Rant - Blog Posts

I try not to write negative posts, but. . . man, TBB Season 3 has brought out the worst in me. I waited (hopeful, eager, naïve) an entire year just to be disappointed. Joy.

So. . . @techsbrowneyes expressed concern that they (they being the writers) made CX-2 resemble Tech in every possible way on purpose just to spark hope amongst Tech fans and keep them coming back. If this is indeed the case, then. . . shame on the writers! How cruel can you be?

This post isn’t to say CX-2 isn’t Tech. There’s still a good possibility—albeit a very, very slim one—that Tech is still alive. But. . . my hope is fast dwindling. Hope used to be a major theme in Star Wars. What happened to that? This season is far from hopeful. Far. It’s been nothing but dark and depressing and. . . dare I say. . . meaningless. It feels like we’ve been going around in circles.

TBB season 3 is inferior compared with its predecessors. Those seasons are masterpieces. This one? Not so much. And it isn’t just because Tech is gone. No. . . Echo has scarcely been in it. Hunter and Wrecker have taken a backseat. Hunter seems to be severely detached; it’s like he doesn’t really care anymore (I miss the old Hunter). Each time Tech is brought up, they act like he never mattered to them. I mean, c’mon! Show a little emotion.

This season hasn’t been very fulfilling. No longer do I look forward to episodes. I’ll watch the remaining episodes, but if the finale doesn’t end well, I may never watch season 3 again. I’ll continue to bask in the glory that is season 1 and 2, and the Bad Batch episodes from season 7 of the Clone Wars, but that’s it.

I was so looking forward to TBB seaon 3. Should I hope that the last episodes will be any good? Probably not. Nevertheless, I will, because hope is all I have left right now, and that’s what Star Wars is built on, right?

3teen . certificate in music . BIGGEST DOMINIC FIKE FAN YOULL EVER MEET . marauders geek . ask me about ben barnes . i speak yapanese . somewhat of a psychologist . hey summer and cloudy warm days . a really happy being . i come with attachment issues . #1 misses streamer . a queer . the beatles are my past present and future . my dad keeps me slave to the british invasion . i hold all my mutuals close to my heart . i love you all !

SING ME A SONG ! - aeternum . en garde . photo ID (feat. dominic fike ) . misses . rap god . kamikaze . the ringer . the greatest . alfred's intro . gnat . back to friends . space oddity . starman . heroes . all the young dudes .

HOUSE OF CARDS ! - tfota . thg . pineapple street . knights of the zodiac . heartless . renegades . atyd . cr . tcoptp .

I HATE HORROR MOVIES ! - school spirits . two of us . get back . dorian gray . anna karenina . kickass . kickass 2 . shadow and bone . harry potter

linktree . letterboxd

Putting myself back out into the dating scene has reminded me of how scary the thought of coming out as nonhuman to others can be, and the thought of having to come out to a human partner has been giving me a decent bit of anxiety.

It's easy with friends, most just accept that there's something a little "not human" about me, whether that comes from being a furry or just a general vibe, they get it. I don't have to actually sit down and explain exactly what I am to them unless I really really want to. But it's different with a partner, someone I want to be in a serious long term relationship with. It isn't something I could just casually neglect to tell them, at least not forever. I've always been bad at hiding things about myself from others, having to keep my therianthropy a secret from someone Im in a serious relationship with would be next to impossible, not to mention emotionally exhausting. I would want them to know and embrace it, but I can't pretend like there isn't a possibility that wont happen. Coming out to partners in the past hasn't gone quite the way Ive would have liked, nothing bad, but it just ended up feeling like an unspoken taboo between us and it kinda made me feel like shit. Like it was something that they loved me in spite of.

Ideally I'd love to be with another alterhuman, but obviously that more than halves my available options which are already small to begin with on account of the whole being gay thing. Idk it just stresses me out, I wish I could feel comfortable being my full self around someone else, animal and all, but I don't think Im ever going to find someone who isn't a little weirded out by it unfortunately.

you know when your adhd compels you to immediately stop all work and begin reharmonizing a choir warmup for spooky season (october) and purposefully go download a free videoediting software (ShotCut, hot artists dont gatekeep) to then continuously voice record myself for the next one hour exactly cutting and editing the voice recordings to line up (speeding up by 1.001000x with pitch consideration) and then having a result that was absolutely not worth the time because your two-voice harmony one sounded much better than the three-voice one you spent twice the amount of time as the two-voice harmony one figuring out and you messaged your music major friend about it but theyre asleep rn so your thoughts are still hyperfixated on music even though i've music'd all the music there is to music right now because i have no instruments near my vicinity enough for my adhd to consider it more convenient than it is important to stay hyperfixated on this unimportant task?

yeah me neither

lowkey (highkey) feeling like im a terrible person and thats all what people see

Lowkey would wanna get better. But I am literally nothing without my addictions and obsessions, so we’ll stay here.

Fun dip as OMAD is underrated. (45-50cals)

I hate purging but still feeling some food in me. 😔

(sorry for the pfp it’s temporary but I still figuring it out so you’ll have to bare with me and my choppedness, luv ya’ll.)

Hey just a little PSA.

Moots. I am obsessed with you guys and your blogs. Seeing your posts will never not make my day, good or bad posts. I love y’all so much, feel free to choke me out whenever boo. ❤️❤️

Sorry I don’t rlly reach out. I wish nothing but fairy dust and magic in your lives.

actual icons of everything magical. 💕💕 @angelsdocry @x-psychotictendencies-x @wishhedbeenateenidle @mortifyingdarling @eepiiestgrrl @okkuspokkus

I HATE BEING FAT AND UGLY

Hey reminder, racists are not welcome here or anywhere. We’re all disordered and sick, but this is outrageous. Seek help and leave the internet and don’t post things like this.

I feel like such a wannarexic, but Mia has been my lifeline lately.

my throat hurts.

seeing your veins and bones poke out more>>>>

IT’S MY ABUELOS BIRTHDAY HE’S TURNING 69 I LOVE HIM SMMM! HE IS THE SWEETEST PEA EVER. He sang to me, and we took lots of photos. We both watch Charmed together, his English isn’t amazing so he calls it ‘witches’ though I think he watches just cause he has a crush on Phoebe lmao. He loves my plushies and treats them like his grandkids. He gives me flowers on Mother’s Day bc I’m ‘their mother’. He’s an identical twin, and they’re both so handsome! Happy birthday to him and my Tio. I hope he gets to see a skinny version of me next year. ❤️❤️

I HATE HATE when my parents confront me abt things, like I understand it but I just want them to shut up and leave me alone tbh.

Like today my mom was all like ‘Stop taking to me like your the parent and I’m the child’ well maybe if you regulated your emotions and stopped acting like a five year old I’d treat you like my mom. Maybe if I didn’t have to comfort you everyday because you feel unhappy with your life I’d treat you like my mom. Maybe if you didn’t expect me to always be all sweet with you, and make you feel better about being with my dad then I’d treat you like my mom. Maybe if you stopped complaining about every single little thing that’s wrong, I’d treat you like a parent.

Stfu.

Also she got mad that I’ve been using pmo, in regular speech since it’s disrespectful, ITS A FUCKING JOKE. She was all ‘What if your dad told his father he was pissing him off?’ Yeah I guess it wouldn’t go over well bc my dad’s father is practically abusive.

Anyway, I think I’m just mad bc I broke my fast.

So this is my one meal for OMAD including fries, how many cals does this seem like? Like an estimate. The place doesn’t have cals listed. (Which I think should be mandatory for all restaurants but whatever.)

Ignore the photo but there’s about 6 mini sandwiches all this size, each with the ingredients I listed above.

Remember ya’ll to be a pretty girl you have to eat like a pretty girl.

Locking in.

I want to commit suicide with my crush. Like overdosing and kissing each other then cutting our necks open. 🌸💕🦋

But before then I need to lose weight so she’ll want me.

I don’t think I’ve ever said this but my brother is like my favorite person, like he kinda annoys me, but like he knows everything, (ana/Mia/sh) and doesn’t tell our parents, like he doesn’t like it but he doesn’t snitch either. He’s so chill, and doesn’t chastise or lecture me, he’ll just be like ‘’You don’t eat? That’s corny bro.’’ And I love it. He’s literally so cool. We have the same humor too, and he’s only a year and a half older than me so we have the same experiences. It’s so cool being a teen with him. He’s lowk my twin.

guys i see the light at the end of the tunnel (i didn’t b1nge today after a whole month of eating literally everything)

Just had a dinner that’s like 1,000 cals I’m sure. I could feel every one. 😔

My birthday is this Sunday and I’m not skinny.

liquid calories need to die.

I just remembered I have to do other things than starve, and cut. It’s over.

Ate 500 cals today. My mom forced me to break my fast early, I feel so bad, I got all mad at her. :(

I’m like super fat, but would y’all mind if I started doing body checks?

JUST GOT WEIGHED AT UC (URGENT CARE) WDYM I’M UP 2 POUNDS?

I’m gonna cry. I just had to end my 26hr fast, now I feel awful, and my leg is weirdly numb.