Old Rant - Blog Posts

I hate having feelings because it means I can cry at any moment, I hate it. I hate my trust in others, I hate my hypocrisy, I hate talking, I hate my class, I hate me living. And I honestly hate the one I called my "best friend" about a week ago.

Who acts like just because they suffered something and got over it, people should do the same, they don't care if they had gone through worse than they had, they don't care that it left a psychological and emotional scar in them, they just... I don't want them close to me anymore, I do not trust them anymore. They think I should look in their point of view, but their point of view is delusional, and fake, they thinks people can easily go over their trauma, just because she did, she says that it doesn't matters of what other think about their traumas, only about what her think, so what is different about it? Do they really care for anything?

Ever since they began to act more sassy, I didn't care, but now, I see I should care. They acted like just because they can go over some sh★t, everyone can, is not everyone who is like that, not everyone can just act like it never happened, because it still follows them, everywhere they go, they can show signs that they don't care about it anymore, but we shouldn't judge on just that, we don't know what they went through, we shouldn't be acting like it wasn't a big deal, everyone has their own way to deal with trauma, but we shouldn't just disrespect someone's reason, just because it doesn't seem like a big deal.

And no, this is not some trauma of mine, but from a story I'm writing, I talked about one my characters trauma to my friends and that one friend I was talking in the start said they deserved it, but, they did no sh☆t, why would they deserve it...? I don't know, but rn I'm really mad at them rn...

If you read until here, I apologize for it being so long, and if some of you disagree with me. I just thought it wasn't fair. They were talking as if everyone should go over their trauma quick and fast, I'm not saying people shouldn't get over their trauma, I'm saying they should do it in their own time, I would hate myself if- (that's where it ended)

So.. I just found this whole ahh essay of me hating on someone, but I don't remember who it is, because, well, I'm Dory 🐟

And I don't remember what it was about either. Maybe I was just having a terrible day and the person reminded me of something that triggered trauma.