Jiraiblr - Blog Posts

Saw my moots @sw33tl1f3 do this poll so I'm doing it ^^

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"No M, you can't carve the name of all your mutuals and friends onto your body !"

God forbid a boy has hobbies 🙄

"you're all jirai enough" Until one of us is fat, pudgy, copes/deals with trauma in a different manner than what's commonly perceived, doesn't dress "dark girly", is transgender, is gay, is a man (????there's a literal term for Male jirais), is black, isn't European, isn't Japanese, isn't American, is from a second or third world country, *can't* dress "dark girly", doesn't self harm, doesn't do drugs, doesn't do alcohol, is hypersexual, isn't an NSO fan, is pro-recovery (that one's a little debatable but whatever), isn't a female in general, isn't deathly pale, doesn't have an ED, doesn't have "soul crushing" trauma, is undiagnosed, self harms but not by cutting, and the list goes on

It’s so weird that people’s first thought isn’t cutting themselves when they’re having a shitty day. Crazyyyyyy like I’m about to have the time of my life with my blades when I get home.

Another thing I hate with jirai tt is that whenever there's a darker skinned or plus sized jirai they don't classify them as one :(((

I wish I had a reason to attend school :P

I’ve been alone before, but being alone again still hurts.

Jirai tiktok when a minor can't afford the expensive blouses that adults can >:((

(seriously wtf is wrong with Jirai tiktok, they revolve it all around the fashion and whenever they see someone who actually has a more explosive disorder they get angry that there not doing it correctly...like...that's the whole point...Jirai means Landmine, and Landmine's explode...)

“you hurt yourself so what’s the difference of me hitting you” im mentally ill and your just crazy.

“Jirai Kei is dying” thank god now all the posers are gonna start selling their shit for lower prices on Vinted because it’s “less desirable”

Im posting these to close to each other 😭

More make-up and sfw training!!!

(Bc living rn is making me wanna go...uhm...do some reaalllyyyy hard and deep...make-up...)

Tw: realistic blood and cuts :3👍

Im js a rlly good make-up artist, it's all fake and for my classes >////<

I think I got baaabbyyy styro??? Idk tho, I dont wanna hype myself up cause yikes :P

me core after downing the whole box of chips cause i was a lil sad🤤🤤

Like ??? Is thattt styro?? Or js a deeper cat scratch :P I think I'm being dramatic I'm gna jump.

Anyway :P here's all of my leg🤤🤤 I like fucking 10 sliced in that big bleeding one (the moot who got sent the video can vouch for me ~)

Oh, my thigh is just begging to be cut..

YOU ARE VALID!! it doesn't matter whether you had a good childhood or good parents, no trauma or bully experience. You feel how you feel for a reason, and that reason no matter how small it may seem compared to others is valid.

They hurt ╯︿╰

tw: realistic sfw and make-up:P

I "cleaned" them up but they stinging now :(((

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I noticed to liked my post about hypersexuality and I noticed you like cinnamoroll, so I thought I'd digitally give you a cinnamoroll plush.

You may save them as the background on your phone, computer or laptop, witch ever you have Tumblr on so that when ever you open that device you see them and (hopefully) smile.

this kinda made me tear up. Tysm. I js cms because I was having the most disgusting thoughts about myself and others, and I didn't know how to stop it. idk if It's an episode or not, but his really js fucking made my night ♡♡♡♡♡ I can't thank you enough ♡♡♡

ur amazing and you dont even know it

lol ya I dont🤤🤤🤤🤤

I hate when my mother wants to "experiment" with food

I reeeealllyyy wanna go to a mental hos >_< no responsibility, no expectations just being as unhinged as I want and getting care !?!? Sounds fabulous

inside of me there are two wolves…

idk what happened to my day, but I feel really bad now. I guess that's what I wanted

I js feel very small. Like I want to be. I really want someone to care for me, and like me, and not make me feel bad. I'm very scared right now, I don't have anyone to help me, and its really scary. I know I kinda joke about suicide but I don't tell anyone about how bad it gets. I don't like getting violent thoughts to hurt myself, I just want to be held and taken care of, and understood that I can't be ok

Whatever, mb, my throat really hurts

KK therapy was alright today :3

My therapist convinved my mother to stop pestering with questions about my life, sooo yipiierrss !!!!

But now i feel weird, ebcause i feel happy without feeling manic and hyper...sooo uhhh, i might slit or sum to make myself feel worse again :3

ALTHOUGH I DOOOO WANNA KEEP UP SOME MOTIVATION TO WRITE, SO I MIGHT TRY TO GET SO MANY CHAPTERS OUT :D

idk if im gonna be able to keep myself stable enough to fake being non suicidal in therapy tmrw :P Plus i think my hearts gone again, so if i get hospitalised, uhhhh :(((( I'll cry :(( because i wont be alowed on my phone, and i need to be online otherwise i wont be able to get any attention ╯︿╰

I wanna be independent because that's how I've been taught to be, but whenever someone starts talking about having a partner or a friend group I get so sick with jealousy

How my mother wants me to act after she threatens to hit me

Shes found someone else omfg how do I mess all this shit up this bad

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I hate how I never get to talk about my interests ( ´△｀)

My irl today was yapping about whatever thing he likes, and I make sure I make a noise or answer back and ask questions to show im engaged, and then when I yap about my interests he just completely ignores it :(((

He was talking abt supernatural (the show idk??) And I was listening and like staying silent to listen and then when I tried talking about Yandere sim he completely shifted the conversation to how his ankle hurt....

Idk, I'm js gonna start not reacting when he talks about his interests, because it's fine that he's interested or whatever but it's alllll the time. His interests are the only thing we talk about and it's boring :/

idk what's wrong with me, I read yosuke sneakers as yoai cakes 💔💔💔

TRYING TO BUY THE YOSUKE SNEAKERS AND MY CARD KEEPS DECLINING TwT

I got too tired to post my make up and sfx last night ^^

But here it is now :3

Tw: realistic cvts and bl00d

I got triggered by a song, how pathetic....ahsufohajr I miss ber so much :(((

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Js some cat scratches :3

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I did this first then i really needed to do it again :(((( soooo glad my ex dearest can make me feel this shit about myself (*´～｀*)

Secconddd cut thingggg. I did it more on my hip :P

Also this one wouldn't stop bleeding >:((((

At least the blood is yummerssss >////<

Im lonely and tired :((( I js want my dearest back💔

don’t come into my life just to leave. i will slit my throat.

SDUHXNUWDHXHUSHDX THANK U FOR THE SPAM U SPARKLING NEW MOOT

WAHHH, I WAS LITERALLY GONNA DO THIS AS WELL >//////<

tyssmmm new moot >/////<;