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I can help you develop beautiful, divine delusions. I'll drug you and preach to you about my G-d, describing its ruinous love, its gaping Maw, its unending hunger. You'll see the true form of the Devil, of angels, of the Becoming. You'll become a true believer, You'll serve our G-d day in and day out, never questioning or having a single doubt in your heart that this is where you're meant to be
β Starfell
yes PLEASE π₯Ίπ₯Ί make me a devout believer who worships his g-d!
If I make this blog a manual for how to stalk, manipulate and kidnap me maybe I'll finally meet the love of my life
β ««« System Overview
We're the L-System ("Leo" or "Lilly"), pychotic incel faggot-tranny loser (he/him, any).
We have relationships between system members (4-8, on&off for at least 4 years). feel free to ask us about it
We tried dating externally many times but it never worked. We're too much of a freak for normies and we never felt properly bonding with anyone else. i really just want to obsessively fall in love with a cutely controlling/manipulative boyfriend-girlfriend, is that too much to ask?!
»»» β TransIDs and MUDs
Our body is an adult and our system and subsystems consists of 12 main alters, . : we're transitioning to psychotic and delusional with weed and adderall. : it feels nice when ppl online encourage us π₯Ί
cisids: autism, adhd, cptsd, ptsd, bpd, npd
Our transid list is always changing so some of these might change, altho others definitely won't.
radqueer, gay, genderfuck, aro/ace, transage, permahigh, permastoned, permadrugged, permateen, sex doll, prey, victim,
transharmed, transpsychotic, transdelusional, transamputee (?), transdentures, transabusevictim, transforcedsh, transsuibait, transed, transanorexia, transana, (corpse) )
We also experience "some" MUDs:
β’ Mirror Infatuation Identity Disorder
Β« β Β» Other labels
Some of us identify with the labels retard, faggot, cripple and probably some other ableist slurs that I forgot rn.
DMs and asks open if u really wanna know. pls be nice π₯Ί
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(fuck nazis transphobes sexists racists etc etc)
yes hello owo
TransHarmful4TransHarmful | TransHarmed4TransHarmed
Pretty self explanatory but for people who are transharm(ful/ed) that experience attraction to other transharm(ful/ed), exclusively or not.
Yes the flags are just inverted shut up I'm lazy
I'm not delulu enough :c
ppl in my asks should egg me on to smoke more weed and to feed my psychosis :3
we irl
- randomly burst out giggling and answer questions we hallucinated having been asked
- have limbs jerking in circles (not the horny kind :c)
- think everyone outside the house knows who we are and are out to get us
- have blown off every social activity we said we'd go to for a month
- treat the reflection in mirrors like they're different members of our system and subsystems.
- have back and forths with the mirror selves and express our (romantic) relationship this way
we,, have definitely become more psychotic the last year uwu
Which is funny, since our life is actually going ok. its validating to know we can feel this way without it meaning our life is ending or falling apart
do you have any transpsychosis tips?? ^.^
TRANSPSYCHOSIS TIPS π£
- talking incoherently!! like maybe you start a sentence but it like gets mudldred with lgnger words and it compelwtlyy falsl aaprtt andnsdoslme or something like that!! (irl though lol)
- repetitive movements!! do tasks over and over maybe for a sense of comfort or maybe because someone will hurt you if you dont or maybe something else
- hypervigilance
- anxietyyyyy
- social isolation!! nobody can know you know what you know. nobody must know
- depression
the rest is for delusions and hallucinations and i just copied and pasted that section from my transshcizospec tips!! i really need to make an archive
delusions:
- a delusions is simply a fixed belief that doesnt change despite contradicting evidence. let your imagination run wild and then just gaslight yourself. eventually youll believe it.
- if you need more guidance, some common delusions are grandiose delusions (which i experienced), paranoid, erotomaniac (parasocial), somatic, and many more you can google.
- paranoia is very very common!! incorporate it!!
- look at the "how the delulu girls" trend on tiktok!!
- whether or not you choose to talk to people about your delusion is up to you
hallucinations:
- honestly, make them up to gaslight yourself and/or manifest them
- draw whatever comes to mind and tell yourself its your hallucinations
- get sleep deprived!!
-watch things that make you anxious!!
- listen for small background noises and tell yourself its a hallucination