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so, i came back to tumblr, after all! weird to be here, i've disappeared almost everywhere, the queen of ghosting. it was for a good reason. i've been dealing with a long period of crisis, gave up 2 semesters at uni, been stuck in my bed 23h/day (not a hyperbole). finally, i feel like coming back here.
in this whole period, i haven't done too much. couldn't read, watched not so many movies/tv shows, but i did listen to a bunch of music. that kept me a bit less depressed.
i feel like i have something inside of me that is trying too hard to get out, but i don't know how to do it; it's a feeling of creation. only a few people actually feel this, like they need to create something, to put it out, but haven't found a way yet. it's stuck, and it's a whole interwork.
AND altho i know that not many people follow me, neither know who i am or whatever, but to anybody reading this and going through something bad, i hope you get better. focus on your health. it'll pass, doesn't matter when, just be strong and keep fighting. this isn't a coaching shit or self-help bad book, but for experience of someone who's dealing with way too much. everyday is a new day to begin again, until you get it.
have a really muthafuckin great day, guys. much love to you. (that's for the 2 people maybe reading this lmfao thank you for being here) 馃導馃
clarice has been a great company these days. she speaks about god thru l贸ri's point of view, her believes, and it sounds a lot camus' absurdism! she says 'if i wanna pray, it would be to the cosmic or to Nothing'.
rainy days and depression, love to see it. 馃導馃
i've been away for a bit because, you know, college. and i have to read these two for classes. life's been boring lately, but i'm fine with that.
sometimes it rains and it's like nothing more exists. incredible how rain has the power to make me feel safe. 馃導馃
late valentines with my girl ottessa and the view of a rainy day 馃 馃導
started '谩gua viva' today. my first clarice! her writing is wow, i've been annotating a lot. so many thoughts already. just wild!
i was gonna go for run today, but gave up, it's been one of those lazy days. probably do some yoga before go to bed.
tomorrow i feel like it's gonna be a good day. (probably won't though) - let's keep it positive.
that's a goal: be more positive! 馃馃導
1am, i'm reading 'hiperculturalidade', and it's so good. probably, i'll be finishing it on thursday or friday.
also, i read today 'blue horses' by mary oliver and liked it. wasn't too invested tho, but it's great.
and in the morning, i was able to read a lot of 'the idiot' by elif batuman. this book is making me so happy! her writing is amazing and just to be in selin's mind is fascinating.
be kind to yourselves 馃馃導
i received these three clarice lispector books today! i'm so happy and ready to read her works. i already had other three.
pretty amazing, isn't it? the covers are crazy. i'm gonna start with the second one, 谩gua viva - my friend told me so.
apart from that, the days have been a little bit harder, and i can't wait for traveling. i need to get away.
but back to the books: i think i'm gonna really start a booktube. for that, i need to get over my shyness. i might not do it, i always leave projects halfway or 'noneway'.
hope everyone is having an amazing day. take care. 馃馃導
oieee! i had to go to college to return some books because my classes are finished (thank god) and i'm officially on vacation.
i'm still reading 'a peste' by camus. it's good but i was too busy getting crazy with the finals.
next book i'm gonna read is another byung-chul han (i know, i'm a stan) - 'hiperculturalidade'.
hope everything is good with you all. 馃馃導
currently reading
o mito de s铆sifo -聽camus (75%)
infocracia - byung-chul han (pg. 62/107)
lolita - nabokov (pg. 25/ 331)
crime e castigo - dostoievski (pg. 33/561)
the way of kings - brandon sanderson (428/1252)
kibogo- scholastique mukasonga (starting)
to be read
a peste - camus
sea of tranquility - emily st john mandel
read (20/11-26/11)
chouette - claire oshtsky
the right to sex - amia srinivasan
tell me i'm an artist - chelsea martin