I Love Distancing Myself From Humans More And More. It Feels Empowering Instead Of Alienating, Like I'm

Snake Therian Culture is mourning the fact I can't dangle freely in branches

oh how relaxing that would be, basking in the sun!

Inspired by a post by @/wilczak I’ve been thinking a lot about my own desire to have a pet snake.

For nearly all my life I’ve wanted to keep snakes. I had garter snakes for several years before rehoming them when I went to high school and became busier. I’ve always felt a kinship with them. Even before I knew what I was, I knew snakes were my kind.

It took me a long time to realize I was a snake. I knew I was a changeling since I was very young, however the realization that I was a snake took longer to come. I couldn’t see beyond the veil for a long time and only sensed fragments of my true form. Once I realized I was a snake, my attachment to them made so much more sense.

We’re not a social species by any means, however I’ve always wanted to keep snakes because we’re the same. We understand each other in a fundamental way. Largely we’re uninterested in each other, but there’s a sense of camaraderie in shared species-ship.

I love learning about my kind, and the idea of taking care of another sounds very rewarding to me. We are brethren.

i need to be out in the woods so bad im gonna explode

I can only think of a few right now but for me it’s:

-meditation definitely

-basking

-hiking/being outside in general

-seeing other reptiles in the wild

-warm days (especially in spring)

im bored so, whats something you do/see/hear/smell that triggers a shift? ill go first :)

for me its

-eating really juicy fruits

-quadrobics (pretty rare for me to shift when doing this though)

-forest noises/wolf howls!

-meditation (still getting the hang of this one)

-and also certain smells like rain :)

Hello! wanted to ask some questions about schizoaffective bipolar type; because we've been dx'ed with bipolar type 1 already but aren't really trusting of anyone in psych-therapy circles to reveal any details about my schizospec symptoms. Aside from the fact that psychiatry in my corner of eastern europe is very anti-dx in general. I had to fight to get taken seriously with bipolar for them to finally stop giving me antidepressants without mood stabilisers kind of deal.

What makes bipolar be schizoaffective and not just bipolar with some schizospec symptoms? How does schizoaffective manifest for you? i've read enough regarding actual dx criteria for schizoaffective and i would fall into schizoaffective but i wanted to hear a first-person point of view.

Feel free to ignore this if you're not comfortable, or dm me instead if it's more ok for you.

thank you!

Hello! I totally understand being hesitant to disclose psychotic symptoms. It’s for different reasons but it took me a very long time to get proper treatment as I was unable to understand that my symptoms were 1. indicative of a disorder 2. severe enough to warrant treatment. Luckily where I live I have access to a lot of resources for psychotic people, so I eventually have found a regime of medications that helps me to think clearly.

I think for me the difference between bipolar with psychotic features and schizoaffective was that i was in a near constant state of psychosis before treatment. In bipolar, usually psychosis is sort of treated as the end of the road: the most severe mood symptoms can get. Honestly there’s a ton of disagreement over what schizoaffective even means. Personally I define my version of schizoaffective as schizophrenia with bipolar episodes, but that’s my personal definition and definitely doesn’t apply to everyone.

Before treatment I was constantly confused and unable to take care of myself. Some of my psychosis was related to my nonhumanity (I consider my god/angel identity to be endelic due to this), but not all of it is. And my nonhumanity is definitely not all psychotic. I really am a fae creature. I know a lot of my beliefs would be written off as crazy talk if I explained them to my psychiatrist. But ultimately I know myself best.

Human definitions for mental conditions are flawed and very subjective/fluid. Unfortunately, I love labels so I choose to identify with the diagnoses I’ve been given.

Sorry if this is a very long rambly response. I love talking about this sort of thing. If you have any more questions/discussion feel free to dm me!

Wet Beast Wednesday!!

me: i want like a mentally stable friend. a friend who i can just rant to, like tell them everything im feeling and it won’t trigger or even really upset them. they could just listen and make affirmative noises, and then id just leave and that would be our whole relationship. ugh, i wish that were actually a real thing.

me: ohhhhhhhh, therapy. therapist. i want a therapist.

ND things i’m really hoping other people can relate to

“you touched my arm and now i have to cut it off”

“i blinked wrong. i have to do it again. again. again. again. again. okay that’s better.”

“sorry i didn’t quite catch that. sorry could you just- yeah. what? huh? no i didn’t get that- could you just write it down?”

directions just go in one ear and out the other

and god forbid i have to talk to anyone with an accent

“i didn’t listen to that song right. i have to do it again. again. again. again. again. okay, better.”

the r a g e when your plan/routine gets disrupted

“oh that leaf brushed my left hand? okay cool now i gotta brush it against my right hand in exactly the same way or else i’ll Die”

“this has to be symmetrical or i will gouge my eyes out because it feels BAD”

the exhaustion that sometimes follows talking about a special interest

getting overwhelmed talking about/interacting with your special interest

“what emotion is this?”

“this is the only song i can listen to and it brings me a genuine feeling of relief/release to hear it. i must loop it over and over until i suddenly hate it. i don’t know why.”

randomly finding yourself thinking/talking like a robot and having to consciously switch on emotions/empathy

or the other way around, if you get overwhelmed

“loud noises are fucking terrifying and i will cry if i get caught off guard by one”

“someone i don’t like/trust/know touched this thing and now i can’t until it’s been washed”

p a i n

where is the pain coming from? idk.

what’s itching??? where is that???

“wow that hurt! okay, i gotta do it again”

feel free to add on!!

As someone with really terrible memory I totally relate!! It’s okay that you don’t remember when you awakened, you’re not alone <3

I can't remember my awakening :(

The problem with having dissociative amnesia and be in the non human community is that I see all of these other beings saying, like, "I awakened in 20xx"

and I'm like I- I don't remember. I cannot remember . And then I don't feel valid, and I know it's stupid, but.

*explodes :(*

Like, idk if anyone can relate, but I don't even remember when I discovered what being non human/therian meant!!

Sometimes I feel like I just spawned here and it sucks!! I can't remember anything about me or my past.

...Anyway *eats little snack

(idk, I hope at least one of y'all can feel a bit less alone bc I wrote this)

liking a character but lacking the brainpower to have any real coherent thought or clever analysis of them so your brain just kind of says their name over and over like a teen girl in a cheesy romance writing her crushes name over and over in glittery gel pen surrounded by hearts