Firstkhao - Blog Posts

Thank you. [3 Will Be Free] is my dearest project, too. We have more runaway thieves and guns this year, but it's going to be a romantic comedy. Wait to watch.

Jojo with FirstKhao and the infamous tattoo video, plus them wanting a romantic comedy and First buffing up for his next character (we think).

Anyway. 2024 Jojo and FK.

First and Khaotung share the money they make for individual appearances 😭 Saving up for that house, I guess 😭

I love them so much

I’ve been watching Not Me and Only Friends at the same time, having watched The eclipse of weakly two months before.

First is just coming at me with his characters. I am feeling very attacked.

But the thing I was trying to say is, it would be interesting if Only Friends and Not me were in the same universe.

Either one can come first and make a interesting timeline.

Only friends happening the year after Not Me. Yok changed his name to Sand and changed unis to avoid the fall out from Not me. He is still recovering from Dan but hasn’t learnt his lesson and falls in with Ray.

Or, Only friends coming first in the timeline and Ray breaks Sand’s heart. During one of his odd jobs he falls in with Sean and Black and joins the gang. He falls for Dan in hopes of getting over Ray (but we know how that goes).

Urgh I just want fics where First’s characters end up more with Khao’s characters cause they are amazing together. (Also I want Yok and Sand to have hugs).

A lot of people in the fandom were mad at Sand for not drawing the line right away and sorta slumbering through Boeing's entire slut agenda but folks

As someone who identifies so strongly with Sand as a character I was happy to see Ray step up and claim him so shamelessly, so confidently. Because saviors also need saving sometimes, and this was the reassurance Sand needed. This was Ray proving he was all in and not only for his own sake. Sure Sand should have established boundaries right away but damn it give him a break. It was meh morally but it was okay, it was understandable. He's got issues of his own, he is not there just to serve Ray's arc

Ray is like "Oh yeah my boyfriend is still in love with his ex" after watching Sand go into complete autopilot and giving the most dead fish kiss to Boeing

Like bro he kissed you right after that and it was like he was deprived of oxygen and you were his oxygen mask

Thank you to Sand for being my role model

He's someone I relate to very much and I see so much of my romantic tendencies in him

Only he does draw boundaries. He does have self-respect. He refuses to give up his integrity

Thank you so much maybe I do have a chance at a fulfilling relationship

I am not ready for anyone's opinions honestly, but I just have to say this: as someone who has an alcoholic sibling, there is only so much you can do to stop an addict.

I mean, the friend group is shitty. I don't see the love or loyalty one expects from a friend group. Frankly, I don't think any of them have ever taken Ray's addiction seriously, but we do not know if they ever tried to help.

At some point you become exhausted. At some point, you realize the person you care about will not quit if they don't want to.

And Ray does have agency. He did not have to bring drugs to the party. His dellusions explain his behavior but do not justify it.

I'm very angry with Ray this week I'm sorry. This show is hitting too close to home

Next week's preview makes next week worth living

Only I hate the fact that Sand is the one confessing. I hate it. He deserves to be confessed to. He deserves to be chased after. Ray needs to fucking repent because he's fucked up so many times and Sand needs to be less forgiving

I am so normal about Sand it's not like I relate to him or anything

I wonder if they cried in this interview too

The two cannot fucking go one interview without sobbing about each other

Love them to death

Many people in the fandom are convinced that SandRay won't get a happy ending because it's 'not a bl' and it's 'realistic'. First of all, even I, the resident hopeless romantic, understand that realism is not the same as pessimism. Second of all, it's P'Jojo we're talking about. He loves giving people happy endings after a couple of tragic twists and time jumps. Just think about Bad Buddy or Never Let Me Go and their endings. I am a SandRay-is-endgame truther, because of the reasons listed above and because I will bawl my eyes out in the case they don't end up together.

Many people in the fandom are convinced that SandRay won't get a happy ending because it's 'not a bl' and it's 'realistic'. First of all, even I, the resident hopeless romantic, understand that realism is not the same as pessimism. Second of all, it's P'Jojo we're talking about. He loves giving people happy endings after a couple of tragic twists and time jumps. Just think about Bad Buddy or Never Let Me Go and their endings. I am a SandRay-is-endgame truther, because of the reasons listed above and because I will bawl my eyes out in the case they don't end up together.

That's why I'm so sensitive about Sand. I relate to him so much it hurts. He's a person who has learned that there's no point in expecting anything from people. He doesn't see himself as anyone special, as someone who can be "the one". He takes responsibility for his feelings and doesn't blame anyone for being hurt. But he feels so,so much. He cares more than he can take and more than others can appreciate. He's doomed to get hurt and I am too.

And that is absolutely tragic

You know what absolutely kills me about this? Sand doesn't even look surprised. He isn't teary or wide-eyed. It's a look of pure disappointment. The kind that says he knew this would happen from the start, and he's utterly powerless to stop it.

While seeing Sand breaking down in tears would have been devastating, there's something very achy about this reaction. It's hard to put into words.

Today is the day

The day a new episode of only friends comes out

The only thing that kept me afloat for the entire week

If I don't get some resolution to SandRay's fight I will drown my sorrows in soju

Actually everything on tumblr is about Ray and Sand from only friends

I love characters that think they can't allow themselves to love or be loved

just to have someone stride into their life to turn that concept upside down

GMMTV really decided to produce a show which on the surface level is about messy queers fucking the brains out of each other but on the deeper level is really about the power dynamics in queer relationships and how important having control is for so many people

it's the way Top is used to having the upper hand, but in his new relationship it's Mew who has control

it's the way Sand is so afraid of losing control over his own emotions in his relationship with Ray, but he's bound to catch feelings, we all know it

it's the way Boston doesn't get attached to anyone but loses control in his pursuit of Top

it's all about who's got the power, who protected their heart the best

okay but this LOOK

the look after Ray asked Sand if he found him attractive

First I applaud you for mastering the "trying to remain calm and collected while being horny" face