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First Reo defending his title as the #1 Nagi glazer

Then Nagi confirming to be the biggest undercover simp ever

Goodbye Nagireo😔. You'll always be the most homosexual pair in "straight" anime to ever be created.

Tremble for yourself, my man

You know that you have seen this all before

Tremble, little lion man

You'll never settle any of your scores

Your grace is wasted in your face

Your boldness stands alone among the wreck

Now learn from your mother or else

Spend your days biting your own neck

But it was not your fault but mine

And it was your heart on the line

I really fucked it up this time

Didn't I, my dear?

Didn't I, my dear?

Weep for yourself, my man

You'll never be what it's in your heart.

Weep, little lion man

You're not as brave as you were at the start.

Rate yourself and rake yourself

Take all the courage you have left

And waste it on fixing all the problems that you made in your own head

But it was not your fault but mine

And it was your heart on the line

I really fucked it up this time

Didn't I, my dear?

Didn't I, my -

Ok, Idk if I'm going crazy or what.

I was listening to music on YouTube, one of those channels that put the lyrics of the songs in bubbly lettering and soft backgrounds.

Anyway, I'm doing my things and suddenly hear a line that reminds me of my most recent trauma, which is Nagi's death, ofc.

-On a second note, how did Reo manage to get divorced and widowed, all before being properly married, at 17? Dude is way ahead of his age-

Anyway, I was listening to a song and suddenly I'm like "oof, that sounded like it came straight out of some epinagi emotional moment" I look down to the screen...the background is purple.

I laugh to myself.

Next song rolls around (it's a random yt generated playlist, I didn'tpick it) it reminds me of Nagi's gay ass monologue, all the 'I need to be who Reo wants me to be bc he's so dazzling and I wanna stay by his side forever' and I'm like wow what a beautiful song. It's purple again.

Now I think I might be hallucinating and that, since I'm a nagireo obsessed stan, everything reminds me of them. Another song starts and I swear I'm not lying to you, every single line sounds like a fucking poem written by the Nagi himself as a confession to Reo before parting. I, sucker for tragic songs, (but not tragic endings) have never heard a more romantic and desperate song in my life. And I kid you not when I tell you that it was the very same violet shade you and I know. Like looking straight into Reo's eyes while hearing Seishiro pour his heart out.

I'm done, that's it. Is there not a single doomed soulmates song that's not purple coded? Is the algorithm doing this to me on purpose?

At this point I just hate them for loving eachother so much and not being able to say it properly, and thus making it everyone else's problem even mine.

The only thing keeping me from never reading blue lock again is thinking that Nagi will make a grand comeback and then smooch Reo out of his mind in front of a ton of people just like he's being humiliated in public now and only cares about his partner. For the time being, we'll miss you sleepyhead 🙏😔 Praying for your greatness.

I'm (not) fine

I've waited for a whole week, biting on my nails and anxiously gripping my seat to properly read chapter 298 -because just from the spoilers I already knew my heart couldn't take it- so I could pair it up with 299 and see if I have to find gasoline for my nagireo shrine catching fire or not.

And you know what I've got???

There's no friggin chapter!

It's scheduled for the 15th! Another whole ass week of ripping my hair out and for what? For Reo to realise he's always been good enough on his own and he just liked Nagi bc he was the first one not to pretend to be nice around him and decided to pull him along so he wouldn't be alone? And kicking Nagi to the curb bc boy I love you but you fucked up. Or Reo to actually try and comfort him but Nagi, who's not used to deal with this kind of emotions, tries to detach himself from the situation and pulls away? And either he quits or they end up as rivals? And my heart that once was white and purple to dye itself black with dread?

I still see a tiny, itty bitty sliver of hope feebly flickering by the end of the tunnel but now I have to wait another week.

Another week of pain and mental instability.

Dude I have exams this week! I can't deal with this kind of emotional suffering rn!

Another long week and for what? For the laugh? You like watching the timer go slowly down before our hearts all collectively break, Kaneshiro?

Oh, Kaneshiro, when I catch you...

Anyway, sorry for the rant. Idk, tell me what u think in the comments or smt i guess.