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Star beamed up at him like he’d offered her a planet.

I’ve been in a funk lately and haven’t been drawing much, sorry. Though I have been rereading A Human Condition so uh here you go.

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Sapphosscribe’s ‘A Human Condition’ chapter 31

I know he wasn’t a human in this scene but uh… NONSPECIFIC EXCUSE!!! *disappears*

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Sapphosscribe’s ‘A Human Condition’ chapter 31

Blushing Ford my beloved. I love dressing Bill up in funny outfits he’s such a Barbie doll.

Sapphosscribe’s ‘A Human Condition’ chapter 29

Any excuse I can get to not draw a background would be greatly appreciated, thanks. @sapphosscribe

Sapphosscribe’s ‘A Human Condition’ chapter 29

I struggled with this one, but I really wanted to push through and draw this scene. I seriously cannot wait for the next chapter, and am very excited for Summerween. @sapphosscribe

Idea from Sapphosscribe’s recent post. From ‘A Human Condition’

Poor boy doesn’t have headphones. @sapphosscribe

Sapphosscribe’s ‘A Human Condition’ Chapter 28

This “should” be the last post from this chapter, but there were just too many scenes to choose from. Mabel giving him the sweater actually made me cry, along with him cuddling it to sleep, and then being happy to see Mabel again in the mindscape. This fic consumes too much of my life someone stop me. @sapphosscribe

Sapphosscribe’s ‘A Human Condition’ chapter 28

I like to think that Bill is now part of the Mabel protection squad. I love that he’s now joining in on more of their family activities, but there’s a looming voice in my head that is telling me it won’t last long. @sapphosscribe

Sapphosscribe’s ‘A Human Condition’ chapter 28

This is only one drawing of this chapter with many more to come. There were too many amazing scenes to pick just one. As always, @sapphosscribe, you are a god. This chapter held the verses that I will sing to the moon and back. Love it. Amazing.

Sapphosscribe’s ’A Human Condition’ chapter 25

Anyone else notice the similarities between Bill and the Grinch here? Just me? @sapphosscribe

From Sapphosscribe’s ‘A Human Condition’ chapter 27

I just love the way that @sapphosscribe writes words. Reading a story and feeling a story are two completely different things, and I absolutely love that I can feel every word that she writes. When reading through this scene I could feel Bill’s anger radiating through the screen. I felt as though I didn’t master his expression enough in this drawing, and it needed something more to truly encompass Sapphosscribe’s words. And so as I was thinking of that I decided to actually put her words around the side. Fixed it.

Is this still technically ‘A Human Condition’ by Sapphosscribe?

So I had a dream that Bill (Specifically ‘A Human Condition’) had to draw himself a a kid with both his parents. I don’t quite remember why, but he just had to. Wendy, Soos, and all the other characters that don’t know who he really is were there, so he had to draw him and his parents as humans. This is the picture that popped into my mind and I had to draw it the next morning. This has nothing to do with the actual plot so I have no clue if this still counts as fanart.

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Sapphosscribe’s A Human Condition chapter 21

Sorry for the constant posts @sapphosscribe you don’t have to repost all of these. I still have more and I’m sure you’re busy. I just love this story and haven’t been able to draw anything but that for weeks.

A Human Condition by Sapphosscribe, chapter 24

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Happy Valentine’s Day! This image is from Sapposscribe’s A Human Condition, chapter 25

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From Sapphosscribe’s A human Contion’s most recent chapter 26 “I’ll Stare Directly at the Sun But Never in the Mirror”

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A human condition fanart dump 😼 I wasn’t going to render but I emded up loving the sketch of Bill in Ford’s outfit so I chose happiness 🥹

I was on a PLANE rendering him, and when I tell you my ears have not been free of the aftermath 😭 this might be Bill’s karmic justice against me

Always on about my love for long hair yet I still struggle to draw it 😭 I have a lot of concept ideas for environments in mind like Bill’s and Billy’s headspace. Left brain Right Brain at it’s finest !!!

Of course !!! I had to draw the twins !!! My sibling had looked at my collection of A Human Condition fanart and started DRAGGING ME for completely blocking out Dippers face in my comic canvas 😭 He clocked me, by pointing out the obvious that I didn’t want to draw another face 😿 obviously came to redeem myself I do not like Ford’s face once so ever, so I’ll probably have to make a more updated face model chart for Ford and Stan since they are twins 💀

I want to draw the enviorment headspace between Bill and Billy now as a warmup😼 and maybe get a headstart on the grunkles 🔥🔥🔥 but for that eviorment concelt to work, I might need to rewatch a movie I mentioned before 🐺 So with that, I leave with one of my MANY favorite quotes from The Last Unicorn that fits Bill a little too well:

“Do you hear me? You lost her! You trapped her in a human body! She’ll go mad!”

This isn’t my ultimate favorite quote, it’s what Almathea says when she wakes up after what Molly just said 🥹 But I’m begging everyone to gp watch the Last Unicorn if you haven’y sern it !!! It’s free on YouTube i always start crying after finishing it

@sapphosscribe i might dm you again to show the concept of environments, but I am currently in a whole other country at a party so it’ll probably take a while 😭😭 ENJOY THE SNACKS I HAVE PROVIDED

A HUMAN CONDITION CHAPTER 29 RAAHHHH

Dropping these fanart of these guys ! I’m gonna have to work on Fiddlestan this weekend maybe, since I can’t draw Fidds at all 😭 gonna figure out how to draw him today 😕

BUT HERE IS BILLFORD and holy shit 😭 I love how Bill expression came out, Billy looking quite happy 🥹 it’s totally going to be my new pfp me thinks !!!

“No me mires con esos ojos”

“Me deslumbras, me derrumbas”

“No me mires con esos ojos”

“Te lo doy todo, ni modo”

“No me mires con esos ojos que”

“Me derrites, me trasmites”

“La vergüenza del sol, quien en su resplandor. Se ve opacado. A tu lado.”

I definitely recommend listening to Impacto for the candyland scene, geniuely so fitting they make me SCREAM 😭 Aside from that, I changed a little thing up about Billy 🥹 Those eyes are looking a little more cooler… Wish i could animate, it looked way cooler in my head LOL

Personally, I feel like if you let Bill play on the Sims, there’s two households and one Billy takes care of while Bill takes care of the other. One house is in flames and the anger and hate is being projected, the other is a normal home that totally isn’t mourning the home that died all those billion years ago chill 😦 totally… just a funny thought in mind 💀

P.S. I nearly forgot to go back my classroom after my break, I ended up showing up late because I wanted to finish rendering Ford 😭🙏 None of my coworkers were bothered tho !!!

@sapphosscribe fanart has been delivered 🙏 expect more 🥹🔥

I finish one render of a human condition, now I have to start the other !!! Really grateful for the series, it’s gotten me to be more faster at rendering and improve my art more !! I finished rendering Bill’s skin in an hour and rendering skin has usually taken me FOREVER 😭 I think as of now though, I’ll finish Ford and Bill, with a small comic for them 😭 Stan and Mcgucket might come out next week since I never drawn Fidds before 💀 so maybe a new character sheet in the upcoming days 😭

Hey so actually, the newest chapter for A Human Condition fueled my BILL vs Billy analysis and I actually want to CRY, now I’m nack to the board, adding on to it and making more small notes

GUYS GUYS THE MABEL HUGGINHG BILL SCENE, I HAD A VISION 😭😭 I know that face was shifted between those two cuckoos ☹️ but it was Bill who ultimately won over the moment he saw Ford. His selfishness and arrogance come first 😕

Ford bringing the Billy side out through the Candyland game is so heart-wrenching I actually wanted to collapse, they made me so happy and then when Ford realized what was going on, I just VISUALIZED Bill’s face shifting to his default, almost treading the line between BILL and Billy ☹️ and when he called out to Ford, that literally had to be Billy I refuse to believe anything else

It KILLS ME ☹️ personally, I think the only way the Bill vs Billy situation could ever be resolved is Bill accepting Billy and the full healing process continues, or Billy is just completely killed all over again. (Worst-case scenario, Bill accepts Billy but it doesn’t matter because some thing happen and Bill reverts back, the piece of Billy dying)

OH AND THE FIDDLESTAN SCENE HOLY SHIT 😭 GOSH I WAS HOPING FIDDLESTAN WOULD BE INCLUDED !!! They made me so happy this chapter, had me in tears fr… Sorry, I might be overthinking this, and maybe call this a stretch or not, but the fixing the railroad was such a perfect parallel to Bill and Ford ☹️ Except with was the oppsite, where Stan went into a defense mode and then soon softening up, quite literally the opposite to Bill 😭 Stan continues to parallel Bill but he’s if Bill changed for the better. Fiddlestan and Billford my beloved.

Both these couple weave together so beautifully and it drives me insane ☹️ to love someone who doesn’t know themselves is the most challenging form of love, but they just need to guide each other to the safety of security 😭

Fiddlestan being included guys, im actually so happy and such the perfect balance for Billford angst that’s actually going to bash into us. I fear they are going to have so much parallel to each other and I’m not ready ☹️

This was Chapter 29 got me looking like bro 😭 LIKE HOLY FART, what I give to already be good at animations because I would have absolutely tried animating so many scenes 😭 A Human Condition is so animated worthy and that would stop me from at least learning 🥹

@sapphosscribe I SHOULDVE WAITED FOR THIS CHAPTER TO BE OUT BUT IT SERIOUSLY HELP ADD ON TO EVIDENCE FOR MY ANALYSIS 😭😭 back to the drawing board everyone, i need to AT LEAST make a sketch for the scenes i want to redraw 🥹

“I need someone to remember me.”

HUMAN CONDITION POSTER FANART DROPPP RAAHHH 🔥🔥🔥

I WAS GOING THROUGH SM BUT HERE THEY ARE !!! Took so long hope you all like them though !!!

“I need something bigger then the sky.”

The Remenants of Bill

“Hold it in my arms know it’s mine.”

The Thriving Seed of Bill

“Just how many stars do I need to hang around me?”

This took me a while !!! And I can talk about the Bill vs Billy whole thing now 💀

Basically, how I read a Human Condition, it’s practically this whole dichotomy of Bill vs Billy and no one is aware of it. Believing Bill can change is an act of believing Billy is there, believing Bill can’t change means Billy is dead.

Billy is the root of Bill’s empathy and change, or what Bill would call, the root of his weakness. Bill considers Billy weak and deadweight, something worth forgetting. In the first lines, we ever read from Billy in A Human Condition is, “Just fit in”.

In the beginning of the Billy storyline, he himself in a major contradiction to Bill’s own beliefs and self-worth. Billy is what everyone hopes to achieve in the end, but Billy died the day Bill destroyed their dimension… right? Yes and no 🐺

The remnants live on and begin to crack through ways that Bill has taken notice of, especially when he’s with Mabel. It’s moments where he spends time with Mabel, I picture the hostile face shifting to a more softer and rounder face. Mabel brings out the best in him. Unknowingly the reason Billy returns. It isn’t just Mabel that brings the Billy side out. It could be objects of interest or of fear and even guilt. Objects of interest could be the silly straw or the spaghetti scene from the recent chapter. The fear and guilt of Billy is brought out by Ford when he chokes him out or when Bill wanders into the mind space Ford had locked up.

I have more to say about Billy, but man I gotta talk about Bill because I got so much to say about him.

Bill is a cheat, liar, and other say, a monster through and through. But Bill is simply a manifestation of survival and going against all of that he knew. The line in chapter 27, “Yes. I’m completely cured. My irregularity will not affect my ability to fit in, your excellence.” This is a lie that Bill said, this was an act of wanting to survive and protecting himself. This is also the point in the Billy storyline that Billy starts to identify himself with Bill and this is the same chapter where his mother and father starts to call him, Bill, as well.

This is the plantings seeds of Bill, that continue to thrive even after failing the very thing he was manifested for. He allowed not just himself but Billy to die. It’s only now they have another chance, but Bill believes he’s the sole reason why they had survived for so long before. Billy is weak and can only bring in danger. This pathetic, weak, piece of him is holding him back, and yet it is something worth protecting just to survive.

We see Bill truest form through lines like, “But Bill wasn’t weak. He was strong and he was smarter than all of them. They didn’t see it yet, but he could prove it! He only needed time. He wouldn’t be a burden, he would be a credit to all triangles, like his parents had said. He was different than other irregulars. He was better.”

But the next line is, “Because Bill was weak in the eyes of Euclydia. He was a freak, an irregular. He was made wrong. And yet. Bill wanted to live.”

Bill is a manifestation of wanting to survive and not letting anyone in. Even in this weak human form, that motivation drives home. He is protecting not himself but Billy as well.

I imagine if you were to enter Bill’s mind, it would be this split down the middle where Bill and Billy are seprated, but both of them have a piece of each other. Bill with a younger and triangle Billy, while good old human Billy is trapped with a more familiar triangle Bill.

Here’s pictures without the word 😼

“To finally get somewhere I can be all done.”

“Somewhere like Heaven.”

That’s how read Bill and Billy’s storyline and interpreted it. The drawings showcase them and in their own spaces. I like to think Bill is in the darkest part and only he and Billy illuminate the space. I gave him crazy long hair that would be everywhere since he is everywhere and because having long hair is great, but such a pain to try and maintain and take care of.

Billy looks the most like Bill’s human form, since he practically accepted this and the only artical of clothing he’s wearing is the sweater Mabel has gifted them. He’s in the brighter and hopeful side since he holds all the good parts. He’s just trapped with a piece of Bill, still trying to guard him.

Can’t wait to see what A Human Condition has in store and I’ll probably continus on with this theory/headcanon 😭 I actually have some headcanons about Bill and Billy, but idk if anyone wants to hear allat 💀

@sapphosscribe AGAIN, you’re such a talented writer! Got me thinking and all 😭 can’t wait to see what you have been cooking up 😼

As I get closer and closer to completing the duology posters, I have to travel through each chapter to find a specific quote for the two posters (this Bill quote is from the newest chaoter teehee 🥹) A Human Condition is so beautifully written I have to control myself when skimming bc then I’m gonna start reading instead of drawing LOL

I’ll go into depth of why this Bill quote and the other quote I’m hoping to find are chosen instead of every other in the next post, but it very much has to do with the dichotomy of Bill vs Billy that I briefly touched upon in the last post

BUT ANYWAYS HERES A SUPER BLURRY SNEAK PEAK OF THE SECOMD POSTER!!! I’m sure if you seen the face model sheet, you can tell which one we’re seeing if you squint

I think it’ll be finished tonight and uploaded tomorrow in the morning !!! But for now, eat these crumbs that is leading to a box 😼

@sapphosscribe GET A SNEAK PEAK

God damn am i checking all my task off today 😭

Anyways !!! As I prepare the upcoming A Human Condition poster duology, I had to make face reference sheets for Bill because holy artwork, does these poster require some intricate choices, and oh my gosh, I gave him such a cunty face card 😭

Honestly, I can’t tell which face I like more 😭 I wanna lean more towards Billy because I swear I captured the look of hope so well, but then Bill is there and god damn do I love how threatening he looks (not sure if you can see the faint red in his iris LOL) Default is actually a little silly to me, I didn’t mean to give an arch brow, but now I can see this guy holding an arch brow as default 💀

Go check out A Human Condition genuinely such a amazingly written story 🙏

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A HUMAN CONDITION RAAAAAAAHHHHH 🔥🔥🔥

Once again, click images for HIGHER QUALITY WOOHOO !!!

The newest chapter of A Human Condition DESTROYED ME 😭 they made Bill so happy and before hand, I was planning on making another grand poster drawing fanart for it again !!! But I had to draw these scenes AHHH

I can’t wait to get started on the next poster promo drawing. I thought that the long hair Bill's drawing took years, but I know this upcoming one is going to take a LONG time. Worth it though! I already came up with the title names for the duology (ITS A DUO ONE OH GOSH) nicely called “The Thriving Seeds of Bill” and “The Remnants of Billy”.

Guys I will go into crazy depths of explaining the war between Bill and Billy in the upcoming fanart, but I’ll be pretty short here me thinks. Throughout the story, Bill is shown hostility, but there’s glaring moments where he drops his anger and danger, a more softer and easygoing side. It’s in the scene in the silly straw, where it was very much written that his face had lit up. I’m basically saying, even though Billy is lowkey dead, he lives on in these moments of his safety with Mabel or when he’s brought back to the memories of his younger self. We’re watching a man slowly return to a more whimsical moment before watching it die all over again.

I could say more, but I’m already yapping enough is 🥹 Plus this means I need to draw two face models for A Human Condition Bill show casing the softer and lighten up Billy side and then the hostile and sharp Bill side. I will post those as it’s own separate thing 🫡 (also, dw, Everlasting Night upcoming chapter is almost done 🙏 STAY STRONG EVERYONE)

@sapphosscribe KEEP UP THE AMAZING WRITING WOOHOOO

A HUMAN CONDITION FANART RAHHH

I FINALLY got my new iPad chat !! And just as I promise from my last artwork of Bill, I would make A Human Condition fanart !! And LORD the new chapter hit so HARDD !!! (Rip Bill, you would’ve loved Jinx) His crash-out was so AHH, I’m not ready to face more of his deteriorating mental state yet 😭😭

I hope I served the scene well !!! I added a couple of things that could be left up for interpretation !!! 🥹

Random tangent here, but I always imagine Bill looking like the most beautiful woman ever that you can never have or like a celebrity crashing out. Honestly, he’s lowkey serving here 🗿

@sapphosscribe hope you and your cat are doing okay !! Take care !!!

Chat, a human condition uploaded earlier and I desire to make fanart but I literally have no idea what scene from it I could create as fanart IM LOSING IT

A Human Condition fan artists are all so genuinely amazing artists with such amazing styles 😭 Like oh my god, every time I see fanart I swear it’s just banger after banger !!

I would ask what are they feeding us A Human Condition artist, but we’ve been eating that fic up 😭😭

Two drastically different scenes from Chp. 25!

Hope you feel better soon @sapphosscribe 💕💕💕

“Park that car, drop that phone, sleep on the floor, dream about me.”

I COME WITH MORE A HUMAN CONDITION FANART (a background is here 😟 ive never drawn a background let alone rendered one) This piece is based on Chapter 25 !!! Actually fell in love with that chapter and while I was rendering the background after reading, I thought about making a duo drawing of Ford playing the piano, so it be a duology !!! If there’s a reference that mimics this I’d love to grab my hand on it !!! I love parallels 🙏 (this been edited bc the lighting was messed up and i forgot the other without the lighting 😿)

I hit Bill with the I Saw the TV Glow poster, because genuinely think that movie and the Last Unicorn would have torn him apart tbh 💀 I almost made the title a quote from either movie 😭

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I finished reading the newest A Human Condition chapter, chat don’t let Bill watch The Last Unicorn i genuinely think that would destroy him LOL 💀

Currently continuing the piece of fanart for said fanfic, barely starting base colors and then I’ll script a short comic and then sleep 😭 I actually never drawn backgrounds before, but when you’re dedicated you’re dedicated

So we all read that one line from a human condition right 🗿 the hand line