Ramblings - Blog Posts

I enjoyed this month. I lived by the rule of: my camera roll is just a bunch of work schedules and spreadsheets. How do I fix this?

Then I planned a bunch of fun shit to go do with friends. Now, my camera roll is full of smiling faces, pumpkins, and art.

Look at your camera roll and see what you can do or plan to make it more colorful and joyous to reflect upon.

Sometimes I miss sleep

Not what I do every night, not what I'll continue to do for the rest of my life. I miss sleep.

I miss the slow process of laying down, with the buzzing noise of my childhood friend's TV or the distant sound of the train.

I miss my little sister telling me she could hear Rudolph on the roof or asking me for a story.

I miss the feeling of falling into sleep, and I say falling so literally, as I can still identify that familiar drop in my stomach before I succumbed.

I can still picture that same image of myself falling, not unlike Alice, into a never-ending tunnel of quilts, slowly until I headed off to my own wonderland.

I miss waking up in a sea of warmth, a hand, or a leg thrown across me, snores ringing through the room. Light hits my face from a window coated in dust. My pajamas are the same clothes I'd worn the night prior, that I'll wear again today.

I miss my childhood friend's mother softly asking me if I'd come with her to get breakfast for everyone. I don't have to put on my shoes.

I miss the feeling of falling asleep on the way to the donut shop while Green Day sings me a lullaby. The car shakes as we hit pothole after pothole, but it's still the best I'll feel for months.

I miss the way my friends mother will lightly hold a cold bottle of orange juice to my skin, the way she'll laugh softly when I shrink away from it.

I miss her asking me if I'm awake yet.

I miss answering that it's too early.

Both The Town Where Everyone Was Nice and The Duck Knight returns have some painful cliffhangers…

I think it could work if you mix the two together for sequel, like the towns people from The Town Where Everyone Was Nice, sent a letter to three caballeros to invite in celebration for them saving the town, but somehow (probably due to Launchpad) the letters mixed up Darkwing gets the letter, and Donald gets drake’s letter to something, Drake confused at first but celebration is celebration, so he goes and little yellow duck follows him and trouble arises, (they probably compare it bushroot). But in end, of course the day is once again saved, or you also have thing where plants made their way to St.Canard and Darkwing has stop them, maybe mayor even got infected.. oooo~

had to wash my hair earlier so shout out the bitches who can do hair and are good at, the bitches who can't do hair and struggle to style it, the ones who are average at it and can only do "basic" hairstyles. yall are valid as fuck I see you

idk abt the rest of yall but I want more angst around noes memory ability. And not just the "ohh noe can see into memories and can never drink vanitas' blood and the moment he does vani will never trust him again 😱😥" No!! I want to see noe having trouble remembering what memories are his and which are the ones he took from another person. I want to see him begin to tell a story of something he randomly remembered only to be reminded that its not his memory. I want to see him feeling another person emotions from sharing memories and struggle to disconnect from it because it never even happend to him. Or feeling guilty over another's action that they did in the memory and having to told that he doesn't have to feel guilty bc it wasn't him and struggling to explain his feelings about why does anyway.

Just give me more of noe struggling with his powers.

R.I.P. Bianca, you would've loved having Percy as an older sibling figure

Idc what yall say, I fully believe that if Bianca had lived her and Percy would've been close as hell regardless if she stayed a hunter

Because Bianca has been parentifed to hell and back and I know that girl would've thrived if she had someone like Percy looking out for her while she was doing her own thing

More Part 5 Lupin III Brainrot

I said in my FujiLup divorce rant that the divorce is why everyone is acting the way they are and I wanted to elaborate:

I swear the divorce is why Goemon is so easily coerced into fighting Lupin by Enzo. I swear it’s the divorce and the fact there is no way in hell Lupin or Fujiko talked to him about it.

Fujiko didn’t talk to anyone about it. She just made vague comments at Zenigata and half assumed Lupin told everyone their business.

Lupin only talked to Jigen about it. He wasn’t actually going around trying to air out his and Fujiko’s dirty laundry to the world, he just needed to talk to someone, and that someone was Jigen!

it’s why Jigen isn’t thrown off by the mind game bullshit! He knows where he and Lupin stand with eachother! Lupin came to him after the divorce!

Goemon, meanwhile, is totally in the dark! he has no clue what happened between Lupin and Fujiko after the wedding and doesn’t feel like it’s his place to ask! And Lupin thinks he doesn’t want to know, which is why he hasn’t told him!

So while Fujiko and Lupin are testing and reestablishing their boundaries, Goemon (who I will remind you DOESNT UNDERSTAND HOW PEOPLELOG WORKS) isn’t able to figure out the group dynamic anymore. He’s been trying to get answers, but the ones he’s getting don’t really answer his questions! And it’s Lupin’s own shitty explanation of how peoplelog works that convinces Goemon that he has to figure out where he stands.

And Goemon only knows how to do that one way because he wasn’t exactly taught emotional coping skills alongside how to kill people.

He challenges Lupin to a fight, and Lupin knowing his friend in that moment realizes just how confused and honestly kind of terrified Goemon is in this moment. That’s why he agrees. He doesn’t WANT to fight Goemon, but they’re past the point of talking him down the point to talk him down was weeks ago.

So they fight. Goemon wins.

And Goemon realizes two things:

One, he sees the phantom of himself a version of himself he’s been fighting against since he met Lupin the version that’s just a killer and that’s what he’s really fighting here. The fear that he’s just a tool to be used, even by his closest friends.

And Two, he just hurt one of the few people who took the time to see him as more than a weapon.

It’s why he drops Zantetsuken.

It’s why he refuses to even touch the blade, instead rushing to Lupin’s side and trying to undo even some of the damage he inflicted.

And it’s seeing that realization on Goemon’s face, seeing him come back to himself, that has Lupin smiling before he collapses. Because Lupin, no matter how selfish he can be, is willing to put himself through HELL for his people.

The FujiLup Divorce

So. Part 5 all takes place post divorce, we know this, which shapes why everyone is acting the way they are. That’s not the point of this I want to talk about what actually seems to happen with the divorce.

So. This whole thing is sort of set up for disaster, because the idea to marry Lupin comes in the wake of the Rebecca situation. Fujiko’s anger at the wedding is partially about the treasure and not being included but it’s more so about being caught off guard by the idea of Lupin getting married.

Women are constantly told that getting married is just something you will do. So even subconsciously Fujiko may have just been assuming that some day her and Lupin would get married. Not because she particularly wants to marry him (or anyone for that matter) but because getting married is just the thing you do.

That being the base this marriage is formed on already gives it this heavy weight of obligation and jealousy and like Lupin is making up for the Rebecca incident.

But despite this Lupin and Fujiko get married, and for a while it works. The marriage is shiny and new, and still entertaining enough for them. Lupin is enjoying being domestic and playing Mr. Husband and Fujiko always loved being doted on.

After a while, It’s Fujiko that realizes it’s not working. Lupin is playing Mr. Husband to the best of his ability, they’re in Paris, they’re supposed to be happy. But Fujiko realizes having Lupin has taken the thrill out of life. It’s bad enough they’re not stealing and scheming but she thought that with his personality, if anyone could make domestic life interesting it would be Lupin.

But there’s no chase, no thrill, no uncertainty. Not when they wake up in the same bed every morning, unless he’s gotten up early to surprise her with breakfast. He’s doting and loving and everything she should want.

But since when has Fujiko Mine ever done what she was Expected to.

So she leaves.

‘Adieu’ written in lipstick the only note she gives.

And here’s where it gets good (and tragic).

Lupin has two choices.

Chase her to the ends of the earth and refuse to let her go when he catches her, and to let her go.

Fujiko thinks she wants the chase, but really? If Lupin chased her down, caught her and refused to let go?

She’d hate him for it. She’d feel trapped and suffocated and everything good about the two of them would be gone in that moment. After that she’d be trying to Escape him. He’d be turning into just another man in her eyes.

So Lupin, knowing there’s no winning here, but at least that losing her for now means there will be a chance to have her again in the future, let’s go. He doesn’t fight it.

She’s mad he didn’t fight it, obviously. Why wouldn’t he fight it, doesn’t he care, doesn’t he want her?

He loses her in the short term.

But in the end that was the right choice.

Because she comes back.

They’re never going to be the same again. There’s always going to be this shadow on their relationship (which in my opinion is why the Part 6 kiss in the rain is so tragic), but they’re able to still be in each others lives. To have each-other in smaller ways, and that’s really the best outcome they could have asked for.

You ever just… keep seeing the same guy over and over in random places? Places that feel like they have nothing in common and your reaction is just- why are you HERE?

That’s me with Pliny the Elder.

He’s everywhere. Everywhere.

Donald has now become one of my favorite characters because of this. I would say I'll be making fanart, but I may procrastinate. So I may just try. Trying sounds like less pressure on myself and I might as well just make fanart without any pressure. Gotta be nice to yourself, ya know? I don't really know exactly what I'm talking about. While my followers wait for possible fanart, I have a comic I made that I'm gonna post soon. It's not very long, but it's a vibe.

Edit. I did it. I made Donald Duck fanart. It may be the first time I've drawn Donald as far as I can remember.

:D

I got 1 task done today. I emptied the big trash can in my bedroom. That's one less fork to deal with.

I have severe executive dysfunction. I've been dealing with it by having myself do one small task a day. So far it's helped a lot. By doing it this way my brain doesn't freak out trying to tackle everything at once.

I got my inspiration for it from this Donald Duck comic:

So you don't like my shoelaces? :(

But seriously, what if I actually like someone's shoelaces? I mean, I have Tumblr, but my point stands.

Tumblr Code.

So I'm at this weird medium height. Like short to tall people and tall to short people. I used to hate it but now I'm kind of thinking... maybe there's an advantage here? Like, I am more than likely either taller or shorter than someone. Which means there's always going to be an opportunity for a height differential 😤

And full transparency, I don't care whether you're 5'3 and 130lbs soaking wet or 6'2 and 350lbs on a light day, I will find a way to toss you around like a ragdoll (if you are an anime man of course).

Just rambling I guess.

i desperately want to be happy. i can feel the ache for it deep within my bones where purest part of my soul screams for it. like without it i will die.

sometimes i think i have it. i let myself get comfortable with the carefree air i carry with me and the laughter that fills my lungs are heart. i feel complete as if i have everything i could ever want and question what it was like to feel alone and hopeless.

and then all of a sudden something slips.

and it is like i have awoken from a wonderful dream to only be thrust back into a cold reality. every interaction i have is made through a sheet of glass, voices muffled and touches separated. and the screaming is back.

i know i will one again be back within the warm realm of belonging where joy seems to reside. but this cycle exhausts me to my core and makes me question if i will ever be permitted to stay bathed in happiness and light.

eggyrock's guide to being a respectful person in fanfiction spaces because some of yall are are behaving in ways that are so aggressively uncouth

if you don't like a fic, keep it to yourself. no one cares.

if you don't like an aspect of a fic (character, plot line, etc), keep it to yourself. no one cares.

if you really want an author to update a story, tell them how much you love it! do not hound them for updates or ask them when the next update is. pressure does not equal motivation! you're just being annoying.

if an author is talking abt one fic that they're excited abt, don't bother them about another one! there is nothing more disheartening that being excited about x fic and then hearing someone go "what about y fic!" see above

writers have shit to do. writers are not "lazy" for not updating every day. you're insane. i need you to understand that's an insane thing to say to someone.

remember to BE KIND!!!!!! we can all have a little laugh and a giggle together but at the end of the day, we're strangers on the internet. it's such weirdo behavior to get in a strangers inbox and talk to them like a freak

thanks for coming!

Rmabling, and skip it if you wanna,

but I gotta get this off my chest somehow. i am so exhausted and just came out of my first car accident with enough already on my plate. each time something goes well, something awful happens, and I just...give me a break to regenerate and blossom. we are thinking of a rent-a-car or entireprise(?) till then, but since it's the weekend, I guess we wait 🤷‍♀️. any comments are still appreciated, funny ones more so. Is this adulthood 😫😭

P.S. I do want to add that I really do love this site and how happy it's made me is imaginable. Especially during those tiring moments.

Guyyyyysss, the newest WH update is less than a week away! I'm so excited!! Are y'all?! This project is so absolutely stellar, and I can't wait to see what fresh wonderment Clown and the Team created! :D

Prepare for an absolute YAPPING FEST lolol. Ah, and an Update Log! I like to keep track of all the tidbits I find in a big notes doc, so it's about to expand! >:3

I think becoming a cephalopod would fix any and all problems I face in life....wistful sigh! One can dream! Or one can also just Decide to Be a Squid Now. I think I'll choose that option-

🦑🐙🦑~Joy and Whimsy~🐙🦑🐙

It’s me again totally not OJ to bring more illegal questions withhhh CHARACTER CHOICES!!! Ody is an obvious pick I feel so I’m curious more on your favorite(s) side characters!

Ooooo, this is a good one!! Rahhh, there's so many choices lolol. But I think I'll have to say that some of my favorites are Hermes, Eurylochus, and Polites! I feel like these are basic answers, but I like 'em lots :3

I also know you didn't ask for reasons as to Why these folks are my faves, but I wanna yap more, sooo! Here! Yapping under the cut!

Hermes is the only one besides Athena who's actually helpful to Ody, plus he's like a funny little pigeon to me lol. His songs are also super groovy! I'm always drawn to the silly guys of medias I consume, so this is no different- XP

Eurylochus is a very nuanced lad that I like to think about, given that he's the voice of the crew and is someone who could've easily been more mutinous from the start, but wasn't! He's Odysseus' brother, second in command, and someone Ody can trust, which makes his descent into hunger and desperation all the more impactful!! They're excellent foils to each other and show the two sides of what being far away from home for so long will do to a person. It isn't that Ody is more steadfastly devoted to the idea of Home as Eury is (though it is Ody's key motivation and he's willing to do ANYTHING to get there), but that Eurylochus knows with how much they've all suffered it's important to maintain a realistic worldview. And that it's important to not have as much hubris as Ody has shown in the past by thinking he's above consequences and can make any sacrifice he sees fit! Cuz how I see it is that in "Mutiny," when Ody is like, "You would've done the same as I have," and Eury says, "If you want all the power, you also have to take the blame," that's Eurylochus trying in a final, fruitless attempt to get through to Odysseus and warn him that this world is full of dangers and you can't get away with treating people you're supposed to be the leader of like pawns just to get home. EVERYONE was supposed to live, however, as time went on, that simply wasn't feasible anymore given the hardships you've faced, but you wouldn't expect your Captain of all people to cave and become part of your crew's destruction. I dunno, man, I just think he's neat!

Polites is also a fun one who I feel gets oversimplified by the fandom pretty often just cuz he's not there for long and his worldview is (in a way) too positive for the circumstances, but I believe he, like Eurylochus, contains nuance! Y'know when you've gone through tough times or a bad experience and you're finally at a place where you can feel good again? Yeah, I think Polites is that flavor of lad, and also wants to convince Odysseus of the same! Ody doesn't HAVE to lead with war strategies anymore, because their mission is just to get home now. So, why not greet the world with Open Arms? You can dispense kindness back into your life to make up for the hardships you've faced, cuz you don't want to grow bitter or be consumed by guilt. Too bad the world isn't always as ideal as we hope it is! One bonk later and suddenly you're doomed to haunt the narrative lololol. Regardless, cool dude! Nice dude! :3

Hey what if I asked you the worst question ever?

Favorite song in all of Epic? You can only choose one!!

:3

*Odysseus when the wind bag gets opened voice* NOOOOOOOOO!!! D:

THIS IS THE MOST ILLEGAL QUESTION TO ASK! I'm coming for your knees Anon, especially if you're a moot- /j

I have so many faves and so much enjoyment in my heart for all of them!! Gah!

My knee-jerk response is probably "Ruthlessness"...I am making a cover of it, after all, and no matter how many times I listen to it, I don't get sick of it! Ocean Saga my beloved <3

But I also LOOOOVE the entirety of the Underworld Saga lol. "Monster" is what made me aware of EPIC in the first place (big big thanks to my dear friend OJ for sharing the song for writing vibes!), but tbh "No Longer You" takes the cake for Dramatic flavor alone! Wahhhhh, I really can't choose-!!

FINAL ANSWER (as of now): Ruthlessness!

You decided to ask me, aka The Most Indecisive Person On The Planet^TM, to pick favorites from a media that I am chewing on like a feral dog, so this is what you get lol.

Guys you should ask me about EPIC: The Musical.....orrtty please :33

Doitdoitdiitdoitdoitdiitditututututdooooittttttt-

THERE'S A FLIPPING INTERSTELLAR REFERENCE IN HXVOC'S DEMO SONG???!?!? ABSBAN. SNDNDJEJ!! ! SOOOO SO EXCITED FOR SYNTHV2!!

And Galenaia,,,,oioooo....she sounds SO GOOD!! Operatic vocals in general are underrated and her TONE OF VOICE, MAN!! IT IS! PRERTY!! I love these two.....and there's lore at the end of her demo video lolol-

Bestie wake up, a new Yaelokre song just dropped!! Yippee!

I should draw the Lark in the Silly Guy style,,,,soon! After all the other things!

My honest reaction to how much y'all enjoy my DSAF little guys:

Like for real!! This is some of the most interaction I've gotten on this site, and it's only been a few days?! And now I've got 50 followers?!?! Aughhhhh, I feel so special,,,, :D

I also read every nice thing people put in their tags/reblogs!! Y'all are so sweet about some goofy fellas I drew on a whim and decided to make into a series lol.

Okay, that's enough yapping from me. Just know that I'm super grateful for everyone who notices my stuff! Expect more installments for The Silly Guy Saga real soon! ;3

OUGHHHH

HHHHHH VLVLBLVKV

BBLVLVLVLLVLBLBL (╥﹏╥)

EPIC,,,,,Oh, dearest EPIC!!! <-Just finished listening to the whole album

Why I am crying REAL ACTUAL HUMAN TEARS OVER A MUSICAL BASED ON A FLIPPIN' GREEK POEM THAT'S EXISTED FOR THOUSANDS OF YEARS??

Guess we doing mythology now boys...expect follow-up posts and possibly fanart because ourrrghhh. Many thoughts. Many thinky-thinks. Inky thinks. Das me,,,me and my whacky crossovers I'm about to make (TnT)👍

Do you guys think that Dave would say "Roblox" like "Ro-BLAX?" I think he would lol. Lunchbax,,,,pick up the fax,,,Roblax,,, :P

OUGHHHHH INTERSTELLAR-

Interstellar interstellar interstellar interstellarrrrrr 0v0

Just saw it with @augmentedchordsofficial in theaters for the first time and I'm SCREEEEECHING!!!

Wehhh, it's such a beautiful metaphor for family and love all wrapped up in a science-y, black hole bow that's absolutely scrumptious to nom on!

Uhhh share the first thought that comes to mind about any of the franchises bumbling in your brain!

WAUGHHHHH, DANKE OJ!!! Everyone say thank you to OJ for letting my silly brain run free and ramble! :D <>

DSAF: Okay okay! So! I have been very much art-ing it up! I've got two wips of pixel art, one of which I've already shown here, and the other of which is a secret and special surprise!! I'm also working my way through DSAF 3's Phone Guy lore, and I've got two save files going on with a neutral/good route and an evil route! I'm very excited to hear the unique dialogue from the lads and learn more about them cuz I see 'em everywhere on this website lol. But, back to the plotting! I'm also gonna finish the fic where I finally introduce my OC's name and explain a lil more of their backstoryyyyy >:3

EE: SOUP BOY. HE IS GLORIOUS. I DYED MY HAIR PINK BECAUSE OF GIOVANNI. WHO SAID THAT. Anyways! I soooo so badly wanna make an OC for this cuz I finally got the audio book with my holiday gift money, but school is being quite rude and not letting me get time to finish it! Harumph! Typical school L, I fear. And I also fear that if I made an OC or sona/insert for Epithet it'd be too trope-y or similar to other characters?? Cuz I have both randomly generated words that I like to base 'em off of, as well as a selection of words plucked from my brain, but nothing has super Clicked yet, y'know? The thoughts are just spinning around in the backseat of the brain car while the other two fandoms are in the front seat arguing about themes of regret- XP

EPIC: I have never before felt such an urge to get into studying classic literature and Greek mythos! I NEED ALL THE CONTEXT. And the music is peak!!! Very good for story inspiration, for sure, but even without that, the entire official concept album is just a BANGER! I am rotating it and chewing at it and staring deeply into its eyessss 0u0

Tell me something, dear internet folks. HOW am I supposed to get anything cool done when my brain tries thinking of 3 completely different pieces of media at once?!

Like, first up in my brain is DSAF/Dialtown. Cool, cool, I've been thinking about that for a long while now, and I'm plotting to do artsy stuff with it. BUT THEN! We get to the other lobe of my brain that is infested with Epithet Erased! How do those two match?? THEY DON’T!!! And neither does EPIC: The Musical, of which I am now at the Wisdom Saga! NONE OF THESE GO TOGETHERRRR??? Not on the surface at least lol. The crossovers trying to happen in my mind are bonkers right now,,,,,wehhh >:P

And don't even get me started on the tangential thoughts about OCs and other franchises I'm having. That ups the brainworm count to about 7 and it's driving me maaaaaad-

Just watched Inside Out 2 and I did NOT expect a whole CALLOUT post? Like, hello?? Those lil wire-shaped folks are in my noggin, for real-

Uhhh, anyways, how are y'all? I've been enjoying the holidays and thinking about many medias that you should totally ask, "Hey, what're you thinking about?" for! (0u0)