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Addiction ( in only friends ) and how it impedes your perception of the situations you are in

Never thought I needed to write this but I have been seeing so many posts blaming ray and I wanted to get it out. Later if I have time I would write a dissertation about this topic because it's extremely important.

Disclaimer : Know that I am not absolving ray of his wrongdoings nor am I blaming his behaviour on other characters but we know the root of his behaviour but it seems like there is a lack of understanding.

All this is from my observations with people I know who have addiction so this is my personal experience and not me telling everyone how they should act or feel.

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Ray is a selfish person. We all know that. But so is Boston , so is mew, so is cheum. So why is ray getting the most hate. Because he is a drunkard. During ep 3 or 4 , when we saw ray at his most vulnerable , everyone was going oh poor ray. And now everyone is telling the opposite. Now I see a lot of people asking why mew and the others not taking care of him, even me. But this is why. See how easy it was for a major part of the audience to forget his addiction and completely blame ray. Now imagine if you are the one who has to deal with ray on a daily basis for two long years. It's exhausting , overwhelming and frustrating and eventually you are going to form an antipathy. My drunkard friend is not going to listen to my well intentioned warnings so why should I care. You can see it clearly in mews behaviour. Mew has given up caring.

Loved ones start giving up , because the pain the addicted one causes is too much to bear. And that is the reality of addiction. This was most clearly shown through rue from euphoria. Her mother, friends, sister cared about her but you can see the toll it creates on everyone.

Addiction is a harmful disease and one of the reason why is that it morphs the user into someone unrecognisable. Look at sober ray, his moments with sand, he's adorable, fiesty, sassy and very charming. But what he becomes when he is drunk or high is a selfish guy who doesn't care about anyone but himself.

Once again I am not blaming the entire thing on alcohol, but trying to say how that much addiction can cause one to act in ways they won't normally wont when sober.

Alcohol and drugs is ray's escape from his inner thoughts and his shitty lonely life. But he's got so dependent on it and his pain is too much that he greatly needs that buzz of happiness that alcohol and drugs gives him. He's so dependent on it that he can't be happy without it. I know that most portrayel of alcoholics have them be absolutely useless and trashed. But ray is not like that, which is even more dangerous , because he is a functional alcoholic.

And it's dangerous because it won't be clear to a lot of people about how he needs help. And more importantly it won't be clear to him about how he needs help. When ray thinks to himself all he can focus on is that he can do chores, he can talk to people normally, he can walk in a straight line, he is not an alcoholic in the way we are always shown, but he is. He is seen with drinks almost all the time, he spends the most time in a bar , he is probably walking around conscious but still drunk. And as long as he is a functional alcoholic , ray would never go or ask for help.

When you are that dependent on this , any tiny problem would have you running to escape , because the escape as an option is easy then doing the messy work of knowing when you are wrong or wronged and dealing with the emotions that come with it. We have seen ray doing it, especially when paired with mew.

When you are that dependent you don't see that you need help. To ray he is having fun, he's not miserable when he is drunk or high , when he is in that state he gets everything. So what if he is called a burden, he is still on top of the world. So when people say to him that he is an alcoholic he's confused , because he is not an alcoholic. He's having fun.

Now during ep 8 we are actually seeing him being selfish and an asshole. During ep 6 we saw him very effectively damaging his relationships. The common point between these two eps is that he is under the influence. Those are his sober thoughts but he won't say it aloud when he is sober but when he's drunk he doesn't have any inhibitions so he says everything that comes to him. Combine that with the pain of being called a burden , of unrequited love and he tries to escape from the feelings by drinking again and it forms a vicious circle. It came to a point where he lashed out and as always hurt people under the influence of something can be destructive.

I am not saying that what he did was right or the pain he caused was justifiable or should be forgiven. They shouldn't but rays feeling shouldn't be minimised too. Addiction is complex and asking for help can be a hard task. And in the case of ray I don't think he realises that he needs help. That's the problem with addicts, they don't know that the thing that's giving them happiness is the same thing that's causing them harm. Or they know but they are far too gone that they don't care.

Be it smoking , drugs or alcohol or anything else , people use it for escape but the usage becomes too much that their entire day is only fulfilled , when they get their daily dose of happiness from it. Which changes their perception to accomodate one and only one thing , the next fix, the next drink. Which is why they become selfish cause their entire world is wrapped around that bottle and everything else comes secondary.

Addiction has the potential to completely change a person. You know the person you grew up with or you know personally is somewhere inside there but what you see when they are under the influence is someone you never dreamed your loved one's can be. And it's painfull.

Another way people with addiction is dehumanised is that everyone uses them. You want a drink ? that person will always have a bottle with them, you need a fix that guy knows a person , want to have fun that person will show you a good time . I think a lot of people have heard these phrases.

For most people it's harmless fun, for the addict it's an ego boost . And it encourages them to continue that lifestyle. Which is what happened with raymew and the entire friends group in general.

They use ray but they are willfully blind to the harm that causes him. Mew was the one who wanted to try smoking, coke and party, ray never forced him, because for ray that is his happy place. Substances is the one thing that gives him happiness, he does not have the capacity to stop or think of it as wrong.

To ray , mew has finally chosen him, he is finally doing the things he loves. He's not going to stop mew from doing anything when he thinks he finally getting what he always wanted. Ands it toxic and it's not right but that's the reality of an addict.

And he should be happy about it but he isn't because he needs sand. And that is what confused him to spiral further and ignore his emotions and snort coke. Because that's the best thing he can do, run away.

Why is sand so important to ray ? I said in an another post that sands generosity is out of the ordinary. He's mature for his age in a way that makes me feel like he has known an addict before.

And ray needs that. He doesn't need enablers. he needs someone to physically stop him from taking it. Or atleast make him realise that what he is doing is dangerous. And sand is the one who's going to do it.

Thing is it's not sand's job to do it. But till ep 8 he was choosing to be that person. Saying that ray is forcing sand to do something is just taking away the agency from sand. He's not a kid. He's making his own decisions.

And if he is helping him it won't be an easy journey. If they are bringing the addiction rehab plot line into the show then I could see a scene happening that is reminiscent of the car chase scene from euphoria.

Ahiru loves pineapple on pizza and she could never prepare herself for the look of utter disgust on Fakir’s face when he learns this fact

Dang this is intense

A crossover between Portal and Princess Tutu. This was fun! Maybe clean up later?.....Maybe.

3 More Princess Tutu Head Cannons!

Cause what else am I supposed to do with my time?

1. The Final Heart Shard is not one of Mytho's emotions

Okay, this one will take a bit of backtracking.

In the story of the "Prinze und Raben" the knight is killed by the raven. When Fakir takes over the role of the knight, the events of the story are expected to be repeated; therefore, he is fated to die. Likewise, Princess Tutu confessed her love and vanished into a speck of light in the story, so when she shows up again, she is expected to repeat history.

You still with me? Okay good.

Fakir was told that he was the reincarnation of Mytho's protector, and that's how Drosselmeyer brought the role of the knight back into the story. But what about Tutu? Tutu vanished, but Drosselmeyer didn't try to convince Duck that she was a reincarnation. Instead, he gave a piece of Mytho's heart. Why?? Can a shard of emotion from the Prince turn her into a different person?

Maybe. But What if....Whaaat if, when Princess Tutu had confessed her love to Mytho in the story, he had absorbed her essence? What if Tutu had confessed on purpose so that she could give her power to Mytho? What if she became apart of his heart so that he could better fight against the Raven?

Also, remember that Mytho can only use his pink petal powers of awesomeness after Duck returns the final shard. The same powers that Tutu can be seen using in the first episode.

I propose that the heart shard Duck possesses can turn her into Princess Tutu because it was originally of Princess Tutu.

2. Rue doesn't know how to write.

(Whoops, Headlessknight totally debunked this one! Brought up the fact that Rue can be seen reading, and writes an essay so...my bad)

This one only really matters if you also subscribe to the head cannon that Fakir and Rue are siblings (and therefore Rue has story spinner abilities), which is explained and supported very well right here --->http://princesstutu.livejournal.com/209541.html

So! What do you do when you're trying to prevent your decedents from developing their reality warping writing powers and derailing your control over Kinkan town? Why, you traumatize one of them, and then (because you're a magnificently creative jerk) you prevent the other one from ever learning how to write in the first place!

Rue was kidnapped at a young age. Its highly unlikely that the Raven would have wanted to teach her how to read or write. In fact, the opposite is much more plausible. Preventing Rue from learning how to read and write would handicap her compared to the other children, and would undermine her self confidence. The Raven would likely use it as a way of holding power over Rue.

Even if she was taught how to write at Kinkan's school, she was primarily there for ballet, and I don't imagine any of her classes would foster the flames of creative writing. (Granted, I don't know this for sure... Can anyone elaborate on what the education of a dance academy in Germany would be like???)

3. Duck uses Fakir's hair as a nest/pillow.

Fakir's hair is super-duper fluffy; therefore, after the story has ended, Duck uses Fakir's hair as a nest and later pillow.

This head cannon has no rhyme or reason. I just like the idea of it.

 Anywho, Thanks Guys and TTFN til next time :)

Princess Tutu Genderflip

So there's a gender bender Contest going on for Princess Tutu, also, there's a bit of a genderbend thing going around on tumblr. I drew some things, Just thought I might share :)

Hope you guys like um :D

Ruetho

2 Things I Appreciate about Princess TuTu

1. It's Respect towards Ballet

Barring that first episode,  the main focus of the ballet is not as a gimmick.

Dance is an art form and a style of communication. As my theatre teacher once said, "When words aren't enough, you sing. When singing isn't enough, you dance. And when dancing isn't enough, you sing and dance together."   

Throughout the show, the "fight scenes" are a "war" of ideas, and ballet is used as a conduit and punctuation for said ideas. 

The ballet is used for expression, and while magical elements do occur (for example, Tutu dancing on top of water, or practically flying, or growing plants instantaneously. (which isn't totally uncalled for given that it's taking place inside a story)) the ballet puts the characters thoughts, feelings, and beliefs center stage.

2. The Character Development

Okay, confession time.

When I was first watching Princess Tutu, THIS guy made me really upset. I stuck around for a few episodes because I wanted to see Duck and Mytho end up together, but THIS GUY. EUUUGH......

I didn't hate him (To quote Swoozie, "My gang would never let me be a hater"), but I did dislike him to an extreme degree. Like, I loathed him. So I just quit watching the show and decided that I would look at some fanart to satisfy my desire for Mytho/Duck cuteness, except.......

All y'alls just had Fakir/Duck drawings everywhere,  and to be honest, I thought you guys were crazy. 

So I just swore off Princess Tutu, until one day I decided to give it another go.

And let me tell you....

I was not disappointed.

All four of the main characters grow in some way or another. THAT guy pictured above, went from being my most disliked fictional character to my most favorite fictional character. 

The Heroine grows

The Villain-ess grows

The Jerk grows

The Prince grows

And all in ways that, to me, felt very satisfying and natural. I may be remembering this show through rose tinted glasses, but these characters were very human.

Even if one of them was technically a duck. 

I am majorly impressed by the edits in this video. It's just so pretty!

pure self indulgent posting