreams. Yet here it is, here he is, atop a mad rival with his fingers delving down his throat as he makes the most lewd noises Eret has ever heard. Gods, he can feel those sounds.

After a steamy moment, Eret replaces his now-slick fingers with an open-mouthed kiss and brings his hand down to Snotlout’s entrance. His finger slips in nice and easy, causing Snotlout to groan lowly as pulls back from the kiss, spit on his lips while he tucks his head into Eret’s throat, biting and kissing passionately.

“Good, yeah?” Eret murmurs with a wicked grin, adding another finger, and he can feel how hot Snotlout’s skin gets as he nods into the crook of his neck.

He gasps, high-pitched and pretty, hips rising as Eret hooks his fingers inside him, teeth digging into his shoulder in an attempt to stop himself from voicing his pleasure.

And again, he is full of this incredible power as he pumps his fingers inside him, watching Snotlout sharply as he drops his head back down to the furs with a strangled moan. He pulls his lower lip with his teeth and squeezes his eyes shut, like the pleasure is bordering on agony. It’s not enough, he needs more, and who is Eret to deny him that?

Once he’s satisfied with how loose he is, Eret rises onto his knees and unties the strings of his trousers, pulling out his heavy cock with an apprehensive rumble in his chest. His blood bubbles like boiling water and he feels feral when he looks at Snotlout, sprawled below him with this vulnerability bared freely. He trusts you, he’s baring his throat to you, Gods, he asking you to tear it out and you would, you will, you’d do it again and again only if he asked you to and he’s laying here, asking!

Eret, hungry like a winter-born beast, takes hold of the back Snotlout’s thighs and presses his muscled legs to his flushed chest, putting his weight on them at he leans over him. Snotlout’s eyes are stunningly bright and he gazes deep into them, looking, searching, hunting. He’s never wanted something so much in his life and by God’s, if Snotlout lets him do this it just might kill him.

“Snotlout,” he says his name softly, contrasting the hard grip on his thighs, the starved look in his eyes, the urgent press of his cock.

It’s a question. Can I do this? Will you let me take your body, take your throat, take your heart? Can I touch you like you’re a forgotten god who wasn’t worshipped as you should’ve been? Can I do that? Will you let me?

And Snotlout sighs, deep and honest, like an answer. Yes, yes, yes. Forever yes.

With a blaze in his veins, Eret presses his hips forward and the overwhelming feeling of hot, wet, tight strikes him dumb for a few moments, black stars dancing in his eyes as he presses his forehead against Snotlout’s. He vaguely registers his own drawn out moan as he stares, awe-struck, at the open-mouthed and closed-eyed expression on Snotlout’s face. It is a look of pure, blinding bliss that looks so damn pretty on this irritating, fire-blooded Viking Warrior that has been Hel-bent on frustrating him beyond all belief. It is burned into his memory for all time and he begs that he’ll remember it when he dies.

“Fuck,” Eret gasps lowly, fingers flexing around the muscle on Snotlout’s under thighs as he bottoms out, their hips connecting as if they’ve become one person.

In a moment of curiosity, he looks down and his panting breath is stolen once more as he sees Snotlout’s thighs. Ripped and raised with scars. In a moment where he forgets everything else, he sits back and let’s Snotlout’s legs stretch out alongside his hips, fully revealing the extent of the scarring. Snotlout, still gasping from the fullness of Eret’s cock buried inside him, has yet to realise what he has noticed.

Eret runs his hands up and down those marred thighs with a doting gentleness that he feels they’ve been starved of. He’s never seen someone so damaged before, it looks like someone tore him apart and left him alone with nothing but a ball of string and a blunt needle, left him alone to sew himself whole again. Curling a hand around Snotlout’s ankle, he lifts his leg till it’s on his shoulder and kisses tenderly at the also scarred tissue of his calf, as if someone had repeatedly struck the back of his legs with a sharp-sided stick.

“Ere-” It’s the beginning of a complaint, bitter and angry, but Eret easily cuts it off with a few shallow thrusts of his hips, still kissing his ankle and calf.

Snotlout tilts his head back, an almost shocked keen jumping from his throat as Eret rocks into him, still being gentle as not to cause any discomfort. Though, he can’t lie, it’s hard for him not pound violently into the gorgeous heat that’s making his gut coil and spine shake. Snotlout wants it violent, wants it dirty and foul and angry, but Eret, as stated, doesn’t do hate sex and no amount of surprised punches or provoking jeering will ever change that. He’s a gentleman.

“Fuck- harder,”

Or he was a gentlemen, because there is something about Snotlout begging Eret to fuck him harder that brings out a ferocious thing from deep within. A gentleman, still, but there is something wild inside him that Snotlout has tapped into.

Eret covers Snotlout’s body with his, knee to his chest and leg over his shoulder as he fucks deep and hard into him. It’s like there’s nothing but this outrageous hunger churning in his gut and Snotlout is this gorgeous feast sprawled out just for him, like he’s this deer with its neck open and Eret is this ravenous wolf.

And being this hungry dog, Eret takes his teeth to Snotlout’s throat and feels the thrumming of blood beneath his tongue. Snotlout moans and writhes and pants, one hand balled in the furs and the other curled around his nape, tangled in his loose hair. The room is full of the sound of slapping skin and dirty moans and desperate breaths, the bed creaking slightly underneath it all. It is the sound of sex, of pleasure, of primal desire.

“So fucking good, Snotlout, so fucking good,” Eret growls into Snotlout’s hot skin as he fucks firm into the Rider, his muscles burning and skin glistening with sweat.

“Oh fuuuuck,” Snotlout drawls out in a loud moan, eyes rolling and mouth snarling, and it takes Eret a moment to realise that he came, sudden and hard, between their bodies.

“Oh fuck, fuck, oh Gods, Eret,” he babbles breathlessly, body shivering and flushed and limp as Eret continues to pound zealously into him, his own climax rushing him as he’s enveloped in this unimaginable tightness.

“I’m gonna-” Snotlout doesn’t give him time to finish, his strong hands clutching fiercely at the hair on the back of head and dragging his face down to his.

“Yeah, yeah, go on, give it to me, fuck, Eret, cum inside me you fucking bastard,” Snotlout pants wantonly, lips pressed against his in a not-quite-kiss, bright, teary eyes gazing into his with this feral madness that, for the smallest second, scares Eret.

Briefly, he thinks, oh no, I’ve made a fool’s mistake and put my dick in crazy.

But it snaps out of mind as his orgasm leaps upon him and all he can do is groan against Snotlout’s open-mouthed grin, body trembling as he ruts through this mind-numbing climax. His body is on fire and Gods he’s dying, living has never felt this good, nothing has ever felt this damn good.

It feels like hours, but it must have only been a few minutes, before the wildfire in his veins simmers down and Eret is half collapsed on top of Snotlout, elbows planted besides his head and chest pressed against his, their hearts singing to each other as they wallow in the afterglow.

He opens his eyes and stares, half in disbelief, half in awe, at the foreign expression on Snotlout’s face. Eret is used to the quirked grin during dinner or the irritated scowl that is commonly directed at him, the quiet sternness seen in serious moments or, though he has only seen it briefly, the unbridled bloodlust that breaks through on the battlefield. But the face below him now is neither of these, nor one of the recently discovered faces of Snotlout (madness, rage, lust, mad-lust, shame), it is something that Eret can only name as pure, unfiltered content and it suits him terribly well, especially with that bright flush on his cheeks and those shimmering tearstains streaking down the sides of his face. Perhaps, perhaps this is the prettiest thing; dream-like, gold-kissed, gently-touched.

Eret falls to the bed besides Snotlout with a satisfied exhale, feeling good and warm on both the inside and outside, like there is a candle kindled within him. He doesn’t trouble himself with the thoughts of tomorrow or of repercussions because he is simply far too tired for such thoughts, there’s no need to ruin a good moment while you’re having one. It’s the same kind of tired that you get after a big meal and he certainly has feasted tonight.

Lazily, he turns his head to Snotlout and there is this sudden, unspeakable feeling in his chest when he looks at him, eyes closed and lips parted, not asleep but just… resting, with no guard or façade protecting his features. Again, it’s Snotlout saying he trusts him and Eret has no idea how he earned that trust but he’s not a fool, he won’t throw that trust away. Perhaps this is Snotlout handing him an olive branch, saying in this crazy, sexy way of his that he doesn’t hate him, that they can be friends. Passionate friends are better than bitter rivals.

And Eret falls asleep like that, watching the steady movement of Snotlout’s chest, counting the wicked scars on his ribs, devouring the image of those split lips that Eret can still taste in the back of his mouth (blood, iron, lightning).

Later that night, Eret is woken by the sound of moving feet and ruffling clothes. The dream of cracked ice and calloused hands and a bleeding heart quickly slip from his memory like smoke through his hands but the sluggishness of sleep clings to him longingly, so much so that he struggles simply to open his eyes. When he does, it’s dark and shadowy, the candles all snuffed out, and he has difficultly trying to identify the source of those sounds. He pats his hand onto the other side of the bed, expecting to feel Snotlout’s body, but there are only disturbed furs laying there. Ah, he understands.

“Snotlout?” He slurs into the dark, sleep heavy on his mind, and the noises stop suddenly.

When his eyes finally adjust to the darkness, he’s met with the shadow-touched figure of Snotlout stood beside his bed, trousers on and tunic in hand, pale eyes watching him. He swears they were blue, they’ve always been blue, but right now, gods, they look like they’re white and glowing, like an animal’s eyes catching the moonlight, like two stars standing side by side. Eyes shouldn’t be so bright yet so haunted, they’re like ghost eyes.

“Are you a ghost?” He wants to ask, because he should be, with all those scars, he should be dead and maybe he did die but he’s lost, doesn’t know if he belongs in Valhalla or Hel because he’s got the heart of a warrior but the mind of a mad man.

“What you doing?” He asks instead, because Snotlout is no ghost, Eret has cradled his heart and held his body. You cannot touch ghosts, it’s a well-known fact.

“Go back to sleep, Eret,” Snotlout says and there is a faint softness in his voice that he almost misses, the biting tone his name is usually spat with now replaced with this indulgent whisper that sounds, not warm, but not cold either. Lukewarm.

“Where you going?” Eret murmurs back, rubbing the sleep-dust from his left eye as he watches the shorter tighten the strings of his trousers with the other.

“Home,” Snotlout replies back bluntly, that warmer voice iced down back to its cold familiar self, and Eret groans tiredly.

“It’s not even dawn, come back to bed,” He reasons, voice still deep and hoarse from sleep, his words barely coherent.

He hears Snotlout sigh frustratedly and vaguely sees the harsh rise and fall of his broad shoulders, eyes closed and face pinched in irritation. He’s reacting as if Eret’s just proposed the most outrageous offer to him and it rises the smallest amount of annoyance in him, but he’s far too tired to fully register the feeling, let alone act upon it, so instead he follows the negotiation route. Which will be poor due to his lethargic state, but he’s persuasive and has bargained tougher trades while drunk.

“Don’t be a git,” He murmurs, patting the empty space beside him, “Come. Sleep,”

“Shut up, sailor,” Snotlout grunts with no bite in his voice, just tiredness, “Shut up and go to sleep,”

With a sudden swell of courage and frustration, Eret leans across the bed and takes Snotlout’s hand into, his grip loose enough for Snotlout to pull from if he really wants to but tight enough to show he’s being sincere, even if he’s just half-asleep. Both of their hands are calloused from gruelling battles and hard labour and strenuous training and he can feel the rigid patches of old burn scars on Snotlout’s palm, a common marking found on this island where everyone rides a fire-breathing beast. Even Eret’s got his own collection.

“Snotlout,” His voice comes out soft and meaningful, “Come back to bed,”

And Snotlout stares down at him with those eyes, those moon-drowned eyes, and it’s a stern, searching look, the same look he makes when he’s trying to figure out if an enemy is either being truthful or deceptive and Eret has yet to see Snotlout’s perception (or gut) to be proven wrong. Even in this half-awoken state, Eret feels his skin crawl and there’s a coldness in his chest, like his soul is retracting from the stark, glacial stare, he feels like he’s being judged. Is this what it’s like to be judged by a ghost?

Snotlout closes his eyes (much to Eret’s relief) and expels a long sigh through his flaring nostrils, faintly resembling Hookfang when he blows smoke from his nose. When he opens his eyes again, they’re blue and Eret is far too tired to think about it. But his heart leaps gleefully when he feels Snotlout squeeze his hand and Eret squeezes back unconsciously.

“Budge,” Snotlout orders, jutting his chin towards him, but Eret, so full of pride that he past Snotlout’s cunning gaze and convinced him to come back to sleep, is already tugging the shorter onto the bed.

“Oi!” Snotlout tries to abject, but by the time he starts his head is already being pressed against the curve of the sailor’s neck and Eret has already wrapped his arms around his waist and side, both of them lying chest to chest, both of their hearts giggling together.

“Shut up, rider,” Eret grumbles sleepily, pressing his proud grin into the tasselled hair on Snotlout’s head, “Shut up and go to sleep,”

Soon Eret feels arms reluctantly swathing around his ribcage, as if their cradling the cage of his heart, and then a face nestling against his throat, it almost feels like a tender mouth ready to rip it out. Again, he hears Snotlout sigh and its neither tired nor irritated, it’s a content sigh, a gentle exhale. Eret lightly brushes his knuckles over the warm skin of Snotlout’s shoulder in an easing gesture, a voiceless lullaby, and despite his sleepiness, he does this even after Snotlout has fallen asleep.

Eret just lies there on this quiet night, feeling Snotlout’s heart beating against his, feeling very full, very whole, very free.

Many of Horror (Chapter two - That awful dream and these awful feelings)

- N O T E S -

This chapter immediately begins with a dream, so sorry if you get confused or whatever haha lol bruh! This chapter does contain mentions of referenced suicide, panic attacks, past abuse and other depressing and relatable things lol! be warned! I’m releasing this on impulse because I really wanted to give you guys more and I’m halfway done with the next chapter, which is really fucking steamy by the way so, yeah, be excited for some horizontal tango action haha lol bruh! If you enjoy, please leave a comment or a critique or whatever, I love hearing feedback about my work like any other creator! (no tea, no shade)

Also, there is terrible terror called Pain from DOB and though they’re originally male, I’ve switched them to female because I felt like it haha lol bruh!

THIS CHAPTER HAS PSYCHOLOGICAL HORROR AND POOR MENTAL HEALTH! BE FUCKING WEARY!

- C H A P T E R  S U M M A R Y -

It’s that awful dream again, he always has it when something goes wrong, when something changes suddenly. His head can’t take change, can’t take it when he messes up.

And he’s always so angry and afraid when he wakes up. Surely, he should be better by now.

He hates feeling like this, like he’s dying.

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He’s in his childhood home. He doesn’t know how he got here. They burnt that hut down years ago, a week after his father was exiled. He’s standing in front of the hearth, the fire within writhing maliciously and crackling with laughter as it mocks him don’t know where you are, little boy? You’re home, home, home- This place isn’t his home.

Snotlout doesn’t belong here.

He sniffs the air and cringes at the smell of stagnant water and old blood. Something’s died in here. Turning around, he stills at the sight of the corpse of a fawn lying mangled and blooded at the foot of the stairs, eyes bulging and guts tangled amongst its dainty legs, back so mauled that he can see the knobbly, pale arch of its spine.

Something innocent has died here, in this house, and it wasn’t her, it croaks through a swollen tongue, teeth cutting through its cheeks with each hallow word that crawls out of its twisted throat. It’s looking at him, stuck between life and death, and it’s like looking in a reflection.

A black rabbit hops down the stairs, leaping over the mutilated fawn and sitting beside it. It seems calm, serene, despite the heavy stench of blood and dead water that hangs in the air, it seems at peace amongst the smell of death. The rabbit, blacker than grief, turns its head to look at him and it’s like looking into a starless night, still and empty, but the flames appear in those eyes and dance in the blackness. An inferno in the dark.

There is something in the woods. You should go to speak to it, the black rabbit says and Snotlout can smell the blood in the air thicken, but there is still that undertone of stale water and he doesn’t know where it’s coming from.

I don’t want to speak to it, he replies honestly, voice distant and quiet, and there is something inside him that says Whatever is in that woods is something better left forgotten, its something that shouldn’t be spoken to.

But it wants to speak with you, the black rabbit replies and the fawn screams, It wants to speak with you, don’t disappoint, be quick, don’t be weak, it wants to speak with you, don’t become the shame, hurry, it waits, don’t make it wait, it wants to speak with you, don’t disappoint, no rest for the innocent, hurry shameful boy, it wants to speak with you-

The fawn just keeps screaming. Glimmering scarlet gathers beneath its yapping jaw as more flesh is ripped from its cheeks, teeth not meant to taste blood flashing through the torn fur and cutting deep into its purple tongue, its blind eyes rolling to the back of their sockets and revealing thin, throbbing veins. It screams and screams like a tortured thing begging for death, yet still, it hangs on to the faint pulse in its heart. The black rabbit looks to the wailing fawn, then back to him.

Come to the woods. Let the innocent one scream in peace, the black rabbit says softly, hopping past him, large feet thumping against the wooden floor. The fawn keeps screaming. He asks it to stop, politely too, but he must have been too quiet. Still, it screams and screams.

A white light catches his eyes and he looks up to the landing where the stairs lead. There is a door there, left a jar and spilling blinding white light in a rectangular beacon. Steam rolls from underneath the door and through the gap, it is tinged red and smells of stale water, of dead blood. That door leads to the washroom.

To the woods, he’ll go to the woods, he says simply, turning away from the screaming fawn whose body refuses to die and the door that leads to a room of blood and water.

Snotlout doesn’t belong there.

He follows the black rabbit into the old wood. The trees are tall and black, reaching towards the terribly blue sky like their hungry for the sun, and their thin branches scrape against his bare arms like ghosts begging for a body to live in. Spring flowers and damp ferns brush against his legs and they also feel like hands, softer but still starving, still wanting. He follows the black rabbit, not because he wants to but because he has to.

It wants to speak with you, he hears the fawn scream in the distance.

He stops walking and stands very still, like a dear caught in an ambush. A few yards ahead in a sunlit clearing is a copper bathtub. That shouldn’t be here, in the middle of the woods, it should be back at the house, in the washroom. The black rabbit runs ahead, a dark shadow against the pale grass, and disappears behind the tub.

Just like Snotlout, it doesn’t belong here.

He walks closer and he smells it again. That smell of damp death. He can taste it now too, it’s so strong, a coppery, stale wash across his tongue, between his teeth, down his throat. It’s what he imagines it’s like biting into a dead fish, all rotten blood and foul water. Suddenly his feet are bare, they make a slapping sound as he walks and he looks down to see that the ground is flooded with an inch of water. It looks dirty, wrong, tainted.

There’s an arm hanging over the side of the bath tub. Was that there before he looked down? He can’t remember, but it shouldn’t be there. The hand is ivory in pallor, bone-pale, and two long gashes run up the inner arm from wrist to elbow. Dark blood drips from the nimble fingertips, the sound a soft drip, drip, drip as it hits the sodden soil. The trees ache and groan, they feast on the given blood through their gnarling roots that toil the black, wet earth and he thinks that they are alive. Alive and hungry.

Just like Snotlout, it doesn’t belong there.

For some strange reason, he wants to hold that blood-slick hand. He imagines like that’s what home feels like, cradled in her scarlet palms, gathered in her savaged arms. Her. When did it become a her? His heart told him so, oh Gods, he’s so confused.

He stands at the foot of the copper tub and looks inside, expecting to see a woman with a painfully familiar face. But all he sees is blood. From bottom to brim, the tub is full of almost-black blood that glimmers red from the dappled sunlight above. The taste of blood on his tongue is so heavy that he thinks he might have a mouth full of it. A mouth full of blood and a heart full of water.

A single eye opens amongst the ocean of blood and he stares at it. It’s pale and blue like a blue jay’s feathers, like the terribly blue sky. He recognises those eyes, they look like his, just dead.

Always had her eyes, comes a snarling drawl and he spins around to see a great bear, stood tall and proud on the trunk of a fallen tree. He knows this place, he knows that tree, oh no, Gods, not this place. Great currents of slobber drool from the crooked mouth of the bear, sharp teeth yellow and glistening as a long tongue works around words it shouldn’t be possibly speaking. Bears can’t talk, but neither can black rabbits and mauled fawns.

It wants to speak with him.

Always had her eyes, wished I cut ‘em out, the bear slurs as it slams a clawed paw down upon the tree, white bark spraying everywhere and he watches as those black claws curl deeper into the soft bark. He cut that tree years ago, a month after his father left, he cut it down and screamed.

Yer sick, boyo, there's somethin' festerin’ inside ye, the bear bellows, spit flying and it leaves his ears ringing. He presses his hands to the side of his head and shakes it furiously. He’s gone, he got rid of him, he’s never coming back.

The bear laughs and it is a horrible sound, like cracking whips, like splitting flesh. I never left ye, lad, I’m always with ye, in that messed up head of yers, just as weak as yer mother’s was, just as easy to break, the bear steps closer, further shredding the bark from the tree, and he is full of so much fear that it feels like there is a rabid animal in his chest. His hands feel heavy all of a sudden and he looks down to see that they’re covered in blood, bright, terrible blood that falls from his fingers in great ribbons of scarlet that darken the water. The blood never stops oozing, like there is a great gash in his palms, but he can’t help thinking that this isn’t his blood. His heart is so scared, it’s going to climb up his throat and out his mouth so it can run away.

No nono no nono no no no no no- She wasn’t weak, she was brave, she was the strongest shield-maiden Berk has ever seen, she was-

WEAK! The bear roars, the sun in the sky trembles like it will fall, SHE WAS WEAK AND ILL, AND SHE’S GIVEN IT TO YE, SHE’S MADE YE SICK AND FOUL WITH WEAKNESS! The fallen tree flies across the clearing with a powerful swipe of its clawed paw and Snotlout watches it come closer, fearsome and monstrous and ugly, lips rolled up to reveal those gnashing teeth that glisten with starved spit, eyes blazing with an unimaginable evil. He looks down and sees that his hands are bound with rope, rope that burns and stings and cuts as he tries to escape, to run away.

YE WILL NEVER GET AWAY FROM ME, BOYO, IM YER OLD MAN AND YER MY SHAMEFUL SON, THE BOY WHO COULD NEVER GET IT RIGHT!

The bear rears back onto its back legs and its maw opens so wide that the flesh tears and the jaw breaks, leaving it and its tongue to hang loosely. A tremendous bellow fills the woods and the trees quiver, the earth quakes. Blood pours onto the heaving furred chest and streams down with a wet sound to the half-flooded earth, the already murky water staining pink. He stares up at the beast and gazes down its gaping throat, he has never felt so full of dread before.

Suddenly, the great bear begins to fall and he lets out a horrified scream as that open maw, that black throat, descends upon him. He leaps back into the copper tub to escape and finds himself consumed by blood.

Snotlout doesn’t belong anywhere.

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Snotlout wakes up, screaming and falling.

He hits the floor with a sudden abruptness that knocks the air from his lungs and the scream still crawling from his throat comes to a stuttering halt, choking coughs now filling the blackness of his room. But that blackness soon retreats as the great blazing head of Hookfang forces its way through the skylight windows, looking around hastily before settling his cautious eyes on Snotlout, who lies pathetically on the floor beside his bed. The dragon crawls into his room and lowers the flame on his hide as Pain kindles a few candles in a short, fiery breath.

The dream? It came again? Hookfang rumbles, curling his large body up and resting his head on Snotlout’s lap, expelling easing smoke from his nostrils. The violet Terror crawls swiftly from her nest of charred tunics and other burnt fabrics on the dresser to nestle herself close to his side, her usual fiery temper simmering down to accommodate to his sensitive nerves. His skin is caked in a layer of cold sweat but he feels so hot, like a furnace is blazing inside him, like a fever is boiling beneath his flesh. It leaves him shivering.

“Yeah, yeah it did,” He responds, voice rough and cracked, breathing in the warm scent of smoke so it can overwhelm the still lingering smell of blood and water (it was a dream, but it follows him when he’s awake, it echoes around him like a ghost).

Rubbing a hand over the side of his face, Snotlout tries to collect his thoughts and rid the dream from his memory, tries to think about other things, tries to distract himself before he starts to feel… the Itch. But then he remembers the blood. Not the blood in the bathtub or the fawn-blood at the bottom of the stairs, but the blood on his hands, that heavy blood, that blood that wasn’t his. With panic rising in his throat, he lays his hands before him and inspects them with sharp eyes, expecting to see blood crusted in his callouses or dug beneath his nails, something to show that it was real. But there is no blood, there never is. But the candles flicker from a rogue breeze and in the shifting shadows, his hands go red and a scream is already gathering in his chest because, oh Gods, the blood is real and that means it was all real and the tub is in the woods and the bear- Oh Gods, not the bear- He’s back and he’s in the woods! A distant howl rings through his ear; He wants to speak with you! Hurry-

A guttural sound breaks the maddening spell Snotlout had caught himself in and he blinks, but he doesn’t stop staring in fear at his hands, they look clean now but in the dark, in the dark the blood comes and the hungry things in the shadows can smell it. Pain rises onto her hind legs and begins to lick at his hands, cleaning them thoroughly with her forked tongue, soft sounds chittering in the back of her lithe throat. No blood, see? I taste no blood, so there is none.

“I know,” He chokes out, the breath stuck in his chest forcing itself out harshly, and he sooths a hand over her head in a thankful gesture, her purple scales silk-like and warm beneath his palm, “I know, Pain,”

Hookfang’s purring fills the room like thunder. Snotlout can feel it in the floor, in his bones, a gentle tremble throughout his body that helps him try and regain his focus. Pain, always quick to doze off, starts to purr a lighter and chipper sound in her sleep. They know the routine; it’s been going on for years.

Snotlout sighs and wishes he was normal, wishes he didn’t have these awful, repetitive nightmares and these violent urges and these ugly thoughts. Wishes he could deal with it alone because it’s less trouble for the others, both his dragons and his friends, he wishes he wasn’t such a bother to them. He wishes he could go back, back before it all happened, and be the old him, be that innocent child before he died in the house.

Gods, he wishes Eret was here.

Eret is so good at getting Snotlout out of his head, whether it be by fucking him or talking to him or just by simply sitting with him, no one knows how to ease the wrongness in his head better than Eret. But, to Snotlout’s displeasure, Eret is traversing the archipelago on this good deed and Snotlout is here, alone and rotting. Damn the Gods, he hates feeling like this.

“Four times this week I’ve had that stupid dream, Hookfang, four times!” He emphasises this by holding up four fingers to the dragon, who nods in response with another plume of smoke to ease his frustration, “If this keeps up, I’m not going to be on top of my game, you know? And I bet Hiccup will notice like he notices everything, and he’ll ask if I’m okay and I’ll tell him fine and then I’ll feel bad because I lied and-”

Stopping abruptly, Snotlout shoves his face into his hands and screams as hard and as loud as he can, he feels it ripping through his throat. It’s lucky that he built his house so far away from anyone else. There is a crawling feeling moving across his flesh and its making him want to do something really stupid, something he’ll regret, something weak. Hookfang croons at him, lifting his head as Snotlout draws his legs up to his chest, his left leg bouncing rapidly. Rudely awoken, Pain rubs her horned-head lightly against his side in attempt to sooth him.

Not Snotlout fault, Snotlout done nothing wrong, Hookfang reassures as he rubs his lower jaw over Snotlout’s dishevelled hair, deep purrs vibrating throughout his body as he tries to sooth the harsh, ugly scents that pour from the Viking.

Yes, Snotlout done no bad, we promise, no bad has been done tonight, the Terror adds in earnest, nipping affectionately at his tunic as she hums to him.

“I know, I know,” He snarls into his palms, both legs now bouncing as he digs his blunt nails into his browbone, “But I will, I will, I’ll fuck up again and I’ll need it again,”

The dark thing in his head swells like a storm-sodden cloud and it thunders and rumbles and cracks behind his eyes, sending jolts of impulsive, disgusting thoughts through his head.

TEAR OUT YOUR EYES. FLAY YOUR SKIN. RIP OUT YOUR NAILS. KILL THEM BOTH.

He shakes his head violently, as if he could through them from his mind, and pulls his hands away from his face, fingers twitching and palms sweating. There have been nights where the smallest temptation sets him loose.

Go see Hiccup, he will help, he will give you council, Hookfang advices as always, but Snotlout, for the fourth night in a row, dismisses the idea with a savage scowl and a dark look in his eyes.

“I can’t run to Hiccup every time I want to hurt myself-”

The words trigger a reaction and in a sudden moment of impulse, Snotlout slams his fist into the floor, the wood splintering beneath the impact and his knuckles sting as they’re impaled with shards of wood. Pain makes shrieks at the loud impact and immediately goes to his injured hand to clean it but Snotlout makes a snarling sound and wraps his arms tightly around his chest, as if he’s trying to secure them so they can’t do any more damage. She snorts disapprovingly at him but she knows he will ask for help when he wants it, so she curls up at his side again, jasper eyes only half-closed.

“Or to anyone, for that matter! I’m not a kid anymore, okay?! I’m Twenty-two, I’m an adult. Everyone’s got their own problems and I’m not going to burden them with mine, not when I can deal with them myself,” Hookfang, as well as Pain, lets out a scoff at that and he doesn’t flinch at the death-stare thrown his way, which doesn’t surprise Snotlout but it still damages his ego a bit.

“I can! I don’t need you, or Hiccup, or anyone! You understand me, you stupid dragon!? I don’t need anyone, not even Eret!”

But the fury in his voice catches in his throat at the mention of Eret and again Snotlout is full of the overwhelming sense of loneliness that has flooded him since he left Berk. His heart, the traitorous thing, aches at the mere thought of him and his hands, the stupid things, feel so empty without someone to hold on to.

He doesn’t know why he’s denying the obvious truths in his life. That’s something the old him used to do, the angry boy who suffered alone because he believed he deserved it, because he thought asking for help was below him. Snotlout isn’t that angry boy anymore, no, he understands the wrongs that were done to him and understands that asking for help isn’t a weak thing. But old habits die hard, he guesses.

Without a shadow of a doubt, he needs Hookfang and Hiccup and, by the Gods, he doesn’t just need Eret, he wants him. And it’s beautiful because Eret wants him back and Snotlout is always left in awe at that.

“I’m being stupid again, aren’t I?” Snotlout mumbles sadly, looking up to see Hookfang gazing down at him, orange eyes unimpressed, and he nods his head with an additional snort to support his answer. He looks down to see Pain stood rigidly beside him, tiny-lethal teeth bared and arrow-head tail darting left and right, and to further prove her wrath, she lurches forward and give him a shallow slash of her claws. It doesn’t even cut the skin, just leaves three white lines on his forearms.

Snotlout exhales through a thin laugh, but the guilt is still heavy in his blood.

“I’m sorry, you guys, I’m not feeling myself again, with these dreams coming back and Eret gone. I just wish I could, you know, deal with things normally,”

Forgiving Snotlout, Hookfang again lowers his head and presses it up against Snotlout’s drawn up legs, Pain too scuttles back to her place at Snotlout’s side, teething devotedly on the corner of his tunic. A chill draft wafts in through the open windows and cools Snotlout’s skin, which feel hot and tight.

We understand, Snotlout miss mate and the bad dreams back, We understand, Hookfang grumbles reassuringly, tendrils of smoke rising from flared nostrils, and he watches as Snotlout lifts his injured hand, slowly picking out the splinters in his knuckles with a look of deep focus on his face.

“I’ll be back to my old self soon, pal, I just-”

He pauses, hissing as he methodically drags out a long splinter from the flesh between his index and middle knuckle. Holding it up against the candlelight, he marvels at the half-inch long shard of wood that had been nestled his flesh, thick syrupy blood dripping from the splinter onto his lap.

The pain that spreads across his hand and flares up his arm feels good, harsh and familiar and good, it brings a sigh of relief to his lips. The pain feels like absolution. His previous wrongs have been righted in the hotness of pain.

Then, Hookfang’s nostrils quiver and his head shoots up quickly, turning to the open skylight with his teeth bared and eyes narrowed., Pain too takes up an offensive stance with ferocious growls unfurling in her throat. Snotlout swallows thickly when he hears the heavy beating of wings outside, his stomach twisting in anxiety because no one should be here, no one is supposed to see him like this, not tonight. He wants to be alone tonight. The roof creaks when a great weight settles upon it, dust pouring down to the floor in chalky streams. He stares wide-eyed and apprehensive at the square-view of the black night, heart pounding because something inside him is say he’s back, he’s back and he’s going to take you to the woods.

But instead, Cloudjumper’s head peers into the room, owlish eyes gazing down at him with a curious concern.

Why are you here? Hookfang spits lowly, his tail swishing in a display of irritation, Yes! Why Four-Wing here?! Not allowed! Go or Die! Pain adds hotly, tiny wings thrashing as she claws threateningly into the floor.

Cloudjump, amused and unafraid, snorts at Hookfang’s brashness and Pain’s threats, replying with a garbled I heard screaming, it sounded painful, so help has come.

“Help isn’t needed right now, thank you, bye,” He says crassly, arms wrapping around his chest defensively as he glares up at the Storm-Cutter, who stares back with soft eyes, completely ignoring the yapping Terror and the glaring Nightmare.

“Oh, I don’t know about that,” comes a serene voice and Snotlout watches as Valka descends downs into his room, perched on Cloudjumper’s clawed wing. She easily steps off and steps forth to cradle Hookfang’s jaw, the moody Nightmare instantly melting in her gentle touch. Pain forgets immediately why she was angry and scuttles swiftly to Valka, winding between her ankles like an affectionate alley cat begging for love (or food).

While crooning at the puppy-eyed Terror, Valka looks to Snotlout with a soft and reassuring expression, her eyes glimmering in the candlelight as they gloss over with empathy. She can see the tears stains that have yet to dry, see the stress and the tiredness and the fear. Snotlout stares back, jaw set and muscles stiff, she isn’t meant to be here.

“You look like ye need a bit of help there, dear,” Valka says as she crouches down, half crawling towards him, agile fingers gracing the floor.

It’s the same movement she does when she meets a dragon who’s wild and scared, ready to strike out in fear with its teeth bared and claws flexing. He feels a bit of pride that he’s seen as a deadly thing, but then he remembers that he doesn’t want to be feared anymore, that he doesn’t want to hurt anyone.

Oh but you do, don’t you? You think about it, you imagine blood and you hunger for the taste. People are traitorous creatures and they deserve-

“Snotlout,”

The voice knocks the grating snarl from his head and Snotlout looks up to see Valka crouched a few feet before him, cautious yet calm as she gazes questioningly at him. Can I come closer? She asks with her eyes, eyes that are so painfully familiar to him.

Those are his mother’s eyes right there. Sister eyes.

He nods his head once, lungs still seized and heart still shaking, and then he nods again, firmer this time, trying to be braver because, Gods, it’s only Valka, his aunt, his heart-mother. Snotlout shouldn’t be afraid of her. But she’s got a heart full of kindness and that has always scared him, kindness.

Kindness was an unfamiliar hand to younger him and it was easier to cling onto the hand that beat him, the familiar closed fist that promised tough love would make a man out of him. He’d bite the hand of kindness because it was a stranger’s hand, he didn’t know kindness.

But that was years ago, that angry boy who bit and spat at empathy is no more and Snotlout can now gather the courage to ask for kindness, sometimes he doesn’t even have to ask. Still, it always leaves a tightness in his chest because… What does he do with all that kindness? Where does he put all the love given to him? In his heart, his black, scarred, twisted heart? No, but then where?

A hand, soft-skinned and porous-boned, cards through the hair on the back of his head and the trapped air is liberated from his seizing lungs, falling from his lips in a long, shaky exhale. He blinks the blurriness from his eyes and turns to sees Valka sat beside him with Pain coiled in her lap, a very gentle look on a face as she looks at him.

“A very bad habit that, gettin’ lost in ye head. I’m afraid ye might get it from me, you know, Hiccup’s always gettin’ himself roped up in his thoughts too.” She says quietly, as if she’s scared she’ll spook him if she speaks too loud, “Ye both think too much,”

He laughs at that, a dry, humourless laugh that’s sounds gravely and dark in the back of his scorned throat.

“You know, I’ve been told I do the exact opposite of thinking too much,” Snotlout replies, flexing his bloodied hand in front of him and revelling in the stinging pain that ripples through his nerves.

The deeper cuts on his knuckles have oozed heavy rivulets of blood down his fingers and have seeped into the callouses on his palms, a few veins of red have even made their way down his bare forearm. He looks down at the brilliant red and it looks like he’s killed someone, or something. This is the blood of his guilt.

Valka’s breath hisses as she inhales through her teeth, her hands reaching forward and cradling his gently as she looks over the weeping wounds. The careful gesture leaves him with goosebumps, it’s the distinctive touch of a mother’s hand. A hand he has longed to hold since he was a child.

“Yer stronger than ye realise, Snotlout, goin’ to hurt ye'self badly one of these days,” Valka whispers and Snotlout swallows, swallows the horrible urge to scream in her face-

THAT’S THE POINT! DON’T YOU UNDERSTAND?! I NEED TO! IT’LL MAKE ALL THAT GUILT GO AWAY IF IT HURTS BAD! THE PAIN, OH SWEET, FAMILIAR PAIN! IT STOPS ME FROM RUNNING BECAUSE IF I START, I WON’T BE ABLE TO STOP! I'LL RUN AWAY AND NEVER COME BACK!

Snotlout swallows all those terrible truths and oh how they swoon in his gut, like flocks of terrible birds in a terrible cage. It’s all so terrible.

“Can’t help it, you know, I’m brawn and no brains, all that stuff,” He smiles awkwardly, watching her inspect his bruising knuckles and pick out the smaller splinters he missed. The pain is small, a petty penance.

“Well, I know that’s not true, not when I see ye and Hiccup planning our raids-” Valka stands up and starts to roam around the room, stepping over Hookfang’s smoking snout to get to the chest at the foot of Snotlout’s bed, “You’re a great strategist and I have never known a time where your instincts have failed us,”

Pain steps onto his lap and begins to clean the bloody cuts, Snotlout lets her and places a hand on her back between her wings, thumbing at a soft spot along her spine. She chitters gratefully. The chest opens with a quiet sound and Valka delves her hands inside, rummaging for a few moments before retrieving a bundle of bandages.

It’s common knowledge among the gang where he keeps all his belongings, they all basically know his house better than he does at this point. It seems that so does Valka.

Hookfang grunts and babbles randomly as he shifts in his sleep, dragging his head across the floor and making Valka’s journey back more hazardous, but she deals with it with as much grace as a woman who’s lived amongst bumbling dragons for over twenty years. Curious, Snotlout looks to the skylight and sees Cloudjumper observing Valka with that fond and comfortable look he sometimes catches Hookfang giving him. The ceiling heaves with the Storm-Cutter’s great breaths, it looks the house is alive, alive and breathing.

Alive and hungry.

“Now let’s get these wrapped up, eh?” Valka crouches down in front of him, bandages weaved between her fingers as she gestures for his hand. “And in the mornin’ ye’ll go to Gothi, understood? Or I’ll send Hiccup after ye,”

Snotlout snorts as he nods in understanding, keenly watching the first layer of bandaging being folded over his knuckles, red blooming on white before disappearing beneath the next layer. The pressure against the more vicious cuts is morbidly pleasant to him.

They’re both quiet as she wraps his hand, nothing but the soft sound of their breathing and the rumbling tones of Hookfang’s snores to fill the silence. He looks are Valka now, really looks at her, and he really does see that they were sisters, her and his mum, he can see it in her the pale blue of her eyes, in the auburn tumble of her hair, in the gentle curve of her face.

He remembers his mum now, remembers her in a memory from when he was seven and it was the heart of winter, cold and grey outside and warm and amber inside. She was sat by the hearth, fletching her arrows and polishing her bow as he watched her with the wide-eyed curiosity of a child, chewing his lips as a question flickered in his head.

“Mum?” She hums in acknowledgment, fire glistening in her eyes and haloing the tresses of her hair (She’d always remove her braids when she came home for the night, usually it was twisted into a beautiful fauxhawk braid), “Did you make your bow?”

She’d paused then, the rag in her hand stilling along the agile wood, and looked up at him with a terrible sadness in her eyes. They no longer looked blue, they looked grey, drained of all warmth. They looked like the winter sky. He remembers feeling sad too.

“No,” She replied, a smile on her lips, but it was sad too and Snotlout didn’t understand how a smile could be sad, smiles were supposed to happy things (he knows better now), “Your aunt Valka made it, but not for more me, no, I used to be awful at archery,”

“I don’t believe you,” He’d gasped loudly, “You’re the best archer on Berk! Dad said you could hold a bow before you could walk!” She’d laughed at that, deep and hearty.

“Your dad’s a fool, Lout, haven’t I told you that before?”

Oh, mum, he was more than a fool. He was a monster in hiding and when you died he stopped hiding from me, he hid from everyone else but he didn’t hide from me. I saw the beast, I saw him alone and I looked into his eyes and saw evil and the evil looked into me. Mum, I should have listened to you. Mum, mum… please mum.

“Your aunt was the best before me, you know? Taught me that to hold a bow is like to hold the wind, you have to be gentle and focused, precise, true to your heart that you only need one shot,” His mum ghosted a hand over the dark wood of the bow, caressing it as if it were a lover’s arching neck, and Snotlout had scooted closer looking at the finer details carved long the upper and lower limbs of the bow. They looked like dragons, like the outlined silhouettes of Nightmares and Nadders and Zipplebacks soaring together in a blazing herd.

“What was Aunt Valka like? Was she, like, a great warrior like you too?” He’d asked hesitantly, his mum always got that awful dampness in her eyes whenever she spoke of her passed-on sister.

“Valka wasn’t much of a fighter, no,” His mum shook her head, gazing deep into the cackling hearth, “She had a tender heart on her, wore it on her sleeve night and day, and it made her… different, but she didn’t care,” A smile crawled across her face, mirthful and nostalgic, “She was stubborn and her kindness did not mean weakness, remember that, Lout, It’s not weak to be kind,”

I’m sorry, mum. I forgot. He made me forget. I’m sorry, I remember now.

The memory comes to an end, his mother’s fire-lit figure swimming from his mind as he focuses his eyes back onto Valka’s lithe fingers as they pin the bandages down and he remembers that bow for the first time in years. A grief fills him when he remembers what fate that great weapon met, snapped in two by hateful hands and thrown to the hungry hearth as his father spat she was weak, like her sister, they’re both dead because they were weak!

Snotlout wants to apologize to Valka but then he’ll have to explain the soft memory of his mum’s sad eyes and the angry memory of his dad’s bared teeth. The spitting embers as wood is consumed, as a relic is ruined in the flames.

“Were you surprised… When you found out?” He says instead and it’s a question that’s been brewing in his head for years.

Valka leans back onto her calves and gives him a confused look, tilting her head as she glides a hand along Hookfang’s snout.

“Found out about what?”

“About-” He swallows firmly, ridding himself of the swollen lump in his throat, “-about my mum, your sister… Where you surprised- no, not surprised but… Shocked? When you found out how she… How she died?”

The question leaves the air thick and suspenseful; it leaves his chest tight (or maybe that’s the anxiety because he’s never talked to Valka about how his mum died and this feels like forbidden territory). He doesn’t want to upset her but there are questions, fears, in his head that need to be answered because they’re keeping him up at night.

Valka opens her mouth then closes it again, voice lost and words unwilling. Instead, she worries her lower lip and turns her gaze to the floor, looking between the wood panelling as of it holds the answer she needs. He doesn’t rush her, Snotlout understands it’s an awful question to answer, his stomach always goes in knots whenever Hiccup or Eret try to push him into talking about things. They don’t force him, of course, but they believe it’ll help with that heaviness on his chest. Snotlout can’t say he agrees with them but he plays along now and again.

“I… I wasn’t… Expectin’ to see her again,” Valka starts slowly, “when I left Berk, I had no intentions of returnin’ so I had already mourned her, in a way, but… But I had hoped she’d live on happily, without me causing trouble for her to get me out of,”

A breathy chuckle comes from her and her eyes are sad too, but they aren’t cold like how his mum’s used to get, no, they still have that dragon-fire warmth. He’s glad about that. Valka rubs her hands along her thighs and she gives him a kind smile that is the mirror image of his mother’s. It leaves his heart swollen and aching.

“When Stoick told me… I wasn’t as… Shocked as I should have been, but it was still a blow to the heart, she was my big sister, the person I admired and went to when I was scared,” Valka speaks softly, as if she’s lost in a distant memory, “It’s terrible bein’ the one left behind,”

He nods his head in agreement because, yes, it is. There is no greater loss than being the one left alive, being the other half who escaped the flames. Scarred, ruined, but alive, not with them in those great halls, with that great music, drinking that great peace. Yes, it is lonely to be alive.

“Your mother was a brave woman and I see that same braveness in you too,” Valka extends a hand and touches her fingers to his chest, over the place that homes his heart, and he feels a swell of pride in that.

“But I also see the same sadness she had,” She brings her hand up and her touch ghosts under his eye.

He inhales sharply and turns from her touch, feeling ashamed because he hates it when people see the things he tries to hide most. It leaves him vulnerable and weak, naked and defenceless; they can touch him where it hurts most, they can see all that foulness, they can expose him for the rotten thing that he is.

But she’s right. Sometimes he’ll catch his reflection and he never really sees himself. He either sees the sorrow-blue of his mother’s eyes or the jaded-wrath of his father’s face. He never sees himself; he doesn’t quite know who he is.

“I see it too,” He admits quietly, eyes stuck on the floor where he had struck, the wood bent and splintered, cratered, and there is something inside him that says you shouldn’t have been able to do that, you shouldn’t be that strong, something is wrong with you, something is festering inside of you and it’s A N G R Y.

“It doesn’t make you weak, Snotlout, that sadness,” She says and he looks up at her from beneath his brow, jaw clenched as he tries to resit the urge to rip off his bandages and scratch feverishly at his wounds, “A weak person wouldn’t have been able to survive all those years with what he was doing to you,”

Ten years he’s been torturing you, Hiccup’s voice cuts in suddenly in his head, how are you still alive, Lout?

His reply to that had been dismissive and mumbled, but in his head, he was saying I don’t know, I don’t think I am alive. I think my body refuses to die, but inside I’m rotting, I’m supposed to be dead but I’m not, my body won’t allow it.

Gathering his words, gathering his confidence, Snotlout straightens his back and sighs harshly.

“But it’s been two years since he left, since he last took me into the woods, and I still feel… like an open wound, you know?” He starts quietly, the scarred skin beneath his tunic reacting to his words like they understand and he tries to not to fidget at the crawling feeling that spreads across his torso. It makes his chest tighter, the itching feeling that drives him to do something rash, violent, mad, so it will all stop.

“Shouldn’t I be better by now? Shouldn’t I be normal? Fuck, I think- No, I know I’ve gotten worse since he left and it doesn’t make sense!” His words begin to get frantic as he speaks more, as he pours his heart out to someone who might be able to help, and his eyes sting with tears because he’s so frustrated, so confused, so angry.

A delirious haze falls over him and he starts babbling and crying and yelling, begging it all to go away as he brings his hands to the side of his head, gripping at his hair and pulling painfully. Usually the pain would ease him, as morbid as that sounds, but he is so mad with this mental fever that it doesn’t even register and he can’t see, his eyes heavy with tears that fall and never stop falling.

“I don’t want to feel like this anymore! I want it to stop!” Snotlout begs in a shallow breath, voice loud in his ears and echoing, a howl in the empty night, and his chest feels tight and heavy, it’s full of that foulness and it’s crushing his lungs. It’s happening, it’s all going wrong and he can’t stop it, he can’t even breathe, how can he stop it if he can’t breathe?!

He barely feels the arms that encircle him, hardly hears the soothing voice, the chittering purr, the easing rumble. He’s stuck in his head, in his loud and sick head, and the waves of impeding doom that wash over him are sending his heart mad, everything is going too fast yet not fast enough, he want’s it all to be over. Snotlout tugs at his hair, pants like a rabid beast amongst the keens and indecipherable begging, shivers and shakes. He feels like he’s dying.

“Yer alright, my dear boy, yer alright,” The gentle voice reassures and he almost believes it.

Hands cradle his face and they are so soft, so kind, they can’t be his hands, his hands were so hard, so cruel. They come for him in the night, and they come with a grinning evil that laughs like a bag full of bones, hallow and wrong. But these wind-touched hands, these love-soaked fingers, they won’t laugh or claw or hurt, they only hold with a great tenderness that has felled beasts. They swipe away the tumbling tears and ease the furrows from his brow, a face presses against his scalp and he feels a kiss being placed there, a kind whisper ghosting through his hair.

Snotlout, unknowingly, rocks back and forth in Valka’s arms like a child during a storm, tear-stained and afraid and confused, believing that this is the end of everything.

Slowly, surely, the haze begins to lift and Snotlout is free from the gross confines of his head. His heartbeat eases to a loud but easing beat that thrums in his ears and he can feel his lungs expand with each breath he takes, no long constricting beneath an invisible weight. The world around him comes back to view and he’s met with wide, draconic eyes that stared fearfully into his, Hookfang lets out an uncharacteristic whimper as he bumps his head against Snotlout’s heaving chest.

Snotlout breathing now, Snotlout okay, coos Pain as she scuttles along his neck and Hookfang snarls weakly at her, rumbling I know, I’ve seen before, I know Snotlout okay, I know. But it’s still scary. That part goes unsaid.

“I’m okay, Fang, It’s-” Snotlout tries to swallow the panting breaths, tries to slow his breathing, “It’s over now,”

The feeling of hands carding gently through his hair helps the tightness in his throat to loosen and the stiffness in his bones to lax, it’s a familiar gesture that Eret always finds himself doing when they’re together. But these are hands are small and soft, while Eret’s are big and rough. These hands are Valka’s and they are just as welcomed as Eret’s.

“How about we go for a flight?” Valka encourages as she stands on her feet, glancing up to the Storm-Cutter who watches from above before looking back down to him, “The sky is cool tonight and Me and Cloudjumper wouldn’t mind the company,”

Snotlout thinks for a moment before he nods and easily lifts himself up, rolling his shoulders and neck to relive the tension pent up in his muscles.

“Alright,” Is all he says and Valka beams down at him as she steps onto Cloudjumper’s extended claw, her partner lifting her up through the skylight.

Hookfang too readies himself and briefly looks begrudgingly to the purple Terror perched on top of his left horn, her wings spread smugly and claws flexing excitedly. He doesn’t bother saddling up, he’s gone without one before so many times that at this point, he finds it almost easier to fly bareback. It feels more free. With a calm sigh, he clambers expertly onto Hookfang’s lowered neck and looks up into the dark night, at the waxing moon, at the winking stars.

He closes his eyes and takes to the sky.

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THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READY! YOU’RE A BEAUTIFUL BITCH/BASTARD AND I HOPE YOU GET LAID VERY SOON (if you’re of age, of course)

Many of Horror (Chapter one: This secret goodbye)

Fandom - How to train your dragon (movie franchise)

Ship - Eretlout (+ background relationships)

Wordcount - 3748 words

Fanfic summary - Moving on is hard, especially from something that doesn’t want to be forgotten. But it’s easier when you have someone with you who understands that mind-scarring agony, it’s easier when someone will hold you in the dark when all the monsters come out to play, it’s easier when you’re loved. But Eret is going overseas and Snotlout is left alone in a cold bed. 

The dream is back and he feels sick. Sick in the head. (I really can’t think of a good summary for this, so sorry my dudes)

Tags/Warnings for this chapter - Mentions of past child abuse

So I have yet to finish this Fic yet but I’m just so excited to show it to yall that i just had to give you a little teaser!!! This fic takes place a year after HTTYD3 but the dragons never leave and Stoick never died because Hiccup deserved a whole family for more than one day (Dreamworks, i’m talking to you asshole)!

Also please check out The colour of friendship by Sarahenany and The colour of family by Thurdsday26 on the Archive because it they are big inspirations for this fic and if you love Spitelout bashing and Snotlout whump and found family then, oh boy, that is truly the jackpot of all Snotlout whump fics! Also, the title of this fic is based on the song Many of Horror by Biffy Clyro and this to the first like three lines and you’ll understand why! 

Please enjoy and give me any feedback that you have, negative or positive, do not hold back bitches!!!! Haha lol bruh

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Eret is leaving today, but he’ll be back in a few weeks, a month maximum if the summer storms keep at bay (Ruffnut prayed briefly to Thor before bed last night. She doesn’t know why; it was an impulse thing). He, along with six other crewmates, will be sailing far up north to the port-island he once called home to establish a trading route for Berk and to perhaps arrange a meeting between Chief Stoick and the chief of his native village. The Northmen are good people, Eret had reassured during a council a week back, who’ve long been held under the sole of Drago’s boot and will gladly reward those who levered that pressure with both miscellaneous goods and a long-lasting alliance.

The only problem with this grand adventure is that they’ll have to travel dragon-less.

The Northmen too have been terrorised by dragons for generations and they will not hesitate to net, bludgeon, and flay the first dragon they see, even if said dragon has a rider on their back. Act first and ask later kind of folk, a mindset which Ruffnut is very familiar with. Eret predicts that the concept of living with dragons in peace and harmony is one his people will be suspicious of for a time, but he assures that they’ll warm up to it eventually. So, the first few trips will be dragon-less and slowly they’ll weasel their Berkian values in, a very cunning plan indeed if Ruff didn’t say so herself.

So today is the day of departure and she’s on her way to the docks for the send-off, alone for a change. Tuffnut, eager to be out the house and tired of waiting for her to finish braiding her hair, had nabbed Barf and Belch and left her on her lonesome to walk. At first, she’d been peeved to all Hel, rightfully so, muttering to herself about how easier life would be without her dolt of a twin till she remembered just how peaceful, well, peace was. As vexing as Tuff is, Ruff cannot deny her sibling love for him, but she also cannot deny the simple serene beauty of silence.

She’s striding down a street of huts, the docks insight, when she hears a terribly familiar voice.

“You better be back in two weeks, if you’re not, I’m coming after you,”

Snotlout.

Ruff pauses mid-stride and takes a step back, looking into a narrow alleyway between two huts. She steps closer and presses herself against the left hut wall, slyly peeking her head out to gaze searchingly into the shadowed alley where she’d definitely heard Snotlout’s voice. As mad as she is (and she is mad), she isn’t to the point of hearing imaginary voices in the shadows (not for a few years, at least).

There. Stuck between a wall and a bulky silhouette, is the short and distinctive shadow of Snotlout Jorgensen. The figure Snotlout is pressed against lets out a hushed laugh, head bowing and if wasn’t for that laugh, she’d definitely be able to identify him solely for the dark outline of his facial profile.

Eret, Son of Eret.

Oh, this… This is interesting, very interesting indeed.

“No promises, we might have to delay returning if we see a storm on the horizon,” Eret informs and Snotlout makes a displeased snort, to which Eret adds in response, “But if we don’t then, we’ll be back as soon as we can. Snotlout, you won’t even know I’ve left,”

“It already feels like you’ve left me,” Snotlout murmurs, head hung low, and it catches Ruffnut by surprise, that statement because it’s such a vulnerable thing for Snotlout to say and the way he says it, quiet and anxious, is so alien to her.

The use of the word “me” too, makes her mind turn and burn with theories because there is something so very deep in the small, added word. She doesn’t know what yet, but there is something painfully human about it.

Ruff watches the shadowed duo, transfixed as Eret lifts a hand to Snotlout’s chin, tipping his head up so that they are looking at each other.

It’s such an abnormal gesture for her to witness, especially between two people with whom she’s never associated such tenderness before.

Eret has always been this tall, handsome, foreign stranger with a silky voice and a self-assured walk, who is as handy with a sword as he is on a boat, who’s always there to help and give back to the people who gave him a better life. Snotlout has always been this hot-headed, confident loudmouth who is way too short to be as brave as he is and is way too good at singing for Ruff to admit, who’s full of unyielding loyalty and howling laughter. But most importantly, they hate each other.

Or, now that she thinks of it, they did hate each other.

The last few months have been lacking the usual rivalry between Snotlout and Eret and she doesn’t know why it’s only hitting her now. At some point, they two of them became friends and she’s pretty sure she isn’t the only one who hasn’t noticed, which is so peculiar because she, and the others, have seen the two of them hanging out at the sawmill and flying together at dusk to light the torches. Gods, they drank with each other last night and there hadn’t been a single crass word spoken. When did this happen? She and the rest of Berk have gone blind!

“Snotlout, I’ll be back. Soon. I can’t promise you when, but I’ll be back, and next time I go north, you can come with me,” Eret assures, and though Ruff can’t see Snotlout’s features, she can feel the atmosphere lifting and hear the smile in his voice.

“Yeah?” There is something so hopeful and childish in the way he breathes that word, something that tugs at Ruff’s heartstrings.

“Yeah, I’m sure I can convince Hiccup to spare you of your very honourable duties for a few weeks,”

“Hey, shut up!” Snotlout’s foot jerks out sharply to jab Eret in the ankle, the former laughing breathlessly in response, “My work is honourable, okay? Someone has to test all those crazy weapons Hiccup cooks up and I’m the only man for the job, no one else is as brave as I am,” He exclaims, all confident and cocky and familiar to Ruffnut.

“You’re sure right about that,” Eret says as he again raises his hand and, this time, it comes in contact with Snotlout’s cheek, she can see the faint movement of his thumb smoothing over the skin beneath his eye. His voice is awfully soft with a terrible fondness that Ruffnut sometimes hears in Hiccup’s voice when he speaks about Astrid or vice versa, it’s a tone that she automatically links up to people who are fiercely in love.

Oh, Freya, they’re in love.

“You gotta head down to the docks, Eret, you’ll be late to leave… or whatever,” Again, that insecure whisper is back and by Gods, it sounds so brittle and shaky that Ruff almost considers the thought that Snotlout might be crying.

She would be if she was about to be separated from her lover for an unknown amount of time, Ruff ain’t afraid to admit that, but if Snotlout is afraid of anything, it’s expressing feelings and emotions (He’s afraid of proving he’s human, proving he’s weak). But then again, maybe it’s easier for Snotlout to air out his inner thoughts in front of Eret because, well, they’re in love and to be so intimate with someone, they’re eventually going to see all the ugly parts that you hide beneath the pretty façade. Eret has probably seen the old insecurity they all know that still lurks deep inside Snotlout, raw and unfiltered, a thing from his youth that made him angry and afraid, a thing that was just as damaging as the scars on his flesh.

Ruffnut, nor anyone else on Berk, will ever forgive Spitelout for what he did to Snotlout. She will gladly say that the day he was exiled was the best day of her life and she will not be alone in the statement. Cruel, merciless, cold-blooded bastard deserved to be Blood-eagled if you ask Ruff and Tuff (probably Hiccup too, no one was more enraged than he was.)

(Ruff has never been afraid of Hiccup, except for once. He’s far too lanky, too merciful, too kind, to be a scary guy. But that day, when Snotlout had lifted his tunic in the clubhouse and revealed the ivory scars that were striped across his back and chest, she’d taken a step back at the sight of the inferno that had kindled in his eyes, at the sudden look of mercilessness that had steeled his features, at the trembling fists clenched at his sides. He looked like a man ready to kill, like a man ready to burn then world to the ground, like a man ready to give it all up just for revenge. She was afraid of him that day. So, so afraid that she had nightmares about him for days afterwards.)

“I’ll be a bit late, the lads won’t mind,” Eret says lowly, drawing Ruffnut from her walk-in memory-lane, and she feels her heart tug as he bows his head to press against Snotlout’s, “I’ll stay here. With you,”

Forehead touching, especially in Viking culture, is the tenderest way to touch the ones who mean dearest to you. Be it a lover, a blood-relative, a shield-brother, anyone who is buried deep in your heart. And here, in the shadows of an alley, hidden and quiet like a forbidden dream, two people hold each other. Soon, they will have to let go and isn’t that the most heart-breaking thing? Letting go?

Her heart feels too big for her chest and she almost feels like a changed person by witnessing this, witnessing something she was never meant to see. Will love be like this for her too? Terribly tender and awfully soft? She doesn’t know, Gods, she shouldn’t be here.

Ruff tries to drag herself back but she’s like a moth to a flame, unable to pull herself away from this blindingly beautiful display of love, so raw, so real. She never imaged Snotlout to fall so easily to soft caresses, but of course, he would. It is always our deepest wants that will bring us to our knees and all Snotlout has ever wanted is love, a gentle hand, a place to bury his heart.

They share a deep and long kiss. It makes her feel lonely and she doesn’t know why. They part, breathing on each other’s lips and holding each other tightly because they know, they know, they have to let go any moment. Their foreheads are still touching.

“Promise me,” Snotlout whispers and she sees the silhouette of his Adam’s apple bob as he swallows thickly, “promise me you’ll come back. To me. Eret, promise you’ll come ba-”

A quick but meaningful kiss quietens Snotlout’s desperate pleas and Ruffnut has never heard him beg before, not like that, not like he’s afraid that Ragnarök is about to fall upon them. Eret cradles Snotlout’s face with his large hands. They are so close, they’ve almost become one shadow.

“I promise you, Snotlout,” Eret vows, quiet but vehement, his lips brushing against Snotlout’s, “I promise that I will come back to you,”

Another kiss is shared between them, sealing the oath that Eret has made and therefore making it unbreakable. Eret will return, he has to, and Ruff doesn’t know what will happen if he doesn’t. Something tragic, something unbearable to watch, something she can’t allow to happen. She will not see Snotlout ruined again. So, she promises herself that if Eret does not return, she’ll fly herself up to Valhalla, drag him back to Berk and the Gods best keep themselves to themselves and not get in the way of her mission, lest the know the true wrath of a Thorston woman.

“Come on, before Hiccup starts a search party,” Snotlout says, voice stronger now that the promise of returning has been made, “Selkie’s gonna want a proper goodbye too or she’s gonna follow you the whole way,”

Eret nods in agreement and peeks his head out of the alleyway, looking up and down the street in search of any unwanted bystanders. In the sunlight, his eyes glitter amber and Ruffnut can make out his hand, large and golden, curled around Snotlout’s.

“You sure you can handle her? I know that-”

“Gods, Eret, she’s the timidest Thunderdrum I’ve ever seen! If I can handle Hookfang and a borderline psychotic Terror, among other things, then she’s going to be a piece of cake,” He reassures, almost sounding offended, and Eret chuckles softly as he gives Snotlout a fond look.

Ruff watches them step out from the alley into the sunlit street, hands no longer intertwined. She can make out the red flush on Snotlout’s cheeks and the faint wetness beneath his eyes, which he wipes away hastily. The two of them share a look, secret and quiet, lips curled into gentle smiles, fingers twitching with the longing to touch. Then, as sudden as lightning, the tender-faces fall away and they leave, together but still somehow so far apart. They enter the real world not as lovers, but as friends, as a secret waiting to reveal itself.

For a few moments, she stays where she is, staring into the unlikely place of a secret lovers’ farewell. Who knew that a place like this, small and dark, would hold such a tragic and beautiful moment? Ruffnut feels a mixture of emotions, the biggest one being happiness because bless the Gods, Snotlout has found love and if anyone deserves it, it’s him.

At the after ceremony of Hiccup and Astrid’s wedding a year back, a drunk Snotlout had suddenly embraced her tight and long and said; I’m gonna be alone forever, Ruffy, but that’s okay, I got you guys, so… I not really alone. And being just as drunk as he was, she’d laughed and poured him another drink, dancing with him till the sun came to steal the night. She didn’t remember what he said till a few days after and it had filled up with such a fierce and sudden sadness that Tuffnut had dragged her home, demanding an explanation for the terrible look in her eyes.

That’s the thing with a twin like Tuff, the second her mood changes, he can sense it like a hunting dog catching the scent of blood. She can do it too, but Tuff has never been one to hide his true feelings while she, similar to Snotlout, would rather avoid the conflict of talking sentiments (even with Tuff). Her brother has to drag it out of her most times, corner her and say stupidly melancholic stuff like;

I can smell it, sister. You’re sad.

Tuffnut is a curse and blessing all at once and she wouldn’t have it any other way.

But anyway, she’s overjoyed to see Snotlout in love and loved, but she’s also anxious about it. Anxious in a way an older sibling is over a younger sibling when they start to dabble in dangerous things, in things that can get them hurt. And if love is anything, it’s dangerous. If love can do anything, it can get you hurt.

Snotlout has been hurt enough. Snotlout has endured and lived through torture and torment, through betrayal and loss, through things she can’t imagine surviving. She will not see him hurt again, not by Eret, not by love, not by anything. He doesn’t deserve it.

The others will also share her feelings when they discover this secret love story, that she is sure of. Especially Hiccup, who in the past few years has become like an older brother to Snotlout (like the same way that Stoick has become a father to him, the same way Valka has become a mother to him). He takes his new sibling occupation very seriously and it is comical, the wiser brother and the reckless brother always at odds but always there to protect each other.

There’s a headache brewing in her temple. Gods, she’s been thinking and overthinking again.

It’ll be fine, she reassures herself, stepping away from the alley and making towards the docks, the Gods wouldn’t curse them all with more bad fortune, would they?

It’s probably the most stupid question she’s ever thought, in hindsight.

When she gets to the docks, it’s jam-packed with dragons and Vikings alike, friends and family saying farewell to the crew and wishing them good fortune on their journey. The sky is clear and blue, perfect for sailing, and Ruff concludes that she wasn’t the only one begging Thor to keep his storms to himself.

Immediately, her eyes are drawn to Tuffnut, dangling upside down from Belch’s neck as he converses with a bemused Fishlegs. She’s tempted to go over, but not yet, she has to do something first.

She quickly surveys the area, seeing one of the Berkian members of Eret’s crew giving his vermilion Nadder a thorough farewell and a Northman kissing his Shield-maiden fiancé goodbye.

The Northmen, Eret included, were intrigued to see such wild and free women when they first came to Berk. Berkian women are hearty and frightening and hard to impress, daughters of wolves, bearers of warriors, the fiercest things on the battlefield.

So it had been a cultural shock to them, Eret had admitted one day, for their home only holds women who sew the clothes and make the food, who bear the children and tend to the house, who are quiet and timid and easily won over by a half-assed sonnet. Most marriages are arranged and many daughters are traded for land or gold, true love is a rarity to come by. Eret is proud of his home, but these are the parts he is ashamed of.

Astrid was the first woman Eret had ever seen to hold a weapon and he’d never met a woman as savage as Ruffnut before. Ruff will forever be proud that she was Eret’s first taste of wildness.

There. She’s found who she’s looking for.

Eret kneels on one knee before Selkie, his beauty of Thunderdrum. She’s orange like a sunset, pale and washed-out, with white flecks scattering her hide like parted clouds, matching her ivory belly, and Ruffnut has never seen a dragon with eyes that blue before. Selkie lets out an unhappy groan as she presses her face further into Eret’s hand, eyes low in her grief as she listens to his whispers. Ruffnut can’t make out what he’s saying, but she’s sure it’s everything soft and reassuring.

Snotlout is close by, she notices, watching Eret with an open fondness. If Hiccup or Astrid walked by right now and took notice of the raw love in Snotlout’s gaze, they would immediately know the truth. Clearly, she isn’t the only one thinking this because Hookfang, stood beside his rider, nudges Snotlout with a warning hiss in the back of his throat. Never let it be said that Hookfang doesn’t look out for Snotlout, he’s ornery and easily distracted, but he makes up for it all with his loyalty.

Soon enough, the ship is ready and it’s time to go. People gather along the docks and make their last hurried farewells. The drums begin and the chants of fortune echo across the waters, there’s an intoxicating atmosphere permeating the air. Ruffnut hurries through the crowd, easily shoving unmoving folk to the deck in her haste because she has yet to speak with Eret. He’s shaking hands with Chief Stoick and is about to go up the gang walk when she suddenly lunges herself at him.

“Ruffnut!” He gasps, surprised and clearly a bit uncomfortable, but he’ll have to deal with her for the moment, “Thought you weren’t going to- uh- show,”

“Course I was, idiot, and anyways-” She leans her head close to his ear and wraps a hand around his bicep, digging her sharp nails into his flesh threateningly as she whispers, “-I have to remind you to keep to that promise, Eret, son of Eret, I’m not going to have Snotlout hurt again. I was robbed of my revenge last time, I won’t be again,”

When she pulls back, she flashes him a smile with too many teeth and bats her lashes with an intimidating gleam in her eyes. She’s given this look to men who are now dead and it is Eret’s choice if he wishes to be added to that mass grave. Eret stares back at her with shocked eyes, cheeks slightly red, and he clenches his jaw as he swallows thickly, rubbing a hand over the raised welts on his bicep. The drums echo across the water and the chanting voices chase after in earnest. After a bewildering moment, Eret gives her an awkward but thankful smile and nods his head in understanding.

“I’ll keep that in mind,” He says and all the tension in his muscles seem to slip away as Ruffnut softens her menacing gaze on him, clapping him boisterously on the already injured shoulder.

“Atta boy,” She cackles, shoving him up the gang walk as she calls after him, a throaty laugh colouring her words, “You better be back in two weeks, you son of an Eret, or I’m coming after you!”

To her delight, she hears him laugh back at her.

The ship finally departs from the dock, sail high and proud as its pushed by the encouraging wind and the waves part smoothly as the bow cuts through the water, sure and steady. Some of the crew hang off the ratlines, saying goodbye to Berk (for now), and Eret stands, tall and almost warrior-like, on the stern. The salt-touched wind carries his dark hair and the sun reflects off his dark eyes, they glitter with a sadness that Ruffnut wouldn’t have noticed if she didn’t know the things she knew. His smile is melancholic, Gods, he already looks homesick. He’s looking at someone and she already knows who.

Turning to look at Snotlout, she can see that his hands are balled up into white-knuckled fists, that his smile is forced and pained, that his eyes shimmer with tears.

Snotlout has always hated goodbyes. Especially ones that aren’t supposed to last. Because they always do.

This is Home (stupid Eretlout oneshot)

Oh hello it is currently 4 am and I’ve just finished this impulse one-shot about Modern Eretlout haha lol bruh! It’s set in Britain by the way, because I’m British and I love my British culture lol! This hasn’t been edited by the way so… yeah, it’s really bad in my opinion but I need to post some writing because yeah! I’m actually currently working on a long Eretlout fic but I have no idea when/if it’ll be finished so haha lol bruh awkward! Oh yeah, warning of abuse and past child abuse and only slightly steamy content, really its just making out and all that!!! haha lol bruh enjoy

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Blood fills his mouth. It drips from his chin, pours from his head, spills from his nostrils.

He opens his red-speckled fist and a tooth lies in the scarlet pool gathered in his palm, it almost looks like gold beneath the glow of the streetlamp that slants into his car. His upper jaw throbs from where he’d yanked out the already loose tooth and he can make out the rivulets of gum-flesh still clinging onto the roots. He stares at it with an unbothered and tired expression.

“Couldn’t even punch my tooth outright,” He mumbles to himself, opening the glove box and chucking the tooth inside, “Had to yank it out myself,”

It makes a high-pitched clanging sound as it bounces off a half-finished bottle of Captain Morgan and then, silently, it disappears behind the several cigarette cartons that lay piled unceremoniously within (Marlboro Reds, Marlboro Golds, Caramel Blues, Regal Kingsizes, even the odd Mayfair for when he gets desperately low). He reaches a hand inside and rummages through the collection, most of them are empty at this point, he needs to restock and clean out his car, it’s been a solid few months since he did that. He shakes a Caramel carton, empty. Another Caramel? Empty. Marlboro Red? Empty. Regal? Ah, lucky day, only half-empty.

A great sigh forces its way through his clogged nostrils and, with the abruptness of a cut artery, blood spatters all over his shirt and along his forearms. His hand freezes mid-air, fingers tight around the bending carton as he blinks slowly, anger simmering beneath his skin because really? Really?! He looks down at his shirt, it was ruined anyway. He’ll never get the red out that white, looks like someone’s just slit his throat from all the blood that’s been pouring down his neck. That table-corner got him good in the head and cut a deep gash just above his eyebrow, the entire right side of his face is crimson with blood and it shimmers in the flickering lamplight.

He bites into the end of the cigarette and lights it with a silver zippo, the flame casting writhing shadows across his blood-spattered hand. The first drag is the best, the first hit to the back of his throat, the first exhale of smoke. Each heartbeat hurts a little less with a little more smoke, a little more tar, a little more death in his lungs.

Snotlout starts the car and drives away. He watches his childhood home disappear around the corner and it feels like goodbye. He can’t kind it in himself to be sad about it.

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He parks outside of Eret’s house on the edge of the path, walking up to the red door with a tidy black seven nailed on it.

“Oh Snotlout, love, you alright?” Comes a familiar voice and he looks over to see Chantel from next door, wrapped in her dressing gown with a black bin bag clutched in her hands.

Eret’s house is tucked in the centre of a row of brick houses, it’s the kind of street where everyone knows everyone and everyone knows everything, whether you like it or not. In the last year, Snotlout has gotten to know a lot of people (and a lot of rumours) who live along this here street.

“I’m alright, Chan,” He says honestly (because he is alright, it’s just a bit of blood and few bruises) and stamps the butt-end of his fifth cigarette in thirty minutes into the cracked path.

“You ‘aven’t been fighten’ again, 'ave you? With those Trapper boys?” Chantel asks severely, a mother of four, she’s very intuned to her maternal instincts and even the slightest sign of distress has them flaring up, “It better not be with those Grimborn brothers! I’m telllen’ you Snotlout, those two are shady bastards and its best to stay clear of 'em-”

Snotlout lights another smoke, this one from a full carton of Marlboro Red, and spits blood and phlegm onto the grass, tongue prodding the empty socket in his jaw.

“I haven’t been fighting, Chan, promise,” He reassures her, and that’s also true because he didn’t fight back at all, it was more of a beat down, “Just a disagreement with my old man, you know how it is,”

Chantel’s back straightens like she’s been in the army her whole life and she crosses her arms over her chest, red hair wet and shining like blood in the moonlight. Only four of the streetlamps work and they’re further down the road, so the road and paths are alight only from the horseshoe moon that hovers amongst the star-filled sky, the black-asphalt gleaming silver. They’ve been complaints to the council to get them all fixed, but they won’t do anything, they never do, they just leave the poor to rot.

She looks like she’s about to say something about it, but he shakes his head at her. Instead of telling him to call the police, she says;

“You’re bleedin’ like a stuck pig all over the place, Lout, people’ll gonna be thinkin’ that Jack the Ripper is back from the fuckin’ dead,” He laughs at that and he offers a straight to her, as a thanks for not making a big fuss over finding him bloodied like a murdered boy in the middle of the night, but she shakes her head.

“You’re grand, love, I got a pouch this mornin’, save 'em for desperate times,” Chantel looks him up and down, black eyes near white in the moonlight, “You look like you’re in one now,”

Snotlout agrees with her. He waves a hand to bid her goodnight and goes inside. He closes and he turns on the hallway light. The marrow-deep tension in his bones slips away, causing a breath that comes from the very bottom of his tar-clogged lungs to fall from his lips, and his hurting heart finally stops beating against his ribs like a jackhammer as he leans against the front door.

He’s safe, he’s home. Because this small, shoddy house with its water-stained ceilings and peeling wallpaper and creaking floorboards is home. It’s simple and a little broken, but it’s home.

“Snotlout?” Eret calls from upstairs, he can see the bedroom light glow up the hallway at the top of the stairs, “That you?”

“Yeah,” He takes a generous drag, then exhales slowly, “It’s me, sorry I’m late… Went to see my dad, after work,”

Footsteps ring across the house and Eret appears at the top of the stairs, dressed in nothing but a ratty pair of grey jogging bottoms, his terribly handsome torso bare for Snotlout and Snotlout alone to see. He grins proudly around his cigarette at the sight of those hard abbs, those firm pecs, those faint scars, those old gang tattoos. Oh, what a handsome devil he is and Snotlout caught him all on his own.

“Fuckin’ Hell, Snotlout!” Eret comes charging down the stairs like a mad horse and Snotlout barely blinks when he comes over to him, large hands gracing over his oozing temple and along his bruising jaw. The touch is very much welcomed.

“What happened? Were you jumped?”

“No, I wasn’t fucking jumped-”

“You’ve lost a tooth!”

“It’s in the car, in the glove box, I’ll get Gobber to stick it back on,”

“I don’t think that’s how it works, darlin’,”

Eret drags him into the living and posts him on the black vinyl couch. Hookfang, his German Shepherd, immediately bounds over to him and rests his snout on top of Snotlout’s knees, wet nose twitching and throat moving with unfurling whines and whimpers. He pets him affectionally between his ears, humming lowly to Hookfang to help ease the old war-vet. Eret goes to snatch the half-smoked cigarette from his fingers, but Snotlout’s reflexes are too fast.

“Hey! I’m not done, asshole,”

“Not smokin’ in the house is your rule, not mine, I’m just helpin’ you out,”

“Fuck that rule, just for tonight, fuck it,”

With a rich laugh, Eret saunters into the kitchen to get the med-kit. But Snotlout saw the concern and anxiety in those dark, earthy eyes and he heard it too in that laugh, it was a little shaky at the end. Hookfang barks at him.

“Easy Hookfang, I’m okay,” He barks again, louder, black eyes glistening with fear, “I know pal, there’s a lot of blood, but it’s okay, I’m okay, soldier,” He ruffles the War-dog’s neck lovingly, trying to ease Hookfang’s unnerved mood and distract him from the blood. It probably brings back bad memories for him.

Eret comes back with the med-kit tucked beneath his armpit and a large bowl of water cradled in his hands. He set it on the coffee table and politely nudges Hookfang out of the way, the Shepherd in turn leaps onto the couch and curls dutifully at Snotlout’s side. Such a loyal friend, Snotlout doesn’t deserve something as honourable as Hookfang’s fidelity.

“Look like a stuck pig,” Eret whisper, running a wet dishtowel along the drying river of blood that pours down his face and throat.

“Ha, Chantel said the exact same thing,” He chuckles lowly, watching rivulets of watery blood travel down Eret’s powerful forearms as he sponges at the blood along his cheek.

“Chantel?” He queries, eyes briefly flickering to meet his.

“Yeah, caught outside just as I was coming in,” Snotlout closes his eyes as he lifts his chin so Eret can easily swipe the already stained towel down his throat. It leaves a funny tightness in his gut and a nice shiver ghosts up his spine at the vulnerable display.

“Well, expect the whole street to know by lunchtime tomorrow,” Eret replies, then adds, “I mean, I love Chantel to pieces, but by God, she gossips like there is no tomorrow,”

Snotlout nods in agreement, smoking his cigarette and tapping the ash into an ashtray that’s always kept on the coffee table, despite his own rule of no smoking in the house. But he’s never been good at keeping to the rules, even his own ones. Eret wipes away the twin-tracks of maroon streaking from his nose and begins to wrap the gash above his eyebrow up.

“We’ll go to the doctor tomorrow mornin’, yeah? Think you might need stitches,”

“Cool,” Is his reply, tired and uninterested.

All the blood is finally cleared from his skin. The towel is scarlet. The bowl on the table is no longer a bowl of water, but a bowl of blood. A swathe of bandages is wrapped around his head like a bandana, but there hasn’t been any bleed through for a few minutes so Eret looks satisfied (and rather proud) at his nursing work.

After a moment, Snotlout flicks his finished fag into the ashtray and stares into Eret’s dark eyes; he’s very tired.

“Thanks for patching me up, babe,” Snotlout says quietly, not because he doesn’t mean it but because he is full of such a sudden exhaustion that it feels well overdue. His head, his brain, needs a good rest or else he’s going to start screaming.

“No problem,” Eret soothes his large hands up and down Snotlout’s thighs, “Now, are you going to tell me what happened?”

Snotlout sighs, big and heavy, hand settling on the nape of Hookfang’s neck and running through the dense fur. His heart shudders, his lung quiver, his blood boils, his body doesn’t like any of this. Just get it over with, as he did with his dad.

“I told my dad about us. About me… you know, liking guys and all-”

“And he did this to you?” Eret’s voice goes low, like a growl of an animal with its teeth bared. Snotlout would be lying if he said it didn’t turn him on a bit. Thick fingers curl protectively around his thighs.

“Eret, don’t get yourself all riled up about it, okay? It’s done. I knew he’d react like this, it’s not the first time he’s punched me around and called me a faggot, just this time, he actually had a reason to call me one,”

“Yeah, well, it may not have been his first time but it sure as fuck is his last, do you understand?” Eret snarls vehemently, hands moving from his thighs to his hips and sides, Snotlout doesn’t even flinch when he accidentally brushes against a forming bruise, “You are never going near him again, Lout, I won’t let you be hurt by scum like that,”

Eret’s eyes burn. Dark soil and spitting embers in furrowed sockets. The firm frown on his face and the clenching muscles in his jaw, grinding teeth that thirst for a hating man’s blood. It’s making Snotlout’s throat go dry.

“You’re hot when you’re angry, have I told you that before?” He says lowly and Eret looks at him, vengefulness fading as he takes note of the wanton look in those pale eyes.

“You may have mentioned it once or twice,”

They breathe on each other’s lips, tempting, waiting for the first one to move. Hookfang books it upstairs, sensing the heady change in the air.

Eret pushes Snotlout back onto the couch and crawls carefully over him, their lips immediately locking in a wet and obscene kiss that stretches on and on forever. Snotlout moans as Eret forces his tongue down his throat, golden hands skimming beneath his shirt and touching the tender flesh beneath in a skilled and teasing way that drives him mad. They make out for a while, dominating each other’s mouths with vigour and gusto till their breathless and sweating.

The bloodied shirt is pulled over his head and Eret stills above him when he sees the black and blue bruises that bloom along his ribs and chest and stomach, even Snotlout gazes at them with morbid curiously. Fuck, his dad got him more than he realised. Not that it matters.

“I’ll kill him, Snotlout, I’ll kill him,” Eret promises in a snarling growl and Snotlout wraps his arms around his shoulders, drawing him down so he can mumble against his lips;

“I know, but fuck me first,”

Of course, Eret complies.

Later, tangled in a mass of sweaty limbs and exhausted desires, Snotlout knows that he’ll be okay. With his head on Eret’s chest, he closes his eyes and sleeps because he’s home, home has always been in those dark eyes, in those large hands, in those warm arms. Home has always been here.

Eret, a wanderer for most of his life, a lost man at sea who was bound for dirty work, has finally found a place to set loose his anchor. Snotlout is home, is the harbour he’ll always be homebound to. He’ll protect his Snotlout because who is he but a wanderer without his home.

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Literally such a funny concept

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Finished my shoulder bag!! I'm in love with how it turned out, and it took only a weekend to finish (this is improvement I'm way too slow).

I added a button inside so it has some closure and I'm thinking of adding some lining inside too.

For pattern I free handed this one, just used a simple tutorial for the star and that was it!!

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OMG I loved watching Columbo as a kid late at night or while my mom braided my hair!! Which usually took all day and night lol 😆!!! She still does my hair and we still watch it sometimes!! She hates when I ask 20,000 questions though 🤣😂🤣!!

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No for real though, like why do they do that!!! My Moms British and I’m American (she raised us in the USA) and she does this EVERY DAY!! And don’t get me started on how she pronounces squirrel 🐿️. She says it like SQI-RUALL!!! LIKE GURL WHAT?!?! WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?!?! I’ve been side eyeing her since I was 5 and started to notice it lol 😂!!

its so funny when british ppl say the letter H they have to wheeze it out like HAITCH but then they say things like orrible and ello.. girl where did the haitch go 

I thought this was common knowledge!!! I’ve been shipping them since the FIRST MOVIE, maybe even before that!! They argue like an old married couple in some scenes!! I mean venom most def makes sure Eddie doesn’t starve (by proxy so the both of them don’t starve technically) no matter how gross the stuff he eats is lol!! And they are both, both the husband and wife in different scenarios!!! I am sure of that!!!

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Not my sister fighting tooth and nail w me that Eddie and Venom weren't gay in the movies and that I just had shipper glasses on but like... Today I proved her wrong by showing her this shit

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MAXLEY HEADCANONS!

(REQUESTS OPEN)

//TW FOR SH//

MY MAX HEADCANONS:

•is hispanic

•has vitiligo on his hands and a bit on his face and wears gloves and foundation to cover it up

•has autism/adhd

•used to sh that's why he started skating is to not think about stuff as much

•is trans (ftm)

• has a skinny hourglass body by the hates it because it makes him look less masculine

•listens to more rock and metal but in general listens to mostly all genres (except slow songs, jazz, classical, country)

•has snakebites, septum, stretched gauges on his ears , and industrial piercings and a bell button piercing 😻 (also has a wolf cut)

•bi (pref male

MY BRADLEY HEADCANONS:

•is half american half italian

•he has freckles

•has ocd/anger issues

•loves black coffee with a little milk

•finds max's piercings hot

•would never get a piercing himself (scared of needles, doesn't think they look good on him, and his dad would never let him)

•has fluffy middle parted hair that was cut short but grew out to a shorter mullet

•religious trauma and daddy issues

•gay (mlm)

MY MAXLEY HEADCANONS:

•when they make out bradley puts his hands on max's waist/hips and sometimes he puts one hand on his waist/hips and grabs max's hair

•bradley was max's first time

•max will pick up random creepy ass bugs and bradley will be like "put. that. down."

•bradley is like 6,1 and towers over the 5,5 max

•max is very touch starved but isn't very used to touch (said in a headcanon earlier) and will do anything to get any affection from bradley but is really nervous when he gets it then just kinda melts

•definitely have some sort of history but max forgot and bradley didn't (maybe like childhood friends or smth)

•both unironically love the song "romance is boring" by los campesinos

•max loves horror movies and bradley hates them (they still watch them together tho)

•max says the most out of pocket shit and bradley just stares at him with his head tilted like "wtf?-"

OTHER PEOPLES HEADCANONS I LIKE (credits are included)

•bradley needs glasses bc he is nearsighted but doesn't wear them bc it takes away his cool - @thecat_inthe_cherryhat on tiktok

•bradleys mother died making his coexistence with his father uncomfortable, he does not hate his father, in fact he loves him but he does not know how to be and live with him, he does not want to admit it - @thecat_inthe_cherryhat on tiktok

•bradley's father is his weak point, he became conceited and rude as a way of defending his father's expectations - @thecat_inthe_cherryhat on tiktok

•he likes Britney Spears' music and has records but hides them from the - @thecat_inthe_cherryhat on tiktok

•Bradley is a law student, he was forced to go there because of his father but he still likes it a little - @thecat_inthe_cherryhat on tiktok

•he has a masculine image but his hygiene care makes his friends tell him that he is feminine, he uses lip balm because he doesn't like having dry lips - @thecat_inthe_cherryhat on tiktok

•When Bradley was in Middle school he used to wear baggy overalls has messy hair and wearer braces - @h4z3l_quits on tiktok

•Bradley used to be a kind and loyal kid! But when he got adopted by a rich family he started getting rude bc he was “spoiled” and he was raised to be perfect that’s why he’s competitive - @h4z3l_quits on tiktok

•max actually likes Bradley genuinely and just pretends that he likes roxanne and like tries desperately to get Bradley’s attention so he gets jelly - @chrys_linn on tiktok

•max is left handed so bradley is on his left side when he gets the chance just to see if one day they'll hold hands - @somnusgallery on tiktok

•max likes to play with Bradley's hair and Bradley gets embarrassed and ends up blushing every single time - @cassie_m328 on tiktok

•Max is ALWAYS bruised and patched up due to trying extreme shit with his skate and Bradley being the meticulous guy he is always brings stuff to patch Max up - @crowking.jpg on tiktok

•Max and Rox broke up due to them being young and immature and Max is mostly over it but he does feel he's not relationship material or isn't fully on board with one afterwards but THEN HE MEETS BRAD - @crowking.jpg on tiktok

•Max may be shorter but the moment he rizzes Brad up Brad loses his MIND like man's weak AF for Max's smooth ahh attitude - @crowking.jpg on tiktok

•Brad loosens up around Max overtime and let's go of his fragile masculinity and embraces open queerness and things he limited himself away from - @crowking.jpg on tiktok

•Brad and Max bring out the best in each other due to their competitive nature and ambition for improvement - @crowking.jpg on tiktok

Just watched a YouTuber who heard the name Hobert for the first time and she immediately said

"Hobert? So like Robert but a hoe-"

And now I can't stop thinking about someone saying that to Hobie 😭😭

"Hobart?? So like the hoe version of Robert?"

He'd probably be like "Goddamn right I am. You lot couldn't handle me at my hoe-est. This isn't even my final form." cause he thinks it's HILARIOUS.

He repeats it to himself all day snickering and from then on you call him 'Hoe Robert'

You walk up to Gwen like "Hey Gwendy, you've seen Hoe Robert?"

Only for her to be like "Who the hell is Robert and why's he a hoe?? What'd Robert do 😳😳"

At one point you just go around yelling "Where's my Hoe at??!! 😩" And he erupts into laughter EVERYTIME because Hoe Robert is his favorite nickname he's ever had ever

Omg STOP 🤣🤣!! Not what’s your tit size 🤣😆🤣!!! I love this❤️❤️❤️!!!

Also don’t use duct tape kids!!! I had a friend who had the WORST chest rash after leaving it on for a few hours!! And the glue and tape mark took days for them to wash off and go away, which made the rash worse 🥺😭!!! Be safe and Happy Pride 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️!!!

your friendly neighbourhood spider punk saves the day

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The dad joke 😆!!! I love everything about this!!!

Some Goofy Sketches >:D

I love everything about this post 😂🤣😂🤣!!! Happy anniversary to ASTV!! Hobie Brown I love you 😍🤘🏿!!! Also I miss vines, and part of me died when it left !!! I was like 12 or 13 I think when they got rid of that amazing app 🥺🥹😫😤🤬😭!!!

Saw some old vines and got inspired:

So here y'all go, Spiderverse as Vines!