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Exhausted baby

I’m so tired- :/ I have my period, I have bad body dysphoria and I wanna curl up and go back to sleep.

I feel so icky I wanna be little but with my period it makes me feel so icky and gross and then being little is harder since I still have to take care of big girl stuff. College is so hard and loud. I’ve already hurt myself and the whole day feels like it’s going wrong :(.

I need to go home be little grab my stuffies and snacks and relax

stay safe stay happy and have a good day or good night wherever you are

Henrik Ibsen's Puphejmo-A Doll's House

Double Trouble in different outfits because i freaking can

growing up as a cis girl the patriarchy told me “you’re a girl because of the way you were born, there is nothing you can do about this, you have no say in your gender” and i hated being a girl because it wasn’t my choice it was a prison and the trans community told me “you’re a girl because you say so, your view of yourself is the most important thing, if you change your mind that would be ok” and it made me proud to be a girl and feel empowered in my gender and i wasn’t trapped anymore and then terfs come along and tell me “you’re a girl because of the way you were born, there is nothing you can do about this, you have no say in your gender (but like in a woke way)” and they somehow expect me to be on their side?

A few days ago, I showed my sibling Nimona.

(They are genderfluid.)

While I was getting ready today, I found this:

I am one happy older brother. 🥰

I am a girl. I am a girl because everyone my whole life has told me so. I am a girl because I wear skirts and dresses, because I like talking about boys with other girls. I am a girl because I wear bras, and need tampons, and need to shave my legs every week. I am a silly younger sister, and a caring older sister. I am a girl because my body chose to be a girl, and I love being one.

But I want to be a boy. I want to be muscular and strong, and to have a flat chest. I want to shop in the men's section for button downs, and shorts with large pockets. I want someone to look at me and think "He's so handsome." I want to own Nerf guns, and climb trees while scraping my knees. I want to be a mischievous little brother, or protective older one. I want to be a boy. But I am not. Because I am a girl.

Sometimes I want to be a mix of the two. I want to be a boy who wears skirts and high heels, and doesn't feel like any less of a man. I want to be a girl who intimidates and works long days to provide for her family, and who is still seen as a woman. I want to go a long time without washing my hair or shaving, and still be called Miss in the grocery store. I want to wear makeup and curl my hair, and still be told what a fine young man I am. But I cannot. Because I am just a girl.

Sometimes, when I am alone, I will take off my clothes and look in the mirror. At my body, who chose to be a girl. (Though I do not hate it because of that choice. It did not know that the soul that lived inside of it would not match.) And I will say to myself "I am a girl", and for that second I will be. Then I will say I am a boy, and I will become one for that moment. Sometimes I will say " I am a boy and a girl." and I can be both. Other times I will say "I am just a person." And my concept of gender will fade for that moment.

But after, the words will fade and I'll put my clothes back on. And I will be just a girl again. Not because I chose to, but because that is what I have been told my whole life.

I am a girl because everyone has told me so, and they will never see me as anyone else.

(This is my experience as a multi-gendered individual. I do not speak for anyone in the community except myself. People have different experiences with gender and sexuality. Nothing is universal. If you want to understand someone, ask about their own experiences. Don't presume. Make sure to take care of yourself.)

The truth has come out!

Gender be like

If Moon Knight gets a second season, imagine they adapt this panel but with Oscar Isaac switching between his three accents:

That one time I bought a cheap automatic wrist watch at a discount store, just to see if it would work for me. The cashier told me twice that it was a men's watch. Both times I said that I knew this and I wanted to buy it. If she'd said it a third time, I would have asked where she thinks a man would wear the watch so that I, as a woman, can't. Sadly, she clearly read on my face that it would be better to shut her trap.

dude today a customer brought me a birthday card and asked me "is this a girl birthday card or a unisex birthday card? I thought it was unisex but when I scanned it at the self-checkout it said girl birthday card." the birthday card was just a bunch of balloons with the text "happy birthday". and then when I was like "i dunno I think that's just the official name of the card on our system I'm sure a boy would be happy with the card" the customer was like "well if it is a girl birthday card can you tell me if this other birthday card is unisex or for girls? if the other card is unisex I'd like to exchange the girl birthday card for the unisex one". Like what. You can look at the cards. With your eyeballs. You are holding them both you can see them and decide whether or not you want the card. What the fuck are you talking about why are you asking me this

Time to put on the gender affirming spotify playlist and learn to do a push up! Fuck, I cannot tell if I'm excited or not

My gender envy spectrum as a genderfluid:

He/Him - Spider-Man (And sometimes Peter Parker)

He/They - Peter Parker (But never Spider-Man)

He/It - Wirt (Over the Garden Wall)

It/That - Darwin (TAWOG)

It/They - The Collector (TOH)

She/It - Velma (Scooby Doo)

She/Her - Melissa (Milo Murphy's Law)

She/They - Fluttershy (MLP)

They/Them - Stan (IT book + 1990 + 2017)

N/A - Dave/Evan/Chris/C.C./Crying Child (FNAF)

I don't think I missed any... but yeah this is my personal simple gender envy graph thing... yeah

I keep forgetting that when I was in like 4th grade I logged on to my switch to play with my friends and at the time I didn't have a mic so... ANYWAY- they guessed my gender and thought I was a boy and I just never had the time to type in the chat that they were wrong so I just dealt with it. But it like didn't bother me. In fact I kinda enjoyed it. And I was just like, "Hmmm, eh. I'm sure that's normal, and if it isn't then I'll just have older me look into it."

I wish I'd been able to find that one post about the person who procrastinated figuring out their sexuality because this story would go perfectly!