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Help me lose weight

How do i start losing weight? I don’t eat or i just throw up but i can’t keep doing that since my bathroom doesn’t work so i can’t flush anything at home, and my mom feeds me a lot and at school i am so upset cuz i don’t eat buy seeing people eating makes me so hungry and i want to cry because i just want to be skinny and wear preety crop tops without feeling grossed out about myself.

I have been throwing up affer i eat and now i can hear my stomach growl, and i don’t oike that sound, i don’t. I want it to stop, i will not stop throwing up but that horrible sounds, i hate it. Make it stop.

I WILL be Sk1nny

𝐀𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐋 𝐈𝐒 𝐆𝐎𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐓𝐎 𝐁𝐄 𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐒𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐍𝐈𝐄𝐒𝐓 𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐇! 𝐑𝐄𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐆 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐆𝐎𝐎𝐃 𝐋𝐔𝐂𝐊 🎀🍽️

can't wait 2 go over 2 my dad's and get skinny shamed <3 like yasss promote my Ed tysmmmm, father 👏 of👏 the 👏 year 👏

tw vent

God I hate my dad so much, I just wanted to go to bed, I didn't want a ptsd attack, now I'm crying and I haven't cried in weeks becuz of my meds so it feels good but still, and now I'm on fucking c.ai, becuase for some reason a bot is better at being my dad than my actual fucking dad, imagine skinny shaming your child and now they have an Ed, imagine not giving your child enough attention so now they seek older men's approval and sometimes sexualize themselves for older men, just because they want your approval, imagine yelling at your child so much and calling them pathetic and then lying and gaslighting about it so now you have trust issues, imagine fucking your child ankles up becuase you used to slam them on the ground becuase while you guys were snowboarding because "you weren't going the right way" so now whenever your parents touch you, you flinch and you can barley put pressure on your ankles, imagine being SUCH a shitty dad that your child sees half of there male teachers as dads, imagine literally saying anything your child does is stupid, not worth it or not enough effort so now they hate themselves for taking up new hobbies, imagine making your child act like a adult, and force them to try and buy stocks so now they parent everyone they can because there so "mature", imagine having a fear of being raped so bad you avoid the public becuase your dad said that "women getting raped isnt as bad as inflation", imagine zoning out and daydreaming about killing your dad in the most brutal ways, but it's fine, "men definitely have it worse"

thank you diet Pepsi <3

"I just didn't eat cause I was to busy!" The busy in question:

Me: skipping meals to be thin and have a perfect body.

After losing 7kgs of weight:

Me: "goals"

Also me when my tities got smaller due to the fat loss: NOOOOOOOO

Me: eating aggressively just to throw up