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Weak Possession.

the crow man is putting us through the horrors again /pos

GIVE IT BACK

So philza lore, am i right?

absolutely gut wrenching :D

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There's...a lot to unpack in this next bit.

First of all. The yelling at Tallulah? That is the first time I have ever heard him raise his voice in anger at his children.

Second. She can tell Phil, that something isn't right. She knows her Dad, though emotionally distant in a lot of respects, would never ever turn his rage upon her. And the fact he has been gone so regularly on this quest for lining their pockets, completely unlike how he used to be. At the beginning all he wanted to do was build a house and spend time with his eggs.

Now he is often gone the moment he wakes up to loot or find more treasures, away more often than home. His want for earthly goods has begun to outweigh the value of familial love, so wrapped up in this desire to protect his family and gathering more shinies.

She knows his heart. And she knows his intentions have begun to warp to unhealthy levels.

She knows her Papa as one with a joyful laugh, kind words, gentle hands and a willingness, above all else, to help others.

This stranger wearing the blonde's face is not her father.

She was the one to widen the gap in Phil's armour after Fit broke the initial hole. She knows how to speak to his emotions, to find his soul and try to revive it as it decays.

Then....this.

I think this is the moment it hit how serious she was.

I never quite clocked the fact she held that accidently swing against Philza from months ago now...she's just a kid. How often did she think or worry about the possibility of it happening again?

I think the worst part for Phil is he realises she isn't upset with him. She's scared of him. And that's so much worse.

Another thing I also just remembered; she hates having things withheld from her knowledge, its a breach of trust.

This is terrifying for her. To watch the steadiest thing she has ever known to shatter and break apart. To fall into the clutches of endless needs over what truly matters.

Spending time with those you love.

It doesn't matter if you own the most expensive things in the world, some happiness is only found eternally in the souls of those you came to grow close too in this small blip on a forever timeline.

Tallulah's only thing she can hold in a storm is her family. To see the head of it become hostile and deliberately ignore his own descent....goddess she must feel so hopeless.

I finished it. Time to scream.

God, for once I wish there was someone there that qPhilza would let down all his walls with and just let himself be weak and let them help and protect him! He's been letting down his walls with the kids but there's still an underlying thing of he has to be the one protecting them and he feels so guilty about leaning on them at all, and honestly he's based to feel that way, he put way too much on them. It's sounding like his reasoning for not relying on the other adults is a combination of not wanting them to think of him as weak or unreliable and a desire for them not to become known weaknesses of his like his kids are already in case his enemy uses them against him. You could argue the Enderking *has* been using his kids against him already by using his desire to provide for them and his love for them to disguise the manipulation of his behavior.

I really really wish Missa was about. In fact I deeply hope Missa is recovered enough from his sickness to log in at least once this week so the kids can at least talk to him about what's happened. The most ideal would be if he got online on Friday.

It is going to be Philza's birthday on Friday. That means either he's going to come back fine and be able to have a birthday party with everyone, and have a reprieve before the Enderking finds some other way to come after him. Or he's not going to come online at all and it's going to be longer before we see him again. Our maybe he'll come on as the Enderking and use his birthday to traumatize all his friends and their eggs XD.

The kids break my heart. Chayanne is constantly getting between Tallulah and qPhilza to protect her if necessary, and he's direct about wanting promises and time frames from his dad for now long he'll be away and when he'll come back. And then there's Tallulah. Where to even begin. This is her papa. The most constant parent she's had through everything she's been through. Not always the best at helping with the problems she has but always trying and always a safe and steady presence in her life. And now she's seeing glowing purple creep down his back as his behavior changes, and I'm sure she can't help remembering someone else with black creeping over their body until it consumed them entirely and they hurt her and her siblings, shot them with a gun. And then he yells at her. The first openly aggressive behavior he's ever shown towards her, and her fears are validated. No wonder she keeps her distance. No wonder she can't trust him. And then he takes them somewhere isolated to deal with the problem and I'm sure as she hesitated getting into that boat that she was remembering the last time she and her siblings were led somewhere. But that was her brother, already in the boat, determined to help his dad any way he could. And that was her papa. She didn't want to lose him either even though he might be already gone. So she gets in anyways. And they go, and her papa tells her and her brother to keep their swords out and be ready to defend themselves. And then she has to be the one to get between him and Chayanne when it's really like her papa is gone and something else is taken control. And oh god the emotion in his voice when he wrestled back that control and tells Tallulah to go to her brother and flee. And to them, it must have seemed like they might not see him again at that point. But he comes back to the house, sounding more like himself again but seemingly there only to day goodbye, telling her he's going to leave her. And Tallulah, still unable to trust this, still crouched in the corner on the bed watching him carefully, realises this could be the last time they ever get to talk. Because no matter how much he might promise to come back, her papa can't hide in his voice that he might not be able to. So she summons all of her courage to make sure she's told him the things she would regret not telling him if he never returned. To hug him one last time at his request even though she's terrified of coming close to him right now. My heart is broken into a million tiny pieces and then ground into a fine powder.

Back to qPhilza. I really love this trait he has where the minute he has an entity to directly confront, even if it is unkillable, he will fight tooth and claw. Seriously, if the Enderking had stuck to being creepy and vague and surrounding qPhilza with blocks and hallucinations, he might still have ground our crowman down. His biggest mistake was trying to taunt qPhilza directly. Because now he has a voice, he has become something qPhilza can fight. I've said it before that qPhilza, even knowing it was a fight he could not win, would punch a creative mode enemy until his knuckles bled and then keep punching if it meant defending his precious family and friends. I honestly don't think the Enderking can win this one. Which worries me, because the next logical step would be for him to go after the kids and use them as a bargaining chip. Or another thing that did cross my mind is that the Enderking may try to use one of the other islanders as his vessel for now, maybe that was one reason that qPhilza is so anxious that none of the others involve themselves in such a dangerous situation. Ugh, I just want him to be coddled like a baby for once, and to let it happen and *feel safe* and not have to hold onto everything so tightly.

I'm gonna leave this here because it's already far too long and I'm beginning to just ramble. If you read this far, I am impressed. I myself have now bled off enough adrenaline to be eepy. I will reblog some stuff and be back to theorize some more tomorrow. Much love <3

See under the cut for my play by play live blog notes.

This little shit. "This will be a short stream I think, I'm a bit eepy." All men do is lie.

OK, so we start with some nice subtle waving corruption behavior in front of friends who don't appear to pick up on it much, and then the thing with getting no saturation which is cool, and now we're dissing on twilight? Not sure how we got here but I'm living for it.

Weird effects to get from a dungeon, aaaaaaand now the enderking is leading him by the nose by highlighting mobs for him to see. I mean, it might have been a coincidence but i chose to believe it was not. XD 

Weird noise in the orc camp. And now his shoulders glow. I was a bit in and out of focus listening to this at work, I wasn't paying attention at this point and only came back to check when he got back home.

Yeah, kiddos already talking to each other about what's going on, but pretending everything is fine to dad for now. Early cookie time. *stare*

Of course Chayanne's got all the food already. And now there's crying obsidian all over, but this is fine, it's going to be fine. It's in the house now but just get rid of it, it's going to be fine.

The way the kids stare at him. Oh God it's so awkward. Their behavior is so off, but he's not noticing. They aren't jumping around nearly as much as they usually do. It's such a stark contrast with the wholesome family banter and falling asleep cuddled up together from last stream.

Now he's getting irritable and monologing about how the money is pointless and he just wants blocks. And now he's digging straight down. And saying he's not going to give all the zinc to Bad like he promised. At least he fell into a gay cave and not something more dangerous.

Fit and Bagi are here! Pac too! The kids definitely brought them. Intervention time let's go. Ok they're asking all the careful questions, and look to be muttering amongst themselves too a bit if I'm any judge. They went to talk while Ramon and Empanada chatted with Phil. Now Fit is back to confront him and has sent the kids away. Philza trying to deflect awkwardly and Fit not falling for it at all. 

Oh. 

The line that Tallulah mentioned someone protecting them and he's activated lore mode this is bad. He's taking Tallulah to have a private talk. He doesn't want people asking questions. He's twitching and yelling. Oh sweet crowfather where art thou.

Tallulah is so brave fr fr. The last time someone got corrupt and angry they pointed a gun at her and her siblings and shot at them.

Oh god our Dadza is so soft for his kids, not even the sneaky corruption lies can break that. The moment he realised Tallulah was scared it entirely broke the trap in his mind. Tallulah keeping her distance is all it took for him to come back.

(Haha, Bagi trying not to intrude but probably also wanting to make sure Tallulah is safe. I really want to see all this from her perspective next XD)

He's back, but Tallulah is still keeping her distance. Chayanne came and immediately crouched protectively on front of Tallulah. That's our boy right there. Philza is talking normal again now, he's going to get the backpack off. We have actual communication again, no secrets promise finally being at least somewhat honored.

RICHAAAAAAS! (He thinks Phil has scoliosis XD Tallulah the angst queen was not happy with him interrupting their serious rp moment XD)

Wings! The wings are safe, it's just his back that got stuff all over. But he's taking the kids away somewhere isolated to deal with this. God I wish he'd let other adults help him. He really seems to be trying hard to look like he can handle everything himself. God I wish he had someone who he could be weak around. Where's Missa!

Telling the kids to keep their swords out, attempt one goes about as well as you might expect. He jumps in the fire to rescue the backpack. Second attempt, Chayanne got the thing and ran. Philza is being scary. Poor Tallulah. Chayanne blows the horn and he has a moment of clarity and tells her to go to him. The realization of what he just did to his kids is setting in now.

Roses, and the dawn. The night is over. But the trauma remains. And as he rejects the need for stuff, the Enderking speaks. Our Enderpookie has a voice! This is what Philza needed. The creeping about was making him anxious, but give him something or someone solid to fight against and he'll fight by any means necessary. In this case, a battle of words and philosophies. It is very cathartic to hear him call the creeping horror a lonely little shit. Interesting that the line is that he's going to keep his wings out and not hide them. He's going to prove himself, he's determined.

But first he's going to make sure his kids know what's going on. Oh god, the two of them huddled on the bed. And Tallulah just stays there in the corner nearly the whole time, she can't trust him, that hurts. He's going to go away until he's better so that they feel safer, but Chayanne insists on having a definite day set for when he'll come back by. The little "papa" and "I still love you regardless" my heart. "Please come back dad i need you" Oh God. The intrinsic understanding that this might not work. That it might be the last goodbye. I'm near certain Tallulah is remembering the time they argued and she went to bed in a huff and then that was the last conversation she had with him face to face before they disappeared. She's making sure to say the things to not have regrets even though she's scared and can't trust him rn. And he's barely holding it together. And then he tells Chayanne not to come looking for him.

And with that, he's gone into isolation. Fuck, what a ride.

Imagine you're Bagi

Imagine you know this man, he lives across the river.

You've known him to be nothing but kind when he offers you advice, help and items. You see him be praised as an amazing father confidently taking care of 2 eggs, never asking or needing help to keep them fed.

His house is comforting and he always keeps his doors open to your and your friends antics.

Then suddenly you're confronted with his suffering, seeing his body split apart and a substance that looks like the void itself pouring from him, he doesn't mention it. Moves like it's not even there, there's no fear in his eyes.

But his kids look at you with tears prickling at the corners of theirs, begging for help or something.

Then, then you hear them argue, this man you've known by nothing but laughter and warmth and kindness and smiles sounds broken as he apologizes to his daughter, who you know loves him, for yelling at her.

You can't even imagine the sound of his voice yelling.

There's silence for a bit and suddenly those kids return. Scratched, bruised, tear stained faces staring at you looking guilty for even attempting to find someone to talk to.

And they tell you a lot, they're confused themselves about most of it.

They tell you how this man who you've only seen hug raised his sword at them with a purpose, tell you how the man who's voice rings with laughter spat venom at them through words he decided to lace with poison.

Tell you they've been haunted and hunted for so long that they don't even bother saying a time frame.

And you stare at these 2 kids, and the currently empty home of the man across the river who's been Nothing but joy and kindness and warmth and comfort and you wonder.

How long has he been suffering under it all

Reading qphil's arc as DID makes his conversation with Tallulah so much more emotional to me.

(Rose) She used to protect us but now she can't . We can't talk about him (Ender). Talking about it causes more problems, it's going to make people ask more questions. We can't go telling people these secrets.

like, this is a conversation that people with DID who have families who know about it have, or even just people with DID talking to their alters. you can't tell your friends and your neighbors and your doctors and people you know, it's not safe. it makes people ask questions, makes people question your safety and sanity and everything else.

"I'm doing this for us?" "Are you?"

This is a conversation that people with DID have with themselves a Iot. Is what we're doing actually to help each other, or just ourselves? Is it just to maintain an unhealthy and sometimes dangerous status quo? It applies similarly in a dynamic with a family, especially one so open and close as Phil's.

You can't be telling people, Tallulah. Its gonna cause problems, okay. They're going to want to ask more, I'm going to have to explain this now. It starts a web of lies.

Most people with DID live covertly. That is, you probably won't know they have it unless they tell you. They mask and they hide and they lie, frequently even from themselves. Many people don't know they have the disorder because they are so deeply hiding. Denial is a key symptom.

Phil, like Fit said in the stream, isn't a very good liar. This is true. But holy fuck is he good at avoiding, minimizing, denying, and dissociating from it all.

And, most importantly:

"I'm sorry for shouting at you... You broke our trust. We weren't supposed to tell anyone else."

People with DID often view themselves as a 'we,' on account of the multiple separate states of identity. The 'we' is Phil, Rose, and Ender.

Oh, fuck, wait, if Phil can’t see pumpkins anymore, there’s some real potential for angst with Chayanne hiding from Endza using pumpkins. He has to hide from his father using one of his favorite things. 🙃

PHIL ASKING FOR THE BACKPACK BACK FROM FIT SO SO QUICKLY AND "ZONING OUT" WHEN IT TOOK HIM LONGER TO GIVE IT BSCK. ENDERPOOKIE LET HIM GO. WHAT IS THIS.

Philza Minecraft absolute chad, gots two tall spouses, a nice house, is a good dad, and tells interdimentional (?) Ancient beings to fuck off with no fear. Amazing.

*stumbles out of lore stream covered in blood*

I feel like I was just put in the dryer with two shoes.

bagi, fits, and pacs reaction to phils shoulders and his back

Um... on a happier note... THAT WAS INCREDIBLE!!! HES GOTTEN SO MUCH BETTER AT ACTING AND JUST- god you can tell a difference. I'm a proud crow, yet also depressed. A normal feeling at this point.

Despite everything, is it still you?

You have the face and body of him, but not the heart.

I can no longer recognize you.

“conquered dungeons”

PHIL YOU HAVENT CONQUERED DUNGEONS

PLEASE THINK ABOUT THIS FURTHER AND WITH DOUBT PLEASE STREAMER PLEASEEE

If anyone wants to know how it feels to be in Phil's chat right now it's this

It starts in his wings.

It’s a slow, creeping thing-a fleck of purple here, a tendril of oil-slick black there- that moves, ever so ominously, from the ends of his ruined feathers to their still intact bases. He barely notices at first. Really, the greed is no different than normal and shinies are shinies.

But it starts in his wings.

Phil’s pleased with the new backpack; it’s nice and roomy and his wings, while still cramped, have never felt stronger. That’s one thing to thank the Federation for- that their gift has actually helped him to heal. It’s maybe helped a little too much, actually, because… well, his wings are black, yes, but not that black. Not that odd, flat, oil slick color and never with any purple…

It’s his own fault, really, for not noticing sooner. He should have known the Enderking wouldn’t give up so easily. By the time his next molt comes in with feathers just a little too long, a little too dark, a little too not there, it’s far, far too late to save himself. The best he can do is run hard and fast and hope against hope that he can get far enough away to not be a danger to the ones he still remembers how to love.

He should have known it wouldn’t be enough. He’s a creature of flight, after all, and this sickness began in his wings.

nah no matter what happens, q!Philza is just *that guy*

pretty much everyone trusts him, with both their own lives and the lives of their children

he can't walk around the server without running into someone who has declared themselves his kid and a good chunk of the server members have built their homes around his home to be close to him

so I'm sorry q!Philza, your house will always be the meeting point of the server and there forever be people chilling on your front lawn

I've been seeing a lot of post talking about how Philza deals with relationships. An from reading them, I think I came to a realization. That Philza is stagnant in his relationships, not because he does not care. But because he doesn't deal with change very well. Its in line with how he acts he is stuck in his old ways. Prime example; Why learn create when what hes been doing works just fine.

It's part of the immortality, but also just fundamentally how he is-

He expects his relationships to stay the same with no upkeep because why would they need upkeeping. He hasn't changed his mind about anything in the relationship. When Philza says he is loyal he stays that way. He does not move nor bend for anything. So maybe it's unconscious that he believes the relationships he forms would stay that way as well.

Baghera for example, she should know that he always has her back even when he does not say it. Even if he does not allow her to live in his house. She should already know her being around or building next to him is not a crime. He cares and that has not changed.

Tubbo and him are constantly joking. They take nothing serious. So why would he suddenly believe that Tubbo died and would never come back. That's not how things work.

It's when things start to change is when Philza becomes off-kiltered. Philza was very spoiled by his relationship with The Blood God. Technoblade never changed, they lived together and everyday was the same. They had this unspoken deep understanding. An it seems like Philza places a smaller version of that understanding on to other people.

He has been making small changes in himself. Understanding that Tallulah is growing and wants to fight is a big one he has had to wrestle with. Because he believed she would always be someone who needed protecting and he saw nothing wrong with that.

It's the same situation that happening with Chayanne. Someone said Chayanne is an extension of Philza and that is the fundamental truth. Because Chayanne is someone who shares in philzas deep understanding. They don't need to talk to know they are on the same page. But in recent streams it's becoming clear Chayanne is changing.

Again something Philza will have to wreckin with, "what do you mean you don't feel strong, what do you mean you feel disconnect from death, why are you suddenly so worried?" Are all things I think Philza has or will think about. You can tell it's difficult when it takes him longer to speak. When they were sitting on the dock, he hand ways it by saying one day you will get power that will take us all a back. He even says what do you mean? You are part of this family, the death family.

It's just something so fascinating because the only way to break this idea is for someone else to notice. Because Philza is stuck in his way and feels no need to change. So it will take an external force to make him realize he must actively reassure others.

honestly I think it’s kinda interesting how phil’s relationships with wilbur, tallulah, chayanne & tubbo are all reflecting back into his view of sunny tbh. like he has such complex delicate interwoven dynamics with all of them and it all gets thrown onto sunny, this poor kid who he loves in theory, but in practice is a stranger to him. 

like wilbur left tallulah in phil’s care and didn’t come back. even now way after he was initially supposed to, wilbur hasn’t returned (that one day aside). and phil, who had already taken on a big commitment watching tallulah, has been left permanently with two eggs in his sole care. and even though he loves tallulah and wil, and won’t want them out of his life, this is a stress for him. it’s a big undertaking for anyone, to care for two kids alone, but especially since tallulah required a lot of changes in his life. for better or worse, in many ways phil sees chayanne as an extension of himself. they’re similar in a lot of ways, and often on the same page, and it means phil often struggles to catch up when chayanne’s emotions aren’t on the same page as him. we’ve seen this week, phil having such a hard time understanding the depth and breadth of chayanne’s grief. when he catches on, he usually does a good job empathising and talking it through, but when he doesn’t, he really doesn’t and it can be hard to watch. 

the same is NOT true for tallulah. he has, through hard work and practice, learnt how to identify her emotions. he had to. she needed it. she would have been miserable otherwise. she desperately needed asked for the emotional care and birthdays and consideration that chayanne would never ask for. and he’s good at it—tracking her moods, knowing what upsets her & what she cares about in a way that doesn’t come as naturally with chayanne (or sunny or tubbo or anyone else really expect maybe wilbur). but that took A LOT of time and effort, months of work, and I do think he’s a bit wary of the idea of having to do that again, even when it comes to people he loves like chayanne (or god forbid tubbo). now tubbo is not wil. tubbo is not phil's son. but he’s still not dissimilar to wil in phil’s mind. whatever the backstory is, phil introduces tubbo to tallulah as an old friend of him and wil’s. he makes tubbo his kids’ godfather. he calls tubbo his boy. he looks out for him. but past those first few weeks, their relationship doesn’t progress. they mean a lot to each other bc of their pasts, but they don’t put any work into upkeeping their relationship and phil in particular doesn’t reflect at all on what how that changes their dynamic. and it does change it—this is clear in purgatory, with phil having zero trust in tubbo to protect chayanne and tallulah, and after, with tubbo endlessly poking at phil’s sore spots trying to illicit a reaction he’ll never receive. 

it's also clear in the way phil has no understanding of what’s going on with tubbo. if he’s struggling to grasp chay’s emotions, he’s not even touching what’s going on in tubbo’s head. tubbo’s death makes no sense to him. it’s sudden. it’s random. it’s illogical. it’s stupid. he wasn’t joking about having two lives? he still took a death bet with richas? he’s not come back? he can’t come back? he’s left phil with distraught kids for no reason with no warning. he doesn’t see the erratic suicidal behaviour, the unending depression, the desperation to be loved. he doesn’t want to see it. he doesn’t want something to be wrong with tubbo, but he also doesn’t even know how to see what’s wrong. he’s annoyed he’s having to deal with it and he desperately desperately wants to believe this is all happening for no reason.

bc at the forefront of phil’s mind is still his love for tubbo. of course, phil would drop everything to help tubbo (if he could recognize something was wrong). of course, he would care for sunny as his own. of course, he would make the same sacrifices he’s made for wil. and he assumes he’ll have to. he thought that sunny would now be under his care. that he’d have to figure out the logistics of a third egg to care for. with wilbur, phil was the only person who could ever have taken care of tallulah. the only person he trusted, the only person who knew tallulah enough. now this isn’t true for tubbo. it’s a genuinely illogical assumption for phil to make: three eggs would be a genuine burden on him; they've never spoken about it; there’s a long list of people who would tubbo expects for sunny before; and he doesn’t even know sunny well enough to name these people for her as comfort.

but still in the moment, alone with tubbo’s eggs and dealing with everything he left behind, phil can only think that the exact same thing that happened before will happen: he alone will be left to care for another scared hurt kid of someone he loves.

and here we come to sunny. a kid whose dad he loves. a kid whose dad he doesn’t understand. a kid whose dad is suddenly gone like his son is gone. a kid who would need him like his daughter needs him. a kid who his son needs to protect. a kid he cares for. a kid he can’t afford to care for, a kid he wasn’t expecting to care for, a kid he doesn’t know how to care for, a kid he would care for if he needed to, a kid he doesn’t know why he’s been left to care for. a kid who is somehow a reflection of all these people he loves but not someone he knows at all.

idk i think this tension comes out in the a lot of the comments phil makes of and to sunny. he doesn't know them well enough to distinguish them from his relationships with other people. and as long as no one challenges him on that, we'll continue to hear these misplaced comments from him, that come across so insensitively, even as he tries his best to genuinely help them and their dad.

i‘m watching chay and q!phil talk about q!tubbo. well imma assume it was rp so don’t get mad at me. and i love cc!phil but omg it feels q!phil could not give less of a shit about q!tubbo and his son has a closer relationship to q!tubbo. no he was not only sad about create. he was sad long before the reset. and only chay and sunny seemed to notice and care. i hope tubbo streams today bc i miss his streams so much but i hope q!tubbo stays always for a while until they realise it’s serious.

I know that we got plenty of options as to how everything with the Ender King is going to go down, but a thought that has not left my mind was the idea of the Ender King downing qPhil in some way and taking him away. Which means there would be a chat message for all to see :)

For example :)

It's interesting to me how comparatively calm qPhilza's lore feels, especially in comparison to the heavy angst of qTubbo and qBad all coming to a boil last week/weekend. Like, our cubito is also experiencing personality changes, serious threats and foreshadowing that he may either die, be stolen away, or straight up possessed. The conversations with his eggs about death and what it means are happening. But the vibe is so gentle. The changes (for now) are subtle and quiet. So much happened in today's stream and some of it was deeply concerning and yet I'm despite the way he ended I came out of that feeling warm and cozy and wholesome.

god i can’t stop thinking about how the (core) death family really is such a well fitting puzzle that when even one piece js gone it shows and affects the rest :(

like the death family is incomplete without qmissa, he carries such a huge role in the emotional wellbeing of things, he shines were qphil lacks; the death family is incomplete without qphil, the man consistently keeping the kids alive and fed, he can keep the kids alive but he struggles with the things beyond it, things beyond mere survival; and the kids, we saw how thoroughly their absence affected qphil and qmissa, how tallulah sleeping alone at her old home made the bunker feel so empty and incomplete, how without chayanne this little family would’ve never been formed in the first place. they all fulfill roles that no one else can perform in their place, tallulah and qmissa carry the artistic side and emotional knowledge of the family, qphil and chayanne carry the survivalist aspect of the family with experience and cooking. the family has had to adapt to the absence of members in the past, especially when the kids disappeared, and the toll it takes shows so clearly every time. they are only truly complete with each other, they are a family with so many troubles and ailments that could so easily be fixed by just them all being present, and yet they’re cursed to always miss one. they are always stuck adapting and filling roles to make up for an absence, and crumbling under the pressure each time

WHAT THE FUCKSKSIG

israel is bombing rafah. as you read this, israel is bombing the one place they told palestinians was safe. they kept pushing the palestinians south and now they are bombing the only "safe" place left. israel is bombing rafah.

Wouldn't it be *wild* if the Enderking's grudge against qPhilza came down to a misunderstanding of an overheard joke? Like that happens to qPhilza so much. What if, while exploring Endlantis, he joked to his crows how this place was his now since it was empty, and the Enderking heard that and took it out of context and decided qPhilza was as greedy as he was?

Philza saying all the stuff Crows have been trying to say for two days

Philza's QSMP character's flaw is that he has no emotional intelligence.

He cares, he doesn't want to hurt people, he wants to help people, he even gives pretty good emotional advice sometimes, but he SUCKS at realizing that people are reaching out unless they are incredibly BLUNT about it. He needs them to spell it out or else he won't realize they are asking for help.

Which, I really enjoy watching. He is accidentally hurting other characters without realizing it. He's making drama. Its so fun to watch characters who care for each other just clash a bit. Its realistic.

Anyway, I hope Birdman continues to let the emotional hints fly so high over his head that even if his winfs WEREN'T broke, he wouldn't be able to catch them.

It's been a few hours now and I still stuck at movie night- WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT!?

It's the way it become dead silent on the walk from the movie area, it's the way Philza tries to fill that silences with jokes and laughter, it's the way he stops and stand by Tallulah telling her if she want to go they will go, it's the way Chayanne says today sucked, it's the way how the weight of their person lives falling on their shoulders. It's the way they call for Philza when he trying to comfort his daughter.

It's the way Tallulah goes right to bed at the end of the day not even saying good night. It's the way both Chayanne and Philza lay boneless in the bed staring at ceiling as sleep finally captures them.

Why is cucurucho so clingy with Philza at this event? Haven't been watching other povs but, behavior is a bit odd. i don't trust it

(ahaha totes don't have trust issues from the last times that happened)