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Just a girl and her cat journaling.

Ah, to be a cat who has no responsibilities and only needs to find someone warm to be comfortable. My little moon cat who teaches me to slow down and relax... and sometimes go wild. Also that gaming is not as important as cat.

I am trying to start small and build my way up, but experimenting and adding new things in would work. I'm so hesitant because it won't be aesthetic but that's not the point of journaling, right? Thank you for your input! I appreciate you!

I have started to journal over the past month, but I use a simple hardcover notebook with lined paper. While I think it's very useful, I am interested in other types of journals like bullet journals and traveler's journals. I am not sure which would be best for me, though?

I don't really keep track of things like my water intake, what books I read, and daily tasks in my journal, but I do write a lot of my thoughts, my spiritual journey, mood at the start/end of the day, gratitude, etc.

I don't know how I could really work these all into a cohesive place and what type of journal to even begin with in the first place. I would love suggestions and insight from anyone who's had a similar problem. Thank you!

My GW2 characters by poe-hax

I have started to journal over the past month, but I use a simple hardcover notebook with lined paper. While I think it's very useful, I am interested in other types of journals like bullet journals and traveler's journals. I am not sure which would be best for me, though?

I don't really keep track of things like my water intake, what books I read, and daily tasks in my journal, but I do write a lot of my thoughts, my spiritual journey, mood at the start/end of the day, gratitude, etc.

I don't know how I could really work these all into a cohesive place and what type of journal to even begin with in the first place. I would love suggestions and insight from anyone who's had a similar problem. Thank you!

As I read through this book, I am confronted over and over again with my mistaken understandings of terms and with how I do not really know myself.

I have adopted beliefs about myself from outside sources and ascribed that those are who I am. I haven't ever really taken time to get to know me because I thought others would know me better. I know it is not too late in my life for me to figure myself out and learn about myself... so I think I will.

October will be a month about myself (and my marriage). I'll be offline during October and whatever posts will be what is left in my queue. If anyone wants to keep in touch through October, please privately message me so we can exchange Discord information.

Blessings to you guys. All my love.

"I love cats because I enjoy my home; and little by little, they become its visible soul."

-Jean Cocteau

It's been a rough two weeks. Today has been the first time I've felt any kind of peace and my mania has settled. I forget that handwriting things is such a treat for me. Though I dislike my hand writing, working slowly and jotting things down in a "pretty" way really gives me a sense of peace and accomplishment. Today I started writing recipes from websites I like down in a notebook. It'll work for now. I even got help.

I know I was going to separate all my FFXIV stuff to a side blog, but my husband and best friend are right (as usual) and know me. I go through phases of wanting to organize everything and then giving up and combining it all again because it becomes a hassle. I think I need to step back from social media for a while soon. I believe it's getting to me.

I think getting more hands on is definitely my goal for the next month. To do more instead of just peering at it from across the table.

Perhaps I am starting too many things at once.

I wish to find my place in my spirituality, but at the same time I wonder if my heritage would offer me anything. I am half Mexican/half Caucasian, but I was raised Caucasian and had little to no contact with my Hispanic family after the age of 3. Because of this... I know nothing about my Mexican bloodline.

I do not know anything about the culture, the beliefs, the celebrations, very little about the food, and I can barely speak Spanish. I want to get in touch with these roots, also. Part of me feels that I am too late, however, and pushes back against it.

How do I even start? Where do I begin? Do I postpone my spiritual journey and focus on my heritage instead? I am overwhelming myself, as I often do, and these past two weeks have been rather awful... it's all compounding and I don't know what to do to get back on my feet.

I feel very overwhelmed.

While researching and trying to learn, I have discovered there are many paths in paganism that I feel would fit me. But I cannot be all of them at once, can I? I see many people saying "take what fits and work with that!" but I have always been very structure abiding. I want something that is laid out for me plainly and guides me. I need something that is set and allows me to follow a plan.

I feel a bit anxious. I do not want to cause offense, I don't want to do things "wrong", and though the community seems to believe there "is no wrong way", I am not imaginative enough to create by myself.

I am causing myself stress over trying to find peace.

My husband, @notleriff, showed me the synopses for the upcoming WoW expansions.

And I started crying.

The good memories came flooding back and my favorite zone is going to be front and center and it just felt like "oh, that's home...". But I realize that going back might not be in the cards for me. Playing WoW was definitely the most toxic era of my life and I suffered heavily for it.

But damn... going 'home' sounds so nice.

This moon was difficult for me.

I am still working through it, but it truly did hike my emotions. I am tender, aching, and struggling. My depression has hit an all-time high and I am fighting to continue my progress. As long as I continue to do even the minimum, I am continuing on my path. Studying and looking into Paganism has helped ease my mind and give me hope.

I have succeeded in surviving every day so far. I will continue to do so, even if it is simply in spite of hardships

My Values.

What do you hold sacred/value above all else? How do these values translate to actions and our daily lives?

Love To love is in the nature of all things. Everything seeks to be loved and all also give love, whether it be to another being or an object. It is love that creates. Without love, we are solitary; alone. Nothing is meant to exist alone. Communication, time shared together, gift giving, physical touch.

Nature If the natural world suffers, all do. It is by the grace of the Earth, itself, that we are able to live. By neglecting nature and all that exists within it, we are erasing not only our future, but the future of the planet. Maintaining gardens for pollinators, picking up trash, creating less waste.

Kindness We exist in the same plane and each of us has our own struggles. There is no need or reason to make someone's existence more difficult. A little bit of kindness can change someone's existence. Volunteering, saying thank you, helping someone else reach a goal.

Creativity To create is to bring about life. Art, literature, music, food, and theater all represent life and experiences. I believe we all desire to create, to express ourselves in various manners through different mediums, to leave a bit of ourselves with others so that we might exist in diverse ways. Writing, cooking, putting on makeup.

Remember to reevaluate values and actions at the turn of the year!

I don't understand, but I feel like my own home makes me... depressed. I was so motivated to do things, but then I get back home and walk in the door and it's almost instant defeat. Dragging my feet to even do the simplest of things, I just want to lay in bed and sleep the day away.

It's not feeling overwhelmed by chores. I love doing housework, tbh. It keeps me busy as I'm a housewife and otherwise unemployed. I just feel... empty. Is it my schedule being overnight?

How can I help this? Home should be a place of comfort, love, and joy... but it makes me feel alone (when husband is at work), empty, and sad. Even my cats can only offer me little comfort and company.

Seasonal depression is trying to creep in. I am doing my best to push forward and keep going. I have to remind myself it's okay to take things at my own pace, even if it slows down for a few days. As long as I am not stopping.

I didn't do much art in 2022, either. Went back to trying to just do sketches. This was the last time I did any art, in fact. I put my tablet away and haven't touched it in two years.

i am out of spoons today. im trying so hard to do the bare minimum and then the rest i can make up. its okay to take a day of rest. it's okay to take your time to do things. as long as they get finished in the end! just remember to take care of yourself.

This is all I can show from 2021, but I was nearly there.

It’s not on a sheet pan, but it was made by a Texan. Texas Sheet Cake so I can have a taste of home. I’m so proud of myself for doing this from scratch! I have missed baking so much.

2020! First year of marriage to my beloved @notleriff and me doing the MOST artwork I've ever done. I had a blast this year.

I took a hiatus in 2019. This is literally all I have to show for it.

2018 was not so much a quantity year, but a quality year imo. I started doing so much better.

having a rough day today and i keep having to remind myself that it's okay to have an off day. but my mind keeps telling me i'm the worst for taking today "off".

Artwork from 2017. I really had fun this year and did so much art. I was getting into the groove.

More artwork, this time from 2016! I tried new things!

Some artwork I did in 2015. It was the start of my digital art hobby.

Guys new Cait Sith plush dropped!

Most of Dawntrail's story was experienced like this.

Leriff by @aerynnyx! Thank you again for this cute little guy for @notleriff.