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Earphones On

Music to drown the noise

with earphones on the whole time

staying as far away as possible

because I knew if I heard it

I wouldn't be able to stop myself

I would eventually speak up

I would explode it all

the anger and sadness

I've been bottling it all in.

Then it would cause more hurt

everyone would be mad

because everyone thinks they're right.

So even if there's screaming at the back

I keep my earphones on

with the volume up high, ignoring reality.

I talk to you in my head more than I ever did in real life.

QUIETLY LETTING GO

If being with me, caused you to become toxic

I would gladly let go of you for you

Being beside me might have caused you your delay

Delay in your purpose for this life

I would sever our ties just so you could move forward in life

All I wish is the best for you in this life

The dreams that you have for the world

I want you to achieve them all

And if I'm the obstacle in your life

I would gladly remove myself just so you could soar higher

I love you like a friend would, a sister

If letting go of your hand was all it took

For you to break free from this stagnant life

I would do everything I could to let go of you

Even if that meant watching you succeed in life from afar

I understand the consequences of letting go of this beautiful thing

That our relationship will never be the same

I would never be able to be silly and crazy around you

Come running to you whenever my world is falling apart

But I care more about you that I'm willing to sever it

Now I see you succeeding in life

doing the things you loved doing

being able to be what you always dream of

Even though it hurts that I can't be close to you like before

It's worth seeing the genuine smile on your face that I would do it all over again.

And I wish someday I could forgive myself for loving so purely all the wrong people.

“You will search for me in another person, I promise.”

— Unknown

The hardest part about moving on is realizing that you didn't mean as much to someone as they meant to you.

I could be happy. But I think too much.

“I will not beg you for your time or try to convince you to choose me, the world is too big and I have too much to offer.”

— Unknown

On the verge

​She says she's given up on waiting for him,

She thinks it's all a pipe dream, in her head

That someone like her doesn't have the luxury to dream

To have adventures, explore and experience something new each day

To actually fall in love with what you do each day

To have him by her side, encouraging her

She was an optimistic person and somewhere,

out there, across the oceans she believed he was there

She thought she could have it all; the career, life, and relationship

But who was she kidding? Who was she to dare to dream

How can someone like her break those walls? So she gave up.

Then out of nowhere, from the other side; he talked

He said, 'I've found you, and I'll come get you'.

He waited years and years for her, searching for her

In this journey of happiness that he kept traveling

He knew she was the one to guide him in his purposes

He had it all in the past, but he wasn't happy genuinely

All because he needed someone to love him for him

When he found her, she was on the verge of giving up

He had to muster every ounce of energy he had

To reach out to her to let her know and be heard

That she was almost there, that they were almost close to each other now.

By Adia

“Someone somewhere is searching for you in every person they meet.”

— Unknown

“The devil doesn’t come dressed in a red cape and pointy horns. He comes as everything you’ve ever wished for.”

— Tucker Max

I could literally fill oceans with the love I have for you.

“I will not think less of myself just because you do not know how to love me.”

— Unknown

Sometimes you need to sleep, sleep a lot. Not to escape, but to rest your soul from your feelings. Because everything, absolutely everything devours you. Completely.

—Brain

Once

Just for once, let me be selfish for myself.

Let me focus on my goals, my needs, and my life in all

Why do I have to keep worrying about everyone

And putting myself on the back burner

Why? Because I'm supposed to care for others first?

In the midst of taking care of your mental and emotional wellbeing,

taking care of drama and arguments that has nothing to do with me

moping after their dirt and cleaning up the trash

Just so it sorts out well for them to be happy

Who's going to sort out mine?

Should I have kids myself, so I can dump my problems on them,

Do I always have to walk on eggshells around you all

Why should I let go of my dreams to fulfill yours?

Being kind and empathetic for others drains me

I hate interactions and socializing with people now.

Existing seems like a chore to me than a gift

So, please just for once let me focus on myself

My mental and emotional wellbeing needs care too

I'm not asking you to care for me,

I'm asking you to let go of your hold against me

I'm a human too

I have needs and dreams too

I also want to be healthy in mind and body too

I deserve happiness too,

Please don't cage me in anymore.

- By Adia

I wonder

I wonder if my parents ever think I'm human too

A human with a mind and not just flesh

A human who has a heart and feelings.

I wonder if my parents ever think I have dreams too

That my existence is not meant to fulfill their dreams

That they don't own me just because I come from them

I wonder if my parents ever think I'm okay, too.

That they're not the only ones who have it rough

Their words and actions towards me cut like a knife!

I wonder if my parents ever think I'm an adult too

That I've grown not only physically, but mentally

I wished they would not treat me like a kid while making decisions.

I wonder if my parents ever think there are other children who struggle like I do too

That I'm not a failure like they think I am

Comparing me to other kids who had success in their time

What do I do

How do I let it out

Where do I go to release

By Adia

I don't have the mental space or energy for writing, but the ideas are percolating and one day they will bubble over and spill out on the paper and then you'll all see!!

Storms

Amidst the storms and thunders

The battles that you're fighting in silence

getting deep and healing yourself all on your own

uncovering every trauma and insecurities within you

In this journey of letting go of grudges and bitterness

My dear, I know it's hard and painful

But I hope you know the latter is a relief,

All the burdens you piled onto yourself

When you let go of it all and forgive yourself

What a relief and peace it brings to your soul

So in this journey of uncovering that you're going through

A journey that you need to take alone

don't give up! think of your past self

keep pushing forward for your future self

And have faith for your present self

By Adia

“I love you, that means I’m not just here for the pretty parts. I’m here no matter what.”

— Claudia Gray

“How amazing is it to find someone who wants to hear about all the things that go on in your head.”

— Nina LaCour

I’m slowly learning that some people aren’t good for me, no matter how much I love them.

Why go through all of that just for it to end like it didn't mean a thing.

Full offense but your writing style is for you and nobody else. Use the words you want to use; play with language, experiment, use said, use adverbs, use “unrealistic” writing patterns, slap words you don’t even know are words on the page. Language is a sandbox and you, as the author, are at liberty to shape it however you wish. Build castles. Build a hovel. Build a mountain on a mountain or make a tiny cottage on a hill. Whatever it is you want to do. Write.

the ever terrifying and exhausting cycle of “i don’t want to share my writing bc it feels disheartening when not many people are interested in it” and “i have to post the writing for people to become interested in it”

“Please don’t expect me to always be good and kind and loving. There are times when I will be cold and thoughtless and hard to understand.”

— Sylvia Plath