Dolly

Try not to think of me when you are alone

Try not to think of me when she won’t do those things for you

Try not to think of me when you are tired of forcing your round psyche into her square hole

Try not to think of me when you realize you can’t find happiness pretending to be someone you’re not

Try not to think of me because I am trying not to think of you

Try not to think of me

You break my heart   not because you don’t love me  But because you don’t love yourself

I keep typing out all my feelings to you Then I remember I’m not allowed anymore

“It’s not fair!” “It’s not fair!!”

Echoing in my mind The cries of a child Not allowed to be a child 

How can you let doubt lead you the way you do?

How can a man so spectacular in so many ways feel so inadequate?

I know my attempts to enlighten you to your own greatness fall on deaf ears

I know you believe I see you through love’s eye so my view is skewed You forget that I haven’t always loved you, But I have always thought you a great man

I know you love my tits, but can you love the heart beneath?

The darkness in my head thick viscid pulling me under

I once thought you had come to banish the darkness It turns out you only came to snuff out my remaining light

11:11 and I'm wasting wishes on you again.