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So, to begin I want to say I’m sorry for not posting about my DR in a lil bit, the past two weeks I’ve been really struggling with my chronic anxiety and illness, so I have been in a lot of pain and haven’t been motivated to write much :[ but!
I’m doing much much better now and I’ll probably post tomorrow for the poll that we did!! thank you guys for your patience, I love this community and fandoms so much and I wanna be involved but sometimes media gets a bit too much for me
have a great day/evening to everyone and see you tomorrow!!
What I find isn’t appreciated enough when it comes to shifting
TW: chronic illness and chronic mental health
So I have chronic anxiety and clinical depression, along with other various physical health difficulties including intestinal issues and extreme periods (most of which almost lead to going to the hospital, it takes two weeks out of every month of my life) I’ve been examined by countless doctors, therapists, psychologists, and no one knew how to fix me, all they said was I would have to live with it and find coping skills to function “normally” in society
so with that in mind, life sometimes gets ridiculously complicated and difficult, and I hate the fact that I have to live with it, but that’s when I realized *I don’t*
I am a manifestor and shifter, how the hell could I forget that? I honestly am so thankful for scripting and for shifting because in so many realities I don’t have to deal with this burden, I can live freely and enjoy life and not have to worry if a meal will send me to the ER
I really feel like people glaze over the fact that we have SO MUCH POWER and so much potential, I think it’s important to show our appreciation to that, I appreciate it so dearly
Whenever I have a pain spike or an anxiety attack, I just repeat I am in control over my reality, I am the master of the 4d, I am safe, over and over and then it goes away. As of recently, it’s been getting better using these robotic affirmations, and I’m so happy I cry thinking about it
4 years worth of constant pain, no matter what I could do, thinking I would live like this forever, and here I am a few weeks/months and I found what works to save myself
I hope whoever reads this finds hope in my experience, especially to those who share my burdens
good night and happy shifting to all 🩷✨🫶
To the folks who is responding to my silly little poll about how y'all are progressing on projects during this holiday crunch with "I don't make gifts anymore because they are not appreciated", I am so very sorry y'all have had that experience.
I sometimes think we all have.
I no longer paint, because as a teen I spent months on a painting for my sperm donor in yet another attempt to bring out of him the father I always wanted. He promptly began criticizing everything that was wrong. Heartbroken, I took it back on the pretense I was going to "fix" it. Years later, after I finally ended my relationship with him; I burned it in a ritual as a final break from him.
I never painted a picture again. Rarely drew.
Having someone not appreciate your gift or are pointedly indifferent to it will shatter your soul.
To all y'all who have experienced this, I am so very sorry. I give to you my sincerest love and deepest hope that none of us experience that ever again.
Also, I am so proud of y'all for protecting yourselves! It is not worth the pain and anger to go through that shit again. I know some of y'all have that deep-rooted guilt because you have heard "but <insert excuse>" your whole fucking life until it just sits inside you giving your internal bully ammo to hit you with. (Especially true when it comes to family.) Let me assure y'all, it's bullshit and it eventually goes away.
To those who are planning to give handmade gifts, may each and every onr bring the kind of joy that sets your soul alight.
had to do a gratitude thing in class and i'm realizing how much I've changed over the last two years
It’s beautiful that there will always an endless grove of stories in this world
Park Lake- mhw #2
Previously I said I was going to the canyon for my next big walk, but my vehicle and state of mind both said no, so I took a trip to a nearby regional park.
I love how cheap entry is and it’s a park that holds a lot of memories for me as I used to participate in a summer day camp as a kid that would take place there. My scout days are far behind me now.
One of the many bird residents of the park. The Canadian Geese of course are the most abundant and the loudest. I was hesitant eating my lunch near them.
Ordinarily I would take two loops around, but this time I went once around the lake and then sat at some of the many benches for a while.
I didn’t have my headphones with me so my mind uncomfortably ruminated during a majority of the walk. So I mostly just tried to focus on all the chatter of the ducks and geese who were yelling at each other about who knows what.
It’s also pleasant to see people fishing and having fun together. I have a complicated relationship with the activity of fishing but if I were to ever have access to my old gear, perhaps I’d take it up again. But I was here to walk, not fish.
Lake and bench.
If you ever get a chance to just stop by a lake, I recommend taking the time to birdwatch. Last time I was at the lake, I watched a goose get into a fight with a squirrel who was trying to steal bread from one of her babies. It was a very heated battle.
Even if I still feel uncertain if any of my mental health was repaired from this walk, I’m just grateful for the fact that I could see some pretty nature and got in about an hour of exercise. Something I learned from therapy is that recording what you are grateful for can also help you feel better.
And thus, I am grateful for the memories this park has given me, the geese, the other wildlife, the shimmers of the lake, the friendly fisherman, the cheap entry tickets, and the many park benches/shelter stations.
Thank you!
Thank you everyone who liked, kudos, commented and reblogged my first Frozen fanfic ‘Of Princesses and Reindeer Kings’! I am shocked, thrilled, confounded that so many people enjoyed the story and artwork. Those small acts really encourage me to keep pushing my abilities and put a little more love out there into the world.
: ̗̀➛ Ways to take care of yourself
Make a workout plan that works well with your menstrual cycle.
Deep clean your room.
Take an everything shower.
Plan your week.
Eat a nutritious snack.
Try a new recipe.
Buy a new fragnance or scented lotion.
Stretch or do yoga.
Talk to yourself.
Look in the mirror and point out every nice thing about yourself.
Read or reread the book you love.
Study for the next test.
Cut blue light an hour before sleeping.
Drink tea after waking up.
Limit your screen time.
Don't surround yourself with negative media (art, posts, etc.).
Dress up nicely.
Research a topic you like
Replay your favourite game.
Spend some time with the person you love and care about.
Try to understand the cause of your bad habits.
Look at motivating (not toxic) posts.
Affirm after waking up and before going to sleep.
Buy a beautiful and comfortable pijama.
Rearrange your room.
Find a new, intresting hobby.
Look for a fragnance that suits you and your personality the best.
Write out the things you want to change about yourself.
Don't skip important hygiene; brushing teeth, washing hair, skipping skincare, showering.
Take a hot relaxing bath.
Completely relax and just think without any distractions; music, subliminals, etc.
Set a new yet small goal you want to work towards to.
Remind yourself of your journey and how far you've come.
Work on your posture.
Cuddle with your animal.
Take a nap.
Buy a new candle.
Romanticise your life and every small thing about it.
Drink some lemon/cucumber water.
Find a new intresting show.
Create a new playlist with your favourite songs.
Find a new comfort YouTuber.
Think about your fun childhood memories.
Try a new form of exercise.
Make a vision board.
Get a therapist, and if you can't: talk with strangers online.
Listen to yout favourite subliminals.
Create a moodboard.
Create a new peace of jewerly.
Give away the clothes you dont wear anymore.
Create a visionboard and look at it everyday while affirming.
Try a new makeup style.
Go out without doing your makeup.
Get used to your 'effortless' look; no makeup, lay clothes, tied hair.
Get used to failing and learn from your mistakes.
Be grateful for the simple things you're blessed with.
Listen to a podcast.
Go on a walk.
Choose your kind of 'perfection'.
Think about deep topics and write about it.
A Lullaby
Thank you. For the bottom of their heart, for existing.
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But they do not say, for their tongue feels the weight of a star. A very whimsical, forgetful star. Such a thing it is they cannot catch it for longer than a second, and can only feel the sensation before it burns where they are cradled and goes far, far away.
Omw to pick up my young Avenger and head to #FANEXPOCanada I've been taking her for years and it's one of the things we both love doing together. In spite of all the things we lug around in our bags of hammers, maybe (just maybe) sometimes all it takes is a fingersnap, and some gratitude for the good things. @officialfxc #fanexpocanada2019 #fanexpo #gratitude https://www.instagram.com/p/B1gd5YLBMcp/?igshid=2xiwkyhijzfk