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i wish i had the balls to shave my head but i'm too much of a pussy T_T wish someone just fucking did it to me
I took half my morning dose of hrt this morning, I guess with the intention of getting myself back on it? I haven’t taken my hrt for months. After taking it I quickly thought “How silly of me to think I could seriously commit to going back to being a girl.”
Fact is I can’t commit to either right now. I shaved my head 7 months ago and at this point my hair is kinda long… for a guy.
If I could commit to being a guy I’d go get a haircut and throw out my hrt, if I could commit to being a girl I’d take better care of myself and take my hrt everyday.
I’m doing neither. Genuinely could use someone throwing out my hrt and just shaving my head whether I like it or not.
is sexual anons or violence ok?
yes!! always :3
need a big bro to take out his anger on me, punch out some teeth,, then give me a big hug, tell me it won't happen again (it will), tell me how much cuter I am without the teeth i just lost, let's do it again
If I make this blog a manual for how to stalk, manipulate and kidnap me maybe I'll finally meet the love of my life
∆ ««« System Overview
We're the L-System ("Leo" or "Lilly"), pychotic incel faggot-tranny loser (he/him, any).
We have relationships between system members (4-8, on&off for at least 4 years). feel free to ask us about it
We tried dating externally many times but it never worked. We're too much of a freak for normies and we never felt properly bonding with anyone else. i really just want to obsessively fall in love with a cutely controlling/manipulative boyfriend-girlfriend, is that too much to ask?!
»»» ∆ TransIDs and MUDs
Our body is an adult and our system and subsystems consists of 12 main alters, . : we're transitioning to psychotic and delusional with weed and adderall. : it feels nice when ppl online encourage us 🥺
cisids: autism, adhd, cptsd, ptsd, bpd, npd
Our transid list is always changing so some of these might change, altho others definitely won't.
radqueer, gay, genderfuck, aro/ace, transage, permahigh, permastoned, permadrugged, permateen, sex doll, prey, victim,
transharmed, transpsychotic, transdelusional, transamputee (?), transdentures, transabusevictim, transforcedsh, transsuibait, transed, transanorexia, transana, (corpse) )
We also experience "some" MUDs:
• Mirror Infatuation Identity Disorder
« ∆ » Other labels
Some of us identify with the labels retard, faggot, cripple and probably some other ableist slurs that I forgot rn.
DMs and asks open if u really wanna know. pls be nice 🥺
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(fuck nazis transphobes sexists racists etc etc)
please!!!!
I need to be encouraged to get worse, encourage me to get higher, take stronger substances, take more, get drunk, cvt more, make me destroy myself more then I already am, encourage me to just be the destructive little fuckhead I am