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I am not a violent person…

but there is always at least one bitch imma be fighting in my dr. I will be throwing hands at least once. Every. Single. Time.

Typical conversation between me and my best friend:

Me: “hear me out— Minecraft server in my hogwarts dr.”

Them: “Who would get blown up by a creeper?”

Me: “… Draco, obviously.”

My Brother’s Shifter Girlfriend: Update

First of all, she goes by Mars. It will be much easier to refer to her as such and not her long winded title.

Anyways! We yapped about our Hogwarts drs mostly, though she has a few others like Hazbin Hotel and COD and some others I can’t remember at the moment.

I won’t say much about her Hogwarts dr because I’m not sure what she’d be comfy with me telling you. But I will say three things:

Her parents are Snape and Bellatrix.

Her and Snape live in an apartment in Hogwarts.

She usually doesn’t script a love interest but Sebastian from Hogwarts Legacy is calling out to her soul.

Her and I will be doing this again. If you wanna know anything specific lemme know and I’ll tell you what I can!

I’m not gonna lie we spent most of the time hating on Pansy and Cho because they are our arch nemeses.

cried so hard last night because my dr s/o is so perfect and amazing and I’m so utterly in love with him and he’ll never know the depth he will never know the sacrifice he will never know the five years it took me just to be somewhere he existed in my life and it made me sob profusely.

Shifting tonight tho 😗✌️

A message from my brother’s shifter girlfriend:

HELLO all you BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE how are we doing today? good? well great, we are here, we are yapping, we are DISCUSSING our drs. praise waluigi and blessed be :p

for everyone invested— my brother’s shifter girlfriend has just arrived

the yap sesh has commenced

I’ve had “death wish” by gracie abrams on repeat for the past three days. Literally. If I’m playing music, it’s that song and nothing else. For hours on end. Even if I try to listen to something else it does not hit the same and I just revert back.

I literally cannot stop. It’s currently playing as I type this out. Oh look at that it just ended… and it’s playing again. And it shall for the rest of the night.

(I think it has to do with the fact that I’ve related it to my lore in my hogwarts academia dr— but also I’ve never listened to a song repetitively for so long…)

stuck between wanting to post every little thing about my drs and never actually knowing what to tell yall

“my hogwarts academia dr is gonna be chill, just vibes, less chaotic than my hogwarts band dr—”

I’m a goddamn liar.

I’ve started scripting a few songs I want to write along with my novel & poetry collection. I’ve added dramatic lore. I’ve scripted that lore comes back to haunt me quite literally.

Can I have one dr where I’m not putting myself through despair? Please?

Spoiler: the answer is no.

I’ve recently embraced having different names in my drs, along with hairstyles and tattoos and stuff.

I used to be so adamant on being the same me I know here. I guess I’m a sentimental bitch. But then I had to change my name and hair in my Nightmare Before Kissmas dr for canon purposes and it was… liberating. And now i’m so into it. I want to be a new bitch every single time.

Just for context, or visuals, or just because I want to show you— here are the vibes for both my hogwarts realities (ft. a glimpse at what my scripts look like kinda not really)

I always thought my eyes were special. They’re icey blue with a dark ring around them— and they stand out, but they’re cold.

His eyes are warm. They’re a brown backlit by the sun. They’re the chocolate chips in freshly baked cookies, melted and sweet and from home.

My eyes may be the sky, or the ocean. But his are the earth, the soil where flowers bloom. My eyes reflect the sun but his absorb the light and shine it upon any who are fortunate enough to be seen by him.

I look into his eyes and I feel my ice melting.

every night I am Coraline. I am her, huddled under those blankets, desperate to just go home… only to wake up and say “I’m still here?”

I prefer sleep methods because I cannot fathom just— blinking and being there, ya know? But every time I go to shift I get insanely restless. So, like… fuck me I guess?

trying to sleep but I just imagined what it’ll be like to hug my dr s/o for the first time and started giggling

I did my laundry and showered and changed my bedding today— as a little treat, I shall shift realities.

I get all giddy just thinking about my dr like what do you mean that’s my life? What do you mean I’m literally there right now? I’m giggling and kicking my feet.

had a dream last night that wasn’t about my dr but may have just inspired a new one 👀

adding ‘Unsaid Emily’ to my Inheritance Games DR playlist and cackling maniacally (I’m so sorry Grayson baby I love you)

just found out my dr s/o is and/or was an hour away from where I live… what do you mean the love of my life who doesn’t know I exist in this reality is an hOUR AWAY what is he dOING HERE I actually can’t take it I’m shifting right the fuck now I NEED HIM

(edit: I was in shambles writing this okay I mean the actor who plays him is supposedly an hour away and my body did not know how to process that)

I was just talking to my mom about executive dysfunction and how it’s not just for things you don’t want to do (I saw a post on instagram and felt seen… anyways)

The words were out of my mouth and then I just had to stop and stare because— maybe I haven’t shifted because of this. Yes, I want to shift. I know I want to shift. But maybe it’s in the same way I think to myself “oh I want to play that game” or “oh I want to watch that movie” and then simply ✨don’t✨

Maybe that’s what I’m doing with shifting.

Now the question is… how the hell do I stop?

Because this is more than just a video game or a random movie. I want it, I crave it, I ache for it. I feel my drs in my heart and in my soul. I am haunted by the knowledge of what it will be like to love and be loved in my drs— and yet I remain here.

But I will break this godforsaken cycle if it’s the last thing I do because fuck you I want to shift and therefore I will.

god I just want to love him. I want to show him what love is supposed to be like. I want to show him that he doesn’t have to be alone. I want to hold him and comfort him and I want to give him everything he’s ever wanted. I want to spend the rest of my life making sure he is surrounded by love and happiness and oh my god I’m so desperately in love with him please.

yall ever hear a song and go “I want to base an entire dr off these vibes alone” or am I just that insane?

today is a good day— new dr just dropped. here comes the dopamine.

no, I’m not staring at my bedroom wall right now. I’m actually in the middle of training with Dick Grayson. Duh.

I will shift.

I WILL shift.

I will SHIFT.

I WILL SHIFT.

he is so gorgeous who let me script a two year slow burn I actually can’t do this good lawd

another night, another neocitran and a new dr to shift to.

the amount of research I put into establishing the timeline of a dr is astounding— more effort than I ever put into school

there is nothing quite as motivating as a fresh, new dr to script. I am vibrating with excitement I have so many ideas the possibilities are endless I am tHRIVING