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"east europeans didnt experience oppression and discrimination, theyre white" what a way to say you're an ignorant amerimutt who only sees POC as marginalized, sarah

because if you'd bother to look beyond your yard you'd see a lot of anti-immigrant rhetoric in the west is targeted at e-euros too

if you'd bother to use your fucking brain for a mo you'd realize that a lot of leftists love glorifying the soviet union dismissing any harm they done to east europe, claiming those against the red boot are "fascists" and "reactionaries"

but i guess go on and continue thinking it's only about america being a bitch towards those with nonwhite skin color 🙄

some of y'all got way too comfortable with looking every excuse to villianize a disabled person.

yes disabled people can also be shitty, but i don't see you have the same energy towards ableds?

different rant below

also i feel like the yell about "look disabled ppl are now closer to equality" is just. fake as hell. because me and many other people are still treated like second class citizens even among our own, we often live in loneliness because people DO NOT want to interact with us.

also, dear ableds please cherish your privilege on having social skills and mobility WITHOUT pushing it onto us like it's something everyone has.

"just go outside and make friends" what a way to say you are so privileged you have no big issues with socializing, rachel

So, we know modern domesticated, (and even some wild!) animals enjoy being petted.

The question is. How far back in the history of evolution does this trait go?

What dinosaurs and other prehistoric animals would have loved a good head rub?? Which ones would have flopped over for some under-the-chin scritches??? Would some of them have headbutted you to ask for more affection like a cat??? Did some make happy sounds, like purring???

This is information I need. I need to know. Animals today exhibit these behaviors so it's pretty likely they could have done so in the past too!!

The idea of them being affectionate towards each other as well (as opposed to how they're often portrayed hunting/fighting/being scary) makes me happy too. I desperately wish we could see how they behaved.

It is once again that time where I re-realize that dinosaurs aren't just cool creatures in the media, they're literally animals that used to exist in the past, and they weren't monsters or anything, they were just animals.

Not fantasy or anything. Nothing special. Cause they actually existed at some point in time. Just animals.

They seem so foreign and alien to think about, but really this earth belonged to them just as much as it belongs to us now. We stand on the same big rock that they did millions and millions of years ago.

We drink the same water. Breathe the same air.

Amazing.

I love them.

typing this so i dont tell my mom to kys

my mom told me to put on a pair of pants to go outside for literally 2 seconds and i made the horrible mistake of simply not because again, 2 seconds, and now she wont let me have the thing i ordered off of ebay WITH MY OWN MONEY until tomorrow, and she was literally doing the sassy "what did i tell you to do?" pose and body shake and she yells at ME for having an attitude like my brother in christ i said "okay" WHY ARE YOU GROUNDING ME FOR AN EXTRA DAY "b-but i buy you things and take you places why do you like your dad more????" maybe because he's not on an eternal power trip???

Art block is so exhausting bro, I can't make anything that satisfys me. I can't even come up with a simple persona to vent my emotions onto this crippling burnout I have. This sucks so many balls.

I might be going insane chat, so have these practice poses of my oc I did the other day. (Second one being my favorite pose)

I'm so cooked, I'm not finding joy in anything ATM, but that might just be a me problem 😭

I may be a Harry Potter and Marauders Era fan, but I DO NOT SUPPORT JK ROWLING

(Because she’s a hateful bitch and not a good person.)

CAT

This shit lowkey focuses on everything but the damn cat it annoys me but whatevs. Also was taking this pic at home so I actually got an okay angle ahah

Anyway turns out I was also supposed to name this and like what??? Wtf do i call this thing??? Like it's just a cat sleeping on a keyboard 😞 I panicked and just wrote "Modern cats" on the back '-' it's shit i kinda hate that but like i had no other ides lol. Actually there was one, "The modernisation of cats" but i have no idea what the word modernisation means, i just liked how it sounds so i decided not to use it.

Anyway about the paining process, idk i just watched julian & friends and lethal company letsplays. When I was done with the pencil stuff i was thinking abt colouring it with watercolours but the details were kinda intimidating so i went with gouache but I had like no gouache left and i didnt feel like buying more so i found a pack of like ... at least 9 years old gouache cans and that paint was *SOLID* so I poured boiling water in it but that did literally nothing so i just gave up but turns out im just an impatient fuck cuz it was perfect the next day lol. Like it was better than my newest gouache pack.

Also I was drawing the lighting in here at random cuz i confused myself with the 'out of frame lamp light' and the laptop light so now it just looks weird but oh well. Lowkey hate how the cat and the background look like they were drawn in like ... different styles???? Like the cat was me putting random dots while everything else is me putting random lines but uh that one's not too bad i hope. Also made the outside in the window too light. Ooh speaking of the outside tho there were supposed to be tree branches in like .. the foreground??? of the window?? but by the time i was done with the windows i didn't feel like drawing them

Aaa and the earphones' wire is supposed to be chewed through but it kinda just looks like I accidentally painted over it with yellow??? I should've made the gap bigger lol.

But great now because of that window i wanna draw a night sky in a city which would make no sense i guess cuz in a city there are no fucking stars at all??? Like I know about light pollution and all, but I SWEAR there used to be at least some occasional stars?? Now I'm lucky if I see one. One time we went on a car trip at night, which we don't usually do, and the AMOUNT OF FUCKING STARS OUTSIDE THE CITY???? LIKE OH MY GOD????? THAT IS BEAUTIFUL. I really need to get out at some point just to stare at the sky ahah. Lowkey wanted to bleed out somewhere in a field lookign at the stars on that car trip. But like frfr I've painted stars a lot but it's like never enough. That reminds me of a thing i drew some months ago tho i might post it maybe? I'm just using this app to rant abt random shit and post the stuff i draw cuz it feels lowkey embarrassing to post it on my instagram ahah. Like ppl who actually know me would see that. That's just terrifying.

Also I'm not sure if you're supposed to lay gouache on that thick? It kinda feels like my art club teacher is avoiding me cuz like man always goes around giving pro tips and advice but never to me 😞 im lowkey unapproachable tho cuz for some reason when i was 12 i decided to just Not Socialise™ and people remember me like that so maybe it's that lol. I was lowkey dying on the inside when he was giving another student advice and it was basically "Do NOT do *everything I just did* EVER." like damn okay man

Anyway rant over, thank you for maybe reading. Jonathan out.

Forgetting to set an ask to anonymous is SO embarrassing now I put the" - (emoji) " for nothing AND people know I said some stupid shit

being aromantic is so funny because i feel like a video game character, who had 400 side quests just to get to the end of the game. like i could’ve just gone straight to aromantic, but no, i had to collect all of the other badges first.

bisexual? check.

lesbian? check.

pan? check.

demiromantic? check.

greyromantic? check

mistaking wanting to be someones friend for a crush? check x2.

demigirl, genderfluid, and gender apathetic because i thought i might just have gender envy? check, check, and check.

being cupioromantic because i thought i wanted a realtionship before i realized yeah no, thats kinda gross, ew? check.

(no hate to my cupioromantics! yall are awesome, just not for me🩷)

i have gone through EVERYTHING, only to realize, that the attraction? YEAH NO ITS JUST NOT THERE. IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO REALIZE THIS? LIKE, NO, YOU ARENT EQUALLY ATTRACTED TO ALL GENDERS, BECAUSE THERES NO ATTRACTION TO BEGIN WITH!!

anyways, thanks for listening to my rant :]

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Falling down The Kamen Rider hole.

I watched a random compilation vid of henshin sequences for most of the Kamen Rider shows (being Youtube, the top comment of course was “I like the bit where they say henshin.”) and well, I did want something different to watch.

I started off with Kamen Rider W, since a review recommended it as a good starting series, and I was pretty much shipping Phidari before I even saw an episode.

Also, Suda Masaki is omfgsodamnkawaii and I am just under the wire as far the Standard Creepy Rule goes. Although it’s more of a puppy crush, as in- I view him in a very similar way as I would an adorable puppy. Yes, I kinda want to mash his head into my boobs, but not in a sexual way. I have all these feelings that I don't know how to process properly. In the meantime.... so cute!

Then I started on a bit of Den-O because I liked the sword form henshin jingle. And Satoh-san, so impressed how he portrays multiple characters. I know it’s all in collaboration with the suit actors, still that’s a lot of work. Plus there’s the dancing, (and I love how Ryutaros’s special power is being able to summon backup dancers and create flash-mobs) and you did all that whilst sick? Damn.

And then.... well turns out I’m a bit too ADD to binge watch a series. Heck as kid, I was usually in the process of reading two to three different novels at any given time. Given that, might as well check out another series.

Wowowowowow Four-ze! Wowowowow Fun, ne? Man is Gen-chan tall or what? Love the interaction with Shoutaro in the movie, Taro club away! JK looks like a live-action version of Zaou Ryuu. I need more screen-time to determine do I love him for him or for his resemblance to my fave anime man-hoe?

Also, Kamen Rider Meteor-  love the disco henshin theme.... is that small blast all there is? I can’t find it on Youtube. I can find a ten-minute loop of Shabadoobie touchie henshin (and why haven’t more people made that into a remix?! I sought out the loop because: 1: So catchy & 2: my brain was demanding "More!!! the henshin sequence isn’t long enough!”) So yeah, more disco please.

Got further through Fourze before oversaturation hit. Well, looking through the Kamen Rider wiki (I needed a guide for who the heck these other riders are that keep showing up in the fanfics) and since Heisei Phase 2 has the characters I’m seeing most, I’m focusing on that for now.

So what next? For some reason I’m still hesitating on OOO, and I don’t think I’m quite ready for Gaim. Zi-O? I’m waiting for the right fanfic to fix the time-rewriting first (Seriously, you try to take my フィリップ  away and I will fucking cut you.) Maybe it’s just the fic, but Build looks a little too emotionally heavy at the moment.

Okay then, Ex-Aid.

Episode 1: I know these shows are marketing toys to kids, but holy crap guys, slow down. (Plus, the 90′s called- they want their colour scheme back.) Still, this looks- aptly enough- to be what the doctor ordered.

Episode 2: Love the op theme. Kagami Hiiro-sensei? You are being such a dick right now. Will someone smack this idiot over the head ... WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?! IF YOU’RE ALL “SAVING THE PATIENT IS ALL THAT MATTERS”, THEN WHY ARE YOU DUELING INSTEAD ON FOCUSING ON SAVING THE PATIENT’S LIFE?! Someone grab this boy and give him an priority adjustment and ego-ectomy stat.

Episode 3: Why wasn’t Tagia given counseling? Proper intervention and maybe you wouldn’t have flushed a medical career down the toilet. So he got hooked on gaming and put it before medicine. You assholes gave him the driver and gashat in the first place. The game was implied to be faulty, (or at least, that’s the impression I got) meaning he was essentially given a mind-altering substance, had his priorities warped as a result and it lead to him loosing a patient.

So for that he got booted out the door, with the lack of a medical license now making him an unskilled laborer with an addiction problem. Of course he’s back and looking for a fix. (Are they gonna redeem this guy? Hope so.  BTW? Love the hair, dude.)

Episode 4: “There’s no point if you don’t ride me.” Excuse me while I pause the episode and giggle for a while.

Ah, Ex-Aid, I think I’m going to like you.

Flashback time: In the analog days, most girls when they hit those teen years moved onto trashy romance novels. I, as what I believe they are now calling “Xennials”, was still stuck on sci-fi novels during the switch-over and by the time I was interested in such fiction, well I went right to slashfic. (Remember mailing lists?) Joined my first (and only) slash-list at 16. Despite the reigning 18+ rule, I was honest about my age and they let me in anyway. (Perhaps if only to keep an eye on me.) Then mailing lists kind of died off and it was onto web archives.

And that’s when I paused the ep and logged on to type this up. There’s a certain point in people’s lives, where to some degree, they mentally stop aging. On the whole, a lot of the time, I’m pretty much still 16 (Probably a good thing, apparently my mother’s still only 25.) randomly touring though my early 20′s and occasionally re-visiting being 7. Actually when I was in my teens, I think I was time-travelling on occasion to what might very much turn out to be my 70′s (”In my day....:)

Where was I? Oh- “There’s no point if you don’t ride me.” Said the tanned guy in the leather jacket to the clumsy naive young twink of a doctor. You can’t put that in front of me and not have me shed at least 10 years worth of maturity.

(Actually, lemme just check the fic count on this pairing.... ) Still kinda want to pair Emu and Parad, but I have got to start to try watching shows before I start paring off the characters.

Oh for fuck’s sake....

Why is every sci-fi game I play always end with having to sacrifice yourself, or everything was pointless and humanity as whole gets fucked over or be forced to watch as the main character fucks over humanity because they’re being duped or just because they can’t think rationally for 1 minute and realise they’re being total idiots.

Okay, as technology improves, things get easier- but why is it that the biggest morons always end up in space, deciding the fate of all life on Earth?!

Okay, let’s post something.

The Longest Journey. The first game I stopped playing because I couldn’t stand the main character.

Obtuse puzzles, slow movement speed, pointless areas that only serve to extend the playtime. Please, I’ve played King’s Quest III before Australia had the internet and the benefit of internet walkthroughs. I can handle clunky. What I can’t handle is playing a character with nothing resembling coherent thought.

So the game opens in a strange fantasy setting, cliffs, a talking tree, then a dragon. Then the main character wakes up. She’s an art student, but she has no inspiration. .... Bitch, you just had an apparently recurring dream  set in a fantasy land with a sweeping vista- PAINT THAT, a big head acting as the spirit of a tree PAINT THAT, and a freaking *dragon* PAINT THAT.

Okay, we’re in her bedroom in a boarding house. Small, cramped, but there is a view of a canal out the window PAINT THAT. We get dressed and head out- a somewhat run-down area that used to be a manufacturing area, all canals and strange collections of pipes PAINT THAT, the small cafe where she works PAINT THAT, with a mysterious door nearby that she wonders what’s behind it, SPECULATE SOMETHING AND PAINT THAT, and another odd collection of pipes with an unknown purpose behind them PAINT THAT.

Oh, gotta get that ring she lost back so she can use it to fix some mysterious machine outside the building. PAINT THAT. Eh, fuck it, can’t figure it out right now.

But really, we need to head to the art school and work on her painting, there’s an exhibition coming up that she has to submit a painting to, and she’s barely painted anything. Let’s go past the subway entrance with a guy sleeping on a bench PAINT THAT, through the park PAINT THAT with a large bridge arching overhead PAINT THAT, to the art academy.

There’s a guy inside, painting. She envies him because he seems to knock out a painting every day. (You know why? BECAUSE HE PAINTS!) And work on our painting for the exhibition (not that the player sees it) for ..... well there’s no indication how long, an hour or two at most, before she gives up and any further attempt to have her keep painting has her refusing to work on it because she’s not feeling it or something.

Anyway, let’s talk to the possibly homeless guy that just sits around on the bench outside her boarding house. He seems to know something about her dreams. The dreams of a fantasy otherland that she could paint, but doesn’t because.... apparently unless a fucking angel descends in a light show, says it’s her muse and decrees “here is what you shall paint” it doesn’t count as inspiration.

Anyway, enough of that, it’s a choice of an evening in watching tv, or heading out to the cafe with a friend. Either way, part of the fantasy world will cross over into the real world, that everyone can see, but that doesn’t count as inspiration either.

Anyway, the next day homeless guy is gone, but he’s left a message that she should meet him. Where? Well he only left a cryptic clue, not a location, so you know what, fuck him. That exhibition is coming up soon, and she needs to finish her painting. Oh wait no, I’ve gotten her to the canvas but she refuses to touch it, she’s just not feeling it.

Hey, you know that guy you envy, that produces a painting every day? You know how he manages it? BECAUSE HE FUCKING PAINTS. He doesn’t wait for a mystical muse, he picks something to paint and paints. But instead, let’s run all around town trying to figure out where homeless guy is. After all, he vaguely hinted he knows something about her dream, and really needs to talk to her, but can’t do it on the bench right outside her boarding house where he spends most of his time, it has to be at ..... well she doesn’t know where, but the message she got was that he wanted to talk to her and a cryptic clue to his location. Just tell her to meet him somewhere, or tell the person he’s left the message with where you should go. Oh, message guy? Don’t bother tracking down the person and giving them the message. Don’t even mention me when you see her. Wait until she brings me up in conversation, *then* pass along my vague “I need to talk to you.”

So, as you can see- it’s worth running around questioning everyone she knows to try and figure out where he is. After all it’s not like she has anything better to do. Like, say, finish a painting for an exhibition she’s signed up for. After all, it’s not like she’s an art student that left her small hometown to move to the city just to attend this art school. ...oh wait.

But anyway, let’s run around searching for clues. Ah, got one. He *might* be at an art exhibition of children’s paintings. Oh, we need to take the subway to get there and she has no money. Sure you don’t want to work on your painting? You did move out here to pursue your dreams of becoming an artist, and you need to work on your skills, finish a painting for that exhibition, it is your future we’re talking about here.

No? “Not feeling it” still, okay, let’s talk chase up the owner of the cafe you work at for your wages so you can buy a subway pass and go gallivanting across the city to find some homeless guy that “needs to talk to you” and you have to meet somewhere, but he can’t be bothered to tell you just where.

Okay, got some money. Oh wait, there’s a big key lying on the electrified rails. Fucking *want*! Gotta run around and find stuff to allow us to grab it, which for some reason involves fixing the whatever the hell it is outside the boarding house. Something to do with hot water? You don’t know. Sure you don’t want to work on your painting? Of course you don’t

Okay, key gotten, time for a ride on the subway. We finally find homeless jackoff at an art exhibition, lucky we scored a free ticket, or we would have had to spend even more cash just to talk to this guy.

“I need to to talk to you starving art student. It’s *super* important, here’s a vague clue to where I’ll be, no I won’t just tell you where- this is *important* ...and bring cash, because it’s 20 bucks to talk to me.” Asshole.

Anyway, we’ve found jackoff, and he rambles some vague metaphorical bullshit at us. He’ll tell us more, but tomorrow.

The next day. Ok, instead of the life of an art student, it’s time to hunt down a cryptic homeless guy. The fate of the world just may depend upon it ...possibly, *somehow*, but the fate of the world isn’t important enough that he’ll tell you where to meet him.

Oh no, the only one that might know where homeless jackoff might be, is the slimy guy you hate that also lives in the boarding house. And he’s not going to tell you shit unless you agree to go on a date with him.

So, agree to go on a date with this slime that wants to get into your pants, so you can learn the location of a homeless guy that really wants to talk to you, but can’t be bothered to let you know where he is. Sure, you’re an art student with a painting to finish, but this guy who keeps spouting bullshit at you just *might* know something about a recoccurring dream you’ve been having. That’s worth selling your body for instead of working towards the career you’ve been working towards, right?

Okay, across the city to talk to the cryptic jackoff. He’s in a cinema in the city. The cinema.... is closed. And there’s an employee out front telling you it’s closed, and a cop standing around watching the area.

Can I go back to the start here? Let’s see, I’m controlling the main character. She’s an art student, that complains she has no inspiration despite the fantastical dreams she keeps having every night, and the city around her, filled with mysterious relics of the area’s manufacturing past.

She left her small hometown to come to the city just to attend this art school, because she wants to be an artist. But she’ll do anything to avoid painting. She envies the student that can produce a new painting every single day, but she’s not going to say, talk to him to get advice, or follow his example and keep working on her painting. Yeah, she *needs* to finish just this one, for an upcoming exhibition. But she’s just not “feeling it”.

Instead, oh this possibly homeless stranger she strikes up a conversation with somehow knows about her dreams. Sure it’s creepy that he knows about them, won’t say how he knows and keeps spouting mysterious bullshit, and keeps leaving messages with your friends that he really needs to talk to you, then disappears off who knows where, despite previously doing nothing but sit around on the one bench *right outside the place you live*, but you’ve got nothing better to do instead of chasing him down.

Now, what would *you* do in this situation? Work towards the career you’ve always wanted, or run around a city, talking to everyone you know to find the location of some creep that knows about your *dreams*, picking up a ton of random crap along the way, to fix things you’re not qualified to fix just so you can get to the *possible* location of the aforementioned creep, who leaves messages with your friends about he needs you to meet him in a place, but he’s not going to tell you where, so he can babble mysterious bullshit at you.

Now a real life person that wants to become an artist so much that they left home to attend an art academy, would push through a creative block. Because the only way to improve your skills is to practice those skills, and if they had a lack of ideas would talk to friends or a teacher for help. And if they had a single creative bone in their body, could easily see that dreams are inspiration, and that mysterious objects can serve as a jumping off point for creativity.

Also if someone knows just what you’ve been dreaming about without any reasonable way of knowing so, you’d find that creepy. And if they then kept disappearing when before they were known for consistently hanging around the same place, whilst telling your friends that they really need to talk to you- but never say *where* beyond a cryptic hint, would you run around trying to figure out where the homeless guy wandered off to, instead of working on that painting for the important exhibition with the rapidly approaching due date?

NO. You’d work on your artwork and avoid the unwashed creep that knows far too much about what goes on in your head at night.

But game protagonist, April Ryan. She’ll run around looking for clues to talk to creepy strangers, she’ll collect random crap and fool around with mysterious devices and electrified subway rails. She’ll work through long conversation trees with anyone who’s willing to talk to her. She’ll waste her money on a subway pass so she trek across the city to find a guy who won’t tell her where he is. She’ll poison a cop, and vandalize city property, all to distract a guy that’s stopping her from entering a CLOSED CINEMA that she *thinks* homeless guy is in.

She doesn’t know for sure, but a guy she knows said the asshole she hates might know, and the asshole said he’ll tell her, but only if she goes out on a date with him. Not that there’s any reason to trust this jerk that obviously only wants in her pants, or the homeless creep that she’s trying to find. But what else is an aspiring painter going to do? Paint? Nah.

So talking to the cinema employee, maybe we can ask him if homeless jackoff is inside? Oh, no she’s not going to do that. The slimy asshole that wants in her pants said jackoff is inside and that’s good enough for her! This employee guy is pretty dumb, so if we tell him we’re here to meet jackoff who’s waiting for us inside, he’d probably let us in, or at least confirm if jackoff is here or not.

No? Not going to do that either? Well how do we get in this place? Wait for tonight when it opens? Oh no, this is far too important to wait. Hmm, dumbass keeps fiddling with the sign, looks like some dodgy wiring. Oh hey, there’s an electrical box that’s obviously city property, if we break that, that might just distract dumbass over here. Or it might be for the streetlight or some traffic lights close by, but who’s got time to think about that?

No our main problem now is, there’s a cop hanging around, watching everything. We start breaking the law in front of him, we’re getting hauled off. What to do? Hmm, there’s a disgusting leaking trashcan here and oh! We have a piece of candy in our pocket. Let’s move the trashcan, dip the candy in the filth and then give the candy to the cop!

And tada! We have successfully poisoned the cop! Oh spitting out that crap you gave him made dumbass loose his shit at the cop. The cop’s left to go be sick, maybe go to the hospital. Sure that’s a criminal act, but hey, there’s a *chance* that this homeless jackoff we want to talk to may be inside, and you can’t vandalize city property in order to distract someone long enough to sneak into a closed cinema if the fuzz is watching. This is all common sense.

Okay, the cop’s gone with dumbass hot on his heels, left his hat too. Score! Okay, enter the cinema? Nope, we need to enter from the alleyway, and the gate into the alley is locked.

Well we did poison the cop so we could break public property, better get on with that. So, subway key opens up the electrical box, and cobbling together some of the random junk we’ve picked up will allow us to fuck with the workings.

And the marquee on the cinema is broken! And hey, here’s dumbass back, looks like you’ve got some work to do buddy! Not that it will fix the problem, but hey, he unlocked the gate when he went to grab is tools. Now we can sneak into the alley while he works on the sign.

Ah! Guy with gun, nope just some trash casting a shadow. How odd. Now into the cinema through the fire door. Shit, it’s locked, and setting of the fire alarm will bring dumbass running.

Hm, time to look at the crap we’re hauling around. Put the cop’s hat on the garbage, and presto, the shadow of a cop brandishing a gun. But we don’t want dumbass to look for more than a second.... Oh we have a toy monkey that shouts threats and demands you dance. Perfect! Now it’s arson time.

We open up a trashcan and start a garbage fire. Homeless jackoff would be proud. The alarm goes off and unlocks the door. Dumbass comes running, but monkey toy is screaming out that you must dance or he’ll cap you, and that stops him from looking at” the man with a gun” to realize it’s just the shadow of piled garbage.

Our criminal career off to a brilliant start, we slip into the cinema, hoping that slimy was telling the truth and jackoff really is in there. Oh hey, he is! Now he can ramble at us about old movies. Important.

Oh we’re going back out into the alley? Lucky break, the fire’s out and dumbass is gone. So what next? ....Homeless jackoff is apparently a magic homeless jackoff, we have a swirly portal here. Jackoff says get going, oh and when you land, hit up his buddy.

Woo! Portal time! Where does it go? What will happen to you April? You’re just a humble art student. Oh wait, you’d rather do anything than paint, uncertain death away!

Ulp, portal travel. Blergh. So, where are you now? A catacomb? Oh wait, a temple, let’s see if the priest there will finally tell us what’s going on. And.... he does not speak english, but we can’t do anything else, so let’s just stand here and listen to what we can’t understand.

Slowly the words become english, oh wait, no we’ve gained the mystical ability to speak the language here because we took the time to listen, also it’s because April is “special”. Well depending on your definition, that’s true, but the game’s not working off the same one I’m using.

So, where the fuck are we? Priest guy is the something of whatever, and tells us we are in another world, one that doesn’t work off science and logic, but magic! Well April doesn’t work off logic either, so being trapped in a different world with no money, food, place to stay, livelihood or knowledge of how *anything* here works? Not a problem.

Still, this place is completely unfamiliar, so an explanation from someone who understands just how out of her depth would be good. Can the priest direct us to jackoff’s buddy? Nope, no idea where the dude lives, and he’s not known by name around here, just as the Rolling Man.

Okay, off into the city! Let’s wander around the market. Oh, a map maker- does he know where the Rolling Man is? Yes, but he’s not going to tell you. Fuck. His delivery boy just quit though, so maybe if you work for him you can break into his files later on. It’s low pay.... but you have zero money in this world, so the only way is up.

Okay, deliver a map to a sailor, and get his signature to confirm delivery. Simple enough, let’s find the docks. Huh, word is ship travel’s stalled in this port town because a wizard’s been fucking with the wind. How whimsical. Anyway, we got a boat to find.

Okay sailor man, here’s your map. That’ll be one coin for the delivery and sign here, or my boss will fire me. What do you mean you won’t sign?! Conversation time, oh, he can’t write. Just put anything, an ‘x’ will do. Nope, apparently writing is bad juju. But without a signature you’re out a job and the the only chance to find rolling buddy.

You want music, then you’ll sign? Great, oh and April can’t just sing, gotta get an instrument. Well time to see what’s available for the one coin she’s got. Anything? A cheap flute, whatever. So, broke once more, it’s time to play a song for the sailor. Can April even play music? She’s a painter. Whatever.

Music played, money gone, form signed, back to map maker to get the next job. Well, what do you know? It’s a map for rolling buddy, and now as the delivery drone, we’re allowed to know the directions to his place. ..... say what? Can you write that down... oh it appears on the map screen. Good, ‘cause those directions were long and not that clear.

Okay, rolling buddy, here’s your map, and btw, homeless jackoff said you’ll know how to get April back to her world. Time for a chat and a drink.... what do you mean you don’t fucking know?! Oh but here’s a watch. Yay. It’s broken. Of course.

Random junk time, and the watch is fixed. Oh, magic watch, but not really. An aid to access the world transitioning power within. Anyway a way to get home, let’s go. Wibbly wobbly away!

And back with jackoff. So just what was that all about you homeless fuck? A conspiracy, world in danger, blah blah blah. Now April has a choice, hang with her best friend for the evening or go on that date with slimy. According to the walkthrough, he’s going to be an asshole either way.

Anyway next day. Now I could keep playing, a world of science, one of magic, some big conspiracy, the fate of both worlds in danger. But the thing is, I’d have to keep controlling April. And while I’ve gone through what’s happened while I was playing, I haven’t even begun to touch on how annoying this bint is.

I mentioned King’s Quest III. Okay, that was annoying and clunky too, plus tons of death screens thrown in to boot. But the main character was so much better. Yes, he knew nothing about the world he was in, but he was kidnapped as a child and had spent all of the life he could remember as a servant for an evil wizard.

What did want? To escape and find a life for himself. As he works towards his freedom, he finds out more about his past, a place to go to, a princess in danger, wrongs to right.

April on the other hand. Her backstory has her set up as an art student, but she never works towards that. She left her small hometown to attend this art school and become an artist? She touches a canvas ONCE. She complains about repeating dreams of a fantasy otherland, then complains about how she has no inspiration.

Everything around her is inspiration. The dreams, the views of the area she lives in, the left over pieces the area’s past. The boy who produces a painting every day, oh how she envies him, but’s not going to talk to him. She’s not going to talk to her friend and fellow art student. She’s not even going to work on her fucking painting in progress. No April’s going to drift around, complaining to herself that she has no muse.

She’s a penniless art student, who is under an obligation to produce a single piece of work for an upcoming exhibition that the school is putting on. This is important to her, or at least it’s supposed to be, because she sure as hell doesn’t act like it is. She’ll drift around, talking to her friends about anything other than her troubles. Hell, she’ll talk to the homeless bum who sits around on his ass all day.

A homeless bum who somehow knows about her dreams and spouts nothing but vague bullshit at her, and that’s enough for her to throw everything out the window to chase after him so he can spout more vague nonsense at her.

He has to talk to her, but makes it near impossible for her to find him to have this talk. And why is she doing all this? Well he said he knew she was having dreams, and apparently that’s the most pressing thing in her life. She isn’t even convinced these dreams are important. She complains about having them instead of getting inspired.

This is not the story of someone who as they chase their dream, learn more about the world and their destiny. This is someone who farts around as she deliberately avoids working towards her dream. Does she have a destiny? It looks like it, but it’s not something she’s been searching for, and neither is it something being thrust upon her. She’s certain of nothing, everything in her life is vague and unfocused. No fighting for something, nor fighting to escape something. Someone she barely knows mentions dreams, and she’s going to comb the city, picking up junk and breaking the law because... she doesn’t feel like doing any painting today.

Adventure games, you have to jump through a lot of hoops, but most games- there’s a reason for it. It furthers the main charcter’s goals, or they’re trying to fight the system as it cracks the whip and forces them to jump. April doesn’t have either. A stranger walks over, holds up a hoop and says “jump through this”.

No reason, no pressure, no consequence. The hoop doesn’t lead to something she desires, and there nothing to stop her from refusing to jump through it. She’s not getting fulfillment out the jumping. Random people walk up to her and tell her to jump through a hoop.

How can I write so much and yet be unable to properly articulate just what it is about this stupid fool I can’t stand? It’s a directionless dumbass complaining about her lack of something she actually has in spades, as she does everything to avoid the reason she’s there in the first place.

On this platform, there is always a lot of encouragement and reminders for readers to be kind to writers and I really like that but let's also remind writers to be kind to their readers, shall we?

I won't say names, but I had bad experiences with my favourite writers.

For example, such as when I only asked questions about their fanfic or blog. As far as I know, I always try to phrase it in a polite and kind tone that isn't harmful yet they answered with anger instead.

And even if they misunderstand or it's a misunderstanding, they lash out instead without further question or explanation...

It's kind of sad since this attitude discourages a reader from reading their fanfic or following their blog after.

Grow up and learn to fucking communicate

wish people would fucking communicate their issues instead of being pussies and banning someone for no reason

man this is why i don't talk in discord servers anymore LMFAO

wait wait wait...

so according to the dsmp fandom, if wilbur didn't write it/do it/isn't involved (not including ghostbur), it's not canon? that makes no freaking sense.

based off of that same logic almost the entirety of the egg arc shouldn't be considered canon because wilbur didn't write it in the script. bad wrote it/started that arc.

why is the fandom biased towards wilbur making things canon? i think the other writers and characters have done a great job filling in the story while he was gone! plus it gives us a chance to look at other characters' perspectives that wilbur's writing never gave us. (no hate towards wilbur tho! i love that he's gotten back into writing the script :D)

do people just not remember when l’sandburg was written off as not real lore explicitly because wilbur didn’t write it

Polyancients headcanons because I can

Body type wise both dark cacao and hollyberry are the biggest. Both of them are insanely muscular, the difference is hollyberry has wide hips and thighs that could kill and dark cacao has broad shoulders and man titties with a snatched waist

Golden cheese is all lean muscle. Great abs, muscular thighs, but she's not big. She's the second smallest just over pure vanilla and lords it over him every chance she gets (she's like 2 inches taller)

Pure vanilla is a short king, like 5'2" but cookie equivalent, he kinda has a sleeper build, but it doesn't matter because the others can just pick him up whenever they please

White Lilly cookie is the tallest of all of them, and also the skinniest. She's all beanpole, and while her posture already wasn't great, it gets even worse after she's woken up

Now I don't know enough about the lore to take a hard stance but I don't actually think that they all got together before the flour wars or after them either. I think that they all wanted to, but assumed no one else was interested so never confessed. Afterwards they're all busy with their kingdoms and lives and it isn't until after they finally pass on their kingdoms and soul jams that they can get together and just live on a farm somewhere

(On another note i know it's not really confirmed how or when cookies get old or how immortality works, so I'm just gonna assume it's power scaled and since all of them were strong before they had the soul jams I'm just going to assume they have plenty of years to live out their lives)

Also on the note of soul jams, who do I think they would be passed to? Well I saw a parallel between the main story characters and the ancients that I reblogged, but! there's a more interesting answer I believe

For the soul jam of truth I think pv would either give it to custard cookie the iii or to raisin cookie (this is under the assumption that raisin cookie wouldn't join the polycule which is a whole other story)

For passion, I think the obvious answer is princess cookie, she's a direct descendant and basically proved her worth in the princess contest, but other than that I think choco werehound brute would be the funny answer

For resilience I am literally begging and pleading for dark cacao cookie to apologize to his son and give him the soul jam. I would give anything for it I would write it I would draw it if I could I just need it so so desperately

For abundance it would probably go to one of the other cheese cookies, buttttt from the very little I know of capsaicin cookie (literally nothing I saw the thumbnail of one YouTube video) I think he should get it

Lastly freedom, I think white Lilly would either give it to silverbell, or I think that cream puff cookie should get it purely based on vibes

Also all the ancients are different brands of autistic except golden cheese, she has adhd

Pure vanilla and white Lilly cookie both have the, "wait they were flirting with/bullying/wanted to be friends with me?" Mostly, and pv does the blunt truth thing that neurotypicals hate and white Lilly goes into research mode and doesn't eat or drink for a day or two unless someone makes her

Dark cacao is kinda obvious, there's only so much one man can talk about his literal sword and it feels like every time he has a moment in the story it has to be mentioned once, he's always bringing up his special interest (just like me fr)

Hollyberry is audhd, but sadly cannot claim the uncanny adhd reading people. It's very rare that she dedicates herself to one special interest and instead cycles through a few (she's also just like me fr)

I don't have more depth on golden cheese because I'm still learning about her character, but she just has the vibes

Just gave myself 1d4 psychic damage thinking about the new episode of PvP civilization and just it generally as a whole, but specifically with the “wait… you don’t remember what she looks like?” sound

Just some food for any angsty people out there like me *wink wink*

GUYS GUYS GUYS! PVP CIV IS BACK! I know I only watched like a month ago, but pvp civ chapter 2!!!!!!!! AND PVP SEAWATT!!!!!!!! I surface from hours of rhythm gaming and my day is ten times better!!!

So I’m listening to TMA again as one does and I’m on episode 19 and 20 (bundling them because it’s a two parter) and like first of all the voice that the priest guy heard was obviously mother of puppets right? And so then the skin thing happens, which is gross but like- that’s the flesh. And we know that to do a ritual you need the catalyst to be marked by all the fears, and for the watchers crown that’s Jon but for the apotheosis of the web (which the whole reason I’m doing this re-listen is because that was a thing in the fanfic Right By Them by Esperosis on ao3 ((so good I recommend so many)) which may wayyyy to much sense, to the point where I was like— I tuned out half of Annabel Cane’s whole thing at the end of season 5 mostly cause I didn’t get it, so this very well could be an actual thing that I’ve just completely missed? So I’m going on an adventure to find out

Listening to Malevolent in my computer class and it really sets the mood for getting frustrated tryna figure out what the hell the computer program wants from me, but like??? What the hell is the dice sound!!!!!!! Maybe it’s cause I’ve always got dnd on the mind but- every time mysterious man who controls eyes (and now one hand!) goes to just look at (perceive?!) something there that little dice roll-y sound and it’s never acknowledged???? Is the whole twist gonna be this is a dnd campaign?

Yall remember springtrap and deliah??? I just watched one of those youtube video essays about it and how bad the creator sucked and damn yall i had no idea it was that bad lmao

I hate it when you look at an old work from your childhood and it somehow always ends up being the most problematic thing, from like movies to music to comics, learning your favorite youtubers like assulted children etc. Its always so weird to find out way too late that you supported something so bad ((definitely not just talking about springtrap and deliah,,))

Generally sad that in tv shows and stuff you will have like the most complex female character with the most interesting story and people are still going to favor the male character

Like your allowed to have a favorite character be a guy or not! But usually I’m fandoms I see guy characters are a lot more popular, and I get really happy when I see good representation of both

Idk this is just a rant and again, I’m not saying who you should like more

(Also I hate when a girl is popular but it’s just them sexualizing her or making fetish stuff :( )

OPINION RANT TIME WOO LESGOO CUZ SOME OF YALL ARE FUQED UP IN THJE HEAD

ok so can we talk about the whole 'turning straight ppl gay' thing- like.. huh? if you have a straight char WITH a girlfriend or something and then have ONE guy friend the fandom will go totally crazy and be like

'OMG HES SO GAY THEYVE KNOWN EACHOTHER SINCE CHILDHOOD PLES PAIR THEM UP AND MAKE MY HEADCANON BE TRUE SOFT BOI X EMO!!!'

also do you know whos saying this straight girls for some reason????

?????????????????????

like why tf do u need these two guys to kiss just kiss your own highschool boyfriend that youll break up with in a month ya yaoi-crazed freak

like if you swapped roles with a gay char, boyfriend and one girl friend then ONE person headcanons their straight thats homophobia??

(future me: ITS EVEN FUCKING WORSE WHEN THEY DO IT TO IRL PPL LIKE GIRL- THATS A MARRIED MAN WITH 2 CHILDREN JUST TRYNA ACT OUT A CHARACTER AND NOW U TRYNA DRAW HIS HYPERREALISTIC PP TOUCHIN ANOTHA MANS BOOTYHOLE)

AYIUFEKHAJAAAA istGGGG we need to stop ASSUMING and FORCING peoples sexualities LOUDLY like plz just keep that shit locked up in your mind idc if theyre roomates or not in your highschool fanon fic just keep that stuff away from me -me, a literal and openly queer person to show how weirded out i am by this stuff

also the whole 'race headcanon' shit like dude they were white in the books they were white in the movies why are they latino all the sudden?? i know black lives matter n all but changing a persons race is uhhh yeah

mob mentality is fucked man we all fucked when the twitter (no fuck the name 'x' it sounds like a porn site) trending floodgates open and they find out what next impossible natural human behavior to make 'boyfriend goals' like mf mafia army men that would stalk,kidnap and rape u until you got stockholm syndome (that was literally the plot of a smut fic i read- SOMEBODY WROTE THAT THINKING ITS HOT??)

AIGHT WHO TF PITCHED THE IDEA OF MOON RISING (wings of fire) BUT ITS CATS???

YOU.

if ya running out of ideas for a book, then just end it! yk how many new warriors readers would love to catch up atleast ONCE before a new book comes out??? PROB A MILLION! yk what theres also a million of?? THINGS U COULD DO INSTEAD OF WRITING A NEW BOOK! work on the graphic novels-maybe a coloring book would be fun, WORK ON BETTER MERCH- i mean your figures are ooookay but the PLUSHIES??? cheap asf- mapleshade looks like an evil lint ball. OOH HOW ABOUT A VIDEO GAME THAT FANS HAVE BEEN WANTING FOR YEARS?? OR A SHOW?!- LIKE THE ONE U SHUT DOWN, MADE BY BELOVED AND DEVOTED FANS WHO ARENT BAD LIKE WCUE...WHICH YOU TEAMED UP WITH AND ACTIVLEY PROMOTE.

sorry for rant im just anrg

i think a harry potter dni person followed me what do i do i love hp-

I dont support the trans = bad stuff cuz my gender is a mess rn and like bro lemmie just enjoy my silly lil game- also the community itself is very enjoyable and comforting as ive met plenty of gay ppl in there who just dont care about the transphobia stuff cuz harry potter is what they like. tbh for me its what the community is about not the creator, a large example is warrior cats and prob other communities too

uhhh idk what else to say after that small rant whats yalls fave quest in hogwarts legacy? mines where u save buckbeak or tame the lord of the shore idk which one i just love the creatures in that game sm

"Why do you always feel so guilty after eating?"

Meanwhile my YT reccomendations:

"WHAT I EAT IN A DAY AS A FAT PERSON CRINGE COMPILATION🐷🐷🐷"

"FAT ACCEPTANCE CRINGE 💀"

"BODY POSITIVE ACTIVISTS ARE DYING"

Being chubby/overweight is just so unfair, people bash and disrespect you no matter what you do.

No matter what food you eat (if you eat unhealthy, they hate on you saying how "they could never", but if you eat healthy, they think you're lying and eat much more when no one is around)

No matter if you exercise or not (if you don't, they yell at you to go to the gym, but if you do, they either don't believe you or make fun of you for being a fat person in the gym)

If you have an ED, they don't believe you (because society thinks only skinny people struggle with them) and claim you just eat too much.

If you say you like being fat and feel comfortable in your body, you're automatically promoting morbid obesity to everyone around (or have a sick fetish for fat people)

If you say you dislike being fat and plan to go on a diet, barely anyone believes in you. Most people just make bets on how long your little "diet" will last.

Society does all those shitty stuff to you and then say they do it because they "worry about your health" but you know damn well they're lying (because in cases where a skinny girl literally promotes pro-ana behaviors and starvation, no one bats an eye)